father attempted redflag yesterdayyesterday uncle got long emailredflag note father detailing last wishes things nature father lives alone different state uncle called local pd welfare check house found dad car garage odd pills currently icu  critical yet stable nurse told me ironically brother wives weeklong beach vacation week nice together this none us know do morning received email dad he scheduled sent  simply said i want ruin vacation understanding email dad sent uncle attachments included meant sent brothers life feels significantly stranger know somewhere redflag note addressed me know do would end vacation heartbeat book flight see thought would good know part reason attempted feels like burden rest us believe going see would intensify feelings even know would say him shitty situation wanted vent out