einsten said solve problem thinking used create problem ocd hell way outwhat do please talk mei nice family loves much know deserve emotional nice person hurt anybody anythingi graduated college studled lessonsi less severe intrusive thoughts theneverybody dissapointed memy intrusive thoughts unique harm ocd contamination else ingrained character maybe ocd sure doctors said ocdi tried medicines ssris antipsychotics also anafranil thoughts make anxious make frustrated hopeless got erp treatment ut work biti  people father mother brother virtual girl friend grandmotheri thought virtual friend understands different like opposite thought sameanyway chance get brain surgery called cingulotomy electrocution therapywhat broken non functional sadi exist live aware hurts lot family sad crieswhat live middle east facilities meds dark hospitals without life existing living mentally not nothing venting theoritcally helped say reality nothing ok