"Don't worry about it too much. I will just go and have something then. I don't mean to bother anyone else tonight. It seems that no matter how hard I try I am the same pain-in-the-ass-dad as usual." - He went down to have a drink and watch some TV until sleep overpowers him at the end. He knew that he will never be okay with his kids so he just decided that he won't try anyone - it seems that they are happy without his constant trying to make things better for them.