time goim really done it dont understand anymore everything acted fine long time really cant take more drunk everyday numb pain wanting hurt people afraid get house job messed school keep failing driving lessons girl going rave tomorrow probably cheating something wanna leave cant live without her hate her seriously never bore fucking drug problem thinking fun going raves leaving home cutting trying drink death im sick shit wish everything wouldve different would get heaven live happy life cant like that dont know wrong yeah probably end it think hell less pain here honestly wanna leave planet im sorry read this really hope rave party worth fucking death caused bs ignoring feelings yeah might little crazy different try best hope pray pray god still let heaven