always depression issue ever since remember usually cope recently alone time thoughts one seems care husband never around usually chooses hang friends home dog friends lean on family going lot cannot burden them hate feeling loneliness  emptiness gives usually play pup feel better recently surgery lot work wish could take break one else help people come around usually husbands friendsfamily make pretty obvious care there hes gone even wait him usually leave hes back god forbid someone around  minutes tired alone tired feeling empty depressed tired constantly feeling like enough even husband hate alone 