never felt like want livei never suicidal ive good life really im  days ago lost best friend identical twin sister cant explain kind grief causing feel like cant breath always us always together one soul two bodies plenty friends close family half one person would never let always back  even wrong without im sinking cant live like this cant imagine future without her first got news thought would actually die right then sadly didnt gave medicine calm me cant stay drugs forever cant exist like this want die want live without her