feel giving enough time feel prayers answered moved abusers house bliss  weeks lapses desires hurt worse today one f days keep praying religious time let cry feels prayers get answered given anybody else help sorrows universe truly want brave myself know begin even meditate journal every single day matter nobody knows even tell mei feel horribly alone many people love come help feel absolutely terrified ask help back even could cannot feel like open like that want trauma dump especially tell people stories get disgusted cannot handle it even know dude feel like still suicidal everything perfect is feel praying much cannot take given shut up feel like help coming soon trying find valid suicidal still