missed  weeks classes depressionsuicidal thoughts  told im going suspended whats pointi switch anxiety medication weeks ago new one got put lowest ive ever been constant panic attacks depressed suicidal first time life almost ended it talked doctor scheduled multiple therapy visits  weeks later im lot better time missed  classes  times  classes  times managed pull bed classes first days even get bed therapist told talk adviser campus did told today since im failing  classes absences already academic probation im going suspended said since still went class days qualify medical withdrawal broken leg could excuse her actual words exactly something former suicidal person wants hear hurt get excuse feel like total loser hopeless now told write letter what better next time wait committee decide come back even wont eligible financial aid anymore community college cant even afford that feel terrible like efforts get better useless