really hard timecopying pasting fb conversation friend really feel like retyping whole thing sorry formatting bad grammar typing tears easy im really depressed im feeling suicidal cant deal anymore literately sitting couch listening family talk much hate didnt kids would homeless right now choice world wouldnt living would cut completely going getting progressively worse obviously know hear ive everything try make happy made deans list last semester im working ass off nothing good enough k saved put torwards getting place asked help paying school told no spend savings plus pay summer semester theyre mad dont money put torwards moving cant afford move without roommate anyways one wants move single mom two kidsz dont want live anymore everyone hates me constantly feel alone mom constantly screaming me cant find way out feel like choice seriously want get up walk kitchen theyre sitting get knife slit wrists ive told mom im issues ever says need stop overdramatic im going continue spiral no dont get aid ive paid everything pocket far im eligible according fafsa tcc screwing yeah k last two semesters friends best friend moved  hours away completely alone one would even care gone ive trying really dont know anyone craigslist skeves anyone talk im always one starting conversation one ever reaches one really cares talked brother say irresponsible my kids wouldnt know difference always want go dad never care coming home me spend time family anyways im constantly school work really want take car side bridge side cliff something have felt like before cant shake all married abused what then highschool totally alone ran away times cant though left go dont want take im stuck theres nothing hundred dollars name  debt im falling apart im tired stong time one lean cant alone anymore one family cares anymore honestly think would happy killed dunno im tired mom dad sister left walk dog im tempted let come home gruesome scene