sometimes wish id never born allhello everyone late night here life went downhill struggling heavy depression year ago absolute nightmare worst time life thought got it im much stable now turns wrong afraid coming back feeling yet am feel ashamed pitiful writing this really cant keep inside much longer theres nothing keeping anymore find happiness anything tried to ive tried see positives ive tried help people close me ive tried keep mind busy failed time education perspective future ill one remembered ill probably die nobody ive cutted myslef everyone strength write things led this painful me point wish quick death know ill never commit redflag im scared it enough courage so do im hopeless strength anything energy inside im waking every morning asking still here whats point living like thati hate past people suffered actions especially person cared about cant change ive done wish could disappear die disappear thanks giving timeand sorry grammar or any mistakes english first language nice day