july  june  hi im new here buttoday day ive battling depression literally life past month may honestly worse mothers day hit hard coupled  year anniversary moms passing may  girlfriend ended breaking icing cake everybody always leaves need most theres  attempts past weeks alone last one ended admitted  days time called ex told sorry everything response please stop contacting me talk slap face stab back two days got discharged one worse anxiety attacks ive ever had ended breaking telling aunt nightmares ive god brother cousin trying touch little ive never told one family never even got chance tell mom passed away heart broken guys seeing mom pass away front friend getting murdered girl love turning need her everything falling apart around me cant handle anymore know sounds silly hurts id better dead alive everyone would happier without know true cant anymore