pretty much always depressed like since could remember little always little sad never extreme got older every day gets harder harder teen online schooled whenever get bed if all getting work done last thing mind terrible brain fog trouble processing everything around me room messy barely walk it dirty like gross anything everything scattered across floor tired take care cannot even hold conversation without getting angry medication actually helps quite bit clue would like without it try find therapist whenever go like temporarily trick thinking fine completely refuse go many friends going college energy maintain long distance friendship make new ones falling behind every aspect life try make systems help wish could someone come put pieces back together resume life lost ambition know anymore anyone know do life mess