<div class="floatleft">(https://i.imgur.com/aVxMRPx.png) (https://i.imgur.com/xqh065e.png)</div><strong>Character Name:</strong><em>Robin Elliot (https://elliquiy.com/forums/index.php?topic=341012.msg16145131#msg16145131)</em><br/><strong>Wearing:</strong><em>Hoodie, jeans, hiking boots, backpack</em><br/><strong>Time:</strong><em>June 5th, 11:00am</em><br/><strong>Location:</strong><em>Down River</em><br/><strong>Tagging | Mentioning:</strong><em> Ellie | CJ, Felix</em><br/><br/><hr/><br/>Robin flinches ever so slightly at the accusation of being snobbish. It’s not the first time that he’s heard that accusation leveled against him, and it’s not the first time he’s vehemently felt it unfair. At least he is pretty sure it is unfair; sure, he sometimes<em>has opinions</em>about people and how they spend their time. (It’s certainly not something that has ceased in camp, judging by his silent groan that it had barely started when people were talking about getting stoned in the woods like half of his friends in California will be doing in the comfort of their very own room all Summer. What a waste of an opportunity...)<br/><br/>Still, he tries to relax. He knows Ellie is trying to say that she was wrong about judging him, and he knows she isn’t silently reading his mind to know his more recent thoughts (well, probably… who knows with the way the last few days have gone.) ”I<em>was</em>shy, you know… maybe still am…”<br/><br/>Robin glances down, as if it is not his proudest moment of confession. ”Or maybe… I think?  It’s like… it’s like… you have all these things you’re thinking. And you want to say them all.. .badly, sometimes all at once. But none of them sound right, and you know that you should say something but that just makes it more difficult when you know nothing sounds right.. And you try to even just say hi.. And the words just get stuck there… and you know everyone is watching you… judging… which makes you know that you should say something.. .anything…<em>even more,</em>but then that makes you more anxious and…”  His jaw drops in slightly exasperation as he tugs at his tied-back hair just slightly. He swallows audibly and abruptly ends his thought, “I didn't… don’t… feel very pretty.”<br/><br/>“But thanks you are… I mean,” he stares, inhaling, feeling those old patterns returning to him in the moment, causing his throat to clamp up and his mouth to go dry. “I mean you are… you are…”<br/><br/>He glances away and stares down, momentarily jumping as Fellow seems to take the invitation that Ellie pulled away from, and creeps a hand out to touch Robin’s back.  Robin jumps just slightly as he recalls the source of the strange, soft, and very non-human touch as the bandaged hands rub at his sweaty shirt back.  ”It’s okay, buddy…” Robin finally breathes.<br/><br/>He lets the moment pass and listens to Ellie’s verbal gymnastics around his brother and their identities, past and present. He’s able to find eye contact again with a furrowed brow, ”It’s okay, you know. I mean: please, please do try to have it straight around him but I get it. I tried… I try to make it like I didn’t give it another thought. I owed him that much between my parents being asses and everything Felix has done for me.”  Robin looks down a moment, offering in a much lower, more serent tone, ”I absolutely love my brother but just… every once in a while I can’t help but also miss my sister. It sounds stupiid to say, I know, but it’s… there.”<br/><br/>Frowning, Robin studies Ellie, ”Don’t tell him… anyone… I said that.”<br/><br/>The question about why he came here has Robin breathing heavily again, looking away.  ”Mom and dad are fine, still middle class trying to be something better as always.”  He huffs out, ”I heard from someone I met that this place was cool. I thought we could use some time away from California…” Robin pauses, running his mind over the moments of first seeing CJ and expecting excitement on the man’s face and seeing his eyes quickly dart away from Robin instead like he was some biblical leper. Robin thinks of bunk assignments and how Felix had planned to take the solo bunk just so that he and CJ could have had some time together: CJ seemed to instantly volunteer to be by Thorne so there wasn’t a chance that he and Robin would be<em>stuck</em>together. He thought of how absolutely stupid and guilty he felt for dragging Felix here, for not having more self-respect to restrain himself from wanting to be here… Robin thought of how since CJ’s obvious disinterest, Robin has judged his own body, his face, his interests, his personality, all in trying to figure out what made him feel that CJ was totally into him online, but in person was absolutely repulsed by him.<br/><br/>”I’m not sure it’s exactly what I expected. It’s been kind of weirdly lonely if I’m being honest, but I’m adjusting.”<br/><br/><br/>