life crumblesi need supportwith friends speak figured maybe reaching strangers help me toughest point life ever reached ive actually thought redflag girlfriend  years left me  month old son together kills knowing ill see weekendsmy days work never perfect relationship flaws struggled get together becoming father admit wrong that originally break told needed change didi changed everything turns didnt love anymore  years memories rest mind tormenting me taken toll im even work look old facebook messages look used beand everything reminds her told wouldnt okay ive thoughts redflag before never actually wanted nowand one talk to