lied myselftwo weeks ago ready give myself im sure decided talk friend see doing asked was told situation suggested see therapist least tell family first week class started feel wear throughout day decided tell brother did promised would call psychiatric department hospital see could get appointment available school hours decided it lady talked real nice told call morning want appointment see free day never called back guess since always kinda like always something ive getting worse barely sleep every day seems less less good idea call happens take medication different be different feel every day mind right now hard remember stuff know like would want do barely drive finish high school im sure part would better suited cant tell like one person mind trying cling onto anything make smile