whats wrong wanting livei really wanted alive around past  years life  told severe depression that understand logically want live enjoy every day grew great house supportive friends family drive wants get job productive member society never have yet get job date yet alive get people enjoy company parents love want much sit home parents play video games talk friends online time dinner talk parents almost every night cant want dead without people saying sort problem produce goods services wide enough audience able support myself know burden upon family want stuck idling away time them wrong wanting dead