meim  people outside probably wouldnt able tell feel tbis way im glad want parents friends happy memorys  ive struggling depression since  got bullied lot school way looked really didnt many friends built terrible social anxiety  trust general skills  continued friends really  hit puberty people started talking cinfused now someone said glow stupid shit like people cheered depressed round year later started self harming harmed aroujfvweird plsces going gym lot time blamed scars stretch marks muscle growth continued  shit started kick started get really bad body dismorphia seeing ugly lump lard every tine looked mirror even tho im v good shape ik still look mirror look fat weird im  im confused  body gross scars ive started lose hair due genetics meds slow give awful side affects cant take tbink final straw tured going gym eating healthy still slightly chubby im unhappy everything pillows stained tears every night im tired feeling way used worry parents would react im sorry love people love mental pain much im suffering live even pass life