plain simple recently single  year relationship fault loved life itself parents live across country family family without her one bought house together last year like living literal dream together two us dog little family everything ever imagined wanting crushed broken never wanted anything less losing her home everything visiting parents happened dad came picked florida flew home together today family packing stuff house yesterday get home tomorrow nothing sure house there little bit furniture nothing meaningful gone dog gone forgot pack cousins handgun closet might use get with not might buy sleeping pills peacefully really know yet anything live for