redflag without spreading miseryso things still going horrible worse ever way end suffering making others miss worse make suffer commiting redflag ive thinking lot people want suffer committed redflag feel helpless played went missing would still miss me even though would false sense hope returning playing accident help either two weak options popped head  moving really really far would little contact us thing may think weve lost contact would surely make little sad knew dead option good would extremely long letter explaining choice they hopefully could understand respect accept it maybe even combination two ideas thanks nick