cant keep ittalk abuse ahead guess cant go four years shithole town cant stay college know many horrible people live close want fresh start cant it i cant afford leave cant live anymore cant live town painful memories have im sick passing restaurants im sick hearing name casual conversation worry running father town somewhere living town everyone either ignores treats like scum im sick fucking idiot cant tell directions talk anything himself hate live town person assaulted fucking school bathroom felt class hate constantly hear its four years leave college even want live long boyfriend talked got kitten whos extremely attached me thought id able start start transitioning  would new beginning im seeing dim tunnel ahead god damn cant keep it im sorry formattedwritten well am feel like im going vomit guts up one talk already worry everyone life enough get somewhere im probably dramatic really cant live way four years