people say i would miss youdoes anyone else feels suicidal actually get little upset people say things like redflag selfish if killed would upset lot understand lot people commit redflag think one would care case helpful way would feel someone said ive never told anyone im suicidal want upset them theyre taking pain making feel feel guilty mindset would trying help almost feel like everyone wants alive actually care whether im living ive much pain long even good reason nothing seems make happy sometimes know strong future ahead probably alone everyone moves gets married families feel like want die im older  im  now going go downhill then friends enough going miss much no feel like deserve lonely pain  years everyone content knowing im breathing also really want die