ive set goal help motivate myselfi need something help motivate myself ive spent last  months feeling basically lost time change that next  months intend save least  obtain sort employment provide least  income annually surgery repair hip heart diagnosed treated get shape including regaining pack cutting body fat  increasing total weight least  lbs accomplish goal intend reward trip country love travel ive always wanted it always reason though whether financial otherwise im going put aside reasons go im going go it spend new years eve another country matter takes preferably someone accompany me