(https://img.youtube.com/vi/AhKWJN_BrFw/0.jpg)<br/><br/>Josh let the conversations flow around him, noting Emily's interaction with Jacob the man mountain she'd hired for security, there was no jealousy in Josh, hell if he could deal with the so called love of life tearing his heart out and married a guy for money and still keep screwing her , let alone talk to her without yelling, well he could deal with Emily hooking up. Infact, that really would be a good thing it would move Emily from a shouldn't to a couldn't.  Josh would fuck any female with a decent bod but he never tapped the women of people he knew (at least not without the all clear)...he'd purposely avoided getting to know Katie's husband for that reason.<br/><br/>His mind turned to Emma , his life ,his joy, everything he did he did for her, if the band succeeded as it should, his daughter would want for nothing bit to succeed sacrifice had to be made , despite the legendary parties this band was very professional, the fans rarely saw the hours of practice as a group and individually, the band had to succeed if they didn't , well his agreement with his parents was that Josh would go to college and then get a real job, not that his folks actually said it that way they had been incredibly supportive , it was more how Josh viewed his alternative. It would all be worth it, success that is, but right here right now that sacrifice seemed so high , he'd not see his daughter for at least a month if not longer and while his mother up was a compulsive photo taker would see her grand daughter almost daily, photos weren't the same as holding his daughter... never would be.<br/><br/><br/>He'd feel better 'banging his drums' as his mother often called what he did his eyes moving to the set up happening even now,, sipping a beer Josh refocused on the conversations flowing around him.