ive thoughts time nowso basically figured fucked actually known long time im  years old im kind trippy sometimes drugs did cannot connect anyone world longer first encounters time biggest fear im tired rising falling time whole family fucked up dad one really think highly about time made fucking stupid decisions bothers sweeps stuff rug never address even though weighs conscience everyone elses well love still know hes shit im battling serious addiction considering throwing away  months sobriety getting fucked regain myself ive recurring thoughts drinking bottle jack jumping coronado bridge would quick painless maybe even fun drunk enough anyway im fighting really hard stay shit created myself man mental load tough even super young age know stuggling survive whole life dropped high school make worse cant even make fucking friends problems prevent letting anyone in weird fucking ability shut people mid sentence even saying anything let tell worst like scared little bitch head fucker constantly battling out way bitch gone im physically exerting myself slow march back battle relax come conclusion maybe purpose physical person  damn thats want be powers let anything else idk fucking strange world man vibes connect even stranger sometimes want out honest feel sense melancholy happiness think death already sime great songs play wake bring tears joy id rather go young real become old sell die really saying going happen soon kind profound epiphany next year so think im fucking out get chest guys probably favorite sub next rdrugs raskreddit love input lot olease pass words anyone relate struggle love guysltand galsgt 