After fighting with Kira over the knife she started to shake now that it was gone from her hands,"  Kira, I can't get him out of me. His tongue..his  saliva has to go. I have to kill myself. I don't want to be some crazed sex  ...." she told her as she was stopped when  Kira's lips almost met hers.<br/>" If I can't kill myself than how.. how am I going to get this stuff out of me?" she pleaded with her friend as she let her tears fall down her face and on to her bare skin.<br/>" That old guy... tried to fuck me. " she cried as she leaned in on Kira's shoulder.