thoughts starting come backhey reddit sorry wall text recently past  weeks so thought redflag become far stronger ive ever felt before im scared end it dramatic sounds ive come close before written notes driven bridge follow through time though thoughts strong im scared tell anyone want worry me ive emotionally physically abusive relationships since  trapped them everyone went shrugged told stop wimp best friend believed guys lies truths lost loads friends lies ex told feel lovely currently wonderful guy totally understanding told far lives one exs though makes hard forget did told boyfriend full extent though blame still friends guy dad left  since run house mother done much meand want sound ungrateful that puts much pressure me billsupkeeplegal stuff works two jobs keep us afloat though dad pretty much interest life brothers two brothers aspergers im pretty much responsible lives turn out find jobs find college whatever them suffered paranoia past believing people going kill me finally told mum it shrugged off theres many situations like that especially relationships past ignored told want hear it feel like give family much see people time myself provide them work two jobs college lot cope with even see tired think ask more theres things see way out ive told makes feel cant cope care thought ending becoming great really cant see way anymore since  ive telling cant keep dad house care know fix this please help something stupid need find way this thank reading this