took bunch sleep aid heres hoping dont wake upi guess long time coming nothing life makes sense life absolutely shitty day born ive fight battles one face living nightmare people arent meant alive want yeet longer find purpose drive so eyes open awful life really is born worst luck ever dont understand raped molested jobless almost  years dumped homeless exabused parent disowned family abused narcissistic ex coerced sex man ghosted lover told cant job medical marijuana card im looking possible homelessness future inability move roommate supposed move boulder colorado next year havent able find work trying doesnt seem helping all im lose lose situation feel meds working im tired brain keeps shuddering like flickering read type text theres pressure behind eyes think im getting headache dont understand universe thinks one person endure this note really dont want god comments leave god this dont believe dont put here thanks reading this maybe wont forgotten afterall