chose live got clean options againive never done anything like before get thoughts somewhere im  years old live united states highschool since  spent semester away college got addicted klonopin xanax prescribed drop couldnt remember anything spent three years daze eventually got sent away get help ended incredibly abusive facility florida girls made get middle circle call whores screwed stuff based principle attack therapy where break build back up finally managed get hellwhole after threatened would committed saying suicidal got clean managed start life back there talented web application developer got business running months got apartment things great made mistake moving people problems made one business partner learned real hard way working someone live bad idea especially psychotic tripping mescaline days putting gun mouth deciding give life last chance flew back homestate checked psychward getting plane got help again august since then ive lived various halfway houses successfully went intensive outpatient program completed however getting stepped week outpatient program filed grievance therapist told go suck dick would end assraped jail came gay fired moved halfway house apartment back family now months later attorney getting letters exroommate florida extorting threatening report police things leaving florida unless pay amount goes time attorney talks tries settle and ive long since tried settle original amount wanted ten times that im literally going crazy stress honestly tried everything make life better got clean came gay im stuck paying attorney  hour deal bullshit doesnt think proof extorted drug using idiots cant keep putting parents siblings stress constant bullshit really want peace relax seems option get rid fear unknown regard prosecuted either leave country kill myself dont know anymore want live life peace