im mistakeim scared write need someone know im gay kid saudi arabia place lgbtq ppl accepted punishedby death  im scared family ive isolated everyone cause im terrified theyll know spent life bullied cause ppl kinda tell made develop social anxiety depression  feels like im carrying heavy weight cant anymore wanna let go two years hardest far depression bad point im going school  general health shit i one im alone scared  everyone around happy fun except me get something choice this way live im fucking tired wanna love feel loved much ask for find thinking letting go im searching reasons  maybe cry help