introvert person suffering depression really thought whole pandemic help rest better mental health since decided go home province really expecting good environment finally rest busy noisy city life wrong first months great fine gets longer starting get bad feelings again actually starting panic attacks childhood trauma like reopened i know better term like flashback bad things happened childand feel pressured job since resigned went back home though started small business seem work out parents starting complain bills really really wanted help financially cannot cannot even find part time job online pandemic friend suggests apply work abroad said might hired pandemic ends going happen oh remembered cannot job abroad illness weak lungs wants hire person weak lungs sucks right supposed doi cannot even bother family telling this really feel want worry me used telling anything anyways dismiss feel anyway yea chose share here appbut know what really tired asked born like this want this signed this tired tired tired weak tired depressed tired crying every night tired me know anymore