I take a look, immediately discarding one of the magazines.  The other...it still has some appeal to me, but...I shake my head.  Maybe it's the shock of everything I've gone through, but just looking at the girls in there, I feel...<em>nothing</em>.  No familiar spark of arousal or any such thing.  It has to be that, right?  As for the other object, that at least holds my interest.  On/off button, with a familiar L-M-H toggle near it.  Well, I suppose I should at least give it a shot.<br/><br/>Laying down on the bed, holding the massager with one hand, I explore my new 'downtown' with the other.  It sends a few shivers down my back as I do so, but eventually I flip the toggle to the L setting, and then slide it between my thighs, then pressing the button to turn it on.  Within a few seconds, I hear myself gasp a charged 'Oh~" and I roll onto my side.  It's not enough to seriously stimulate me - though if 'L' had been, boy, that would have been something - but it's enough to fill my head with a pleasant haze that I can drift along on and-<br/><br/>"Oh~"