darwin right beginningi still believe fact creating post subreddit worry personal drama ampxb  years ago top game athletic build socially great even girlfriends drinking problem led major depressive disorder than life keeps getting screwed  years makes roughly  days  months  hours imagine living doomed life long reason alive far hope change strong temptation resist natural selection years view life completely changed many times close friends trying change perspective uttering ideas sounded like taken spiritualistself improvementbullshitbutistillhadyourmoney type books situation broke physically fucked up semisocial pushover some people still respect previous works intellectual capital possess godknowswhat disorder taxes mentally almost tried change everything control order make difference attemps failed badly last  days started episodes anger extreme sadness decided end this people might think writing sign seeking helpsupport subconcious thought seriously fucking idea sharing internet platform another thing want say people reading subreddit thinking like reading redflag notes even trying help them thinking posts really stupid reason kill yourself believe friends position wish project feelings emphateticly words inadequete purpose possible people would understand guygirl killed himself ampxb planning take action  days wish good luck people subreddit hope find another way around yes darwin right theory man respect thinking revolutionary concept ampxb basement bugs calling people weak etc choice ending lives fuck stupid social norms insects position judge nametag another person heshe want participate flawed nonlogical social rules systems discriminating people choice life sexuality bunch stuff fit normal description even describe completely ones shall destroyed god damn retarted primitive monkeys kind majority  centuries fucked entire thing i bang lot hot chicks school becuz cool insta photos hell yeah st century congrats motherfucker exactly humanity needed god damn moron