lostother peoples lives worse mine completely recognize that justi need say something need get feelings out last night drove home exgirlfriends house  dirt road let wheel go car lost control hoped would time go car ended ditch fine dandy thoughts would tell ex got hurt would anyone even tell tell move ex trying work things abusive piece shit never hit verbal asshole still am reason job got bed ex making want live life anymore time leave bed go there split went hospital surgery took apartment kicked out lost job nothing left mental state going life miss like said working it got huge argument tonight think thats end anything want wake tomorrow