im going tell gp suicidal thoughts therapist yetsuicidal thoughts plans getting intense know medication could kill me ive trying plot without painful gross death most pill overdoses let go painlessly sleep no horrifying lonely terrible way go ive decided want peaceful dignified death loved ones maybe hospital medication give take away pain panic ive hell lot life part get suicidal sometimes honestly thats also deserve peaceful death ive suffered enough mean cant guarantee die heart attack something get drift chances ideal death increase redflag im going tell gp see wednesday ill tell ive thoughts drifting severity planning certain like off psych ward you since psych ward mainly exists point im going kill right now im there know could thats good step right suicidal thoughts medically relevant someone needs know ive them probably refer therapist andor psychiatrist take note it get carted occasional thoughts important medical professional know ill tell her