 nearly  year old trans girl come anybody know irl started transitioning anything love girlfriend much dating almost  years april  realized trans way keep living boy every cell body wishes would told questioning gender first started like  years ago sure trans thought id tell questioning come non binary test waters scared officially come out started crying said scared lot stuff exactly remember feel stuck make worse sister also trans come publicly moved coming parents constantly deadname misgender her including face parents paying go college know would keep paying came out want girlfriend live rest lives bpd fp coming go well probably kill herself would make kill myself might make sister kill herself idea much longer live boy know would come much less ever can feels liket way things go well live please want heard feels like way life go on want kill love life