  credits short graduating high school graduating means nothing me  attempted hang failed miserably whole life constantly dealing trauma childhood mom lack father figure instead getting kind genuine help thrown  mental hospitals because father say full heart kill year over know like constantly bullied way look gave long time ago suppose here want free life life scars define person forever be hopeless looking anyone tell things get better know not time  gone free waking every day horrified reflection become things told child id never become little happy kid dead ruins everyday wake up worthless let child trying free happy live life meaning youth wasted away ill never get back wasted youth majority life spent trying make others happy others deem necessary do want free vicious cycle trauma told live with die dignity die knowing everything could hold another second say suicide easy way out no way wasted youth