feel trapped pathetici cant go single day without feeling stupid disgusting  deserve anything anyone im horrible person feel like burden everyone around me theres nothing im good depression made indifferent everything younger used like reading cant even concentrate reading single chapter whenever someone asks hobby never know answer reality either sit dark feeling horrible watch youtube videos distract myself kind hobby that im particularly good school either hard study depression cant fucking focus motivation non existent ive tried make feel better venting ways drawing writing self harming nothing makes feel better