Tanith pulled her knees to her chest, tears burning her eyes. Why had she chased him away? Why couldn't she just let him in? Her body felt to hot to exposed and empty again. She hated this feeling and didn't relies how used to it she had gotten to it till it was gone. She had lied but the truth was she didn't now the truth. Only images and nightmares and scares that made even her cringe. How could he understand? How could he still want her? After... after what ....her chest burned as she fought for the memories that were hidden from her. The battle the separated them, what happened afterward. Where were all the happy ones....the ones that kept her going all those long lonely years? She curled up her body to warm for comfort the bed shaking from her movement. "Fuck...what's wrong with me...?"Tanith started to cry fro the first time in a long a long while.<br/><br/>She didn't know how long had passed, her body shaking form her high temperature.  The spell torn away, or scars exposed he chest burned as flashes of pain were all she knew. The images of man she couldn't place, his laughter and mocking tone. Her mind raced and her chest felt like it was on fire. She could feel the hot nails cut across her back like it was yesterday, “AHhhh...." she screamed and gripped the sheets. Not being able to fight the visions now her mind not wanting to she disserved this. Having pushed Neron away, why was her heart so closed off. Her body growing hotter and hotter by the minute she could only lay there and let herself go, let it happen. She would release the heart with in her and set him free hopefully her nightmares wouldn't burden him as they did her.  She screamed again as she rode out the pain.