brother tried kill himselfidk feel visited days ago kept sighing wanted ask wrong showed absolutely interest tried reaching along siblings shit bad multiple times gave nothing would beat little jealousy stole shit always scared him ive grown downright hate feel like total piece shit gave absolutely nothing years finally make visit ask mom money say nothing me idk maybe came test see anyone cared blew it sent message explaining hope responds probably not thought fucking i attempt recently found time brought hospital siblings counting one living us mom said anything afterwards never happened still dont mention it ive thinking like wow right ol one would notice gone true since ive gotten reckless suicidal person seemed give shit dad found first place didnt say much himself thinking one want help other who right now really wants contact brother tell much love dont want die maybe didnt know dont know regardless sent know felt dont want go