make  broke gf little touched girl school kept even said no although told close friends happened told loser liked it sometimes go sleep night still hear voices telling loser recent relationship help relationship felt like therapist boyfriend dumped problems issues expected able make feel better every time made feel horrible anytime make feel better would argument would say wrong apologize  arguments  month relationship anytime would ask friends break would say no last two weeks school parents told could call anyone play games grades would stay up friends told break told break talking her broke wants give  hours day anytime ask time would see upset hate right know why cut multiple times pretend like everything ok reality  seconds away breaking down want seem emotional feel like friends going tell overreacting bad making it scared tell parents feel like see differently anyone could give help would love least advice would love it sorry long entry recently thinking killing lot