<em>~ Nicci, taking the first step in opening herself up to the girls ~</em><br/><br/>"I'm very attracted to all them too, very much so, and I do think the boys may have a few rough patches getting themselves really integrated into a family dynamic.  I agree Mari, we need to be very open with each other, because actually I think we may find it just as hard," she paused for a moment, "I know I will."<br/><br/>She struggled to find the right words, taking a sip of hot chocolate she stood, frowning slightly looking pensively at the floor before raising her head again and looking at them once more. She wanted to start as she meant to go on, this meant to much to her for anything other than complete honesty.  "You see, with us I think our hearts may be the thing that will take us more work to soothe and connect properly. I've shared a man before, but only ever in a fun way, I......" she hesitated again it wasn't the time to go into too much detail but she wanted them to understand, "Well, I haven't given my heart to any guy for a long long time, for various reasons, and then later knowing I needed more than a monogamous relationship I never wanted to hurt a guy or let him get his hopes up."<br/><br/>She smiled wryly, she knew her carefree lifestyle shocked a lot of people but for her it had been a way to manage her sexuality without hurting anyone in the process.  "So now, coming here with an open heart and hoping to form real loving relationships I already find that not only am I attracted to the all three of them, I care about them, and want them to care about me."<br/><br/>"So, I think, that sharing them, seeing them make love to someone else, and loving them too, might be harder than I thought it would, and frankly it scares me.  I already feel such a wonderful deep sense of hope and yearning, I've never had a family, no sisters or brothers and to be honest you two are just so wonderful I don't want to hurt you either or let you down."<br/><br/>Nicci, knew it was a lot to say, and she didn't want them to feel she was trying to hog the limelight or anything, but she wanted it out in the open.  She looked into Mila's eyes, "And I know you're wrong about Bo, I saw the way he looked at you a few times tonight, he wants you and cares about you  as much as he wants any of us, in fact it made me jealous for a moment, and that is what I mean, I think it's going to take so much openness and even quite a bit of pain, if we want it to work."<br/><br/>She looked across at Mari hoping she hadn't been disappointed in her admission about feeling a little jealous, "I don't think the men will have any problems sharing us, they already seem attracted to us all, but maybe that part of it might be harder for us – don't you think?"