mostly scared passing timeim f start childhood sucked majority highschool life spend alone sad playing video games day im  still havent finished major highly suicidal dont know recently talked psychologist first time didnt work also sessions cant keep fort corona virus every night go bed wishing didnt wake again dont know do paper hours could bothered start since quarantine sleep  hours day rarely leave bed unless necessary spend lot time crying contemplating redflag think im ready tried kill highschool think im ready now nothing brings joy anymore reddit great place waste time lurked sub years think time go sincerely hope fellow lurkers make live happy life ill watch wherever go root you thank reddit internet video games music providing comfort lonely life