know anymoreive always issues wanting kill ive tried many many times ive gotten point right im happy know change it cant make care pretend to know why lying time crushing know another way stop it cant sleep want cry always wants sex bugs let happen want keep it everything else want something say ill anyway  want to everyone believes im happy girl much going her im happy happy years  months ago ex broke tore apart forgotten care hurts makes want end everything much take long keep pretending care im left alone one people think im crazy send back hospital