know dohey ive struggling high functioning depression anxiety almost two years know started im guessing parents constantly fight dad extreme ocd add refuses go doctor get medication takes everyone else house know love sometimes cant dad constantly tells much disappointment nothing right mom better same feel told im going through believe im traditionally depressed would probably tell people worse need suck up many people days better others days im friends stuff enjoy better soon im home smallest thing happens want curl ball things enjoy painting horseback riding gaming sound engineering parents disapprove make fun about favorite thing job workintern audio engineer church services high school graduations etcetera feel like boss cares family parents christian im deist cant tell them things would different cant lose best friends feel place church even talking youth pastor nice lack faith best friends ever know nothing this family acts perfect seems perfect outside reason havnt ended want put family friends it cant take anymore im freshman hope future maybe time think done sorry rant tldr im high functioning depressive cant deal