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I don&#x27;t know about other dyslexics but this not what it feels like to me.  For me the words don&#x27;t move they&#x27;re just different.  The letters are often swapped, I could stare at a word for a long time because I can&#x27;t quite tell what it is.<p>I even looked at the title of this and thought it was spelled right but then something inside my head said &quot;look again&quot;.  When I went to the site the problem is the words move rapidly and the changes are too obvious.  The challenge with my dyslexia is that the words have changed before I see them in subtle ways that trip you up when you start reading.<p>A couple of things I&#x27;ve noticed:<p>* Handwriting is ok for me if it&#x27;s printed but cursive is almost impossible for me to read.<p>* Using light fonts on a dark background really helps a lot, when I switched my ipad kindle to black background and white font my reading speed went up almost 20x.  It felt like I was part of the human race finally and understood what people meant by a &quot;quick enjoyable read&quot;.<p>Accidently my work on computers started on old CRT terminals where the fonts where light and the background was dark.  Green screens and Orange screens were awesome I was most productive on them.  Over time I got sucked into the windows white background and found myself lost again.  I literally at one point thought I was loosing my ability to code and that my writing and reading was getting worse.  At some point I would ssh into boxes and use vi because I felt more productive, over time I realized the reason was the ssh client I was using was like the old CRT terminals and had black background with colored foreground fonts.  Once I figured that out I changed everything I can to this format of dark background and never looked back.<p>I&#x27;ve also noticed as I get tired my dyslexia really kicks in, I start to ask my wife &quot;Is this word spelled right?&quot; and even with spell check I second guess it&#x27;s suggestions because the words don&#x27;t &quot;look right&quot;.  It&#x27;s strange I can&#x27;t tell you the letters are swapped or not, I just feel like cognitive dissonance has kicked in.<p>Dyslexia is hard to explain, if you&#x27;ve ever had that feeling where you were talking along and all of a sudden couldn&#x27;t remember the name of an old friend or something and your train of thought just collapses on this one issue, maybe even you find yourself embarrassed or a feeling of tunnel vision falls over you.  This is exactly how I feel, stupid, what&#x27;s wrong why can&#x27;t I read this word, I must be an idiot.  I&#x27;ve struggled with this feeling all my life, it permeates my life and I have to battle it almost daily.  I know I&#x27;m not stupid, but growing up unable to read like my classmates and having teachers tell me I&#x27;m an idiot did not help much on this front.  I think the hardest thing about dyslexia is that until you know you have it and until others believe it you end living in this horrible self doubting and self deprecating world convinced there is something wrong with you and that you&#x27;re an idiot.  This is the secret pain of dyslexia...<p>I was told in High School that I could never be a programmer because my short-term memory and dyslexia would make it impossible for me to be successful.  I was devastated because I was already coding in BASIC on a TRS-80 Model I and having so much success, for once I had found a thing I could type wrong things into over and over and not be judged.  Then when I got it right it would just &quot;work&quot;.  No judgement, no &quot;SYNTAX ERROR AGAIN YOU IDIOT&quot;. For the first time in my life I felt accepted and smart, I could code for days and build amazing things.  But, being told I couldn&#x27;t do it killed me, I spent days in a haze and then one day it hit me.  The person who told me that was the idiot, not me, they weren&#x27;t programming, I was already doing it, and better than anyone at my entire school.  So luckily for me I ignored that and went on to enjoy 35 years of being in technology, writing any language I desire and mastering anything I put my mind to.<p>In the end dyslexia is just a thing, like all of us we are dealt a hand of cards in this life from random genetic expressions to accidents and horrible people who put us down while we are growing up.  It&#x27;s up to us to overcome, to push through and make the best of all the tools we were given in that random lotto and try very hard to learn along the way and hopefully find some love while doing it all.