sleeping forever sounds really attractive right nowi many problems one visit hospital trying kill myself diagnosed several disorders back february week july things seemed get worse im  best friend left me cant anything all thing even find remotely enjoyable playing video games even like playing im trash multiplayer games im bad internet bad people tell kill bad im really lonely friends parents care me tell long spend night home  nights week even care sit home look window wishing could go there anxiety attacks stop me im smart all fail classes go im lazy know anything try go home spend hours trying homework know parents help me want go online because im going fail class anyways want truly get smarter without help answer sheet online