im point im done fightingi almost point feel like point living anymore im waste social anxiety long remember always felt weird around new people ever someone asks even simple question start blushing freaking embarrassing mom sister seem think since socially awkward treat like something mentally wrong me ever someone speaks mom butts talk say baby voice this youngest little shy understand treats like little child pisses talks always cuts off sister normally thing started new thing ever walk across street tries hold hand im like hell doing oh im trying make sure little sister run front cars really im fricking  stores talking people right humiliates me it really stupid cause social anxiety like today sister goes things horse races whitch little fake model horses run around game bored sitting one ladies talking ofcourse mom butts talking says little shy one ever talk much wanted start crying embarrassed alot things going really want talk them everyone know homeschooled overprotective mother allow anything friends real life online im allowed step foot outside yes includes backyard without watching every step change talking never listen cant talk dad cause walked  see  times year tried commit redflag three times one night birthday year march  brave enough feel like trying cause really feel like socially retarded freak cant speak anyone without almost breaking tears read room away people im freak family cause im vegan eating disorder one understands bring everyone down know must sound really annoying normally like this