im piece shit one thing care cant ever find effort fix it gets bad makes feel like piece shit shut passesmy family im  learning trade eventually move out im terrified happen zero social skills anxiety everything do time feel comfortable playing video games probably much past two weeks ive break got argument mom asked watch siblings like short notice for reason get really bad anxiety schedules changed suddenly even schedule nothing particular two weeks went fine mom dropped goes way anything knows gets stuff unnexpectedly comes feels like piece shit asks something clue thought much lately feel like fucking loser asshole making feel way im huge burden parents even ever voice it talk time when move out tinge optimism voices makes feel alone really makes feel like cant stand me cant stand honestly motivation even trade im learning told id could keep getting job would eventually lead moving out everyday tell what fuck life anything normal enough so almost like tick anything bad happens brain instantly thinks fucking kill yourself myself cant stop matter much try honestly im starting seriously think it like me like me honestly wouldve done long time ago siblings born move might become disconnected long enough edit lol even nobody sub wants anything cuz im fucking mistake