dont even know say girlfriend last night party slept next first time dating amazing girl extremely drunk night drunk sad personal issues basically sober helped night spooning night holding tight remember trying make feel safe wake morning day today avoiding me today talked told night touching boobs kept pushing away also told moaned night extremely uncomfortable dont remember anything happened thought asleep however says awake intentionally her feel like absolute dog shit wants take break dont know feel extremely guilty bad confused cant believe thing love girl want happy feel disgusted thing find hard believe could something like want back advice reddit begging