adult life ripped shreds front mei see future me im  taking care family since graduated high school chance go college work pay billsall it mother dying father disabled seriously despise him mother going go away leave piece shit take care of think theres future me horrible past look future see situation getting worse feel like ive missed everything life offer im bitter  year old man  year olds body need advice run away end let someone luckier take space im tired looking others see life ripped shreds right front me