tirednot first time posting here first time posting account begin grew narcissisticdysfunctional family bullied school abused first boyfriend  years generally messed life didnt really except nervous breakdown last year developed panic disorder eating disorder put therapy along thought one problem things really turning around making moves move new city friend planning moves career art really looking forward healing coronavirus hit united states friend werent ready settle time couldnt get supplies weather shutdown go back family social distancing cant hide usual haunts away family dont friends town thankfully house big enough hide away somewhere day whenever walk room jab something im eating wearing im really tired think im grieving too felt loved heard wanted first time  years friend also realized messed background honestly looking forward getting better dont know long quarantine going last dont know long handle this im tired