get sink holei m think got pretty good life ive got bunch friends family im either far close them got average grade school got average jobs got life project many got passion im crazy either thing think lack relationship thats driving crazy know deep deep inside question time become alone friend antisocial type  slowly start ton enter  even before covid social activity  dampd game week said bad but meet someone new also try online meeting enough sexappel make play scene ask bar even im big fan craft beer friend social type always end going alone bar big problem know lot people thanks taxi driver little town  months go bar lots people come talk like   minutes pass another call end always end alone counter beer result ive got lot time think myself never good thing depress introspection moment ive came one conclusion thing do kill time forgot im alone preventing think ive recently observe lissent music loud prevent think thing make tome go faster die im even capable enjoying long terme lose them bother much sadly reason kill hour date im mom would cry phase phase days pass probably last one crazy lot people way worst position way happier fate fate future maybe day get better know good way thinking fking logical ass keep saying chance high loto ticket people know believing lotto chance one moment trip way living time good way thinking way stay alive understand too im always tear two exhausting wanna go sleep never wake up