bad titlesi feel like tonight really me rough year me ive stuck crappy job  years im stuck im stuck needing help mother job long time making slightly minimum wage yeah big part im alone first relationship ended horribly lying cheating etc one two failures spent next years trying date sticking casual stuff wanting more set girl really changed views it seemed actually care made want myself wasnt like girls id before together year found sleeping several coworkers say least crushed me every thing ever told made rethink life suddenly faded away everything seems like complete lie make things even worse starting workplace week hurts first girl trusted long time started heal old scars turned around made even worse left wondering literally second last year thought was ive always struggled depression year seems kicking ass really feel like hope life anymore ive always struggled alcohol problem last year admit ive gotten much much worse dunno probably even seem like big deals are