deserve hurt im weak im liar cunt bitch pathetic ashamed  ruined childhood early childhood neighbor repeatedly raped friend stuck horrible custody battle later preteens stepmom starved dad let happen mum got custody dad killed himself thats ex stepdad began touching me even let sons it mum believe did ex stepbrother would verbally abuse mum let happen years developed bpd get fights mum bf run away  times homeless twice cant keep jobs keep cycling cannot maintain outside relationships let ex boyfriends beat name bdsm cruel first one withheld affections cheated constantly crawled like dog even made shave head second one misogynist racist made pretend child sex thing common older men im pathetic daddy issue bitch live nothing else besides attention older men used live fo r art spiritualitybut know everything secondary want older man lov me odnt care anything else want know like cherished loved older man ts like held if dont get soon ill end all time real bc worthless bpd cunt deserve brutal punishment wan fucking die