sad hey whoevers reading this making post sort rant cant really talk anyone know whatever im posting here feeling shit tbh like every part life thought holidays would help sort everything whatnot nothing tbh hate school im somewhat smart get good marks math science recently theyve decreasing cant stand going tho numerous reasons best friend smart like top  student smart parents cant go minute without comparing us im still rly good friends make feel like cutting bonds him social life abysmal mainly bc doing besides friend school like  others know dont really care abt me days sit studying watching anime relationship parents really gone hill last year took serious turn worst weeks mother refused talk father talked school work one point mother wanted kick reasons im still unsure led developing unhealthy habits little self harm mainly eating addiction assume put lot weight september started gyming uncles garage would train everyday  months making good progress better worse father forced stop wasnt body needed apparently response started eating shit ton again october girl knew  months time started dating ended ghosting essentially countrys another lockdown easy her affected pretty badly still think everyday  imagine things add pretty sad ive jumped telling suck move saying deserve happy sometimes got rona recently damn get wrong time sit bed day nothing know im feeling sorry post mess thx took time read hope u guys good