know give upthree months ago got hyperacusis tinnitus panicanxiety disorder light sensitivityvisual disturbances shakingspasming attacks pains headfaceneck amidst general unwell symptoms following three days antibiotics xiflaxan neomycin attempt address digestive issues ive four years greatly worsened year ago worse a year ago weighed  weigh  unable sleep reflux also became much worse gave ativan sleep night im still  months later im sure fucking body more im stuck parents basement unable tolerate barely noise constantly discomfort ears ringing  ive diagnosed lyme disease say could reason everything im pretty sure ears damaged antibiotics iv ceftriaxone making debilitating hyperacusis tinnitus worse cant drive cant go outside cant anything except suffer discomfort basement day every day little hope antibiotics make better even benzo addictionwithdrawal get through state ears taken away chance really living again im trying hard give kill myself day  antibiotics ears hurt keep ringing harder day sign getting better give hope and understanding never going get better getting worse first im hopeless alone angry unfair happen me wanted able keep living life friends hobbies go out find right girl my gf broke week started im broken think fixed im stuck tiny ass town pasadena md parents basement alone wishing someone would come hug keep safe tonight im always alone keep fight thoughts cutting end picc line ending it even want call  help came every drive car hurts ears much more know do im trying hard give end it hope maybe sort recovery able live again feel hopeless alone much pain