likely one loneliest people world i sub saying nothings changed since one loneliest people means life gets extremely boring boring life interesting things happen bad things means eventually started think killing myself think every day coping mechanism every time even minor inconveniences happens want die think death often even interest anything else think someday really able end all really want lot time tried times scared reason imagine much loser nothing nobody live yet scared kill yourself something like even possible want hurt anymore unless lucky enough something come kill quickly painlessly going live life whether like not think every day suicide