literally impossible turn life aroundim transgender hormones  years almost ive worked fashion choices gotten good makeup good haircut soso voice cant pass anyone im treated assumed femme gay guy matter do regularly get stares comments made loud enough hear laughter glares sometimes slurs sometimes people following me passiveaggressively shitty service businesses go taken advantage guys know ill sleep lie tell im pretty facial feminization surgery k least shitty field choice making time soon plus suspect surgery much effect ive seen results changes usually subtle ie pushing someone andro femme masculine femme im fucked regardless also im sterile hormones know easy tell people keep trucking keep going care people think lets real dehumanized every day matter went mental health would pretty shitty right liberal city anywhere escape to whats even crueler im smart im qualified im would definitely happy everything else one horrible thing ruining life wish opened pandoras box cant go back cant go forward literally one thing want life thing would give everything else impossible maybe people mental fortitude keep going think im one them