depression failurewhen  forced see psychologist cutting pretty badly even razors serrated knives deliberately saw with despite something fucked up diagnosis nothing apparently wanted attention kind fucking loser cuts attention im  fucking years old im still loser ive never relationship went five years college got degree working  days week two part time jobs making barely enough pay loan debt friends hate im piece shit im constantly thinking redflag even fail that post sob story reddit like little bitch still looking attention let familyi let friends  let everyone ive ever met ive never followed anything ive ever promised life someone please fucking kill know note im aware fact cant really diagnose me im ranting