hate life muchim sorry doesntt belong promised ever cut need place vent hate nearly everyone life mom makes feel like shit always talking hates men general context im  year old senior high school reason hates men asshole dad left  eats away daily mom knows uses hurt me example shell start yelling sees im hurt shell say something like if like here go find father stay him reason im goddamn madsad today though girlfriend met  drank occassion would also smoke weed while however family always full alcoholics drug addicts never drink twice week goes smoking ive also told id never drugs far havent however gets drunk time point throwing leave work go take care her today homecoming celebration decided get drunk friend school also going tell knew id mad wasnt enough friend drank gave ride back house after knows feel drunk driving pushed edge love along work school great family much im breakdown along  best friends world reason alive today girlfriends dont see much id like makes happy theyve good friends long like said im sorry right place needed vent hurt year plan keeping way