know aloneim getting divorced im upset divorce love anymore im shattered hes life realize alone really am yeah ive made friends already  people work get along really well started dating even though thats proper word it friends benefits would accurate breaks heart because yanno feel things way deeply fell love feel same thats completely different issue im still lonely im realizing need needed need it otherwise feel like im waste space sure people care want around gone would anyone lost without me would anyone cry sleep need see me touch me hold me cant no one would im convenient im person people go one else im everyones backup ones priority even like marriage realize time painfully clear know live like this know know im totally completely utterly alone know see value one else see it try occupy time spend time me go walks lunch shopping spend time work friends spend time guy im seeing one ever really me someone else significant other child friend really really need them there part knows drop them cant need help good friends right now ill take bad friends friends all look stupid throw help lines little hints that hey im okay need you go unnoticed make obvious someone finally takes bait open up feel like burden like wish id shut deal lives worry me whats fucking point here one needs me nothing going me fucking quit give up die not put torture living fucking great stressful empty im done im tired im broken im fucking done im done