ive staring fathers riflerecently ive thinking killing myself everyone know abandons im demotivated actually school work end cheating feels shitty moved many times got behind know do want get bad future dont know cheating bad know soon get caught im fucked im demotivated even cheat point fs junior year high school ive given opportunity improve hard stop lazy something once feel pathetic hopeless see anything ahead see society screwing living crappy life really bad say redflag better option keep looking back rifle seeing way out fast feel much pain finally found dad hid shells option there cant decide want possible future possible crappy future im scared soon people find plan get locked up