Friday 12:02 2nd July<br/><br/>Ben<br/><br/>True true. See I told you that I am really dumb with a lot of things. I mean I know absolutely nothing about England and here I am coming over to live there and go to school. Even I should know a little bit of something about the drinking and all that but go freaking figure I know absolutely nothing. I do have to admit that I do love a nice glass of wine with my dinner. Nothing too strong just a little bit will hold me over and make me feel really good. I'm tiny too so I definitely do not want to overdo it.<br/>It is really major and let me tell you I am really really scared. She is doing that because she knows it will make me feel more comfortable and she knows how scared I really am. I'm just scared that I will crumble and falter under pressure. I hate letting anyone down and I really really don't want to do that. I feel like I already let you down by not pushing hard enough for us 10 years ago.<br/>That is true I used to be so like "whatever" when it came to make any decision but now I have taken a complete 160 turn on that. I have to have plans about what I want to do now and I have to plan it all out. Which is what makes this so hard because honestly babe I have absolutely no idea what will happen over there and that scares me to no end.<br/>Well I have a scholarship of like $10,000 plus a whole checking account dedicated to the tuition. My only problem is I have no idea how much I will need and I just pray that I have enough money to live over there and support myself. I am set in a dorm room for the first year already so at least that is one thing I will not have to worry about. SO that's a least a positive in all of this. VISA? Consulate? Student visa? What? I'm so confused I have no idea what any of this is.<br/>I was planning on get a job so at least I am partially on the right track there. I haven't looked yet and yeah I would really like that if you have the time :) Yes please if you could that would be great. I think the college is called the College Of Education and Human Services..All I know is my orientation is August 25, move-in day is August 26, and classes start September 3. Other than that ntohing really :-(<br/>I'm so lucky to have such a sweet, devoted, cute Englishman in my life<br/><br/>Your crazy, dumb, American girl<br/>Love Kat <3