really like someone suicidal thoughts meaningless relationshipim  year old guy last year ive gradually come really like girl ive working seeing everyday gotten know well always got impression unhappy popular girl lot extroverted friends goes lot them however seems introverted gives impression cold which think is decided tell felt long time want make working awkward also ended getting back ex bf half way work placement together end placement decided would tell felt hope honest could find happy not ends telling suicidal thoughts certain days really considered commiting redflag also said believed true happiness exist said boyfriend thats way things were thats placed subsequently tried getting talk it told whilst night out wanted talk face face day ended seeing every week next month two nights out conversation would take place eventually told text wanted see following afternoon id wait outside clock tower nearby live would understand turn up ended waiting rain hour turn up saw weeks later night out said needed time think month since then think going get back me problem is told  people this said one them friend treated like weirdo suicidal thoughts her bf really anything it hoping would get better im assuming so continue pursue this seeing one else knows trying talk herhelp her let go try move on considering reluctant talk also feelings her tldr girl like suicidal thoughts told two people helped them reluctant talk it stay try help leave it