runners highthe last  months one hell ride ive never hurt damaged unmotivated move on ive stuck pain wanted end bad moment pain according therapist see way ive days coldness knife skin calms down ive days would run oxygen could stop crying ran third marathon couple days ago best time went slow steady prepared running someone kept pace handle stuck it exert myself let everything be went even slower uphills enjoyed downhills kept going last  kms could believe endured all believe stuck life happy happy here happy strength endure pain happy support ive received im going keep slow steady pace life ill go life one day time im letting everything go happiness sadness accepting control whats behind let deter me nothing stop me