today best dayi feel like crap getting piled non stop today need vent risk hurting myself book incoming younger years selfish asshole much teenage daughter barely knows me entirely fault things happened way definitely partially blame head messed up ive thought taking meds able get control aged recently trying figure father teenage daughter dosent know me figured great first step pay insurance daughter live wisconsin daughter washington insurance working well all said head messed up  sure daughter brain meds insurance said getting that  months ago went honor roll drop out switch schools attempting redflag twice admit daughters mom could lying sign away rights even point view seen personality changes acts like young teen now feel like let things happen let someone else adopt my daughters ex husband may end dead hand bluff cant afford wrong on clearly brain damaged version sometimes struggle sucide tried talk wife nope concerned phone ex never commit sucide bad days like wife nags excessively especially today habbit thats slowly getting worse today though happens new level wendsay stepmom brother said going stop weekend mind all dad passed year ago spending time two important normal right always important even dad alive since heard nothing complaining i clean everything never get help tuesday night worked overtime wednesday work loads laundry today nothing got surgery nuts would ran house today dizzy that would drove away piece quiet im diving still little drugged up dad killed drunk year ago im risking it tldr fuck