tonight last nighti kicked end january parents abusing life crash friends couch week moved room shared apartment time ive trying hard look second job addition one only  hours week managed find job let go less  weeks refusing say why ive also trying apply welfare thanks intake worker shitty phone contact cancelled application considered inactive tried applying today work systems changed requiring bunch documents have im ashamed homeless piece shit im ashamed abused im ashamed needing welfare im ashamed fired im ashamed able find job im pathetic lonely fucked live world anymore absolutely cannot stand unfair life im going ending tonight supportive family friends shitty clueless assuming life cant hard theyre living comfortably ive proven cant take care myself theres point living anymore