anyone say get better theyre lying want stay around longer whati really fucking hate myself im fat useless worthless sorry excuse human being wish hadnt backed redflag attempt long ago held knife stomach today didnt guts it presence unneeded one even wants still opt keep fighting dont think anymore im fighting war never win keep spiraling deeper depression swallowing whole nothing exist bring others pain im tired hurting everyone driving everyone away yelling everyone hated everyone im giving st wasnt meant stick around long begin with lost faith existence higher power long ago cried hands knees prayed forgiveness someone rescue me one heard cries point know im screaming void set free cant feel anything end inevitable want sooner