throughout the day i m usually fine when i m alone usually at night is when everything get to me i m not diagnosed with anxiety and i don t want to say i have it i don t want to be faking but i ve been struggling for a bit now at night my chest feel heavy a if i m in an airtight room it s always the same thought this can t be real i ve been having a difficult time comprehending the fact that my close friend is gone the last time i wa able to see him wa in th grade then quarantine hit we had a few call in 0 0 0 and our last one being around hour long but i just can t comprehend it it s not recent he passed away in 0 i just can t believe it s real