tomorrow day  midnighti cant handle anything anymore weeks weeks laying bed crying im bad habit bashing head relief again cant keep going on know never happyi met someone thought going soul mate but extremely jealous person broke months ago started talking  months ago text promise promise keeps falling through got emotional got scared thought hint everyone talks about doesnt want anymore told missed me thinks lots fantasizes me going sleep weekend like before excited time yesterday sent message let hysterical worries saying jay jay dont want message anymore feel guilty bad whenever read say want alright first met you alone said anyways always there fell other made plans future said love would never die would always there sent message care nothing dont want message anymore needed me every time hurt bottle in run away get upset me take is silence uncertainty shes gone fault stayed gone first time wish didnt meet all wish went months ago wouldnt feeling like this today sent awful message saying would hurt make feel felt betrayed began belittling her hasnt replied dont blame her told message never talk again told hurtful things didnt really mean said horrible things her despite ignoring me love her never needed add horrible names judgments her im sorry cc really am maybe best truly hate me forget me im going spend time misty today little princess cat dont know find new home first what hope cats different hope forget me love baby misty dont want leave her misty loved me im going find good home someone give lots love dad poor father said would die too mom said thing love me theres nothing good all im hurt cant keepg goign im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry wish could understand tomorrow night need one night hold little misty waited lutside door last night fucked didnt want nothing hold me dont nderserve ikt dont deserve anything hurt im good at im going hurt people more im going lied anymore wont suffer feel alone love highest priority life feel true romance affection initimacy gone im never going meet someone like again cant get head cant exist im cursed forever see smile memories voice used sing songs anymore tomorrow midnight one last campfire near shore favorite place whole wide world grew small waves used help sleep maybe help sleep time im going favorite place sleep family also loves place plus reminds her promises things never do im going walk long dark road theres point looking lake beautiful spot trees surrounding shoreline theres old native ceremony cloths knots tied branches get cozy beach stone ground listen music favorites even ones told about bottle wine pack cigarettes enjoy view myself song ends finally sleep hear painful waves always comforted