yeah could go sleep wake up thatd greatposting main account really care point really sure im posting anyway ive exhausted everyone ive talked need kind outlet turmoil head recently th birthday took month really hit me different goals vision want lives be life stagnated shy awkward self consciousness makes difficult make keep friends inevitably bring secretly feel scares people away assume im looking attention many times bother know people notice something wrong say ask anything wish someone could pour heart cup coffee would give friend would actually listen ive tried dating past point almost part time job theres person floats life ive mentioned feel brushes off maybe gotten point ive cried wolf much one cares every single day unremarkable cant make enough money pay bills debt keeps accumulating cant breathe ive given hope ill ever travel healthy relationship kids happy life whatsoever