ready throw towelno one willing help  care love  made many stupid decisions past situation past really traumatized    year old my grandpa commited crime went jail  gave emotional trauma barely could get  loving he good grandpa passed away cancer  years ago still miss now got one  girlfriend friends no one cares  iam alone  said life beyond repair  want throw end sick exsistence  relatives getting jops  getting marry graudate college  failing everything  year old unloveable garbage  really want punch universe face  iam sick dissapointed everything