trapped headim  year old guy im failing literally classes cant even find motivation check school emails let alone actually go school entire family disappointed sucks siblings successful smart im nothing dreams motivation future even thinking future makes sad got diagnosed schizophrenia year half ago feel like ruined life feel lost alone fucking nobody understands ive tried get support friends good experiences longer try nothing except mental illness anger doubt ill ever able successful judging unstable last  years mean cant even tell whats real not much useless get wish someone talk understands everything therapy psychologists make feel even worse feel like theyre testing digging around brain invasive hate family friends could never understand nobody even feel like repost guess want someone talk