get overwhelming feeling always unhappyim  college dropping end semester hate major much sick wasting money right look forward working minimum wage retail working spend time outside class still unsure ill able pay rent month never fun college experiences one might expect have ive lost friends except shitty boyfriend abandoned isolated them spending day going class working people emotional strength spend time them im introvert sense find lot social interaction emotionally draining help engineering students bright futures ahead them hardly tolerate listening conversations reminds waste time coming ill probably never amount anything nearly great will cant think single time life truly happy even child usually able function normally long think life every often cant help think life future overcome overwhelming feeling despair want bawl eyes out example right im sitting work trying hold back tears