everyone keep telling express feel dont know myselfim tired cant look least sad else ill get usual say feel sharing make better stuff no wont share cant dont know words im exhausted bother wouldnt better disappeared dont understand keep enduring painful task living is love never worked me family disappoint anyway friends annoy whining always say express im feeling support whatever doesnt even matter many times say dont know feel something cant describe least accurately hate ask elaborate try avail stuff tiring exhausts too want get shit time dont find so id like go enjoy normal things like everyone does id rather stay inside tried times end it cant it im even good enough it ive sh free almost year now yet miss badly euphoria blood running arms dont know ive made far just end this please dont know anymore