tomorrow last dayi think done me ive left everyone behind  im done boyfriend cheated forgave him hurt really badly broke him mom used abuse kid dont think ever healed friends nonexistent ones ive held close let down dad dead grandma one life shown unconditional love support despite everything hope god realizes better way scared  cry sleep nearly every night self harm grown point helping matter much  often deep getting high nothing anymore feels like im falling hole  someone get sad someone lose much hope im crying write this taking breaks clean foggy glasses choke sobs god couldnt died already dont know do dont know do dont know want help  want get somewhere dont think stopped time ive planning days im sorry im sorry