shame transgenderi never son im supposed be want kids want god damn dick girlfriend deserves better this dysphoria bad tonight cant even look long else ill want disappear disgust embarrassment hate body mine amount surgery hormones money change biological birth im never going accept fact wasnt born male supposed put smile say body everyday literally feel like screaming tearing guts throat could cis day would make year mind constantly filled only if gets tiring pain becomes physical people really feel pride facade make okay cant fake anymore life fucked im trans im never going real man im also girl im nothing dont deserve alive anyway im disgusting mutation feel guilty ashamed im exhausted cry nothing help want die want fucking normal life instead outsider like always am