regret missed opportunities disappointmentso guess life gone great could much worse many respects im incredibly lucky loving family girlfriend reasonable financial security at least financially secure  year old be half decent job prospects education hand really cant take this defining feature past  years mental illness depression paranoiapsychosis anxiety social withdrawal close friends really mean girlfriend many friends problems deal with end think people probably feel hint relief die longer burden help day day feel like every step life ive missed opportunities everything  year old scared go round friends house he older brother loads creepy toys  yeah pathetic know  feeling depressed go holiday family graduate uni made friends barely scraping through know carry im going look back life spent dreaming away disappointing very few people ever got close me im going anything right now cant really envisage realistic way this cant stop thinking ending existing anymore anyone please please help