know happenedi know say right now life changed completely cant handle it ive receiving treatment depression since teenager im  ive accomplished nothing started working  quit  mental health started college quit halfway degree approved social security disability shortly that leave house unless see doctor friends acquaintances none three years ago realized much loneliness affecting life posted reddit ended meeting guy life changed meeting him wanted things future got along really well ended meeting person months talking fell love broke week ago were still contact daily still love other still wants work improving life see well said needs time important things needs buy car wants look buying home recently nightmare situation landlord really things doubt thats real reason ending dated teenager early s different anyone ive before made feel loved improving life without even realizing made feel great met showering month good place light brought life just indescribable taking care myself showering daily chores around places going shopping going eat running errands everything normal people do made want better person life improving much doctor noticed mom noticed knew mental health problems support gave always perfect cant handle emotions right im scared thoughts heading ive miserable half life three years pure happiness suddenly taken away without warning warning coming person life whole support system want die broke me much that many things cant put words like im heading need help feel losing live every day everything taken away me least met him idea real happiness was idea missing gone energy try again feel like im capable handling this feel stupid thoughts feel like able handle mutual breakup im adult much breakup gave much strength fight depression work myself im left dealing depression heartbreak know fault putting much trust another person need help im close giving