best friend committed redflag im hard time coming terms it helpthis first time posting text read enough posts apologize posting mobile phone apologies hard read recently best friend committed redflag im struggling lot many questions know ill never receive answers to didnt seem thought out nothing left behind read every time close eyes see picture happened want cry again miss much hurts yet time angry her monster beautiful beautiful soul world darker without her dont think realized many people would hurt gone honestly think thought world would better without wish much told one time important me people gone this first off im sorry one hardest things ive gone commend strong secondly advice coping mechanisms youd like share thanks advance whoever reads this