trauma top trauma muchso read people hurt boyfriendsgirlfriends someone cares them jobs family lives cannot even begin regurgitate failure life story now aside car accident third one none fault landlord lives upstairs yelling things fair making feel unwanted like im hostile atmosphere tried get second joba tutoring company answered questions correctly say desperate tutors online interview hire me get nowhere world  unmarried scarred trauma would someone want live love have struggle poverty wearing thin decades ready cave see reason carry on