guess got breakup well understatement  month  days but whos counting dumped text talking online fried asked still liked me said direct quote used to im bi different group people like five seconds later screenshot conversation sent him played dumb first thinking meant see im bi part rather used like her portion guess thought good tell cruelly end gave saw meant see then natural reflexes hide emotions kicked in pretended give damn did still do honest cant quite work feel this emotions range were mature yearold get become stronger together i know weird around him still civilised go die fucking bastard whos far chicken worth time around him put fake front smile laugh act like care inside hurts see happier without me guess fact life miss him miss quirky geeky personality obsession things medical miss tried fit crowd yet managed entirely unique special miss way would anything cheer up miss ability make laugh split second miss would make feel like person world mattered miss long talks way first person approached faced problem viceversa all miss trust other best friend barely proper sentence passes us day month since got dumped know im him yet still feel hollow inside like part missing friends tell hes worth it hes trash move on still defend were friends right know feeling way normal know terms hiding emotions right know want best friend back want happy need like love me please treat friend im sorry whoever reads new felt like typing out seeking advice listening ear read this thanks hearing 