thank kind strangers internetive made couple throwaway reddit accounts last year change searching help clarity ive trying trying get better place people always nice it though im holding together family member im staying associate christmas death clean everything pack things away easier sort out think ill take road trip listen music run gas longer believe everyone matters many people dying every day nobody cares ive always figured lip service people say make feeling better like getting moral karma point nice leper you matter dont people dont  half billion people planet way even  us matter especially me wanted want like things wanted life cant deal homeless two months cant recover again want abused shelter anymore thank keeping company many times really mean it theres one else bye bye