shower started think life realy miserable mom says  single mom  month old currently living parents going parental court take   care soni get  morning rain shine matter panic attack night before tend son every needs play read take walks goes bed around  go bed too asleep i currently sick leave due redflag stayed home son till march  hours alone every day except weekends spend daysrelaxing napping days cleaning getting back feet went pndpna ppdppa pregnancypostpartum redflagdepression redflag went shits eating disorder blossomed again hard since need put son first done time put first daytime workingi got social life well talk bit neighbours parents kindergarten meet friends date focus son feel lonely anything bit failure times hard mom worst days want get bed to getting outside playground also hard iti feel like putting much hard work mom talks tells cut crap life miserable starting think might befrom  everything utter shit contempt good place even though struggeling ppd lifted alot love son much waiting whole motherly feeling want stay bubble working hard mama son needs means much social day working mebefore son sociali about worked   made even sick things pace working showeringbrushing teeth jazz want slip end dark hole again super confusedis life seriously miserable life sound miserable