mother suicidal thoughts making sad toomy mother father split almost  years ago currently lives brother give shit her last week one worst fights talk then today came tell died  life pay more im  im deal fact mother wants kill constantly alone hand deal father also difficult person deal with also going several phases life time energy dedicate mother since im living mother hard follow know determined commit strong suicidal thoughts today deal fairly well them fear anything happens mother know could handle suicidal thoughts well time passes mother loses reason live falls redflag please help me know else do like im loop takes get mother makes sadder talk today tomorrow morning ill schedule session psychologist soon possible her else get thoughts head