puppy dying ii know say ive raised special needs puppy day born weekend took turn worse vet today sent emergency veterinary college state took three hours lot false promises said accepting would thousands dollars told morning ive sold camper took loan car put downpayment surgery want even tomorrow treat her release balance even could get gas drive three hours back college cant even end depression social anxiety made shit life social media nobody small circle help gofundme tried desperation gone nowhere cant get word out im money food hope world two years ago lost person dearest redflag teetering line deciding follow now hope tether world brief time beside worthless powerless save her im broke ridiculous piece shit dead end shit job alone lonely ive dealt enough failing someone dear dependent greatly probably losing great beyond last straw theres hope kindness charity warmess world cold unfeeling money grubbing kill her ive lost everyone time ill join love sweet eternal silence leave dirty greedy world behind sometimes okay sometimes decision have good luck fellow travelers