whyim sure describe it ive recently feeling like nothing im sad anything dread future im mostly state dissociation as always im treading along narrow bridge anything could push over ive accepted redflag think could day feel scared before option become serene place mind potential solution problems experience think strange although difficult get bed due fear worry day experience im still organizing studying planning future yet time im sending people thanks goodbye good luck emails writing motivations death searching painless methods no good options yet peace good thing id consider state constant dissociation confusion better chronic torment