alrightim living dream job years get travel see kinds amazing things im active adventure whenever want amazing friends much love life yet think killing throughout day every day cant control it ideas creep leave know feel lately sometimes hate fing hard insane cant figure out thought good thing going ready grow want revert earth feel lost sad alone heart want painful lately pray wake sleep reason want actually diekill believe life worth living get better cannot bare pain would bring family friends im miserable think quitting job what shitty job way love cant wake enough give shit it