feeling bad bc teen redflags around meokay basically im freshman dont know like ive suicidal thoughts since sixth grade two attempts january girl school committed redflag really didnt like talked shit constantly died cried two days im still like  months later feel guilty feel like fault death made suicidal thoughts way worse exactly month died second attempt since long ive started feel little better like pain started wear even though still think every day last night found girl school near committed redflag two days ago lots kids school knew posting links funeral fundraiser didnt even know existed still feels awful hasnt affected much girl since didnt know also wasnt bitch alive feel like set back little makes sense