<em>~Mila at the slumber party, not slumbering~</em><br/><br/>Mila smiled as Nicci and Bo joined the rest of them on the floor, hugging her arms tighter around her neck.  She needed to enjoy more and worry less, she thought.  She'd try her best to throw herself into the moment.  She watched Mari and Nicci flirt and wanted to join in, but it hadn't gone so well at dinner, so she pulled back, just being herself.  The old herself, not the new-and-improved, more-like-the-other-girls herself she'd been trying out earlier.<br/><br/>As Nicci turned to her with a truffle, she smiled at the other woman and said, "Thank you," accepting it into her mouth.  As the rich chocolate flavor burst in her mouth, she thought about whether it would be the five of them, or if they would replace Vince with someone else.<br/><br/>And then, a sudden and horrific thought entered her mind.  What if they wanted even numbers of men and women, but didn't want to bring anyone else in?  Would they ask one of the women to leave?  She felt a little sick at the thought and wanted to bring it up, but she didn't. Everyone else seemed relaxed, like they were having fun, and she didn't want to bring up something so negative.  If it happened and neither of the other women wanted to leave, she'd consider volunteering, although it would break her heart.  She wasn't ready to leave. But she had to admit, if only to herself, that the others fit better. They could relax where she couldn't.<br/><br/>She forced a smile onto her face, laughing as Nicci moved next to Marcus with the truffles.  She would stop fretting about this.  They were surely going to be told something in the morning!