" i wanted you  to  hate me." he stopped for a moment. " i wanted to  push you  away so  you  would not have to watch me die. So i would not have to  see you  watch me get weaker. " he stil kept her close. " rember when we were five and Jordan Nimeroff  gave you  a peanut candy and told you  it was almond? remeber how much i  cryed afraid to lose you. I did not want to make you  do the same thing  this time knowing you  would lose me"