Tashi listened what Maki replied, he nodded and said; "Aye, I know that very well. In general we shinobi are expendable tools of espionage and warfare. Our daimyo is efficient but he is able perform any sacrifice without doubt in his heart to achieve his and the village goals. Very least he does not do any needless sacrifices and he calculates the benefits of such actions carefully.<br/><br/>The thing is though....just before my eyes manifested the whole notion of marriage was not obligation at all. I had not thinked marriage or marrying at all, I just thinked progress as ninja, become chuunin and then maybe jounin and then retire ever marrying someone. I became so focused in my career I became basically gender blind, a something which caused trouble for me when I was young and hitted girl's shower room deliver a urgent message." Tashi still blushes from that incident, albeit it was many years ago and when he was fresh genin...women in village do not forget it<em>never</em>. It taught Tashi be aware of gender to extend that day.<br/><br/>Tashi then continues; "However as things are now, marriage is something what must be done as my part of obligation and clan thinks by arranging harem they can have higher chance to succeed pass on true red eyes if they use multiple varied candidates. Scarily enough that is growing popular idea as so far most of the past two years was arguing on specifics of one bribe approach but if they take harem wife approach they could try all the methods in one deal!<br/><br/>A arranged marriage is already pain in ass to both groom and bribe and I had mentally prepared to try to be good husband as I can be, even if it's obligation I do not desire make a unhappy family life but suddenly idea obligation multiple women....outright scares me. As I find the, well, getting personal with even just one woman a difficult to process! As said I was partially gender blind and so I could ignore gender when interacting with people, but still be aware of social etiquette regarding between men and women. But when things go more personal interaction between men and women....I feel honestly lost. Now I fear I make my possible spouse or spouses unhappy because my lack of, erhm, experience with said situation."