feel emptyfirst all want say know im worst person know people would overwhelmed live way do thing is im empty sad feel terribly alone secondly im sure right place vent cant guarantee ill make sense last  years ive felt alone numb struggled find light situation went years  feeling numb emotion struggle depression anxiety im high alert time exhausting work  monday friday barely pays bills money luxuries apartment added stress less  bank week end month tips edge sometimes ill sit stare wall go bed im home work frequently urge end all kill myself mean dont feel anyone would care mother shes reason havent im weak know push live life wish could enjoy it