im cowardbecause cant take leap im standing edge here cant it im scared anything around me im grateful everyone im shitty human im leech drain everything want something else someone competent someone better whoever am try might success seems reach though ive accomplished nothing well truth plus side right anywhere else help expensive every day gets harder harder even trust anymore feel useless wish something anything could feel useless hardest part friends know like come advice people even look me know im worried look me want say know itll make sad know put that yet am ready jump cant keep asking pick speeches help getting shit together many cant even admit im sad broken shell human being want this want die want live guess want say someone shit really really hard life really really hard im shitty human think really shitty possibly even make good martyr anything maybe go kind hunger strike something cause notbut theres nothing either care anything enough please understand love everyone thats fucking hard many ways know struggling know problems know mine worst know means im weak know means im worthless anyway thats piece im gonna stand bit longer ill either take long way short way im leaning toward short way honestly either way ill see see you