think im going try tomorrowbackground first rodeo ive dealing suicidal thoughts since   years later theyre coming again louder ever heard chester bennington history abuse learned victimized ages music life support young cant shake idea happens life hard deal kid  degrees psychology still cant get stop really thats want point stuck body mind anymore lost job due depression lost partner similar reasons survived car crash fucked brain thats past  years able pick find life worth living instead keep treading water matter many job apps put plans make future pan out feels like end road want end suffering tomorrow im going show see one favorite bands ive using show reason hang past couple months  silly working over theres whole lot else keep figure im still unhappy end night hell point holding on comes tomorrow night im going try hanging bedsheet slip knotted doorknob thrown top slip knotted around neck ive gotten setup see would hold does worry cat since want cause pain owner around shes attached end either going goes firstits inevitable know im telling this im alone would good feel heard guess