Well, Merryn very much feels her bonds are more of a burden than a boon. On the one hand, it accelerated her training immensely- and also made her a natural teacher- able to bring out the best qualities in both Nory and Kailen.<br/><br/>On the other hand, it brought her to the edge of the dark side and causes her to question every decision she makes- and every decision made by those close to her. It is something she would be afraid of teaching, and alarmed at seeing Kailen pick up on incidentally.<br/><br/>I should note, that I'm taking a lot of inspiration from KOTOR II. In her particular case- a lot of people feeling the same thing or in the same mindset can influence her as well. Even non force sensitives. Her padawans might have noticed she avoids crowded places and the like. Having spent so much time in Coruscant, I figure that's helped to dull her senses- too many competing feelings and emotions all around her... plus she's spent most of her time among the Jedi, who do the heavy lifting of serenity for her.<br/><br/>Now, put in a small ship where she and the other Jedi are a minority...