keep praying deathi keep praying death every night wake curse every morning always think would rather die live long remember last days ive feeling much severely tried kill  nights ago overdosing pills passed could take enough woke screaming failing finished nightly workout used make feel better normally feel normal think much want ive told family tried commit redflag one said anything act like say it im seriously considering something illegal go jail get away really cant stand anymore im sure one times fail one night ill get idea work hope tonight