think im going kill sooni think killing time im always much pussy actual follow through first problem never find anything relatively painless with methods guaranteed kill me embarrassing would attempted redflag live deal pity people know second problem father already lost mother long time ago know im like last link her want father honestly im getting point think might selfish end all sake know hurt people know honestly im sure care anymore ive lived like long want control fate hate ungodly degree sometimes imagine ripping skin crawl out im trash useless death mean nothing life meant nothing really nothing confess plan do exact plan yet idea im either gonna swallow bleach bug poison high drugs dont know drugs yet hope kills me thanks reading guess please follow footsteps im idiot last resort