porn video  two years later want kill ithappened struggling undiagnosed ptsd sexual assault got meds got therapy industry couple months made one video anything except kiss her naked feel like using camming take back control body completely regret it feel ashamed every time girl who still business shares video twitter feel ashamed disgusted myself tried reach used good friend spoken since feel disgusting feel hopeless know people highschool know im sure theyve seen video honestly want kill myself fucking stupid