<div class="floatright">(http://i.imgur.com/ljYAgW2.jpg)</div><br/>While seeing Lisa's tears before she ran off made the rogue's guts churn in shame for having so shattered her delusions of having found a safe haven here, Zerxel couldn't help but flinch when Bo reprimanded her in turn before going after the human girl.  Despite the fact the dwarf hadn't approved of her rambling about giving up, Bo was right in that she shouldn't have done that.  But to hear Lisa talk as she was of staying here, of giving up and surrendering to the Dungeon, albeit in a way that wouldn't hurt or corrupt her further, had made the rogue so angry and upset in her own right that she hadn't been able to stop herself, and more importantly, she hadn't wanted to.  But she had joined this contest of depravity to see the Dungeon ended, so to see someone give up...it hadn't set well with her at all, add on top of that the fact she was still sore over Shugar, and it wasn't really that surprising she had finally snapped on someone.  All Zerxel could do was slowly sink into the water up to her neck and put her hands over her face with a shuddering breath escaping her.  She didn't cry, no tears came to her eyes, but Bo would return to the sight of the rogue's shaking hands as she sat on the edge of the tub, having gotten back out only to drip dry with her head hanging in shame.<br/><br/><strong>"I never would have considered myself a monster before coming here, Bo."</strong>She'd begin, stopping the dwarf before she could begin to say anything further.  She needed to get this off her chest before it died in her throat.<strong>"I made friends with you and Tsara, I was cordial if not outright helpful to everyone else, and I prided myself in being different from Xara who epitomized everything I hated about my people.  Yet ever since coming here, I've left at least one person to a minotaur, handed Xara over to Malefactus without hesitation, made a deal with spiderlings knowing full well what they are, and sent Shugar off on her own, knowing that even if she makes it to the third floor, she'll likely not make it far on her own, and now this with Lisa....I could make excuses, say that this place is getting to me, but that wouldn't be true would it?  Am I more drow than I believed?  I would have said no before, but now....now I'm not so sure anymore."</strong>Sighing heavily again, Zerxel forced her hands to still, to stop trembling since she didn't expect Bo to have an answer for her, and if she did it would likely not be a good one.<br/><br/>Grabbing her gear and slipping into it in complete silence, unaware that she had garnered the attention of people she absolutely loathed, the rogue was completely lost to her thoughts that revolved around her concerns that she was just as bad as any drow, just she was her own brand of evil was all.  If that was indeed the case, then it made sense she had scared Lisa so badly, being so consumed with her own goals that she hadn't cared about anything else, and having Lisa go on about staying had been an affront to her.  At least she was questioning herself now, but that didn't change the facts did it?<br/><br/><div class="spoiler_container"><div class="spoiler_header" onclick="hideSecond (this);" role="button">OOC</div><div class="spoiler_body">I do still plan to sacrifice someone to the spiderlings, but it'll be Satou or someone that she didn't get along with.  Tahkina's a friend now, that and I like her look lol.  As for Zerxel's crisis of conscience and all that though, she really isn't evil, but she could be safely called obsessed with beating the Dungeon, except she's never considered herself as such before.  I DO plan to try and apologize to Lisa on their way out, but what Bo says here will have an affect on what follows for Zerxel.  I'd prefer she remain nice, but if Bo pushes the right way, she might end up being left behind herself at a later date because Zerxel will have embraced her Drow nature lol.</div></div>