im sociopath kill continue hurt people destroy themlets face facts admit one truth people seriously deserve planet killed off people likes hitler instance admit that right people sociopathspsychopaths suffer serious mental disorders causes harm others person behind  etc people simply killed off thats true categorized one people and kill save others sorry long wall text but need get something chest and just idk cant handle anymore im going start recently go back just idk end anybody actually reads way guess  idk kill everything ive done past know theres rules mean people here need persons honest opinion like legitimately feel like im horrible person tell me know people keep telling im horrible feel horrible im even going defend actions list them honestly actions unforgiveable matter excuse was recently something extremely badly and well grandma cancer longer does extremely bad newsuh still cant admit happened far believe still hospital refuse visit cant see her yeah uh yeh hopsital yeah anyways ever since then fiance drifted apart drastically talked every day talked day every day like week like weeks without talking top that would throw huge tamper tantrum whenever talked anybody all past  half years anybody talk to except recently posted rr lot worked nonstop delivery services picking food delivering customers saying enjoy open door extent human interaction so mean logically im pretty messed up humans need human interaction right begged fiance talk me begged her yelled her demanded attention once kept getting worse ignoring me became demanding got bad i i spent  days without talking other grandmas funeral coming next week i needed attention badly refused told her id post nudes online continues treating way continues ignoring me spent  days threatening her finally posted nudes online eventually deleted nudes deleted everything but still teacher couldve lost job told just say hi press send post nudes online even that much apparently posted nudes and went police everything wanted restraining order stop posting nudes honestly thought care anymore mean even say hi me so order push away order us break up order somebody grandmas funeral date coming up desperately either needed us break seek somebody else just platonic friendship found needs start me even me so break us posting way could get hate enough break me manipulative sociopathic say told somebody jail this and called sociopath like woooah woooah dude holy fuck remind mess fucking sociopath know kidding but think serious thinking im sociopath well im facing extortion revenge porn lot misdeameners think da pressing charges know wanted go far know didnt wanted say hi me give human interaction know talk talk out send letter da drop charges but restraining order place theres nothing do im fucked happened feel extremely horrible because spent time jail thinking past came be friend committed redflag around time grandma grieving and needed other begged talk drifted away now heres im suicidalim gonna list things one abused really badly abuse imagine id probably suffered it similar two abused people often become abusers three im pretty attractive guy  never got relationship feared becoming abuser ready relatioship even think getting one otherwise id abuse them hurt them four dated first girlfriend thought ready relationship counseling enoughnope broke im abusive words mine five spent next  years single going abuse another person going risk it fiance entered life abusers name brought up extremely pissed fiance hugged calmed down thought ready relationship could that im ready wasnt rely somebody else calm down need calm down six spent years counseling years trying get better yet  years old still abusing love life betrayed way never going recover from realized vulnerable was theres nothign become better ive tried years counseling since and im still piece shit person sevenand this dont think care much hurt her much hurt me abandoning me forcing solitude years hearing desperately needed her really care hurting care is hurt her promised would never abuse another person abusing her and hate it matter person  care theyre getting hurt care im one abuse hate turning step father eight make sociopath care hurt put situation begged just say hi me ill stop demanding say hi difficult that talk me nine serious anger issues suppose posted nudes betrayed trust talk me reals ten im scared im angry legitimately scared black out remember single thing im pushed limit do things eleveni gotten pushed limit  years im still scared do last time sophomore high school senior football player threw football face hurt way step dad would slap face ptsd kicked in rampage ensured got ball threw hard could aimed balls remember this pushed limit yet ran off went fifth period completely shaking entire period went sixth period guy there pushed corner escape way out pissing offso lost it pushed limit remember happened next thing knew hiding corner school crying much teacher found me calmed down brought back next thing know im facing serious charges stick wanted sue me again care dude care fact that lost control anger hurt another person care hurt him care something wrong twelve used play runescape lot twas addicted grandpa works computer lets use work computer play usually get  hours school and play long possible hes losing moneyanyways wants go bed pm stay till am keep bitching him cant anything hes told go bed lost it blacked out grandpa laying stairs completely unconscious head bleeding i  almost killed him couldve killed himjust alone dead right fell stairs couldve exxtremely bad luckily die  guess what still care died cared that lost control anger became like step dad abused another person sociopathic thought right thirdteen uh backtrack last year grandma cancer hospitall on on her on bed uh bed bed never came by bear see stateever since foudn cancer ive distancing her even attend funeral work care enough go wanted work fourteen baby sister two one im attached would anything protect saw grow up there love her around all years because idk family never asked over never came over mean theyd ask sister over ask too anyways baby sister im attached almost died er icc everything and never came by wanted work instead need money deliveries pay much im barely surviving homeless living van work father came er couple weeks ago cared enough visit so im sociopath right fifteen unless somebody benefits me like gives something free rent food money expect something them ill talk them otherwise dont even talk me thats super selfish it grandpa bought motorcycle talked every day got it got it stopped talking him lot going recently maybe thats talked him but part thinks stopped talking longer expect give anything sixteen went jail talked mom dad first time  years needed bail something seventeen literally going right now finally got job career three months working longer homeless finally get life together finally make something life grandpa stroke needs come visit stay couple weeks simply want to want stay show worth company keep years come love here want lose job lose career lose life go support grandpa like thats truly socipathic it eighteen honestly feel way turned killing people because ive never crossed lines grandpa gave set moral compass upon time and blurred lines crossed lines anything recently even jaywalked id scared outcome anyways one day sitting home alone everybody supposed gone entire night cat came my badly wanted choke cat hands around neck etc somebody came home let cat go crossed line idk feel like couldve easily moved humans just everybody keeps telling life get better etc move past this move on nobody understands something just move on move past yes breaking fiance heart broken her this making extremely suicidal but im suicidal because treat people way behave act think emotions empathy care anything know enough sociopaths shit like that ever since child mean dog hated me thats red flag it dog scared sociopathic child thats idk dog never liked me probably kept things it cat died wanted see body and play it anybody seen dexter feel exactly like dexter hell even love blood like does id love cut live human see react id love see scream much pain inflict id love see much make react mere thought brings excitement lots excitement and ive never done anything to try and anything like it get pet id scared id treat pet maybe opportunity kill dog cat child swear wouldve became like dexter im serious scared continue dark path know know become serial killer ive scared pass lines always sticking moral guideline grandpa instilled mefollow law letter even jaywalk otherwise putting situation lines get blurred seriously hurt somebody ei release nudes internetwhich exactly did lines blurred thats got far im sociopath