acti cant remember last time talked person myself feel anything anyone anymore cant remember like happy feel utterly sad time like years now feel like cant anymore hate myself hate every person know hate school hate city hate everything pain escape long help much anymore want end fear might go finally muster strenght end life cant good nights sleep more spent night aimlessly walking around hoping somehow could think way keep going everything think hate everything pretty much pray help ive never told anyone really feel before ive hid scars dont know anymore