far away place stood wondering whether be right journey led me place sought long time then feel accomplished sacrifices made worth presence here choose wrong way herethis place wonderful truly is feels wrong thinking going back feels even worse belong belong anymore goal finish line fool planning beyond that really does even sure going therecan continue without certainty get better allowed feel sad paradise offence stayed behind cheering me betraying past self fulfilling expectations head mess right now day passes know losing self doubt grief darknessi tired tired beating myself want ask help i happy not short text wrote month ago where now