lost someone redflagthis lot less urgent many posts definitely encourage others getting helped anyones got extra time id love help grief last morning goodbye online friend left commit redflag her life always exhausting untrustworthy place warped perspective world people really hard time opening all trusting anyone ever hated family one reason another recall unfairness household lot could also assumptions family like truly care things basically putting trust anyone worst death her words though trusted couple people bit more one them considerate person despite problems certainly nice wary cautious wanted get know figured itd take time though talk much could still around id end going without responding think proper roleplay post running fumes rp chose get back later though cant help regret spending time her never figured real name disgusted reason figured push it never figured lived call police stop it convincing talks feel guilty like try hard enough save her could do online friend much possible guilt lifted grief stopped constant crying fit day night grief still hurts lot ive never deal loss friend like this made worse open chat application look ghost account sitting contacts recent chats want delete either feel would hurt even worse even long run know deal grief comes back hits like truck im deathly afraid bad pain would feel lost someone even closer well hurts bad already sorry long drawn story there referred another reddit sought sort help manic state depression saying guys handle people suicidal coping loss redflags such sorry fully true im wasting text space need help dealing intense episodes pain regrets