tired feeling trapped lifemy life nowhere go down really dont care carry out nothing live for nothing look forward to im fucking ready end dont it im tired constant stress reward even things used enjoy mean nothing anymore hours laying bed think ill cheer something used fun me anymore everything chore everything exhausting everything pointless nothing meaning anymore everything come crumbling down barely held single jenga block first place dont determination motivation fight wait get better hint getting better wish wasnt afraid dying im tired purgatory im alive im shell exhaustive burden im close snapping letting go dont know whether afraid excited