Extremely disillusioned with technology. Please help
I think the only answer here is to stop clinging onto this &#x27;life&#x27; you have.<p>The optimism you&#x27;re seeking comes from looking forward to today, right now. Right here, right now.
Everything is the present moment. If you do not find yourself in the present moment - this could be due to the weight of money, weight of the future, weight of obligations - then abandon it all.<p>You don&#x27;t need anything. Just reclaim the time that is yours. If you have enough runway for a year, that&#x27;s all you need. Think about it. Would you rather have 20 more years of this &#x27;hint of dissatisfaction&#x27;, or just one year of bliss? If not bliss, at least closer to what once was, where we all come from. Just people trying to have fun and not think of larger consequences.
I would get off of anti-depressants, too.