world cater people like metheres good place start think best list things life ive noticed give motivation others money so career paths hobbies pets drugs friends family future theres cant think right now im trying say normally keeps people society motivated keep trying whatever theyre doing never interested me ive talked therapists taken medication like im supposed im normal neither changed me people told alright nothing interests me least cant kill would ruin family well reason alive others sad kind life that point need stop existing im close walking woods disappearing thought alone giving excitement ive felt life