simply floating life lithe inconsequential object people mostly ignore whim moan tremble shake bit much them become invisible suffering deeply nearly decade now admit many problems stem self instead muster feels like herculean willpower personal strength both have suicide genuinely seems like better option sickening utilitarian conclusion thoughtlessly turned personal mantra dissect shortcomings already do people life grown tired bored disgusted frightened finally seal residual ties might still me stop drowning selfpity remove wretched existence like done years ago faulty logic know much pain right feels like thing do scum hate myself wish anymore much coward it pray sort cthonic entity one day muster yetunpossessed resolve find way end life tired all yet never seems end need stop feel like spectre