im really done lifenow understand if any people reading post might wonder happened get point really wanting optout life ill real you whole lot abuse stopped whatever never got help that got extremely suicidal around ish years ago never got help that family kinda toxic sometimes whos isnt nothing extremely terrible like close family member dying anything im pretty lucky way life food roof head mostly supporting family im sure talked would help me etc etc etc im rambling now post sorta last ditch effort something im sure point kinda wanna talk someone dont know who really dont want talk family dont know point feel like im limbo calm storm makes sense dont know end post im gonna remind kind people wash hands