cant cope trust violatedcopied pasted another group since really need advice recently mental health admittedly taken downturn honest friends feeling taking steps work depression anxiety suicidal thoughts pace people knowing conditions makes everything lot worse however put aside anxiety degree receiving online counselling appointment real life counselling spoken gp try medication progress slow progress today randomly got call social services apparently contacted  referred several different organisations area never called  tell complete stranger everything try make believe called truth essence trust completely violated completely uncomfortable everything mentally got whole lot worse turns called friends arranged behind back even though told want safeguarding call anyone me violated trust consent getting repeated calls different organisations making anxiety suicidial thoughts much worse getting help making path towards recovery recovery feels like halted get understand im human project want continue path understand okay violate consent like that want know get understand journey theres anyway cancel safeguarding knowing personal details got lying makes way anxious before phone calls make anxious anyway could coming anyone anytime not copied pasted mention reddit pages honestly made want end life more idea calls stop theres three far without consent much real issues triggers surrounding consent anyway tell going cant handle it feel like two friends betrayed me theres nothing do cant cope anymore medication makes want be happy even though fake im me happy person cant cry me fake want still even respect fake says