need help fastlets get way ive thought redflag weekly  months now ive attempted twice never went through even went getting noose set last one fell asleep probably chosen late time one doctor knows ive thoughts tried main question bet lot asking why main reason feel every little thing goes wrong fault head come crazy reason go well parents fighting caused caused stress failed algebra someone dies made happen enough two examples hideous self blame ive grown sick tired sucking bad im tired trying hardest living expectations im tired existence ive decided im going kill year ends im tired dead weight people need anymore ive messed enough already theres anything anyone tell make change mind guest doubt though