im starting feel donei really energy write everything out consistently losing since teenager somewhat serious plans end teen im  severely depressed since july  prompted seek help ineffective romantic social life speak of im wasting time college used think would never commit redflag day wears more feel like im reaching sort threshold im still deeply uncomfortable redflag find thinking increasingly want miserable want gay want unsuccessful lonely loser keep thinking maybe one day happy things look bleak now im disappointed way life turned out would ask start enjoying life feel hopeless suggestions welcome anyway disclaimer im currently danger others