wish would go away endive struggled depression years gotten much worse within last couple years feel like im burden upon family friends wake morning wondering even given another day lives taken deserve iti feel like nothing matters im aware sound like teenager going wah wah wah assure case oh add onto note  im gonna  soon today first day ive sat myself listened music thoughts crept back in why here would matter disappeared would take pain away feeling pain now forthmy brain wants never wake back deal life anymore