overweight anxiety body issues good enough acceptable reason want kill myselfim curious guys think context  im  m senior high school overweight since  years old im  cm weigh  kg fat cant remember time life didnt bulging belly manboobs affected severe depression confidence issues anxiety im overachiever  achieved every goal ive set fact gotten fit lean trying  years makes feel like complete failure makes ashamed even public theres mantra repeated year fight happiness failed so feel like deserve happy hence deserve life itself feel like ive missed many things highschool due low confidence shit body im terrified happen university day first day uni gets closer feel pressure anxiety getting worse