want stop tearswhen im alone cry time ever since wife died  years back ive sad constant sadness made depressed stopped basic things like looking properly amp ended getting bullied work life went like  years every day another comment depression amp dull background roar grief loosing her cut recently amp spate bullying gets angry one bullies mentioned wife words said amp ended resigning sit amp wonder happened me guy all wonderful women great job big group friends gone now ive nothing tv cat amp roof head roof go money runs feb now get new job bother everyday suffering me everyday live suffering people want go sleep amp wake heaven wife want kill myself want top stop tears