thought could help them stupid enough think could it longfor anonymity obviously changing names duh another thing post me suicidal little shaken happened im worried came looking advice need fast know much time have well grace likes like tells depressed people like way feel bad liking way also making depressed feel even worse basically told saved life pretty much feeling alone people like tried kill multiple occasions met me tells nice thought could go slight hope might like her liked were best friends like way im glad friend finally feel bad feel like like interests understands lot better people dont shell talk depressing things life bad person which all gets mad tell things bad seem always accuses lying trust thinks tell things shell shut up ive found like helping people problems like help people honestly care feel bad hurt themselves older sister rachel cuts burns attempted redflag multiple times also rachel know grace also aware grace finally open enough confess cutting going quit live promise get mad know hard addictions be anyway point made feel guilty still cutting made feel done it reason always told could make stop made feel enough like good enough help someone stop causing pain themselves ive never felt way anything enormous sense guilt finally broke hard promised grace tell rachel cutting problem intended keep it snapped guilt pressure confessed everything rachel lift weight told right thing nobody keep secret like that right thing feel like did rachel confronted grace front i_just_need_help told everything need stop this told grace fond tumblr looked poems wrote knives hints cutting throughout them checked scars joke mom tell me mom understand makes things worse assume common another reason grace tell rachel feared would tell mom way would tell her even grace suicidal way could ever her grace said really mad me want talk even see me extremely character ever since met  yandere me shed talk even worst moods want cut contact asked sister told redflag part knew cutting redflag part new she people delivered final blow push edge said care care anything didnt believe grace ever it believe trust came realize told thing mattered realness feeling something pain something knew find it thats snapped take anymore broke cried half hour cried since  never cry id never experienced anything like before hell cry dog dies found body cry grandma died always thought emotionless anything happened help think fault happen got involved really want kill myself id never thats about ive feelings redflag looong time id never it mostly id feel bad family back point rachel grace always talk everyday fb rachel deleted fb past felt getting close like knew lot her found scary convinced reactivate messaging tumblr while well grace deactivated again tumblr really want talk apparently fault want die cant live guilt do think help all cant anything