cannot even decide start low self esteem personality know am never feel like worth enough feel burden everyone encounter feel like people avoid hang pity mei fell friends pushover cannot set proper boundaries let walk point get hurt lose ability deal burn bridges around toxic energy ever againmy job sucks broke underpaid cannot make plans future covered debt cannot see way unless find better job upgradelearn new skills know toi met amazing guy seems really me good job nice flat well put together felt chemistry attraction years terrified knowing age nowhere near life terrified thought starting seriously date know lot give him feel like would burden embarrassment hate it cannot even take care take care partnerif needeveryone life would much easier exist hate me wish dead