recurring thoughts diabetesso start off currently suicidal thoughts danger need flesh things out mainly concern recurring suicidal thoughts okay diagnosed type  diabetes last september done excellently handling staying healthy however makes feel like cant normal times like cant meal without worry go hike without first thinking every little thing might need safe make sure die really depressing especially diabetics represented popular film media games etc part knows cant normal life still hurts lot suicidal thoughts diagnosis despite feeling ever kill myself im moment dark place tempting never owned gun never will im scared impulsivity kill me however diabetes worries offers quick way out simple insulin overdose fall sleep wake up frightening option im worried one day may become much may impulsively od drug thats keeping alive one thing always kept carrying act image parents suffering damaged hurt killing myself every time thought im reminded it reassures know thoughts still there like subtle flash ending it brief reminder easy would be far ive overcome know long forever advice help especially fellow diabetics would wonderful edit context used self harm still burn marks left wrist deal alone well thats usually im worst also constantly dealing self doubt well mild paranoia like doubt friends really friends sometimes mainly im myself diabetes diagnosis certainly helped much anxiety getting worse year update one probably reading anymore mind sharing tried kill last sunday lived im glad did still bright side close friend talked revealed gone similar stuff attempted redflag determined keep alive now one way another thank support everyone end matter since guess almost anyways worked best first time while im slightly hopeful future