pain made horrible endi writing last night realized words someone tell someone going kill yourself one ever loved you selfish horrible was answered im glad die words love head im sure hell right end become memory im glad know least ill good one im lucky hes wonderful deserve im glad understood cant go pain made promise blame himself ever ive waiting find perfect moment hang get interrupted im scared want hear voice forever echoing head want call wont already unfair horrible him imagine hes best thing ever happened me scary want pain go away wish could take away cant cant love cant cure cancer cant cure mental illness either im scared want pain anymore please want anymore