want live feel like im getting closer itday day first week summer mom visiting grandpa less months live idiotic dad work brother hangs friends day since drive means days sit computer watching days waste away summer slips fingers worst feeling ever thats tip iceberg im christian family im gay family would devastated knew much crap going on feel physically sick keeping bottled time friends im likeable person need someone talk to see point life go school get job lose summer working get old suffer die watching thing happen everyone around you lets cut middle man one knows im gay lets keep way rhyme seen therapist every day start sobbing loneliness cant take anymore im wreck got like school bad teachers work stress constant bullying go detail really need someone talk to want skype chat text chat thank advance lt