stupid even get way outeven wanted to dont enough drugs kill tonight dont gun it tried bleeding change mind last second every time get car makes real honestly dont think could ever actually end life reason im writing thread though point life never thought possible im point life makes sense end life im point dont feel passion family encourage to im point know dont matter know everyone would done it stay here wont know like left behind temporary wont make permanent decision want know reason writing thread go feeling justified kill feeling valuable to maybe im ranting idiot idk need hope maybe motivational tdocumentary something would help choose keep going logically doesnt matter do