Shaking but unknown if the cause was due to the news or the weather Rarasoh simply gritted her teeth and swallow the next heave that built in her throat, she couldn't throw up not now.. Not yet, squeezing her eyes shut she exhaled a breath and sighed. "I just said she's at Matties for the night.. She doesnt know anything." It was all she said as she froze hearing the sirens, more of them. Shaking her head she waited for a reply when she heard something else.. The truth, no.. No, not now. Dont. You cant throw up here Rara.. You cant. It was too late, hunching over she whined her body twitching from the inside out as she just heaved her ice cream into the gutter at the side of the road, sobbing through her retching she just shook her head slowly and stood.<br/><br/>Rarasoh pulled her shoes from her feet and just walked barefoot holding the phone to her ear and walked, walking some more she just breathed down the phone unable to understand the choice laying out before her in big red flashing letters. Choose. She couldn't, her brother or her father.. One, other or both of them leaving her to raise Sophia. How could he expect her to make such a choice?! She nearly screamed down the phone, but with a deadened, distant tone. "You can live with one kidney.. Yes, I bloody heard you utter asshole!" She shrieked down the phone, shoving the dead phone call in her pocket and slammed the door shut once she reached home. Glancing about she nodded in sarcasm as she saw that the power was back, doing the typical Madsen thing, she pressed play on the stereo system and turned the volume to full and just sat on the stairs bouncing her foot.<br/><br/>Throwing the soiled shoes towards the washing machine she just stared at her blue feet from walking in the cold storm, it had taken her an hour to walk home and yet she made it barely in one piece. The music, it wasn't loud enough so she raced up to her brothers room and grabbed his amp and the aux adapter plugging in the stereo and grinned oddly as the stares vibrated beneath her. Unable to think or rather hear herself think she just drowned in the blaring music unable to concentrate past the thudding bass.