im invisiblegranted im known many acquaintances zero friends often repeating called friends listen dont hear frankly give shit ive suffering bipolar disorder manic depression upwards  years told myseld could make past  yrs things would get better ive hospitalized recently september  staff basically said treat us monitor us stable meds fit leave family raised foster care system im completely alone see point living anymore im constantly mental agony ignored used every level ive taken care people thought friends much love give misguided usual end used thrown like tissue ignored blatantly cant keep job stability often rocked uncontrollable emotions outbursts cant cope anymore im losing hope honestly would like someone acknowledge alive sensitive real person even know curb feelings thoughts redflag closest friends growing passed either redflag excessive drug use im honestly debating path without im alone ever idk reddit place least im getting one outlet speak real feelings ive sought therapy psych meds seems like never want hear bad try silver lining struggles saying im strongim tired exhausted strong allowed vulnerable get real help rx bandaid work