 indian depressed single life want stab neckif known life going depressing sad would plotted womb demise atleast mother agrees that used say wish killed womb life depressing spend  hours toilet done  minutes quite certain people around consider ugly social skills wish good communicating emotions also struggle making people smile laugh love people laugh jokes might happened twice life want get married parents trying hard convince arranged love marriage would choice want get married first place think would good husband father know never good son brother friend want end