destined failure tragedy  mom dies im years old im beside dies pneumonia from breast cancer chemo   fail law school  years  debt age    got pregnant gave birth  months daughter dies  hours alive cousin age gave birth healthy baby notifying us already  months constantly cheated boyfriend coke heavily drank one even suspected pregnant true say happiest people oftentimes saddest ive told im funny witty really think thats coverup im sad lonely feel like evil woman using piggyback happy pain shes inflicting mealmost like scary movie sad endingone kill myself sit bathroom floor inlaws house cute lime green bodysuit ripped jeans numb legs tried therapist wanted refer psychiatrist instead give magical pills people told youre brave strong stop going big lifechanging scenarios fight smaller battles instead happy new year something bad happen year never easy win life