know keep fightingim scared suicidal honestly id go hospital anyone watch dog guess thats part problem know anyone friends moved state girl dumped months later  months many horrible things happened since broke me im scared im broken anyone broke away abusive family talked years couple friends old state shot breeze want anything deep know make friends im broken right now worst is lost job insurance cant find anything im tired broke want homeless dog needs shots barely afford food him hes good boy deserve him crappy parttime job gone im depressed barely work safety net help im broke live buginfested hole still cant afford it im tired im tired fighting im alone know need help ive fighting months get therapy county offer anything barebones medical clinic thats it cant keep fighting one cares one cares im barely holding on