cant moving forward life sleep without alcoholhi ive trying get decent job since graduating high school  anyway since ive job sucked quit job promising let several others go without supplying reason one half weeks think anxiety disorder depression cannot sleep night want go college without job cannot afford books shit live parents need move apartment cannot sleep without drinking anymore drank lot vodka pass realized slowly killing moving alcoholism make kill myself need help trip gay street bridge ending life seriously considered it im pass vodka please help success cant move forward without getting fucked back was want thingsmwith life im moving forward killing would load off help move forward want success happiness