want die feel like right suicidal theres nothing wrong lifei want die feel guilty it theres nothing wrong life feel like im ungrateful im suffering much mental illness im anxious depressed nothing life wrong feel like right upset maybe im little btch cant deal slightest inconvenience cant control feel everything feels wrong im overwhelmed cant this much want everything stop want here theres point life im horrible human wish could give  years life someone deserves it many wonderful people die young get  years sit around pool self inflicted suffering many people much worse mange stay optimistic cant handle life privileged little middle class white girl living area identity lesbian problem want cant even im much coward use knife wish gun thatd make easy