damaged goods worthless aloneive dealing depression since young teenager ive victim sexual child abuse well bullying domestic abuse got older now  academic probation second college every november birthday month past two years get depressed become afraid go real world stay locked bedroom two months more play video games hours browse internet  anything keep mind reality really easy stay alone although currently live mom  enemies comes home work say word ever unless criticise demean me kicked  gotten knocked guy using me let back forcing abort traumatic experience went therapy years that help guilt also try repair relationship mom  never came me ordeal graduated high school accepted four year college get cosign bank loans i  time years later ive gotten married divorced hired fired dropped reapplied better going school social mom started arguing  time either dog called cops hes lb pomeranian friendliest dog meet smoking weed since kid ive suffering awful migraines every day life wake up  mins theyll usually go away alright day days makes whole body ache cant leave bed im incredibly irritable smoking marijuana alleviates this matter mother though went behind back legally evicted since cant kick full time student street ny bitter argument one weekend left spend weeks state best friends family six weeks visiting id asking friends theyd let crash couch dog couple weeks tried find work better living situation new friend eagerly welcomed home kicked week later accustomed privacy suddenly became burden legally got way back mothers place since eviction come  days get out ive even stressed depressed now ive struggling find simple clerical work past two years less two months find work save up gtfotbh every night lay bed tell itll easier kill myself ive way since  years old think helped times really feel worth anything im dating someone claims care  hours comments karma gw pics tldr probably read anyway long