theyre determined keep alive hurt moremy parents taken life didnt live years hospitalized redflag attempt ive forced move back them year still watch like hawk anytime im happygolucky big shit eating grin face drill questions hurting again smiling need go back cant least try happy whenever truly feeling optimistic find ways tear down wow finally laugh wasnt even funny even bother shower always smell like cat anyway haha youre going living parents  make feel im asking one thing never get it either let live peace let die peace preferably latter