failing everythingi essay due monday understand readings spoke prof thinks im fine probably wanted get rid me exams summer going fail understand material im intelligent enough clearly work work work work get nowhere im nearly  teenager anymore cant afford make dumb mistakes like this tried everything right going wrong know now feel like dumb idiot child ill go back shitty little hometown live parents let time pass by soon ill  position     dead pointless life hard make something myself feel like everyone else knows secret life dont people fulfilled lives friends good grades good diets workouts hobbies etc cant one things god ive tried im end road rock bottom see way up death seems like sweet relief id go jump front tube train want traumatise driver know do rant