dont know anymore tw redflagi dont know anymore whole lifes ahead me college high school job love etc even still find wanting end ever often horrible dad lot older go time finish college enough time unfair mom drinks lot horrible health none family likes her shes abused multiple boyfriends makes horrible money life decisions might even go dad whos older her liver gives sister different blood type none family help her im much issue try best help often find alone cant bring go them parents going divorced soon sister hates mom love hate relationship sister half black mom white get arguments lot recently got back friends left behind spent around three months without me found girl whos perfect got tough depression every awhile think killing would like without me never bring it im scared isnt anything life want able help mom get alcohol make better money decisions nicer late maybe goal next year dont know ill cant help mom