thinking overdosing bag asphyxiation bleeding tonight everything planned outi like posting here many places suicidal discussion found active usually taken obscuredif  years therapy pills done anything whatsoever know help feel like much shake this eaten  days clean system write redflag note thinking overdosing acetaminophendayquil liquicaps  count robitussen antihistamines   bag asphyxiation severing arteries arm  years old   pounds born malei transgender felt way since around age  able get support whatsoever family aprehensive negative situation would probably take long describe reasons want go this general dealing massive ptsd things happened years ago verbal physical sexual abuse absolute hatred myself feel like absolute stranger home lost first job month due life complications high stress work area license ect heard stock support answers youre young redflag permanent solution temporary problem ect time feeling way taken therapist therapist getting random pills prescribed slipshod way hospitalized redflag attempts everything worked fairly certain want go this failing redflag attempts past think take going back hospital resuming life hell lockdown afraid fail fuck things even worse never overdosed before know combination methods want call redflag numbers want traced want everything end