feel awful inside out depressed since child absolutely fucking exhausting single mom stuck every time think way end it think fucking guilt overwhelming nothing outside looking in appear okay business daughter mostly happy ill post positive things social media actually fucking dying inside business essentially bankrupted me fucking money always trying figure going take care daughter put gas borrowed car drive mine work anymore going eat tired living like this thing keeping falling apart person getting along huge argument yesterday know things never same absolutely heart broken feel like failure slept today thankfully daughter too took park used gift card get food  toy made sure great day drew pictures colored together great day bed crying grandmother want end fucking badly so so sad cannot stop crying everything hurts face swollen fucking internet crying stupid fucking life feel fucking pathetic cannot okay brain like this like this try fucking hard get nowhere wish something would happen accidentally want disappoint daughter live consequences actions end it absolutely cannot live like longer fuck even do fucking sad possible live like this body stopped