guess thats itsw last resorti never thought would end herebut point im desperate im guy bisexual record ive love straight best friend  years knows everything told everything hes perfectly fine cant forget him even though rejected many times yesterday last time literally told theres zero chance anything happeningits stupid knew answer even though likes tease time time feeling way think itive met couple people come love rejected me wether theyre straight cant love me hurts so fucking much thought capable loved overwhelming me fact ive rejeceted whole life help well im losing emotions cant cry anymore whats left me studying im pretty good university working alone actually thing makes forget this whats point im happy never was now im thinking isolating myself stop going friends stop talking everyone finish work like robot im becoming end it hope im far away enough everyone easily vanish without causing suffering anyone tell me whats other way out please say it gets better ive thinking like  years im  never got better guarantee find happiness keep fighting