father causing depression me without knowing huh begin love father hard childhood communist country growing hard him finished medical school parents forced him prove himself middle nervous breakdown suffering depression little growing up decided children suffer fate worked hard life make stable living space us  now going college fall fully paid him said money problem even tho really expensive never really work money caring everyone family dream come true right mother made promise matter happens two never divorce years kinda started hating other fight simplest thing father also talks lot death constantly says much time left could die tomorrow heart attack ect every time brings feel shit rest day says might true dies everything built crumble created heaven family die week goes now mother cannot manage finances stuff sorry rant fits guidelines tell someone