hello againi much want die hate inconsistency one day ill super confident ill polite funny feel like myself like week disappears reason feel completely brain dead ive suicidal whole life may seem petty suppose really much live for every day feels like dream lot due caring much alive feel like much potential happy confident ill much myself something happens sudden feel like complete garbage also really hate myself addicted self harm redflag seems like lil solution know nothing crazy yeah probably wont kill soon know fact die perhaps actually soon hope staying healthy way