high school dropout suffering depression anxiety lonely fuckim  life look worse me dropped high school last year due mental health issues school ultimately unable address school behaviorallychallenged children lot really fucking scary people it towered threatened albeit subtly almost every single day could go normal high school would reject me believe tried teachers overworked underpaid lot bullying issues went unresolved one day enough broke crying told really really wanted drop out told  you least  live oddly enough went home told mom shit suggested homeschooling research found requirements really lax easily abused so there homeschooled reality though nothing play video games watch anime day mind understandable reason dropped out inexcusable sit nothing free time now  year later filled even less selfesteem left school constantly suicidal thoughts chronically unable improve myself could make argument could get ged good there probably correct thats im worried about see real life friends want make some hospitalized recently due telling therapist wanted kill myself hospital another kid dropped everyone shat it constantly saying hes gonna end prison never gonna wife job etc saw cry moment got hit much builtup anxiety suicidal ideation returned now stronger ever whos gonna want date high school dropout gonna get well paying nonminimum wage job going make good friends fuck all kill now