never wanted make postso month ago met girl dreams  doesnt prefer physically intimacy   kinda wants left alone lot get ive alone long nice meet someone felt could with idk even im worth here ive sad before ive wanted die last twothree months ive really gotten fixated death mean doubt shed miss long doubt people life could truly miss like know know me  kinda dont wanna feel pain seeing one really take pain away  dont think wanna feel much anymore drink lot control eh whatever like part matters