pathetici pathetic im fucking loser cant stand it im sick alive thought things starting get betterbecause finally got girlfriend treated like princesswas upsetgave love guess what broke yesterday shes already talking bunch guys fucking hate myself real friendsthey never think acknowledge existence hang them im back smoking weed taking dxm think im gonna wait till birthday june kill myself dont fit anywhereso stay know ill always melancholy guy never chance life cant wait die ill never deal miserable existence again never joys life me dont particularly enjoy anything except completely stoned numb used smartnow barely remember simplest thingsi forget spell certain words even though amazing spelling younger im deteriorating emotionallyin personality intellectually dont want live like this could today smoke weedsleep schooland took bunch dxm gel caps  hours ago happened girls loved treated special virgin honorable swear girls whpres anymore never met girl age virgin cant blame women thoughim sorry fuck dxm fucked upim sorry