worried girlfriend need assistancei f im worried boyfriend m long distant relationship familiar depression never really experienced im familiar respond depression suicidal thoughts past week notice drastic change boyfriends mood usually goes depression phases every couple months usually help talk or think past week ive boyfriend record instances hes felt like breaking crying week full emails wanting break cry try encourage make feel like man know refuses hear it constantly puts come point think deserve me constantly tell want anyone else refuses listen yesterday took turn worst yesterday morning told feeling distant me fairly busy work week tried explain hard got lot arguements spend weekends together instead going out try schedule activities friends something comes one left waiting around nothing do lastly last night boyfriend told staying friends trust himself even stated duty emt there never seem im scared try help want say wrong thing best friend gone existence think handle state im in ive tried informing family encouraging find help im scared whats happen anyone could please help would really appreciate it im lost distraught know help scares me