againback feeling extremely suicidal again made post rdepression days ago hoping get suicidal again tried kill weeks ago not way see hospital never told anyone real life it family knows im really depressed wish could help me mother tried hard make feel little better work all many repressed memories im sick basically stuck bed cant go things yet alone go school job im alone well im alone many people around me im lonely dating guy like me left me would get better thought dragging more one made feel better miss lot  months still feel way him im tired people telling you get it telling find someone better wont never felt attracted anyone ever whole life except him leave love anymore usual breakup reason cant forget him breakup loneliness combined problems things keep getting worse day day feel lonely wish still him needed cant get alone cant much knowing nobody else give kind support knowing post replies make feel better seems impossible