cant sleep suicidal thoughts strongfirst things first im male female trans individual recently turned job work walmart asset protection associate contacted bosss bosss boss a regional ap manager putting management position knew desperately wanted store close home me interview prepared for practiced thought id nailed alas meant be ive stuck working stores nothing abusive last two years usually report inappropriate things associates done said me never want person done couple times times ive done it nothing done it id given reporting them interviewer who person asked applied market ap manager going things could done better said one thing able shake really affected me told me six months ago never would expected interview someone like you times changing times changing me exactly theyve ever been like twentieth time ive turned job suitable experience education bachelors degree two jobs last  years means feel like ideal candidate ing walmart management see point anymore ive depressed whole freakin life know much take feel like whole life wasted wanted true myself