today marks  month since broke one single day wake thinking her incredibly sorry things went depression lack motivation ruined relationship light heart went lot support me never got tired me never things got progressively harder harder situation unbearable decided broke better miss her miss fucking much love think ever stop loving here worst part know also loves or used to cannot stand thought knowing hurt person love most want her past weeks incredibly taxing me works shit feel miserable person used relax enjoy fault feel empty void slowly eating inside lights life consumed nothing darkness bittersweet taste had know cope that currently going therapy stopped drinking promised would fall old habits hard want anything want her want make happy again make laugh one last timesorry anything wrongly written english main language miss much