guess life now fuck it im donemy life complete shit deserve earth people clearly superior me im inferior mistake parents call miracle know im mistake im failure everyone know moved lived lives love im stuck unending cycle hopelessness dreams ambitions hopes nothing dream one day backpacking travelling world dreamt going holiday meeting wonderful woman would spent rest life with life kicks stop everyone see world superior im inferior scream im inferior parents say im not afraid admit well sometimes dream going another country mainly australia also canada new zealand even us im uk life depressing ive close killing long time ive even sent hospital times attempts im going keep trying im done life now dreams drive passion hope