hey everyone first all throwaway account really frustrated  year old guy  rejections far counting in tried actually befriend girls well thing trying last couple months see friends girlfriends makes frustrated thing cannot get girlfriend thing cannot get friend girl cannot get girl talk mei get absolutely zero attention girls thought looks  maybe ugly  several people told average looking also fat skinny kind muscular i work outi seek validation people get enough d modeler video editor friends praise time make something new seek female attention get any makes depressed frustrated cannot get work done it makes unmotivated sad rarely go days fear rejection whenever try focus projects get reminded things every time concentrate girls do unmotivated female attention get motivation back