please somebody find fucking combination words make betterim  years old im horribly depressed ive fucked brain beyond belief psychedelic drugs months ago first seizure finally three fucking months later tell abnormality right temporal lobe need discuss next steps im allowed drive due risk seizures cant even get fucking license im fucking idiot value brain much want clear head ruined smoking weed everyday year dangerous psychedelics way many mushrooms mind fucked think weird fucked ways still get flashbacks bad trips fucked  dreams fucking dead cant anything fucked brain several people know facebook commited redflag odd fentanyl getting much fucking sympathy walls getting me idea seems perfect want live bad want deal shit want kill myself least attempt get help one taking seriously right now im trapped head nobody knows bad depression is fuck fucks fuck