seems okbut not every fibre going torture daily immediate surrounding makes sad depressed day in day out many friends know make enough money change situation trapped tiny room still one listens one cares people around super selfish family friends taken granted left hanging need fresh start personal life way behind curve im sure ill make alive career end see positive changes personal life family friend relationships recent years depression cant remember last time content life wish friends would remember reach genuine caring friend never type family support try reaching still get blown off feel alone battle suicidal depressed life supposedly best years yet chained mother life seems life own go motions thing going job really hope long term finally get move start living healthy normal life