never cheat soulmatetwo years ago cheated girlfriend cuddleing another woman bed sex kisses still okey still decided me cries time still thinking it looks like enough probably leave day love eachother much cant take pain never believed term soulmate met fucked everything life ifwhen leaves dont want live anymore really want easiest painless death get ashamed make even sad redflag feel sad family friends life  without her best friend since  years old lose forever