sexually confused past  years im starting give upi began realize depressed  year old two years parents divorce i pretty insightful child coping since myself going  years old ups downs thought hurting killing coping mechanism now began cut stomach get point long story short hopeless romantic loveobsessed lonely girl questioning sexuality since  still found girl me fall love straight women unintentionally specific incident enough lost it closest ever gotten girl months ago got hopes played emotions completely dumped me hit rock bottom razorblades could make feel alive know get mess therapist cant figure either cant imagine spending another year alone im thinking ending day do