sometimes feel like want die not really urgent please help nonethelessthis first actual post here ive recently discovered subreddit lurking bit commenting times anyways sometimes thought redflag crosses mind kinda want time really want to make sense like wanting die recognize blessings given instead wish parents never gave birth first place know sounds selfish since im middle class poor rich parents love me decent amount friends go several physical deformities make feel insecure even putting aside im insecure begin with social anxiety due bullying ive made friends sometimes grow distant feel like theyre talking pity im hassle burden life whenever try talk them like im waste time know sounds somewhat selfish way knowing tons people way worse do believe genuinely something wrong need advice cope this sometimes isolate completely friends thinking probably hate me need advice