could escape could see happy different lifei used think trapped sort life ended many bad situations life seemed like sort curse thought something would make bad always follow me im finally starting accept true ive seen much bad could never believe imagine good know theres nothing wrong me loved accepted respected ive managed always around people never loved accepted respected illluck nothing me somewhere else could happy life least easier imagine now but im currently living abusive people wish could fly away get go place mind cant money car nowhere live fragile body cant live street couches though mind damaging temporarily knowing could find happy place much faith people happy seems people complain put fake cheer think luckier wish money friends fun joy wish surrounded people always trying undermine me sounds simple feels impossible im stuck know ever end soulsucking life goes eternity day day