sadi feel guilty better life lot people still sad selfish lazy obnoxious overall nice around feel like deserve support anyone yet oppressed born lazy also feel like punishment well deserved that less sympathy average selective mutism uncommon interests bad making friends try cry attention yet crave it craving attention makes feel evil even though try best act it split feel everything get undeserved including unconditional love people around me know do know im writing this whatever want still feel like im guilt tripping anyone may happen read this know im doing fingers mind now want sound like im looking attention know thisll me ill feel selfish ask help ill leave that whatever is congratulations made far