suicidal postconcussioni got terrible concussion  months ago really bad still lot symptoms still cant play sports way back happened cuttingsuicidal beginning th gradehalf way th im typea kind person   classes aps  cumulative gpa  unweighted etc etc realized freaking retarded depressed constantly managed move on junior year great happy tons friends starting varsity basketball lacrosse still jv soccer though got concussion end junior year went hill grades dropped  weighted  quarters straight isolated athletic friend told parents sports med doctor really think long hard ever playing sports again thought long hard decided try start running deciding bad idea collapsed dizziness every time quit lacrosse quit soccer quit basketball started running everyday first street slowly increasing distance still got headaches grades still bad still cant concentrate went neurologist gave steroids stop headaches worked made sick slight anger problems scare old friends away im disrespectful people know bad thing cant help it happens cant concentrate anything know started right concussion right quit sports keep feeling like life honestly pointless now short term memory problems im constant trouble parents grades keep dropping im longer superstar athlete used be know im young know came back cant tell parents dad thinks im still faking headaches mom believe mental illnesses honestly know anymore