friend died todayyeah house spider yes pathetic hes always salt lamp crawling there nothing making shadows walls caught flies nats talked him hes spider isnt complex enough understand had loved tickle hand spun prey hand weird made get fear cat swatted late make stop already dead time came room im fucking destroyed lonely dont know do im pathetic fucking stupid loved even called lupin iii thats favorite character third spider became friends with rest let outside garage live away hell couldnt leave lupin im lonely im lost reason even exist anymore miss damn much hes fucjing spider made feel safe woke eating fly probably buzzing around felt thankful im lost