heysoi things mind sorry bad english much sadness inside me feel like right feel sad bad feel like nothing feel better nothing anyone help me either ever recall geniunely happy never thought before know times felt glad maybe even cheerful never lasted everything went back gray that happiness really necessary even possible me become worst posible version me cant explain why people loved me love anymore unlovable maybe am ones still do even like me likelove facade everyday mask would go away knew real me broken unstable real me really need them want die want live life way want leave brothers right know want stay either wish wasi know far drinking tea reading amazing book actually making feel something forget worldi even feel anymore then coming back home maybe alone maybe company proud happy home happy place spend hours daydreaming nothing daydream about life better never better anything imaginary mind could come with like that tomorrow woke everything keep sadness nothing make think maybe current life bad maybe wasting time maybe someday happy way spent lived best years nothing cant feel anything good ampxb ampxb