things badits trivial complain job people much worse job making absolutely miserable took two weeks mental health leave feel like much help tuesday go back already dread it want die want anymore hope world feels like already theres nothing left die along it know do made throw away account know do dont nothing feels like helps want quit job feel trapped there things uncertain im afraid losing therapist ive considered getting drunk go work deal all nobody nothing fall back on ground hit im really feeling desperate tonight know life improve