everything feels pointlessbackground struggling depression suicidal thoughts self harm eating disorder since   now ive fighting long feel like im getting anywhere recently hit longest streak clean self harm i  months clean broke monday past  years ive constantly heard get better getting worse im losing hope way ive living life makes feel fucking pathetic life feels pointless im entirely worthless human dont see point trying anymore absolutely terrible relationship parents im nowhere near good enough they never fail remind much disappointment am much better lives would wasnt around know fact  best friends would better without me think id everyone favour kill myself honesty things keep going wrong im tired trying make right moved away city university im unhappy alone here currently university social work but like mother said phone day youre gonna shit social worker youre fucked even help yourself youre wasting money im starting think point cant even okay myself gonna able help others samesimilar situation made agreement myself next week dont get sort sign find reason live ill end it dont think im gonna find reason arent me sorry formatting im mobile also sorry kinda place hardly organize thoughts right now