~ All the girls, in Mari's room ~<br/><br/><br/>Nicci gently snagged Mila's hand, bringing back towards her, holding it in hers and smiling into her eyes, "You know Mila, not only are you kind and loving I think you are far braver than you think.  You just voiced what I had been too shy to talk about, because I too am excited about Vince being a master.  I did mention briefly tonight I too started exploring my need to submit by going to BDSM groups and, well....... after playing and scening there I had already come to the point where I was going to try and find a master to teach me."<br/><br/>"It is hard isn't it, talking about so many personal things.   My life, until now has been compartmentalised, most people knowing very little about me and some groups knowing one part and another group something else entirely. I think my time here with you will be the first time I will open up all those different pieces and put the jigsaw together and be whole.  I hope so, I so much want to be free of all the restraints and find acceptance for the parts of me I normally keep hidden."<br/><br/>Nicci looked up at Mari as she let Mail's hand just lay in hers so she could take it away if she wished, "I agree Mari that we three each bring something different, just as the guys do.  And also there are quite a few things I think we will find commonality with, look how we are all drawn to the men, there must be some of our wiring the same for that to happen.  And also see how we want to open ourselves up to each other, to be sisters together in this family and learn to love each other, isn't that wonderful?"<br/><br/>Smothering a yawn, she added, "I think I will go to sleep more positive and hopeful than I would ever have thought possible at dinner earlier, already I feel that anything is possible if we work at it and open our hearts up to each other."  She smiled at them both, "I can't tell you how much I've always wanted sisters, a family."<br/><br/>She paused, sipping her drink, and then said,  "You know Bo kissed me earlier, when we went to get the whiskey......  I had said to him that he didn't seem to be sure of his own feelings, that he didn't need to try and force them to make up for the problems we had had earlier.....  that he should just to wait and see how we got on.  Then he kissed me, and it was lovely, and he was so sweet afterwards, but to be honest, I don't want this to be just about the physical, about sex and everything.  It would be easy to jump into bed with any of the guys," she grinned, "In fact all of them." thinking of sharing that wonderful big bed upstairs with all three of them at once, "But I so want this to be about more than that."<br/><br/>She paused, she'd really like to know what they thought but wasn't sure how to put it, "What do you two feel?  I mean, normally if one of the guys came onto me and we both knew there were no strings I would love it, and I don't want to hurt their feelings by turning them down or letting them think I don't want them, but at the same time will having sex really early on in this relationship make it more difficult to find the love?    – Oh I don't know, I'm really muddled about this..... I don't have much experience of proper loving relationships, I haven't a clue what makes them strong enough to last, let alone strong enough to make a polyamory family."<br/><br/>Nicci, sat looking down into her mug as her words trailed off.  She wished she had Mari's way of getting to the bottom of things and saying things in such a real way, she knew there was so much more she wanted to try and communicate, but couldn't.