im feeling like redflag easierso throwaway obviously want shoot head instead dealing life sum im premed thats failing college im crippled fear funny enough failing recently married wonderful wife adore beyond else cant support us cause job skills college turning bust dad supporting us part know im failing would likely cut support long tell him hes also doctor hate religion long drawn reasons giving identity problems it whats really putting edge right now ive dealing wifes sister extremely overbearing always knows whats best never wrong belittled wife last night super bowl game nearly  years married biting tongue decided speak said youre rude wife please dont started get upset correction said youre pill asked wife leave everything seemed fine  minutes stayed shit not exactly happened seem like big deal right little argument nope half hour sister law leaves room starts bawling bathroom course parents laws go aid turns huge thing morning brother lawher husband asked could come help tile things course wants discuss argument witness turns sister law thinks poisoned wife her whole littany awful things always bit tongue starts exaggerating lying speaking empirically things knows nothing about one time defend wife get made terrible villain brother law begins tell stress theyve may acting waysince ive known her asks considerate speak rudely like last night yell like did get passive aggressive like did asked nice crime calling bullshit one ever reacts way lived together house year sister law pregnant learned thing two always kept mouth shut every fiber wanted tell constant belittling younger sister wife well nice person said okay come home tell wife cant tell im feeling inside poisoning her hate am hate job hate im weight hate cant ask help premed program cause get laughed advisors office need help hate sister law manipulating everyone always get way hate wifes family thinks im terrible person hate friends getting accepted medical school cant even get gen chem class cause panic every semester point cant even register classes means look gpa hate myself thing keeping blowing brains right that would made inconsiderate person taking cowards way out cant anyone considerate feelings stress cant anyone come aid try god damned hard simply good person ive thought killing time actually want it im scared im alone know do fuuuuuuckkk