got even closer todayit seems im going steps nerves always get me last time almost went garage grab rope today went garage rope none went store sold rope stood shelf looking ropes maybe five minutes today left store without rope im guessing sometime near future ill actually buy rope know get one get know tie noose ill look up ill go woods find sturdy branch hang rope from im likely going walk away day ill bring rope one take it ill go back tree try again ill try many times takes swing rope ive made decision wish continue longer feel bad anyone except cats probably shouldnt theyll forget quickly parents relatives gonna harder time admit that cant much that friends none problems there turned ramble sorry get out