ill kill tomorrowi friends im unable pay attention anything interest makes impossible perform well school cant anything productive waste time needlessly scrolling internet genuine interests spend time front computer ive struggled severe social anxiety years caused isolate society also detrimental mental health dread waking everyday it im extremely depressed see disgusting pathetic incompetent worthless excuse human ever walked planet think world colorless place spend hours daydreaming would like live fictional world full adventure such day goes without thinking id better dead today useless self finally decided ill commit redflag tomorrow ill head deep forest hang myself ive thought killing before never courage thought devastated family would much tried change im strong enough im exhausted want free endless suffering