really bad spot right honestly know nobody ask helpi shitty eastern european country live alone money  food left supposed wait end month get money scholarship university supposed get month got postponedi tried everything  charity city food pantries like usa  even church could get help nothing else besides phone need take online examsi amhungry  tired  anxious  cannot even sleep redflag feel life completely done nobody ask help asked made feel like piece shit askingi know anyone talk please calm down rock bottom alone