think enough want prove point redflaga couple months ago made post explained therapy working  years trying well think im officially done week ago went drinking drank much could attempt black out thats time im apparently suddenly extroverted awesome well work instead threw panic attack middle street friend call ambulance course hour painful experience ambulance came bawling want end life try something different change doctors confirmed nothing change itll wasted money came home simply talked friend nothing matters suddenly time people care famous person commits redflag even then educated mental illnesses suddenly people blame victim selfish reason become better musician right literally commit redflag ever get following send message also thought days redflag blogvlog type thing see everyone takes time censors gets defensive aggressive post daily updates yeah kind thing one lose life would me think thats last way fun end life confirmation lacking mental health department could make things come or maybe not others confirmation id really like see amount inactive profiles posted subreddit comparison subreddits