It's cross to bear, bear in this case being used in the same sense it is in weight bearing, Greeks bearing gifts or even ball bearing. It refers back to the Biblical tale of Jesus carrying his cross to Golgotha.
Lookin' Out My Back Door. Lookin' Out My Back Door is a song recorded by the American band Creedence Clearwater Revival, also known as CCR. The song was written by the band's lead singer, guitarist, and songwriter, John Fogerty.
Behind Closed Doors  is a country song written by Kenny O'Dell. It was first recorded by Charlie Rich for his 1973 album Behind Closed Doors. The single was Rich's first number-one hit on the country charts, spent 20 weeks on this chart, and was also a crossover hit on the pop charts. Background vocals were provided by The Nashville Edition.