like room full sunlight people hear chatter laughter feel sunlight skin sunlight pricks like shards glass chatter feels like sharpnoisesthat makes sense yousuddenly starts fade feels like sweeped big hole darkness light passes you touch you warmth chatters mumbles fading away silence calmness sit there quietly falling pit darkness want scream are comes smile facethe fall like pull like dragged tremendous weight depth ocean weight existence worthless burden unloveable unfullfilling finally hit rock bottom break down tears flow scream but end there even rock bottom breaks feels heavier like never ending fallsometimes touch wrist feel pulse check alive coz thing makes feel like still living feel happiness remorse sadness one feeling left pain never ending depression feels like