idk somethinghi idk im saying im lost im hopeless inside feel lonely yet people im mess honest dont understand feel grasp emotions happening like whole life dont know feel exactly every time id cry feel im judged even tho im alone like im weak vulnerable stop crying feeling nothing question cry im even feeling try brush comes back ive thought killing many times every day thought makes way across mind try understand im like cant many things happened past parents lying divorce birth never real care them always like lie dont know im typing this appreciate someone read look doubt it im scattered everywhere im sorry want end constant feeling like unknown hurt despair cant grasp emotions dont understand much ill leave