peace week thoughts back vengeancehello got email drafting company indeed asking apply company ecstatic thats went college for said would train me awesome salary benefits assessment week quick back fourth turned radio silence probably called lowes worked for learned walked out deserve it fucked up cant help think could though go bed hungry nights could afford properly fix car hell even buy new one would able save money retirement could stay late see friends nights could watch football again going happen thats thoughts began turned worse yesterday kavanaugh crap like admitting this voted trump back angry vitriolic nazi hated minorities women piece shit felt nice accepted once ive always outcast comes group people saying welcome fell it luckily since then ive met amazing people slowly poor world views turned around however hand helped put one final nails coffin glorious nation love country really do dead now trump going win reelection well conservative court next couple decades going go military try get shitty situation whats point now fight for die for society fragmented probably irreparable people cant see bigger picture dumbing america succeeded think go back sad ive gotten everything wanted cast vote day that deserve live