major breakdown tonight scared alone knew would anything drastic matter getting closer friend mine really care respect one awake time kept going back forth eventually ended asking check tomorrow really needed someone call me worried pushing boundary friend suddenly since know much mental illnesses right feel like asked want respond tomorrow matter say would rather say all feel like let alone moment tomorrow feel like moved on also want jeopardize friendship one coolest people know never wanted come burden much work with idk worried made mistake idk done next ever since march depressions getting worse again want friend worry too sucks told friend check idk right call