I was shocked by her conclusion and the shook my head realizing I'd butchered my words,<em>god this is complicated</em>. "I would never ask that of you. Never." I said firmly "I'm telling you this to explain why I acted like a bitch towards Ro...him when he brought me back here and to explain why I will not be sharing him with you in any way, the instincts to do something incredible idiotic are too new and erratic for me to trust myself to control them all the time. I would hate to lose your friendship over something like this, I rather deal with rewarmed blood for the kitchen and never taste fresh blood again then do that." I said looking away "I'm sorry for the distress I've caused you. I hope you can forgive me."