think im going end life todaytoday day think cant take anymore week lost one true love adoptive family three best friends second home   molested cousin  raped girl school  physically mentally abused father last year sexually assaulted raped another girl yet none felt worse this start happened week girlfriend interested threesome girl whom one best friends love  years though never felt same convinced her grew attached protective her friends hung stayed us second home trying thing her knowing uncomfortable made us response decision decided make girlfriend would stop succeeded us wanted us again neither us kind feelings towards her neither us could break like that think much it constant problem one us would get upset angry thinking intentionally giving person attention other one night one two friends years older  stayed house got intoxicated sat couch talked one morning trying get girlfriends third person dump best friend user meth addict sees people ways get sex it makes sense least three girls come saying raped them tried raping them also tried forcing onto school one point using best friend age consent sex house stay homeless days ago tried telling love girlfriend said one believed me calling liar saying wanted start things kicked house night walked home rain  miles dark them one friend want said audacity tell love around supposedly call bitch say hate her wish dead never said wished things breaks heart even thinking it believed night thought trying start problems everyone left me asked would me responded threats harming me killing me afterwards went told adoptive mother who diagnosed  heart diseases problems allowed back wanted start problems handle stress anyways agreed to never able see adoptive mother dies likely lost one true love love care anything else lost adoptive father uncle aunt brothers sister nephew best friends user want stop using people think handle this im sorry post complete shitfest cant think breathe cease crying thoughts pointing killing right now