sister tried commit redflag last night confessed rapedshe tried commit redflag last night taking bunch pills really slowed heart rate down doctors said sick took probably would dead still resuscitated though stomach pumped still currently hospital shes obviously depressed says i want anymore worrying confessed thats raped  years ago someone knew beginning downward spiral her found going great difficulty conceiving child ever can relationship trouble distanced family feel like belongs anymore locked up cant visit stays bf still stays grandparents controlling possessive fear is may wake one day may anymore helpful best thing say situations someone sensitive stuck ways really open healthy change also acknowledges need it help frame mind feel like living anymore much people offer around good enough emotionally tiring im  half months pregnant four year old cant dedicate every waking minute feel like risk rn wish knew right thing was