please help me feel like strong long cant take anymorei hope someone advice right feel like world caving me even know begin feel like even here complaining see many people subreddit worse mebut really need someone listen one listens anymore talkalways talking lovely fiancee moved australia for currently waiting finalize immigration time unable work study even volunteer work banned right waste space speak income own spend days computer dicking around waiting time passes ive signed gym go every moment available fiance drop its far walk spend day around house friends friends australia longer speak to due huge timezones going separate ways life fiances friends know well enough tried hard get know them one antisocial angry time one gone breakup feels like world ending others live far away one town get know live retirement community nothing here theres gas station tim hortons stores voila feel like life right now shit lot people told stupid travelling young age regretted moving canada fiance one bit love death  know sounds cliche given age  really happy him except every day comes home feel like life waste space bored frustrated australia honour roll student high achiever live learning bettering myself ive tried hard put spare time use tried learn programming another language art etc right feel unmotivated thought might wasting away another year bothers end family aside fiance mother schizophrenic paranoid abusive mentally physically left lot scars again mental physical haunts dreams every night even though im another country still jump every often acidentally spill something swear stub toe scared behind ready beat againor worse combined fanciful events childhood keeps sleeping well night period know need see counsellor thisi know need someone talk to right healthcare money pay this never let things bother me ever always always try look bright side everything hitting hard lately get wisdom teeth  theyre infected badly  fiance going use savings pay it know bothers not know communicate listen fault  good man rough time friendships relationships hes trying change desperately me hes also extremely stressed moment  works every day also goes college eight hours day time comes home wants relax cant even due school work want bother problems  need help reddit ive tried stay positive entire life  theres lot backstory summarizes stuff bothers moment feel lonely bored upset everything sort hitting onceand feel stupid even complaining this tldr cant work study anything living another country till government says so feel like waste space first time life everything bad happened getting me