ive never close beforei really know im supposed post something like need get chest ive long battle depression anxiety despite  quite probable born illnesses rather developing time think ive really come close redflag since  ive finally reached end line light end tunnel darkness friends care me im another person talk to really second choice maybe fourth fifth choice good day days im last choice point im choice talking friend today told think might finally kill myself responded nice joke point people even believe ive jokingly said im going kill long maybe better way maybe nobody stop me last night realized soon today realized lost important person life probably good stayed extracurricular school upset sat seat cried entire hour none people claim care tried comfort me one person try even know me know feel obligated help  minutes ago dad asked plan high school said die scolded not answering seriously little know plan kill within next weeks im letting sink might actually time feels wrong type share story feel right stay would stay world nobody genuinely cares me nobody even loves me worst part want tell someone want someone stop tell prove actually care one left sharing strangers reddit