sometimes really want kill myselfi bad life caring friends caring parents brother nice things room somewhat good grades school feel like it im usa understand last year high school wanting go anything live pretty much diagnosed depression deep heart take pity everything do every mistake every action thinking good enough thats killing me done bed like two weeks although may sound ridiculous thats sign something right ive tried kill myself think   times last one almost felt brave enough like year half ago  im almost  last year pretty good damn demons head came back came back tell wrong im worthy all know something love lot things love drawing playing wow playing music i play bass guitar drums think would miss things remember much fun things sorry post little messy needed spit somehow lot people know this think knows redflag attemps close friend mine even best friends know it im skipping school tomorrow clear thoughts or least ill try skip it th charm