know good things feel worthlessim  year old guy ive knowingly depression since  child pretty smart gifted gave school aged  parents divorced lived mum stepdad left dad for used beaten ever disagreed throughout school bullied ever really many friends somehow managed really successful school went uni without ever trying went uni instantly hit me alone hall  people mostly foreign exchange students interest anything stuck close groups two people flat tried kill too tried go meet people got harassed touched guy first time felt low nobody would talk second time trying kill unable sleep five days help psychiatrist doctor counsellor early intervention team didnt change felt ended quitting uni ive three relationships three cheated broke me still nightmares one them last two years nobody interested im average attractiveness ive interested one person thats ive work them friends anymore handful friends relationships moved abroad respond messages low self esteem know great person lots talents im lucky fairly intelligent work decent paying job feel worthless family there friends exist anymore im option girls im tool work feel like ghost know get done already see point life im forever miserable want die im sorry long postwalls texttoo much information