think dying best option posted radvice recommended post too explain this also sorry rambley is im sixteen year old girl past year things going well all put little effort school classes effectively ruined chances going dream universities toxic relationship always gaslighting kinda emotionally abusive  months ago broke starting dating someone else  weeks really hurt me lost many friends isolated one specifically caught feelings person hate many people school theyre stuckup assholes feel like disappointment everyone always kind person got shit done determined hardworking best friend told seemed like shit together used get bullied like  years ago deal family problems past  years even though sucked feel bad does lately exist really contribute anything anyone think dead would simple would worries anymore worry everything anything change it like im chained bed want work know never going good enough feel like friends would better without me ive reached breaking point care anything keep making plans promises know never keep cry much multiple times day sometimes even know im crying feels nice im worried myself tell parents think realize bad is get angry easily them snappy know guess im sick alive see point someone give something look forward please logically know get better everyone keeps telling that hard believe feels like things get better get worse true gets better im exception rule someone help