think im scared idk whyi never met someone bigger loser myself left girl job friends come florida dad brother moved pipe dream said needed help pay bills always thought cant turn back family ive year friends im working two shit jobs living life bottle time go college im living parent age  im always broke im awkward shy cant make conversation friends all ive never felt alone im options drive uber eats go bring  reason cant know need never happy moved im happy now carry know stop pain fear wanna free cant i