im fucking sick shit want normal meltdowns issues digestive system acid reflux etc sinus issues mucus shit throat guess autism okay meltdowns shit want bloody music career reflux along mucus saliva make difficult well kinda rap id pause reflux fucking constant dont like asshole people want control it fuck anger issues much fucking school work didnt go school fucking pandemic ive working ass that back reflux im sure medication helps ive tried decent amount medication still comes up want lay bed sit it im fucking sick it want physical issues go away point wish didnt want career wish didnt wanna shows too anyone starts worry might suicidal im not doubtful ill try keep hope future want fucking doctors find solution wont deal shit id say judgement lot better mine obviously still isnt life fair dealt wrong fucking cards wish normal dont wanna die like 