lost hopehey guys first time posting here im violating rule im sorry cant bear anymore hell week wednesday tried something bad myself im complicated situation study far away home receive scholarship so so cant quit need doctors letter attest health conditions continue studying covid fucked mind shattered past  months so know wanna return there know bear alone there and complicate things friday exgf broke me needed support i know great her it know continue life lot pain bear intend go psychiatrist week but meds solve it hope i 