utilitarian perspective kill myselflegitimately think  everyone know school dislikes me barely tolerate me hate presence i cant exactly avoid them  idea about died tonight might bit sad and think like either might even happy although im sure theyd get weeks close friends way closest friend barely interact with perhaps scale hours week deactivated account facebook week ago days study business test came back post  likes happy everyone see gone thats depressing im negative effect everyone know everyone tells me though maybe stop negative effect everyone stop pissing people off fuck know that spent life interacting normal people idea piss people off solution think of point stop interacting anyone whatsoever would basically involve cutting world would pretty shitty need socially interact making life even worse already is family possibly people might sad yet feel like im one main causes parents fighting eg shitty marks supporting financially dying would help relationship future im close brother although might sad die im depressed really hate annoying everyone else first reason im still alive ive always something do finish book tv show game yet now nothing rest life do vague indefinable concept involve probably getting job due lack social skills living streets homeless reason im alive im selfish person despite fact killing would create net happiness increase amongst humanity since people know would relieved gone bugging them still done fear death still take least happiness life value happiness others even live admit im selfish hate others enough inflict them charitable act could would killing myself stop happy killing would give higher net happiness letting life continue would let acquire probably im lazy acquire materials