ive tried hardest really havewhere even start lifes crumbling  years now seems like whenever try something happy make life better fucks up really ive tried fucking best feels like always losing battle help im alone time either stay room parents house weve big fight led write this im child too legitimately nobody ive somewhat tried redflag before tied something together remember choking near closet thought give another try maybe different time wasnt know im posting really im much bitch actually go redflag actually know do im  friends parents fucking hate me job go school moment although im signing spring classes part wants say hey hold near future better another part let many times cynical think way thinks absolutely pointless live anymore im rambling know anymore might try get job ive got bad anxiety two times ive attempted get job fuck interview