even seem worth talking anymoreit really matter yes ive made detailed plans past yes still think every minute every day even seem like matters anymore im become totally indifferent even extreme dangerous thoughts even flag problematic anymore normal thought thats head like anything else ive times day place method decided everything squared away ive hospital twice one like weeks ago idk whatever yeah wanna die cant say sure it really matter me talk anyone anymore is therapist see point getting one need medicine refill cant bothered pick up care less it