thought okay lately night feel like ending allnah im really it could die really mind like kill myself plane wanted crash right here would happy thought beaten social anxiety man women fucking women im still extremely awkward around women swear women socially apt guys would never understand women drive man crazy wanna kill deal approach women time life fuck everything fuck fuck ughhh know im drunk really feel right wanna girl love her loving me cuddle together really hard ask girls love with ended beign completely horrible human beigns me hate that even though logically know bad people really hate damaged heart never girl feel really liked me feel like im privileged even sex probably horrible it since even women hated man hate myself thats probably women like fuck hate hate world hate teverthyng fuck even care anything hope feel happy im sober sorry ive disturbed really feel like right now take literally stream conscsiouness thoughts fuck fuck friend