feel like dont deserve friends schooli feel like dont deserve friends school friends give trust make happy supportive always help im need ago made big mistake feel ruin relationship completely friends elementary harassed made fun them got middle school got new friends experienced mature me make lies fit them feel even would except me lie would mess everything future boyfriend person liked faked entire relationship him abt  months ago mt friends knew guy close contact really made lie believable  years older wanted stop lying them scared past friendships would one told cheated party got girl pregnant cut ties believed really bring until  months ago came friends saying liked girl girl felt way went little bit later told lost feeling wanted break up really sad went friends comfort comforted topic exs brought time thinking future home away people realized would happen friends found out abt  weeks ago noticed falling best friend  straight knew fake ex would going school  year im getting scared getting caught awful mistakes would th grade would th feel cut get hurt future im sure do im really hoping forgot everything corona im even considering faking amnesia get caught would know talking abt maybe would forgive me