so really feel like writing big long post moment think saw someone else this imma points rather proper sentences such feel like atrocious friend never around people much used be also never know talk friends anymore like share interests anymore way cannot talk anymore work plus also think trying really hard improve myself never really seems make much difference second start actually trying always late rules put place make effort useless anyways plus feel safe room makes feel kind pathetic feel safe even anything bad really great parents genuinely hurt way shape form time bit edge like  morning know fact everyone asleep cannot really anymore stayed late messed up cannot stay later  besides sleep schedule getting pretty bad probably best even want things used make happy anymore tired drawing tired writing tired minecraft tired sing going therapist literally everything supposed to honest be something new always pops halfway week always looming redflag helped like all sometimes tired even try talking people shut down read crappy fanfiction bed hours get eat make happy even honestly tired everything close giving caring