wife lost jobs home pets depression latter feels worst im sure turn hereim sure im help achieve feel need put open depression taken almost everything us see end cycle loss guilt pain ampnspb start nearer beginning wife relocated across country  years ago work stayed fairly happy never friends miss family hugely wife especially always support network outside me suffer horrendous depression seeking referrals see bipolar fits im unsure ampnspb anyway years back wifes depression gets bad enough work goes sick leave try best act carer im work manage  months breakdown retail managementchristmascarerbad end work time family help us rent bills parents retired mine good financial shape lots guilt feeling like permanent burden ampnspb skipping years end flitting work symptoms never really address survive monthly help wifes parents several large loans overdrafts taken get by develop fast food addiction spend fortune takeouts feel ill cook clean wife spends time bed ampnspb last year things turn corner were working money coming were medication seems working contract temporary im making invaluable extend monthly wife gets sick get sick trying hold job whilst caring cycle repeats contract cancelled wifes statutory sick pay ish week parents money run out point chip us bit money food thats it weve fucked lives too cant pay rent bills loan repayments anything sort literally thing keeping us alive  cats becom surrogate children me cleaning them feeding caring given reason get bed ampnspb sensible option us move parents try get jobs start fresh ourselves cant afford it house big enough us bedroom storage furniture things downside extra strain well putting them hugely allergic cats also two large dogs make home welcoming speak ampnspb saving grace brother law said would take one boys us pippin special us whilst favourite cat totally is got ill kitten nursed back health heart murmur lung condition weird obsession burning hismelf butt cannot explain understand despite this happiest loving cat ive ever met greets like dog always happy see people special us others two easily rehomable a gorgeous maine coon cross  year old kitten one old boy suspect may cancer make easier idea one cats least us visit makes workable ampnspb today ring tell us cant take more option give away reasons live weve drained family everything systematically inserting lives job sickness record allow get another one money pay bills facing bailiffs collection managed sell possessions wife talk worried hearing cat would push edge hear mother im sure last straw