lately everything feels greyand cant seem shake feeling feels numb cold empty great got back right path everything unpredictable makes afraid wish could shake feeling know get better always do even feel like energy left time bit difficult guess miss friends much cat whenever feel pain much handle idea there waiting me comforts nothing feels quite like used im guessing never im hoping better times us know make everything constantly changing even hard sometimes welcome it im making effort want negative want feel better now hope eventually redflag seems oddly comforting know still fight know heal again know love all