Programming without the use of libraries
I have tried to learn programming a few times, my primary goal being creating  games, but I have a difficult time when libraries are introduced. I really dislike how they are used, I don't know how they work, or why, so I don't know what it's limitations and such are. It also makes the final product not really feel like, I made it.
Kinda like those cheap ship making kits. You just glue together pre-made parts. That is not how programming should be in my opinion, and I'm aware that it is much much harder, but I would like to program either without using libraries, or I would like to use libraries I make myself. 
I was hoping someone here would know a good website or book about this sort of thing.
Oh, and the language doesn't really matter, as long as it's compatible with windows.
Thanks in advance ,

Wildpiggy2006
Programming without the use of libraries
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I have tried to learn programming a few times, my primary goal being creating  games, but I have a difficult time when libraries are introduced. I really dislike how they are used, I don't know how they work, or why, so I don't know what it's limitations and such are. It also makes the final product not really feel like, I made it.
Kinda like those cheap ship making kits. You just glue together pre-made parts. That is not how programming should be in my opinion, and I'm aware that it is much much harder, but I would like to program either without using libraries, or I would like to use libraries I make myself. 
I was hoping someone here would know a good website or book about this sort of thing.
Oh, and the language doesn't really matter, as long as it's compatible with windows.
Thanks in advance ,

Wildpiggy2006