What Anico said made Helen gasp.<em>It hadn’t hit her yet? </em>It had hit Helen like a ton of bricks, though she still found it hard to believe it had happened to her, someone else yes, but not to her!<br/><br/>Helen thought she might still lose it, she feared to even go there in her mind. She understood the solder, and her need to keep strong, they may need to support each other, but right now it must be hard to break down in front of strangers.<em>Like you did?</em>She said to herself.<br/><br/>Helen felt ashamed for only thinking of herself but said;<br/>“I’m sure they would never think bad of you…”<br/><br/>“Oh... Robbie, he’s great, my friend, my lover, everything, really."<br/><br/>She spoke of him in a rather bland way, as if describing a favourite dress.<br/>She was having  thoughts about him  today that made her feel bad, she wanted to call him, be reassured by his commanding voice, have him hold her…tell her what she wanted to hear.<br/><br/>“You’re not married then, or involved with anyone?”<br/>