update today went hospital terrible migraine extremely depressedi think body preparing itself cant sleep leg numb stomach churning burning want cry hands cold sweating mouth dry headaches back too ive taken  migraine pils lortab today got sleep stop thisi know im going finish nighti know going on ive never felt fall apart completely nowfor wishing death find someway get help youre beginning stages depression talk somebody something hell holding potential become amazing people future please get help hate knowing one laying bed right now feeling body let go nobody feel way nobody ever im begging you take life seriously find helper get somebody help late pleasejust talk somebody stranger friend somebodyplease know rredflagwatch sole reason dead right now reading stories trying help many can kept going reason one pathetic life here beautiful minds themost radiant should grow delusional realize beautiful world bad want leave beautiful world thank listening last thoughtsi pray whatever god ill wake soonin warm bednext realize dreamif live last hours night im going get help edit survivedunfortunatelyim making plan try birthday next month