"I nearly gave up once," she replied. "After Azanti's death, I..." she fell silent for a moment. "I went to a very dark place, but then the sister of my dead girlfriend found me drunk out of my mind in a bar, nursed me back to health and basically said to me if she was still alive and knew the man who killed her was still running around free to do what he wanted then she'd never forgive me if I simply walked away and left it to someone else to deal with."