im giving lifeman listen shout countless people yesterday internet strangers fucking amazing last three years hell ringer back back deaths house burning christmas homeless child pregnant cheated on bastard baby car lied over leaving great job start business money issues while abused brutally raped molested child went foster care tried self medicate sex life kick fucking rocks refuse give fuck up universe wants going send someone kill themselves im fucking quitter ive lowest low dragged two kids skin teeth body capable ive done depression ride shoulders next  years idc ill depressed im going function might sad anxious wreck wont loser cant control life control choices death final dont reset button come back want even find  minutes happiness next  years life thats five minutes wouldnt died fuck world prepared im coming you