want free mental illnessi cluster mental illnesses love feed other bipolar disorder social anxiety eating disorderim tired them want wake morning theyre gone want wake okay again want wake life eat without guilt love someone without pushing away waste hours weeks years life distracting hunger buying things watching shows already know heart mental illness going away im tired pretending thats okay im tired pretending im like everyone else im tired people telling best choice pretend there pretend things real are ill end life ive written hundred checks cant cash hell im already there want gone once gone