im hopeless redflag solution end sufferingive extremely suicidal pretty long time now ive depressed around  years ive made failed attempts dont want live anymore fear knowing exactly happen finally end life something worry about wont hold back ive finally enough something im constantly thinking about death seems peaceful im constantly wondering would like finally end sadness end ability feel pain death seems desirable aspect worry family friends theyll feel hurting isnt enough stay alive theyd sad finally it time werent support knew bad struggling maybe theyll say selfish end life selfish supporting needed support love theyll okay life isnt worth living youre living yourself im living myself trust me didnt want go path tried getting help depression tried everything could many things helped temporarily end im still finding hole cant get of im still completely miserable friends family dont care enough me im hopeless going far long dont know much longer take go plan last night boyfriend got it spent night crying usual always cry night usually him made feel particularly unloved uncared last night knows depression hes around see dark sides feel hopeless suicidal sad doesnt really know support right way already wanted end life pain feel daily basis maybe last night pushed closer towards ready it entire mentality lately die end ive suffering long time nothing gotten better nothing worked dont understand point living feel pain suffer die end skip part die instead going life suffering im completely hopeless cant find one reason live says lot million reasons end life cant take anymore