finally got ltc license carry cardhey guys lurker year never thought open am often think redflag couple years way expect sense depression loss hope rather fear living without pride im doorman luxury apartment boston hate it im happy subjection vain gluttonous wealthy asswipes one complaint jeopardize job cant stand powerless disposable machine bust ass dickhead boss get paid less im worth im saying im happy saying good times many things happy things considered realize could seen ungratefulness narcissism rather choose fulfillment purpose longevity life live life fullest want best others im feel significant tweekers constantly get high wasting away streets feel like shit whats point ampxb owe try fail become stagnate theres point existing all went gun store purchased revolver safe put room took police exam bout  weeks ago losing weight getting toned trying increase skillset getting  one way other lets hope best