cut lifei would like start providing little information myself  yo male january broke boyfriend  years ive different relationship months everything going well him talking moving together too graduated  bachelors degree  major psychology minors child development family studies which went different university attend master social work program fall two months dropped right lot anxiety coursework actual duties social worker  namely counseling side things original goal attending program following semester took semester online courses accounting community college went well decided go back university started msw pursue bachelors accounting seemed like good plan living brother apartment time because thought living random roommate terrifies me however started classes summer felt overwhelmed anxious unsure whether wanted accounting dropped end first week work got job pharmacy technician quit  weeks due feeling overwhelmed anxious ended getting another job tech different pharmacy able work  months decided go grad school quit job moved getting accepted computer science program i  gpa course started getting overwhelmed anxious ended switching administration program dropping entirely before even starting taking courses local community college accounting again seem going alright finished week  classes also took objectively amazing job secretary state office student assistant getting paid ever have guess went quit day  guess really want kill myself secretly hope get hit meteor mac truck simply wake tomorrow suppose always felt like this bearable without pressures society struggle fit anywhere cant handle pressure perform also get bored cant stand work job find boring  hours week know do ive got another job prospect coming bank interview went really well optimistic could handle know title says feel like im cut life  aside gay maybe id better born  years ago anyone advice thoughts situation