first generation parents stayed together religious reasons lot emotional physical abuse typical think lot first gen suffer like this adult trouble emotionally stable feel helpless feelings depression takes over know cannot change past difficulties making adult friends limited allowed friends over parents fought family even family connection limited dad always angry came room yelling useless was realize idk people people think weird tiered hard time human crave emotional connection it used think everything religiously embedded me always doubting god exist life pointless hard stay positive idk life anything doctorly failure parents foreign parents wanting kids doctors started therapy  sessions right away wanted put antidepressants tried it worst idk call it started taking anti depressants like life die sleepy time stopped want anti depressants need something idk what desperate late night vent thanks reading needed venting source