Amanda silently looked at Tracy leave and sighed mumbling to ethen.<br/><strong><br/>"She doesn't want to have anything to do with me. Even my money isn't good enough. I dont understand Tracy is on a scholarship others told me she isnt that wealthy I want to help. Perhaps I can leave some money where she will find it but she will probably know its me and turn her nose up at it for a reasons which makes all the sense in the world to her which she refuses to explain or want to talk of. <br/><br/>Strange how people can have strong views on things while not wanting to talk of them, to me seems to defeat the purpose of passion or views. I wonder what having them gets them ?<br/><br/>I suppose is pride either making do on their own not accepting hand outs or just nothing to do with someone like me. But who is independent really ? <br/><br/>We are dependent on doctors and civil servants and nurses and teachers and the army and stuff, doesn't mean we have to like them I suppose but doing anything on our own doesn't make sense unless we want to go live in some island in the middle of nowhere.<br/><br/>You know what that sounds tempting, island in the middle of nowhere - far away from deans, leave all my troubles behind."<br/></strong>