well great go seek help put redflag watch fucking case shit theyre gonna call regularly keep check me thats nonsense everyone leave fuck alone wish everybody fucking hated would make killing much much easier could enjoy slowly changed antidepressants zoloft suit made kill even more gave xanax fucking panic attacks got worse zoloft also think drinking problem even though ive drunk like   times cant control myself promised never drink alcohol make problems go away fuck shit bite lips get anxious last time swollen lips  weeks literally chewed skin lips taking ages heal today im worried lips going swollen tomorrow ive made plans go even though want to longer im alone time get think killing myself know more im sucking lollipops stop biting lips fucking chewing skin off know im posting this nobody needs worry me needed vent know someone reading knowing im feeling good right now