think ends much lately much college work pouring wild rate cant keep up loud rowdy roommates shut am every night living hours sleep go home weekend ok wear mask hide im really feeling is college fun would ask yep im blast would reply cant let know really doing im far away already worried knew suicidal would end it feel overwhelmed work im failing im actually point caring family thinks kill myself would upset im sure even care anymore cant keep stuff home bit need someone talk to cant talk room mates ra see councillor tomorrow  rarely helps all one person trust around hates due things said