maybe guess redflag option lefti cannot take anymore done struggling aspergers humiliated it want die nobody nothing me want die want live next years past ills challenges anymore trust anybody entire world always seeking fucking reason go me even done anything them yes times ive done things fuck up least realized apologized it whole world me whole word seeks fucking excuse put tear down deserve better that maybe shall go commit redflag maybe ill give salvation exit pathetic insignificant world no call redflag hotline cops matter called hotline  times nothing worked since told go somewhere else try counseling work either everything ive tried cope pain wasted fruitless change please let die ill beg anybody please help die give better life