im aloneim worthlessim uselessi dont know startim sorry im place im currently  years agei wish died earliermy life gone downhill last yearsive much pain cant take anymore always feel lonelysaddepressedsuicidalit even gone far cutting myselfi feel hopelessi feel like never able achieve dreamsno one ever love everyone forget ive alone since childhoodive never make good friends never talked anyone biggest regret lifewhenever im pain dont get share anyoneno one makes feel betterpeople made fun im awkardim scared express feelings mindive tried make friends left bullied foght meeveryoneliterally everyone makes fun meim going downhill studiesi always get low grades always scolded parentsi even thought killing beforeim sorry try escape sadness life sitting near computer screen mobile phonewhenever taken away instantly get depressed get jealous sick people got enjoy childhood stuck alone hell yearsnot shown hope ive really gaming since childhoodthere barely day havent gamedit kept happy alive long timewhen saw utubers esporters instantly started like wanted big thembut ive taken away things fucking burns me im unhealthy havent went outside weeksim scared talk peoplei dont even know drive cyclei want stay home im writing bed phone crying wanting cut againwhy see hell young agewhy couldnt life better like otherswhy one ever try talk metry understand pain make feel better feel worthless nowim useless worldi mistakei born sufferno one happy meno one ever love looseri forever alone bet might laughing storybut u experienced understand much pain life really is done shitty lifei might try kill monthsi always sufferi never achieve dreami pain everyonea waste humanity wish someone could help memy happiness deadmy hope deadmy innocence deadmy love dead get ready see another redflag story news thats sayi never talked nowyou dont look deep cause im looser anywaysanyone still livingyou still changeyou still happyyou still enjoy life failedand failures dont deserve live goodbye everyone 