im tiredi took handful benadryl hydrocodone im sure much exactly threw little still feel woozy cut arm twice done like  years wounds bad cuz hair scissors use need help mentally need outside people talk to life hard ever get easy  ive depressed long remember since like  least seems always get harder  hate everything everyone lately im tired walked everyone emotions controlled people think ill try another attempt tonight im getting cat tomorrow hopefully shell cheer im scared im gonna get back habit cutting every day id rather stop together whether dying getting better