cheated on go oni want go depth gave senior year high school freshman year college life pride joy promised shed never leave always love me spent last month relationship cheating me ended hearing people official guy cheating now feel bad gave back dead dads bible held hand funeral even thank back even though said deserve back cheated me one sees wrong everyone says nothing wrong destroys gave two years life crash like  entire emotional investment place put feelings gone one understood depressed could important me much lifted hell before invited broke easter ive never depressed ive tried picking even better diet diligent exercise working sorting mind out give up ive tried two weeks still feel shitty myself getting better really want try anymore previous pleasures life enjoyable anymore usually go days time without eating people ive reached even listen anymore one does im really done pain im finding way one way another one person made feel okay life left worst possible way want out