losti tried kill back  work decided try figured might depressed told mom laughed me said pathetic found psychologist told suffer depression social anxiety told mom allow take meds refused go see psychiatrist even though psychologist wanted mom want disappoint her psychologist told know months stopped seeing her got worse cant get bed like zero motivation anything im scared go school teachers keep giving shit sick often im scared oral examination teachers yell try make feel like shit front whole class parents like beat yell kids really wanna take care baby brother become legal guardian probably happen life sucks idea do want end