"You'll find you cannot turn a knife on yourself while you bear mistresses young.  I've...  tried myself,  and some compulsion stills my hand.  I know your pain,  I've been through it myself...  but,  it sort of botched for me leaving me somewhere in between."  She shrugged her shoulders.  "I want to make you feel as best as you can considering what happpened to you.  If you need anything,  just... tell me."