<div class="floatleft">(http://data.whicdn.com/images/61881094/large.jpg)</div><strong>Name:</strong>Jaedan Connolly (https://elliquiy.com/forums/index.php?topic=261273.msg12889071#msg12889071)<br/><strong>Age:</strong>17<br/><strong>House:</strong>Slytherin<br/><strong>Patronus:</strong>Honey Badger<br/><strong>Sexual Orientation:</strong>Straight<br/><strong>Wearing:</strong>Jeans, tennis shoes, black tank top and open red and grey plaid shirt<br/><strong>Date:</strong>September 2nd, 2018 .... Morning<br/><strong>Location:</strong>Astronomy Tower<br/><strong>Tagging:</strong>Silas Rosier-Noc - Closed<br/><hr/><br/>"I don't want them hurt, but I don't want them to get too close Silas, don't you understand?" She looked at him almost as if she was lost. "I didn't mean to make it sound like you wouldn't be sad, I know you would to an extent Silas, but....you would get over it, you would move on to the new girl you'd bang and you wouldn't dwell over it. That's what I mean." She said as she looked down when he told her that she was the only one he'd slept with more than twice. "You were using me just the same, you can't deny that Silas." She said when he mentioned using him as a sex toy.<br/><br/>"You can't pretend you love me or have feelings for me more than simple desire and want. You might care about me to an extent, but there's no love there. Janus loves me as his sister, if I found a man who could fall in love with me, what then? He would hurt worse because of this. I...I can't pretend that I like the idea of that. I don't want to hurt more people than necessary." He mentioned that they made the choices in their lives and she smiled a little ruefully.<br/><br/>"But this is my choice Silas, that's just it. I'm choosing to die, because it will save someone, someone important to another." She couldn't stand that she was telling him this, only because she worried how it would change their relationship. Hell, it likely already had. "Silas, in a couple of years, a girl my brother is going to marry is going to be in a life and death batter for her life. She will lose that battle unless I choose to save her. By saving her, I won't survive it, I've thought about it a million ways. I've tried to see how I could stop it before it happens, but there's no way to identify the person who does it. All I see is their wearing masks, I can't tell if it's a man, woman, who it is."<br/><br/>She took a deep breath and looked down away from him, almost as if ashamed she had to admit this. "And when the hat said what it did, I knew it had to do with this Havok person, it's probably one of his followers that does this to her. But unless I can figure out who, which there's no way to do that without joinging them and then...even then it's not a very high chance I will." That said she planned to, to figure this out. "I see the devistation her death causes Janus, with me, he can move on. Maybe name one of his kids with her after me, but without her, he slips into a depression even I can't bring him out of and I lose my best friend in this world."<br/><br/>She looks back up at him, tears sliding down her cheeks at this revelation. "I can't stand to see him go through that. Do you understand? Nothing changes unless she changes her path, and that path hasn't changed in eight years. I don't think it will in the next two to three years at most. Which is why I don't want to put others through it. Love is too powerful an emotion, it can lift you up when you're in your darkest moments, but it can tear you completely apart in the end. I don't want to see what I saw happen to Janus. I will do everything in my power to stop it. If it means I forgo love, friendship and all of that. I'm willing to do that Silas, now do you understand?"