strange thoughts morningafter watching video someone posted dying words the one front pagethe guy leukemia suddenly started feeling selfish condition known depression find using sometimes almost like crutch went hating embarrassed fully embracing talking openly it comparing someone cancer makes feel like utter douche signed back license weeks ago make organ donorjust case something ever happen me made feel good myself morning however watching video washed overwhelming feeling selfish living people need organs dying go ahead die someone else live taking space whining problems someone else lot potential never overwhelming actually scaring lot im kind freaking moment