tired wanting give upi anyone talk to im posting guess im exhausted mentally physically im transgender started hrt alternative redflag couple months ago feel bit better cant help wonder im ever going happy ive longed death past  years ive lost track number times tried end all know longing ever disappear thinking fact itll someday kind relieving besides feel like everyone wants us die anyway people tend actively encourage deaths even rejoice it wants live world theyre welcome anyway ive always felt like unwanted belong even child ive accepted im trans even so feel like late try fix life longer enjoy anything im longer capable anything myself life left broken im already way past expiry date ive set date birthday way grieving dates overlap im even sure ill able hold then im actually strong enough it