college makes want commit redflagi hate college much want get get job live life stressed every goddamn moment feel like school completely consumes  im exhausted morning sit hours lectures studying rest day less  hours studying high enough quality work feel insanely guilty myself would force work late night tired cant concentrate late also makes failure  years old never internship meaningful job done research care major picked hated least would make somewhat employable hate schools stupid fratboy workaholic culture every moment filled anxiety thinking everything wrong never amount anything choice though parents would never let leave transfer again desperately want school over still two years ill probably phd thats way really successful industry something like that stress constant selfhatred shitty people make want end now want go rest college want out