need someone talk to sure want continueim sure want go life im extremely selfconscious self esteem confidence speak of ive one relationship  know entered take advantage me see damage done  absolutely terrible luck finding someone love fear never will bad relationship in ive never even woman look want reason  cheating homework need buy something etc every girl talk real interest me hurts rejection hurts ive rejected much stopped counting im good looking like think im decently intelligent ive got lots friends think im lots fun coworkers think im pretty cool talk girls interest lock inevitably fumble ruin it social anxiety crippling know do ive decided im still single time hit  im going end it least try ive low enough try before universe thought suffer enough primer bullet dud lucky _ please talk me help me love world give cant even give away