attempted redflag saturdaystill want diehey guys im  turn sixteen week depressed  years enough bullshit life past saturday attempted redflag drinking  shots liqour went home vomiting everywhere blacking mom came upstairs saying fuck blacked woke next morning woke parents told heart beating  beats per minute stopped breathing began lecturing telling im fucking idiot told wanted kill myself feel horrible attempted redflag still want die im lost could anyone please help