fuck it donedont know anyone cares whatever  years old germany know  struggle myself know start dropped school  yeah behind final exams couldve gone studying next year made worst school hauptschule middle school full energy gymnasium tilt take anymore stopped going end december finish driver license too power anymore feel empty  well last week work working parents store saw pretty girl felt love her even gave love back seemed clear wonderful came place last sunday kissed hang out talked much and wanted live her never ever felt power  since yesterday says worth time good her never really girlfriend know react got hurt much ex wanted help her show feel like normal girl ever again  bitchyshe turns  next month thought good no doenst want contact know whyi frustrated body full hate hate mysellf all best mother earth sister shouting them friends want help refuse know start again feel lost  want stop go die addicted videogames dota well least gave smile good it k mmr something proud  tried break competitive gaming really never happened i confused life please guys share warm words not cant otherwise crying right past weeks specially last days cuz her  want visit stars upon me maybe day visit them knows