hospitals cancer mentally ill people overdosed mg ended hospital yesterday im finally done etiz done got craziest shit life ended roof contemplating redflag called  officers trying get come down scary zero control lucky kill im tears right im thankful alive really felt like could ended moment inhibition try stick opioids never thought redflag opioid forced go voluntarily said threatened doctor force go involuntarily later on etizolam began wear felt strong urge leave guards monitoring door leading chance another patient acting restrained guards distracted made run it made pretty far misjudged jump fell scraped fingers pretty badly doctor quick come see let leave told wanted leave suicidal overall shitty way get situation like that injure get discharged even forced sign voluntary admission paper