Smirking faintly as he heard her pause her words at one point, Nikolai did not find any offense in the words left unsaid. While he lacked a sight like the others held, he had gained something in trade. His pain had hardened his will and helped him chain down his psyker talents so to use them safely, well at least safer, than the wild psykers that could cause devastating harm leaving their mind unshielded. Nonetheless, he chose not to comment on that right away, finding it a touch amusing. What she was saying was far from being insulting after all, and he only got offended when someone spoke of his blindness in a derogatory manner, intensionally taunting him about his lack of sight.<br/><br/>"Perhaps, but the Psykers do carry a certain stigma about them. Cult Mechanicus is noticed, and respected. Psykers can be, as well, but there is also an underlaying reality that a careless psyker may become a threat in a short moment. The mercy-kill is the best a psyker that allows themselves to become a demonhost can hope for." He spoke those words with a grim resolution that if he ever managed to get into such a position he would fight in his mind long enough for the last act to be carried out.<br/><br/>Regardless, as she commented on the matter of the games as pornography there was a short chuckle escaping from Nikolai's lips, the blind psyker seeming to find this a hilarious comment for some reason, before he finally shook his head. "I would dare to guess that the point of this celebration being in the open is to allow people to revel in the sensations without care because they<em>see</em>others doing the same, and thus none are going to blame one another for things that go on, everyone engaged in similar acts, well similar to a certain extent." Shrugging faintly, the psyker's arms crossed before him as he tilted his head at a particularily loud voice crying out in the background.<br/><br/>"For me, its more of a strange symphony, without a true rhyme nor true reason, yet I can find some of the underlaying echoes and thoughts of possible intent do linger. I have to admit I am somewhat curious as to how Mechanicus carries out such behaviour, but perhaps its part of forbidden lore for those not of the Cult itself." He smiled a faint bit again, casually suggesting it wasn't generally well known so it might be part of the secrecy surrounding different groups. He did not find anything bad in that either. Different specialties sometimes called for different points of perspective, and thus some secrets had to be kept, from time to time.<br/><br/>"Still, I would have to admit that in a setting as public as this I would try to politely refuse to partake in more than food and drink, unless directly ordered to by the Captain." He tapped on his thigh with his fingertips, considering the situation they found themselves in. "Do you see the other members of the crew? I am somewhat curious as to how they are enjoying their time. I can't seem to pick their voices from the rest." Truthfully, if he could do that, he'd consider himself a rather strange man.