ready check life earlyfirst world problems ahead feel like ive done everything ive wanted life ready check life little bit myself  mid s guy  got decent paying job  done lots traveling world ive favorite country japan  times  ive girlfriends before im virgin dated ten years since last serious relationship relationships long term  got see favorite bands perform countless times ive hundreds shows  im great shape love cycling also lift  great circle friends feel grateful everyone says people less fortunate would anything life complaints im happy im killing time die want wait grow old frail thought living nursing home poop bag terrifies me actually fear outliving friends family recently ive thought checking life early im going plan leave note one day might walk front train bus leap bridge without thought could happen day im looking attention wanted get there anyone gone similar experience