ex got engaged tonightto girl left for left year ago  someone prettier smarter successful someone normal fun now what get keep happy getting everything wanted lay planning death supposed me taken away me wasnt fucking good enough like always positive found future  finally something secure loving something look forward to no wrong does spare cliches moving finding someone else id rather kill myself dont want someone else havent year time hasnt healed all feel like icing cake pathetic life im laying lump throat hot tears streaming ugly face reason havent killed yet cat getting really hard keep going really dont feel like worth it leaving punch gut finding dating punch gut taking trips places dreamt going punch gut moving together punch gut this im done