mentally ill continue living much damage already done realistically sort opportunities even have plethora mental illnesses progressively getting worse worse abilities function work drive focus things conversations taken nosedive  physical health started take tumble well metabolism noticeably slowed down im exhausted frequently moments brain fog forgetfulness im unable distract pacify entertainment  im uninsured unable get type treatment issues almost went broke seeking therapy previously work slightest cannot afford type medication type hospital visit certainly insurance  im danger losing job despite looking jobs place cant find would pay well plenty work experience relevant skills im underqualified real jobs aforementioned mental illnesses inability drive also major factor this  due faculties getting worse im unable learn things learn skills ive tried number different creative hobbies avail ive tried getting computer programming music writing among things avail  friends family relative parent live also mentally ill treats im sort highfunctioning special needs child im stuck toxic relationship draining energy me making exhausted anxious perpetual fear partner  im getting old ive fraction life experiences knowledge people  years younger do im constantly embarrassed age ive achieved amounted nothing compared peers compared teenagers point  im sexually broken unable fully enjoy intimacy this relationship strained im deathly afraid prospect finding another relationship know nobody want deal someone like situation especially considered problems everything getting much worse short span time