writing break tears eyes another meltdown work written posts similar one before deleted ill probably delete one too sick treated like shit everyone usually talkative try hard sociable considerate people around me know feels excluded looked want others feel way around me work ass stupid fucking store put every ounce energy getting things done right time take breather even second suddenly end world put notice boss slacking blatant fucking liei hate boss hate way talks way walks stupid juvenile sense humor fake wannabe tough guy attitude hate here matter go never get respect anyone know wrong me hate way look talk friends afraid even try make every friend ever abandoned whenever convenient them life boring pointless brave enough kill myself feel like doomed alone forever living meaningless life something fundamentally wrong me resent mother marrying dad huge loser maybe met someone else would son totally fucking useless know myself want stuck way forever know need change sleep thing enjoy anymore maybe one days ill take nap never wake hate boss hate job hate myself hate life