feel like wasted life idk doi feel like ive made many mistakes past live life didnt want live unmotivated depressed high school didnt get accepted colleges didnt even get money goddamn fafsa dont friends closest friends dont even talk properly anymore thats due mixture self isolation drifting apart other severe social anxiety talking people work hard feel like cant relate coworkers im stuck shitty retail job sadly enough write shift black friday still cant afford even community college dont know want college wtf want major want take life feel like help family thinks im  im way obligated receive help life events need learn grow up feel stuck im constantly relapsing self harm eating disorder many emotions want pretty want liked want fucking dead feel like sound crazy like crybaby im tired every level possible especially mentally constantly dream would happen killed myself would people would probably react dont know even care select people would sad overwhelming majority would forget soon