lost hopeim pretty much close giving up best moment me well almost every moment horrible im ever seen positive light contuing let introduce myself im vic  yearold  last another month hell female im iranian things best since born here everything going south know do lost someone dear months ago hurt aching heart imaginable dear generally sweetest thing ever seen im relationship girl love me know wants pretend go on feel like let her feel like im unlovable thing is friends nobody likes uncared for expect id used now im not pain got worse worse really cant wake feeling like want start day abandoned things loved life bitter want wake up leave whatever reality im living in seriously hard cant im sorry appreciate reading this left response want thank advice