im even sure im postingi recently diagnosed bipolar disorder dragging girlfriend year behavior fathom myself im currently going treatment though witnessed first manic episode entire life im embarrassed mental health getting better good friends life anymore consistently moved bullied high school one two good guy friends high school came thanksgiving break last year im lesbian met girlfriend freshmen year university fell madly madly love  months dating month  manic breakdown im currently home treatment going really well get back prove balance school relationship mental health ive feeling really really suicidal suicidal thoughts flared years past month every night kind thing want burden talking it know tell everything okay believe it