hospital foodive tried sleeping day feel sick constantly almost dinner time im thinking back many times suffer disgusting dinner funny barely responded friends family sit thread feel strongest try write guys feel like guys care know people life right now feel pricked poked out want go home bed dog feels empty here keep replaying last night again could changed done different would made time time go sit bundle room temperature cooled hospital blankets pillows would expected sleeping  years straight mattress one would care sleep on three different cops ive counted far today dont talk them try talk ask different things need anything always ask nurse ready die cop wants know want fucking water want body burning ash currently compromise life time maybe next time asks ill say yes