found worst news life ill start saying im  year old female friend years almost going  years theyve one bestest friends ever kind caring really great today got text earlier saying gonna kill themselves ive always one help them made want become psychologist tried usual tried even harder harder ive tried everything convince way out didnt listen blocked me im assuming died overdose saying doesnt feel real none feels real feel like im horrible dream matter cant wake up cant inspired much meant much me truly did theyre dead died hating guts died thinking wasnt way out died thinking one would care care care much ive decided quit things inspired do im gonna quit art god knows long im never gonna become psychologist ive helped many people first person ended it ended all dont even know im gonna life thought last weekend life gonna go uphill here plummeted want die honestly cant stand death dont know im gonna here wont kill dont want put girlfriend things friend put through honestly shes probably worried sick havent messaged since balled eyes out cried cried im crying writing this youre wondering cant anything help online friends never found address tried search school luck hope okay dead probably dead needed place type feelings in also wake call anyone please dont kill yourselves people care damage lives ever mean lot someone please dont forget