need make next  hours soim garbage person im staying family home cause im jobs yesterday family said xmas early thought would better wasnt there gotta disappear approximately  hours starting  hours think setting fire alot dont want anyone see face ever again think whole ordeal family think want around set fire think im dramatic think pull frodo disappear think wrap heavy chains jump big river maybe dont find body atleast pretend im wandering somewhere something happened brain cause two years ago thinking gonna bake pie family make extra special thinking anyone sees whats fastest way kill myself im literally reassured got bit cash pocket worst case scenario go gas station buy gas set alight comforting thought now might run away seems fine