(http://i329.photobucket.com/albums/l368/veronicaking1969/PS.jpg)<br/><br/>Ember wondered if it was just his imagination, or if everyone knew what he'd been thinking.  He felt like they were all looking at him a bit oddly, but then again, maybe he was just paranoid.<br/><br/>As his eyes traveled over each of his bandmates, he felt like the world's biggest shit.  Why was he hiding this?  He knew them better than to think they'd turn on him, or throw him out of the bad.  Maybe the fans would have something to say, but these people, they were his brothers and sisters and he shouldn't have been keeping secrets from them.<br/><br/>He'd denied his own feelings for too long, and he wasn't getting any younger.  He was determined to at least explore his desires with Alex, someone he felt he could trust, but deep down, he already knew he wanted the other man.<br/><br/>Now, if he could just grow a pair and go after him.<br/><br/>Ember shook his head when he heard his name, and make himself focus.  He winked at Emily, then gave her a small mock bow.  "I wouldn't dream of it," he grinned, looking and sounding more like his old self.  "The honor is all yours, my dear."