first time considering long time seriouslyi even know start depressed ive maybe ever week now getting months crying time debt shitty job cant catch up cat really sick cant afford vet bills car needs work living government supported apartment feel worthless low self esteem feel eating disorder come back missed wisdom tooth appointment constantly nauseous uncomfortable able sleep months sleeping pills much want take slip away want make sure someone take care cat me feel hopeless giving up even scheduled emergency therapy appointment therapist available person got scheduled told need accept cat might live long told insecurity going drive boyfriend away giving up