depressed least think episodei feel fucking dead insidei feel apathetic literally everythingi cannot sleep well lost job anything physically day anymore want look new jobs job hunting trashi start college fall even find job able work littleparents ass college enrollment best care spending life anything better quick little bursts dopamine like videogames weed sex internet memesi care live tomorrow die right minute could care single heartbeatthe thing keeps alright boyfriend much unhealthy would die ruin relationshipjust fucking dead inside feeling dead inside rant