im donefucked world work going alright fucked everything world girlfirend barely got family shes family past  tears ger family mine literally fucked up drunk responsed girls facebook messenger extremely innapropriate way hates me right reasons want work things out barely does dont know over lost close friends friends friends family barely exists cant find live more third time past year theese thoughts attack me allthough attack stronger ever ruined life dont want exist anymore without fuck do literally want die right now