pseudocontent existencethe thought always lingered ive never really acted thoughts without thinking over ive never given redflag consideration deserved understand call post sort superficial statement one radical thought id received however thought ive paid attention to ive always considered well off fed clothed sheltered however theres always feeling innate loneliness ive felt life people ask full life encompasses honestly know say people assume wealth humanistic approach life makes one happy watched father leave due lust starting around  years old would see around year even world started fall around would outlet anger mother relatively absent life spends time others family believes potential exceed life ever had terms school results slowly decayed think result gain sort attention pathetic right merely exist im wits end honestly wish life away