say lonely huge contradictory cannot get along people terrible notredflag trust issues jealousy mostly social redflag kills every situation sober  years good thing addiction problems spiral control effect work life like get fired stop showing up friends know talk people casually friends ever people drank drugs anymore one ex cheated friend mine even see coming huge shock in love time like  years ago anyone since still think miss even tho talk take anti depressants work going feel suicidal  time see bright future like loneliness working weekend everything nothing myself hypothetically get girlfriend would work worth constant worry cheating leaving right back was  year old male nothing live for looking sort advice heard sure help possible