think gonna final post onlineive anxiety years now ive struggled cope it  year old im new world get it need slow think anyway really given up brother dad abusive know what really wanted love them miss feeling hugged dad brothers voice havent house whats going year first christmas without either them ive lost friends online connections im garbage skill try learn becoming increasingly paranoid think hear voices people dark ive accepted redflag im medicated seretonin never helped first place id rather commit redflag dog dies live heart fuck anxiety fuck antifa fuck school goodbye internet