anyone else feel like neglected parents never problem child know really thing complain about ive always wondered anyone else felt wa thirdborn family homeschooled first  years mother school rwo older brothers came world whittled mothers patience time needing schooled mother already busy enough brothers capacity give much attention time able read well own mother would plop textbook front would go ahead study own learned rather quickly mother little patience asked help twice row took long figure easy stuff yelling occasionally beatings would follow stopped asking help altogether point on almost everything own would start fear help would kick rear overdrive focus hell times tables whatever studying avoid help altogether studying strange reason really sensetive yelling would prefer beating rather scold pretty much every occasion this learned cery quickly good boy house making trouble whatsoever never causing problems never ask assistance with fun times jigsaw puzzles puzzle books jacks whatever  player games could find played them keeping possible problems could cause minimum decade line im older high school exceedingly well every class never cause problem anybody find without social life considered waste energy time ive also noticed exceptional achievements going pretty much unseen parents believe got used never problen standard eyes grew always great pushing greatness even exceedingly difficult im  feel sort trapped image created parents must always perfect never cause problem ive worked hard keep image feel like tearing down feel really time now feel unmotivated unhappy good boy says ignore emotional bs keep moving along harder harder every passing day feel depressed hide parents would issue would putting onto them sorry mom rd child problem also even know theyll care looking back whole situation feel like blame feel like one caused parents care never wanted care avoided whereever could im one caused look way do anyone else feel same