threw away pills todayi depressed thought redflag before ive walked it never did reached people got counseling made alive last year year fall like last year happened again time worse know loved know people care me would idiot deny fact im surrounded amazing community sadness feels like never going end might make side cant escape it feel like im dragging people down got accident take heavy painkillers couple weeks im sure messed head even weeks cant stop depressed anxious past week half so keep thinking pills left use kill myself last night stop crying thought pills want old back morning held held bottle thought it thinking knew much real control right threw away pills feel much better believe decision made life throwing away think good first step theres many people like sharing kind stuff thought might well get chest here