ew making post like makes feel sickim coming back hopefully one last time reorganize plans give little ultimatum see theres place here job carrier wack give shit dreams goals none care family average bad important friendships really big deal care care care matter do want keep dignity struggle live struggling better dead thats really living im going waste time trying fix things better really care main idealistic goal would stay absolute isolation eternity away everything everyone else erasing bad memories life able whatever want terms interests games stuff watch suff cook plants care for books exerciseimagine little paradisemansion could whatever want truth im detached reality like it like world things ive gone many times already even feel bad anymore ive realized many things mostly peace gonna go uni year guess felt got approved nothing ok thought get actually checking grades see stood nothing aw chose subject go for care chose agronomy mostcompatible me actually thing thought im gonna see plants guess cool care career dream job whatever dont year first sexual experience grindr hookup guess realized im kind person sleep around enjoy themselves mad that im happy realized longer obsessed sex also reflected realized reeaally enjoy human men much enjoy furry porn real people boring kinda suck true path would relationshipbut probably not since care enough relationship kinda least care life certain degree ground reality whatever im also gonna drwaing course year really care it signed something mild curiosity even like drawing tried learn realized really want put work although like art imagination rich many concepts characters little fantasy worldi really want draw whole you never stop learning thing makes hurl translates oh start bad still draw interested even tho itll look bad even years itll still look bad you wow pathetic one admired artists draws porn literally said get quality porn imagine someone anyone could possibly enjoy drawing process admire determination imagine horny invest time effort making good porn so overall care im fit reality like it like environment  countryhot garbage id rather born fucking nigeria die aids newborn family history like it want bother try therapy fix myself  even though broken damaged  believe therapy really want try getting brainwashed womanman late s whos listening theyve paid so mention annoyance would asking family put therapy yeah im mood open everyone say give shit plan offing eventually thatd annoying really really really care keeps going daytoday mindset little goals stablish always involve entertainment sources creative work whim games books anime series gardening cooking random shit like making clay sculpture learning make winecider myself stealthly fun little occult artistic moment looking goetic rituals making summoning circles summon spirits  haha didnt work out still huge circle tho pretty also collect incense plan buying occult shit now bought little dragon statuette hes cute also tarot deck pretty cards guess im charlatantype real magician thats ok  like writing little story imagination  gave tho realized really make whole thing got bored writing boring fit fully express imagination stories  orwhatever random stuff end care entertainment satisfaction obeying whims random desires things really care anything anyone else im going try struggle better life better me decades eventually die either way dont want go adult life mean ill forced annoying job take time away ill live boring days away annoyed things like taxes robberies scams whatever meanwhile family annoying like always itll get worse worse die whatever ill eventually die heart attack stroke cancer like everyone suffer horribly till im gone rot away nothingness wow load bs ampxb solution that ill continue days following perfect daytoday philosophy keep calm stable angry things  get upset easily think suppose maybe  whatever goals stablished dayweek ill uni guess want see like agronomy thing andi really choice it gonna bother getting job even though feel liiiiiiiiiiitttle bad  still living parents brasil us like theyre mad gonna kick something stay im uni im really gonna bother job regardless want eventually kill anyways need care that ill make money buying weed selling brownies something know get cheap weed guy worry im done using weed myself make easy cash thats sure  anyway yeah ill live philosophy uni drawing course   months one  meanwhile ill list things  actually list already existant tobereleased games well seriesmoviesetc consume entertainment  play watch follow interests entertainment sources whatever feel like doing eventually ill run things do hopefully probably uni ends ill end uni times high telephone tower close old school  feels weird say old since last year still ni  easy place get ever gate easily climbed theres nothing impeding someone climbing tower ill gather courage  hopefully dont chicken out really must otherwise ill get fucked  climb one day jump really different dying stroke heart attack cancer whatever painful less sufferingduration actually get decide die random unhappy surprise like boom stroke doesnt matter healthy still got bad luck  really bad luck too used feel like god get true god doenst really give shit bad luck brain damage hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaahahahahahahahahahhaha anyway yeah thats idea want go terms keep dignity matter stick something right one likes quitter certainly not things disdain pathetic people struggling fail give cry it get also annoy me seems theyre really shit like if fall get back up mentality fucking overused really hate interpretation life a series falls supposed true definition life id rather shot right fucking disgusting pathetic view guess alright mess sometimes live constantly failing miserably thats pathetic get grip buddy something wrong fall get once alright fall many times look buddy covered mud yeah get up get go home wash yourself stay there weird metaphor right im trying say really feel like ruining mental stability conquered experience mindset trying fix myself imagine fucking work do end one help me people cant help others end comes yourself want help yourself dont im already helping plan got bored writnig this stop around here hope get replies even doesnt really matter anyone says say much support really care much people posts internet were dettached like attention ampxb ampxb