finally leaving rredflagwatchfor longest time ridiculously unhappy life knew moment hit rock bottom day woke justdidnt feel happy anymore foreign feeling like lost feeling alive thought feeling would never go away exaggerating much worse this seemed like everything going wrong time life would never joyous again entire plan written ready go note underwent countless revisions reworkings want anyone think fault even gave deadline said things work th birthday im killing myself im  yet still months go say certainty days me know happened even realize happened woke one morning thought i mind alive used frequent lot another account months ive slowly juststopped coming yet never officially separated subreddit now time official withdrawing rredflagwatch im ending life tonight im starting again im glad longer feel way im glad longer feel need come anymore im glad feel happy again wish best rest here hoping thing may happen you hope nice rest day wherever are