jfc im terrible personi openly try make friends hate me try piss off try make get annoyed me try make seem like im undermining much more want hate me get arguments disagreements much possible whenever subject happy wholesome try bring back down im tired feel bad them people damn near consider family god want hate me want punish making everyone hate me want see terrible person am try push away try make look different light want aware dangerous am like wild animal caged in think deserve it deserve mistreatment deserve hatred want die knowing one would miss me theyd hate much even care died dont want miss see die amazing person friend neither those want hate much wouldnt care suddenly passed away want die hated want die alone want die thinking shit didnt deserve life first place shouldve never born dont want cause pain im tired nowadays im happy want forgotten death seems like good option ill die wont worry anymore friends wont worry arguments supposed hatred towards them dont hate them wont think next victim be theyll better without me