know became person recognize all know old went want happy again trying hardest so know became cold hearted care anyone gone one day without smoking weed way feel happy smoking became problem outlet way making happy things make happy question problem everyone life even said so know got point eat anymore hardly care appearance anything general know committed suicide yet unhappy life anything do make better trying emotionally physically try happy try things make happy temporarily last ill ever temporarily happy gone know change tried everything could outgoing push outside comfort square yet work know anymore someone one recognizes someone hardly recognize one way another know ever going get better probably end committing suicide like actually want die want live like anymore even recognize anymore