im really fed upthis probably going come sounding whining guess is want someone listen maybe offer advice guess understand im even considering redflag go background sister bitch quite honestly never hated someone much currently hate her months ago feel strongly pretty rough afterall  abused long time boyfriend took kids away her tried kill multiple times diagnosed bipolar once took meds redflag attempt punched mother face result understandable given meds still disheartening would mean me boyfriend  years took boyfriends work clothes dryer presumably get back us using washer i guess clothes wash told much disliked boyfriend regularly like conflict tried ignore her fast forward months ago moves out permanent road trip boyfriend things great remember life like without her sad is depression fades away however unfortunately gets robbed raped finally gets pregnant comes back home wants garage sale save money get abortion leave take day help move things organize halfway day taking break starts smoking im allergic cigarette smoke could deal however worried two cockatiels downstairs one started hard time breathing asked could please go outside finish cigarette told no started getting irate despite attempts reiterate asking worried birds wellbeing started saying things like i want shoot fucking animals piece shit point lost patience had told get out course upset more came couple inches face tried bait punch her im assuming boyfriend jumps protect gets irate calls socially inept piece shit among things states taking back room which mine moved years ago went upstairs heard banging dad called back downstairs named calling says leaving decided shove back turned if boyfriend catch me might fallen shove physically hurt least finally leaves telling us have fun cleaning yard since garage sale items still outside immediately went upstairs damage pretty extensive gerbil cage rabbit cage flipped couch cat tree well one gerbils injured leg process luckily rabbit cage he outside playing aware of probably would hurt badly was this mother tells come back next day things okay night time late night boyfriend went downstairs get bite eat use bathroom suddenly get yelled at sister decided come back sleep there next morning still there go bite eat come back doors locked literally sitting chair casually smoking cigarette next birds flips us off leave call mom mom tells get fuck out leaves go inside find dead animals bed dead animals rats previously freezer passed away week we horrible virus go around legally needed get death certificate made vet since rescues animals dad goes gets keys made locks us lock house up next day go work get call boyfriend apparently broke in came upstairs threatened boyfriend beat boyfriend she literally broke room staying yelled him naked took shower tried break room again barricaded desks freaks wrench hand protection takes glasses face give back days drive boyfriend work migraine days obvious reasons meantime stayed downstairs like nothing happened finally got back pretty broken still broken day the lens easily repeatedly falls out going get new ones soon that minor conflicts would happen nothing major ones ive previously mentioned one time boyfriend walked downstairs get rat food garage threw ashes face without provocation later said smiled funny way it directed towards all also got tiff mother told could eat pistachios later grabbed couple sister got pissed probably never washed handsneedlesstosay do still living us depression sets in im room time aside work go downstairs im filled mixed emotions hatred anger hopelessness downstairs boyfriend reside limits using old piano bench hold huge tv im pleased about mention used play piano lot cant unless gone rare feel like prisoner go downstairs wash clothes leave work it feels unfair great life right boyfriend  rent real chores repercussions things done boyfriend always laughing come downstairs stark difference im feeling inside makes even depressed could happy making life miserable gets watch tv work all make kitchen upstairs buy mini fridge went days without eating fear going downstairs getting hurt ive thought ending multiple times guess im thinking maybe dead would understand wrong could finally peace its even depressing remember like gone fear comfort safety long time ive talked mom this understandably want choose daughters know either tells selfish think redflag im loss know anymore im sure much take