almost  year anniversary im thinking sooner please help melast year march th  abuser left me werent abuser time well yes were favorite person loved lot woke morning message skype saying good bye need leave me removed contact im gonna go much detail almost day cried nonstop couldnt it person liked fucking left me then became abuser would want talk them would call names partner would literally describe wanted maim me wanted murder cold blood happened spam id say  months nightmares  happened turned  still going on attempted kill using childrens liquid ibuprofen remember taste it burning throat nothing happened though much shit happened want repress bad know fresh mind im panic attack cried sleep would cut oh god cutting remember total  cuts got home school one day incredibly unstable then earlier year got called everything   post one exfriends made tumblr said everything did every disgusting creepy thing did screenshots provided abuser friends boyfriend contributed post saying stuff ex stuff didnt want revealed stuff happy do people reblogged it saying oh god disgusting wrote redflag letter public saying would steal bottle robittusin drink night didnt it oh god memories oh god im fucking scared someone love leave march th year one week away want memories repressed bad im abuser im fucking abuser shit did fucking creepyass shit  unstable shit deserved it didnt i wrote fic drew art didnt care  didnt care ruined ruined ruined oh god im crying im crying im scared im fuckign scared please god exist let march th average day please dont let leave like dont desreve thus anymroe im trying hard survive im home alone could literally take one dads belts hang right second everything would finally over would finally everything ever would lead moment know wont affected theyll shrug theyll go oh well deserved it go life im crying im fucking scared didnt desreve time dont want dont want this please god help edit went throguh tumblr archives march  see could find anything th found face wnant throw also found posts exact time got ruined httpsgyazocombbdeedade