Ask HN: What have the past 12 months taught you?
I have a flight reflex which makes me run away when things get tough. I quit a number of jobs because of that and then rationalized it to myself by blaming it on whatever wasn&#x27;t perfect at these companies.<p>I like to feel I&#x27;m the victim of circumstances, blaming hardships on some abstract entity (like fate), subconsciously hoping that &#x27;fate&#x27; will prove me wrong by making something good happen to me.<p>I am using substances (nicotine, sweets) and certain activities (web browsing, video streaming, podcasts) as distractions so that I don&#x27;t have to face emptiness, loneliness, and boredom.<p>I am constantly looking for short-term rewards and expect instant gratification for pretty mundane things.<p>I am very judgmental towards other people and think I can see through their little lies to themselves, but don&#x27;t dare to look at my own.<p>I crave recognition and care way too much about what other people think of me. I cannot take it when other people think I&#x27;m stupid, didn&#x27;t get something, acted carelessly, wasn&#x27;t on top of things etc<p>I am afraid of facing uncomfortable truths about myself, my history and my current situation.<p>I focus too much on where I&#x27;m not entirely the way I would like to be and have a hard time accepting myself the way I am.<p>And yes, I realized almost all of that only in the last 12 months.