want kill dont ive struggling lot past year ive bullied weight parents would sometimes add that started self harming which immediately regretted mum found out havent therapist cause didnt want school find out started feeling better  quarantine got hole again want kill im going cause selfish people love life ahead me pain feel eating inside nobody understands dont want call redflag prevention hotlines speak someone something im going get over thoughts back head thats bugging me im like funny people super sad lol know im going fine