 told crush like likes back want date him tbh regret telling cus could gotten know likes back ill feel bad get him want crush cus feel like distracts lot studies emotionally mentally mature enough relationship feel like shitty person like horrible indecisive insecure whenever alone late night struggle fall asleep keep thinking failures rlly scared ill disappoint parents unsuccessful feel rlly lonely whenever frds want kill self die feel rlly empty inside like purpose life wish could disappear without loved ones sad tho kind want something rlly tragic happen ill excuse die know something rlly bad happen ill actually want thought constantly having know bad others way worst feel horrible complaining feeling way grateful have sometimes wish privilege given someone else since deserve it feel rlly empty