know get helpso know title comes know get help know need therapist psychiatrist know may need meds again know know i know problem getting help strong one relationship family right now time fall apart financial provider go person fiance easily thrown get emotional cant handle well probably needs support group that family much help friends close me honest pushed away friends depression never really fixed broken bridges life short one confide in im also absolutely sure ive hit point depression complete danger myself stress levels sleepless nights really taking hold me im lucky job go late stay little later make it wake takes almost  hours get bed im exhausted im frustrated sometimes cry commute home never used really cry think cutting like used to ache cut arms like used used keep rather stupid mental fantasies death ive tried exercising writing drawing reading gaming working overtime bunch things quiet thoughts work less less year goes by often find thinking dying even stop complete fantasy it losing control im struggling friendships right now need fiancee get day guess depression distanced fiancee emotionally front im her inside ive rotted core feel alone day started deleting people gaming lists social networks im again im going road want really want it know get help without spending much know ask it know hide fiancee family nothing ashamed cant know want feel like idiot like first time happened like feeling never got it know damn answer need hear general reddit sw population options do ive never needy yet afraid ask help like nearly everything wanted life depression swoops right starts eat away fucking hate it