enoughmy mom always wanted kids tying tubes met stepfather wants kids him always tells wants more and oh nice would kids intepretations never directly said but fault got tubes tied constantly threatens me hitting grounding aswell taking stuff away like clothes bedding tells easily get rid me dont know handle anymore planned multiple versions redflag one grosser last im still here think dad child horrible would him im worried cats friends want hurt bad cant it cry much get headaches it want enough feel like outsider want feel loved cared for want lifted held someones arms abusive narsistisstic tendincies cant go day school night without crying help me do