hate brain so  weeks ago got asked out said yes fun stuff weird tech rule house cant text often last talked two weeks ago im writing now a fact appears accounts mine blocked my hope dad find out b weird amount stress seeing have a dads drunkard oldest sister still lives age  severely limiting fact shes one work house b since sawspoke last brain flooded negative hypotheticals ifs because trauma previous relationships honest hell earth especially check back account see text them see account changed dramatically digress whole lotta abandonment issues clinginess first world problems still move forth yes struggle talking long also yes thank reading did