now whatlink last post herehttpwwwredditcomrredflagwatchcommentsduwoi_was_right ive cut contact her deleted number phone removed friend facebook also knew fb password knew resist logging account every while typed string random letters numbers changed password that yeah cant get facebook fuck her feels fine all just im left feeling what fuck now honestly want sleep thats it go work come home dick around internet sleep long can cant stand getting bed anymore hit snooze repeatedly  minutes get ready work fall asleep work im driving sitting office matter much sleep get night before think day cant wait get home sleep feel like im living fog nothing feels real anymore know describe it carrying conversation perfectly fine someone never feels right like im dreaming entire thing look object distance first thought thats real none real even though know is physical thing grab feel smell like click more know describe it like constant numbness except still feel pain hurt always want cry never can just want feel something pain again im used someone there someone talk to miss loving someone love returned someone have love me know more ive thought redflag entire life always afraid physical pain would cause died past week shit hit fan care anymore want it want hang myself care much might hurt more want gone please help me