im gonna try write book good story ive rewriting past year afterwards gets published im killing myselfi made post months ago talked life think im unhappy it well didnt explain text ive working book past  months boy hates everything jerks lot tries kill pathetic actually it suffers entire life snaps loses fucking mind course theres lot book didnt explain dont want put many spoilers finished dont expect book well dont expect even get published im honest life plan finish make best writing ive ever written life im done im gonna stop caring life hopefully kill overdosing alcohol parents conservative fully alcohol drugs feel like need numb pain bullshit already knew  gonna turn substance abuser get older im turning  three days think wake much alcohol wanna drink dont care die it wanna die it ive realized life isnt me im already drinking deadly amounts coca cola redbull monster soft drinks right now amounts junk food eat unbelievable im still thin stick one notices it guess way trying cope biopolar disorder hidden depression