Ask HN: What's Your Biggest Regret?
Always had an obsessive personality. Raised Christian. Always had a bent for pushing boundaries. Got interested in the nuerochemistry of psychoactive substances. Got very involved in educating myself about drug usage, until I was finally comfortable trying them.<p>Queue ~6 years of polysubstance abuse, wasted money, and fake ass friends. Did everything under the sun I could get my hands on. I think the list of unique drugs I did was something like 40. I was high on at least something every day for years. Most days more than 1 thing.<p>I never got truly &quot;hooked&quot; on anything thankfully. I just loved being high. What I didn&#x27;t realize was that the opportunity cost was enormous. Every second I was in my room fucked out of my gourd staring at the ceiling was a second that I wasn&#x27;t out making friends. Being a normal person. It was a really solitary and lonesome existence, just  retreating further and further into my own head each day. Additionally, being a &quot;drug guy&quot; just completely shuts the door to a whole strata of people : e.g. good luck meeting a woman that shares your Christian morals if you are a drug enthusiast.<p>Now I&#x27;m off the bullshit. Straightened my life out, graduated college, gainfully employed. Etc. But I feel that I&#x27;ve missed the boat on having a fulfilling social life. I don&#x27;t really know how to meet people. And whenever I talk with people I can&#x27;t help but feel like I&#x27;m some kind of alien.<p>I&#x27;m working on it. But it&#x27;s so hard to know how to work on it. Especially now that I work from home, and live alone in a suburb.