im really worried mom need helpokay gonna super long and apologies formatting im mobile friday morning mom left work trying sleep utility pole fell house we live trailer park garbage truck got tangled wires decided best idea try gun snapped pole right outside house landed right sleeping didnt come roof cause damage generalized anxiety panic disorder also others matters now well fear trees falling houses wreck pole roof also live wires along ground long story short garbage company refusing pay us stay anywhere else we power s s fahrenheit company would come fix pole cant even appraise monday this happened friday mom i tight budget is trying scrape past two nights heres concern comes from mom obviously depressed past nights im add stress burden im absolute mess cant close eyes without hearing crack bang pole made broke landed cant stop feeling house shake cant stop feeling like run im trying hold dont add stress shes got enough worry is tonight hotel staying at complained able home started crying everything hit once mom told needed quiet tried told ive trying keep together dont want burden going come little bit theres lot going head im really feeling depressed keep flashbacks havent told this told im realizing affecting her feels like wanna kill i checked hospital earlier year due feeling extremely suicidal supposed do drive us bridge wouldnt talk me went bathroom closed door made scared considering said went see okay told leave alone told wasnt going sure going okay said would fine able talk need stop holding stuff making depend her asked meant said crying way threatening hurt kill myself told thats meant all told might meant thinly veiled threat told dont see shes going keep making see im going through never acknowledge shes going through dont know do thought right thing feel like messed everything up want okay need okay trying focus myself able honest say im still completely terrified happened ive never said anything depressed felt suicidal i dont whole time dont know would gotten get bad flashback dont know help her cant fix situation house cant fix myself cant fix either im trying best add pressure stress feel like added ton idk even need helpadvice on dont know said said frustration doesnt make less serious right dont know someone please say something