im  im suicidaluh hi im  im suicidal really point dont care life mean care th grade so like  cousin commented redflag maybe month later uncle same mom really fucked sorry swearing um well bad drug problem older sister basically mom grandma dad left  keep coming back start shit like would say siblings worthless didnt matter uncle died couple days birthday birthday spent funeralalso siblings mom step dad lived grandma grandpas parents would always fight like boom  fighting  pm fighting times got physical dont like talking summer th grade began cut weird liked it hated pain soon dull blade like blacked different person went awhile till sister found told mom finally stoped month  went on christmas great grandma died like second mom like loved much funeral saw corpseit wierd kinda expected wake know didntumm couple months ago moved biological dad mom tried kill front kept screaming wants brother my uncle wierd guess dad cool guess doesnt exactly accept trans ftm honestly dont give shit living want die birds sister honestly anti depressants working think death okay guess thanks reading suppose