im beyond disappointed myselfim going say it today found ex someone else cant take it happened last year well breaking me gutwrenching excruciating thing ive ever through seeing gush another girl way me time around graduated never need see again oh god stomach knots feel paralyzed many thoughts swirling around mind good enough insist want relationship anyone turn around get someone else fucking upset could possibly happy without me hell feel need kind control him oh god hate it want feel way mind warped toxic cant get head cant stop thinking hes going lose virginity someone me hes going love someone loved me someone going make happier did horrible echo chamber mind chorus it me her me memememememememe bouncing around killing inside fucking narcissistic thought boy even long dating someone else fills jealousy rage pain im afraid ill doomed always jealous obsessive ex want this could move would long time ago even want make post im fucking ashamed still fucking obsessed bitter hate it really do cant move one stupid piece shit dragged hell fucked over living really worth it