im tired feeling lonelyi people would consider decent acquaintances  whenever need vent issues im always listen whenever want vent either ignore me shut down talk issues glaze anything ive said people also going things thought talking makes feel like ill burden adding already full list shit theyre dealing with frustrating family disowned dating outside race pandemic help since cant go meet people way things use be feel like life purpose like thoughts words value anyone feel like fit world never have direction float along really feel like outsider looking in wish someone could really vibe with someone whos nonjudgmental unconditionally loving understanding thats literally ive ever wanted even lover another human share human experiences with want die this amazes amount shitty humans remain full support team someone like me kind generous loving truthful get shit end life stick tried chopping wood aggressively get rid negative thoughts following idea safety plan taking shower helped feel like crying useless now bring change ill still feel lonely tomorrow next day understand im still here knowing one way ticket comforting im also chicken shit use it world full people resort internet link likeminded individuals feel sort peace quite tragic feel you