suicidal circumcision barely feel anythingim american young adult circumcised infant aware part genitals modified recently really really hate consent would never fucking agreed this really feel anything masturbating circumcision allegedly reduces male pleasure significantly led hate body reoccurring feelings humiliation redflag spiral overwhelming depression even botched  highly suspect  would loved keep whole autonomy intact strongly suspect  relatively aggressive  circumcision reason why lot pleasure zones male body apparently exist me i really feel significant sexual pleasure gripping shaft testicles andor orgasm frenulum apparently entirely gone maybe sex masturbation feel good anyway know feeling way others act it supposed feel really good anything compare it too really hope circumcision reduce male pleasure significantly claimed since masturbation  least  really anything pleasurable significant extent ill visiting urologist soon verify whats specifically  possibly  wrong me think might botched minor way although allegedly lose sensation circumcision naturally possible mine went wrong way broke parents this never wanted genitals customized look like dads wanted born with kept parents get it mother simply told sorry upsetting me would never done knew modification would upset me theres nothing allegedly now restore foreskin specific nerves entirely gone true restoration may far future started defending it said doubtful reduces sensations clean implied circumcised penis looks better one undergo cut im still disappointed would found girl would okay foreskin part made angry said ill never know possibly reduced amount sexual pleasure anyway thats big deal told dad circumcised child actually before brought bible saying god command objectively evil action purely good wonder mandated old testament alleged health effects caused stop identifying christian since prayers failed receive response feel betrayed him feels like praying someone let sexually abused except problems masturbation  always stop high sex drive im still virgin s waiting marriage kind book job situation circumcision commanded old testament im sure keep living like this ultimately want kill myself wish could fix done me feel powerless anything change soon heard theres rumors form expensive full restoration possibly open public decade two clue old them research area underfunded disorganized taken seriously even worse reductions circumcision rates may ironically reduce motivation companies produce product like that curefull general public may never arrive foreseeable future even anyone angry at doctors parents society theres real clear answer that society really talks circumcision form quick gag joke im wondering much sexual pleasure im actually missing id still mad surgery mainly nonconsensual cosmetic operation genitals started becoming overwhelmingly angry world parents etc theres disputed reports significantly decreases sexual pleasure males wonder thats sex porn masturbation seems boring me barely feel anything watching it ive considered moving place assisted redflag legal really guts go it im afraid afterlife presently june  hopeful help destroyed sexual life hope future present happiness ive undergone deconstruction faith hope could fully restored within lifetime sex organs essentially destroyed rest life are know left never consented natural lubrication destroyed never consented sensitivity reduced unknown amount never consented this cant even express feelings anyone feels like ive horribly violated since would never ever removed part genitalia cosmetic reason thats apparently legally happened me since wanted look like father well barely feel anything masturbating too suspect sex little different miss pleasurable human activity someone love whats point going on im so angry done me like gross disfigurement one family understands me friends either always bullied kid wish could escape sex make it want become drug user either ive never point apparently thing feel really good me part genitals removed without consent im so enraged it even live okay modern united states gave right me im forced look hideous mutilation body foreseeable future barely feel anything sexually im much coward go it ive thinking move place legal ive scared afterlife prayers silent far need way cope want die parents ones really care entire life feel like sexually hurt child cant tell that tell that want break hearts know doctor recommended them know enough information question recommendations would give so much happen me sexuality destroyed im enraged world normal wish normal penis