kill myselfokay well let explain little bit life know asking this normal life live mom dad sister thing need know socially awkward person ever since elementary school picked shy different people glad left school currently  senior year high school bit step longer harassed still lonely ive never real friend before ive people actually gotten along conversations either never get really see moved somewhere else think kids school really even care much sometimes people walk past without ever telling hello even look upset fellow classmates even care whenever people ask whats wrong tell nice things make feel better people ask carry lives even get invited social outings really feel important comes peers around think would fit many people school think friend pretty much right older sister like talk time know best conversations maybe people gave chance got know better maybe people would see quiet shy girl many people know really act obnoxious loud seem different interests me getting really depressed time fact cant make real friends beginning think killing myself planning tonight time want family members get sad depressed this think life kill chance getting things better future