<strong>SUMMARY:<br/>Story of a divorced aunt who suddenly had to become a single mother, and a divorced man who met her on the Internet <br/>- at least he thought so... :) </strong><br/><br/><br/>* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *<br/><br/><br/><em>'Hi dear All,<br/><br/>Let me tell you a little about my life, because I think this will be more talkative than any other introduction I could ever compose, I'm quite a shy person, so I think I rather choose storytelling.<br/><br/>Next year it's gonna be my 40th birthday. I know, perhaps this doesn't sound good in a topic like this, 'Divorced and looking', as maybe it is already too late for me for a restart but at least I give it a shot. Life taught me how to give a try to restart things, more than well.<br/>As for these lessons, I've regretted those second chances I gave to my ex husband as he's never learnt from them. But I'm grateful each and every for those I gave to my niece after she returned from coma.<br/>Sometimes the walls we're about to climb fall upon us - this is what literally happened to my little one when they were practicing with their mountain climbing team, all of them under twenty and their trainer, pearl of tutors and humans. All of them dead now as I write these lines, except my child, who's gonna stay a child forever. But I'm at peace with this. However I think I'll be never be at peace with those painful looks on other parents' faces as we gathered in the hospital, once that cliff collapsed, burrying our pasts forever...  <br/><br/>That was the day when my husband began to actually leave me. It's so strange, isn't it?, that we vow 'in good times and in bad', but when it's about somebody else's very bad days - sometimes, as ego games are revealed we must admit that we married the wrong person. Of course, it didn't start at the ICU unit /most of the stories only culminate or end at that place as I've got it.../. <br/>I can't have a baby and my husband cheated on me. More times. That's the truth, and that I was so sticked to my married reality that I made myself blind, and what's worse, I even thought this is the best thing to do and that I'm the smartest wife in the world.<br/>But there, in front of our niece's hospital room, as I watched him looking through the window - I only saw panick and honest desire to escape. And on the second day and on the third, and on each day when he decided not to come and I was sitting at her bedside alone all nights long, talking to her, for the first time giving thanks my sister didn't have to see it, as she passed away years ago. Cancer.    <br/>Since that accident between the mountains I've read and looked through many books, I ate and eat everything that offers a better understanding of happenings and characters in our lives, and in one book evolving kharma and such topics I learnt souls who can not accept a tragic loss many times end up as victims of something tragic. Was my niece one of these cases?... I'm often wondering about questions like this, not because I'm unable to love her the way she is, but because: if it's true, then we should do everything we can to ease pain around us, in any form.<br/><br/>Oh, I know, I know, maybe I'm an oddbug :), sorry if I'm just rumbling around, but spirituality is an important part of my life. Just like art. My profession is engaged with arts, I work for a famous museum and many more smaller ones, exhibition halls and galeries. Somehow I must earn a living as I've lost the chance to get alimony - she wasn't my husband's blood relative and court didn't care about MY mothernal feelings, only his lawyer.  <br/>Well, here we live, two years after my divorce, just the two of us plus Mimi, our help at the house. Actually she's much more, also a grandmother, a friend, a driver, a teacher - but she says it's the best for her: us. So I just love us.<br/>But recently I was thinking a lot about a man, a man who could also love us, who loves family, who loves children and life and colours... IF he exists...<br/><br/>I'm glad to find this topic. It's already a bit easier, reading about your problems and what's more important: optimism! <br/>'We, divorced people'... not a fortunate title to use, but anyway, <br/>thanks for reading and for creating this place :)<br/><br/><br/>Trojan Queen'<br/><br/></em><br/><br/>