really want kill myselfim questioning long term relationship job friends family go times need physical mental health slowly deteriorating im done it years going nowhere made hit breaking point ive hospitals stayed mental facilities ive therapy ive seen psychiatrists ive exhausted every option life continues drastically go downhill tonight especially hard night one talk even get mind things friends family couldnt even find someone reddit talk to cant even get one person online wanna talk me fuck live for seen zero improvement life many years now im exhausted point think time call quits move onto whatevers waiting side