idea doback friends people care life haha ive suicidal day dont know feel like one cares me completely unfair like friend suicidal stayed bed day friends including me instantly went go help went bought food boyfriend helping parents drove go help everytime im suicidal like everyone looks way know wrong unfair compare shit friends none even try help one even checked me partner checked told suicidal said im sorry making fucking intensely upset like dont know feel like everyone wants dead doesnt take seriously dont know cant stop hitting cutting scratching want kill im scared dying dont know im tired alove cant die dont know die cant get help im gonna lose friends partner fail classes dont know im depressed im crying reddit dont even use reddit haha wow dont know