Raven lay wrapped in her own thoughts, not feeling good about herself.<br/>She knew he had said ok, but she knew he wasn't ok about it, she knew it hurt him.<br/><em>"Time for the truth Raven, there's no point in not talking to him, it's never got you anywhere in the past, it'll not get you anywhere now."  </em><br/>Lifting his arm, she pulled him nearer, stifling a slight gasp as her back twinged.<br/>"Spike it frightens me, it makes me loose control and although it wonderful as well, I don't like not being in control of myself, it's the only thing I have at the moment, the only thing I'm sure of."