going jump bridge tomorrow morningi tired join us navy last year failed got sent home basic training  family hates torments everyday call disgrace say  year old living home parents cant get job anywhere cant even get interview mcdonalds walmart people call lazy job trying get one friends hang stuff with life consists sitting computer day playing games talking people online desperate attempt form human interaction car drivers licence going community college studying computer science but looking least three years get associates longer anyone else want transfer university know fact money that even did stupid horrible math means take extra math courses hence talking longer everyone else get degree girl love loves someone else texts shes hard time wants fix it going tomorrow walk around city try find high enough point like building bridge jump land grass water want land cement rocks posted months ago get lot replys post go buried ended talking everyday like torture wanted leave record even though one knows here