want endim tired everything rd th post here im tired always brink never actually anything almost got hospitalized december told wouldnt kill things get better year may nothings changed still cant transition yet im trans im still forced boy scouts im still crushed school not even hard classes finals hit like train sit around kinky shit online watch youtube cuz cant muster motivation anything else constantly humiliate socially cant finish anything miss meds daily etc etc would kill could parents still keeping knives throwing traffic sounds impractical want badly im tired everything im exhausted nothing gets better let die know fact anyone know irl sees im gonna get ass hospitalized again thought absolutely terrifies me yay stress