The heart wrenching pain was because she had seen him die. Held him in her arms and tried to save him but she felt like it did not work and she was useless. She was allowed to stay with her brother as long as she wanted and when her brother pulled her into a hug she broke down. Soon his shirt was full of tears and soaked. She never spoke a word and probably wouldn't for a long time. The only person who kept her safe was gone.