stay happyi posted several times before time talked killing myself however tired talked it want either stop miserable die recently quit job mcdonalds making suicidal ever going college scared horrible grades think may go academic probation that large student loans pilled head job way ever get job dead end job makes want kill myself therefore decided go probation ill kill myself gotten obsessed idea death lately think death would like ways could quickly die  day bothersome me people situation even worse situations able stay happy frustrating me people happy feel like completely missing something people are genetic mindset either could ever change mindsets genetics all are tldr extraordinarily unhappy many situations likely going kill end semester unless find way stay happy tired talked it final decision instead want advice happy