constantly think running away starting overbut means so moment im unemployed car im petite woman odds running trouble likely raised overbearing christian family father alcoholic mother abusive narcissist never close brothers one clearly annoyed  years older ran away  years naturally became introvert ive struggling depression anxiety long even remember like feel happy ok turns thyroid issue medication make feel better anyways point depression got bad started ignoring friends months felt ok enough talk them made everyone mad barely friends im lose more past month half ive drinking every night everything possible avoid everyone know messages piled eventually people gave up feel last time ill let happen im going respond again person left boyfriend things rocky lately im ready disappear motivation work anything im living parents hashimotos makes tired nobody understands that want escape thats option right now know ever be feel like im reaching end rope hospital  months last year bloodbone infection honestly wish killed me sorry rambling everythings hopeless  btw