cant iplease let die please let die please let die please let die please let die please let die please want stop thinking stop please let die stay alive alive born never fucking asked please give permission die tell okay tell im useless piece shit never amount anything theres way could fucking want want breathe want eat disgust stop stop stop stop stop please tell need admit hate want acknowledge im right please stop torturing look like smile stop stop stop stop stop fucking stop say like never thought dying understand like say straight need help need pity fucking tell im worthless admit want look want see see anything think anything need anything stop go away leave alone fucking come back tell get hell house reason think stop thinking stoooooooooooooooooooooooooop fuck tldr im orphaned unemployed high school dropout hates worthless friends want anything get white girl wasted every single day isolated everyone liked bother them im left dying grandfather unbelievably understanding supportive call like trash am im pampered little brat always been ive always given anything want much freedom  neighbor would play doctor her would take turns lying bench backyard inspecting others genitals good days turns longer hated inspection table hated would prod pull choice cant say friends  mother found moved away newer suburban complex nice enough started making friends school friends live close smart responsible child theres way i could get trouble so packed yugioh cards gameboy backpack headed beating sun play newest bestest friend ever half way there walking house noticed man tip box spill seemed like thousands millions yugioh cards wouldve hard clean himself man visually grief stricken naturally goody goody asked needed help hollow pits charred face lit up mouth opened smile seemed shine bright sun oh could please feel free help to gonna sell anyway score him course feel sick someone tell fault tell deserved everything got tell im supposed miserable everyone else happy go ahead tell me hell born