cutting become habiti bought knife set to cut fruits parents believe dorm room uni started cutting last year one day drunk things escalated point cant go longer week without cutting myself point actually feels exhilarating relaxing like good music  ive started using tactic stay awake study get laugh i laugh im pain idk ask brief adrenaline rush attention mind you touched wrists anywhere scars might get spotted ive started considering neck stop id like cease mess up i mean accidental death would great all like this