dont think anymoreabout year ago ruined life went school shitfaced every single day due extreme social anxiety depression little know life would get x worse got caught getting driven hospital get stomach pumped getting picked dad broke families heart let go back school weak later happy see friends return passion violin it performing arts school although got past substance abuse depression continued grow winter break parents found finsta personal information feelings mental health sexuality embarassing due fact wasnt ready come out made switch schools closer one promised could return old school got better april mentality improved therapist said good go back parents didnt even try im still stuck god awful school cannot truly call anyone friend friends old school lost contact me parents emotionally abuse sisters every day escape friends boyfriends school life become one tomultuos torture work hard every day please parents practicing violin working grades losing weight never enough them every day tell year ill college ill life new friends sort partner cant fucking live awful cycle one day havent sober school month smoke wax pen bathroom every single day cant stand existing anymore havent told one person school truly anything everyone else relationship least fucking friend cant fucking hold anymore school hell home hell sleep hell im going end awful existence anniversary day ruined life keep telling self better next year also said last year im suicidal ive ever liife