ex says wants kill frequently idea hes serious dohes always negative person everything happens shit seems incapable finding true joy things sure happy playing starcraft example get idea hes never truly happy even me hes said positive thing ever happened him deserve person like hes messed make happier happy even person loves heart make happy multiple times even broke he broke btw said wants kill himself wished dead blue idea respond that especially weve broke up seems symptoms depression yet want seek help what help could talking shrink do break ive tried support much can hes unemployed keep encouraging send application letters possible next step would write letters him tried make promise least try day write letter he one needs adjusted fit jobs hes applying for response im trying hard kill gtgt serious cry attention since weve broke up ignore force see psychiatrist know world would crash ever kill  ps hes  im 