know doi recently left husband ran away another state living friends right figure im doing know im depressed again sleep time barely eat see point anything husband abusive physically abusive past take mental abuse anymore even ran sticks me recently developed feelings someone else fully believe hes leading on sleep bed weve kissed feel like really want me wants warm bed nights stays unless staying things awkward weird us cant get mentality starting nothing money im pay rent apartment lease cant even stay at feel like burden everyone want anymore