ventingso attempted redflag months ago prior wanted fulfill life experiences racked ton credit card debt international travel skydiving fancy restaurants ect intend pay off afterwards hospital  weeks even money therapy neurologist stuff ive k job past  years rent suuper expensive too got short term disability job  months starting hospital short term disability ended still energy motivation whatsoever get work done ended quitting ampxb job ton bills im sure im looking advice anything pretty obvious just stop spending much wanted vent maybe see anyone experienced anything similar before suicidal thoughts quite bit better disability debt coming back vengeance