keep feel like killing selfi keep researching best painless way kill self cant take life anymore anything wake up eat go sleep like am every fucking day going out doctors appointments anxiety panic disorder depression sucks ive started therapy hope ever life sucks fucking socialize regret decisions chose high school college career am quit job due shit fucking anxiety nobody knows feels therapist open hide home hate life need something stop feeling like this im scared tell anyone even therapist tell someone obviously to also suffer dyspraxia makes clumsy fuck mess am anxiety depression panic dyspraxia wonder nobody likes me