<div class="floatleft">(http://data.whicdn.com/images/61881094/large.jpg)</div><strong>Name:</strong>Jaedan Connolly (https://elliquiy.com/forums/index.php?topic=261273.msg12889071#msg12889071)<br/><strong>Age:</strong>17<br/><strong>House:</strong>Slytherin<br/><strong>Patronus:</strong>Honey Badger<br/><strong>Sexual Orientation:</strong>Straight<br/><strong>Wearing:</strong>Jeans, tennis shoes, black tank top and open red and grey plaid shirt<br/><strong>Date:</strong>September 2nd, 2018 .... Morning<br/><strong>Location:</strong>Astronomy Tower<br/><strong>Tagging:</strong>Silas Rosier-Noc - Closed<br/><hr/><br/>Jaedan heard his words as he complimented her and she rolled her eyes again, sure, she had pretty eyes, she was a pretty girl, she knew this. But that wasn't going to help her loosen up to people. "Well I'm glad you think so Silas, but I have my reasons for not letting people in." She said with a sigh. "Besides, I kind of have let someone in...you." She reminded him. "It's not like I sleep around with a bunch of people, I just didn't want to die a virgin." She said then realized she said far too much and closed her eyes. "Shit." She knew he was going to prod, and hearing him already tell her that he wasn't a terrible listener, that he wasn't going to tell anyone, the feeling of his arms around her waist....it was getting all too....comfortable.<br/><br/>"Silas stop okay." She moved from him as she sat her sketch pad down and climbed off the desk. "There's things about me that people don't know...things I don't want them to know and things that they don't need to know okay. You let someone in and they..." She bit her lip as she crossed her arms over her chest and looked away from him. "It's just easier to know that when I am gone, people won't have to sit there and mourn the fact that they cared about me. They won't have to think of me as anything but that bitch at school. I would rather them hate me then have to sit there and cry about me."<br/><br/>She looked back at him with haunted eyes. "Because I won't be around as long as the rest of you okay? I already know how my life is ending, I know that I'm going to die in a fight saving someone I love and I don't want others to get hurt by it, okay?!" She felt her resolve breaking. "I've known since I was ten, my visions of it came and it's never changed, never wavered. I will die, and it's not too long after school ends." She looked at him then, a tear slid down her cheek. "Janus will mourn me, and he's all I need." Janus, Silas would know him to be her older brother who'd left school just a few years before them. "Even you, you'll just remember me as that girl you used to fuck, and you know what...I'm okay with that. Because I know you didn't love me, i know you might hurt a little in the end, but it's not going to be the pain you would feel if say...Geoffrey or Lucan died. I get that and I'm okay with that."<br/><br/>She felt like she was ranting, and maybe she was, maybe he'd hit a dam that had been building to burst. "The less people I hurt in the long run, the better Silas, don't you understand? I don't want people hurting because of me, being scared of me or hating me is a hell of a lot better than knowing I've hurt them. And maybe this is me being selfish, hell it probably is. But it's me being who I feel I should be to keep others from unnessary pain okay, so please....just don't."