 anything like  im going surviveevery nye ends crying bathroom im afraid face next year year worse ever  truly awful part think ive living undiagnosed mental illness whole year dont resources get help it getting worse every day feel like im point life growing moving new things getting mature im stuck am hopelessly running place finished aa community college fall ended take semester hopes getting control mental health working save money decide majorcareer want go for university attend move semester passed ill wait fall havent accomplished things needed to im stuck here  years old still living parents working  hrswk idea go little hope ever getting better happy new year guess