getting muchive battling depression since early age still live family also happens abusive ive chronically ill years completely turned life around trapped room left house least  years lost friends result sickness continue school anymore cant work even online friends slowly distancing know anymore person seems still care talks ex seeing someone else cant really bugging issues still see love life also hurts much seeing new girlfriend looked around basement see could find rope luckily find one want alone tonight nobody ever keep company anymore life becoming hard me