redflag thoughts far long help pleasei  year old male chicago grew divorced parents since  years old younger brother  years younger me parents us split avoid paying money grew father dad untill  got arrested molesting children secret now rots prison fully connected moms side family untill dad getting arrested lived mom  years drifited around went iowa year came back moved moms sister moms mom year half moved half year couldnt handle moved moms brother half year thats going alot better ever since moved iowa till redflag slowly planting self head huge time meeting others talking people since drifted around much went job job job majority life mostly stick room reality saving money affording own also grew big issue teeth majority teeth half gone taking good care teeth became issue time went pass  years started dealing infections loosing teeth infections living antibotics yes know put self problem  years tried tried get help wouldnt cost life money  hard years pain suffering problems finally found service called dental dondational service recently helpped much im suicidal ive became suicidal depression teeth big factor still im missing teeth front smile im big guy let tell im short  white guy health wise like hygeine take good care self bathe eat nicely year ago started aggresive mouth hygene clean mouth since im living bare ends jobs hard time people real life sit rooms rot life away feel life usesless keep going stress struggled past  years try better point comfortable like living deal stress dad deal stress teeth worry alone female give chance hell probly money bad teeth even tho think looks im bad looking deal stress cont untill im  dead want someone talk people hang resulting social media work dating sites horrible facebook filled selfish people post things get likes also dont drink drugs smoke cigerettes going bars pointless costly chicago really want friend someone really talk enjoy spending time with think nice friendship nice life ligetmitly none course know people dont hang  live far away  live chicago dont really care hang out im tried living dark thinking way want room life im posting reddit seems people come read things