wrote redflag note todayim writing letter becuase may hard anyone understand choosing this number one thing want every one know single human cuased this nothing one couldve done differently all except course myself simplistic reason cut dry black white thought redflag daily since fifteen years old seldom days mind worst enemie see world different way most everything constantly consistantly jumbled numbers faces letters words thoughts see things backwards sideways upside down sometimes even blurred hide hide well told people dyslexic hand really mean perpetual state confusion try hard learn can least take jab it becuase afriad seen stupid voice head justified mocking unintelligent really am one reason tired perpetual state confusion sure started im actually really sure anything started memory fleeting best along line mind began tell worthless mean bad day passing thought mean every single day bad day normal day even amazing day point start think anything little voice seeps starts go blow blow always reassure worthless stupid failure eat without telling get fat worthless cant read without laughing calling stupid jumble something up work without telling failure matter time fired give up always promise infact worthless number two tired trying live mind consistently telling failing to fucking crazy aforementioned voice stomach turning anxiety mood swings depression literally fucking insane five yes five voices head excluding aforementioned voices constantly fighting eachother example would want go bowling friends like normal person begin think bring them voices come in voice  tell ask blunt voice  tell ease conversation voice  tell stupid shut sit pretend content voice  tell bowling lame look stupid asking voice  tell ignore voice  fighting begins stuck helpless look fake content face pretending thier arent five voices head argueing fucking bowling maybe noticed time even call space cadet why yes another why tired control brain anxiety oh anxiety sweet toxic lover im really sure got bad afraid time moments feel sliver safety room dog occasion boyfriend otherwise irrationally fearing things fearing ask simple jeans ripped person thinks ugly going spill drink everyone laugh also crazy everyone resteruant thinks crazy random man bus read mind maybe lady witch also extreme as dog dead someone family dead dieing telling me today get arrested mugged today get fired accident die become vegetable combine anxiety five voices inflating thoughts voice always reassure worthwell lack of rationale enough anyone never want leave thier roomi tired afraid fourth reason why could on on inner workings mind upon writing come realize answer fact simple cut dry black white why simple fucking tired kind tired nap fix energy drink good nights rest kind tired awake forceful battle climb bed struggle loosing everyday kind tired solution sleep never wake up