cant anymore guys cantim  year old trans guy cant get anything help im least  ive depressed since  exact reason parents emotionally abusive cant leave siblings start getting abused im basically shield mean dont really want die thats way end suffering think every while couple times past couple years would holding hammer sit staring thinking would happen hit head it im also kinda scared depressed ass do like think redflag time even though dont wanna im kindof scared one day become witness body walking killing without even wanting to wanna get time dont really want to dont know anymore