isolation stuff lasts beyond june im going kill myselfi friends entire family already dead ive depressed in fact ive known go two three days without eating much beyond coffee alcohol could hold small stuff like spending weekends desert mountains going beach sitting starbucks reading listening music thats now live alone aside work because mechanic im essential literally human contact anyone im stuck home watching tv masturbating even walk outside im surrounded goddamn concrete ill get yelled staying safe home thats another thing literally understand cannot drive fucking interstate dozen miles ones car me dont leave car fuck going infect someone get infected pavement interstate coronavirus too car im sure someones going respond blah blah blah thats good enough reason kill yourself even though dont need good reason