im sorryim tired want vent listen guy really liked first person really liked disastrous relationship another much older man guy age got along really well similar interests started acting strange said want date me mental health issues trying hard strong happy him really loved emotions fleeting worthless heard story million times suicidal make unworthy love hurt mean one ever see anything good me give hurts worse mean know bother im worth love people sometimes ask im dating anyone cant see im utterly worthless would date trash like me want end hope job gets robbed get shot dont went bridge installed anti redflag things bring go somewhere else im pathetic hard live hard die cant either one supposed do think coming end soon ive writing novel nearly done think peace enough bravery want stop pain please