ive tried ive experienced ive lost war im looking support want waste anyone elses time want write words say goodbye ive fighting life fought  years enemy severe depression extreme sleep issues introversion awkwardness supported opposition plan join military though fight end casualties live fear death also lost people time two close friends person ever actually raised me love you grandpa fought  years enemies taliban insurgents radical nationals total spent  months overseas winner casualties countless went still us stay strong fallen fought  years got out enemy vast im surrounded casualty finally me though war still go boots on that manage ive got one write letter for serve letter public servants notified remains funeral unattended government service finally lie rest finally meet peace