holy shit im terrible humanafter first real relationship ended took pretty hard result said nasty things ex mistake number one mistake number two continuing message told wanted nothing me this guess wanted try amend wrongdoings made even worse leaving fuck alone third mistake continually stalked social media awhile like sort addiction good things say me one thing stuck really respect bisexuality as fetishizing sex women this feel like complete utter pile shit ive realized im horrible person want better call fuck die rings head loud clear also girlfriend thinks im great realize im lousy piece shit also completely bat shit insane never loved myself struggled suicidal thoughts many years idea recover actually better person