fell love married womani fell love best friend happens married woman ling says fell love too  months together trying figure leave bad marriage told time horrible husband wanted live life me came clean month ago husband telling me guilted staying saying disobeyed god owes stay well continued tell believes god let leave someday found tonight husband told leave literally got suitcase put front her decide stay also gone back sleeping him emails telling things also saying continues pray everyday god bring us together know do husband threatened put restraining order me feel guilty also time hurt constant back forth i believe together need stay driving insane know believe anymore constant pain unbearable