even try going diei never understood people would work hard life life waste time willing hold onto going die rather like not dont care anything anymore want die get hell with reincarnation real it ill kill again again hell real it real hell alive growing up life crystal stair dad physically abusive mom wouldnt shit it im teen expects us happy healthy fatherson relationship fuck past right okay school now im complete failure parents never content bs high cs gave completely never felt sense accomplishment them never felt like genuinely made parents proud sure tell make proud everyday world knows doesnt come bottom hearts nothing hire c right lots ds fs times would try improve avail intoxicated procrastination deprivation wanting live longer born government suck money us parents getting pennys worth want us incredible debt beg loans debt want schools encourage college burn hundreds thousands dollars relive high school get degree something never truly interested in successful people smacked face leave real good red mark feel like shit every god damn time reflect yourself cant get better anything damn tired lifes bullshit life isnt worth it really isnt sure go ahead start multibillion dollar company buy  mansions  studios  lamborghinis hell it know going lose die im social introvert embrace it hate talking people hate people talk me hate everyone hate society hate mainstream media news hate everything hate world hate myself hate life everything terrible god sent hell amuse watching suffer expects get knees bend pray mercy fuck that let die already whats hold up im right god look now created image right wanted no fuck you kill right now even writing waste time god nows im depressed sociopath dad tried open several times fucking hate people try getting head fuck off would never understand even halfassedly opened clearly stated felt depressed correlated fact need friends fuck dad fuuck friends never trust people fuck people world filled backstabbing rats hate family brings girlfriend bullshit look straight god damn eyes say chance woman fucking it even ever looks would never date piece shit filth like me everyone says looks maybe do fucked teeth dont anything goimg me god damn dentists orthodontist arent jack shit never called next appointment saying lets wait years teeth grow settle its five fucking years since said that fucking long take teeth fucking grow fuck shit fuck god damn backstabbing sons bitches thieves dentists fucking kill today sure fuck hope make deal devil fucking demon kill entire fucking family cry shitty god mercy life waste time nothing going me ive online friend recently killed himself lived different countries strong anonymity wasnt shit could help since never took advice seriously hope meet soon peter