god bet youre disappointed right nowive started selfharming again thought would never back here nope what  years naught cutting chest time round wish didnt stab myself wish could kid again nope gonna happen gonna feel childhood love ever again sound privileged mean really least good was it childhood god dont mean sound weird dont care cant held mothers arms again cant dad lift high shoulders narrate see blessed moments beginning lose sight ive lost ive started conceding reasons want die instead replacing selfloathing help