keep bottling emotionsi fucking hate fact men cant actually express feelings except anger happiness want friends feel know try change subject feel extremely uncomfortable god forbid man says insecurities admit crying weak manly shit like ups male redflag rate seems like know one seems care want tell friend im suicidal want scare push away me keep bottling emotions cant fucking take keep over kill l least want know cant bring even say word redflag around know accept part brain still telling bad things happen tell him know say without coming across weak know fucking all