lost motivation live fi recieved exam results yesterday poor qualified technical school customer service loathe job server hence think ill enjoy life customer service parent supportive retaking exams private candidate school kicked out however dream making politics someday entering school going shut doors reputable law schools think life realized wasted much life computer games failed developed soft skills  even manage schoolwork well typing away bed know well final nail going pushed coffin dream terribly upset scared  think parent going force back work chose retake private candidate tell continue living