wish could end years suffering alreadyi stopped showing class again looks like thats another k student debt nothing show yay rd attempt college  years last night go night got drunk stabbed thighs stayed bed day cuz walk apparently called mom  asked pick take home wanna go home thats nowhere apparently voice small child memory it suicidal im weird blackout drunk well im tired dealing this know need help cant stand another day month year feeling like way cant talk anyone depressed suicidal gets redundant awhile know