im going see favorite band end august think im donemy favorite band slipknot coming hometown august rd im fortunate enough opportunity see friend day passes however ill really nothing left live look forward to going wait till halloween favorite holiday even doesnt seem worth anymore ive struggling major depressive disorder suicidal thoughts almost  years never worse recently make money job  good friend others dont go school im dumb girl like going away college doesnt want relationship thinks school would get way figured seeing favorite band perform one last time would perfect memory go on anyways im sorry long read thank stopped read it means lot