think im donei know keep amymore ive diagnosed major depression anxiety  years now ive wanted kill whole time got self harm really bad  years ago self admitted mental hospital stopped long time little times there past year ive picked again im old shit feels like thing keeping going support system friends one cares would killed already dog cat dog anxiety issues im worried im going shell put cant around new people cant really want anymore point living pay bills like everyone whats point breathing air every day pay bills die anyway ive planned already animals held back think im point think even theyll better without me im ready over guess well see happens thanks letting vent