every time go kill myself psychosis scares awayto start off psychosis sometimes feel presence dark like feeling terror heart tells person blackness going stab death big knife also terrified security cameras apart that completely delusional  sometimes get sad go somewhere kill myself feel like completely destroy body brain otherwise agents come reconstruct put use go top multifloor car park go bridge train tracks every time go two places kill myself become terrified someone dark see security camera following walk not sure hallucination become terrified run away think is coincidence think so feel like upset live maybe stress triggers psychosis edit think security cameras actually following me cctv cameras motion tracking right idea seeing things