<strong>Maddy</strong><br/><br/>Well this was a fine mess...she refused to look at him.  She really didnt know what she had done to deserve this.  She had gone to church every sunday, she had done everything she felt she had too.  And now when she needed Him, when she really wanted to know he was there she was left alone, abandoned to whatever evil was coming to her.<br/><br/>She lay on the floor, on her stomach.  She could feel the pressure building.  Her body was scremaing in pain, so sore, so many reminders of yesterday.  For the first time ever she wondered if life was actually worth living....she was sure it wasnt, what was the point in living like this.  She had met men like this one before.  Men who didnt give a damn, they just did whatever they felt needed doing.  And sadly right now that was Maddy.  She knew she had pushed him, but fuck it, what was she meant to do.  Her life had changed so much, she had been through hell and they expected her to be civil....<br/><br/>Ok, they wanted civil, she would be civil.  She was going to refuse to speak, refuse to eat.  She would refuse to do what they wanted.....she didnt want this life, so hopefully if she went on hunger strike she would be able to end her miserable existance.  She had nothing to live for anyway.<br/><br/>She still needed to go to the loo.  Her bladder was so full now.  She wasnt going to speak to him, he obviously wanted her to wee herself.  CLosing her eyes she relaxed, she let her bladder empty there on the floor.  She felt the warmth spread under her and wept silently.  Maddy knew there was no point in trying any more.....so she wasnt going to!!!<br/>