need helpi know anymore  years since ive talked anyone think guts actually kill time feel like need to ive never real friends entire life friends used longer close me grown distant everyone way connecting people family spoken really long time one person talk life see way it want one real life friend go watch movie talk with live half way across world family ive away since  i know young attend university culture america different long company think thats reason cannot connect people always introvert try talk make friends people class nobody wants really hang me theyre classmate friends say college students much older average one age talk connect to chemical engineering classes filled bunch people years older me finals days think im going end life feel like people looked past im smart mean anything long someone get along with im sorry