im incredibly sad yet numb timelife insanely bleak me fear ill never feel love give though ive never attempted redflag plan date planned end life continue way is nothing look forward to maybe long life ahead theres nothing life cycle suck everything do motivation left world always weather leave not pain stays around thing im afraid of hurting best friend thoughive talked while pain mom grandma feel losing grandpa cancer depression redflag though part believes wont affected knows ill incredibly hurt bros always look me although may show know care people around would ended life plenty months ago maybe even years know do feel like matter ill never fulfilled ill never find pain worth enduring ill never find fight used heart flames kept going death seems closer ever sense tounge yet hate taste