lemonade still taste bad life gives rotten lemonsso problems problems life way think life story failures setbacks story burden family tale sure want continue live in born cleft lip palate south korea begining story big reason anguish mother name of discarded me feel lot anger towards her may poor unable manage costs feel anger lottery life went great family new country pain knowing somewhere real family bloody deformity live could without lot troubles now times much handle hate it hate life reason live adoptive family see burden hospital  surgeries cost much money hurts thinking it forced things normal people problem secure deformity think end would better without me add body useless love sports kinds body breaks down knees bad back bad shoulders really bad problems feets eyes butt get random pain sports anymore unable to even use bicycle without getting exhausted  meters knees loved bicycle anymore story life thing intellect average much think bit faster average person enough excell anything hurts lot put lot pressure become something family pushes want succeed them make feel proud know able to ability become something more feel completly useless like waste human race truly wish could fix lot things effort study like maniac right go feels like fall behind try get went korea year ago find past found pain nothing family end fled home knowing stayed would sink deeper never get rid cleft lip palate  always bother mind forever scarred it social skills worthless go parties good thing comes drink much else never ever even close get girlfriend bother now things think ignore totally lack everything could possibly never get one hate it hate cleft lip palette hate ripped away country made foreigner land hate missing always tried right thing life gives wrong back powerlessness feel crushing me wish could fix it could make lemonade lemons lemons life gives rotten another rotten one im sure want lemonade