ooc, she has a duality to her persona. She conflicts between her scholarly side and being a bookworm who like to read (and not be bothered while doing so), and her valor side where she grows big and destroys her enemies. Her backstory has her town worshiping her, and she'd like to be able to return to the normalcy of not being worshiped, or praised, or adored when she's studying. She also likes being able to live amongst groups without being treated as if she was special. it's a conflicting duality that she is still learning about with herself.