since age  never friend cared me shitty ass school friends whose activity play fucking boring dumb video games whole teen life thrown away sitting front rectangle screen wasting life realized life brings joy good friends meeting other fuck man never experienced that everytime go city see groups people me awkwardly going alone streets course older brother good paying job wife good friends even moved  times already me  years old finished highschool scared job life  days applied studying something know cannot it course got bullied secondary school since even know word social meantthis even long text felt like ranting today hope someone relate c anyone else never good friend interested you after childhood