im unable love anyone apart ex fiancee im lonelyin august  living nice apartment partner seven years engaged two years wonderful relationship travelling world together shortly engagement sister passed away breakdown ampxb spent next two years trying get back feet emotionally unstable lean ex support me although accommodating  months so eventually started seeing doctor anxiety disorder cope relationship anymore ended leaving someone else ampxb first committed getting better whatever took getting relationship back track got good medication went gym daily went vacations alone busy stuck home made quite friends one biggest issues many friends lean on myself course also missed her ampxb still person left   years ago reached couple times told missed me contact months asked last month relationship give yes answer even though friend facebook friends see still together ampxb  months ago tried let go went lots dates even got together girl little while cant feel attracted romantically anyone ex dream multiple times week wake thinking sometimes want drive place pick another incredible date together days seem past point im starting another breakdown cant her want horrible struggle end