life worth losingim articulate please forgive me braindamaging psychiatric drugs specifically chlorpromazine neuroleptics forced upon child moodiness moodiness caused daily physical emotional abuse poverty shrinks love pathologize everything cannot tolerate social situations even around extended family trigger panic attack withdrew school sixth grade mother claimed homeschool status bullshit though continued learning web sat passed new ged battery may  collegeready designation transcript yet find employer willing interview me ive submitted thirty job applications and followedup phone calls poverty abuse aspergers syndrome tarnished hope better future nineteen year old feel like fing leech living grandparents thank reading rant truly appreciate time