life memaybe enjoy living lie close eyes problems world everywhere look feel selfishness abandonment lies deception jealousy dont see happiness quick sparkle maybe almost always gets destroyed overreaction people making look like never happier entire life acknowledge bit good bit good bad mind real feelings left im gonna take example country im currently live  us people dont care others really want bother nobody around oh boy oh boy work environment education here favorite part need pay hundreds thousands dollars  years life receive paper may qualify work come non traditional background abandon home country studied free university dont much money buy education here went free school recognized higher education free course great logic america im good profession nobody wants hire me wait it dont paper nobody even want look direction without it fucked reasons visa status cant leave country  month year spend time partner lives fucking continent cannot move live work reason im still alive gives hope much love them much feel lonely without them thought abandoning kills heart every night dont friends least reddit here random people still reading fucking nonsense life dont want live tried didnt like it maybe others im fucking done pile crap another place another time one