feel stupidi know people willing help everything seems pointless people talk everyday days necessarily bad end feeling lonely pathetic every night ive stopped feeling motivated anything reason get work done feeling absolute terror able escape horrible situation im home try always people something home alone difficult everyone things going on know distracting problems healthiest feels better pretend like everything going great feels better people always asking im okay help one person mind talking going want talk anymore feels like everything keep unhealthily bottling going spill inconvenient embarrassing situation