turned  week ago currently summer break till next month go back college found depression gets really bad come home especially summer break longer breaks feel much better dorm like finally breathe while come home week reminded cannot stand there mother switches saying missed calling laziest person knows saying wish never me hitting me throwing things away without asking insulting get upset much more siblings dad really care complain older sister gaslights says going lot works hard takes you mom dad said want go back dorm mandatory sophomores anyway going end going going save move permanently cannot wait go back school neither crying numb hate feel powerless trigger