suicidal thoughts want die hurt myselfi thinknot sure begin here aha im new reddit im posting first time cause feel like need talk see anyone else gets all feel alone know do am another sleepless night me ive always suffered insomnia anxiety long remember aware mentally im great feel low make sense roof head loving family however small broken loving supportive boyfriend yet feels like constant shadow me brain feels clouded frank shop recently ive seriously questioning worth it struggle lot days especially recently get bed feel completely worthless useless life brain works as many experience constantly working drive negativity exhausting want stop stop want die want brain stop shit tonight nights really feels like much thoughts scare me realisation brain almost planning yourself deep know want die make sense anyone rambling sleep deprived nonsense