hate life much social life till  like back days kindergarden teacher literally begged children least try befriend exclude activities still got marginalized  friends got bullied lot still cheerful person till moved parents house went uniand things started turn better guess what covid happened isolation again fact live literally shit country romania made even worse hurts impossibility find romantic partner tried every dating app possible went every social event restrictions lifted literally trying hard check boxes success single chancealso tried therapycounselling help all one tell  eventually find someone cannot  menrally exhausted try anymore feel condemned live dream nightmare stuff called life dream every aspect life point going absolutely perfect social aspect gives suicidal thoughts every daythe thing aggressive troll internet said something bad toabout you sorry mean it unending frustratiin speaks me sometimes wish terminal disease know certainly die soon