ive bad thoughtsneed advice dohello all  year old female graduating month ive diagnosed bipolar psychotic features well know anyone relate this ive feeling strange lately im depressed  feel like inner force drives want kill myself think killing myself ways things need get done die ive  different plans already got materials needed one them weird thing times get temporary relief depression times really desire death much think it mind thought it feel strong drive im depressed im depressed manic get mixed states get completely obsessed killing myself really know do im seeing psychiatrist therapist last time disclosed information like got sent hospital think hospital would benefit me im sorry rambling thanks reading advice would much appreciated