think point get tension headaches cannot think anymore headache hate lot without logic although still hate even think things cannot even control loser blessed born iran rd world garbage county also blessed lgbt fucking place spice family also broke accept me sometimes think dad even want kid again keep thinking anything ever wanted issues disappear would happy know happiness feels like really non existent concept naive happiness kid like  now feels like nothing absolutely matters know matters anymore except  friends feel like damn burden amount issues  much hate much loser am constantly thinking going tired soon enough kind sweet feels like long run maybe even would happier mething is think want die know why seems like way it thoughts offing keep popping head make feel like solution annoys much want live lost confused feel like idk done just idk really know keep crying like baby times broken sense mine self hatred death want live