please helpreddit im good know problems typical time im trouble dealing them im  girlfriend year leaving me week ago begging take back didnt im alienated family friends anymore ive quit job start new one turning inside anxiety lot feel like im losing all today hard exactly two year ago best friend roommate killed himself earlier tied belt around doorknob sat almost blacked out real concern die funeral want inconvenience anyone want start again im old want go dates want move home cant pay bills anymore im counting reasons keep going shit one hand im runnning out cant find value anymore really need kind therapy health insurance shell bunch money pay antidepressants every month keep getting like theres much do someone listen feel bad dumping problems onto im living completely inside head cant anymore cant