bought rope tied noose angry everythingi posted couple times mind changed one bit returning trip got sick spent whole week bed able muster energy kill myself now however bought rope learned tie noose prepared towels wrap around neck make whole ordeal least little less uncomfortable today ill go woods scout good secluded tree tomorrow night go it closer get angrier become become worlds biggest loser poeces shit get happy successful broken alone others get fulfilled ive depressed long wasted whole god damn life cant live shame loneliness pain anymore fuck everything everyone