wrote notei wrote redflag note short explanation anything apology dont know going use it wrote case need to promised partner would check psych anything would talk someone see nurse pull stiches thursday dont think im going kill myself maybe maybe wont dont know dont know anything really know  miles away love cant get world collapsing around me partner said maybe come home cant go back living parents cant partner lives halfway house eating disorders cant live her cant live one friends couches tiny apartments schools open back job love dont know do im hoping pass im sure will mind hell  years dont know take much longer