know im anymoreive depressed years getting worse life keeps falling apart wasted  years useless college music program even like music anymore even bigger waste  years adult high school try get university computer science got in except ive pretty much failed university since demandinggoogle uoft cs post basically need  average get second year  average figured thats decent mark id go backup plan transferring different university except got rejected feel stupid guess  terrible all world want im dumb ambitions left goals im dead end im debt wasted time spent school get shitty minimum wage jobs actually barely even get jobs spent almost year looking shitty job right now oh probably thousands dollars dental work need get done broken teeth cavities im doomed poor forever top friends never girlfriend virgin  course one wants friend im depressed negative ugly broken front tooth even smile wanted people would get grossed out extremely skinny since eat im antidepressants seeing social worker going group cognitive behavior therapy thing none stuff working cant fix future ahead me cant even go public more see everyone else enjoying lives get jealous makes angry go home hate myself fuck doing