had depression since  started seriously wanting die since turned  im tired everyday time feel alright im fall asleep family idea downside ending feel would ruin future decembers family really dont know im typing this im tired living see reason anymore depression started school rejection stress added it tried drop school try get metal state right parents wouldnt allow getting worse read back sorta seems like im lying oh well guess jus hope strength actually end time comes everyone reads this thinking redflag dont it may sound unfair tell im gonna  time theres better way deal problems good luck everyone hope live long great lives