mean parents trigger suicidal thoughtsive therapy year used safe persons call struggling six months later removed dad im considering removing mom list sticking friends family really trust im grateful ive learning manage depression recent relationship parents getting rocky starting bring lot old behaviors remember showing kid didnt give sense privacy would look diary outed teen want come yet get angry little things last night little brother trouble falling asleep stressed crying put top bunk calm mom found put full blame ruining months worth progress dont believe anything tell anymore make really hurtful comments view character body thats triggers most havent thoughts redflag months twice week havent even wanted talk stuff like therapist im scared theyll somehow find call crazy tell im making stories up im still debating ever real figment overactive imagination know hurts heart bc force remember im im worthless make feel