hi ive never made post before dont know worth it sorry know long hi  year old girl context guess everything pointless everything hurts miss ex person ever connect me people care me cant talk them verge redflag would make feel worse close anyone cripplingly lonely cant even write order makes sense word vomit really alot potential wasting life away anything everything seems overwhelming overall pointless hobbies interests overweight causes conventionally unattractive relationships picture find someone else doesnt care appearances rare work dont food usually thing makes feel good dont even know anymore cant even hold interest others long enough make friends makes asshole want deep connection again every time feel happy little bit next time fall worse tell people day long one day get better believe it me change fix fucking life put effort form relationships dont think ever will someone please help me want live