ive worked hard im tiredi struggled mental illness since child remember one point time happy full laughter light energy years gone however ive felt hollow sometimes recognize person mirror eyes light world dim dark smiling act used second nature difficult effort takes makes facial expression ugly grotesque chest feels heavy tight constricted deepest breath take gasp feel empty starved relief vast majority wrong choices bad decisions actions unintentionally hurt people done desperate misguided attempts feel something anything besides pain emptiness despair ive never wanted hurt anyone people told keep trying keep fighting say need me say would devastated there want hurt anyone know people love would miss me want keep fighting sake own fellow redditors im terribly tired ive got nothing left either feel numb hollow im much pain constantly makes tremble feel like im tortured people ask want want say please tell goodbye please tell love me understand hope find rest badly need could somebody please tell goodbye could somebody please wish well hope find peace find rest im tired