My dead dad’s journal
&gt; An addict who was self-aware, and still couldn’t pull himself out from the abyss.<p>My experience with addicts is that they are often self aware. Their appearance and circumstance might suggest otherwise. It&#x27;s very easy to relegate these people to some category of cognitive failure.<p>Unfortunately it seems to me that addiction tends to defeat good cognition, awareness, intention, all the rest of the apparent defences – it isn&#x27;t a disease of stupidity or inferiority.<p>&gt; It was Jekyll talking to Hyde. Bruce Banner talking to the Hulk. And, in honor of my dad I feel I must also include: It’s Data talking to Lore.<p>I love it.<p>That was a nice read. I like to be reminded of how messy life can be and at the same time how close death is. We&#x27;re all on borrowed time. Reading about dads struggling from the perspective of their children is also a uniquely motivating thing. I hope my kids don&#x27;t end up reading through my journals trying to get to know me after losing me unexpectedly.