<div class="quoteheader"><div class="topslice_quote"><a href="https://elliquiy.com/forums/index.php?topic=337586.msg16058346#msg16058346">Quote from: RampantDesires on 16-12-2021, 02:45:03</a></div></div><blockquote class="bbc_standard_quote">I do hope you guys keep going with it.  <br/><br/>It's been fun so far. It isn't any one thing that's brought me here to this decision so please don't think "oh this is because of x thing or time" because I assure you that it is not please do not feel bad or like any of this is directed at 'you'. If it was one thing I could sit down and try and find a work around or adjust how I think about the game, but a large part of it is sadly a fundamental philosophy disconnect that was present at the beginning of the game. By in large most of you would like there to be more structure.  Set seating, established roll and new dealer days built in rather than it being a 'it happens when it happens' and we faff around with chit chat and flirtiness in the middle thing.  Again this isn't a direct result of this past week, December is a bad month all around with end of the semester and holiday stuff, so it isn't a very good like litmus test for how things go. I knew that it would be especially hiccupy. However once it is over and life gets more back to normal I can't really get my brain to settle on this with a more rigid structure with a co-GM person to make sure it stays on schedule. It wasn't what I was looking to do going in, it's not something that I can see myself doing going forward as a GM or a player and it isn't something that a simple break for the holiday season can fix. <br/><br/>It isn't fair of me to keep pressing my view on how things should go and my occasionally wonky life onto you guys where things grind to a halt if I'm unexpectedly afk for a few days. That's not fun for you guys and feeling pressed to log into E on a schedule never works well for me and at the same time I'm not really comfortable handing it off to someone else to run while playing because my brain is weird and has trouble shifting gears like that.  Like I told someone today I wish it were more like a dial so I could adjust to things dynamically, but it's more just an on and off switch that doesn't deal well in that middle ground.<br/><br/>This game has always been a delicate balance of people wanting things faster/slower &amp; less crowded/more crowded, of trying to make some space to get characters settled and plugged in while still having room for things to keep moving forward. I just can't get it to work in a way that makes everyone, including me, comfortable so it feels like it is time to step back and let other people steer the ship. Thank you all for being awesome and patient and just generally lovely people, it has been a pleasure sharing in your creativity and random naughtiness so far.  I hope that we can write together in other things and that I get to be a voyeur here in spirit. <br/></blockquote><div class="quotefooter"><div class="botslice_quote"></div></div><br/>Really sorry to hear this, but as long as your doing okay that’s the main thing. I’d you need someone to chat to you know I’m around.<br/><br/><strong>As for the game, how about we have a roll call of those still invested in playing. Then we can decide what to do from there.</strong>