pretty alt girl piss vodka suicidal ideation goodbyeim drunk ignore typos hi im  yo female im supposedly pretty play varsity sports guys like me get decent grades rich white suburban family yeah life looks fucking perfect people know im completely fucked first attempt  makes sick im dependant substances self harm go hour without thoughts redflag recent full attempt couple months ago school month going intenssiv therapy yet one knew cared want get better im comfortable way am ive manipulated everyone trust males might love someone ive never met irl using fulfill manic pixie dream bitch ideals need way cant this got genetic testing could get perfect balance meds skip obviously intoxicated piss colored vodka took air bnb parents think im good christian girl brother thinks im whore reality im piece shit reason sad telling redit issues deheheheh montana air bnb meds alc common attempt super cute dad hits mother thinks im slut brother disappointed overall im private school turned public whore daddy issues will fucked ask myself blame chemical imbalance brain deserve live nobody know im except scary reddit fucks almost everyone thinks im sober clean liver thighs say different pretending poetic fucking cringy piss brb okayy tonight know im addict like autopsy sum need cant take fucking summer hope mfs pretend friends funeral laugh un known life im pretty alt girl never peaked hope future want kids family also want make past  think could ever loved keep talking holy shit im drunk cant even tell cry help want rn honestly find funny cant even get  full send redflag attempts right like bruv thas extra dissapointingbut yeah please kys thats good truly love love humanity love indivdual self im allowed go tho