*snickers* I was more submissive when I was younger, but as time went on I grew to realize that omfg, I HATE not being in control. It's almost a phobia at this point. Nothing really happened between then and now to make me feel that way or anything, like no one hurt me or anything like that, I just... Oh my god, it actually pisses me off. Just imagining it now to talk about it is tensing me up really bad. My fiancé is more submissive than anything, so thankfully he's been mostly accepting of that (we both started out as switches). He does occasionally get these fancies of tying me up and doing things to me while I'm helpless but I've made it clear to him that no, that shit won't fly >.> it like... ugh, it makes me feel horrible. I literally<em>can't</em>be submissive in real life, not if you don't want me having a panic attack and opening a full can of whoop-ass on you, though I don't mind occasionally RPing it (even though none of my characters here are submissive, lol).<br/><br/>But yes! Top surgery, omg. I'm almost getting kind of sad right now remembering that I probably won't be allowed top surgery when I move. >.>