point im even trying anymorei really hate reddit place vent anyone know cares check me use friend ok everyone point cant even talkto anyone cant even convey thoughts online always feel im judged days since last ate anything think deserve even here want dissappear somewhere else voices head getting louder would shut room days hate people know saying sad  depressed know might seems like im invalidating people feelings knowing really make feels like crap ive tried open feelings people one wants anymore everyone better without me hate heart beat faster whenever im crowd hands always sweaty lips always dry worthless people eyes also hate cant sleep many time would wake middle night reason hate short fat ugly whenever im everyone else hate every moment breathing im waste space