 years old already failed life body dysmorphia cant fit inim  year old girl get shit grades im lazy shit ive sexually emotionally physically verbally abused   half mom moved mentally fucks across country seen since im tired bottling things up im lot problems accepting body i eating disorder last year sexuality dont know im bi lesbian really like male friend  gpa quit cross country feel lost sick around people always act normal though all feel like shit real problems love life im exhausted cant handle going really dizzy euphoria makes hard concentrate loving everyone around  month depressed  months like since th grade mean im still earth introverted know whats wrong me also feel like stupid shitty holden caulfield im surrounded sheltered people grew fast