im gonna kill tonighthi im  year old girl im gonna kill tonight aspergers syndome borderline personality disorder im aggressive get angry parents assault them punch dangerous things im normal cant control myself honest know parents still alive love much im sick dangerous im reason parents depressed alcoholic im reason dad wanna live anymore died would finally free hate friends always tell ugly annoying am which true still im outcast group friends feel alone hate much sometimes used bring knife school could kill wanted to would never able kill another human being thats felt time ive always outcast wherever go really understand why dress like girls im pretty normal outside im good imitating normal people understand im always weird one hate much months ago actually started talking boy crush long time decided actually talk him started talking everyday everynight deep conversations middle night started fall love him always thought id single rest life felt like miracle me know may sound ridicolous started feel hope happy course three days ago stopped responding feel fucking miserable know sounds like small problem life already falling apart small things destroy everything wanna live anymore im sick dangerous life falling apart many dreams life wanted move australia become criminologist start family fuck it im awful human would everyone favor killed myself thats im gonna tonight know wrote makes sense wanted let thoughts out wish good life god bless you goodbye