As Elijah took her into his arms Maddi was torn, she wanted him so much because it was as if she became complete with him, that without him she wasn't whole.  But the pain of him being there and seeing her so torn apart made her feel terrible.  She didn't want to be some crying ninny who hung on a man's coat tails, to be a rock around his neck was the last thing she desired.  She should have been strong enough not to tell him, not to spoil it with her need, then they could have spent this time together building memories to last her when he left....<br/><br/>Then, slowly she realised he was crying too, and it turned everything around, spinning out of control until she could hardly breathe, in torment to understand what it meant.  She was horrified that she had hurt him and desperately tried to see the cause and how to help him.  Then it struck her, she'd done this to him, and if he wanted to be with her and couldn't then this could be what was tearing him apart.  He was that kind of man, true and brave, if he was committed to someone else, he would stand by that, no matter how much he cared for her, and all she'd done was make it harder for him.....<br/><br/>She could feel his pain, and it calmed her, he needed her, and at least while she was here with him she could make it right, if only for a while.  She turned in his arms, kneeling back between his thighs she kissed his eyes and then his lips her arms going round him.