posted couple years ago another account deleted posted poems stuff thought might like anyway  years ago made attempt gone wrong ended psych ward local hospital quickly enough realized actually stake showed love affection attention care kind cured while thought  yearsmeanwhile good life found want life found romantic partner loyal loving clueless romantic far expected couple years ago lol parents moved back together even helped them found new friends enjoy like everything pretty much literally hundreds times better was life improved every aspectuntil recentlyi recently started would call minor anger issues throwing qualified tantrums age pretty ashamed me feel like thisi also started alimentation problems again barely eating anymore appetite to drink lot however ever did tired work tired family yet love done anything wrongrecently caught contemplating suicide more way began many years ago try distracting playing online video games getting call someone myself always one main triggers past feel like here purpose meaningful thought was need help again restarted contemplating suicide lately  years last visit psych ward