give answer guyshey guys young man cis region little bit lost studying abroad made decision change country subject studies done everythingsuccessfully enrolled another university unfortunately got half scholarship wanted mother supporting application processalso friends supported me came home got information decided tell father elder brother brother completely disappointed decision told wont let ruin life mother changed mind  dayso told studying business useless cant finish current studieshow sure finish future business degreethat weaka failure made everyone suffer selfishthat wasted lots money me people things dont wanna dobut supposed to family members lot problems think even worse problems dobut wanted make everything better family said many horrible thingsthat would never say thembut understand that diagnosed clinical depression brother laughed it dont know anymore maybe righti got sick mindset stupid unrealistic thoughts closest people lost faith me realize fault didnt fulfill parents expectations  dont understand point view anymore sent back place dont wanna studybe couldnt anything agree  fault super selfish decided enroll university completely different country kinda dream would say planned lot things except one feel super badi cant sleepgot constant headache getting little crazy even though trying stay strong want disappear leave worst mark familys lifeit break completely till end days think better