want anymoreliving life without father really hard really cant stand knowing hes probably enjoying life familys rotting away somewhere never got love support family material things would make life worse ive probably gotten family short congrats top  grade like  years grades slowly started getting worse worse family got aggresive insensitive time went on point mentally physically emotionally exhausting me ive tried talking usually works  days come back before like  friends wholeheartedly trust one slowly drifting away hurts person friend  years become love life im close friends trust enough bad enough trust issues too help physically abused throughout childhood without fighting back whole thing badly composed im tired want anything anymore able afford therapy anyway guess end line