im suicidal really fucking beat sadi met girl playing online game  years ago knew moment heard voice one wanted with took  years met available even close position want date again  years later year engaged dropped me quit job gave college put focus making happy bad person resent her planned whole life around us im unemployed missed  years college im alone im emotional person every imgur story sappy youtube video sets off cant stop crying want sleep forever decent job interview today hopefully things turn around want someone know im ok think im ever going ok waited right person got thrown away