fuck everybodyive posted many times nobody ever says anything thats fine add list ive struggled  years thought would get better long series ups downs im still fucking back feeling set deadline gone turned  turn  today nothings changed shouldnt given chance therapists ive either dont understand basically venting never enough time crisis text lines try help moment say understand dont theyre talking strangers theyve volunteered do every time close eyes think jumping highest parking ramp know knife held heart land itll go straight in want increase chances success much possible fall head trauma doesnt stabbing will im going fail theres way im going keep going hate everything much