feeling like shit ive never wanted kill ever nowthe fact depression decided fuck boyfriend hurts lot fun till started break feel like shit him never break depression eating hit like fucking truck felt like shit started crying left ive never done before first time hit hard fact leave house strange hit hard time ive crying  fucking hours havent stopped since dont know depression getting way want selfharm badly either kill tonight need break feeling like shit time fuck life im done emotions constantly feeling like shit constant basis feeling like shit im boyfriend thats crossing fucking line dont get wrong im glad boyfriend tries help fucking christ feel awful tonight know im going feel awful tomorrow want kill im probably going later tonight really early morning dont know anyways end killing self oh well fuck it 