update suicidal ideationshello posted back thinking committing redflag try mom found went hospital mental unit stayed almost two weeks came much better person still suicidal thoughts depression im dark place first went in also lot people scared put inpatient firstly usually short term  weeks tops depending hospital hospitals psych unit every one ive great groups medicine usually also lot free time nurses usually amazing someones report to mine social worker coordinate outside world rent bills pay it really bad optimal ive never experience abuse others said happen im sure happen places would say often think wanted say considering scared help anyways im im going back therapist well partial hospitalization go groups am pm helps much feel like fight this thank everyone messaged commented means much people care thank you ps im mobile sorry weird formatting spelling errors