nothing fucking mattersdoes anyone else view similar mine im  years old college biochemistry student track medical school ive got  gpa right now everything feels completely fucking moot lot happy moments even bad moments view humanity existence anomaly tiny speck dust known earth hurdling several thousand miles per hour space were bound die eventually humanity wiped future almost trace existence afterwards even then probability life finding remnants infinitesimally small god afterlife far know cant go living life hoping ill happy still existence im dead cant force believe crap like without good reason