goddamn brainhow possible start creating game plan make harvard seriously consider downing everything medicine cabinet twenty fucking minutes seriously fed messed head easy opening skull draining depression juice id start drilling holes immediately wouldnt mind blowing brains right now thats tired roller coaster emotions feel like strapped rocket missing tail fin control takes practically nothing send spiral parents child whenever reach dont give shit im pretty sure friends lives would pretty unaffected died im smart im talented im reasonably attractive bunch really desirable traits privileges so why fuck cant i just livewhy cant ok one take seriously say need goddamn help hard give validation im crazy im functional doesnt mean im okay want die badly want curl outside someplace pretty fall asleep never wake up