matterall make mistakes bad events life fault friends really care this family talk as im nazi secret abortion little secret girlfriend boyfriend im ugly manage convince every day look ok feel ok amp ok always amazed event something works me hate myself everything illusion  minutes ill feel fine go back fuck it im even really depressed im happy day im cheerful night play video games friends im depressed im overreacting still going post fucking care anymore never really did power anything like think ill stand amp take it will sincerely hope everyone alive today feels pain must try bully harass me wont theyll killed themselves want like anymore means being