know even know im still here love hateit started january last year met american girl online mutual online friends ps things went fast became freinds stuff happened sexually within first week carried  weeks i always suspicion lying age always reassured freinds people knew im  found  birth  november  argument days talking decided could freinds helping things she suffered depression anxiety bipolar made sort understandable lied age everyone even freinds known years kept silent people knew unfortunately people decided tell people arguments somehow sexual contact happened know even though knew ages happened couple times another argument threatened get police called paedophile sort panicked released screenshots convos sexting etc know illegal released cos angry scared prove original instigator sexual contact gotten worse that started receiving death threats told go police wouldnt started receive death threats i still day worst happened people school found started bully point got really deep depression i eventually take much took tablets enough bed ridden  days found thought maybe dead got scared got point think actually cos one heard that want go police already got involved help ive even got contact police usa manassas city care believe fast forward months got really bad always mind always ready it plans everything tried talk close freinds people known   years told full story pub days later got message one saying  going betray get police things  year old panicked somehow already ready again  tablets paracetamol full bottle jaeger hospital police interview lied bit police cos frightened still am go everyday waking thinking last thought head sometimes feel like walking police station jumping front tram one day could go either way im scared