heres night im sitting airport waiting flight leave everything behind disappeari deal anger fear episodes panic disorder anxiety disorder etc family everything today bad episode mom yelled makes pull hair scratch bleed unknown rash thats spread arms starting way back chest fear hurting mother today attack after took everything packed decided leave decided im safe meds havent helped whole year breaking point theres nothing world thats heartbreaking telling little brother loves anything last time youll see other im still crying noises airport making shake uncontrollably making itch bleed spots later today go say goodbye everyone love home grew up dont feel safe wouldnt live hurt someone loved control