ah came old friend depressionim feeling relatively calm right now theres things id like get chest family aware mental state usually avoid talking it living own although alone express feelings however like home dare cry every time do parents scorn weak emotional thats hardest part hardest part that believe ive sexually abused kid cant tell anyone it barely  think live grandparents uncle aunt summer holidays parents busy working one morning woke up felt something genitals thought fist accidental went back sleep know better weird feeling wont go away obviously cant prove anything guilty party already jail for reasons theres cousin also age think asked hand job something exchange bought snacks currently huge debt gambling mom wont stop coming house ask us money horrible memories wont go away please help can