lost boyfriend grades car overi crash today earlier ghosted friends blocked everything deleting social media art presence online perfect driving record never drive again crash fault ruined everything lost grades im going fail class literally last semester as year ive afraid germs tonight learn gets much worse getting sick good world want escape sick tired hearing life gets better everyone told past days read posts problem back mind believed people part believed gets better doesnt never will never drive again never go school again never love again never go outside again left cant even breathe anymore im done goodbye