ever past point redflagthis feel right now nothing mood swings depression actually feel good mentally far clarity goes im finding im surviving world im poor dad alzheimers best friend passed away im deeply debt paying education feel like theres anything left world cant escape downward spiral painful ive felt depression physically hurts ive stopped listening others feeling true failure ive tried telling others were thing together help one another response get supposed do people know help one another get it theres hope there were us make us despite sacrifice effort never give attitudes quit either know realistic im going motions feel like im world thats worse could possibly come death hurts know that also relieving im suicidal im dead inside trying pass time fortunate end least got live short time existence im cherishing memories reason person feelings would end little alone cant anyone im past point redflag easier say fuck sit withering away staring wall im far gone im rambling reason dead mid s still breathing