fianc moved blocked number emergency roomi went traumatic event weeks ago left suicidal ideation knowing problem could negatively impact relationship fianc immediately enrolled group oneonone therapy ive attending sessions everyday making effort apply lessons stressful areas life yesterday woke strong feelings wanting commit redflag mentioned fianc called parents forced tell them already felt ashamed situation hoping could handle sickness us two professionals told dont check hospital call police fianc blocked path took phone away felt scared trapped went grab gun point knew ive gone overboard dropped gun packed stuff told quickly drive hospital dropped stayed  hours called throughout night come visit refused said us got finally able use phone realized blocked number took social media cancelled arrangements wedding vendors went home saw left belongings actions destroyed relationship even though one thing fighting hard for