feelmy life downhill spiral since born fuckiung piece shit  ruiend many lives want fucking die scared death scared gieves panic attacks still want die maybe exist relapsed cutting today like  years thoughjt done guess ill never done dont live home live someone think friend family dont want olive anymore becuase everyone hates much think im disgusting becuase disgusting fat disgusting fucking pig fucker faggot deserves rot hell deserve everything get becasyse everything fault cause problems fucked over made friend live upset cut like  years too able call friend made that never forgive done ruin eveeryones lives mentally unhealthy turn make mad upset purpose dont know maybe attention know fuckingggggggg fool human race family wont talk anymore mom doesnt ebeliebe actually killm becayse ive said much tonight finally prove telling truth fuck fuck fuck fuck you mean myself fucking worst fat faggot evil destroy lives deserve sadness deserve death