im going die anyway nowim terrible putting shit thats head words feel like get feel across im options firstly im  live uk currently go college cant help angry feeling like this great family others would see good life look alot posts rsw find someone going see anyone anything helpful say see people abused things like that pain must seem like nothing comparison grades college terrible exams coming up im extremely unprepared enjoy many things anymore soon leave college parents expect get job new job since one parttime really stresses out im shy mere thought meet impress new people scares me im homosexual not openly means come see burden part me spend days worrying next often stay late night unable sleep cry thinking inevitable reality failure  even im crying write this would want live fail struggle could easily swallow many pills possible sit bath cut cant keep eyes open pain seems much easier take living broken life watch family friends die death seems much peaceful route im likely take life sorry huge block text