Tanya was very puzzled by this new turn of events.  Instead of reacting in pain and anger she choose to play the part of the professional Head Nurse that she was.  By day she took care of her patients.  Spending her now 'extra' time that she  had not had before getting to know some of the other doctors and nurses better.  But still she came and visited with her 'children'.  Even though at times their visits felt more and more strained.  If she happened to arrive when Zara was with Elaine, Blaine would come up to her and ask to be taken outside.<br/><br/>Tanya knew her 'son' rather well and knew that he was deeply troubled by what was going on though she really didn't know what he was thinking because he had become more quiet and reserved speaking less and less everyday.  She had no idea how confused and upset he was about his sisters odd attachment to Zara.  Nor did Tanya know that all of Blaine's attempts to talk to his sister about the subject had gone completely ignored and unanswered.  Their outside time consisted of going to one of the newer larger ponds.  Blaine absolutely refused to go any where near their old favorite place.  Security was still just as present as ever but ever since the shooting incident that had almost cost Blaine his life they had pretty much backed away giving the tentacle creature more free space.  Of course if he had ever tried to escape they would have to stop him but since he never made any such move they tended to just leave him be.<br/><br/>What really astonished Tanya the most about this new desire of Elaine's was Blaine's reaction during these times when Zara came to visit with his sister.  Blaine no longer would sit on the same bed holding onto several of her limbs while Elaine 'nursed' as he used to do when Tanya had been the one who had held the special place in Elaine's heart.  In fact most often he would stand clear across the room facing the observation window where he could hear people busily taking notes on the other side waiting to hear Tanya's footsteps.<br/><br/>Only very late at night as it was now did Tanya allow herself the luxury of feeling sorry for herself as she sat in her den blankly staring at the wall with an nearly untouched glass of red wine in one hand and her other laying over a chair directly over the book that had fallen unnoticed by her to the floor as tears silently streamed down her face.  It was in these dark hours of the night when her mood was dark and brooding that she first began to think about retirement.  But she couldn't just leave her 'children' could she?  Did she even dare to try and take them with her... would they even want to go?  These were the questions that played in her mind as she sat in her plush chair along with all of the memories of the twins younger years.