life fell apart could watchfor past  months ive watched life fall apart everything going ruined it given multiple chances redeem failed every time feel hopeless now ive gotten help doctors therapist didnt help anything made worse ive tried look healthy social support closest friends moved away alone one talk anymore ive tried optimistic pick pieces try make something ive failed too whole life one big failure know family friends look me honestly end road ive exhausted options im going write every single one friends letter dont want blame themselves ill write family ones  cant take living failures anymore know do