ive seeing one since then shed helped process much help recognize start move past lot things went hating fearing father since incident sister ended triggering memory told blame marital issues among things point even around family friend gatherings without feeling anxious wanting flee able accept things happened past remind past able interact again even really feel familial love anymore care him wellbeing but familial bond there killed came retrieve stuff couple days walking out time ever stood him made snide remark mother told go ahead run problems like always does backed corner shook me screamed collapsed mother came home made leave