getting helplived depression anxiety life self treated alcohol  years ago antidepressants since then doctor says must see counselor continue prescribe meds go counselor starts telling call authorities admit redflag thoughts harming anyone else dont really like guy find another counselor tells thing tactful way point this get help feelings cant talk counselor without fear reported locked up bother drugs counselors completely decided end life busy stating disclaimers see undermined whole purpose choice give healthcare go way suffer useless counseling sessions hiding truth seems pointless everything else