moment last nighthi all im writing horrible moment last night ive feeling quite time really know why honestly believe boils unhappy career going way want feel like im caught rut last night quite drinks hell broke loose husband asleep really felt like wanted end everything decided wanted sit car garage let engine run instead right thing contacted text message redflag hotline told operator going eventually passed drunk next thing know husband multiple emt workers bedroom checking vitals told fine much drink eventually left fine next morning feel even worse last night feel awful scared husband much did feel horribly embarrassed im sure neighbors saw going on im damn frustrated everything im really sure next move terms recovery this anyone insight