feel kind happyand thats know im going kill soon plan going happen im overwhelmed everything happening life moment im sorry advance annoying post im student im horrible classes im stupid hardly pay attention lecture friends either im always alone fucking sucks even online people hate me everyone know talks ugly stupid behind back ive said here im almost  ive never dated anyone ive never even kissed blame anyone wanting though im fucking disgusting face hideous body repulsive obese scarred personality horrible im disgustingly fat one right mind would ever want spend time me much less love want me im good anything im funny smart cant play sports cant sing dance play instrument anything like that cant even talk people im fucking awkward weird people feel sorry im constantly embarrassing myself also cancer top multitude health issues including severe ocd half time want bash skull things right would much easier family deal im burden wish died surgery im sorry posting much cant go anywhere else im sorry annoying hate much hope last post here thank everyone messaged past kind words mean lot life worth living anymore world horrible place want leave im worthless