honestly got reason end itlike genuinely cant think reason keep living like everything joke things keep getting worse  prop come incely tough rly meant to  basecly hate appearance  looks cant anything it like guess im obsessed looks tbh see wrong yea pretty bad looks keeps getting worse  gf cant get one think ever can mainly look  think thats fair say too  got friends social circle also got social anxiety like get uncomfortable around big groups people even tiny group people around age  got several issues also link apperance got incurable permanent hair condition mild infection causes hairloss even maybe bleeding scalp gets severe got horrible posture possibly mild scoliosis got odd issue im outside theres sun im constantly close sneezing resist annoying  relation looks also kinda got eating disorder sense ive barely ever eaten breakfast lunch last  years also get rly uncomfortable eating among people also caused extra short besides allready so  cant help get mad dad genes wich got me realize sounds rly incely is part incel community left months ago condone ideas mindsets said believe blackpill essentially everything feels like big joke im rly bothering anymore also dislike job im studying guess im pretty pessimistic cant rly help it im trying edgy anything legit see reason keep living got meaning friends gf dreams things seeming improve