tired pitiful existence might kill soonthere place me im  year old autistic trans or least gender questioning person know already makes people sympathy me know im disgusting broken human fucking mean id never wish anyone torture waking hating knowing cant really damn thing it end people change nature hating others fail show even slightest bit empathy towards gone through family religious stopped caring religion long time ago god fucking tyrant choice me ive never normal jealous people seem find life easy get things handed them even curing genderconfused thing theres way stop autistic supposedly prediposed lgbt ive suffered mental health problems trauma fitting inbullied entire life amount therapy make truly happy anyway whats damn point im autistic all everyone knows theyre equal fucking hate going lgbt support groups feeling butterflies stomach feeling accepted first time life taken away people want treat even subhuman fucking hate knowing ill probably commit redflag either way eventually even transitioning delay that bet post get reposted one transhating subs everyone agree waste life end right agree them tired bothered writing  paragraph long post chest hurts crying much ive scared want hurt family whats lose now theyll hate anyway