When he left, Lenally sat there, the kiss he'd placed on her forehead like a searing promise. She put  a hand to her lips, and felt so perplexed. She felt tears threaten to sting her eyes. In one day, was it possible that she had fallen in love twice?<br/><br/>She looked at the dresses, and she wanted so desperately to burn them. They were the cause of all this! But at the same time, as angry and confused as she felt she felt such burning desire. She felt the need to be touched, the ache between her legs, her breasts, all of it. She was not used to feeling womanly feelings and looked about, making sure no one else was about.<br/><br/>She laid down, curled up, and let herself cry it out. Only one other person in the world had seen her tears, and she prayed no one else would. She was not weak.<br/><br/>Her dreams were haunted by visions of Lorenso and Gerrard. She couldn't stop her mind from imagining both men bringing her the pleasures of the flesh, both pursuing her. She wasn't certain what to do. After awhile, she was unable to sleep, her mind too clouded with her thoughts as she rose up, got dressed again in her boyish clothes and flattened her bust. She went over and looked in the mirror, feeling better. This was who she was, she had to hold onto it. She would fight being a woman as much as she could, but felt it was much harder now than it was before she'd crossed the threshold of the Theiri Castle. When she heard the click of a door opening she turned around, not certain who it could be. Could Gerrard be back? "What is it no.....? Lorenso...?" she said, startled. He saw her dressed as a boy again, apparently she could not sleep.