feeling passively suicidal aloti think alot google depression tests time like need someone give permission reassure feel like definitely mental health problems even though ive diagnosed dr meds helping stopped taking froze also feel ridiculous self indulgent what fuck depressed about selfish even entertain killing myself wtf wrong me attention seekingevery self test tells im high risk go straight emergency room im crisis cant take seriously normal feel like this dont know move on dont want cause pain kids husband dont want live like either