chronic asthma allergy feel sick everyday tired gasp breath even simplest tasks able work home barely getting tired burned out hard even simple tasks acute attacks trigger feels like life ripped body struggle oxygen add allergy foods means able eat foods weakened digestion suffer pain food poisoning eat something may contain allergic ingredients sometimes feel exist every day samegetting dragging shitty body work even unable keep normal tasks getting rebuked work coming home repeating thing cannot imagine fucking death watching people die due lack oxygen painful even watch cannot eat anything drink gasping breath coupled depression makes experience even better tired