recently thoughts death even though great life many friends great parents stable family good income etc school taking toll putting redflag parents want die school kind want live pressure adult life see idea want future redflaging since people around already started career paths way afraid commit suicide yesterday without questioning thought what car ran lightning struck something died ever grow deal bullshit hate school much everyday drag bed commit class fr  hours day mostly people teachers despise like said idk root thoughts since life always great fuck wrong me thoughts suicide even though great life