sister talks killing every dayi suffer suicidal thoughts too folks know word suffer hyperbolic physical hurt brings mental emotional deep pit cant figure escape like forgotten limbs are helpless feeling feel alone feel like pit metaphor perfect dark lonely pit im starting notice people suffer suicidal thoughts tend visual learners visual types always anyway really hard sister threatens redflag daily im feeling suicidal feel like place tell anyone family want kill even feel even insignificant therapist tells first try think stuff visualize think beautiful difficult first especially im deliriously sad think dogs eyes something like biking summer try hold onto that try miss things enough want die im little ok also says people want die want live like this agree want live sister talking like lot shit life like one thing visualize dark pit visualize stop afraid it maybe overcome imagine taking small step brighter area this im still working worked one time one start im always going deal thoughts ive coping life since  used escape trauma therapy helps though trying offer little hope im decent day tomorrow might terrible might need read someone elses post much love all