lonely self motivation post xpost rlonelymy entire life alone separated rest humanity different sure friends girlfriends one ever stood me everyone went away end cry help one answers constant endless suffering depression anxiety loneliness jealousy complex emotions even understand tearing limb limb slowly chipping away left happiness sure may young still emotions still feel pain everyone tried turn to every time try get help get treated like outcast monster day pain worsens become lonely matter with many people around me ever one person never felt slightest bit loneliness around one special girl turned me like everyone else left lied me broke trust destroyed every last bit hope happiness left everyone sees happy one understands feel may physically young could see goes inside head would understand everything complex confusing mind like tangled mess wires everything feels chaotic messy never ends every day proceed live life desolate lonely room pushing forward trying get by hope one day suffering end want happy much ask one day come back see this see bad show myself things get better beat this keep living keep fighting