situationhey all ill try say much can need help need compassion want express im boiling feelings want people know exactly might lead potential death lets start general im  yo french male ive always shy ive never really self confidence ive bullied th grade overweight nerd class became pseudo depressive kept saying id kill really wanted bit attention love get anyway now today im different person ive become heartless careless bastard imagine chose to started movie watched bother tell ill tell made think become today movie occupies dear space heart showed side life deeply want discover dumb know made realize im missing life ill try make little sum learnt first friendship think might one biggest parts movie hit right guts movie made question definition friendship friends  any even feel yeah turns feel shit anyone called friends dicks like them yeah im alone friends point view second love on side things mean saw like love somebody wether family friends girl mad think cant love cant ive never met girl loved theyre so superficial  dunno all heartless bastard  third dream context place movie took place in man hate france hate people here hate myself want live people like ill like people place even biggest city appealing sunny full life think need trigger something make feel think miss plain happiness thats made become today think ill change mind im going bad stuff know it question  importantly not ill leave that fellow friends hope great life fulfill feelings like id like to edit forgot say eat sleep anymore im critical exhaustion point too whenever night cry hours also exhausts physical aspect