Claire found herself paling at Landon's insistence.  He didn't understand, and she didn't know how to explain it to him.  She could feel Gavin's eyes on them, could only imagine what he was thinking.  She wanted a way out, but she didn't know how, not without making things awkward for Landon, and not without creating tension between her and Gavin... yet again.<br/><br/>Landon leaned in, his frame filling her personal space, and her breath caught in her throat.  He'd always been larger than life, handsome and wonderful.  She didn't want to disappoint him, not anymore than she wanted to disappoint her husband.  She knew that he was serious about tossing her in the water, but she also knew that if she insisted, he would back off.<br/><br/>But was that what she even wanted?  To have to explain to him that she was damaged?  To see pain in Gavin's eyes because he wanted her to just be her again?  No.  She could live a little, pretend for an hour or two that she was still who she used to be.  It was dark outside, and this was<em>Landon.</em>He wasn't going to judge her.  She was married to someone else; it wasn't as if he even looked at her that way.<br/><br/>"Okay," she murmured, taking a step back.  "I'll go change and meet you guys outside," she said, and then disappeared into the safety of her room.