stopped following therapist discovered experience treating depressed people hid fact specialized couples therapy me psychology intern volunteered help me dumped apparently condition complicated her two years antidepressants redflag meds antipsychotic meds antiepileptic meds  months psychiatric ward guess what single improvement lol everyone spout your life worths living crap quits soon discovered many traumas bear fucking greedy world depriving joy making feel less human single friend never felt like relevant someone life piece garbage used walked on even family except mom still care me despises wishes born including dumb fatheri wish undo birth single happy memory help cope back square one