On keeping sketchbooks
Helps to reign in the inner dialogue. At some point, a soft, friendly voice was discovered. She'd tell me to be nicer to myself. Seemingly we're 3-4, maybe 5 ppl inside this skull. Lately she changed into a nice granny and I found that it would be nice if she became my dominant self.<p>The current dominant self is all about herself, addicted to gaming, distracted, annyoing and anxious, and yearns for the end of life when frustrated. I'd never noticed these things if I hadn't given them a voice.<p>goes like this:<p>I'm dumb, I'm worthless, everyone would be better w/o me<p>her voice: What happened?<p>current me: I can't do this, this should be easy, I want to be dead<p>her voice: That so? What's your fear with this?<p>current me: I could be seen as lazy, I'd rather be dead than be seen as lazy<p>her voice, ironic tone: seems rational<p>Then the voices just stop and I can refocus... it's really weird. Anyways. Journaling really helps!