im definitely ready go amp cant waitthe pain outweighed thought hurting loved ones much carry detail ive through laid detail post history long conversation last night ended sending email amp got heavy bout emotion let emotions run free went well bit end definitely want together whether boyfriend not ive struggling intense feelings inadequacy shame loss amp guilt cant move on feel though reasons broke fixable amp preventable working towards end late already far gone ive always struggled internally made feel like anymore got lazy amp lost her someone else now found seeing picture haunts every single day cant live thoughts anymore ive difficult past amp light life tonight im going take bunch sleeping pills knock out tomorrow ill make real go im happy amp looking forward it need let go cant anymore