really know turn anymoreim i stable place call home since  moving around soon things start going well move next step plans better future everything falls shit ive rebuild life scratch nine times now say scratch mean thing name shitty phone clothes back im done always end way cant anymore im currently homeless penniless hungry sitting things life shitty car go mile without breaking down actually car cant even sell though cant afford insurance pos else there tried get another job guess what credit check recently got evicted apartment even get job fucking imaginary  digit bullshit number family friends go get back feet statecity live expensive even get job even pay get work point thats much time goals plan even motivation life keeps wanting give good ole fuck kick back stairs time im getting back up im stuck endless cycle ive dealing  years tried really every single day worthless shitty existence nothing became it failed every turn im tired yall strength keep every single time ive asked help ive always gotten bull oh ill pray you cant give up itll get better people keeps going on im asking help anymore cause anything im asking understanding difficult one person deal see people try day life get rewarded throwing towel sounds  times better going another  years this