going end sooni hate reality time come developed severe disability continued destroy life livilihood past  years cant get job due daily pain constant unfortunately made collosull mistake getting married kids love all disability puts perpetual bad mood snap yell frequently them deserve that prevents providing family fortunately foresight purchase substantial life insurance policy past go least family taken care grossly unfair world changed way trigger disbility one cares one help nevetending pain dissapointment whatever deserve this truly sorry perhaps nothing thus testament lack caring people others change laws ones trigger pain people like me knows idea posting this guess felt like saying goodbye someone goodbye