I am at home in bed watching some television. I had given up on studying for the night. It was making my brain hurt so I am laying in bed watching tv with the lights off and the sleep timer on the tv one so it would go off in 90 minutes and I would fall asleep. I was trying not to think about shane but it was hard because I still care about him a lot but I still think he ditched me for his friends like he used to all the time.