tiredim new writing sub new mental health  started suffering mental health  years ago lost friend cancer took year work used benefits pay could take time hopefully needed realign thinking  daughters wife mortgage etc never got better got worse time off trying new pills going therapy stuff help feel think found little works started cutting could focus something redflag feeling like crap every single day worked little while today friday th brought bosses office put unpaid leave mental health good enough excuse miss time feel bad get shit filled specialist  days get fired mental health excuse work title suggests tired tired feeling like shit time feeling like poor father bad husband terrible worker think going go garage take bunch pills hang good measure get job done looking anything specific anything all throwing like lot others feel still sad live world mental health taboo still places rather look away help