im suffering liver failure either way dead soon exit world way insteadive suffer liver disease quite time doctor almost  years ago told developing stages brain dead teenager giving two fucks ignored advice simply simply lose weight liver heal back normal time brain dead retard time realize importance situation hand time well guess  years untreated liver  overdoes attempts pills shit ton throw liquor wow really smells like liver failure me money would cost get liver transplant fucking godly amount option practically shit creek sad reality basically option way hell going put burden parents so month ago decided ill push loved ones away make hate including girlfriend ex girlfriend pushed away keep mind ive chicken shit let anyone know this way die care anymore least hurt less last monday attempted redflag failed got discharged hospital turns one people sent letter blocked without even saying anything sat sidewalk waiting ride come get me realized ive accepted decent amount time ago fate sealed clue much longer left considering pain keeps getting worse worse point cant sleep id say long its currently am live turns alot say redflag note dont think really want thing winning know like said really fear death anymore fear tomorrow point feel happy thought going terms know going way seems like peaceful proper way me