cant anymoresince june  feeling awful everything explote november relationship end really love tried fight us treated like shit last week came back really lonely couldnt break literally die tried kill self started go psychiatrist psychologist im taking antidepressants sleeping pills make day last week nice felt little bit better week awful dont know whats happening cant anymore last night spend like  hours thinking im going this dont want mother find body dont want destroy life right cant think dont want anymore ex gf told wanted told needed time alright told wouldnt feel better even waited feel better destroyed me broken heart even really loved still do feel like garbage like cant anything right im deadlift family cant get bed cant stop crying everyday wake anxiety attack cant keep confronting here needed told somebody sorry really bad spelling country speak spanish