selfish wanting end lifebeen feeling suicidal got around purely people would get upset understand get called selfish loads things wanting end life understand people thinking selfish ending seems like option sometimes go things go nobody else understands dont even see good future people bring like gonna change things dont see happening sometimes get right edge attempting end realise fuck calm myself ive never believed thought id never get far im still daily things keep putting im scared ill get far ill end killing without hesitation lacking support right 