im getting discouragedgtthis poem wrote gtthis one worst days life gtbut one best im still alive gti always thought things would change gti always kept hopes high eight years gtand still want die gtnow come question really change gtor ive told keep slightly alive gtmy heart still beating lungs still breathing gtbut numbness body seem cease gtmy bodys decaying somewhat already deceased gtthe rest go gtthe rest know give life gtwithout help gravity surface tension tall bridge gt gtthe worst getting worse feel worthy disease physical external illness coincide feels much reason sad somehow am feel nearly everyday better dead