want continue living know aint rightive always depressed ever since around  so born condition thats known thalassemia since felt different feelings feel detached parents siblings everyone everyone treats looks pity feel like void now everyday pain contact parents like would give money unquestioned thats want want ignored want get better thats happening right now im  gonna  soon thoughts killing me cant continue im still figuring kick bucket cant figure better tried exercising think everything matter do cant seem find happiness im looking for im afraid im going something ill regret soon enough