knowi wish capacity put words exactly whats head makes much sense cannot fix it sense total nonsense combined cant handle life im genuinely meant earth know im meant perhaps id quite happy place could find answers universe understanding would normal me want understand really want understand badly want able accept cant completely tearing inside feel like im sick think much ends coming real cant stop thinking please tell stop making sick doctor brain faulty much fixed know cant stop crying im alone watch bars prison tighten eyes terrifies idea arrived prison bars get close tight start carrying prison around you im asking questions cant answer im scared ask anyone else ask doctor looks funny stutters words cant take seriously told yet feel like im watched maybe ghosts follow around judging everything say do night time get listen ghosts talk stupid things day five years ago ten years ago matter much try scream always overpower me learn acceptance finally accept ghosts say me say am cant cant accept it im incapable accepting death point killing seems like option dive straight deep end best way tackle fears force yourself take plunge irony understand all want die im confused killing would much easier know much take understand im going bite arms purple bruising surfaces skin looks like beautiful space us reminds one understand space even even one gives shit want space acceptable understood answers want kill want free