need hope guysim yo first dont speak english good sorry that depression started  years ago slowly getting worse every year last gf treated like shit lastly failed  years school rn im first semester university feel like im enough im really trying really trying feel like im good enough get good grades even pass semester found good psychologists take thoughts seriously want text close friends close friend first ex gf busy work basically cant speak one want possitive everytime feel worthless cant help think finish thought brave enough kill last time drunk tried od im scared actually kill know die friends probably think hope couldve tell us felt know nobody really cares posted hoping somebody position give advice hope