im sad anymore still want diei depressed maybe year kinda kept hid pretty well slowly got worse worse started seriously consider redflag hid pretty well friends started notice something wrong me one night got really drunk finally told one friends feeling told rest friends took see counselor show support great everyone come ive seeing counselor ever since ive feeling lot happier lately reason cant shake wanting die thought going see counselor becoming happy life would solution been want live life happy want live life depressed really know point