wanna kill rejection stupidfor first time life fell love girl amazing nice caring pretty intelligent she state competition architectural design good person general fell love girl actually got pretty close emotional standpoint things finally started looking me ive dealt anger issues depression since child self esteem pathetically low girl changed me finally found someone bring best me happier person her finally got courage ask prom said yes condition would friends i however really wanted ask planned prom even asked sister permission bombshell gets dropped lesbian really bother first accepted supported her slowly started creeping conscious started getting really depressed stopped talking her spent summer sleeping eating working time went outside working driving bowling even friends anymore mostly fault one stopped talking knows wanting kill mutual friend told her reached me cant fall love again wanna fall love again