know much longer thisi really dont every day gets worse worse force things like work school otherwise ill get trouble never get break days off constant work never stops want stop want calmness hate pressure thats me forced quarantine enough money move forced stay home mother horrible victim complex always takes anger frustrations since im one home everything goes wrong life fault oh tried kill past could mother could ruin life like that oh enough money buy thing cost much feed house im  cant afford housing yet even can know guilt im ruining everything good life follow around want live like theres escapei really cant stay longer cant handle it want bash head wall want bash head wall till bleed outi cant fucking anymore