tried everything exercise medication calling friend vent problems calling suicide hotline getting psych guard group therapy psychologists meditation eating healthy owning emotional support animal nothing absolutely nothing works alone life friends grew tired problems cannot blame them lost inside mind thought asking help could way mysery turns never was basically used every single person ever close could fix broken soul feel guilty wanted have even want happy wanted okayi lived past expiration date stopped trying long time ago want last words make everyone knew feel depressed opposite actually hope understand it cannot find happiness cannot find stability looking years got tired trying please put shoes sanei got point realized gone crazy depression took left me used be person everyone knew died long time ago left remainsi want know understand best needed free pain going through today finally restwhoever reading this wish best love you understand pain going through really do wish could free you wish could hug right nowmom please feel guilty dad take care her love both keep young memories find lived past expiration date