sudden change sexuality destroyed mentallyi  since  incredibly infatuated women every possible way since end february something happened me lost attraction women seems place seem noticing males although male yet cause erection yet women could easily turned sense know happened me never masculine crushes anything youth teens experiment one time  like all wanting try anal stimulation also desperate horny time one cl hook ups even finish physical act found gross uncomfortable felt like reverse bowel movement said experience also turned anal girl either first last time ever anything like that considered it seems suddenly sexuality changed know happened ever since did mental state declined tremendously getting women one things enjoyed which sadly say much always happiest women hoped raise family girl within next years confidence issues women general years finally became successful dealing constant selfdoubt also improved areas too general sense selfesteem confidence feels like everything torn me thought though man nothing all despite perceive noticing more since began gotten increasingly depressed point wishing dead waking last nights wishing somebody would shoot head seems like much valued took pride gone end honestly wish dead sit around day nothing go motions also look back old photos women crushed cry feels like heart torn out become emotionally destroyed feeling intense anger small things thoughts wishing over far lowest point ever wish would end cannot go like much longer