always faulthello past never really someone talk to even still hard talk people problems instead ill post relieve sort burden eating past years born parents families mom  sons dad  children though mom dads family shattered met  year later  us moved different place fathers work mother father would fight every day resulting father beating mother multiple times knew mother would dumped since married my father still married another woman though cant separate due expensive filled deep regret knowing mother abandoned two children beaten dad everyday would reminded past memories mothers cuts wrists school bullied lots appearance top heart condition made fall deep depression tell mother it thing changed every time finished argument would yell accuse afterwards would hurt angry manner happened time turned age  prayed prayed life get better resorts did dad stopped beating mom started good friends me matter try forget couldnt im  even think friends mother father abandon still cant help feel like existed familys problems would happened always felt like shit useless individual never tell anyone one knows im like this sorry making long wanted put there thank reading far tho makes feel little better