goodbyeim m tired things going hill me every attempt something gone horribly wrong im scared even happy realize nothing help everything seems go better nothing family seems happy friends much better without me looks world better without trying get it dont remember much high school every mistake ive made everything horrible ive seen sister pull knife mom elementary school twice apparently ive seen attempt redflag boyfriends breaking her parents want work hard athletic work school well cant it every attempt get help hasnt gone anywhere past hour asking okay have dont reason couple keep living out friend really good me hes like brother know hell fine hes stronger mentally physically crush im into know doesnt like way like thats kind way now video games dont give much happiness anymore fast lose game anything all ive planning four years now thing thats stopped note people care about believe better leave any know words misleading ive lost appetite think ill enjoy ice cream final snack thank you everyone trying