"As you know,  my father is an officer from<em>Kriegsmarine</em>. He's trying to use his influence to transfer me back to Hamburg, although I need to sign the form - meaning that I must want to go back." He lowers his forehead, and puts his right palm over his eyes.  "I... am sorry about the lasw few days. I could only think about this, I haven't been good to you. I want you to be a part of my life, so what do you think I should do?"