dear youi know cliche tired tired scared tired sad feels like im half alive halfs gone somewhere wish could go too fact matter deeply love wish wasnt wish never met him going lose him sleep knowledge everyday feel hands wrap around mine feel scared look watching tv deep sadness wells inside me im scared know like live fear live like this im always afraid lose love always been say unhealthy feeling know met shortly got discharged hospital gave reason live love seeing face everyday sleeping next him waking next him watching play cat sometimes even think much hurts makes happy yesterday cat delivered nasty scratches arm washed carefully handkerchief think ever experienced love like this im scared losing it going well lately stayed home watched netflix day last night made us dinner thanked kissed lips think told would dead young something consciously planning say death offered ticket love much never want lose him thats must go happens want go knowing loved lose everything love much thats need go last memories good thank you