im giving one monthi know put feelings words properly time heres last attempt living guess im gonna tell life story anything would much right im gonna save month get gun finally put end horrible pain care impact death could anymore deaths ive seen even death one life actually give shit tell ive seen known well enough know grief momentary im probably ranting last thing want since depression started getting worse alone wife left alone stupid argument know else say im sorry feeling lot easier write guess ill stop now thanks entertaining many years reddit