feel like im readyi feeling dumps past months sick tired manic episodes depression comes after dont know do quitting law school still gets even almost month since dont like facing family aunt always updating cousins friends doing would always share stories success peers family members leaving feeling like complete shit try smile still engage conversation every then exhausting getting work choregetting chore dont like job feel like im sticking around family thinks im happy think im good it im neither im tired work already underperforming dont people talk this friends think im okay saying im stressed family doesnt believe mental health sister tells could fix dont fckn know start tonight laughed hung family moment felt happy looked im thankful think im ready go now