feel like failuremy mom afraid me says doesnt know act me mom loss you shouldnt die friends coworkers would hate job died dont relationship dont kids dont siblings dont family whod miss me dog mom reminds me takes better care do im sorry cant let go anger im sorry im happy life cant bring care enough fix it hate job hate life like years last breakup yes need quit stupid give idea ever fix things idea gets things im scared death happen give up im sick told im spoiled im brat im sorry dad passing suddenly made deal this im sorry cant fake pretend everything ok step dad used heaven forbid moms daily life change cant say anything do starts crying blaming me wish one died instead dad everyone would happier seems