hopeful im sure im going kill myselfhi im  f freshmen high school ive wanting end life since  years old continuous bullying lasted till  suicidal thoughts never left developed mental health issues like eating disorder social anxiety the bullying also plays part there wanting kys much pretty bad pressure comes highschool keep grades worsens conditions joined new school highschool everyone dick mocked time really helping mental illness never told friends im really lowest point ever im afraid might actually kms anything ex want get back together feel best person open upto anyone im scared leave baggage please help want die