feeling everydayim  years old seems like peers went school graduated going college cant afford it girlfriend lasted  years recently broke me ive always struggled thought redflag last christmas day went hospital took  gabapentin started overdosing got stomach pumped anyone father never there mother passed away  im  trying make ends meet own struggle get good job pay enough actually survive girlfriend left im insecure kept thinking talking guys even though way thinking guess never know anyways sum up feels like theres way out life hard life short anyone anything barely feed myself really wanna anymore everyday front mind thought redflag think everyday soon wake throughout day ive always thoughts im bad theres way out wanna anymore name anthony appreciate read this thank think time up im worthless