cant mom accept want kill myselfshe son done much better went college right age graduated right age got traditional college experience flunked kindergarten graduated high school  graduate college  still live parents transferred usc get college experience dumbass overlooking money plus  longer   years usc  commute hour  school thanks stupidityhaving college experience desire distant dream impossible point matter do weird moms favorite perfect son yet blind dying bad thing going son much responsible especially financially competent intelligent hes going switzerland job all hes confident enough get married give grandchildren told day suicidal thoughts cried confused obvious really favorite die hope discover much better off