im finding hard cling onto anythingmy pain real ive felt throughout high school  years later without boring everyone lifes story depression family know anything ive kept secret since really want bother them lifes hard enough is fail everything life manages keep alive giving unbelievable strokes luck snatches away within days im telling im finally happy days believe im sick twisted reality show people watching me like group children huddled around scared cat offering food deciding fun put cat bag throw river