meds unintentionally spending lot time around narcissistic family due easter called sick today made mistake so think job risk high panic mode feeling like options moving forward limitedive trying strong last little whilei work great place unfortunately toxic bullshit usually handle it top easter ive lot pressure dont good relationship family damaging self worth ive endure passive aggressive bullshit weekend ive meds ive scatterbrained really affect me im sick stomach self destructive eating anxiety im experiencing called sick work today didnt realize second time ive called monday im still  days boss pissed texted back let know wouldnt in kidding sick monday need serious conversation tomorrow texted back understood said dont think lets chat tomorrow feel like im weak called in im weak coping better family work pressures lose job wont first ive lost due loss motivation constant stress outside work everyone around tired hearing excuses going work think lazy dont know dont sleep anxiety controlled life im tired fighting myself fighting family fighting every day think im weak think im pathetic theyre right cant handle mundane daytoday handle rest life im scared im going make another bad choice may ultimately good one whether pills cut myself never hold image im fully functioning person long someone please help im scared im going lose job im going give up