.....for me, writing is allowing for my<em>heart</em>to roll.  Off my sleeve.  And splatter.  Onto the page.<br/>It can become so personal.  It can mean so much.  It can easily get smooooooooooooooshed.<br/><br/>And it should.  COMPLETELY.<br/><br/>EVERY.<br/>SINGLE.<br/>TIME.<br/><br/><br/>For soooooooooo long, there was only...<br/><br/>...yearning.....<br/>...darkness.....<br/>...pain.....<br/>...torture.....<br/><br/>In the relationship.  The<em>love</em>that was<em>Gambit</em>and<em>Rogue</em>.<br/><br/>It was miserable.<br/>It could not be helped.<br/>NO ONE could do ANYTHING.  And that was just...<em>them</em>.  Forever.<br/><br/>They couldn't possibly.....have.....happiness.  She wasn't allowed.  He was....undeserving.  Throughout it all, they just couldn't.<br/><br/>And it just...<em>hurt</em>...so good, every time!  It tore me to shreds.  Still does.<br/>====================================================================<br/>This clip and these images will<em>not</em>be in OUR story here.  But....it shook me.  This....joy and this elation.....it seared me.  I wasn't ready.  I was unprepared.  All of these years of pain, came bubbling up.....and the disbelief -- I just couldn't.........<br/><br/>....I still can't.........<br/><br/>....still hurts..........<br/><br/><br/><br/><br/><br/><br/><br/><br/>But........WHAT IF----??<br/><br/>...can someone help me......<em>pretend</em>.  what if....<br/><br/><br/><br/><br/><div align="center">(https://i246.photobucket.com/albums/gg107/penceton/X-Men/edited-image_1.jpg)</div><div align="center">(https://i246.photobucket.com/albums/gg107/penceton/X-Men/edited-image_1_1.jpg)</div><div align="center">(https://i246.photobucket.com/albums/gg107/penceton/X-Men/edited-image_1_2.jpg)</div><div align="center">(https://i246.photobucket.com/albums/gg107/penceton/X-Men/edited-image_1_3.jpg)</div><div align="center">(https://i246.photobucket.com/albums/gg107/penceton/X-Men/edited-image_2.jpg)</div><div align="center">(https://i246.photobucket.com/albums/gg107/penceton/X-Men/gambitmarriage4.jpg)</div><div align="center">(https://i246.photobucket.com/albums/gg107/penceton/X-Men/edited-image_1_4.jpg)</div><br/><div align="center">https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PDBNy4EuU6E</div><br/>====================================================================<br/><br/>In some reality, that could be.....some kinda<em>happy ending</em>.  Not this story.  But wouldn't -- isn't -- it.......almost......amazing to wish for?