knows anymorei gone depression since around end highschool tried kill failed never knew body could tolerate much advil point life regretted almost everything ever done fucked relationships fucked previous work find hating university degree ever first year university one first times ever even stand face saw mirror find completing university right still realizing really motivation anything life keep telling things get better find job successful get debt find girl love often find exact opposite above feel love love anything world especially myself every time try open person find hurt ever know seems like typical cry attention absolutely zero clue do matter many different jobs apply never seem get call back semester left university able cover rent even basic living expenses ineligible line credit way world parents help try get mess seems like people meant live life reddit almost convinced one people sure else point maybe get lump maybe wont absolutely tempted try take system time ever normal life drunk ass high kite since least problems matter me guess exactly really call attention could form advice lead right direction sorry bother guys absolutely clue else turn to