need advice suicidal friendme ben friends forever hes struggled anxiety depression long remember first time mentioned redflag years ago seemed like thought concept back then past year so hes problems finding meaning life understanding wants problems making friends ive one confidants everything hes bro  love him really taking toll me ive told issues depression well always seem take backseat suicidal fact suicidal makes feel like need matter what selfish turn down never make false promises never tell going get better normally listen try tell im him love him normally go anywhere drinks lot lot drugs drinks hell call times night hell text hes work feels like always on tells hes sorry uses me tells hes shit friend nothing live for tell im him ill always him know lot say tell get therapy immediately hes going need back well how im friend seems awful impossible cant keep up im really hurting cant help him know do im sorry poorly structured help advice give would nice thank you