help exists peoplei really want scream feel like kitty genovese right now lot people know im suicidal care people see write disturbing things facebook wall scroll nothing real friends family dead years hate strangers say take life youll hurting people around you hurting who demand know four years battling cancer one person visited hospital one person accompanied doctors appointment real friends would isolate like this caring people act im sick world cant stand everyone like this reached hundred redflag prevention organizations refused help me respond gave  redflag prevention hotline thats always jammed actually get arent helpful rush you goes  crisis text line many organizations accept huge donations makes wonder money going cant help personally direct one number text line god feel helpless im trying hard getting anywhere contacted organizations different states got touch many facilities insurance nothing psychiatrist offices called longer accepting patients many places booked  give number given hundred times really isnt fair past helped friends breakups abusive relationships helped financially car payments rent utilities vet expenses everyone now didnt help expect something return im really im really needing helping hand black hole one help me dont know anymore reach out im lost im much panic world uncaring cruel help seems exist people everyone wheverer forum social media site page post would see others similar situation reaching help ignored many people ended life proof everywhere people ignore it ask didnt give us warning place choose turn way thousands redflag awareness pages useless actual redflag person comes along make excuse theyre spreading awareness help people guy different country posted wanted carry shooting women ignored bullied school facebook nothing got automated doesnt violate guidelines message im sure posting make difference want keep trying maybe one person listen able help me want help desperately