finished writing last words time eventually comesive dealing thoughts  years gotten point dont even feel happiness sadness anymore havent told anybody know due deep rooted trust issues fear telling secrets fear burden others definitely cant tell parents im even sure tell friends want able confide someone close honestly think possible demons mind cloudy right honestly want let win point im confused empty lonely right now even though good people life dont think anybody truly lean give shoulder cry on end day dont think commit soon as im still young thought always mind feel like one day thoughts end consuming me