I shook my head.  "No, it's...I told you that I would be the best mom, for any kids we had together, somehow.  That may be the one way..."  I felt terribly conflicted.  "...you're not going to be mad?  If I scratch an itch with a guy and get...big?  It's, it's not your fault that you're also...you know...but..."  I loved Ingress, wanted to be with her always, but damn it all if there wasn't that animal itch.