something wrong arm bleedingi something unacceptable school today teacher noticed im likely going get reported could extreme consequences would destroy almost everything look forward life naturally told mother did thinking even bad basically called idiot criminal even told think act try happened many times every time get scared sad first time actually drew blood vertically yet felt need punish myself im scared death never stop fucking shit up fuck school friendships everything even way hide cuts ill explain myself person could talk facetoface one teachers im terrified approaching her know handle anymore keeps getting worse every time cant help thinking whiny unappreciative bitch ive never closer now happy months ago