please help meim teenage girl live florida recently diagnosed depression anxiety prescribed medicine zoloft never thought itd get far never thought cutting would get point cant even wear shorts short sleeve shirts used happy child started growing up realizing things happened me have molested father  alcoholic also molested another family member age   growing up abusive childhood grandmother person raised verbally physically abusive me mother always me age  thats everything went downhill started drinking failed relationship  years had took everything me every little thing seemed piss off would hit got tired thats started cutting age first redflag attempt tried overdose pills consumed  bottles blood pressure medicine grandmas nothing happened stopped cutting many years tried push away suicidal thoughts sadness  months ago mom started verbally abusing again hit ever since dcf called her one person thought would me guess thought wrong im sitting bloody wrists thinking whether go medicine cabinet again really fault things happen me really worthless