want go sleep tonight never wake upim writing let people know feeling know really fucking cliche reading im probably already dead really know meant relieve stress getting feelings paper maybe fucking redflag note ive got blade right next may redflag note want end this feel sad sad probably never girlfriend way look fat am sad family hate im still questioning sexuality even though think im straight sad friends probably care follow feel alone reality dont even feel like much live friends family probably resent end sexuality straight totally honest ive got decent life dont even know want die kind do live uk access gun would probably even wrote i want go sleep tonight never wake up