doloim fucked person ive tried attempt redflag multiple times hopeless sometimes felt like soul losing bad shakes core sometimes feel like ive lost realize like phoenix im going rise despite path people want go down hate anger bubbles leaves bad emotional state sometimes wonder even deserve feel good time drugs helpful thats temporary way feel happy im alright temporary happiness right now kind ironic im depressed time yet im antidepressants take awhile kick in ik one reason im really pissed right havent able actually find happiness anything itll come