thought getting betterbut course everything get fucked  im still depressed yay think hospital makes feel bad honestly want around sick people making worse like anyone actually helps you tell suicidal thoughts let go walks wow helpful ive two months im fucking tired this im gonna get better here want go home normal life cat guinea pig eat normal food go school etc idk dont feel like right complain hospital bad mean got better really bad last months sometimes thought dont exist im neutral sadbut still get days feel like shit feel lonely dont know kinda person could become friend seems impossible many people tried talk cant keep conversation going literally anyone normal people talk about even normal dont even diagnosis yet two months idont know taking long sometimes want live think im gonna big things world needs me like plan me wish could feel like right now words dont feel natural im amazing person change world im bad way save world destroy it never perfect people always greedy evil like got genes dont feel like human anymore dont identify them dont want to thanks reading hope good day dont expect anything needed talk sorry bad english