still herethis past year fucking roller coaster emotions four different times ive came close acting plans end life thing thats stopping dog things never would thought hed thing keeping alive adopted pound time ive him hes became attached me moved away college last semester parents would report back hed search mope around couldnt find me dont know overwhelming guilt dog would shattered not time though im actually little scared flunked semester lost two scholarships made college possible parents kicking out im afraid might true end wont able take care dog ill end inevitability failing like everyone else life situation hitting like is im hardest time sleeping thoughts ending life slip mind maybe deed make world better place anyways sorry wasting time today