get better whative severe depression entire life ive gotten treatment take handful medications every day get by never gotten better days okay absolute hell whole life ive years felt happy married lot good friends house life wanted ended im divorced  years ive lost everything friends live tiny apartment good job make enough travel go vacations much anything fun besides play online games such ive relationship man  years severe adhd aspergers financially destroyed broken me im severe amount debt love hell love him absolute hell semidisabled think could live alone stay friends family im  years old im fat ugly invisible world spend nights getting drunk staring computer nothing books computer games music cat entire life never leave house thinking checking permanently im much pain seems pointless anyone tell irl im posting here really get better know people say oh get better people like never get better guides one question get better like people say will