She smiled until Mana left, and then dropped onto the bed, dropping her head into her hands.  "What am I doing?" she murmured, shaking her head softly.  "This isn't... that's not real joy she's feeling, it's just fake, forced on her...  I have to find a way to convince Mana to stay here... but I don't dare right now.  With what I've put her through, at this point, if I take that collar and the manacles off, I'll be forced to defend myself against a Terrestrial, one that's supposed to live a full life."  She flopped over onto the bed, her hair splaying about her as she did.  "But I can't just leave her in that collar forever... it's not right."