<div class="floatright">(http://elliquiy.com/elluiki/images/f/f9/Nilofer150.jpg)</div><strong>Name:</strong>Nilofer<br/><strong>Species/Form:</strong>Peranos/Peranos<br/><strong>Players Nearby:</strong>Cirven<br/><strong>Location:</strong>Myeliae<br/><br/><hr/><br/>It wasn't so much that she wanted to rile him beyond belief as much as it was that she so desperately wanted to believe him. When he stepped toward her with eyes filled with such fury, she squeaked and backed up, her rear and shoulders pressing against the support posts.<br/><br/>The way that he said her name was cruel, like it was a vulgarity that he hated to utter. But the heat of his body against hers, with her already so angry and her heart and hormones on such frayed ends, she simply reacted.  "That's not love. That's duty. It's not the same thing."  Angrily she put her hand against his shoulder and pushed at him, but being smaller than he it didn't do much. Reaching up with her hand, she gripped his chin and lips sternly.<br/><br/>"Love is when you can't live without someone, when you wake up and they're your first thought. When the thought of hurting them is worse than cutting your own heart out. That is love. Not duty. I don't want you to be dutiful. I don't want that in a husband. I want someone who will wake up and think of me before they think of anything else, and I want that someone to be someone that I think of just the same. That I can't fathom ever being away from. And that kills me that you're going to be gone, because if by some<em>miracle</em>we come to love each other, you're going to be gone so much and every day I will be afraid that you're not coming back to me. I know that it's for the good of the people. I’m not stupid. You say that I don't understand. One of my fears is that I will love you and lose you<em>too</em>.  I'm not as selfish as you seem to think. But what I am is scared. I don't want to live my life without love and be tied to someone. If I'm going to do that I'd rather be alone. I don't want to be a burden to you. I don't want to burden anyone."<br/><br/>She felt like she was going to burst inside. "And if I hadn't found out who you were and things hadn't gone the way they were, I would have probably have shown you just exactly how much I don't really mind military men."  She smirked and leaned up on her tiptoes.  Sadistically she pressed her lips to his, her mouth soft, but surprisingly so were his.<br/><br/>