gun usehow idk loldont know else post nonjudgmental im home alone rn college sitting front dads guns safe unlocked usually kinda dumb part considering ive antidepressants awhile lmao silly dude anyway know load anything probably today idk one easier useless painful someone could help me looked smith amp weston mampp ruger mkiii know means ill able use yeah im kinda worried im going botch bc ive never used gun feel like would luck make vegetable something still live im staring right lol