dont knowi dont even feel like belong here im constant balance slightly numb daydreaming redflag ive done everything fucking feel something past months ive cut many fucking times finally stopped weeks ago bled much thought hit vein although sometimes wish had wouldnt deal fucking noise around me bullshit many ideas many people think know all canmt tune anymore feel like everything coming end im  shouldnt fucking go this sounds selfish feel it wish didnt aware everything falling apart around me wish didnt people age shaming putting acting bullshit thats going on im tired nothings getting better im drunk mind right now im trying make things coherent forgive this fuck pointless want drink cant move