want someone listen feel scared depressedthis going wall text im sorry im anxious right now sad hate feeling like this even real reasons sad fucking hate that feel like cant get this suicidal thoughts leave keep happening frequently intensely feel like everyone would better without me boyfriend  years annoyed lately much patience anxietydepression bullshit anymore feel like deserves much better would happier someone else im selfish live without him cant love much think dependent him texted telling im anxiety attack reply think ignoring scaring shit me dad killed  years ago miss fucking much want anything self esteem fucking hate body ashamed body think could ever let anyone else see naked body ever again thinking makes want throw up think boyfriend like body either nice think found deformity nsfw httpwwwdrhayleybrowncombreastliftwithaugmentationlasvegastubulardeformity started anxiety attack ive always hated breasts knew ugly confirmed everything ive believed in boyfriend says likes know cant true think stupid college im assignments cant stop crying know going this sad anxious want die