thinking overdosing escape tremendous stress get school relationshipbecause covid classes conducted online somehow assignment load also increased months literally spend  hours every day work projects really stressing im stuck home couldnt much make matter worse boyfriend currently working overseas  hours difference knows able return due prevailing situation recently feel like emotionally distanced take  days reply wait another day attempted call twice miss company didnt pick call back feel shitty could overbearing communication maybe thats avoiding me loss him dont know take another hit especially one made believe love again exes trashes im feel like messed life really seek want end life overdosing sedatives painless swift however cowardice also makes worry death would affect loved ones really need help