Hello. I created an account on this website specifically to reply to your comment despite the fact that I usually only lurk here.<p>I read your linked blog and honestly, if that&#x27;s yours, I feel compelled to reach out to you.<p>The behavior you&#x27;ve documented (helpfully, for both yourself and others) is textbook schizophrenia.<p>The paranoia, the the voices, the &quot;I could control what showed up on tv&quot; all fits the bill for mental illness.<p>You have to learn to stop trusting your own head and document with outside sources. In the TV case, film yourself on your phone. Say what&#x27;s going to show up, then wait for it. Watch it. See if you &quot;remember&quot; being able to control it. Then watch the video back later, then realize nothing you said actually was right.<p>You&#x27;ve got to use the wonderful technological tools available to you to fight this, and included a trusted healthcare professional.<p>I&#x27;m reaching out in hopes that this helps you, not trying to troll&#x2F;insult at all. There&#x27;s no shame in what&#x27;s happening to you.<p>The only shame is that science doesn&#x27;t understand the brain well enough yet to detect&#x2F;heal these things before they impact our lives.