expensive liveive overdosed know wont kill me dream dying slide consciousness next  hours life getting harder harder dont know im meant keep going health insurance going minimum month april im australia health insurance must appropriate inpatient mental health care rent going week may moving somewhere cheaper means wont able access public transport even socially isolated physical health isnt improving looks like im collecting chronic illnesses every year im alive none cure treatment manage symptoms theres guarantees ive already rejected appealing ndis disability support would fucking amazing electric wheelchair would mean leave house independently try build kind life im stuck home small collapsible mobility scooter allows get local shops further im disability never increases cost living quit work year ago became unwell work manager simply chose give shifts im done dont think ever meant alive long  redflag entirely logical solves many problems cant otherwise solve