really worth itthis may little long side hear young father source love great inspiration  business went mother divorced within month gone me brother mother living new house things went bad worse neglected most likely lack discipline part physical health declined rapidly also managed weasel way online schooli never left computer top this mother began dating again one day got serious physical fight one boyfriends cops got involved spent ten days juvy met people never forget abouteven tried release father stepped back decided way im living mother again sent therapeutic boarding school south carolina week destroying find me there met tons great people loved supported though family things began looking stay lost lot excess weight feeling better ever had three months given devastating newsi pulled could live new stepmom my dad point become cruise ship captain gone  time within week two plane heading away south carolina heading towards new jersey everything point seemed much grayer life network support vanished eyes lush foresty environment swapped decaying walls concrete even time think it new stepmother was words possible bitch second walked door see basically verbally announced hated would prefer life would fight constantly eventually words began sink in felt though annoyance flaw otherwise perfect design everything knew hometown friends gone heard much life would better everyone gone to thing holding onto point father kept contact via phone one day got mad yelling make work stepmom fault like that last support fell me wrote redflag note went bathroom grabbed razor blade anddid nothing much wanted die point bring it ripped note cried sleep later dad realized going work got another divorcei think still blames me left hometown start life fresh months plan figure everything time go work go planned ended drinking stupor every night without dads knowledge dwelling memories past year grades began fail quickly old demons arose going back old school time came go work plans made whatsoever currently grandmothers feel like future either way ive told every adult opened nothing ever gets better grow life gets worse well life come quickly im ready it become disillusioned world even see point getting anymoresome days wish balls it escape world problems it