got stage want help anymore dont careyeh suffering silence depression  years went doctor said couldnt help wait councellor therapist asked medication said wouldnt willing issue it told go away talk family even though said cant talk things ive got stage give up maybe deserve ive ben giving shit life even want help anymore im accepting happiness option anymore accept truly happy forgotten feels like ive started smoking order shorten life die earlier cant stand life people happy theres me shitty sat pushed fucking corner one gives shit about im always blame everything always fault truly give reddit love people try help even though dont know real life never really respect help unfortunately im lost nothing now give up people sad go maybe itll make realise eyes open looked rather fucking time thanks