looking optionsso im sure options try cannot go therapy anymore want institutionalize me tried therapy want ect me cant call hotline anymore need distraction somebody talk call police cant talk friends anymore call police tried medication nothing other give massive headaches hours cant try that tried exercise three years anything tried vitamin supplements anything know else try want die sometimes break head things nobody see bruises hair helps minutes want finish right now cant want hurt family since cant go therapy dont tell try another shrink ive tried many sick cruel joke try another absolutely refuse drugs work exercise work food work else there refuse submit institution go ect ive  years tell ever get better know else try