feel lost feeling like since could rememberwhoever said life easy lie learned hardest thing individual live life background information guess say life bad grew parents sister family pretty religious im due personal reasons went catholic school life told god always guide you whatever me would say im open minded empathetic everyone could say care others much know lately life dealing shitty hand put hiatus education college due fact money job make decent amount money helps family cant really save pay college fucking sucks feel like options go military utilize benefits whatnot feel like would joining wrong reasons im  people talk college way secured future feel like im going burn one days give up want to least think do choice have