Sent by return– hand written  to Orlando<br/><br/><span class="bbc_font" style="font-family: comic sans ms;">Kat<br/><br/>Your letter tore my heart apart, I wish we could go back ten years and make different choices from the ones we made then.   Ten years is <br/>a long time and whilst I hope we can see each other soon there are many things that have happened over here that I need to share. If I could, I would jump on the next plane just to hold you in my arms again, to touch you, to smells your summer scented hair and to hold your delicate hands in mine. I hope that we can accomplish this soon, if that is truly your desire but I will need to share a few things first and to explain why I am not arriving with this letter in hand.<br/><br/>After your last letter I was deeply hurt and I spent the next two years immersing myself in my degree. Finally however I was pulled out of this by a friend, Debbie.  We shared many happy times and whilst she loved me deeply and I loved her it was never quite as unconditional as us.  I suspect ones first true love is never repeated or even matched no matter who you ask.  The ache is your heart is never quite as strong after that first time. I digress in my story, which I need to tell you so that you know some of what has happened over the last ten years.  Six years ago Debbie fell pregnant and I celebrated the happiest and probably the saddest day of my life, our daughter was born, but Debbie died from complications and I was left to bring up Deborah Caitlin on my own.  Of course I say on my own, but the grandparents were all wonderfully supportive.<br/><br/>I am though now the proud father of a six year old daughter who regularly wraps her father round her little finger!  I know this news will be a surprise to you but you needed to hear it now as it is the most important thing that has happened in the last ten years and it would affect us going forward as I sensed a glimmer of hope from your letter that we could be reunited.  DC is in school now and I couldn’t leave her, nor do the government or I agree with taking children out of the school terms, and you needed to learn about her before we met anyway.<br/><br/>Love<br/><br/>Ben<br/></span><br/>