im scared ill something tonightits particularly bad couple weeks already shitty year ive struggling mental health while always manageable took hits life though lost someone really cared about lost job became isolated family friends see alone knowing absolutely nothing live for hope getting better friend ask help know man want end all feel like thats way theres part wants live try better gets confusing me dont know im scared alone locked bathroom dont want feel tempted hurt something sharp might see outside dont think makes sense im sorry