id iti think period time reason killed fear pain involved im australian gun ownership easy time id process getting license gun use myself feelings would passed day thought bearably painful way die would easy organise two bits hardwood timber around neck held together cclamp turn head tighten clamp compress carotid arteries jawline even fucking windpipe would painful part hanging without neckbreak basically  seconds discomfort probably maximum  seconds relative pain gone forever now im saying im going it even want right now problem is im cerebral type know much suffer die alot scarier rough idea feels like commitment would need emotionally got lot lower and time low would need got lot higher