suicidal thoughts againthese thoughts strong feel unable speak move body know want kill found love life want spend rest life him hate everything life every little thing  attempted university  times depressed stupid finish stuck shitty warehouse jobs rest life remember every single minor inconvenience life cant stop thinking them starting remembering  boys molesting sexually abused  feeling constantly lonely isolated since  could go hate english never open here feel extra suicidal today fuck corona fuck job fuck people fuck life fuck everything