As Sarah talked Alice's face began to soften. At its completion impulsively she took three quick steps towards the girl before finding herself on her knee with her face so sideways turned it almost touched one shoulder.<br/><br/>"Oh Sarah, forgive me please. I talked without thinking its caused a lot of grief for me in the past. I am a fool I guess I'm so afraid I just talked with a miliary tongue without remembering what humanity is"<br/><br/>Velnze glanced at the empty water glass she used<br/><br/>"Just like that water, I didn't ask, I just walze in like the world is mine and stomp on whatever doesnt agree with me, your right. The ends dont justify the means, if we become our enemy trying to defeat them we have already lost what our humanity is."<br/><br/>"In ways I feel so week, so powerless with the responsibility of the world on my shoulders I forget that its a burden shared."<br/><br/>Lips trembled and eyes reddened - after which a tear seemed to well<br/><br/>"I cant recall a father and my mom was always distraught he left her in a way I had to take his role I suppose while something inside me seems lost and disjointed for being so. Unlearning these things is not easy, memories of why I repressed being soft are not fond ones. I will not tell anyone, not now, not now I understand. Eleventh hour or not your secret is safe. Trying to control fate is a fools aspiration and I should let the reins go to higher gods I suppose. Please don't stay angry at me, I dont have any friends and have not learned to easily talk honestly about things like you can. I want more I need more."<br/><br/>Two welling tears started streaming over Alice's cheek<br/><br/>"Things out there so powerful they can project through the iris of our own Stargate ? I'm scared Sarah, I have not had intimacy for so long, the women here make me think of nothing else, I want to be with them desparately, I want to be with you, and I don't know how to keep my head.<br/><br/>With you - talking like I am a verbal military text book was the only thing that keeps me from becoming a mess over it. My heart isnt in the military views of life, but while being with you who could see straight through my foolish armor is intimidating because of what it means, so close to the bone.<br/><br/>Slap me please, kick me, anything else please Sarah but see though it hon, please don't hate me not now, please not now"<br/><br/>