suicidal thoughts intrusive know stop themi meds anxiety disorder constant anxiety caused feel isolated useless caused depression meds depression never suicidal this thoughts dying constant today cleaned house organized things sort like nesting preparing something feel like everything coming apart need die want leave kids cant seem stop thoughts think stop depression meds seem made things worse stop taking them doctor told month ago need work certain dosage guessing means need wean them want kill meantime heard withdrawals cause suicidal thoughts too