want die heroin overdoseim literally piece shit choose substances people lie manipulate love hurt one person means everything broke heart really really shitty brain mess want alive rn nothing going rn im literally bum druggie self respect apparently self respect people love me im going life direction motivation dont even energy even think ab trying get motivated find direction cant even trust fucking brain nothing safe safe doesnt exist im already traumatized forever brain always wired like this dont want live life like this im lost im tired searching