odd yesterdayyea nearly enough kill go hospital im back home awkward family took away all sharps missed stashed ones took away pens like cant even write feelings cope phone first responders told parents sh arm mention thighs thats kinda awkward think bearly cut theyd ashamed saw thighs lol think im ment cope without drawing writing walking privacy cant left alone although almost try came back did guess rant one angry upset know im ungrateful something stupif parents wedding anniversary yet complained ruined day deserve love support im failure want torture constant pain go know everyones gonna sad go hard cant take much more left hospital stood edge bridge really wanted jump step mum trying get appointment help phone idk deserve this im weak cant cope yea ungrateful pathetic human wishes alittle stronger follow through