ive never worse im scared reach outim suffering im fucked brain time think need meds dont know whats wrong feel trapped alone mind nothing distraction anymore thought art helping hold feel like nothing help now feel like hell find hard talk mum reach truly think im gonna die mental breakdown last night relapsed ctting never hell since then panic attack earlier actually thinking going insane passed almost threw up absolutely one knows whats going brain im mentally sick building longest fucking time much shit brain cant take anymore im struggling ever need stop need something save theres way much going brain wont stop never never will