anyone else feel like dying another shitty birthdaymy birthday next month literally dreading it last year homeless shelter birthdaythere celebration year probably going same abusive ex put shelter wanted see me said no supposed say yes desperate someone met shelter wanted tell staff said trusted  which pretty good since trust issuesmonths later proved gut instincts right shelters job celebrate adults birthdaythey limited resources is nice enough give bed amp thats plenty i want another birthday hope die birthday dying sleep would best birthday present ever children waiting day feel good  happy birthday happy birthday im child anymore thought birthday causes fear day feel fear