fucked bigtime actually started  months ago started dating current girlfriend around then problem meth could stay away long time end least month even though really fucking hate stuff first asked told recovering addict asked problem it said stay away her felt like maybe girl would able help finally quit good course  months dating though ended getting high noticed every time last night told somebody sold day got high could tell coming downi kind feel like killing now feel like ruined life know meth ruined mine best friend  year old girl too best friend ends getting curious ends know gonna fault told tell best friend young impressionable fucking meth dealers sell almost anybody think happen im gonna shoot myself know damn sure im never gonna touch shit now ive already ruined friend mines life introducing back first started years ago really cares about think could live guilt fucked up