want someone listen help littlelately interest anything dont meet friends dont see profit it dont study dont see long term profit hobbies using help distract starting fail duty problems started really soon life family catholic luck borning bisexual good combination guess made think borned girl everybody accept easier girls love boys thats center post sometimes notion nobody likes me nobody do dont talk love talk friendships family started wondering what would happen comit redflag right now everybody react throughts became serious time point spending long nights awake plan steps writing letters etc boxes filled letters explaining example hobby already practice osdeveloping love it im scared someday apparent distraction dissapears advices want talk thanks advance