think go like anymorei even know begin person talk walked morning fight last night first time ive caused fight lead leaving first time come back even responded me know whats wrong me never think putting others first myself realize im selfish careless plain bitch late blows face thought good were going stressful time im never good stress let little things get lash people response thats friends left im introverted make new ones im weak emotional never advance career end fucking relationship even married two years yet think redflag occasionally everyone would better without constantly screwing up honestly think things keeping going sleep last time cat i imagine getting put back shelter something family freaked answer anyones calls day im tired screwing time feeling way think make divorce man love much ive built life with know would happier without problems cause cant bare lose him guess theres selfishness again ive tried medications tried focusing better person theres hope me guess sorry rambling one else talk to especially this want give everything im tired trying failing