want die sleepsome nights go sleep hoping wake up would much easier wife family scar redflag easy too tonight one nights think would ever kill myself would gladly accept quick painless death sleep face big challenge tomorrow want anymore stressful year life things settling down something major wrong house im sure it contractor confirm morning material object yes last straw cant handle financial problems im tired problems tired struggling mental health issues wife dog loves me wider family love too jobs corona life really fucked addiction seems like problems people deal push edge easily one thing weigh us financially years hate alive more feelspointless ive lot live view third party plain old me want way devastate beyond normal death thanks reading