I arrive early to football practice determined to start anew on the right track. I start my stretching routines as I realize I can't let myself break down because of such a deal. I would fix things once and for all and maybe I can stop dozing off to pluto every few minutes. I wonder if I'll get to see Alex today. "Probably not.".<br/><br/>My teammates filter inside the field slowly. Saturday practices are always like this.<br/>"But what if she was bluffing about not being with Chase?"<br/>'She never lies about those things'<br/>"I haven't been with her for so long, she may have changed."<br/>'You know that's not true'<br/>"Her facebook status said she was confused."<br/>'So did yours'<br/>And so my internal babble continued as I trained for the big game that was coming up. Not really noticing anybody else but completely immersed in what he was doing.<br/>"Football always helps me organize my mind" I tell myself as my internal babble's discussion ends, concluding that I would call her and maybe invite her somewhere.