wanted vent dieidk say anymore venting half week reddit change anything mental hospital got canceled parents take urgent hospital said fucking needed it revenge yep im indeed kms razorblades here lying ground idk im reddit ive given life sooo many chances something happens again cant take anymore life worth anymore living keep friends happy ive whole year making happy listening them guess time something egocentric fucking dying guess sort still want saved cuz im still typing time much late painfull im sorry triggering people parents say urgent intake hospital safe still run away hurt mysef guess what run away too razorblades iseasly kill here wrist much scar tissue even hurt slit wrist urgent hospital couldve least little safer maybe would help learn survive fucking virus stops ruining everything mean apointment good mental hospital moved november  months waiting help suicidal feelings hav wait another  months nope last negative thing happened me