mean why well die anyway someday could die want  considered bad insane past japan example normal thing commit suicide remove shame even honourable ok kill day kind protest cannot kill nothing even suffering much like know form shame like understand big deal humans die anyway someday matter die years earlier later times ok honourable death let it see optimistically negatively like fuck up die know describe see optimistically like suffer much still want die things fucked up see relief salvation fuck ups know sound like kid feels cool me like feeling watch movie tough good guy main character even tough code  like kill children stab back give chance defend etc like codes seems cool thing feels like code too feels cool too bad kill