 year old struggling cfs decade looking end life dignitasim  year old guy ireland life going right almost ten years ago health took turn worst ended chronic fatigue syndrome struggled college it proudly got degree finishing top class time finished everything gone shell former self struggling hard illness appears absolutely futile continue life nobody knows difficult cfs unless live it every single day life unrelenting exhaustion along array food intolerances lack brain clarity means longer even watch movie takes much concentration follow it mention severe depression makes everything worse life fucking hell nothing smile about cant work put degree use scrape week week disability allowance never feel well enough hold relationship get married kids dreams impossible achievements im tired all im tired life ive fought long cant fight longer want out want go dignitas assisted redflag know would tell parents know suffer know bad really is anybody considered this death really scares as normal person idea growing old gradually losing faculties scary ive tried committing redflag before difficult actually push finish job