ive lost everything ever matteredmy fiance fell love someone else hurts much write did happiness anymore ive depressed months since told me everything going well moved country her got masters program struggling managing starting make friends cant get bed failed one classes winter nearly failed two more feel like huge disappointment supervisor dropped class supposed take summer cant focus anything lifeline world know pathetic makes me dependent probably drove away know else do cant function without her im worthless mess went got things used make happy got home wanted crawl bed cry wrote note apologizing know else do anything anymore stupid let fall away happy im alone says explicit methods know im going do