hang folksi feel terrible reading stories here embarrassed thought things bad im early s struggled depression whole life times feeling almost normal always susceptible trough series poor decisions depression flat broke truly awful financial moves very poor career outlook yet worthless certainly feel angry time good friend commit redflag several years ago completely ruined family cant see yet know would easier someone something blame situation stupidity know im prepared unleash family thinking nobody cares nobody miss gone case know buddy feeling way end true all best luck us