discharged hospital definitely want kill myselfi understand perspective ive  weeks longer im harder itll go back real world little improved stay things gotten worse meds given anxiety came think redflag every day tried twice here life outside safe bubble overwhelming every angle thats want kill myself real safe place go leave back shit got here keep saying cant cope attend emergency room come back know even go home flat im going go straight bridge jump cant make far ill walk traffic feel like matter say theyre going believe im serious telling us suicidal gotten comfy hospital true want hospital equally cant face life again thought hope getting better despite engaging activities mind gotten worse ill leaving day tomorrow energy ask give least till friday doctor set wednesday stone putting immense pressure agree day want leave go things all tried