<strong>Can't wait! Xx.</strong><br/><br/>I bite my lip as I sign out of Facebook, shutting up laptop down and putting my face in my hands.<br/><br/>"What the fuck am I doing?" I whisper out loud. "He treated me like shit, he most likely cheated on me, he was selfish... but he loved me more than anything... argh!" I argue with myself. "But did he love me! All those times he said it... what if he was lying? What if he never wanted me in the first place? Was if it was all a joke or a publicity stunt?"<br/><br/>I shake it off, going into the bathroom to jump into the warm shower. I wash my hair and my body, singing a song that you wrote for me at the top of my voice.<br/><br/>After drying myself off, I straighten my hair to perfection. I put smoky black eyeshadow, thick black eyeliner and lashings of mascara on my eyes as well as clear lip gloss on my lips.<br/><br/>I dress into a tiny grey mini-skirt showing off my thighs and legs, a black cami top with your band logo on that shows off my cleavage beautifully, a pair of ripped fishnet stockings and a pair of 4-inch high silver heels. A bit over the top for lunch, but it's me, I'm eccentric, it's expected.<br/><br/>At noon, I'm waiting outside of my apartment block for you, checking the time on my phone, wondering if you'll be late.