want commit redflag tomorrowi always promised id post got bad has depressed point ive managed ex girlfriend recently dumped stated ever try contact call police absolutely shattered longest relationship thought would go forever im going back college little week going one think able handle it scared going school year ex makes miserable again nothing going me job awful feel motivation college theres even reason finish job ive purchased something cutoff breathing get hands gun seriously feel like would relief feel anything finish tomorrow night would easily able scared hurting close family anxious going this want kill tomorrow im little scared wish things couldve better wish couldve likable person