im donehi little bit me im  year old male married going  years currently going second round college time associates field veterinary medicine ive problems entire life depression anxiety social phobia anger management issues ive medication adult life helps degree frequent thoughts redflag throughout life even point ive made plans sell music collection electronic goods asked mother copy life insurance policy me absolutely confidence abilities what little have frequently wonder people anything me difficulty making friends building proper connections field im embarrassed fact work two insignificant low tier jobs younger making  times annual income self doubt resulting anxiety cost many things including jobs friendships getting every day challenge me really bad problems selfdoubt paranoia point hate pretty much anything involves people constantly feel like people talking behind back anyone nice pity underhanded way insulting me im terrified anything around classmates feel like ones experienced field groan lab assignments me despite fact get good feedback colleagues frequently get told im good job always feel like wife leave someone else mental problems makes money despite fact tells loves every day take criticism well anyone feel like ive worked hard throughout life nothing prove itworking menial jobs lots debt despite fact im married supportive family many years trying push back mind think im ready go ending life thing held together family most notably wife mother friends have point however think thats enough stop this whats even worse lost  year old brother result freak accident want mother bury another one sons cant handle living anymore pressures adult provider despite best efforts think place world sorry tldr cant really think coherently now im typing phone