anybody considering it please dont gets better story inside longi normal childhood much little boy could whose father walked age  mother worked double time odd jobs make ends meet keep roof heads food table little brothers myself graduated hs went onto college meet thought love life wasnt virgin also hadnt w lot women either  anyway met began  year romance relationship w her included graduating college getting first apartment together getting married little girl together one night middle dad cant say happened theories sleep deprivation moodiness problems within marriage itself got physical w other nothing horrible like always hear enough pressed charges tried take daughter me bruise bicep grabbed her left nail marks neck etc blood busted bones damaged furniture scared lost wife newborn daughter  months time job because local news printing allegations apartment lease up moved took everything either bought together gifted wedding baby shower moved back w mother age   days trying strong endure never ending relentless pain made horrifying decision one night write redflag notes leave pin  debit card wedding band wallet passenger side vehicle walked nearest overpass about  ft sent goodbye text wife called brother let know loved him closed eyes fell hit cement w impact knew injured pretty bad tried get standing position hip buckled laid bridge w oncoming traffic passing next  hours  degree weather passing consciousness mother knew something wrong issued missing persons report emts found loaded gurney never screamed loud life knew back severely messed slid board underneath me cold didnt even register pulse machines passed ambulance way icu first time waking up remember seemed time like giant heated pool cover kept  days finally stabilized well back brace keep shattered pelvis hip together administered every two hours w dilaudid pic line says half life medicine  hours believe tell seemed like wore much quicker that  days finally went emergency surgery routine surgery lasted  hours go  complications pelvis shattered right side w incomplete break tailbone broken ribs two lower lumbar vertebrae shattered back surgery right lung collapsed put onto rebreather overnight week recovery mind still dosed every  hours w dilaudid which equivalence street heroin barry eating lost  lbs took  weeks every level hospital get back health went icu emergency surgery recovery rehab also behaviors heath unit voluntarily signed  hour hold happy say incident  months ago got back gym gained frame muscle back living better life well first ever due june just fathers day guess came say thought couldnt get worse wrong right help support things get much better please value life get live once