months ago started feeling anything again thought would eventually feel again even though started feeling things again feel like bloqued again mean feel like superficial thingsfeelings cannot make deep conection things example love listening music still enjoy listening music enjoy melodies cannot connect lyrics even hear songs used deep meaning me like cannot deep feelings basic feelingsalso like missing times misserable deeper shit know good healthy miss worst time beacuse could feel deep way also life total flatness nothing happens something different happens cannot feel different keep going like nothing mattersand another thing happening longer want goor better person like givng beign better everytime longer care used think better person better stuff would come life actually gets worse sometimes want give fuck everything around me tired everything still cannot feel enough reconsider suicide seriously unsensitive cannot even get courage reconsider suicide again cannot get sad ot angry enough think iti know becoming worst person fighting hide it know bomb eventually exlplode know problems accept people menthal problems problems know cannot control it know do cannot thinkit like knew doomed become shitty dude bojack character like him fewling even weird