im stressed confused everythingive constantly stressed entire summer break sats also school my schedule next year excessive although technically want led constantly hyper reactive surroundings getting mad things excessively trivial feel mad helpless every time get blow mom addition genuinely confused sexuality gender identity like family anything morally maybe subconscious social thing idk know im sure am sexuality is helping ive got social academic issues life either made consider redflag know disappoint many different people family school teachers friends well cant even come close actually constantly go possible scenarios could commit redflag despite knowing cant possibly healthy me hope ill pull time many times knows whoever spent time reading strangers annoyingly long post seriously thank you