<em>~ Maddi with Desmond and Elijah at girls camp ~</em><br/><br/>Maddi stared at Elijah, taken aback at both his tone and his words.  It was so painful to be spoken to in such a way it took her a moment to absorb it and to struggle with her inner demons and not to rise to the bate and snap at him.  But, looking down at her feet and biting her lip she knew he had a right to be pissed off and there was no pretending it didn't happen.<br/><br/>She thought the best thing would be just to explain how it happened, I mean – she knew he might still be pissed at her, but the truth was what it was and she couldn't change it.<br/><br/>"When I found Tony, he was out cold, and not to put a finer point on it I didn't have much clothes on, I had no idea that there were guys on the island, I thought we were alone and I'd used my top for gathering the fruits you see there," she said gesturing at them, keeping her voice low, but feeling tense and a little strained nevertheless.<br/><br/>"Well, when Tony came round he kissed me, and we ended up getting very intimate rather suddenly." she paused, thinking back to the rush of confusing feelings at the time.  "Then he explained that he'd been marooned on the island for over two years and hadn't even seen a woman, and well.....  I thought he was all on his own..... and he........well he was very needful.  I didn't want to be a tease, and I felt... well I felt he needed me."<br/><br/>Maddi couldn't quite meet their eyes and hugged her knees to her chest, wishing they weren't having this conversation, but ploughing on to get it over with. "To be honest it was quite a long time for me since I'd been with a man, and he, well.......  I thought if I assuaged his need it might help me get over....... well, maybe help me to forget......." she couldn't bring herself to tell them about her own private problems and she foundered for a moment.<br/><br/>She raised her head and met Elijah's eyes squarely.    "I think it was partly about being alive, not being at the bottom of the sea with the Misty Blue, a need to feel it badly.  It was very instant, and very unplanned I can assure you.  And afterwards...." Maddi pressed her lips together and tried to keep her eyes blank, "Well suffice to say I can promise you Tony feels nothing for me, it was just sex, nothing more. He is attracted to Kira, and probably right now they are together."<br/><br/>She moved to put some more wood on the fire and shrugged, concealing the hurt, "I know I'm not the rich pretty one, Kira's parents owned the yacht, I'm normally just the hired hand, but this was a holiday for the three of us." she turned and sat back down again, "Some holiday," she said bitterly, "I can look out for the girls, you don't need to worry, we won't be a burden to you," she added resignedly, knowing that was the way it would be, her doing the looking after, "And now there are a few more of us we can maybe take turns in keeping an eye out for shipping, I saved a little fuel from the wreck, we can use that to get a beacon lighted quickly if it happens too."<br/><br/>She looked across at Desmond and smiled lightly and then across at Elijah too, "And as far as the beer goes, it's a gift for you two to share, you don't give gifts back, you can have it now or later – I've got 5 more and I'll  give one to the other two guys to share too.  Just like my gift of sex to Tony, there's no strings, and we can't turn back the clock, once it's given it's given."