That hammer is a magic weapon with this https://www.d20pfsrd.com/magic-items/magic-weapons/magic-weapon-special-abilities/conductive/<br/><br/>The enemy you're fighting hit you with both a touch of corruption and a cruelty, see the Antipaladin class features, failing your save you're hit with a poison: https://www.d20pfsrd.com/magic/all-spells/p/poison<br/><br/>You can let your post stand, but if you dun make your safe I'm pretty sure you fall unconscious from the combination of your hitpoints lowering through cons-loss and damage already sustained.<br/><br/>As for the spell you cast.. it explains it pretty detailedly. If you don't designate a different target the spell defaults to you. https://www.d20pfsrd.com/magic/all-spells/u/unnatural-lust/