luckier most feel selfish home life fucking sucks worst people know would upset left little sister slid note door close fucking broke heart screamed parents stupid useless sit listen whole thing note says love you sorry something birthday wednesday want leave fucking badly want ruin special day turning  want fuck rest life bc selfish stick around going kill last birthday end trying reason know friends would miss well boyfriend want make anyone upset cannot keep this escape know going kill eventually known since sisters age going to much pussy actually something end suffering see point anymore life fucking meaningless cycle pain misery resentful parents bringing treating like this force life never asked wanted so tired know people would miss tired