bother anymorei really know do know ill ever see happiness ever again cant stop looking self useless awful human being doubts anybody would miss me ive dealt bipolar disorder ever seems get worse worse manic episodes make go insane cant slow im angry everything im depressed struggle even get bit happiness continously try improve make feel better tried lose weight start workout routine soon depression came back went right back habits binge eating drugs know take life granted know could happy everything seems grim im starting lose hope someday ill probably drug addiction everything looks like shit everything used love tried get medicated everybody im either just autistic which im not normal teen although see classmates getting angry nothing scared inanimate objects talking them