really want someone tell me even lie im feeling validive depression long time dont feel like ever speak mind even wanted to dont know explain going fucked head whenever anything goes slightly wrong react freak fuck out everyone tired me worn trying help fault ive ruined families lives selfish prick ive talked many therapists current one great never feel like im making progress mostly dont care enough try things tells me ive left behind many people screwed alienating people used get along with sit along home everyday afraid speak mind cowardly ask help feel like one around believes im badly off theyve given trying reddit place turn dont know fuck even would cowardly scared anything it im selfish piece shit