whats pointim literally drifting life right now im  years old im college month ive ignored homework everytime try bring mom never really allows temper usually stressed make seem approachable hate this everyday wake lay room thinking game plan thought running away avoid embarrassment parents thought much fun possible killing end year looking like best option me think fun ending feel less stressed actually get bed days time sit dark thinking smartest way kill attempted yet want make attempt redflag better fucking die know kill im going explanation everyone life girlfriend love much shes wonderful going go extreme depression kill know im going write essay apologizing her im  fucked school point im going make little money keep going life therapist unlike others find rather useless ask questions need im scared talk want die time im scared change things much even know im posting maybe really want help maybe dont know see guys copy paste comments like even individualize people feeling alone know get know lot really trying help maybe help way let every person life