monkey koala im sorrythis might goodbye reason live enough money rent let alone medical bills im starting believe im cut dream career want believe lost love life read messagesletter friday night first time feels like im wearing promise ring dead man feel sick cant eat cant sleep trust me ive tried ive wearing shirt feel encompassing me want parents know happened year rather pleasant last memory me want see either ill write letter mail them tell starcrossed lovers story know best understand news interfere parents ive tried come countless scenarios extended silences trying believe good koala hurt me even though ive hurt ways one couldve imagined koala great person model human future children koala possibly discovering hidden gems delicious foods hometown without me koala classes focus anyway needs save money began question beliefs said continue see her notice two rocks photo sent me go her please take aroma via cibo mahas dying wish wanted call last night could hear two things you  love  chapter over reason want live fall back asleep last night waking within  hours falling asleep puked last night puked morning bed bathroom sink realized more yellow vile liquid stomach empty without side want run away life you person asked marry you albeit lightheartedly person cared loved intensely maybe start new life nomad money life ends result early nothing look forward to imagined future future supported rough times knew even dream career attainable would support plan b c way z met freight member hd walk away let peoples thoughts cloud own have know way know you love you ill wear rings always shirt wore first date seems fitting end full circle love last breath well recreate moment met heaven ill waiting goodbye