im really depressed terribly bad situation think right make choicethis going sound unorthodox im depressed feel bad all really come realization life want one thats going happen me ive tried achieve certain set goals long time able reach them feel cant life want really want would prefer optout existence life inherent meaning value itself think lifes value determined person values life value life since life personal thing ever exist think right arbitrator happens continues simply decided want life end may moral objection decision affect friends family want suffer think really get say life continence however since want haunted choice rest lives probably come coverup story move somewhere far away first way itll seem like fell touch im still alive somewhere else one asks born think societys fixation protecting ones life even goes ones wishes unjustified