lost hopei  yearsold guy injured himself right there sheer curiosity ive probably forfeited chance successful lovesex life probably rest life jeezus yes  ive ruined penis jelqing peripheral nerve damage axonotmesis feel little sensation although only day seven sensitivity supposed return day fifteen due kind trauma ive sustained fella also slightly bent everybodys telling worry  everything fine  urologist agrees parents become sick concerns listen me friends turned fairly useless everybody minimises condition cant see progress hope nothing sensitivity low almost piss sometimes carefully time loo breaks result theres joy living anymore fateful evening plans future joined gym hung friends even planned enroll university getting gbf more ive always depressed straw broke back cried way work morning thinking end all thing keeping thought parents family friends honestly cant bring break hearts one hand still want live ive got much love give body let to cant bear living among happy people enjoyable sex lives id kill get time machine stop that