im indifferent towards livingi think im ever going kill somebody got really sick something like really even care thatd pretty great actually second nature shut room away everybody lose escapism everything else much work much work study much work work much work go outside talk people etc see point it either ive lived fantasy world head whole life im starting realize know live real world friends seems like everyone would prefer around really feel connection anyone else theres wall everyone else world goals aspirations theyre stupid infantile shit probably crash burn pursue anyway really want live anymore know problems selfinflicted constructed whatever theyre fucking minute compared basically every depressed person planet want anymore cant this much energy it ive always taken easy way everything death whole lot easier alive wish bravery kill dont need someone else something else me want alive anymore hate hate alive despise myself