funwhat fun spend day bed internetgames im sick bored it anything else life worth doing everything used like longer appeals me takes much effort pick stuff up feel bad progress ive lost starting feels depressing used aikido play piano exercise study uni late every time try start again realise far behind sends back distractions break cycle get fact ive lost  years life fucking stupid disease hopefully next semester fresh start im fucking sick lazy stupid ampxb sorry rant really anything offer felt like would place let out fyi exams week ive done nothing prepare them im going go probably fail least illve gone