cant handle itif seen last post ive made subreddit heres link it httpswwwredditcomrredflagwatchcommentszgdnim_not_gonna_lie_sooner_or_later_i_might_have_to living irrationally angered father beyond ability cope imposes many restrictions despite fact im  verbally abuses little brother i get priorities straight year ago moved stepmothers house due relationship issues decided rent apartment moved there furniture bought kitchen table came chairs set couches months later told brother needed beds twin sized ones never asked california king anything bigger twin sized ones want anyone whos reading guess bought instead air mattresses even  months later already holes them fucking smart way spend money kept telling need beds beds real mattresses fucking year living apartment were still sleeping deflated air mattresses busy buying everything else including  k tv costed enough money buy two beds no control money all told bought bed first yep guessed it got triggered day ive sleeping floor uncomfortably cant sleep straight night someone would ask would rather sleep floor every night wake every  hours put sleep permanently id say time get long goodnight sleep point simply reasoning father like futile told many times couldve bought beds first everything else wait no threatened kick instead way out like said putting deathbed depression anything like sending message remind much damaged past years message stay forever choose end it right now looking reason to perhaps another way end peacefully would better