think im almost edgeso week started pretty good thursday shit happened fucked times work let anxiety get best first girl ive really decent convo  months friday shitty stuck home alone today started pretty good buying dream gun went birthday party son girl ive huge crush last decade half girl ive crush lets call bev recently gotten huge fight yo bf shes  came comforted she knows feel her bf chris real name cuz fuck prick showed bevs mom get  ring back he gave  days thing still went place made him today whole fight thing week ago thought bevs parents chris best friends chris want around still pretty much begged come birthday head bevs parents car sisters car car drive birthday  yo walk bev son sisters kids sisters husband sister parents grandma there bev youngest adult least  years kids go swim adults talking chris even acknowledge existence except grabbing bevs ass shit eating grin face looking dead  minutes uncomfortable awkward hour get text parents they invited fight know still were going make cuz flat tire used excuse leave want use new gun blow brains thru top head  im pretty confident would pretty quick end pathetic excuse life keep torturing living ps fuck 