dream cant wake upi know start but thr past  years life and maybe more dissociating time felt weird moviedream disconnecting world myself details life nightmare yo and recently thought thats life was like yeah late everything time speeds keep zoning out life breakdowns three times day hate much obsessing junkfood throw shower later on i dedicating life distract pain avoid it medication anything tried therapy cant seem fully comprehend different diagnosis believe complex ptsd im tired im tired im fucking tired im tired spend almost every single days last  years wanting die im tired hatred towards myself im tired able connect others im tired excluded im tired people telling problem pretty tired object used im tired caring im tired disappointment family im tired letting people hurting ones try love me tired watching life far away stuck parallel universe feel lonely exhausted im done shows over go home edit cant english