suicidal lonelyive struggling anxiety depression several years kept myself im lowest ive ever know wont make dont get help dont find happiness anything anymore hate myself im lonely best friend whos one really feel comfortable around moved away dont anyone could talk without feeling guilty im struggling college money relationships im overwhelmed im limit people always say hang things get better theyve gotten far worse im drunk hate even ive attempted redflag twice wasted used worried id get blackout drunk kill im worried even started plan it think redflag constantly feel lost alone want over