sometimes seems nobody caresis me seem like people used give shit understand everyones got lives live whatnot get people regard suicidal thoughts depression indifference temperature room way almost worse people care hear bullshit like just cheerful youre happy decide be like people choose depressed think switch flip off theyre ignorant hard actually trying hey lay bed day hating myself give credit know hospitalized decade ago i got accident make attempt life nurses told prayer list forty people more made feel good people happy still existed know people care me feels indescribably lonely sometimes like way people take seriously something yourself never far tell never will sucks thoughts swimming head one giving shit