want sea want drown peoplemy friend suicidal exhausting yes needs help support always expects get it talk parents get therapist call fucking hotline dump every fucking time really friends whod listen im starting understand why care cant deal practically week burning out even supposed tell him everything complains true yes one likes one cares whether live die exception people maybe yes fat ugly yes unable keep even stupid min wage job yes failing school yes life pointless meaningless theres nothing that sends pics gun tells brain going wall makes feel like hostage helpless afraid leave wants talk listen broken record story night till  am hes drunk enough pass out sleep  hours afford it hes unemployed give fuck school i hand wake  function well  hours sleep all think im reaching point soon burnt out tired sleepdeprived enough tell go it almost convinced would best option him anything improve situation change anything makes depressed cant care anymore chipping away remains sanity