know anymoreok im even going bother throwaway dont know anymore ive work almost  yrs occasional job yo hold daughter over survive barely mean barely weve lived car motels tents notbing gotten better isnt going tk seeable future daughter could amazing easy life grandparents much better could ever offer her everyday want kill havent strictly much now cant keep letting nothing live like this cant provide dont see possibilty able to father absolutely useless  children know shell better life grandparents could ever get deserves that me love world kills able anything her cant take life anymore dont know else needed vent