" no and it wasn't him I am afraid, " she kissed katyas head " Kat " she said in a serious tone " this is one of the hardest things i've said and I am saying it because I love you no other reason" she turned away for a few moments and then turned back " I want us to marry, I don't mind if my wife is pushed down the isle or if I walk down it to her. What I am saying darling is please please don't feel you have to walk anywhere for me I love you and how ever that means you have to arrive "