feeling good year life unfair usso rewind  years ago perfectly fine depressed hopeful energy look towards future entered college made lots friends love life then got depressed went zoloft things took turn there  years later lost love life friends everything im scared really anything it easy commit redflag like people make be live ourselves would want lose life im young im turning  soon im female lost someone  years feel like ill never find happiness im failing school im addicted smoking pot even though want to im gaining weight looking really bad lately help know do cant even find enjoyment videogames suck writing feel like ive ruined life it like normal people know im stuck endless loop sadness depression im tired