fucking panic attack shower recommend was taking hot shower middle hot sunday start think feeling loneliness ive long you guess much social distancing helped nothing extraordinary  years old never kissed girlvery afraid talk new people im working therapy talked friends while felt joy year etc suddenly realize heart beating fast fast someone standing shower first time happened never got used it start focus breathing and while heart goes less desperate rhythm gotta say man think depresso pills job wish could stop feeling like time dont worry intend carbonara sayonara