cant take voices head anymore want end allive lot mental trouble lately whether im work roommates voices tell say bad things bad awful illegal things could put prison dont want say would ever act thoughts ever push horrible thoughts away i repeatedly tell try get mind mind pushes want say loud feels almost compulsive especially bad work dont want go details too graphic disturbing every time interact customer voices start tell bad thoughts every time tell pushes want say loud brings extreme discomfort interaction start worry whether ive said loud start panic internally whether say loud end telling managers said call cops arrest me even im roommates silence im still tempted say things would make literally want kill get arrested cant take anymore mind turning dont mean anything comes mind would never act it im worried ill say intrusive thoughts loud would ruin life forever im sick this every day occurrence driving insane feel like way stop alone rest life interaction im sick shit dont know whats wrong me