exactly title says supposed strong one cannot talk family thoughts cannot talk friends cannot talk women life supposed strong one like me too cannot talk someone ultimatum thoughts imply cannot bring pay therapist listen sister tried kill called help mother needs protection psychotic brother call needs saving calls friends need serious advice turn to last turned best friend ghosted fell back role vut still lmao women life think mysterious macho tough guy second reveal vulnerability pull back see disgust pity faces hurts like nothing else suicide would hurt lessi strong one others ruining image honour seeking help never again seppuku lived society viewed terms instead weakness would done long time ago supposed strong one