<div class="quoteheader"><div class="topslice_quote"><a href="https://elliquiy.com/forums/index.php?topic=141928.msg6451891#msg6451891">Quote from: Fedora on 18-06-2012, 00:45:28</a></div></div><blockquote class="bbc_standard_quote">*snickers* I was more submissive when I was younger, but as time went on I grew to realize that omfg, I HATE not being in control. It's almost a phobia at this point. Nothing really happened between then and now to make me feel that way or anything, like no one hurt me or anything like that, I just... Oh my god, it actually pisses me off. Just imagining it now to talk about it is tensing me up really bad. My fiancé is more submissive than anything, so thankfully he's been mostly accepting of that (we both started out as switches). He does occasionally get these fancies of tying me up and doing things to me while I'm helpless but I've made it clear to him that no, that shit won't fly &gt;.&gt; it like... ugh, it makes me feel horrible. I literally <em>can't</em> be submissive in real life, not if you don't want me having a panic attack and opening a full can of whoop-ass on you, though I don't mind occasionally RPing it (even though none of my characters here are submissive, lol). <br/></blockquote><div class="quotefooter"><div class="botslice_quote"></div></div><br/>I'm a bit the same.  It's more just a turn off for me, though.  I can get into really submissive moods -- largely during my manic period, I've noticed -- but outside that, I just can't stand it.  But then I have kinks like asphyxia and am a huge masochist...  Fuuuh, I would *loooove* to have a subby playmate that would be willing to stick metal things in me.  ;_;  It squicks my mate out.  D:<br/><br/><div class="quoteheader"><div class="topslice_quote"><a href="https://elliquiy.com/forums/index.php?topic=141928.msg6451891#msg6451891">Quote from: Fedora on 18-06-2012, 00:45:28</a></div></div><blockquote class="bbc_standard_quote">But yes! Top surgery, omg. I'm almost getting kind of sad right now remembering that I probably won't be allowed top surgery when I move. &gt;.&gt;<br/></blockquote><div class="quotefooter"><div class="botslice_quote"></div></div><br/>D:  -Hugs.-  That's terrible!<br/><br/>I'm lucky with New Zealand; they're pretty supportive of the whole 'other gender' and non-hetero sexualities.  And they have really epic drag and gay bars.  >><br/><br/>I'm still gonna have to wait to get it, though.  I haven't even gotten to start T, yet, as I don't even have money to afford my lithium.  ><  -Flops.-<br/><br/><div class="quoteheader"><div class="topslice_quote"><a href="https://elliquiy.com/forums/index.php?topic=141928.msg6451897#msg6451897">Quote from: undisclosedtoyou on 18-06-2012, 00:47:04</a></div></div><blockquote class="bbc_standard_quote">One of my favorite <del>words!</del> Terms!<br/></blockquote><div class="quotefooter"><div class="botslice_quote"></div></div><br/>-Snerk.-