ventexplanation guessso may first last post im sure say guess get right point im thinking downing three bottles antidepressants mickey rye tonight intent obvious ive come realisation useless am cant anything talents cant even get collage fucks sake im fucking lazy ive disappointed everyone one many times im damn lost life course im afraid kill myself im sure else do father hates me mother abandoned dont friends guess want make sort note make sure people know sorry know fault im sorry wasted  years everyones life couldnt make proud hell know im going scared anyways going work