im lonelyive suicidal thoughts ever single day since broke up stopped couple even real couple begin with really loved other still doesnt fault think mine said bpd still best friends seetexttalk nearly every day cant stop thinking time year ago cant accept never coming back crave physical attention much feel fucking lonely miserable gets worse every single day first person think wake last one fall asleep keep dreaming time spent together waking crying eyes out cant take anymore first person life showed genuine love genuinely liked am nothing fault im trying convince fault either mental illnesses make lifes hell want again physically emotionally please im lonely