death sounds pretty good right nowive hit really low part life probably lowest ive ever been recently moved utah california huge change left behind friends ive ever lifestyle im used living mother dragged middle school year really bad since curriculum new understand works school system different nerve racking me hardly talk people due anxiety ive always strong disliking mom realize hatred basically life used religion abuse me stop acting like faggot i call faggot im parent since parent obey me she actually said that dad likes slap punch tell mom stop acting like jerk im sorry confusing mind lost right now really thing thats pushed edge is mother arranged go back utah week since spring break see friends hang them well yesterday mom left sister home alone sister complaining mother day wanting go swimming however mother would let her mom left told sister could go swimming twenty minutes chores agreed hopped pool well mom came back pick something saw us pool started screaming yelling knew sister chores getting pool huge health risk now that going take back utah see friends now destroys trying keep sister mom happy ugh know im tired upset everything death seems like easy way pain