boyfriend redflag planive never posted feel loss cant seem find anything online similar figured id post bit backstory boyfriend  years called work monday saying checking mental health hospital knew roughly would still shock me wasnt days later opened said made plan chose weapon decided therapy session didnt want anymore weird spot didnt necessarily attempt redflag damn close closer ever could imagined started new job bakery month ago happened ive hard time coping everything told boss probably back following monday fast forward friday get call one friends helped get job saying work team trying understanding think friend thinks im immature irresponsible going work friend even went far enough say maybe strong enough boyfriend since find go work this guess im asking advice friend said work talking cutting hours since ive shown im reliable even though happened never much shown late called out would do feel loss yes realize working know face work especially knowing annoyed me