ive come really dark place lifei even know begin college started back top full time studentry work  hours week pay drumline takes entire fri sat sun moment spare time except last days ive cooped apartment got wisdom teeth out ive abusing pain meds night last overdosed cut wrists call health center one pill left weeks various dental procedures im scared use ill out girlfriend knows seem care likely understand little young really many friends im introverted going never seems appeal staying  even though crave social life know go here feel alone edit girlfriend came back town early bits pieces post involve im going open presence suddenly stop responding worry pm im sure im going get day thank reddit  edit  half depressionanxiety came anticipation telling girlfriend rapedlast night told her response say boys cant raped break me feels bad manthink talked point know