piece rope becoming seductivei fucking hate household live always felt alienated life dad biggest narcissist douche ever displeasure meeting hes norwegian mom korean gave job move norway raise sister thing life keeps killing cannot bear think would react found corpse dad fucking ungrateful prick calls korean animal done anything life hobbies lot needs provided mother even though uses little money savings dad hand always complained money would never financially assist interests hes also estranged two children exwife uncle aunt his siblings cant stand thats never see families anymore hell family consisting mother sister father fucking toxic want get away cant cant get away grades poor made worst decision life two years ago picking ib programme two years mental torture forced university level schoolwork naive enough think would suit me several mental breakdowns lead handing assignment plagiarized suspended  days even that contact teacher student meeting got comments teachers performance one teacher anything positive say me told lazy would essentially never amount anything still many deadlines point even think graduate highschool days ago bought thick piece rope hold hands feel glowing almost trying talk me cant stand anymore feel trapped hopeless reached breaking point wake everyday stressed whats next beginning lifes journey intentions experiencing rest thing look forward exit world finally peace