 sexual orientation induced homelessness money depressed etcso got kicked parents house multitude reasons physical abuse emotional abuse tried killing twice wellestablished plan making sure would work third time alas graduated highschool parents suggested stay back year university earn money accepted three top universities applied to took online course father would routinely disconnect internet scream me mother would hit occasion top great stuff kind troubling realization im gay fucking wonderful ive pretty much contemplating redflag daily cutting arms dangerously close wrists etc im crazy well ive staying boyfriend past months standstill  tapered entirely cymbalta causing horrendously suicidal  cannot afford vyvanse due total lack money  lost wallet id  ridiculously skinny  know one city im at taking fifty mg tramadol good way myself could anyone suggest alternative redflag