wish days could go emotional void turn numb little bit fucking rest redflag makes hyper aware depression makes intense streak lows week today work redflag going fucking nuts least winning fight depression occupy mind brain feels like neurons firing fucking fast cannot function going break  cannot breathe today need breathe cannot yet suppose function like normal adult public clients coworkers yet brain feels like circuits fry try go forward stuck perpetual rerun stuttering get thoughts order words formed come mouth need fucking breathe one else need emotional void days