failed class nd time convinced ever ill really kill soon enoughth year college student internshipwork experience extracurriculars gpa pretty important end moment comparison peers who already started establishing professional careers gpa sucks trying doublemajor school compensate fact im staying extra year class question one failed last fall major initially really interested upon failing class last fall took another major switch which like good job prospects too felt lame taking  years  major fall took first major saw another professor teaching it someone im familiar done well another class past thought sign second chance redeem myself however semester progressed realized much struggling ultimately decided drop major good hoping pass class c well happen bombed final failed class again gpas going tank transcript going look even awful got  finals next  days cannot focus anything all basically im fucking idiot really fault poor time management amp shameful time management still something grasped stage life lot times realize much fuckup am im think if theres higher there surely let like live consequences it must plan me plan really mean meeting death way anyway im coming terms dumb much problem mindset  hope higher would save allow die longer personally deal consequences poor decisions root cause never attempting redflag before figured fate ill die soon enough postponement waste timemoneyresources really time active rather passive take matters hands cant live dumb mistakes future really bleak amp btw im really solely failing academicscareer im dealing depression loneliness well expressed post couple days ago context anyway might get triggered one reason another holidays weekend then set take winter course however withdraw tomorrow the last day get full refund  parents money wasted regard haha