rejected soulmate cause im fucked upwe dated  months before im fucked relationship cant even function normally anymore now stopped eating showering brushing teeth changing washing clothes etc time near isolate get close cant miss much wish could something good him im insecure depressed would likely wanna deal shit baggage bringand much sucidal emotional wreck am thinks im normal cause put act front cant hide forever clue hope finds someone actually wants live personality besides depressionanxiety like me