From (http://elliquiy.com/forums/index.php?topic=98856.msg4955743#msg4955743)<br/><br/>She had taken the back stairs up to her room, not wanting to risk seeing a client, not wanting to deal with anyone. She couldn't remember a time when she felt the need to run and hide so deeply but when she finally slammed her door shut behind her, another uncommon thing, she locked it, something she never did unless a client was with her.<br/><br/>Only then did she let herself crumple to the floor and break down into the full sobs that had been welling in her since she fled the gazebo. Her eyes stung with her tears, but her body still ached, the heat still there. Her lower lip was swollen from Zara's vicious bite and she struggled for several moments to calm herself down from the edge of hysterics. It had just been too much, Zara trying to make her feel like nothing, the desire, the thoughts of William.<br/><br/>William. Just looking around the room she saw him everywhere.<br/><br/>Fi inhaled shakily, willing away her tears and got herself back to her feet again, smoothing her hair back, pressing her skirts down, trying to think of something to do to keep her busy that didn't involve her going back outside. She could read, yes, there was a new book of her favorite series of novels out that she hadn't had a chance to read yet. The redhead went to her bookcase and tugged out the brand new volume but she found her desire to read somewhat lacking. What Zara had said wasn't true, it wasn't. It couldn't be.