<div class="floatleft">(https://www.tvovermind.com/wp-content/uploads/2017/10/zach-gilford-640x428.jpg)</div><strong>Name:</strong>James Harding (https://elliquiy.com/forums/index.php?topic=308599.msg15004164#msg15004164)<br/><strong>Age:</strong>25<br/><strong>Sexuality:</strong>Straight<br/><strong>Hometown:</strong>Stilwater, MN, USA<br/><strong>Date/Time:</strong>3. July 2019| Afternoon<br/><strong>Location:</strong>Diary room<br/><strong>Wearing:</strong>What you see in the pic (http://Outfit URL)<br/><strong>Coupled with:</strong>Gwen<br/><strong>Tagging:</strong>N/A<br/><hr/><br/>James half paid attention as the rest of the competition carried on, only noting when Gwen's secret had come up with a flash of white-hot rage, what that shitbag did, wasn't cool at all. The rest of his mind, however, was, to put it in a way, caught in a loop. He didn't understand why he had said that he only wanted to kiss Gwen, and was surprised when he realized that it was a true statement. He felt like the biggest ass in the world. He agreed to come on here to promote his books, and maybe to start getting over the loss he had suffered,<br/><br/>After the competition was over James wandered through the villa, just thinking, he was so deep in his thoughts that he didn't feel the heat, and probably wouldn't have felt the weather even if it was the middle of a blizzard. and while he didn't miss the text from Caroline about their "reward" he ignored it fo the moment, he wasn't so sure he even wanted a night out with the other males after the secrets revealed and how they acted during the competition.  He needed to get his thoughts out and since the dictators running this place had taken his handy dandy notebook, the diary room that he was told about during the first day seemed to be the only other option.<br/><br/>Once he was in and sitting and the camera had flashed to signal it was recording James started to speak, haltingly, awkwardly, more used to putting his thoughts to the page, and even then it was in the form of scenes and characters. "I Uhm," he started "god this is stupid," he muttered to himself "I don't know what I'm doing anymore, I went into this, well, I didn't expect to find love here, I don't even know if I still have, Christ I feel like a jackass. I don't know what would be worse, if I am just playing with her heart unintentionally, or if I am, falling, for her." he sighed, and fell silent for a moment. "Ami I, this is hard. Too hard without you," he pushed his hand through his hair and rubbed the back of his head.  "I know we knew this would happen, remission was possible but unlikely, I thought I was strong enough," He looked straight into the camera showing the swirling of emotion in his eyes for those who could see it, grief, confusion, frustration. "I thought I was strong enough." He repeated softly, before standing up and swiftly leaving the room/