dark placeim real dark place right now want pain stop feeling hopelessness go away feel like world falling apart cant stop it yesterday got huge fight husband partially fault escalated suffers borderline personality disorder took kids left talked im home still tension today oldest acting bullying brothers punished spanking sent room looked venom told hated me later came gave hug said sorry heart still hurts feel like im failing marriage children best good enough depression anxiety im trying cope stopped taking pills made brain feel foggy im sorry im rambling im sitting bed bottle pills want go sleep