im lost lifesince  really remember sadness yes ups majority years filled sadness depression im close giving up dont know anymore   im born  bullied every day locked toilets threw things me started swimming got happy   august  parents got divorced led hear parents calling worsts things world even though told making really fucking sad really care  half year now see parents parents see strangers like friends seem immature or dont know knowing hard is happy time cant name one beautiful thing planet makes happy said self many times need wait move out hard like feel purpose world everything would much better left im lost know self anymore im literally curious see side life im sick tired shit