hospitalfirst time hospitalized ever including redflag attempts looks like theyre involuntarily hospitalizing me fun im super relieved though walking around getting ready find place it totally cathartic felt good decision usually id get anxious coward out simple me someone found hours later apparently iwas worried wake up parents would upset like younger looking answers crying really theyve chatting normally staying doctors move me still feel different empty except general anxiety tried mentally prepare this distraught parents crying etc like first attempt awhile ago casual far actually prefer it want ask exactly involuntary hospitalization include outpatient beforehand group sessions color sometimes talk psychiatrist childrens outpatient  im 