finally told friends feel themi meltdown earlier something asked exfiancee done wanted get number deleted nhs records keep getting appointment confirmation texts them anyway blew facebook im sick getting ignored everyone im sick trying open problems constantly get shrugged one wants know selfharm everyday one friends made smarmy comment blew him told hes part problem cant reach people wanna know explained im reaching whenever ask friends theyre coming xbox live normally say rarely say yes theyll join people instead me reach like way distract bad shit going head im playing game im cutting fucking wrists anyway ive blocked facebook ill ignore xbox bother anymore im gonna sit room myself im used to hopefully balls make cut deep enough kills me