tried kill yesterday told try againhi sw ive considered posting times before want seem like attention whoring people cope different ways im trying get depression out there sometimes easy know someone listened regardless theyre internet stranger not yesterday im dealing parents get fightargument mother says we want life anymore go roof jump off face first dunno guess fully expecting die jumping roof maybe try higher well get that prepared lol land entire body practically seizing up arm hurts leg head stomach back get manage walk back door locked slam it mother come unlock crying saying i take er calls dad left  mins prior  mins later comes in calls idiot fucking moron says try again jump second story window time concrete hell even help swear god happened rthathappened still cussing mother laughing idea leaves again hour later comes back says stuff hes staying good time try play attention also tried kill years ago took  sleeping pills ready too still now really looking answers anything rambling thanks reddit e mighta probably used different account post on one less i know might be oh well also edit add something going back jump second time afterall succeed first time soencouraging would have hurt bad still right now drugs could use pill right lol idk maybe thanks dirt splitting skull open maybe not lots thoughts still running head