im sorryi want kill myself literally zero hope graduated high school much anxiety im sad enroll collegealso money sad good student high school community college two days dropped felt like killing myself dropped told going get job save help family one hire me experience ive applying two months cant help family pay bills everyday talk jobs family poor literally gotten new clothes since last august nothing fits anymore drove away friends im sad want bring me cant even afford get help want try overdose ive tried three times never worked threw shaky couple days matter many pills took one time walking home school everyone forgot pick one answering going jump front train one old friends saw street waiting gave ride home nowhere hang noose from listen miserable cry every single day top that shitty mom hope like brain tunnel vision option redflag nothing do friends still always things require money hang house always want go stuff requires paying cant it give up know im young  life ahead me im poor college one fucking hire nothing else want kill myself think im going drown lake something since know swim want anythng public would inconsiderate dont many choices jus venting