old oldf  im slowly losing way im  sure live narcissists friends never let express myself could mental breakdown one life seems care try explain theres something wrong im angry reason built rage dont know why explaining im either belittled ignored bullied told need kick ass one really treats care compassion yet everyday every time tell friends whats going vent im snapped told move house want financially cant ive homeless crashed couches fun im trying go back path alcohol substance abuse day day gets difficult family friends talk im really thinking giving up