antidepressant stopped workingive  weeks fine want kill anymore still empty nobody loves nobody even cares now stopped working morning mom yelled me want die cant stand house hate family seen people really love two weeks want blamed everything want much pressure me fucking cares college right now want someone care right now cant even numb pain things like video games talking someones care about mom thinks bad me bad try communicate people actually fucking care about bad locked alone ever see friends see reason kill now ill always alone lie say get better wont die makes easier me nobody would even care