pain much deal gonemy live gone now feels like bodys given up telling throw towel let die im constantly pain loneliness skin hunger well emotionally fucked beyond help abusive parents im constant physical pain due psychological problemsthats bad is pain becoming unbearable  day random times spikes  near constant life months now cant take it im like people im beyond help justi justi cant take it much stress much pain muchtoo muchtoo muchtoo muchi canti cant sad thing is im trying get basic things life causing thisim even able eat right now theres hope live manner life get better ive trying long now mention friends seem fairweather run stop talking try express suffering therapist cant meetings overim alone im failing im drainedim freakish mess mistakeim done never point keeping living cant keep pushing absence that theres nothing make pain worth itits want die literally cant anymore