self harmthis first post please forgive follow correct protocolformat etc  year old female lives boyfriend always bouts depression ever since around  recently unexpected major bad episode attempted redflag overdose hanging myself attempts failed setraline which helped before im starting feel even keel signed work hr department really nice supportive bought kitten love pieces already even lifted mood loti think may something making feel needed however still struggle self harm know lot people use self harm seek attention gain help people around them use way mainly go areas people cant see for example inner thigh inner top arm groin etc try make cuts seem accidental try go deep try leave scar but often fail reason cut get sense relief releases pressure brain makes sense know helps feel suicidal anymore feel thoughts feelings hiding shadows ready pounce againim scared care family amazing supportive boyfriend logic care dead terrible know stop hurting still find way get rid dark weight mind comes