cant help myself think ima kill myselffuck life honestly im  know im young think hope feel like ive done everything everything fails ive diagnosed ocd clinical depression social anxiety disorder potentially adhd ive seeing  psychiatrist back suck  misdiagnksed bipolar give wrong medications made hallucinate zombie weeks im glad stopped might end worse problems father allow going another one believes brain im one control it tried meditating everyday x day exercising exposure nothing helps parents pretty ignorant mental health mom understands really understands im going thru tired shit one help cant even help myself everything overwhelming everything hard me nothing enjoyable cant concentrate easily bored cant retain shit social life failing classes feel like life taken away me even music thats passion enjoyable now losing hope basically suicidal know option think killing myself