im done feel emptyive struggling several mental health problems since secondary schooluk  years im feeling worse worse longest time school work since cant bring things even talk people also means dropped college due able force bed days scared people im unemployed living dad girlfriend  years watched get worse worse years point accomplishment put shirt awake longer  hours time one thing makes happy cooking cant deal stress professionally since money coming cant often coupled rat move recently keeps getting pantry starting get much want everything stop want go sleep never wake up dont want live day day life anymore ive enough it want normal person want able get job work  move girlfriend shut awake hours pm am im done