know fix myselfso staring submit page good hour wondering say ill say whats mind since im go party  im sad very sad thats given since im here know get better girlfriend  years off first year broke kinda set things motion hadhave shitty job family likes ex me keep trying things occupy mind soul crushing mind numbing physically exhausting depression everything kind just sucks everything love disinterests me bores me even worse makes sad people turn help sad themselves know cant handle anymore sadness life they feel im coming closer closer edge im losing grasp things think help want feel damn alone world stop feeling like everyones get me people care everytime anytime get comfortable people show interestcare life crumbles im feeling damn lost sad every day hoping this lowest life ever get theres way disappoint anymore does sorry im trailing off dont know say anymore thanks reading made far