cant anymore hurts much hate muchi want die badly im pathetic im fat ugly covered scars around awful example human being friends real life anymore since left school theyve barely talked me frustrate anger parents lately used yell occasionally pretty much every day brother used look me im disappointment done schoolwork long entire th grade year rotting room used smart too straight top school barely anything fuck ive done many horrible things people around me im disgusting excuse human being theres point all want live anymore hate everything life wish could start someone completely different hurts alive physically mentally emotionally im meds year therapist quit june new one til october even know im posting here actually knew me agree much waste space am just cant anymore hate much always have remember hating age  fat one earliest memories called piggy cousin god just do  years life full mental illness burden people around me parents crushed would killed long time ago theyre angry time now know would better never existed wish dead everything hurts