cant take anymoreim tired fighting stay happy life constantly gives something happy about rips away great pain years ago met girl internet grew close fast talked texted lived together got engaged months ago betrayed cheated me shortly getting cheated abandoned met new girl granted one slightly younger me well grew close together fast happened accident too randomly messaged one day things grew thier live seperate states cant see eachother physicall weve constantly talking phone self harm deal really bad depression balance eachother out talk phone eachother happy feel like depression gone two days ago parents said dont want speaking texting messaging anymore its responsibility support partner think taking advantage im not really happy eachother plan spend lives together start family till friday herafter friday cant convince parents let still talk text me well cant handle loosing another person whos made world happier even sit here feel like giving up im tired life throwing someone makes feel happy feel safe taking away me abandoning me canti cant handle anymore im break