cant fall deeper doneim  year old guy sick living world used hunkfunny guy back town girls liked guys friends with  moved town college rock bottom since then real friends here although stand some simply feel like real friendship ive gained  pounds summer spent front computer or eating im law school which hate ive never known abilities things simple brushing teeth become titanic task depressed am times feel alive go back old town see friends tired useless piece crap rest days care girls anymore sexual encounters ive had ive erectile dysfunction want kill im afraid even as everything do wrong everyone seems start succesful meanwhile ive never job real sexual relationship travlled around world hate career wanted vent thanks reading this