I really do regret you leaving the game.  I think your character is acceptably effective, and you really do tank pretty well, not to mention your skills coming in fairly handy.  If it's a huge problem, I might be willing to hand your character a suitcase full of 15,000xp, or some other benefit (such as access to the iajutsu focus skill) as long as you're willing to civily and rationally prove your inferiority to the other characters.  (and promise not to do something like this again.  :-) )<br/><br/>Still, I'm not particularly willing to change my stance on letting players kill their characters to respawn.  (although that'll be pretty allowable in my other game, since PC life is cheap in call of cthulu)