today experienced strange new feeling definitely related relationships currently preparing law entrance exams enter premier law institute country great interest international relations countries conflicts genocides power struggles revolutions along civil wars studying almost  hrs day yet anxious nervous worried time always seems like enough considering future would literally depend upon exam conducted may see one set questions cannot freak out start breaking down  year plan  years ba llb hons  years job law firm solid background  years llm international arbitration law becoming international arbitration lawyer thing knew much scope field today came know person literally goal aim basically dream like role model new feeling experienced something like this sort immense joy gladness almost immediately followed glim fear failure horror fail even single step feeling continuing cycles think going mad thats it thank reaching far