today seventeenth birthday mostly spent alonemy seventeenth birthday today predicted quite lonesome one went school forced smile peers friends acknowledged birthday not feel entitled it school went work forced smile coworkers customers served get wrong things happened today made smile coworkers told happy birthday even sang me brought birthday card balloon shift customers told happy birthday really it that sort came home depressive tired trance like usually do party anything friends that special conditions kind know hate seemed entitled guess wish felt wanted appreciated birthday once friends even play game me something usually always together anyway busy least said were end day yes people acknowledge existed birthday still ended coming home alone depressed nothing else day really changing im still old depressed lonely loser always am nobody seemed care much usual could tell everybody said nice things obligation birthday could tell really care again guess expected anything always expect something go way once still get disappointed always ends favor maybe im selfish though know wish somebody loved join house get surprised friends family balloons streamers cake stuff let know care proud making far guess commodities like soul contract ampxb im done whining though know tons people way worse me wish things different thanks reading commenting do cheers everyone