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relationships

7ocs8w

(55, 60)

She told me she was excited, I was just more enthusiastic about it. I let it go, and we went out with friends for new years. I still felt this distance. New years morning we woke up, I rolled over and told her that I wanted 2018 to be the year we really focus on us, that I was excited to keep working on getting us to a good place. She didn't seem to care.

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stress

7uk84c

[20, 25]

I know there are are people who have absolutely nothing. I have clothes on my back and a roof over my head, but I’m still worried because I don’t have gas money to get to work or buy groceries. It’s just a very helpless feeling. Thanks again to anyone who is reading this. I appreciate you.

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homeless

5rdsei

[0, 4]

The list I will probably choose from right now is Santa Monica, Orange, Costa Mesa, Santa Ana, or Long Beach. I've lived in the city for a bit before and I like the more inner-city of LA but I think I need a change so I'm looking for a more coastal area to find a minimum wage job, settle in, and potentially seek housing in eventually. Don't have much interest in SD, nor in going up north to San Fran. Hoping to get some input from you guys and it is very much appreciated.

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domesticviolence

7iphly

[80, 85]

I had bought our son a special outfit themed from the movies just for this occassion. Neither of us got much sleep that night, and when I tried to talk to him in the morning about leaving, he got really agitated and raised his voice to me. Our daughter ran into her room and I found her hiding under her covers. After again trying to talk to him, he ended up refusing to go, I'm still not sure why. He then ignored me for days again, we again briefly made up for my son's birthday, and started fighting again not long after.

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assistance

9jgd9m

[45, 50]

I need to make a decision now. My whole course of life is depending on the wisdom of redditors. share with me your thoughts so that i may add to my own. please help. Thanks for your time.

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ptsd

9kaksy

[0, 5]

So I've basically got a plan: hoard all my drugs until Tuesday, OD that night with a combo of slit wrists and maybe even hanging. I want it to be damn efficient, because this is trial number 13. These are the thoughts I've been having lately. My last attempt was at a hospital, just a few days ago, but I lied and told them it was my anxiety that led me to self-harm. They discharged me.

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ptsd

7mlu4n

(3, 8)

I never thought I’d be in a situation like that in my life and the screaming and blood and chaos following it is just on a constant repeat in my head that won’t stop. I had to give 4 separate statements to the police which burned it from start to finish in my brain and it doesn’t stop. I don’t know if that’s just because it was less than 24 hours ago and I’m still just in shock? It’s just a lot to take in right now and I’m not sure what to do. I apologize for any formatting issues because I’m on mobile/ sounding incoherent I’m just kind of numb after all this and unsure what to do.

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relationships

7s93hq

[17, 22]

(I see a therapist weekly.) I really don't want to give up on this, but i don't know how to feel better. Any help is appreciated. --- tl;dr i have relationship doubts and anxiety/depression and I want to love my boyfriend but i'm not sure if I do.

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relationships

7sbhfb

[15, 20]

So here’s he thing. I do have feelings for him. They just aren’t the intensity level I’m used to feeling when I fall for some one. I normally have this sense of urgency. Its this “Crazy about you/can’t live with out you” type feeling.

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ptsd

6jcuct

[0, 5]

Ugh. I just need to tell people who I know will understand what happened. If you can relate, offer support, anything... that would be appreciated. I've been dealing with this disease for years now, and I just had the worst flashback I've ever had. My boyfriend had a long day and was going to sleep before me.

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assistance

6fdz4e

[20, 25]

I refuse to hurt them like that. But I won’t give up, either. Literally all I want is to have them back half the time, so I can go to the beach with them, and to be licked to death, and not have enough room in my bed. I don't dream of cars, or millions of dollars, or girls. I dream of seeing them again.

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ptsd

9qlau1

[2, 7]

I used to take sleeping pills that had a bit of anti anxiety medicine in them but my pcp drug tested me and because I had been found to have been smoking weed , ( for my ptsd ), it was either stop coming their for the sleeping pills or weed. I chose weed mostly because I was pissed they drug tested me for one but also weed seems to do the best for me. Now im regretting that decision. I guess I need a new pcp huh? Anyway its a reddit until I dont feel like a deer in headlights kind of night so whoopee.

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domesticviolence

6fmva2

(2, 7)

Every time I tell him to leave he threatens to harm my pets or take them and release them to the wild (I have ferrets.... they CANNOT survive in the wild where I live) or he goes into rants about how useless I am and how I couldn't survive without him and somehow he worms his way back in for fear he might be right. TLDR; need him out. He threatens animals. **REALLY** don't wanna involve police. What do I do?

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relationships

7ql4wg

(10, 15)

My mom has always been a pushover and is known to give him money with no questions asked. Last night, my brother sent a group message to me and my sisters telling us to not tell our parents anything he is saying and that he loves us very much. He says he started selling drugs recently to make more money and some of his supply was stolen and now he's afraid his "friend"/dealer will come after him. I offered to let him spend the night at my house if he felt unsafe, but he declined my offer and said that he'll take care of it. I tried to reassure myself that no dealer will kill someone over a missing gram of pot (he was advertising on snapchat) and I went to bed hoping that he would just get roughed up if anything.

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assistance

6sz0yq

[5, 10]

I had to do some other repairs (thanks potholes!) that put me even further behind on payments. I can do the brakes myself to save money. I have a friend with jacks and tools. I just really need help getting the brakes, I'm actually getting worried about them now, starting to get spongy.

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survivorsofabuse

7w6cgi

(55, 60)

Kinda. But now it’s just weird. He buys us matching clothes, tries to get us to do the same shit, constantly insists that we’re so similar, etc. They try to hold my hands when we go out, and when I told my dad I needed her to stop being so touchy with me, he guilt tripped the fuck out of me. I’m 19 in a few days, I need to get out of here, but I feel so fucking guilty.

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1.6

1.90013

0.9

5

4.105687

-0.211111

anxiety

9ms6sy

[4, 9]

Im positive the 2 panic attacks and the following brain fog is anxiety based because like i said I've had mild anxiety in the past and i don't think i have any other issues. Anyways i was wondering if its normal to feel spaced out and a little slow/ tired a few days panic attacks. I haven't touched weed since but i still feel spaced out. Any insight would be appreciated. I also noticed when i don't focus on my worry i feel a little better

1,191

1

0.666667

1,539,113,086

3

4.423993

86

21.82

1.86

99

1

17.2

15.12

93.02

53.49

16.28

13.95

0

2.33

6.98

8.14

12.79

4.65

9.3

3.49

24.42

6.98

2.33

1.16

3.49

11.63

3.49

8.14

5.81

2.33

0

1.16

0

22.09

9.3

3.49

2.33

4.65

1.16

4.65

5.81

0

1.16

4.65

2.33

1.16

0

4.65

0

1.16

2.33

0

5.81

15.12

0

17.44

2.33

9.3

6.98

0

1.16

0

1.16

10.47

4.65

0

4.65

0

1.16

2.7143

2.8571

2.6

1

1.7341

1.53421

1.84813

1

15

6.14478

0.005051

ptsd

8eywid

(0, 5)

Hey Reddit PTSD - I am an independent documentary filmmaker working on a series of shorts in Amsterdam about emotional memory disorders, including PTSD. I heard about your subreddit from my brother. It's really cool that you've built a community of support here. I'm posting here because I'm looking for people in and around Amsterdam - or people who might want an excuse to visit Amsterdam! - who have PTSD, and would be willing to participate in this documentary project.

38,141

0

1

1,524,705,926

7

8.998889

77

60.21

85.07

18.34

49.97

15.4

27.27

83.12

54.55

15.58

9.09

6.49

0

2.6

0

6.49

5.19

18.18

11.69

7.79

5.19

0

19.48

3.9

0

2.6

0

1.3

5.19

2.6

1.3

0

16.88

1.3

0

1.3

10.39

1.3

2.6

0

2.6

3.9

1.3

0

5.19

2.6

1.3

0

1.3

0

2.6

10.39

1.3

7.79

1.3

6.49

0

2.6

0

3.9

0

1.3

0

18.18

5.19

2.6

0

1.3

3.9

0

5.19

0

2.5714

2.6667

3

1.375

1

1.66606

1.53559

1.96303

1

9

9.95763

0.076786

assistance

85ix57

(5, 10)

I have a cat and a dog. Without going too much into my personal circumstances, I am being forced to leave my residence very soon. I have no family or friends able to take me or my animals in. I think I may be able to leave my dog where he is currently for a few months. My cat is a 9 year old spayed female.

48,341

0

0.833333

1,521,460,907

35

2.011818

66

31.44

4.8

99

25.77

13.2

10.61

87.88

59.09

18.18

16.67

0

1.52

0

6.06

10.61

12.12

6.06

4.55

3.03

19.7

4.55

0

1.52

3.03

1.52

0

7.58

1.52

9.09

1.52

0

4.55

0

4.55

0

9.09

3.03

1.52

0

16.67

4.55

16.67

4.55

7.58

0

1.52

3.03

0

9.09

7.58

1.52

0

2.625

2.75

3

1.2308

1.1429

1

1.78547

1.6931

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0.83

18

4.397394

0.1

anxiety

8ipsca

[0, 5]

First time posting here so I apologize if I am breaking any rules. I have been taking Sertraline (Zoloft) for about 10 years now. At my lowest points, I was taking 200 mg a day but I have been stable on 150 mg a day for a while now. I would like to one day be off of it completely, but I know that will take a lot of time and work. My question is, can anyone tell me their experiences with withdrawal symptoms?

1,299

0

0.8

1,526,061,356

1

2.344643

84

31.16

17.04

96.82

25.77

16.8

11.9

88.1

58.33

16.67

13.1

11.9

0

1.19

3.57

4.76

11.9

13.1

7.14

0

17.86

1.19

0

5.95

2.38

1.19

0

1.19

5.95

0

11.9

2.38

0

2.38

5.95

1.19

3.57

1.19

0

3.57

0

3.57

0

9.52

0

2.38

3.57

0

3.57

14.29

1.19

16.67

0

4.76

11.9

1.19

0

11.9

4.76

3.57

0

1.19

0

2.38

0

2.7143

2.5

2.8

1.125

1

1.67053

1.45634

1.86602

1

0

3.699524

0.175

anxiety

7syjio

[5, 10]

It makes me so disappointed in myself because I hate what I've become and I hate feeling so helpless. I'm to the point where I'm afraid, not knowing why. Most days I end up crying at work. I have no friendship or relationship with those I work with and cannot feel comfortable around them. There's even an awkwardness with my manager who only talks to me to criticise and complain, and just before my holiday she gave me an informal warning.

1,808

1

1,516,907,953

1

5.124341

81

7.43

6.93

99

1

16.2

18.52

97.53

65.43

24.69

19.75

17.28

0

1.23

4.94

3.7

13.58

8.64

11.11

9.88

3.7

19.75

4.94

2.47

4.94

0

1.23

12.35

1.23

11.11

1.23

3.7

9.88

0

1.23

0

13.58

4.94

3.7

0

2.47

0

3.7

2.47

0

2.47

0

8.64

1.23

2.47

3.7

0

1.23

17.28

0

11.11

0

7.41

3.7

1.23

0

13.58

6.17

2.47

0

4.94

0

3

2.8

3

1

1.125

1

1.74506

1.544

1.89457

1

5.916279

-0.28125

ptsd

62594u

(0, 5)

Can you contribute your story alongside others who have been/ are going through recovery? I am developing a storytelling and mental health platform with the ultimate aim of curating a museum exhibition. Soul relics Museum is a platform for people to read and tell stories of mental health through objects that help them connect or express to a present or past experience they have had with their mental health. It’s a unique and creative idea to help people come forward and share with others what mental health problems have been like for them and a safe and constructive way to read of others experiences while being brave enough to share your own. Together, we can create a collective voice in raising awareness and education on mental health!

3,369

0

1

1,490,773,072

8

13.963281

127

76.82

92.17

15.7

90.62

25.4

22.05

88.98

50.39

12.6

7.09

0.79

2.36

0

3.15

5.51

6.3

14.17

10.24

0

7.87

0

13.39

7.09

1.57

0

5.51

4.72

0.79

0

15.75

0

7.87

1.57

0.79

1.57

0

3.94

2.36

0

0.79

0

4.72

0

3.94

0

0.79

9.45

4.72

2.36

0

1.57

3.15

11.02

0.79

9.45

2.36

5.51

3.15

2.36

0

0.79

0

6.3

2.36

0.79

0

0.79

0

0.79

0

0.79

2.7778

2.8889

3

1.125

1.1818

1

1.82634

1.53514

1.95489

1

2

11.817438

0.142857

survivorsofabuse

8c2mua

[28, 33]

Idk Do I tell someone? Do I just quit? Do I talk to her about what she did? Please, any advice would be really really helpful to me!

282

1

1,523,653,647

9

-1.108571

28

1

36.03

13.15

99

7

7.14

100

75

32.14

25

17.86

0

7.14

0

7.14

0

10.71

21.43

14.29

0

3.57

28.57

3.57

0

3.57

0

3.57

7.14

0

25

0

7.14

0

17.86

0

3.57

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0

7.14

0

7.14

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0

3.57

21.43

0

3.57

0

3.57

0

3.57

17.86

0

3.57

0

10.71

3.57

0

2.5

2.625

2.6

1.25

1.3

1

1.79083

1.47407

1.99489

0.91

8

1.89

0.25

anxiety

93kjrt

(11, 16)

I know that I can't be unemployed forever but I'm just too anxious to really do anything. And everyone in my family keeps asking what my plan is and I keep lying because saying I've got nothing is just too humiliating. I'm just stuck. Have any of you gone through something similar, and have any advice? I appreciate it.

10,158

1

1,533,087,161

41

2.959048

59

1

15.45

94.33

1

11.8

20.34

100

66.1

27.12

16.95

15.25

0

1.69

0

10.17

0

6.78

15.25

10.17

8.47

3.39

30.51

3.39

1.69

0

3.39

6.78

1.69

5.08

3.39

0

11.86

1.69

0

22.03

3.39

1.69

0

6.78

5.08

1.69

0

1.69

0

6.78

1.69

0

5.08

22.03

1.69

6.78

1.69

3.39

1.69

0

16.95

6.78

1.69

0

1.69

0

6.78

0

2.6667

2.625

2.6

1

1.1429

1

1.68273

1.31034

1.8672

0.99

11

5.549444

-0.016667

ptsd

8r3js2

[12, 17]

In some ways, I can handle it more than the average person who hasn't gone though such a trauma. Sometimes it's hard to remember that, though, when you're breaking down over some otherwise harmless feedback. I'm tired of people misunderstanding. I'm tired of feeling weak and broken. I'm just tired.

878

1

0.6

1,528,996,079

55

4.523929

50

13.41

15.86

99

1

10

18

94

54

18

10

8

0

2

0

8

4

14

10

2

18

4

0

8

6

0

4

0

8

0

22

6

0

6

0

10

4

0

4

8

0

8

0

6

0

6

0

4

14

0

12

2

6

4

2

0

28

10

6

0

12

0

2.7143

2.4286

3

1

1.62085

1.43636

1.72089

0.96

17

4.792286

-0.207222

relationships

7si8v2

[50, 55]

Now that I'm approaching middle age, I want to tell myself that they're just busy and don't have time to reply. But how long does it take to write a short email or make a brief phone call? Something specific *must* have happened to get them all to turn it off at once. For the life of me, I can't think of what it might have been. And that's what bothers me.

1,979

1

0.833333

1,516,745,729

2

3.274935

72

17.96

28.91

91.31

8.95

14.4

6.94

100

63.89

22.22

9.72

8.33

0

1.39

12.5

4.17

13.89

15.28

4.17

6.94

2.78

27.78

5.56

1.39

4.17

1.39

0

1.39

0

1.39

0

9.72

0

16.67

1.39

2.78

4.17

1.39

0

1.39

0

1.39

0

1.39

0

5.56

0

1.39

4.17

0

2.78

25

2.78

18.06

4.17

6.94

8.33

2.78

0

19.44

5.56

2.78

0

1.39

0

6.94

0

2.78

2.8333

2.625

2.8

1.125

1.1429

1

1.70129

1.4697

1.79052

0.67

6

3.748468

0.007143

domesticviolence

78iim7

(10, 15)

Not because I didn’t have evidence, but because none of the evidence was permissible in court. My last order of protection was denied. I’m a survivor of childhood incest. It just seems like no one cares or wants to care about the psychological repercussions any of this abuse has on people. And I’m the one to blame for not being a perfectly normal person.

13,704

1

1,508,876,378

14

5.445672

64

63.62

4.3

74.76

55.21

12.8

17.19

96.88

59.38

9.38

6.25

0

3.12

7.81

17.19

12.5

3.12

7.81

20.31

1.56

0

3.12

7.81

4.69

3.12

0

3.12

0

4.69

0

20.31

4.69

3.12

1.56

4.69

1.56

7.81

0

1.56

0

1.56

0

9.38

0

3.12

4.69

1.56

6.25

12.5

1.56

7.81

0

3.12

1.56

0

14.06

7.81

1.56

0

4.69

0

2.8571

2.5

3

1

1.2222

1

1.73564

1.46923

1.75248

1

19

6.367343

0.0875

relationships

7ro6hl

[57, 62]

already a few months in. Any advice on if/how this can improve or if I should just cut my loses before I get too invested? Thanks everyone! TL;DR boyfriend currently has no motivation to move his life or our relationship forward, should I stick around and keep trying or accept incompatibilities? Am I asking for too much?

207

1

0.8

1,516,422,261

1

5.402586

59

14.04

30.55

84.61

57.83

11.8

16.95

94.92

55.93

15.25

11.86

8.47

1.69

0

1.69

0

3.39

1.69

10.17

8.47

10.17

11.86

1.69

20.34

3.39

1.69

0

5.08

8.47

5.08

3.39

0

1.69

11.86

0

1.69

0

3.39

22.03

3.39

6.78

11.86

1.69

8.47

0

3.39

0

3.39

0

15.25

5.08

6.78

1.69

15.25

0

15.25

3.39

6.78

8.47

3.39

0

1.69

0

13.56

1.69

0

1.69

5.08

1.69

0

1.69

2.8333

2.4444

3

1

1.1429

1

1.70168

1.48679

1.90122

0.67

6

6.430552

-0.01

ptsd

5mau6z

(10, 15)

And everyone was passive aggressive. The manager tried to peg down my salary multiple times like a fucking haggler at a market. Anyway, I decided to go get some antidepressants and the bottle fell out of my pocket, a coworker noticed and reported it to my boss. Who smiled and asked if there was anything I'd like to tell her. The passive aggressive shit really got to me, and then I realized that I was being illegally paid.

32,975

0

0.6

1,483,668,840

2

6.740886

78

64.27

22.08

63.54

1

15.6

21.79

93.59

57.69

17.95

11.54

10.26

0

1.28

0

6.41

7.69

14.1

6.41

3.85

8.97

0

20.51

3.85

2.56

1.28

0

2.56

6.41

1.28

5.13

0

5.13

0

7.69

0

1.28

0

10.26

3.85

0

1.28

3.85

1.28

2.56

0

3.85

1.28

0

10.26

0

1.28

6.41

2.56

0

14.1

3.85

1.28

8.97

2.56

3.85

2.56

7.69

0

3.85

0

3.85

2.56

0

1.28

11.54

6.41

3.85

0

1.28

0

2.8333

2.8

3

1.2

1.1

1

1.75028

1.55522

1.88755

1

4

7.898582

-0.093651

ptsd

8oj6uc

[25, 30]

The following week, my mom let me use her car to drive my brother to another city for an appointment. The car is going to be mine when she buys herself a new one, so I was really excited about driving it around more often. Everything was fine until I got to the actual city and then a woman drove through a red light and hit my mom's car. I held myself together because my younger brother was with me and he has his own depression to deal with, he didn't need to see his sister break down. The car was still driveable, so I dropped him off and his appointment and then had my meltdown in the drivers seat while explaining everything to my mom.

1,028

1

0.857143

1,528,133,709

5

10.099609

126

34.21

59.4

84.08

39.99

25.2

16.67

92.06

61.9

21.43

18.25

11.11

0

7.14

0

3.17

7.14

13.49

7.94

6.35

10.32

0.79

15.87

4.76

1.59

0.79

1.59

2.38

1.59

0.79

0

0.79

15.87

4.76

0

6.35

7.14

0.79

1.59

0.79

1.59

2.38

0

5.56

3.17

0

0.79

1.59

0

7.14

4.76

2.38

21.43

7.14

5.56

7.94

0

0.79

0

8.73

3.97

3.17

0

1.59

0

2.7

2.9091

3

1

1.1429

1

1.74234

1.73274

1.91076

1

4

9.697125

0.206589

homeless

9kss0a

(10, 15)

I refuse to carry both of us anymore and I'm also tired of the drama between us as well. So, part of me hopes he doesn't pay the rent and that'll give me my push to really move on. Anyway, I'm ok with going to a shelter, but I worry about my laptop. I remember when I was living in a shelter when I was a kid, they didn't allow you to have certain items. I don't want to part with my laptop for them to keep it safe and it gets "lost".

24,421

0

0.6

1,538,501,969

3

2.615152

93

20.06

22.59

78.86

83.22

18.6

6.45

96.77

66.67

24.73

20.43

13.98

2.15

1.08

2.15

4.3

5.38

18.28

9.68

8.6

9.68

3.23

23.66

3.23

1.08

2.15

0

3.23

7.53

5.38

2.15

1.08

0

1.08

9.68

0

1.08

8.6

1.08

2.15

1.08

3.23

0

2.15

0

2.15

0

8.6

2.15

1.08

3.23

1.08

5.38

13.98

2.15

10.75

4.3

3.23

1.08

2.15

0

3.23

0

1.08

18.28

5.38

4.3

0

2.15

6.45

0

2.6667

2.7143

3

1.1

1

1.68961

1.49048

1.897

1

4

4.909646

0.202857

ptsd

8m4cm8

(15, 20)

Kyle got out and started contacting me again, writing letters to “prove he still knew where I lived”, and “being able to get in touch with me regardless of me blocking him”. I have some friends in the police force near me, who I informed of the situation. About the same time I started talking to them, Kyle was put in jail for separate reasons. Since these two events, he has stopped contacting me (thank Christ.) James knows about Kyle, but I haven’t told James about the most recent developments because he has had a lot going on (a death in the family, health issues, among others).

15,178

1

0.8

1,527,275,742

1

9.3875

107

78.73

35.41

96.35

42.74

21.4

15.89

87.85

54.21

16.82

14.02

9.35

0

3.74

0.93

2.8

6.54

17.76

6.54

5.61

3.74

0.93

20.56

2.8

1.87

0.93

2.8

0.93

0

10.28

0.93

0

3.74

14.95

4.67

3.74

0.93

2.8

0.93

3.74

0.93

0

0.93

1.87

0

1.87

0

7.48

1.87

0.93

1.87

0.93

9.35

6.54

0.93

18.69

1.87

9.35

7.48

2.8

0.93

0

0.93

0

20.56

4.67

7.48

0

3.74

0.93

3.74

0

2.625

2.7

3

1

1.2857

1

1.75744

1.66437

1.86982

0.67

4

8.021037

0.166667

anxiety

6tabku

[10, 15]

I feel like I let my colleagues down and I was scared that I would be reprimanded, thankfully the owners were understanding. I have never had an optimistic outlook on travelling. I've never travelled further than a province or two and it makes me so nervous and anxious just thinking about it. My first instinct is to say thank you for the offer, but my answer is no. One of the owners came to talk to me and explained how great of a worker I am and how appreciated I am around the office.

1,872

0

0.6

1,502,565,105

1

5.772877

94

18.64

14.37

96.52

66.07

18.8

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0

1.06

0

3.19

7.45

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3.19

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3.19

0

8.51

5.32

3.19

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8.51

0

1.06

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1.06

2.13

3.19

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8.51

1.06

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4.26

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0

5.32

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3.19

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8.51

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2.7143

2.8

3

1

1.74772

1.44286

1.92833

1

2

6.608158

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food_pantry

8kcw8e

[5, 10]

Any help would mean the world to me.. not sure how else to pull this off. Edited to fix wish list link- I’ve never had to this before and apparently I suck at it. **wishlist link removed. Thank you again from the bottom of my heart for your assistance. I will be paying it forward as soon as humanly possible.

118

0

0.571429

1,526,647,652

13

0.990861

60

46.67

25.24

99

57.28

10

11.67

95

60

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8.33

0

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0

6.67

3.33

20

8.33

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1

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assistance

9log9s

(0, 5)

First, thanks to everyone that submitted a request. There were a lot of great requests and I wish that I could fulfill them all. If you didn't win this time please keep visiting /r/assistance as I'm sure we'll be be back with more laptops to giveaway in the near future! Winners announced below are subject to verification of their details as outlined in the original post. If you have not replied to the IM you received from me within 24 hours you will be disqualified and another person in need will be selected.

36,175

0

1

1,538,761,221

11

8.421031

94

47.78

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18.8

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11.7

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2.5556

3

1.125

1.1429

1

1.65667

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1

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relationships

7ra6gr

[50, 55]

(felt kinda awkward, but they know i dont want her any harm, but have to protect myself now) I still feel like crap for ending it right before her surgery. When she got angry she also insults me for that, that she can never forgive me that ive done this at this time. 2 minutes later she apoligizes for saying that. Shes really struggeling.

2,429

0

0.8

1,516,287,172

299

4.11

64

1.8

50

74.76

1

16

12.5

95.31

62.5

32.81

21.88

9.38

0

10.94

1.56

10.94

0

10.94

9.38

6.25

3.12

17.19

4.69

1.56

9.38

1.56

7.81

1.56

4.69

0

18.75

0

9.38

0

17.19

6.25

0

1.56

3.12

1.56

4.69

0

1.56

3.12

1.56

0

3.12

0

1.56

4.69

14.06

0

17.19

0

3.12

14.06

0

3.12

1.56

0

14.06

6.25

4.69

0

3.12

0

2.7143

2.5

2.8

1

1.68219

1.51481

1.87264

0.92

56

4.43003

-0.235714

ptsd

6hw1ys

[20, 25]

I have trouble connecting to it on a personal level, but isn't that healthy separation of past/present? I think my present anxieties/self image issues stem from traumatic experiences, but I can talk about these things fairly openly in a way that feels rehearsed. I had a panic attack where I felt terrified and unable to move at my psych's this past Tuesday, but that's not typical for me, at least not anymore? I realized most my recent "panic attacks" may be "breakdowns" because it's not accompanied by a sense of fear, but pent up emotions I haven't been able to release resulting in a sudden loss of control... I start hyperventilating, screaming, and unleash all this pent up fury to the point where I feel detached from my emotions/self and have no control, start throwing things or hurting myself, until I'm exhausted and suddenly shut down/dissociate.

1,469

1

0.8

1,497,736,417

1

12.432885

150

43.85

2.7

99

1

30

23.33

89.33

54

18

10.67

0

7.33

4

14

8.67

2.67

7.33

4

13.33

6

2

1.33

0

2

11.33

0.67

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2

1.33

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16.67

4

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8

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12

0.67

18.67

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10

8

0

20

3.33

6

0

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2.67

4

0

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2.8571

3

1

1.1429

1

1.79185

1.57538

1.83619

1

0

11.417949

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assistance

5ouwme

[5, 10]

I wanted to go to this art school in an expensive city only because this place is wayyyyyyy cheaper then most art schools and it has all the majors I'm interested in, which I could use for like storyboards for movies and what not. They have really nice dorms and if I could just get the funding for school I could do that, but I have really bad mental illness and I need my cat, he checks to make sure I'm breathing at night and comforts me during panic attacks. Which means I'd need an apartment, and a job. I'm not against working my ass off, I'm just getting down right now, no responses to applications can do that. I'm in a state that doesn't even have a real art school.

423

1

1,484,805,084

2

6.686925

131

20.45

2.84

57.52

39.41

26.2

13.74

95.42

61.83

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12.98

11.45

0

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16.03

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2.8571

3

1

1.125

1

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2

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0.080014

anxiety

5lxfq0

(20, 25)

For the last week, my car has been acting up. Yes, it's 16 years old but the only other person to have the car before I did was my 85 year old grandmother who only drove it to either the grocery store or the thrift store, so I got it almost brand new. But lately everything g has been going wrong. The gas gage doesn't work, the dash lights don't work, my tires need to be filled at least once every day, the brakes go out often, my battery won't start if it gets too cold, and now the transmission is starting to have issues. Without a job, I don't have money to pay to fix everything.

13,419

1

1,483,509,575

8

6.341257

117

40.32

11.58

94.81

14.06

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55.56

12.82

5.98

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11.11

0

1.71

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1

1.7119

1.59596

1.81474

1

4

6.654754

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relationships

7pg3a7

(125, 130)

It was no longer just about the life and love we were building together. It was no longer about us, it was about me and trying to fill this hole within myself. If she would just want me, make me feel wanted, I could baptize myself in it and finally let go of all this guilt and self-hatred. This male shame. It’s complicated.

37,696

1

0.8

1,515,596,406

0

3.475231

64

2.98

50

35.37

1.42

12.8

7.81

98.44

65.62

26.56

14.06

9.38

3.12

0

1.56

0

12.5

1.56

10.94

12.5

9.38

7.81

3.12

21.88

4.69

3.12

0

1.56

6.25

1.56

4.69

3.12

1.56

0

10.94

0

1.56

15.62

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7.81

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0

1.56

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0

1.56

0

9.38

6.25

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0

7.81

0

14.06

1.56

10.94

1.56

0

1.56

0

15.62

7.81

4.69

0

1.56

0

1.56

0

3

2.6364

3

1

1.1429

1

1.68032

1.50169

1.87989

0.25

7

4.003077

0

ptsd

7vpmvv

[0, 5]

I sometimes call it "fight mode". Extensive martial arts background has turned negative adrenalized states from inward, depressive vulnerability to external, physical reactivity. I describe it as feeling like I'm in a fight (physiologically) though I am sitting still or trying to sleep. Loss of fine motor skills, hypervigilance, scanning all surroundings and people as if they are about to hit me and I have to hit back. I could be stretching, but I feel like this "fight" response as opposed to my old "flight" or "freeze" response has effected even the emotional aspects of my attacks.

1,558

0

0.571429

1,517,943,583

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46.72

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1

19.4

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87.63

50.52

14.43

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0

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8.25

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1.03

9.28

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15.46

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0

2.7143

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3

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12

8.961633

0.024074

survivorsofabuse

6yz0rc

[125, 130]

She wrapped her arms around me and cried for dear life I growled at him to stop at once for he had scared her..he tried to take her from me as he continued to yell and she would not let him touch her That was the final straw. And he saw it in my eyes. He turned into the fake man I fell in love with again, but I was done

225

0

0.666667

1,504,920,383

13

3.6625

72

33.69

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24

4.17

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2.6364

3

1.125

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1

1.66646

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1.84289

1

3.885556

0

domesticviolence

9j7vl2

[25, 30]

When it is his weekend off). He grumbles and yells only on his 'nervous' days. Maybe once a week. Sometimes three days in a row. Sometimes it is two weeks of not yelling.

1,968

1

0.6

1,538,006,070

6

0.424545

33

47.97

61.92

93.94

1

6.6

18.18

93.94

54.55

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9.09

0

9.09

0

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0

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0

36.36

0

9.09

27.27

0

3.03

0

24.24

15.15

0

6.06

3.03

0

2.7778

2.375

3

1

1.1818

1

1.65814

1.56429

1.80902

1

9

0.929455

0

anxiety

6097xc

(21, 26)

I've been crying myself to sleep ever since I came back. I'm scared something terrible will happen to them and I can't stop feeling guilty about cutting contact with them for the past several months. My mind keeps replaying awful scenarios over and over again. I can't stop thinking about these terrible thoughts. :(

39,461

1

1,489,913,552

3

4.556316

54

34.9

6.93

99

1

10.8

20.37

92.59

55.56

20.37

16.67

12.96

0

3.7

1.85

16.67

7.41

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3.7

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1.85

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0

12.96

3.7

0

1.85

5.56

0

1.85

0

14.81

5.56

1.85

0

1.85

3.7

1.85

0

1.85

0

7.41

0

3.7

0

3.7

5.56

11.11

1.85

20.37

1.85

5.56

14.81

0

1.85

0

1.85

0

14.81

7.41

0

7.41

0

2.7143

2.7

3

1

1.3

1

1.71159

1.628

1.76056

1

4

4.055351

-0.53

relationships

7r4mzg

[17, 22]

Before I knew at least I stood out from the girls he followed, now I kinda feel like a shitty clone or something. I dont know. I dont have a type or follow eyecandy so I dont really understand. Help me make sense of it? Tl;dr: my bf changed his preference in women and now I feel like a shitty clone

1,869

1

0.571429

1,516,225,971

0

0.288772

62

35.22

3.82

99

1.23

12.4

9.68

93.55

58.06

20.97

17.74

14.52

0

3.23

0

3.23

6.45

12.9

6.45

4.84

24.19

3.23

6.45

0

1.61

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0

3.23

0

3.23

0

9.68

0

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22.58

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6.45

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4.84

6.45

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0

3.23

6.45

4.84

1.61

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4.84

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3.23

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6.45

19.35

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14.52

4.84

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6.45

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4.84

1.61

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2.7273

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3

1

1.1429

1

1.76509

1.54583

1.96365

0.45

13

2.910089

-0.05

domesticviolence

6uoe8g

[100, 105]

Is this what a guy who loves you deserves? Is this my punishment for life? Doesn’t some part of you feel something for me? I see you and Jane are out tonight so as I sit here alone and dying inside knowing that the most important thing in my life is leaving me and I’ll never even see you again, doesn’t something inside you feel just a morsel of empathy and reciprocal love back for me and to me and want to give me some chance? Why do I have to be destroyed for this?

601

1

1,503,139,191

6

3.304592

95

9.4

54.2

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25.77

19

11.58

95.79

68.42

26.32

16.84

11.58

0

5.26

0

9.47

3.16

14.74

10.53

8.42

3.16

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3.16

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3.16

0

4.21

6.32

3.16

0

2.11

1.05

10.53

0

1.05

0

1.05

12.63

3.16

1.05

6.32

1.05

0

4.21

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0

2.11

4.21

0

2.11

0

6.32

3.16

0

3.16

0

17.89

2.11

10.53

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6.32

4.21

0

1.05

0

9.47

0

1.05

0

5.26

0

3.16

0

3

2.6364

3

1

1.68791

1.48

1.92146

1

9

3.957755

0.35

domesticviolence

7cbb5z

(45, 50)

And I found as I got older, I always turned to women for support. My first marriage didn't work out, but I tried. And my second has been beautiful, we've been together for nearly 18 years, married for 16. We still have a lot of fun and while she doesn't understand what we went through first hand, she's perfectly supported me and we've built a good life together. My mum never had another relationship.

13,866

0

1

1,510,437,389

3

4.231814

74

9.1

70.57

95.33

99

14.8

16.22

95.95

56.76

21.62

18.92

10.81

5.41

0

2.7

0

2.7

10.81

13.51

4.05

9.46

4.05

22.97

5.41

2.7

1.35

6.76

2.7

8.11

0

17.57

4.05

0

5.41

0

12.16

2.7

0

2.7

4.05

2.7

1.35

0

1.35

2.7

1.35

0

21.62

12.16

6.76

0

4.05

0

16.22

9.46

0

17.57

2.7

4.05

10.81

1.35

0

20.27

6.76

0

6.76

0

3

2.4444

3

1.3333

1.2857

1

1.74377

1.57429

1.97566

1

9

5.228544

0.386667

ptsd

7v2hw8

[15, 20]

For me, that doesn't HELP AT ALL. It just makes me feel like I'm just pissing him off, and my problem has suddenly become his, minimizing my emotions about it? (I hope that makes sense). He always says I need to be protected, but he doesn't understand that it's not an imminent threat in my life anymore, but a constant struggle and disability; that my brain works and processes things differently now and always will. I just feel so very alone when I talk to him.

1,282

1

0.571429

1,517,695,812

3

6.724

86

1.8

10.05

77.74

1

17.2

16.28

96.51

65.12

29.07

18.6

12.79

0

5.81

0

10.47

2.33

9.3

10.47

9.3

3.49

19.77

1.16

0

1.16

8.14

1.16

5.81

2.33

1.16

9.3

0

5.81

19.77

5.81

2.33

3.49

1.16

3.49

4.65

0

1.16

2.33

3.49

2.33

1.16

0

6.98

1.16

3.49

0

3.49

0

20.93

3.49

11.63

0

3.49

8.14

1.16

0

1.16

0

19.77

4.65

5.81

0

1.16

0

4.65

2.33

0

3

2.8889

2.6

1

1.25

1

1.73263

1.43544

1.90659

0.81

6

6.901111

0.05

anxiety

84aay8

(2, 7)

I've been skipping my classes and haven't gone out with any of my friends because I'm afraid I'm going to get sick when I go out. I'm supposed to go visit my boyfriend at his school tomorrow (I'm on spring break and he's not) and I'm already worrying about if I'm going to get sick and if I even want to go incase I start to feel nauseous and get a bad stomach ache while I'm there.... I'm wondering if anyone else deals with a lot of nausea from their anxiety and what they do to cope with it? I'm terrified of throwing up and so this is like the worst symptom I could ever have.... plus I always have this weird feeling in my chest/throat like something is coming up or is stuck and am belching a lot, like tiny burps. I feel like I'm crumbling and am starting to really slow down... My anxiety/depression has never gotten this bad before and I've just been a sad shell in my bed, can't even find the energy to turn on my TV and pay attention to anything.

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assistance

5o4i36

(25, 30)

>This put an end to his trips outside. He has now become a house cat, staying inside. Cats transfer FIV though deep bites from other cats with it, which means at least one of his siblings also has it. Ernie being FIV means that his body is not capable of fighting off diseases. He cannot go outside because if he gets sick his body will not be able to heal, so we keep him inside.

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ptsd

9655gn

(5, 10)

i never really knew people gave a shit about me, and it really meant a lot to me; it still does. but if so many people are here for me, and things are going to be okay, why am i still afraid of them? why do i still have a pit in my stomach and why are these thoughts still clawing at the sides of my skull? why am i crying right now? i don't understand it, i don't understand my own brain and i feel like an ungrateful prick for still being shaken up so badly.

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anxiety

816kxn

[0, 4]

Has anyone else who's dealt with anxiety their entire lives become very controlling in their relationships as a way to cope? Speaking to my therapist I'm realizing that my method of coping with the intense anxiety I've faced in life was to become so organized that I thought I could control everything. But when situations arise, especially with those I'm in a relationship with where I can't control the situation, my anxiety goes out of control so I end up lashing out in negative ways. If you have found you were controlling and were able to better yourself can you please direct me on where to turn to do the same?

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relationships

7r6fsr

[35, 40]

No, not really. I thanked my boyfriend, and then immediately blurted out "how am I going to explain this to my mother?" Like I said, he's understanding, but I could see him kinda wince as he probably realized that the gifts brought me more anxiety than happiness. **I spent the next half hour desperately thinking up backstories I could use to explain to my mother why I had a brand new hat. **

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relationships

7t5r0k

[25, 30]

She also said that we may not be sexually compatible, and that its unfair on me if I stay with her and put up with it. I obviously told her I don't want to break up and she doesn't either. I offered her time alone and she was so unsure in herself that she didn't even know if she wanted to take me up on the offer. I said that I think we should wait until your appointment in March to freeze your ectropion, to see if that improves your libido. We ended up crying and cuddling each other.

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assistance

9hlgb0

[5, 10]

-student- loans and I’m living a miserable life but I’m working as much as I can without feeling 100% dead inside but I have to pay them up in a week or they default and I don’t know what to do. I would seriously do anything for anyone for the money to help me keep my head above water. I’m completely miserable and I’m trying but I’ve been even more depressed than normal and I don’t know what to do anymore. I feel like a heart attack is on my horizon. I spend the bare minimum, I starve or drink an 85 cent soda for 3-4 days out of the week.

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relationships

7q5ykm

[5, 10]

We had a lot in common and I really liked her. Then I went back to my country for Christmas holidays and I got to see her. It was really amazing and honestly it was way better than we expected. Anyway, she has good grades and she's going to apply to the US (probably the same university as mine or same city). But the problem is she will be there in fall 2019.

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relationships

7tm76a

[15, 20]

I really suck at explaining things so if you have any questions please ask. UPDATE: I gave my casual partner a vague warning about the future and how, if the time comes, I'll need to make the decision for myself. tl;dr I am stuck in a love triangle with a casual DDLG relationship on one side and sharing of mutual feelings on the other. Multiple things keep the DDLG from relationship from being public and I hate sneaking around. I want to have an open relationship with the other girl.

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relationships

7qahjl

(5, 10)

I'm 35,husband 37 I always thought it would be ideal to have two kids.. My husband was on board with the idea hypothetically but now that it's actually the time to execute he is totally opposed to the idea His reasons are 1) He feels we can't afford it...He earns pretty well but I don't at the time. So we won't be able to actually build up a major college fund for her---- I feel that she can always take a loan later but she really can't loan a sibling.

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ptsd

6c63vb

(0, 5)

Does anyone else feel the same way? I am just too numb and burned out. I can love people but I can't fall in love with them. I can't give them what they need, the regular sex or the emotional intimacy, and I just end up feeling guilty. I can get along with them just fine, I can respect them and consider their feelings, but that's not enough.

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food_pantry

7t13ph

(0, 5)

I've been reading through this sub today and thought I'd offer some help. -if you're from a different country, skip to the bottom for info on how to give me a hand to help others I consider my story an interesting one but I'll keep the story short. Most supermarkets in the UK offer a price match scheme. The commonly used one now is Asda's 'Price guarantee'.

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survivorsofabuse

9vf55w

(35, 40)

When we were leaving that place the manager was attempting to rush us to get our apartment serviced with 24 hour notices of intimidation and behaving in an angry way leaving mean voicemails and papers at our pissed on door. She yelled at my +1 that I lived with. Toward the last few months we were documenting everything and collecting paper copies of all communication that we had with her. She was another narcissistic manager and the tenant was an animal abuser. I wish there was an actual law that the ASPCA would be in partner with that coulda’ helped me and my +1 while living at the second apartment.

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anxiety

7t9x69

[5, 10]

I haven’t really complained. Only once when my gram asked me to do a million and one things in a span of a few minutes (go get this go do that) when i was already trying to setup my moms new iPad so she could watch Netflix in the hospital. That all said and done and I feel like shit. Idk if it’s sick but it also feels a hellavua Lot like anxiety. So i get my mom who’s in the apartment next door to ask her to lay with me for a few minutes.

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1

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relationships

7oo319

[10, 15]

I am lazy, this I can attest to. She brings up the Christmas tree, and how we haven't taken it down yet. I just stand in silence from her barrage, then take a bite of my sandwich. I start to take off ornaments and lay them aside. She starts to rummage around and escalate and point out things that we haven't done, getting progressively louder.

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0

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anxiety

8qeb7n

[80, 85]

Nevermind, turning it up loud. Drown everything else out. Bump. Bump. Bump.

777

0

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food_pantry

9wase0

(0, 5)

I'm a freshman in college. I had to move out asap due to a volatile home situation, and I'm still struggling with finances and figuring out the real world. I just got a job, but am currently extremely sick, and worried about starting. Even so, my phone bill is due and I won't be paid for a few weeks. Student loans don't come in until January.

25,765

1

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1

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4

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assistance

9gye33

[10, 15]

I posted about a month ago and felt pretty defeated (but very grateful to receive anything at all because one very generous gentleman gave me $100) but I am back to the end of the month with a phone bill due tomorrow and dwindling food and gas and rent approaching soon. I’m 25f and 4 months in recovery. I’m working part time to focus on recovery but trying to find a second job so I can stop finding myself in money binds. I have no friends and family to ask for money and have made literally $550 since July working for Bath and Body Works and $200 with DoorDash since August. My rent is $600 and phone bill is $55 and car insurance is $100 which I haven’t even paid this month.

1,008

1

0.571429

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6.779939

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3

1.1111

1.125

1

1.6925

1.65487

1.91425

0.48

20

7.49692

0.075

ptsd

9146s0

(20, 25)

This 100% stems from the abuse from my ex, and him training me to always be home. It home, go in my bed and lay there and watch some TV show or another while I'm on my phone. I get out of bed around 7:30ish and cook dinner. I eat dinner, then lay back in my bed until I decide to go to bed. Usually around 10pm.

35,901

0

0.8

1,532,321,510

3

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1.47

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1.375

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0.8

1

3.302145

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ptsd

7v2hw8

[10, 15]

My problem is, if I'm going to date anyone, they have to be aware that I struggle with PTSD and willing to at least be there for me when I need. I don't need coddling or protecting, I just need someone to hold my hand and let me cry it out, or help me through a flashback. I need someone who can *be* present and emotional, and someone I can feel comfortable having a conversation with about it. Everytime I have had a breakdown, and try to express things from the past, he audibly growls and talks about how pissed he is that it happened. He talks about what he'd do to my abusers if he ever found them.

478

1

0.571429

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food_pantry

9p2y0v

[10, 15]

However, the important things will be the personal care stuff, fruit, cereal, Bottle Caps and cookies/crackers. And the rest, I dunno but if it is not too expensive for you, then by all means go ahead and put it in! To make things easier for everyone here, I'll place a star by the stuff I really want. Strawberries, 2 lbs * Wonka Bottle Caps Candy, 6 oz *

1,174

0

1

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10.45

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relationships

7olymi

[10, 15]

He did not say much about it. I have Morgie's cell phone number. We aren't very close because I don't see her around much. I've only met her a couple of times before. Should I text her or call her and ask what happened that night?

746

0

1

1,515,272,882

0

0.526

46

1.23

66.81

9.25

25.77

9.2

6.52

91.3

63.04

28.26

21.74

8.7

2.17

0

10.87

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6.52

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8.7

13.04

8.7

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23.91

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4.35

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6.52

15.22

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0

4.35

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0

19.57

8.7

0

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8.7

0

2.4

2.625

2.8

1.125

1.25

1

1.68666

1.56744

1.85357

0.29

8

1.526

0.133333

ptsd

8ide8m

(40, 45)

I assumed she would answer the question, or she would explore my feelings of inadequacy, or she would interpret the transference. But her response instead was the title "I am not getting into this with you". She then went on with how she did like me, thought I was an interesting and nice person. but I do not believe that, it is too unlikely. Besides, as an addendum to her refusal to speak to my question, it seemed false.

43,123

1

0.5

1,525,941,846

8

6.323544

79

18.77

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61.71

73.09

15.8

24.05

96.2

68.35

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18.99

8.86

0

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0

5.06

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0

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0

2.75

2.7857

3

1.125

1

1.72905

1.42899

1.88474

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13

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0.05

ptsd

9jyssm

(0, 5)

Saturday, September 29 is the Bay Area premiere of WRESTLING GHOSTS, an excellent new documentary that follows Kim, a young mother, as she does the work to heal from her difficult childhood. I saw the film this week at the L.A. Film Festival. It's the first film I know of to show what healing actually looks like, the long, slow, difficult, rewarding journey. You see Kim checking off her ACE score, meeting Donna Jackson Nakazawa, and most importantly in therapy, using EFT (tapping) and neurofeedback. You see her change and grow.

52,737

0

1

1,538,241,763

3

9.528152

92

91.71

77.66

40.55

93.61

15.33

25

84.78

40.22

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0

2.17

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0

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8.7

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1.09

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3.26

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11.96

0

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0

1.09

0

22.83

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11.96

0

1.09

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0

3

2.6364

3

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1

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0.81

0

8.644696

0.118182

survivorsofabuse

9c26tq

[10, 15]

I got a very bad feeling but I at first ignored it. The babysitter was a man and someone I had never met! I was scared because I didn't know this man and I didn't understand why her Mother thought it was alright for a man to babysit 2 girls, one of them being a child he never had contact with. Her Mom proceeds to leave the house and we're there with this strange and creepy man. I was completely uncomfortable the entire time.

417

1

0.571429

1,535,798,933

17

3.137044

84

17.96

63.97

52.86

1

16.8

16.67

95.24

61.9

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0

3.57

1.19

5.95

8.33

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0

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0

2.7143

2.3636

3

1

1.2857

1

1.69273

1.55733

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0.95

2

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ptsd

97rewh

(12, 17)

I wound up in partial hospitalization and diagnosed with PTSD related to several traumas including sexual assault I experienced as a child. I asked for a meeting with all of upper management so that I can start back up at work with clear boundaries for what I won't accept anymore. This will be a good thing in the end, but right now I feel like I'm going to throw up. Meeting is in 3 hours. Send good vibes please?

45,444

1

1,534,418,398

121

5.917037

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86.49

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99

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0

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1.27

0

2.53

0

2.75

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3

1

1.1429

1

1.72908

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17

6.752691

0.271429

domesticviolence

8k6w02

(15, 20)

I was in a relationship, so I didn't really let it go anywhere, but hell, it was a new experience for me, and I liked being liked. Fast forward half a year to my breakup. She had moved to a different job, but we bumped into each other in Wal-Mart, if all places. We hit it off, and it wasn't long before a date turned into two, then more. I moved in with her, but maintained a separate apartment for a few months at her request (her family was very judgemental about 'living in sin').

6,578

0

1

1,526,584,420

3

6.200714

96

54.96

26.6

99

25.77

19.2

12.5

94.79

60.42

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0

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1.04

0

11.46

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6.25

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0

10.42

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2.08

0

1.04

0

21.88

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0

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0

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3

1

1.1429

1

1.68653

1.55122

1.85914

1

7.10502

0.157891

domesticviolence

9j7vl2

[15, 20]

His mom and aunt like me too. But there have been some dark portions of our relationships, which I am ashed to talk about. First of all, the lightest part - when he is nervous because of something, he lashes out on me in shape of harsh criticism. Or he yells. 'You always stare at your phone!!!'

244

0

0.571429

1,538,006,070

6

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20.57

1

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0

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2.6667

3

1

1.1818

1

1.73928

1.63673

1.80815

1

9

3.106571

-0.096875

ptsd

6ilwt5

[0, 5]

I recently went through an event that was extremely traumatic. Without specifying what, it was recently everywhere on the news. It's been less than a week and not even sure what I'm dealing with here but all I know is that I feel like I am being discouraged from getting help. Most of my recommendations have been people that are "off-record". I've talked a little with them and have talked amongst my friends and they say they do not feel they are any help.

1,376

1

0.571429

1,498,052,785

9

5.492652

85

14.53

31.91

94.48

10.8

17

16.47

95.29

65.88

22.35

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0

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0

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2.8889

3

1

1.70723

1.35325

1.88894

0.84

16

5.282273

0.074405

ptsd

9a3llx

[1, 6]

It’s becoming cyclical for me, where I “retreat” and revise and then feel like I need to retrigger myself to avoid slipping back into denial that it happened the way it happened. I can’t live like this. I don’t want to live a lie but sometimes the lie is what keeps me functioning. My therapist is away for a month and this means I have no one to push me to deal with this thing. I don’t know what to do.

443

1

1,535,165,407

10

4.580118

81

28.64

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2.98

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66.67

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0

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1.1818

1

1.75818

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1

9

5.338824

0.124545

relationships

7rtcl8

[35, 40]

Need to make a move now or never Update: I texted her more about it and she forgot about what happened until I reminded her! She said It’s not off the table, she just felt braver yesterday due to the liquid courage. So I just asked if she wants to hang one last time, maybe go somewhere like we did last time and have a drink and listen to music. And if something happens or doesn’t happen it doesn’t matter.

1,904

0

0.571429

1,516,484,556

0

7.21753

80

9.63

50

27.99

72.57

20

8.75

95

60

20

12.5

3.75

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0

7.5

0

6.25

5

11.25

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5

25

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0

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5

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0

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2.5

2.6

1.1111

1.2

1

1.72944

1.47941

1.82993

0.43

2

6.861536

0.14

ptsd

5zsxz1

(25, 30)

His reply: "Thanks for not punching me!" All-in-all, I like this guy, he's been an OK manager to me, I've gotten all of my raises since I've been under him, he has kids, so he understands me as a parent, etc. Am I making too big of a deal out of this? I thought about going to HR about it, but I'm in a position where I can't jeopardize this job, and I'm not the most well-liked person on the team (nothing that I did, I was hired externally for a position that 3 internals wanted), for whatever that's worth. Your thoughts?

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ptsd

660sjx

[9, 14]

Recovery feels familiar, so it's less scary, but I'm also so much more tired of it all. I want to move on. I had been able to move on! I got so much stronger! And now I'm back here, a delicate PTSD flower.

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relationships

7qdj87

(5, 10)

She still invites me to things and hasn't started dating anyone else (or even talked about it), but frankly, I'm starting to feel kind of pathetic asking her to hang out after she turned me down for the date. I do like her as a friend, but have started thinking of her as more than that and it's hard for me to ignore that when we spend time together. It's even starting to affect my self-esteem a bit, because usually if someone turns me down (no matter how reasonable the excuse) I just move on to someone else and spend less time with them, but it's a bit harder when that person is already your friend. My questions are: should I just give up on the potential of a romantic future with this person, or is it possible she's still feeling things out (like she says)? And regardless of this, should I start spending less time with her/stop inviting her to things (even if just for my own sake)?

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assistance

5z7zc5

(15, 20)

I want to move forward with my life but seem to have dug myself such a deep hole that I can't climb out. It just seems to be a vicious cycle of can't get a job because I don't have a place, get a job, can't get to job because I don't have a car or license, can't get license or car because I don't have a job. Don't even have a phone currently (this one will change soon). Can't get any assistance because I have no residency. I feel forever fucked in this spiral of shit that I myself have created but can't seem to flush.

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assistance

9m8glq

[0, 5]

A <url> has been set up and I’m hoping to help get a bit more assistance from this community. He is one of the hardest working guys I know and I love him like a brother. You can tell by the amount already raised that he is a good man who has the support and love of his community, friends and family around him. It is quite costly to transfer the remains of a loved one across the globe though and there are medical expenses and final bills on top of this that need to be paid for. Any assistance this community is willing to offer would be very much appreciated.

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0

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ptsd

9oqfi5

[10, 15]

It’s really kind of ruining my ability to empathize with some people Bc of comments they’ve made in the past. I witnessed the attempted suicide of my sister and then subsequent self harm targeting just towards myself for the purpose of manipulation and dealt with no one believing that it happened. So many people have told me be happy it was a failed attempt, failing to recognize the damage knowing someone I love could want to hurt me so badly did. Not to mention other abuse I dealt with after that. Trauma shouldn’t be a competition.

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relationships

7qvqz9

[45, 50]

I enjoy the life we've built together and think we've both grown a lot the past eight years, in positive ways. I'd hate to throw it all away, but I also can't allow myself to be disrespected anymore. Thank you for reading and for any advice you may have. --- TLDR: SO has two co-workers with romantic feelings for her, one of which I feel she emotionally cheated on me with.

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relationships

7s0lyo

(0, 5)

I'm using a throwaway for obvious reasons, however I could ready use the advice of others right now as I don't know what to do. I met this wonderful girl in November, and everything was going great, she was special enough that I let her meet my friends and family, and I met her siblings and mother as well. She had told me that she had this friend [M21] that she met online. They have never met in person, but she said it was all strictly friendship and nothing else. She mentioned how she helped him get through suicide and that he was a really good person.

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domesticviolence

8cfpou

[0, 5]

To start, I feel like I should share why I wanted to be here today to read this statement myself. For six and a half years, I was in a relationship with Luis. The first time he physically assaulted me, I was 18. That was the first time I had been knocked unconscious by another human. The choking incident that we are here for today was the first incident of domestic violence that I reported to the police.

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domesticviolence

8tk55c

[18, 23]

And we are almost out of groceries until food stamps come in on the 3rd. I don't know what to do without him but I'm covered in bruises and in so much pain. I am worried because my 9 year old watched the whole thing and was so scared she was shaking. Sorry this is so long. I guess I just needed to vent.

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ptsd

8phewt

[25, 30]

And then I just want it to go away. I dont know what to do about this, I feel like the world doesn't want me to talk about it. It's to uncomfortable for people... But I hate these feelings and they are just the tip of the iceburg that is ptsd. I felt like I needed to say something somwhere though.

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domesticviolence

6y2x5e

(40, 45)

I beg him to let go of me so I can get my phone and call my dad. I bang on the floor and scream for help to try to get the downstairs neighbours' attention. He mocks my crying and tells me he's not doing anything to me, that I'm freaking out over nothing. We're struggling against each other, his elbow hitting my face, his arm occasionally choking me. I fight hard to inch towards my phone to get help, but any time I get close he grabs my phone and throw it out of my reach.

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1

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homeless

986sln

[3, 8]

What's the best way for me to hold out for a couple days? The only things I was able to pack was some clothes and my phone. Bought some spam, figured it was going to be tasty but nah it just tastes like salt. Honestly I think the biggest thing for me is to just stay sane. Goodluck to everyone out there.

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almosthomeless

8j7hpr

(0, 5)

I am losing my place on the 20th and freaking out. I am not sure what to do as phone just got shut off and funds are depleted. The emergency funds I had are now gone as my apartment recently got broken into. I have no family and am truly at a loss here in las vegas. I feel like what might be best for me is to head back to pa where i am orignally from but without funds to pay for bus/plane out of las vegas.

20,636

1

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ptsd

7hzmyb

[6, 11]

This is just a vent. Thanks to anyone who reads this. Wish me luck with this new lady. She is also a yoga instructor. Maybe she will be good.

7

0

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domesticviolence

9fr0ba

(2, 7)

", "how about reasoning with him on that? ", "it's understandable that he is threatened by your new friendships with other women and he handles it by getting angry"... I am not being critical but I really don't think my therapist knows how to handle what I'm dealing with. I said to him yesterday, "how can I sit down and have a rational conversation with someone i don't feel safe around at times?" Have others experienced therapists who weren't helpful, or who coached you to behave in ways that would work with someone who was not abusive, and possibly put you in more danger?

39,937

1

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0.98

6.86

2.94

0.98

0

23.53

3.92

4.9

0

2.94

0

6.86

4.9

0

2.7273

2.6667

3

1

1.1429

1

1.73705

1.49485

1.83789

1

7

7.796776

0.135581

assistance

8upu1o

(3, 8)

If you have some free time please go to the following Instagram post, find my comment under the username <username>, and give it all the likes. They will choose two winners, one based on likes, another on creativity. If you have the extra time this would make my birthday and will help me to pursue my freelance video work full time. <url> Thanks internet people!

46,396

0

1

1,530,241,696

35

7.058913

65

64.27

73.08

72.65

99

16.25

15.38

90.77

43.08

15.38

10.77

6.15

0

3.08

0

1.54

4.62

6.15

7.69

0

6.15

0

21.54

4.62

0

3.08

6.15

10.77

0

12.31

0

15.38

3.08

4.62

1.54

3.08

1.54

0

9.23

3.08

4.62

1.54

0

15.38

3.08

16.92

3.08

6.15

1.54

3.08

0

1.54

0

15.38

4.62

6.15

0

1.54

0

3.08

2.6667

2.8889

3

1.375

1

1.83726

1.51923

1.97206

0.87

13

6.528804

0.2

anxiety

5rb3wx

(0, 5)

Can't put this under my true account, but I'm feeling horrible – I just completely screwed up a job application for a position I really wanted. Part of me is like "oh well not meant to be", but SERIOUSLY, the application was meticulous. My email? Nope – my computer crashed, I restarted with a draft email which I (stupidly) assumed had saved in the correct way. It hadn't.

19,356

1

1,485,897,941

2

2.267246

66

39.45

1

98.01

1.59

13.2

24.24

92.42

60.61

18.18

13.64

0

4.55

7.58

12.12

9.09

7.58

3.03

6.06

15.15

3.03

1.52

0

1.52

9.09

3.03

6.06

1.52

3.03

0

3.03

0

18.18

4.55

0

1.52

4.55

7.58

1.52

0

1.52

0

1.52

0

3.03

0

3.03

0

7.58

6.06

0

9.09

1.52

7.58

0

6.06

0

1.52

0

4.55

1.52

0

3.03

0

24.24

6.06

0

1.52

0

3.03

4.55

3.03

0

2.7143

2.4286

3

1.125

1.1818

1

1.71847

1.46786

1.90267

1

3

4.15942

-0.247222

ptsd

5y44rs

(0, 5)

The first veteran to participate in the study received the marijuana on Monday at theScottsdale Research Institute in Phoenix, Arizona, the release stated. The study is taking place in two locations: in Phoenix, led by Dr. Sue Sisley, and at Johns Hopkins University in Baltimore, led by Ryan Vandrey. The study is recruiting adult military veterans who have experienced trauma during military service. Screening for volunteers began in January. Volunteers will complete 17 outpatient visits to one of the study location clinics in a 12-week period, with a follow-up visit in six months.

29,052

0

1

1,488,927,610

32

12.121277

95

99

73.62

94.36

11.97

19

31.58

78.95

36.84

1.05

0

1.05

9.47

21.05

4.21

0

1.05

0

8.42

0

1.05

6.32

0

1.05

0

1.05

0

6.32

0

3.16

0

2.11

0

1.05

0

1.05

0

1.05

0

1.05

0

7.37

0

1.05

5.26

1.05

0

3.16

4.21

1.05

30.53

6.32

15.79

9.47

1.05

0

15.79

6.32

1.05

0

2.11

0

2.6667

3

1.3

1

1.71643

1.83333

1.8567

0.92

16

11.199447

0.15

relationships

7nhofe

[15, 20]

I told him if he’s not careful, all this attention could make her fall in love with him. For a while, I noticed the behavior stopped. He wouldn’t stay up as late, they stopped working out for a little bit, the glances and flirting stopped, and I noticed they weren’t talking as much, because they both talked to me more. However, recently it has started back up again, and almost as strongly as before. They do all the same things again, and they are always making eye contact with eachother or teasing and flirting.

2,486

0

0.8

1,514,841,312

44

8.129691

94

27.85

73.84

82.45

82.79

18.8

23.4

98.94

60.64

18.09

14.89

4.26

0

5.32

3.19

5.32

14.89

7.45

5.32

14.89

3.19

24.47

9.57

8.51

0

6.38

5.32

4.26

1.06

0

1.06

0

19.15

0

1.06

4.26

18.09

3.19

5.32

2.13

0

2.13

1.06

0

11.7

3.19

1.06

3.19

0

4.26

9.57

6.38

0

22.34

3.19

8.51

12.77

1.06

0

18.09

5.32

9.57

0

3.19

0

3

2.6364

3

1.125

1

1.72237

1.47073

1.84335

0.83

34

6.938887

0.119583

ptsd

87h9so

[5, 10]

We decided to move states together and start a new life. We don’t live together (mutual decision). He wanted to marry me etc..and I started to see a change in his behavior ever since the move. He got flustered really easily or would get angry over something simple—traffic or a common life situation. He seems to have no patience anymore, especially with me and will just shut down.

42

1

0.6

1,522,145,821

3

5.836761

70

55.47

66.59

89.63

25.77

14

18.57

90

54.29

15.71

12.86

4.29

2.86

0

5.71

0

2.86

5.71

12.86

5.71

7.14

2.86

22.86

7.14

0

2.86

1.43

0

1.43

0

12.86

1.43

0

5.71

18.57

4.29

2.86

5.71

2.86

4.29

1.43

0

4.29

0

4.29

0

12.86

7.14

0

2.86

0

5.71

12.86

1.43

24.29

5.71

8.57

0

15.71

10

1.43

0

1.43

2.86

0

2.8571

2.6667

2.8

1

1.1429

1

1.80898

1.59661

1.95914

0.72

12

7.398704

-0.035642