<div class="floatleft">(http://30.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m3oo3fv7yh1r7wrq1o1_250.jpg)</div><br/><strong>Name:</strong>Lexie Moore<br/><strong>Place within Hierarchy:</strong>New Talent<br/><strong>Role:</strong>Clown<br/><strong>Position:</strong>Trainee<br/><strong>Location:</strong>On top of the Bathing Car<br/><strong>Wearing:</strong>This! (http://www.polyvore.com/lexie/set?id=51900953)<br/><strong>Tagging:</strong>Elizabeth<br/><br/>Elizabeth didn't lie it was both a relief and added to the burden that pulled her heart down and down further till she felt it was buried somewhere very cold. A tear slipped from her eyes unnoticed followed closely by another. There was no kindness in the truth the way there would have been in a lie but there was a comfort in her words that though painful helped Lexie. "I wish my heart and my head would agree." She said laughing bitterly. "Even now my heart aches for the things I've never had." She said lifting her head and forcing her lips into a smile that looked sadder then the deepest frown.<br/><br/>"I never want to fall in love." She said turning her face into the wind letting the whipping of the air dry the tears against her face and tangle her hair behind her. She took a deep breath and closed her eyes and with each deep breath summoned a memory an instance where Kink stole a piece of her heart and affections without even meaning to, without a care for what he was doing to her and with each exhale banished the memory to the back of her mind where she wouldn't think of it again.<br/><br/>"If you still want me to lead the clowns I will. I didn't want to upset Kink before. I didn't want it to seem like I was plotting against him or some such thing but I think I'd enjoy it. The clowns are already everything to me, this life is everything to me and I think I could use the distraction of leading them. Though I'll only do it on the condition that Kink's role doesn't change. Selfishly I don't want him to hate me." She said giving a half hearted smile as she shifted a hand through her hair untangling a few of the snarled only to have them reform in a moment in the high wind.<br/><br/>The suggestion of going to a club when they got into the next town actually sparked a real smile to form on her lips. She shifted so quickly sometimes very much like a young child, the prospect of the outing distracted her completely for the moment and she lit up from the inside brightly. "That would be so much fun!" she said imagining dancing in the flashing lights and the loud music. She loved her life here and the olden days feel of the circus but she'd be lying if she said she didn't miss some of the modern world, music most acutely.<br/><br/>"No changing your mind this is just the pick me up I need." She said sobering a bit but not completely. The light was still back in her eyes as if it had never wavered. "Some hot guy I never have to see again sound just too perfect to be resisted." She said with a girlish giggle brushing back her hair again smiling into the distance. Her eyes still looked troubled in some deep way but she was smiling and laughing again and sounding much like her old self, besides that trace of sadness that lingered only if you knew where to look, that had to count for something right.<br/><br/>"Thank you Elizabeth." She said her voice turning serious again for a moment. "For not lying to me and giving me this life. I owe you so much and still every time I need you your there for me. Your a blessing I don't care what Lawrence calls you" She said impulsively leaning forward and hugging her fiercely for a few moments before letting go. Others might have been embarrassed by the display but not Lexie she just relaxed tilting her head back and let the bright sun warm her hoping it would touch the parts of her that felt frozen.