life dont know say this im christian believe god always think meaning this need good person god doesnt exist means thats everything life doesnt matter im disposable understand atheists always doubt existence god maybe lot good things life doesnt matter maybe something wrong going hell maybe doesnt exist die everything finish im really scared im scared good person heaven exists want go there good things not everything doesnt matter everything im going doesnt matter nothing matter try study lot try someone want happy head always thing of nothing matters die purpose this im really scared dont know do want someone important time want affect peoples life dont know atheist better think purpose this think im bad person people around says no im great person dont know believe dont know want happy life cuz die nothing want good person dont enjoy things place heaven dont know like said lot tines before im scared