getting worsei didnt know could get worse am feel like im losing mind dont know im dont know am good person piece shit ever anything life probably wont live long wish could happy least cope like people do ive lost almost motivation keep going werent little brother sister would already gone im supposed role model im supposed one leads way im furthest behind brother  sister plans shes going make it brother smart age support reinforcement ever have im  ive done nothing worth nothing all mom told today need get shit together supposed that im like her