well first cry  great starti live home financially make sense move yet am generally get along parents great obsessed organization bedroom shove mess closet way eyesore according them room mine looks bad guests come over fine way problem unorganized closet problem pile clothes going put away shoved today come home theyre gone fucking threw away theyre shocked im mad said every right upset im wrong im living life wrong im never going amount anything yeah cuz fucking closet messy good job im going grad school soon fuck pretty good  great new years eve come home bullshit criticizing me ive deeply depressed life even though almost completely control calling worthless incompetent brings back really makes want end know sounds stupid self worth already low care feels like hate existence bothersome would throw fucking clothes away like enjoy seeing upset want exist anymore feels like cant anything right