gf ruined entire life sent nudes muslim motheri feel horrible life shit grades extremely bad family fight time other friends girlfriend talked hours everyday got extremely jealous crazy sudden shamed everything did ruined life sending sexual chat history fetishisms nudes muslim mother placed lock down phone got taken away me wifi got taken away me im forced pray  times day yells hour refuse life horrible using razors blades cut open foregead forearms im depressed suicidal yet lack power end myself please help me