dying redflagive seen impact redflag friends family seems inherently selfish choosing end ones life regardless impact would care you many ways seeing intentional deaths others affected ive known cared lot followed suit said early death result tragic accident obviously preplanned decision seems somehow less traumatic would leave behind honestly say thought process lead careless decisions wreckless driving ignoring medication excessive drinking usually ending evening secretly hoping wake morning falling asleep envisioning scenario days time someone discovers corpse want subject family redflag want keep going do