id like end one way other depression bipolar disorder think redflag ton come extremely close couple times recently couple nights ago literally knife wrist began cutting motions stopped cried sleep kitchen floor live aunt uncle parents died horrible car accident last year gotten it im haunted nightmares deathly afraid driving even though everyone says good driver often think parents im  attending ut knoxville fall im minnesota originally however homesick moving june top that aunt uncle trouble adjusting financial burden sister carry addition two girls feel burden want go back home bad know home is aunt also mental disorders going rough time well psych ward three times past three months give new meds work two weeks body adapts them begins getting worse goes psych ward rinse repeat guess im saying is im homesick feel im burden everyone feel like aunt hates even though know disorders know real her miss parents im worried school fall breaking weight all want die want deal anymore im honestly thinking ending it want end whether death whether end stress know else turn im hurting one help me