ive killed head least ten times todayim tired energy move forward anymore care life kind go everyday motions without drive im shy overly self conscience ive developed social anxiety years im afraid everything panic time feel like everyone know thinks im joke every time feel like im getting little better feelings come back stronger harder cant get head know explain im feeling even want fear shrugged fact mother friends im done life want put fucking gun head pull trigger im fucking trapped money therapist car work dead end job money gone end week cant fucking take anymore