thinking committing redflag live brazil  years ago broke teeth since life money dentist neither leave house leave house makes lonely reach help already suicidal thoughts deep sadness agonizing nights lately fought best friend longer wants pay attention respond instagram thinking committing redflag still idea good method  want send message friend saying commit redflag talk me blackmail probably cut wrists send message saying already did thought cutting wrists maybe bleed get better while know thought choking clothes probably distressing want face god death sent hell really want die wanted love affection people online really know me count friendship want commit redflag directly her already suicidal desire me talking anymore taken away comfort intensified suicidal desire know go try read study bible lately even able read