began watching boku hero academia expected level sadness something added reminded life life nothing pain watching everybody made feel sad everybody improving themselvesachieving dreams mentors adventures feel pain much healthier mine tv screen fades black felt empty sad depression began show mean self again could repeat my life boring their real bakugous real i coward repeats head chest felt heavy shit wish could world lot destructions free there instead house many years even allowed go faraway feel like reality always like thisempty sad boring filled suffering even remember feels like happy something want go fight supposed feelings ever receive negativity quarantine making fucking worst everytime movie music ends stare around room feel nothing immense sadness emptiness sad want exciting life hard sad fact bnha