writing thislet absolutely clear know devastate family know devastate friends know devastate community let also clear saying depression made look horrific consequences realize simply willpower live life solely benefit others tomorrow going drown lake cold painful perfect quiet end quiet life perhaps lived longer would find something live for perhaps would make something myself perhaps none would happen year line kill anyway let cruelty hope drag another painful year know problems lie intrinsically within myself simply cannot bear longer sad seventeen years old im going hurt family ways even vengeful person dream of done sad tired goodbye