im  already failure human beingwhats point im  relationship close friends people talk university keep touch summer even still often eat dining hall university every single day every single meal miserable especially since tables  people right next table  get look people happy loathe meal job tried getting summer job help pay expenses school mcdonalds want me manager promised call interview never did tried another job help wanted sign ive store  times now keep telling come back cause never applications going month now go fuck off keep going chance ill get job remaining week head school happen family despises im religious also think im failure nothing day watch anime computer play videogames never go outside unless inquire job ive gone outside  times summer ive school since may cat hates too longer wants play me dream job work google cant get summer job whats say ill get job major company yeah right im gaining gaining shitton debt school go to constantly dream getting horrific car crash permanently disabled society expect work watch anime miserable rest life stress ever job skills job real family love friends nothing ill k student debt graduate probably job offer whats point dealing  years could end everything right now