ive everything im sick tired lifethis alt account im using hope thats okay im desperate vent things good life see absolutely fuck all anything looks positive nothing mirage moment become familiar it see bad it thats bad like everything else everything could possibly go wrong goes wrong badly hopes dreams completely shattered dream becoming acclaimed game developer ruined fact industry fucked beyond repair complete disregard preservability reliance internet pc especially infected this people sucking valves dick praising steam best thing since sliced bread even though actually made pc games expensive  years even worth effort anymore able see games game shelves fuck bother dream keeping native language scots alive ruined snobby cunts keep dismissing real language due similarity english despite fact unesco eu charter minority languages recognize separate language get hell trying support it im sick it help family extremely anglophone approve supporting language fact im growing tired country live in would tell you queens english english boast freedom independence actually fucking chance break free shat themselves fucking pathetic never felt fucking embarrassed call scottish life listening people speaking english accents cringiest thing ever me however im accustomed live eat survive anywhere else dream life partner ruined combination asexual aromantic fact ive emotionally abused people ive close point trigger words would render healthy relationship impossible even words longer triggered me words describerepresent still still ruin things me even found new dreams pursue whos say crushed like ones above ill spending entire life switch dreams ill never achieve kind life call that short live dwindling time im nearly end rope hate everything life way negative things positive feel like im going snap kill one day fact think ill alive see summer 