im complete failure dont deserve chancesi fucking pathetic failing college third fucking time unable get bed consistent basis bc cant fucking get shit done need to fall asleep reasonable hours fuck fuck growing fuck normal ive depression  years havent learned much dont deserve opportunities never deserved ones anyways wish could stay alive burden family oldest child family ruin lives siblings guess id anyways disappoints cause yearly dont feel sorry me im piece shit spoiled loser cant anything lie around feel sorry myself dont insurmountable problems esp compared others posting here never asked easy life never promised work hard deserve it ps im fat ugly im high priority rescuing also told smarthad average iq ive realized ei emotional intelligence way important dont much theres one thing know sure life something hemingway said happiness intelligent people rarest thing know