Fair enough. I&#x27;m the same way.<p>Somewhere along the line, though, I learned to stop caring about pretending to be excited and just accept that a majority of companies won&#x27;t hire me for what they perceive to be a lack of apathy. It&#x27;s a pretty good filter for finding companies that I&#x27;d be happy working at, but I understand that it&#x27;s not for everybody. I just hope for a much more genuine tech&#x2F;otherwise community so that I don&#x27;t have to pretend anymore. Pretending just feels like shit.<p>I&#x27;m not saying any of this under any financial comfort. I&#x27;m friggin&#x27; broke right now. Though, I&#x27;m much more content with myself, my quality of work has skyrocketed and I&#x27;ve learned to bulk cook a mean chicken thigh and lentil soup.