nothing lefthey yall first post burner account ah well goes im  f im pretty done life im going kill month  great academic success beginning college im barely scraping by never show class im going fail again ive local community college  years almost  unemployed psych hospital used work got shut due lack funding im social major helping mentally ill people truly passion love connecting people taken away me  havent able find job dont know ive literally applied  jobs last months nothing follow up interviews etc  debt isnt debt seriously im fucked much fucking debt pay ill never able do  deadend career field social work mental health social services disgustingly underfunded know im never going get job makes happy pays well im even trying rich im literally wanting able afford  bedroom house bills  relationship well im engaged fianc weve  years by choice moved engaged feel suffocated sex experience guy ive life consensual im wanting get explore open sexuality feels dead end  overweight isnt overweight lol yeah im fatass fuck addicted sugar diet im highest weight entire life  lbs  job promise didnt work out applied residential care assistant mental health facility deals women children affected addiction amazing interview passed background check drug test well said get case work hours would start full time case manager good salary fucking happy called told found someone else work dollar less requested crushed told problem ill work  hour instead  well nope new lady already starting got case worker rca fuck right basically plan kill sometime month everything eating alive medication doesnt help nothing helps one fucking soul empty feel absolutely nothing plan slit wrists bathroom bleed out ive struggled long im done make loved ones dont anything super expensive really valuable eh not