ive wanted kill self relationship year think im finally going iti know first thing people want comment shouldnt kill guy youll find someone else relationships arent worth life thats reason want it im wants break up im inevitably will please anyone reading wants help please dont advise guy lot complicated that reason want keep fucking up hes amazing gets upset rightfully so im messed girl keeps making mistakes want end even though gets upset make mistakes everywhere else even try good girl cant see good tried sees made mistake dont blame him would wasted time someone kept making mistakes cant make happy cant make anyone else happy either live shadow successful people ive done never amounted expectations made me id everyone service ending letting everyone relax enjoy lives without me want kill theres solution mistakes make try hard him still happens cant change live misery upset projecting me live self loathing guilt someone amazing giving chance either way cant look mirror without thinking girl reflection deserves good life had hard part next year life see every single day theres getting around even tried even harder part choose remove life way thats possible committing career redflag exaggeration would giving worthwhile thing life right now theres alternatives cant get another job really really doesnt work like all point im looking sign it ive rationally tried wrap head around months seems solution stopping problems love life need reason im starting see exist