see point familyi never understood family never close like people are feel family limitation oh talk auntunclecousinmother like that ive never close family guess never clicked them feel family bond lot people talk put frank find annoying unnecessary memories mom yelling me telling im failuredevils child crying hard life is life hard love every time try talk back says you cant yell yell you right im mother crappy bullshit answer she actually says that finds reasons yell say brother tells complain much think complain much else do family gave physical needs survive give enough mentalpsychological needs dad know english gets bullied mom lot feel sad him hes good dad thinks things logically hes nice cousins people get along ill seeing rest life everyone else think main problem mom cant wait get life maybe ill start grateful miss start remembering good times ive instead thinking worst emotional roller coaster mom feel like narcissistshe entitledegotistical guilt trips carer cant anything it claims better think make feel better treating me recently forced program said opening doors me quit because want told to gets mad consulting her forces back says i changed mind anymore finalized everything program actual fuck cant fucking take mental abuse anymore want end im scared die efforts successful go absolute waste destined fail matter good grades matter hard ive tried reason is end life hand one day