suicidal thoughtsi kind hate posting here ive done makes feel kind bad hate thought strangers worrying dumbass dont really anyone talk kinda stuff with would look crazy saying im thinking killing anyone kind hard say tbh hold in last night considered taking life hours  morning walking around town trying take mind things calm down eventually went home slept woke felt degraded burst tears stayed bed day life get wanted curl ball deal anything feel like tonights gonna long night mind friend im absolutely exhausted ive sleeping  hours every night week sometimes sleep feel like actual shit got much mind last months fuckin beyond stressed sucking life feel like im losing mind sometimes im trying good get better every day gets harder harder cope cant seem pull im scared started months ago odd thought killing sometimes never considered actually it gotten point think every single day sometimes cant think way this im desperate stop hurting constantly debilitating feel trapped lie awake alot nights contemplating quick get with always end thinking people care leaving behind tell one day it really want die literally know else im agony every day want stop god id anything want life back wanna feel excited live again