sorry longi cannot anymore ever since pandemic started cannot anything international student whose countrys borders closed stuck apartment roommates moved out sent kind crazy places always lockdown barely social interaction since stuck country pay rent know cook little money used quickly also starving many times got addicted weed edibles multiple times week home myself help cope used twice month smoker best social gatherings could never schoolwork mental state in even borders reopening getting vaccinated fly little late withdrawn program due government scholarship contract cost parents barely money name pay offi seriously want stop existing know people say your friends family would sad personally see purpose continuing life feels want suffer anymore hate covid