say life sucks think mehey im  years old ive done lot stupid things otherwise think would right  now loving family parents try support life choices brother happen like hobby lot fun hobbies together but everytime look future see reason stay alive job really want education want follow everything boring me know ive said like hobby near realistic job option think worth living eather cant  income atleast something cannot figger what tried lot things afthere time keep dropping it next school year ive got nothing nothing all job school money plan parents cant understand quiet mad finishing education im left nothing day normaly would called crazy complaining anything othere reason kms mentioned beginning ive done quiet stupid stuff basically lost friends mistakes ive made example went japan  best friends acting childish annoying got back friend never wanted talk again ive got noone im mostly left lonely today ive desided finally put end this good bye  live happy life