think ive fill ready clock outat point life honestly feel like ive lived enough cases squandered time here im point feel like anything worth giving anymore lengthy spat depression ive never felt sense relief deciding finally time working security guard know im easily replaceable live two cats im planning rehoming time theyre well kept ive never considered close family know theyll suffer know move theyre stronger me reason cant pinpoint one exact one could learned parents accident never planned  kids leading somewhat neglected child could ive grown despise general public dealt years shitty security job could fact ive read much next generation humans realized cant stand people growing becoming either anxiety ridden messes sjw types whod rather rip apart whatever reason deem rather grow people themselves guess could say hate era in id rather apart suffer it ive already chosen method im sure work need make sure cats safe cared for deserve me