yearso year since tried kill self hanging december th  hospital get help released year ago today much life changed better worse days leading one year anniversary shrouded anxiety stress im still sure whether happy survived still times resent person found saved life still times feel alone trapped sought help none sources good fit else seemed go where maybe need patient maybe need willing know feels good talk it people life still kind tip toe around like im ticking time bomb disaster waiting unleash fury cant really blame anyone aid feeling alienated alone maybe need nut up anywho thanks listening reading maybe needed vent