Yep - lots of fighting - bar fights, street fights, amongst other things (at least as a kid).<p>I turned 40 this year, so it could be an age thing.  When I was 20, I probably seemed more similar to you.  At least, I was certainly motivated by similar things.  I lifted a lot of weights (when I maxed out I weighed around 230 lb), etc. and really identified with masculinity and various male roles.<p>When I say being more male, I&#x27;m not talking about being more &#x27;feminine&#x27; (which would just be the opposite), just more Human.  For instance, in the past, I would (subconsciously) say to myself, &#x27;what is the right thing to do as a brother, father, son, husband, man?&#x27;.  Now, I say, &#x27;what actions should I take so that I enjoy my life, the people I care about, the ideas I believe in, etc.?&#x27;