im suicidal feel die one daytheres redflags parents families baby aunt killed  forced abortion grandmother years later mums uncle killed struggled depression  mum tried kill found dad cheating her admitted hospital months  dad killed girlfriend left him thought better without him midteens youngest brother tried kill struggling everything know redflag left behind still feel like haunting me  actually told school therapist maybe kill myself never actually told anyone time anyone would listened me anything hurt right now might sound silly reason living right dog ive seen life like without caring away college him right happiness