so want kill stop existinglike rn clenching teeth noticed it ive lot lately without realising it chest aches theres piercing pain heaviness around heart feel like im lost abyss emptiness exhaustion pain im falling apart body mind want give up cant escape know fault im slipping away sanity happiness happiness feels far away now im tearing apart inside alone hell around people tiring makes anxious feel lonely empty theres way comforting myself ive pushed everyone away im good anyone just want stop existing asking much no im coward hypocrite fraud truth deserve die im useless waste space