get rid call voidintrusive thoughtstitle says all context whenever im distracted start thinking killing myself random violent things especially going somewhere i cycle nearly everywhere night think bit leftover intrusive thought time contemplate redflag even though things changed think im even considering anymore catch awful thoughts think theyre call void people describe like tall building think i could technically jump course id never that however really neutral usually ends fully playing head seeing grieving family etc many times crying bike arrived somewhere completely drained ruined good night sleep myself anybody know way distract yourselflearn think differently etc ps listening happy music anything help often makes worse