even guts iti used tell always get ruts one would ever believe amount crap survived fall ten steps back time promised dear pet accidental death nothing promised live prosperous life her really hard cant take crap thats handed meish years it cant remember ive full good year one bothering dumb drama friend backstabbing hurt boy losing job always crap every year cant take anymore knew last one would send edge last friend childhood kept touch hes ignoring lord knows hes behind back think job right feel little suicidal think things get better get job taking long time even get interview finally might getting one soon asked times would available tldr thought never family really depressing cant find guy treat right time especially anything first jerk me