im done want die know howi depressed past  years life im still high school im kind popular  go christian school yet im atheist get terrible grades family hates it im little fat terribly ugly big problem stress cant handle it every summer forced work dad construction hate passion dad verbally abusive tried commit redflag  months ago took  bayer aspirin work damage told family next morning it sad got week went couple counseling sessions work put fake face parents hated paying it honestly dont know do dont know could fast painless gutless