life sucksthere nothing interesting exciting anymore used hobbies enjoyed nowadays feels like carrying tasks feeling numb things zero interest constantly procrastinate wish could stay bed day nothing even though hate too social life sucks one real friend lives far away see often parents live far away too apart friends use me call need something talk like care act differently tried socialize get know people unsuccessfully try kind everyone judge people hate way look keep thinking reason friends people life friends people know diseappeared right parents would people would notice that talk feelings anyone would drive away want burden life sucks could stop existing would great want kill myself sorry read this sucks like living