 back school nursing feel like never going able stand working mental physical illnesses diarrhea year signs physical causes likely due redflag unhappy makes mad cannot experience positive emotions like normal person enjoy anything husband sick me hes staying someone else past weeks tried plenty meds psychotherapy none ever worked well weigh ever have never get period worst acne life hormonal issues stopping oral contraceptives november in attempt help gi issues going  years intense depressive episode ever experienced feel like much longer enjoy anything try hard happy people enjoy life without kind struggle hate alive feels like cut it mind body pushing past limits hated past  years feel like ill ever content sick clawing scrap positive emotions