symptoms depression past  years  fluctuated severity  despite  furthest gone counsellor recently think sick sad low  want feel happy i appointment lined psychologist september as sit  sleepless restless like every night past  years cannot wait day  finding answer lifes burden happiest day life  diagnosis also allow treat symptoms  look forward  cannot wait confident cannot wait understood cannot wait able sleep cannot wait happy cannot wait love againi cannot wait able raise bar moodit late apologies rambling  always wanted tell somebody much look forward finally getting official diagnosis cure misery  thank read  hope resonate way day look forward