feel like ive completed role world im ready goi empathize lot robin williams often bring smiles others tend saddest point life decided light world im high functioning suicidal person always try help others compliment others friendly kindness genuine never expect anything return making others smile making others happy makes feel happy feel like role world make little pleasant others time im ready go dont want more im great job generally well liked others every night cry sleep sometimes light crying usually wailing sobs asking im dead yet every day think new ways im getting closer closer achieving really want im stage calm storm feel strangely peace knowing im going meet fate soon