ever stop hating getting helpmods let know proper sub ill best girlfriend  years told suicidal last night said tonight would night really know point talking  hours phone texted sister gf still lives parents gf taken hospital upset me understand hold anything her blaming stuff control berating every time ive tried talking today im trustworthy anymore according her would lying said hurt lot now trying look bright side taken care family never big fan seem see better light apologise word soup im trouble focusing right now thank reading