<div class="floatleft">(http://img004.lazygirls.info/people/louise_cliffe/louise_cliffe_louise_cliffe_10_pTYYfVZ.sized.jpg)</div><strong>Name</strong>: Elena Josephine  Evens<br/><strong>Time</strong>:About eight months ago<br/><strong>Tagged</strong>: Jack<br/>Wearing (http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=64839816)<br/><br/>Elena smiled a bit but shook her head,<strong> "I don't think I could sit still long enough to actually meditate.' </strong>she said trying to stay positive. In truth she was exhausted and her whole body ached. She just didn't see meditation helping with that. And Elena wanted to let him have a bit of his own life still intact.<strong>"Thank you though."</strong>she said  as he walked back out the bed room.<br/><br/>Elena stared at her hands for a moment, watching them shake in her lap no matter how hard she tried to keep them still. Giving in after a moment she slowly worked the brush through her hair. Her arms getting tired after a while she figure it was good enough. Her eyes burned and it was so hard to keep them open at this point.<strong>"Just for a minute, just till my clothes are done."</strong>she said to herself as if trying to reason or make a deal with herself. She laid down on his bed, laying on her arm so she wouldn't get his pillow wet with her hair. She closed her eyes and quickly succumbed to sleep. So drained at this point it was inevitable.<br/><br/><div align="center"><strong>-----</strong></div><br/>She had no idea how much time had past whens he woke up shaking. The lights were out and she had been tuck under the covers. Though they were now tangled around her legs. The robe having fallen away with all her twisting and turning. Her naked body was covered in sweet and felt like it had been run through a marathon. Her sleep restless and filled with nightmares of her past causing her to let short cries free as she slept. She sat up suddenly, her eyes trying to adjust to the dark as her heart raced in her chest.<br/><br/>Elena looked about scared as she momentarily forgot where she was. After a few deep breaths and she suddenly remembered where she was. Her mouth was dry but thankfully there was a bottle of water set on the nightstand. Her shaking hand had it open and drank in a minutes. She sat there as her cravings racked through her body and she swore she was going to crawl out of skin if she didn't get a fix soon. Looking about she found her clothes folded and waiting next to the bed. It took several minutes a little bit of cussing but she was able to get dressed.<strong>"No what?</strong>" she asked herself running her hands up and down her pants. Staying still was nearly impossible at this very moment. And all she wanted to do was get that next hit. She looked at the clock Dean would still be up. And he'd deal....surely he would she had what he wanted after all.<strong>"Fuck it."</strong>she said and stood walking to the bedroom door which was closed.<br/><br/>Opening it slowly she slipped out of the room letting her hands fallow the wall till eyes adjusted. She knew Jack was asleep on the couch but prayed that if she was quiet he wouldn't notice. Elena felt bad, he had such faith in her. But she just hurt so bad, so quietly she stepped up to the door and started to try and unlock it to get out.