trying distract horrible thoughtsim angry right now pretty sure lost best friend stupid argument im tired treated like shit everyone fucked up know it everyone remind me walked anxiety please try living bedroom  years talk anyone go events go movies fucking sit room contemplate many things fucked up nah lazy right want work right guess thats went job interview panic attack knew best friend get side me shes allowed angry it six years trying make realize okay huge problem initiate contact get it must suck one always talk guess what try talk blow saying busy recently telling fuck off hard enough guy kind issues top get fucking crucified well yeah advice man up really fucking helpful thanks sharing fucking useless shit im glad spent night night listening cry family fucking abandon soon everything returns normal thats works right problems over sorted oh thanks letting happen right go uni might housebound last years might last real chance make something work shit important right thats important everyone else keeps shit together helping slightly would ever troublesome sorry long wall text need get there im trying distract myself music blasting game going letting sit think fucking know ill end something stupid keep train thought cant issues well people problems make mine disappear sympathize everyone problems lend fucking hand least could lend ear need you