wow im suicidal locked for  minutes posting many encouraging messages forumim  years old ive trouble working people jobs chemical engineer im living rent free friends lake house hard get bed look forward day done go sleep daughter isnt talking unknown reason son isnt talking least unblocked fb want know happen death scary always want die cant even think reason get mornings think job prospects ruined health problems health insurance husband killed self  years ago always sort of redflag pact maybe time fulfill end bargain