know anymoreif care go post history theres extra details feel like explaining again losing completely fucked over  months gone everything still feels like fever dream went full nc th last month take seeing completely flipped anymore lies false promises made us care anymore seeing get replaced cant anymore even got puppy help mistake since also got since told seeing one would make happy since always talked getting one together got deep chance itll fix things didnt love pup feel cant connect reminding also mainly distracting ways im trying cope apparently told roommate email scared send feel anything good anyway otherwise would sent now hate whole situation even wanna try bothering love since feel itll always go back somehow think survive another loss like this wanna feel normal again want life back even though life shitty still really depressed least grieving loss well