one wish would turn back timeto start whole life told society man talk feelings make seem weak ive bottled hard talk about want go much detail reason would turn back time loved care free smart child tons good friends amazing life around  period time life began go hill involved serious accident hit car almost died like say like needle injecting virus would slowly eat away life grades dropped school although friends stuck high school drove away thought good decision reason pride dose allow talk anyone either want hurt want know truth caring not virus spread past would try fight seems like fight left me top tell dad disappointed lived potential knew said nothing make tell him might make much sense read way brain allow get chest sure delete later someone could tell would much appreciated thanks