let spare dream suffering depression  years ongoing headw meds side almost major life evens graduations travelling solo cover everything recently seen change destructive behaviour evolving pill popping major alcoholism sober now isolation even recent thing seem piercings professional experience whatsoever stick poke gave   pricing  tattoos separately prior idea scare me past  months given least  piercings night confines bathroom ashamed even though live alone never hidden coping mechanism seems foreign externally puppettered idk asking anymore feels like behaviours brain adjust according going headampxbi sorry incoherent mind mush nose hurts like bitch last piercing gave lol half bad immediate response self destructive behaviour evolve change circumstances sometimes smarter us