yesterday good day got back town grandmothers funeral ride home airport girlfriend broke me took three days gone move stuff out texting saying excited see got back feels like entire world crashing around nothing it every single abandonment issue worked hard cropping back nowhere go here week ago commented here saying felt low years man wrong much worse before like went zero mach jesus manner minutes even bad ended marriage maybe support system anymore me alone apartment cannot afford own cat loved girlfriend loves mei feel spiraling back headspace teenager wish could say cared honestly not like reconnecting old friend usually pull covers sadness forget ready crawl bed forget everything want crawl bed stay