crippling loneliness unlovablethats me none friends college would miss killed myself theyve got eachother meanwhile sit next annoying shit mum miss me cause pain happiness im rude im stressed im stressed time hit yesterday cousins aunts uncles would miss me im pretty sure ex used kindness gain doubt ever loved me lovable qualities pushed away friends college going hard time back relied spoke problems hate now im pretty sure could try reconnect want bother them people would miss dad brother mean world me things starting really get top feel like ill able change it