feel like end vacationthe last two months total hell me ive lowest many years ive never felt level stress anxiety depression anger never feel good matter stimulants helps im going big camping trip tomorrow seeing family havent seen bit im hoping ill feel better doubt thatll true im thinking ill try enjoy trip much possible end high note possible id feel terrible parents doubt many would care dont want deal constant self loathing anxiety everything do dont want obsess ex constantly leading toying me saying well try get back together loves goes around fucking random guys dont want worry getting fulls im going university afterwards im tired dragging along people im tired sick life