motivation anymore kill kill kill meive anxiety long remember depression diagnosed awhile back though maybe   years ago dont feel right anymore tried get help awhile took medicine regularly saw consoler years everything fallen apart medicine gave side effects got scared stopped taking later gained fear taking pills consoler moved another office one insurance didnt cover slowly lost friends friend my girlfriend broke couple months ago said break call two months later decided could never romantically already someone new feels like nobody barley shower get bed anymore cause everything grades terrible im stupid get anything right im talentless passion life used enjoy reading sometimes doodling get mad feel sad mad everyday feel like im going freak punch something hate shitty school consoler hate teachers think im lazy hate mom thinking im lazy im mad mad mad mad mad feel like punching face days feel utterly lonely someone kill