less year literally lowest man planeti really believe agree notion good bad fit would latter always asshole literally cared even felt guilty one care unless actually affected me im  years old college well summer break recently bad break up im gonna say reason im certainly help another prime example deplorable human pile shit suicidal thoughts since second grade always liked idea think done much sooner now would preferred aborted think caused pain people world many problems indescribable feel niche pointless some maybe are think need go ruined life someone dearly love unacceptable thinking going end life gun would much hard get tall buildings close im scared heights jumping unlikely  helium sold easily amazon ive already tried noose so another way kill myself really want talk someone moment im feeling tired