nothing makes happy anymorei know issues gonna solved one reddit post guess would help tiny bit least type out ask no im suicidal im way afraid death even consider it instead feel chained bound plane existence title says everything keep mind day actually get help longest time considered life worth living least mine feel gonna go im  still stuck living parents get along with especially mom thinks better childhood reason sad anything fought since first started forming long term memories thats exposure love like cant seem get good enough paying career going companies within reasonable distance pay shitty never take anyone without years experience cant make friends every time do always someone whos busy  time end feeling twice bad alone cant find loving relationship woman im emotional mess even without that im severely average looking best complete lack self esteem confidence makes truly believe im good enough anyone chance fall someone absolutely tears apart inside completely fuck get swept feelings embarrass myself see maybe someday living spending rest life living sake staying alive alone never able meet anyones expectations never able learn social romantic mistakes past everyone finds sooo much easier ghost rather telling said wrong motivation anymore dreams anymore nothing seems worth anymore nothing makes happy anymore