well got checked officially turns  year old redflag yeah told friends laughed face saying cannot depression people worse problems and agree true made seem like worthless like mental health important whenever reach somehow make fun saying  stfu today  months left commit suicide well cut friends life stay curled room myself fine day since mostly write watch shows night really bad take pills sleep addicted them started smoking avoid reality always tired way avoid emotions listening songs time used best time numb even feel excited got one live worthless yeah thank listening bullshit friends would call  numb nothing interests anymore apart dying