definition failure lifehave ever felt like quite hit rock bottom yet going go downhill point on  always struggled depression past  months so seemed cured myself found ambitions friends girlfriend one month time everything came crashing down got rejected university  times lost  euros investing something extremely stupid  friends which them told want friends anymore for obvious reason all absolute love life left someone else top off tried committing redflag woke massive headache girl breaking given actual ptsd random anxiety attacks lasted  weeks now cause wake   every morning never experienced symptoms biggest failure around wake every morning hoping enough balls properly kill myself reading definitely gives courage actually it