completely losing hope if begin withuh hey again im still here posted yesterday well technically two days ago cares shit keeps getting worse it seems though life tries push edge well basically love girl cant possibly with wanted kill yesterday today mom stopped me noticed shook it pulled girls vk russian facebook account and well said something like redflag option left like  hours point suicidal and kinda knows want gone like all reached her got talking well girl taken knew long ago learn a got proposed to b may cancer waiting test results i know think shit keeps getting worse wounds keep getting deeper im contemplating ending now mean know would absolutely obliterate her want finally stop communicating kill later like wanted to but happen her im confused went suicidalworry hurryabsolutely broken span day know whats happening anymore im lost killed chance