im tired fighting this want over peace finally find meeveryday fight im tired fighting it want something help me someone hear me small sliver happiness every time nearly manage get one universe beats back miserable dark place beats harder attempt cant keep fighting this fighting alone treated like leper black sheep whenever try teach someone anyone im tired constantly repeating myself reaching out trying find happiness one listens one cares im tired insurmountable guilt feel every day breathing strength mother children need wife husband deserves killed daily guilt knowing much pain theyd id left energy fight anymore cant live guilt knowing id them im tired want fight anymore