hopelessness consuming destroying me nsfwthis long post apologize that depression panic disorder i panic attacks rarely gad general anxiety disorder obsessive compulsive disorder premenstrual dysphoric disorder i think officially diagnosed little year ago im day twentysix cycle ive thinking purpose life think help others im sure anymore feel hopeless worthless vagina narrow short tight time even im aroused lubricated cant insert two fingers slide one finger way vagina becomes extremely tight feels like finger going past something hard explain hurts feel angry hopeless one way im glad vagina tight would please partner another way im enraged fact someone would profit pain agony hate people say tight vagina good thing ive users flat tell tighter always better tense vagina feels better ive never abused part disgusted men want tight vagina want profit partners pain suffering like feels good man hurts woman im horrified go in does go way gets extremely tight part vagina ill stop him want take mans pleasure away ruin experience him feel hopeless areas life wish could go sleep never wake up plan harm myself also question sub people feel borderline suicidal arent reported punished right thank reading long post appreciate it