<em>~ Nicci wanting to know about her new family ~</em><br/><br/><br/>Nicci's pulse quickened as Bo's eyes opened up that deep fiery place once more, kicking open the door to her own response and setting her on fire with his heat.  The relief was almost stronger than the desire for him, it bathed her like a hot steam, releasing tension she didn't even know she'd had until now.  He hadn't withdrawn from her completely, his need was still there and one day soon she might be able to let it encircle her and assuage it's power.  Perhaps if he could open up in this way, even for a moment, it might mean he would open up to her in others. She wouldn't rush it, she just knew that more than anything she wished for him peace and contentment and wanted to be part of bringing it to him.<br/><br/>When he took his eyes away so quickly, it almost stung, and she dropped her own to look down at the table reaching out to grip the stem of her wine glass, and swirl the little water that was left in it around.  How stupid to feel like that she thought. He wasn't rejecting her, it was her own silly fault for wanting more. She had no right to think it, let alone be upset when it didn't happen.<br/><br/>She tuned in again to what he was saying, 'Getting to know each of you.......' yes he was right, it was almost as though he was speaking directly to her, telling her off for being so selfish.  She should not have let herself think about one person differently. She must make more of an effort to open up to the others just as deeply.<br/><br/>She frowned slightly as he said they should not chase ghosts too soon, and looked up. Trying to gauge the reactions of the others.  Did he mean that they should not be silly and flirt?  Or was he alluding to getting closer with each other?  She started to understand a little more as he continued and made it clear that it meant too much to him to hurry and that they should be careful not to put the cart before the horse.<br/><br/>She felt the balance should be right too, it was very important they got to know each other, but she also felt that being intimate with someone opened doors that nothing else did.  Her frown deepened, conservative upbringing, she thought back to how he had introduced himself – did it all point to him not being involved in group sex before?<br/><br/>She looked around the table, she had not thought before she came that some of them might not already be used to that.  Which was silly really taking into account how little BDSM experience she had and as for being a proper submissive almost none at all, perhaps some of them were more experienced in that and not in swinging or group sex.<br/><br/>Vince she thought seemed so open and so physically sure that she couldn't see him not having enjoyed the lifestyle, the open knowing looks a sure come hither she had experienced many times before.  Mari too had already said she had, and Mila that she'd wanted to, but it sounded as though she hadn't.  That left Marcus and Bo........<br/><br/>She thought about it carefully, they needed to be more proactive about finding out about each others backgrounds and experience.  Without knowing it - someone could get hurt or be put in a difficult position.  She listened to Mari almost skirting round the edge of what she was thinking herself - and her kind way of putting everyone at their ease.  She was going to be rock for them all she thought.<br/><br/>In the silence that followed and the arrival of desert she formulated her thoughts into a coherent thread and gathered her courage to voice them.  Marcus too seemed to want to keep it light, so perhaps what she was going to say was not going to be popular, but from her own experience of how important full disclosure and real honesty was she wanted the best for all of them and knew in her heart it was one of the most important things they could achieve from the start - before emotions and relationships came to the forefront.<br/><br/>Taking a sip of water she said slightly hesitantly but getting stronger as she went along, “I think it is really important we learn more about each other so we can support and care for each other fully and do what real families do, which is be there for each other - and the understanding we need will only really fully form if we take the plunge and reveal ourselves.”<br/><br/>She paused for a moment, seeing it anyone wanted to chip in or disagreed but as no-one did she continued,  “Perhaps after dinner we could do something I have seen before, we can each write two questions on a piece of paper one at a time, then when we have all had a turn each person then answers all the questions on the list.”<br/><br/>She swallowed, hoping she wasn't going to be thought a party pooper and they understood just how much it might help them bond, “And as well as serious and personal questions we can always throw in the odd silly one too – perhaps we should also ask everyone if they have seen a ghost,” she added, smiling at Vince, like Marcus not wanting the evening to be too serious.