anyone there could use supporti  graduated degree neuroscience psychology loving providing family girlfriend loves would anything me part fraternity  guys consider brothers everyone seems think things going well me ive medication since  started anxiety depression diagnosed bipolar current issue insomnia began taking ambien help actually get bed sun came up discovered affects sleep became problem looked forward going sleep every day knew going get ambien high span  years regular prescription it along samples weaker sleeping pills father also doctor plenty medication around house month ago procedure done given vicoden took one bottle effect given additional bottle percocet took percocet pain next week so began abuse them mixing anything could get hands on valium xanax codeine ambien lunesta muscle relaxers bad several nights ended stumbling parents room  morning screaming something yet put bed keep quiet become apparent problem girlfriend would tell verbal abuse give take them finally came clean family seeing therapist week doctor giving enougb dont go withdrawal feelings guilt embarrassment still there feel like ever get better ive tried stop own several times past months cant alone family already seen one member go rehab would never want deal again current moment reasons keep living keep love happy every passing day think would easier live lives without burden