know might feeling many relate to depression less half life due many different factors things happened throughout lifei used drink alcohol quite frequently even smoke lot weed however quit things completely couple months ago another journey itselfi knew indulging different substances make highdrunk pushed feelings redflag depression aside making disappear forgetting moment came back last couple months completely facing shit unable or say unwilling escape means constantly feeling want cry time little feeling want let floods real got much tension inside know potential would feel much better afterwards time feel empty cannot cry matter hard try feels like emotions somehow trapped deep inside me would need terrible reason able let go pressure instead letting go getting rid it keeps staying is really frustrating want cry cannot