done life like anything goals interests hobbies noticeable cause this ongoing  years therapy help tried everything could think fix those asked advice least  people one else help me go job like cant think single thing id actually want do friends girlfriend emotionally quite sensitive coupled people treating like exist using me losing interest short while great potential im fairly intelligent anything mindthinking based easily pick want to think worse way im wasting theres nothing want do id much rather stupid useless potentially greatly useful honesty think theres single upside life im considering living it need rope something sustain weight easy selfish solution again anyone reads this theyll probably think im emo something really matter difficult understand unless spent  straight years caring people come across hoping one return favour person wants know you wants make sure feel happy mind you eventually gave caring people it knowing people are seeing cold eyes probably eyes