<div align="center">Amanda (http://elliquiy.com/forums/index.php?topic=91133.msg3981857#msg3981857)<br/></div><br/>Amanda looked to her roomy and smiled but it didn't meet her eyes<br/><br/><strong>"Tracy, today in one day I made so many mistakes. Each attempt to be a friend backfired, and perhaps what people say about try-hards is true. Try too hard and it just fails, one is a looser. Try-hards are loosers. At first I thought it was an insult but they weren't they were warnings and I thought I was different, that such rules didn't apply to me because I am special"</strong><br/><br/>Amanda ignored the spoon and plucked a piece of kiwi fruit from her bowl and swallowed it quickly<br/><strong><br/>"You came in doing everything right, scholarship on sheer talent, golden girl to all the musoe-s and I suppose they would know. The teachers here were even talking of you they heard cd's of your work. Others told me I ruined you gig at that pub when I was trying to sing along, apparently there was a talent scout there and they were interested and some noticed them leaving when I tried to sing. I think I may have blown not only a shot for you - one that many dream of ... but issues with the dean, and complications with your music-friends you had to boot out because I didn't think... and well ... where does it end. It was me that made a mess of things."<br/></strong><br/>A tear appeared in her eye<br/><strong><br/>"All I want I guess is to be part of such talent and look what may attempts did." </strong>She tilted her head to the shattered guitar case<br/><strong><br/>"Your going to get a new one anyway even if you hate the idea of it - the best money can buy, and if you don't like it, we get you one you do - the best money can buy and you keep both. I know a instrument, one a player is familiar with is like a friend that cant be replaced, has a soul and a replacement is never good enough - you grew up together, your soul blends with it. Such things are more quality to artists than what money can buy... but"</strong><br/><br/>Her eyes brightened<br/><strong><br/>"What you DONT understand my proud talented acquaintance .. is that you have SO much soul it drips from you and can't help but infuse and improve things around you. And its selfish of you to only do so for specific thigns. You so talented you are a gift for the world and its wrong of you not selfishly not share that soul of yours with more instruments waiting craving for you to make them whole.<br/><br/>You improved me and my friends claimed such things were impossible, you succeeded where everyone else failed. Now I MAY have ruined your chance with that one talent scout in that tavern, and that's the straw for your patience with me then I will respect that and leave and give you the space you deserve and not interfere. But although Im not as smart or as savvy or as wise as you would hope a friend to be - but my angels have not deserted me yet ! <br/><br/>I asked Ethan to put in a good word for us with the dean .. I know you said you didn't want that and that you may feel that Im not respecting ANY of your desires or wishes but DAMN - resolving this for freshers who don't know better .. which is me not you is WHAT head boys are FOR thats WHY we have a student representative ! " <br/></strong><br/>Although she was talking loudly she was smiling looking to the ceiling as if seeing her angels.<br/><strong><br/>"And although you asked not to get involved with getting a replacement guitar ... tough.. your going to get the best.. and if you don't like it your going to buy the best yourself and I pay for it if I have to drag you to the stores kicking and screaming. AND ... "<br/></strong><br/>At this point she seemed to twirl reaching towards the light as if touching the protective and positive spirits she believed so vehemently in<br/><br/><strong>"Im I have tens of millions in a trust fund that I can access next year no matter WHAT happens .. which you get at least two ANYWAY ... <br/>and I don't care if you refuse it Its going to be transfered into your account anyway .. what you do with it from there on ... is your choice .. but it WILL appear in your account, so its YOURS to make the decision on. You see Trace, good things come one's way when you DONT need them to .. and with two million dollars you will not NEED talent scouts appearing, you will not NEED the Dean to not kick us out  - which MEANS the Dean will not - AND that talent scouts will seek you again !"</strong><br/><br/>Then she started spinning<br/><br/><strong>"AND Ethen has enrolled us in a competition where the winners go on a holidays WHILE being credited for artistic units ! WHICH we are going to win <span class="bbc_u">because </span>more than anyone else we DONT NEED TO !"</strong><br/><br/>Triumphantly she then sat on Tracy's bed - too close for Tracy's normal expectation of others - especially girls like Amanda but Amanda didn't seem to care<br/><br/><strong>"Your the only person I know that tells me the truth, everyone else trys and shelters me because they think they can get money from me being nice you dont, you dont care about such things. Your focus, your passion doesn't want or NEED money, your soul is enough for you which is why your getting it. Soooooo miss'es grumpy bum..." </strong><br/><br/>Amanda playfully touched Tracy's nose with her forefinger<br/><br/><strong>"I may be a spoilt silly, frustratingly intrusive, spaced out insane fruitcake - like several have told me in times they felt there was nothing they would jeapodise by being ... truthful I suppose.  BUT I have <span class="bbc_u">Angels</span> ! And as bad as my own actions are ... my guardian angels actions more than make up for it and they will help YOU because I like you and asked them to. You may think bad of me... but you will not think bad of them. You will see. They love you... because I do."</strong><br/>