gun head right nowi everything bought gun got hotel room got hotel room called ex last person know im kill myself hung up wouldnt respond texts messages phone calls expected leave darkest moment again sent email location contact numbers people know  hours ago thought maybe cared enough call cops alert me even that even that guns safety im holding trigger typing this im mad dont want last thought her doesnt deserve it already worse ive ever felt towards her finger wont pull trigger im trying thought pops head stops me wants die maybe reverse psychology idk idk do checkout soon dont want live still dont want last thought her fuck man