statistically supposed dead sometime last  years chf day nothing changed lifei look patient admittance band httpimgurcomszrnqid think self that happy im still alive infact not since ive known despair sadness ive learned people leave instead want stay people never love way love them fighting light end tunnel fighting littlest glimpse hope exhausting last night smiling thinking bottle jamo  golddot hollowpoints ive kept pillow first genuine smile ive years effortless move  muscles face create smile throw people off theres nothing behind it notice smiling involuntarily truly comes heart im tired tired ive wanted sleep like while might today might tomorrow hell might months now honestly felt like getting out maybe get deleted really care