im functionally retardedi give up im  entered graduate school feel it socially im retarded fuck enough date without knowing is such failed said social encounter end last year lost one relationship helped view world less callous banal place id began abusing prescription drug ambien addition alcohol hindered cognitive abilities ability cope anxiety depression met drinking talking people stale driftwood amounting great socially acceptable height  foot  male ive told egotistical conducting inventory whatever qualities feel have theres nothing would support kind delusional selflove realizing sum things im absolutely terrible academics social situations value self often think redflag solve anything certainly burden others either