<div class="floatleft">(https://www.mediafire.com/convkey/00ba/vc6ophhbbqkqlrh6g.jpg)<br/><div align="center"><strong>Rested Courtney</strong></div></div><span class="bbc_size" style="font-size: 12pt;">A water project in Nairobi as an investment? <br/><br/>"Ohhh. So more of one those, "Make the world a better place," kind of investments? Good for you, Jaclyn! Gives me hope that there's more people like you out there."<br/><br/>Breakfast gets ordered and it sounds yummy.<br/><br/>"Kk. I'll be out here pretending to be the Pope about to wave to his people." *giggle*<br/><br/>She heads in, and I actually don't have something as silly as that on my mind. I just look down at the people going about their busy lives. Who has it worse? Me? Or them. Sure, they're heading to work while I'm standing on the balcony sipping coffee, but most of these people have plans, goals ... a direction in life. Me? Not so much. Sure, I have a job, I have an awesome girlfriend, but what do I want? What do I want out of life now that I'm starting over? <br/><br/>I have a second chance at a normal life, but what do I want for it? A family? A career? Adventure? I don't even know. A family would be nice, and an adventure in and of itself. A career? Sure. But what? Can I be content with being the designated receptionist for the rest of my life? Adventure? Had plenty of that, with not the best results. I'm not dead though. <br/><br/>*sigh* "What do you wanna be, Courtney?" I mumble under my breath. *frown* I wanna be happy, and not be wandering around feckless. Does that help?<br/><br/><span class="bbc_font" style="font-family: Georgia;"><span class="bbc_size" style="font-size: 12pt;">“Breakfast is served, Courtney! Come and get it.”</span></span><br/><br/>I turn back and give her a *half smile* "Be right in."<br/><br/>I turn to look back out and straighten myself up so that I'm no longer leaning on the railing. Even Jaclyn, with all her problems, arguably as bad or worse than my mine, seems to have a plan. I take a final sip of my coffee, now empty and take a *deep breath* which gets exhaled as a *sigh* Can't figure out a direction standing still. I turn, and head back in. <br/><br/>"Ohhh that looks delish!" I almost cheer. "Gonna grab a refill before sitting down, you need some more?"</span>