I clapped my hands together like a little kid excited "Ooo I can't wait, I'm going to get started right now." I said bouncing up "This will be so much fun" I say giving Light a quick hug before skipping out of her room and into my own so I can get started.<br/><br/>The envelope draws my attention as soon as I close the door behind me but it some how look less ominous then it had last night. Feeling excited and exilerated by the new project I felt happy, at peace again. I picked it up without hesitation, and turned it over in my hands smiling lightly to myself as I look through it in the light at the expensive paper. Tapping it against my wrist I walk across the room to the trash can. Smiling brightly for a moment, I take it in both hands, and while I hold my breath I tear it in half.<br/><br/>Feeling released, finally completely free for the first time since leaving I rip it again and again giggling as the many small pieces fall though my fingers and into and around the trash can.<br/><br/>Sighing happily I leave the pieces where they fall and grab my favorite folder with it's doodlings all over the cover and my favorite neon blue pen to start making out my list keeping around the theme of freedom, taking chances, finding your own path, being lost and in the complete confusion finding the perfect place for you.