tonight  year old end life hes metonight kill myself probably hanging past  years incredibly depressed going phases happiness last day feel depressed like week think fat ugly stupid etc could go dont care anymore approaching one stressful parts life gcses recieve support parents get negative reinforcement makes feel shit myself sister constantly tells much hates even  apart friendship group school despite dont feel like friends them none talk outside school always feels like tagging along talk many times fucked would night always make little snipe comments life gave trust issues lives would better without feel like never liked one friend talk feel knows feel depressed suicidal feel like put much stop needing someone talk to kill problem told english teacher feel lovely understood situation feel guilty tell whole truth like parents suicidal feelings arranged meeting school counseler me great aswell focused future problem rather present feel like really care noucence ive horrible love life first relationship like year  understand fully still partially bullied it second lasted  weeks broke tried cheat friend time asked  girls got rejections friends tease this whenever talk girl think want them hate this feel like never find love feel like bad person think made last voice reason last couple days something snapped voice gone im going kill myself today even bad day school wrong things happened wrong time snipe comments usual said english teacher really needed talk badlyi going tell feel suicidal told come dinner time got there there afterschool finish coursework stopped looked classroom say anything maybe said something like are okay tonight may different read this thank you needed get chest die try change mind want  sure im going this pain much