feel nothingeverything sucks literally one talk to said friends never there need something me course family treats like trash really make feel accepted safe comfortable all treat brother really well reason im outcast them even though im completely normal ive depression selfharming  years now family friends really know care it last year ive met internet person made feel really special time lately person really even know explain feel nothing makes sense everything hurts im mess really wish could end life people waste time someone useless me im typical talentless highschooler really friends hopes fulfilling dreams relating future honestly cant even imagine someone dumb worthless future want end life lately ive really hopeless know sounds like im overreacting anything nothing one stumbled upon reddit community tought id post thoughts birthday  days away want commit redflag day