want post talk someone thoughts afraid encouraging othersi suicidal long remember like this seeking help online knew ok trying limit self harm behaviors redflag thoughts etc read people self harm destructive thoughts brain thought normal look many people also it thats self harm suicidal thoughts got worse years ago longer able stop myself desperately need talk people words might make sense others might develop kind thinking people already vulnerable would easier also cant talk people irl person everyone rely stay strong im gonna say life hard feel suicidal like life good too problem inside me every single aspect life failing cant even cry im sorry