breakdown gymi working usual started jump rope mile sprint treadmill started working leg day stuff lately theres girl goes gym looks exactly like ex exact body type faces almost indistinguishable tried notice let bother me turned music finishing workout started flashbacks deployment vivid images things flashed brain like one old time movie reals slide different picture pictures buddies killed ied explosions legsarms torn off kids screaming villagers crying marines dying started thinking late nights ex would hold breakdowns shared deepest pains secrets begged information it promised would never leave me gone leave legs collapsed held onto squat rack legs stopped shaking enough grab things headed straight door breathing heavy felt like going vomit threw stuff car got drivers seat gripped steering wheel hard could screamed top lungs felt like minute broke crying im here telling guys miss tell everything going okay tell im good person go home room sleep sleeps someone else hate this