disappoint loser person venting  structure wall texthave never used reddit before honestly dont know anymore highly unlikely anyone see give fuck wanna get shit chest currently student seems like everything going wrong online classes completely screwed clue recover grades used thing even remotely good me problems minuscule compared everyone else im even suicidal wish never existed im lazy fuck zero drive whatsoever get life back together friends nothing genuinely makes happy im even adulthood yet cant even survive full confidence real world im going struggle even more loving family fucking hate myself im disappointment failure sister parents hard working im exact opposite shame eating inside motivation dont care enough fix it hate shit feel like im attention seeker im making mockery people real struggles dont depression want commit redflag wish never born wouldnt disappoint family parents got therapist didnt help slightest cant open people felt bad wasting money theyve done everything im lazy hopeless nothing works point dont believe anything help me going cut here im repeating getting nowhere anyone read whatever fuck wrote hope dont relate way sincerely hope things get better you