turn  soon thing remember  pain angerhigh school hell me ugly hs basically means try avoid bullied redflag im college now nights cant sleep remember lonely hs pain experienced fucking building intense still feel burn years later recall sophomore junior year nobody sit lunch entire  years sat alone counselors office sometimes would sit cry nobody ever offered hand nobody ever helped me  supposed magical time many teenagers me dont ever want fucking remember bullshit ever again bullied ugly virgin shamed me girls rejected worst ways imaginable hate much could fucking punch wall right now deserve right quick painless death life isnt fair ugly even doable