im officially admittedly depressed tw want move toxic houseturning  thought id magical way house money accomplish goals finally report abusive ex rapist thought finally get therapy etc stopped taking zoloft sertraline back cold turkied good emotional parents dont take anymore eye exams doctors appts concern swept rug always say theyll get therapy glasses never follow through need therapy ive needed since freshman year cheap therapists never give shit me called one saying suicidal wanting go politely told calm hung up dug trauma never showed another appointment braces years teeth straight beautiful year ago dentist told need wisdom teeth removed asap itll destroy progress guess cant afford it need glasses weak eye doesnt drift direction quite frankly im used looking fucked ive raised average family may selfish want ugly im terrified finally job cant leave money yet started first training day today looking job months dad wouldnt let work dad selfish controlling mom praises kisses feet defends him theres way point itll long time