nowtwo months ago starts ive depression years feel cant hold longer probably fault too mean fired drinking job liquor store wrecked car hammered top off love life leaves me job car fuck those her glue last three years everything real girlfriend confidence little is shattered since cant push actually try fix myself  years life true accomplishments goals thing ive managed nab beautiful unlucky women deserve let slip away maybe fat idiotic self deserves this whats next theres honesty much else see working life job ill hate really better death