ive decided do f im killing yet yeah everyday sucks feel like lonely depressed blob cant even move unless assignment due next day im lucky parents care me home sister yeah told gave theyre still family still feed love guess tried explain wanted die would go forever basically im stupid compared everyone school theyre geniuses im nothing compared them terrible act score sat score terrible gpa im head one club school least head  even get good college cant speak friends theyd look stupid still problems work hard tru talk told get book self confidence ive realized pretending happy much easier called attention whore theres also reasons dont want go right now heres im going do im going keep living ive completely severed ties everyone know die one left way hurt anyone around itd perfect im sure happen im going keep playing along day comes