 itwhats purpose go school get job get wife kids grow old die death catches us matter amazing life live ive suicidal thoughts since like  im senior year college least another  ahead grad school want pediatric occupational therapy work special needs population whats fucking point family friends dropping left right healthiest people know getting cancer scummiest dwellers continue succeed really see purpose life anymore whole life ive pushed idea away family would heartbroken fuck cares anymore selfish act theres little ones home theyd get it work go numerous times week live fulfilled life seems utterly pointless maybe im missing something here many honestly say waste time energy look stars night helps realize fucking irrelevant one us bigger picture