im ready end life today get home schoolive goal oriented now ive always aimed perfection cant reach it cant reach goals never even get close ive always striven perfect grades overwhelming point work ass stress get college work ass stress get god job work ass stress die way going be id rather reach end later ive lost interest nearly everything ive pushed away friends ive got nothing left besides finish school day exhausted options think last thing left do ive done everything bucketlist secretly hoping would make see fun things ill miss feel worst bothers many people death effect im popular person know friends blame family split going let many people sorry