whats pointim sure common question here wanna kill myself find lack answers depressing everyone rushes wake up go work exercise fill time somehow whats point activities useful thought last weeks would lottery honestly know would buy bunch shit guess go bunch places actual seconds day would occupied way many would spend luxurious vacation walking around meals used drink would make happy good get hangovers now sustainable happiness how believe anything point world palm hand would probably still watch tv want eat fuck sleep thats all whats point anymore im  ive seen much world think want see see realize want live least care living shit composted recycled keeps getting refined wanna die ive lost live im afraid im gonna get scared something impulsive