could use friendso ive feeling pretty bad past weeks think lot holidays really rough weather ive really depressed suicidal could surrounded loved ones feel alone like disappointment feel like burden achievements minuscule people hate me feel like coworkers really like me feel like im close breakdown concerned weight want stop eating again feel beautiful loved slept days nightmares mind racing feel like would better everyone disappeared sometimes even know im sad cry reason breathe want hurt want anyone accidentally see feel like im spiraling control want everyone happy feel like make things worse know do hate myself wanna die sometimes