hi againi posted month something ago wanting odas probably guess didnt enough pills damage able go days ive completely sunk again think harder take life im faithlessi dont conform religion absolute nonsense god would create pain theres many factors stopping able causing live grey painful purgatory theres palace sky you im terrified death like people ive always viewed life pointless die anyway end well occupy sized grave ive always really debilitating fear fear would ever show again ive put fact brain cant comprehend absence senses thats fear is life meaningless personalities formed world molds us world creates divides world full hatred world youre consciousness brought taken away everything makes us existence since existence continue exist long existence exists except usthe voice headsthe voice abide by voice whose silence want find solace in pill id take itnot im people would view illbut choose look grim ugly truth world live in say theres reasons live maybe time start questioning reasons deem suitable live life shit for theres nothing special consciousnesseverything ive got emotional attachment gone one day ill feel pain itwhy around thatwhy anyone around anything