im stupid stupid stupidim incompetent stupid lazy  brothers biggie  used close fucked higher ed third chance play sports sociable lil bro  epileptic currently private school hes best hope  idiot somewhen childhood stopped sociable still shy different id mumble myself soon schools id lock indoor nothing stopped studying too theres guest id run room hide habits die highschool decided want live town still started studying though think ive completely stopped studying outside classroom stayed enroll school dad teaches woulda saved lot money waste lot less time regret everything enroll night class program second grade college useless degree matter ive learnt nothing anyway ive burden whole life theres way could survive this stop burden end soon can