start went kill last week got took temporary accommodation mom said could keep safe carers thinking helping reality full undercover police trying build case something even going say know think done questions like building happened day write note etc added think tried autism talk much incriminated myself know charges ill facing add speak much mental health fucked hear things bpd autism agoraphobia getting special treatment realised think intentions day going day word work think tried knowyes understand looks like instead trying help tried incriminate me family idea going either feel lost world bullied system probably going facing serious charges tried take life yes know looks like going specific building suicide note looks abit fishy authorities realised fuckedi bad person know cannot go say mental health know building casebro tried taking life day got rushed best hospital city got treated within  mins like somebody want keep alive work like england especially state nhs inim scared fuck system set undercover police suicide attempt fuck system 