Elli would be able to immediately tell that Syceras was not at all pleased when she said that she went to speak to Scarlett. She crossed her arms and listened to what the young knight had to say, though it was apparent it was a bit of a strain. Once Elli was done, the commander gave out a great exasperated sigh.<br/><br/>"I admire your commitment to Shelyn's dogma, but I remember telling you it was none of your business." Syceras sighed again, shaking her head. The commander remained silent for several moments, her eyes cast down upon her desk, appearing deep in thought. Her cheeks flushed and she looked up Elli.<br/><br/>"She told you everything? Scarlett...honestly..." She shook her head again, her blush only intensifying. "That woman...if you must know my side of things, I answer you as a knight that up holds the virtues of our faith. We...Scarlett and I...we're from two different ideologies, what is essential to each of us is different. I never begrudged her of her profession, that never fazed me because of the teaching of Shelyn. However...to see her kiss someone else...it was more than I could handle. It may have been an accident, but it highlighted the one fear I had with being involved with her. Did she mention that day I walked on her and her clients was our anniversary? You'd think for the sake of that day she could showed a little restraint. Part of the reason we hardly saw each other was because we were both on track to succeed those that came before us...even if had been months, she could have stand to wait just a little longer."<br/><br/>Syceras paused, noticing that a few tears had slid down her cheek. She laughed at herself and wiped the tears away. "You must think I'm foolish. For ignoring her. Even if I am a fool, I just feel so justified...she is who she is. I love her because of that very fact, and yet I fear it as well. I can't bring myself to fully trust her. All her letters, gifts, Sendings...not once has a lustful sentiment been left out. I can't help but question what I am to her."<br/><br/>"So there...you have seen an insecure side of your Commander," Syceras finished, berating herself.