thoughts suicide however trying withstand think themi good connection dad often think much happier would parents together even though split benefit both sad strong connection dad fact really strong connection anyone matter hard try hard want conversation someone goes barely anywhere overall social really tears down also self conscious like looks thoughts actions overall like myself would probably ended still young want harm mom sister close themalso recently sister said  know would  really made think impact suicide also tried best comfort self harming helped get dark place ini love mother sister dearly reason still here want alive want dead