trying find reason keep goingbut everything failing give hope get better quit job again job starting th still need income till then yes ive tried therapy yes ive tried meds yes ive tried drugs home remedies too yes dr knows sees regular basis im loss cant find anything motivates try something new mostly cant think anything new try ive either tried make sense backed science anyone something completely box try im happy hear it give shot point would try lobotomy offered anymore nothing life interests anymore none hobbies even pets even love life anymore im tired done