Alex was relieved to have Fiona sitting next to her, but it was hard to keep her feelings in check in front of Carmen. She knew it was shallow, but she was so afraid of being an outcast that she wasn't sure when to tell everyone. She hadn't yet become comfortable with the situation herself. It wasn't that she was ashamed, but how could she defend herself to others if she was just starting to discover this newness.<br/><br/>Under the table Fiona squeezed her hand, trying to reassure her she imagined. Alex squeezed back and gave Fi a small smile. She was so nervous that her chin quivered and she had to bite her lip to keep herself calm. Alex knew she needed to develop a backbone and soon or she stood the chance of losing Fiona, and she didn't want that. "It all looks wonderful Gina," Carmen said sweetly, probably trying to seem nice. Alex rolled her eyes.