My mindfulness practice led me to meltdown
&gt; This terrain was fresh. I had never previously experienced a psychotic episode and have no history of mental illness besides occasional bouts of mild anxiety and depression.
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&gt; Why did I start meditating? The short answer is that in 2009 I started a fist fight in a French Quarter bar over some jambalaya, a steamy kiss, and a stray comment I didn’t take fondly. The evening ended hours later after I broke a window with my fist, misplaced my shirt, and guzzled about 16 bottles of Miller High Life.<p>YYMMV, but I feel the author is having problems they dont want to really accept.  That is what the contradiction in the two quotes above indicates.<p>Aside from that, I couldn&#x27;t help but think about people having access to too many psychedelics.  For a while, tripping can give you the most profound experiences ever.  But after a while, it sort of becomes mondane, and this is when the bad trip probability suddenly skyrockets.  Or, put another way, even Siddhartha didn&#x27;t find awakening in the samana practices.  They were only the first step (of three) to reach his goal.  You can overdo everything, even the very very nice things.