It's okay ladies. I have just realized that running play by post games just doesn't work for me.  I put to much pressure on myself and it sucks all the enjoyment out of playing. I am proud of the setting mash-up that is Sha'ib, as I like adding diversity to gaming but I just have a hard time posting in games that I create.  I just want to go back to writing one character that I can really delve into and I can't seem to let myself do that when I run a game.