theres nothing meim  jobless living home mother that feel cares dogs child income own measly two friends both live hundreds miles away me car own time im perfectly happy living like this contacting friends via skype putting happy face see sometimes reality catches me hitting like freight train friends better things talk lowlife like me mother keeping roof sense familial obligation that needs someone cooking cleaning dog care instant show emotions around her starts interrogating feel way do everyone else age graduating class job house own able drive ive isolating world more detaching two friends mother ive even thought different ways could take out guts even that theyre either painful take long easily noticed combination three want live world matter even closest me thats all im sorry borderline illegible im exactly best state mind really needed get chest