reddit going kill tomorrow nighti cant bring jump height want anything dramatic like slit wrists throat anything going draw lot attention opted counter sleep pills vodka come boxes  know  shops visit get  they sell one box time im probably going take l vodka concern im either going survive complete vegetable end incredible pain submit it resulting trip emergency room also thinking leaving note things complicated think make things painful leave behind premeditdated months now spur moment descision never tried anything like before so guess im asking likely succesfully end life going cause big mess