sun cant shine foreverim  years old ive made abuse  years sober opiate addiction selling opiates years got kicked week high school graduation homeless then papaw looked to shot  drug addicted biological father drove tree died year fighting depression whole life amp traumaptsd past year finally path wanted be girlfriend loves almost  years now pulled addiction amp never messed drugs got masters degree therapist trying help deal trauma forgave adoptive dad put good relationship well rest family now finally feeling happy past years even depressionif makes sense im barber school one top  teacher said hed ever had spoke volumes since hes owned ran college  years even one teaching classmates months school left graduate work job love vape shop building coils make people healthier hadnt thought redflag years now never thought worth shit slowly shown was girlfriend would tell me survived struggles amp happy found outthe sun shine long june th year tuesday woke late class hurried get showered ready dont remember much day remember some tuesday monday worked late night overslept time heading car  class starts  goes till  pm amp  minute drive town bigger city get gas also rush gas station  miles away drove parkway towards gas station mph speed limit mph without seatbelt cause hurry sunny warm fresh air smelled great knew good day got mile parkway fast lanethen next thing remember someone saying ive called  ambulance coming call you immediately remembered moms phone number i lived adoptive dad amp little sister could get back feet gave number asked happened next memory morning helicopter noises next memory  days later pain never felt way second set surgeries  hours surgery total lots blood transfusions  days remember anything more semi truck wasnt looking morning pulled straight fast lane front me hit mph nobody understands didnt die engine pushed dash causing stuck right hip amp pelvis shattered left hip amp pelvis severely broke dominant hand right one broken along right wrist thumb broken nose right knee bashed open exposing knee cap amp lot glass face  months amp im still hospital bed parents front room cant walk bear weight sit wheelchair half hour so learn walk time comes seemed far away last month xrays showed hip muscles turning bone may require surgery cant get stopped im constant pain amp supposed take pain medication amp muscle relaxers  times day along lot medications fought get away opiates im forced back them likely recover enough barber needing full motion right hand amp needing stand day hated waking late morning everyday now struggle didnt end like thought became harder worse forced lay watching life move everyone else stand still me wish didnt survive amp want end now today could take dont know struggle anymore tried positive amp strong im tired strong shoes walked miles life soles weight ive carry amp road feels like end dont know start again dont know smile dont know want live isnt living im crying help feel like one listened traumas come back made forget night terrors killing amp im terrified sleep dont know ill see dreams ive always told im needed planet amp might know yet ill find one day im strong enough stay fight another day ive prolonged inevitable sad truth sun shine brighter everyone knows go everybody take care im wearing thin drowning me dont think make this