im lonely feel lonelyhey everyone thanks reading in comparison stories subreddit pathetic story im  year old male im depressed never seriously thought redflag couple days ago think im ugly wear glasses minor acne im confident way look basically imagine girl thinking hey guy looks pretty good problem silly people may think obsessed girls probably wrong ive become pretty desperate girlfriend past months want somebody love me want me never kissed someone thought kissing someone drives mad want someone share everything with cuddle im feeling down thing girl  years ago seemed like well work out that ive never feeling girl actually liked friend i hand imagined spending rest life pretty much girl met lot girls already boyfriends though lot girls way league couple months ago met girl lot common with kind humor were interested things like think were equally intelligent already boyfriend though breaks heart joke around lot her last week made joke us like married couple stupidest argument took hand kneeled like propose her responded gentle slap face saying really need find girlfriend do really do think hopeless case way home day waiting train pass strangest though entered mind jump  meters forward right now itll ok worries unreachable girls feeling how articulate this unfulfilled lust caught moment really wanted jump thought family friends everybody id leave behind decided it since day though lot moments wished coward done it want commit redflag im scared that bad day enough pressure will need help