fucking stupid ever think im worthy happiness im miserable stupid annoying piece shit dont real friends never im worth it fucking run away rot gutter long ago like planned nobody would fucking miss one would care id get suffering deserve people would finally rid me theyd finally get one annoying kid stop bothering stop pretending nice everyone dont know ever thought people would want friend im loser im nerd im complete dumbass overall fucking pathetic excuse functioning human im supposed social high life havent talked close friends month every time pretend excited see me say hey whats up casual talk people expect every time ask wanna hang out question gets pushed aside oh im busy sorry theyll happily post much great time theyre friends week wish could fucking already already know one would care never spoke again thats holding back fear failure becoming burden already am disgusting live like trudge ever onward false hopes happiness one day