im feeling completely alone family shit job seemingly old make new connections peopleim mid s parents passed away several years ago real family speak left two daughters rarely allow see ex wife makes feel like shit whatever can cant seem find good job fucking dot drug test several years ago child support im barely scraping by friends mostly busy familys now women age looking somebody afford support family me ive dealt depression life know drives people away eventually start getting really bad feel totally alone makes worse leads people want around even more reoccurring issue relationships nothing seems improve station life seems get worse debts bills pile cant afford think reason killed yet nobody would feed dog