ive seen enoughim using throwaway case work time ive tried  times last  months cant even right took pills booze woke puked whiskey shitty cheap brand got drunk started slash wrists passed wound bleeding lot got lightheaded blood loss back yard tried also tried jumping river near asshole good samaritans asshole boat pulled even though struggled many things gone wrong lately job loss miscommunication gas company resulting gas shut yesterday straightened supposed back mondayso good wife son bankruptcy loss house couple years ago move rented shithole thing totally fucked brain shitty story brought wifes friends daughter christmas eve hate christmas anyway story something eaten away every minute every day since anyhow son going college hes got shit together wife beautiful guys way better hitting theyll like sharks circling couple days theyll fine mother still fucked fathers death couple years ago impacted that one knows give shit im feeling whiskey right im going go dig stash oxy