heading wrong road feel like im running optionsscroll bottom tldr let start saying im sure appropriate subreddit post on im totally new region reddit ive recently struggling lot things none find important enough discuss friends family reached advice suggestions due lack real consideration extenuating circumstances like dealing mental health personal life so ive finally decided reach anyone willing read online really know myself ive felt alone lately ive calling total loser generally feel overwhelmingly unwelcome place social situations im always afraid one actually likes would care bothered show up almost always feel really deeply hateful towards myself im easily set myself im ap advanced placement student absolute nightmare go school every day get lied to laughed at ignored everyone class solely im viewed competition get headaches half days every month always come home crying drained seven hours silent misery mental exertion im constantly tired hardly hang people without falling asleep boyfriend friends concerned try brush off deal isolation general misery feel things bite pick lips inside outside gotten bad accidentally went deep blood dripping chin middle class boyfriend knows keeps telling self harm know thats true im honestly afraid look it usually self harming intent im afraid feel empty alone hopeless im constantly pissed myself longer feel like deserve goodnice things accept compliments easily sometimes feel like deserve bleed know go feel like im running options im starting shut regarding mental health im last priority feel like even earned position tldr hate v e r viciously deeply near perpetual basis bite pick lips point bleeding needing weeks heal zero friends feel unwanted place every social situation school sucks home sucks suck im running options please help