really need help im much emotional paini wish wasnt anymore thoughts ending life multiple times day last  days ive planned cant fix im gonna choice it basically friend went class finished long ago course  years long started develop feelings finishing finally got courage last tuesday told ask asked date went bad really bad opinion since havent stopped crying since also lost really good friend person feelings would anything keep happy havent eating fully either feel down every time sleep dreams every single night wish would never wake time dont want sleep makes think irreplaceable unique many ways shes constantly mind making eyes water speak stopping anything everything tried dating apps like match signed answered questions first person pop best matched cant take it tried tinder boom pops really want superlike press wink button time bad idea rejected past dont know anymore everything me