think fucked worki dealing depression life gotten worse past months since college graduation bad tendency selfsabotage succumbing pressure others disappoint took crappy parttime job loathed parents would stfu working choose unemployed would go work barely acknowledgement boss work mentioned job description enough today got offered another job today went office let key id walked back entrance one see me nobody called anything figured notice even bother email boss quit send work finished point even care paid hours worked since means going person hand worksheet logged hours cannot bring it finally got fulltime job got scared told start week emailed boss start th november new boss know wants talk phone coming monday wtf say feel like fucking loser maybe say start wednesday idk feel like fucked majorly end it