guess clich alreadyhello actually really know start this guess introducing myself im girl  years old college student informatics major pretty much life right now guess clich say find place world think ever will hurts hurts damn much think anything choose not you went sports got called talented medals international titles it never felt like place there never felt like belonged there grew up like another clich bullied skinny result hated myself still do could never look mirror say you look pretty today felt like mirror hated much hated myself bullying happened school came home mother told ever wanted friends boyfriend skinny even fat then healthy weight thought high school would change everything would like movies suddenly get ton friends become pretty life gets better life got worse time also knee injury give sport got fatter fatter made keep going started vocal lessons i know think clichic misunderstood artist ill honest natural born talent even it always afraid people even sing way thought could block myself lessons felt like world right time belonged somewhere purpose even though one stood concerts told good voice special charm swear god day words best compliment ive ever received give music senior year high school final exams coming i think called sats usa since then told pick path life major college beyonce mariah carey subtly brought option family immediately dismissed it now major informatics ill honest hate math always did since thing loved reach chose would bring biggest amount money today failed first exam came crushing me never meant this think future looks like see nothing consider ending because lets real life one live die afraid thought waking mid s hating life job everything surrounds me live like that bothered read till end thank you honestly felt say it would overdosed first pills could get hands on even now know myself feel helpless angry myself angry everyone everything feel pain wanted reach out maybe theres way time too ive dealing depression long time never got guts act dark thoughts scared becoming braver lately scared myself feel like breathing peoples oxygen stop wasting it clichic right another depressed teen feels like belong feel bad even trying reach out deserve saved