set failurei understand point living someone like me compare einstein poor foreign kid motivation live like them im stupid depression social anxiety physically unattractive ive spent  years studying hard nothing return drop  subjects chemistry physics backup am right now adults really need make minds say high school everything say best yrs life better atar make life easier past half yearlies tests im talking lowest rank  average subjects cant focus im mentally sick hsc left think study anymore high school handle failure stress well would even hire job im scrawny female parents admitted burden siblings call moody pessimistic get phase whole life pls tell golden story breaking shell feel like vomitting start crying shaking near ppl point im waiting opportunity like tall building train deep water physical pain cutting last moment stop existing forever nothings holding back feel bad wasting familys time money me hate living gift me im waiting death old age come want check gets worse