im sorrysexualphysicalmental abuse child  almost sold human trafficking someone intervened  put foster home women tells spent life praying daughter am  returned mother foster parents told never see us again relocated canada usa  mom loses custody us arrested last time saw her returned canada  waited everyday mom come get me  finally receive message mother tells none abuse suffered real ptsd fuck ups weve diagnosed cant real according her  try killing twice  rehab  physically abusive relationship  beat pregnant tried kill once one distinct memory drunk searched house something find it came room laying bed breastfeeding daughter punched face hard could would strangle till blacked out scars face charged domestic abuse paid fine  gained courage leave  left province cuts contact  gets dui province comes back  wants visitation  custody battle  new relationship old ways  kicked home sent shelter yesterday custody hearing valentines day today cant fight anymore spent life fighting spent life thinking enough  years bullshit done fighting really enough finally convinced myself enough never understood mom could leave me understand difference daughter worth fight daughter means world me called father court anything ever happened would okay neither us deserve you love you want happy dead end love love love done fighting cant even believe saying this love thing got far love much