itive enough life miserable friends parents hate me everyone around living good life im constant pain every day summer ive looking job well week finally landed interview time turns need id required paperwork one need transportation told mom it tell me shes busy cant cant fucking summer shes fucking case constantly constantly telling get job heres fucking opportunity happens jesus christ guys cant anymore ive sober years great school want enough money drivers license car impossible without job  fucking rate wont make life cant really cant im good literally nothing fucking loser coward wish life even slightly better unfortunately not overdosing fentanyl later tonight looking mind change ive made decision smoking nice blunt listening help hako yamazaki beautiful song sleepwalk santo johnny could peace happiness final moment never wanted come this think happy child ive turned to one talk vent goodbye guys thanks took time read useless post