im hating existenceso ive finally decided share im feeling someone thats why am trying write story life things really hard lately even know start pardon messy so really hate parents im really angry cant even explain feeling parents want join family business im really interested in try telling wanna something else tell im good daughter might kill someday continue behaving way fact never even asked want life think life decide makes worse im basically feeling trapped like ive got way here even let go higher studies worst part never saved money higher studies want hurt parents running away something lets get real matter what always need support even want puppet parents listening every single order feel suffocated sometimes thinking theres way out like ill trapped forever seriously feel like life worth living all know do far see think ever change future