feel like worthless amp hopeless idiotim three years university still doubt myself classes getting harder progress major know want mentality awful see graduating little hope myself im far behind help feel like ill forever long history depression anxiety ocd suicidal thoughts everything treated ive many in outpatient programs always get better little while new medicine changes work many years therapist great see breaks months time summer oncampus therapy garbage insurance military places accept it feel like lost cause really want die yet think semester over feel hopeless pathetic  stupid much look forward many reasons live grateful opportunity go school  covered financially hardly get bed let alone go class dying means worry sounds ideal right now im tired worrying anyone else feel way cope motivate keep going