tragedy tragedy cant handle more think ive limit year ive hospitalized many times ive lost count want quit want quit hell is form torture corner hell claim form hell purgatory maybe release would put better place thats everyone claims someone passes away all want peace im going go much detail would easy identify me suffice say issues since around  years old go job job never really able maintain normal human required society function son dies  months take it definition fathers job there responsibly take action protect family sole job life whether protection comes form keeping nightmares away story telling getting job provide failed ultimate test life fool i could allow happen son hope care turn imagine dead corpse stuck mind something positive tell dead infant turned positive tell positive