things already pretty bad somehow took turn worse feel entirely isolated even though family around friends talk every awhile know isolation driven rabbit hole would happening regardless around cannot control mood capacity hour two break get crushing despair chaos head ill try actively stay wildly overly positive state least positive almost trying stay makes return chaotic world created head know started living life inside head instead participating life front me scared ill never able make stop getting point able take anymore sorry makes sense sorry burdening yet another social platform disaster gets worse gets worse