life led tomy life started  june th name gavin ignore reddit name joke please ban commit note notes ready life always bad lived grandma horder everything used sleep close never able shower use restroom cook untill certain point life thought normal so gonna fast forward march   time went church day like every sunday little know would different rest dramaplat class church acted old bible storys new twist kind modern old school time grandmawho call mimi call mimi rest storyrushes says get shoes crying visibly scared upset get car go back aunts house little cousin aunt says dad rush branson missouri see shot girl friendnot mom cleaning gun forgot unload standing killed instantly proceeded shot  times another guy room speak irrelevant pronounced dead latter hospital pulled plug mom left new born killed self unrelated dads death without knowing killed assume forgot mention dad died also raped beaten want google dad put branson missouri murder redflag tulsa couple google search struggled depression  years therapy stoped helping stoped going help anymore point turned therapist helped began notice things wrong therapists life stuff like stoped tried several times kill reached high peak depression low point life grandma verbal abuse hurts im meaning less wants im getting kicked soon well im good school lost motivation everything recently gave lost girl cared ex girl friend die lied threw teeth ruined new girl friend best friend since dad died plan wanted know one threw similar stuff also spelling grammar bad  year old ever im also boy helps feel free ask questions threw lot said well key points sad shit always happens life id assume little things go wrong thanks time