ive preparing kill self month so things freak things today left thinking otherwiseso today sat run car parking spot trying get head sleep car pulled right never turned radio down made impossible sleep next side old guy pulled up really old kept playing radio eventually sat up tired acted like guys old bloke right chilling car park abouy  minutes two hours old guy left started hating people again even started googling phone people like rats thats felt then fell asleep woke noticed nice cars behind one bloke looking me thought time go turned ignition nothing dull click againi started hate humans again seen get old feller get merc smile face heard ignition fail car park came pappa john pizza driver reason said along shot mate jump leads would you cut along story short car running life thanks guy suicidal earlier thoughts humans rats true saved today somone earns nothing shrugged somone earns somthing