like im even here staysometimes feel like invisible man maybe invisible right word people see acknowledge superficial level think anyone really cares me friends brush mention declining mental health youll fine gotta wait out ive waiting  years depression go away  years suicidal thoughts go away like theyd even miss im gone talk text call first mostly asking anyone wants hang almost never way around laugh joke happy wallow room waiting day finally free misery already know im gonna crash car hopefully itll enough gotta get courage first really sucks growing realizing many people care others yet one cares you one asks im got depression despite fact called best friend known years talks really bad times never follows up never hey man doing nope always move ignore emotional kid always whines fuck one cares anyways