bought gunso wife recently left me among things took besides  kids  rifle closet now im avid hunter even marksman always made feel good gun house gun left possession went online bought smith wesson mm private seller currently sitting dresser little lockbox even shot yet nothing else gives mind peace know way out even im chickenshit ever pull trigger thing keeping unloading sweet year old little girl still love daddy despite distance current living arrangements never fatherfigure growing up despite wifes best efforts want little girl grow without knowing daddy think wanted vent little bit