I feel like I can attribute my procrastination to a few things<p>1. choice paralysis
I&#x27;m fairly certain I have a cavity in one of my teeth, I can basically see it when I look in the mirror, in addition to sensitivity to temperature. So I need to find a dentist a) in my area b) that accepts my insurance. There are multiple options. I want to know who the optimal dentist is; I want the one who can pull off a painless root canal if need be, but I definitely don&#x27;t want the one who will cause agony or perform a procedure incorrectly. I think, maybe I&#x27;ll Google them and see if I can find any reviews or other indications that one dentist is better than the next. Confronted by 20 options, I spend more time on the whole thing than I need to, optimizing the odds that I get distracted along the way.<p>2. various forms of anxiety, mostly social anxiety
I really don&#x27;t want to call and talk to a stranger on the phone to schedule that appointment. I&#x27;m not even that bad at talking to people, and yet it makes my heart race. I&#x27;m afraid to drive to places that I&#x27;ve never been, to awkwardly enter an unfamiliar building trying to figure out where to go. I&#x27;m afraid of not being able to find a parking space. I&#x27;m afraid of a lot of stupid things that don&#x27;t matter.<p>3. extreme lethargy
Is something I&#x27;ve been trying to overcome for literally years. Inadequate nutrition is the main factor in this. I am mentally and physically tired almost all of the time, to varying degrees, which slows me down, and makes it harder to focus on something. I don&#x27;t eat right, sometimes eating but a single meal in a day. Sometimes I will eat nothing substantial for an entire day. I recently tried &quot;Mealsquares&quot; (basically Soylent in solid form) as means to ensure I get all the nutrients I need. I&#x27;ve yet to be able to eat more than 2 in a day (usually just 1), which would equate to 400-800 calories at most. At 6&#x27; height, a target weight of a 170lbs requires me to consume an excess of 2000 calories per day, so imagine getting 1&#x2F;4-1&#x2F;2 of that on average per day. I don&#x27;t even know how I get through the days as well as I do, what is my body running on? I actually know how to prepare multiple meals, I just don&#x27;t. Instead of hunger making me voracious, it makes me feel lazy and depressed. If hiring a full-time cook were affordable, I would do it.<p>At the end of the day, nothing is getting done if I simply don&#x27;t have the fuel to power my body to do it.<p>Procrastination feels like a pattern, a vicious cycle that feeds on itself, a loop from which I&#x27;m trying to break free. I&#x27;m trying to reverse it and emerge on top, and it sounds like something that can be turned around in a week, but I feel like it&#x27;s been an upward battle for most of my adulthood.