live thisshe said loved every day year broke me contacted  months later saying wanted back got rebound relationship took  months dump him then  months finally afford visit tells shouldnt come doesnt want relationship anymore booked flight cost spare money set leave monday expects able spend  weeks friends get happy completely ruined me destroyed life fucking well got great job healthy friends go every day feeling like worthless nobody wants me fuck one live feeling like shit get happy fucked nothing fuck best situation could possibly dream every respect life yet still want die fuck point