low point life want talk  someone listen november th  former best friend arrested possession marijuana got let easy vehicle weed got  dollar fine day blames entire encounter since completely betrayed trust essentially leaving without friends lets put events day aside focus today couple friends state rarely get chance speak them former best friend recently blocked number facebook steam account never gave reason why tormenting month rest former friends made decision exclude cut contact me aware history severe depression anxiety take consideration all ive dealt heartbreak xgirlfriend fairly recently father turning drunkard threatening kill people fear life sometimes close eyes wish would die next time walk outside wish would struck lightning pain anywhere near comparison others im slowly losing live sleep everyday dreams always better reality previous reasons kill family possibly still cares starting disappear favor really want longer part fucked world