dog passed awayi started considering end little ago im drunk strongest wish then remember parents even love sake social norm two me couldnt bare make suffer like that especially dad loves family currently me  mom  dad  dog loved well treated smart dad loved like little sister dad relied much emotionally long story short got run over got treated morning found dead already serious depression family already struggling bind itself ive got interest nothing nobody already fear loneliness father fear even more fear age quickly fulfill obligations could lose house fear die soon too dies swear kill moment already lurked sadly posted know kill now wasted time reading rn please go help critical people dont anyone tell this tell problems yo relief feel wanted note somewhere im convinced point im  sure killed point want die also im concerned dad plenty fear