know anymore really not like things gotten worse anything suffering like always close breaking point cannot take anymore everyday wish could die tried slitting wrists it failed jumping also failed much coward it parents know slit wrists angry it suppose know react asked bring mental hospitalpsych ward shouted told serious nothing wrong me get wrong parents trying help really know much longer wait dad told leave things focus studiesnormal everyday stuff firstly busy work secondly know much longer take sit wait need die parents understand cannot function like normal human cannot everytime someone talks asks question takes long process end stuttering know say call suicide hotline know do would like bring mental hospitalpsych ward know know explain parents someone pls help thanksps parents really nice saying way helping making worsenot anything say suicide hotline