thinking killing know dothis going hard reed highly dyslexic go grammar hello break thinking killing hurt one love anything else also monster last  moths birth parents dead  job future also emotional special needs dyslexia know express emotions person make everything toxic also find people hard around emptiness hits hard try counselling acted like joke fucked around setting date calls meeting keeping find hard trust people self harming started last year mum dead way feel sad guilty time nothing used one person last years life treated like shit used like pawn manipulated anything said tonight fight scary would never physically hurt though going love love back toxic monster final word writing show must stop goodbye sorry everyone hurt stop