thought id sharei truly want go current life absolutely toxic live home without work covid folks relationship toxic sometimes question one day mom push father edge buys gun executes everyone father abuses mother anymore murders sleep wanting divorce threatens leave country attempts divorce him father treated mother like dirt since born mother recently started stand herself ive even begun standing her takes extreme throwing things him hitting hits back putting position intervene gotten hurt numerous times almost put prison money would move out cant even find work im antisocial type so moving friends house work dads side family middle east mothers side family psychotic maybe even more im  nearly enough money leave friends literally family go therapy money sessions feel options truly redflag