genuinely want gone world lack resources disturbing unethicalall self help books inspirational shame memeposts help lines etc still complete lack help wanting end life effectively understand why jesus even post simply asking writing note pulled mods couple days ago elderly physically ill one would question death remaining option im s relatively physically healthy im supposed suffer because theres nothing here im terrified messing attempt life even worse im researching methods definitely going timing element everythingand think struggling much make happen theres million therapists medications already proven work chance getting better alternatives option actually ashamed despite cutesy memes society delusional obligation make sure living better matter quality life is even want hear but people miss me bullshit miss grandmother time go miss people die immortality answer time fair alone fearful someone finding execute it sorry rant over get back scrolling