im hopeless livebefore vent ass off legitimately cant wait year over  days know nothing special switch january  december  nothing day change seriously though gives opportunity make new year better happened year year far worst year senior year high school ended abruptly super long break later august started university wish didnt absolutely horrible im currently enduring christmas break took long time get used things exams quite confusing anyways ive decided drop university completely ive already paid first semester dont plan next absolutely idea wanted do wish learned earlier could go community college instead least join workforce feel like college isnt something frontal cortex fully developed make good decisions dont know career would fit me ive never job before enjoy reading writing learning healthcare related sciences im fan math mainly hard time understanding it weird thing used enjoy reading problem solving lot feel like ive gotten lazier like get distracted easily something play hands order something else ill get fidgety think big problem im afraid touched dont like anyone touching anywhere even simple high five handshake would problem future job seeking im sure past trauma dont like feeling another persons skin me dont like people looking think theyre perverts do also makes quite shy except im online anonymous forum like place sometimes get jealous envious others also defensive im hopeless arent i