abandoned againhi im  years old broken with first time ive left girl before ive  relationships every one leading girl cheating dumping after ive depression attempted redflag times past miserable years met new girlfriend fell head heels love immediately told id never without feel alone made vulnerable her stayed ex boyfriends house without telling told going bed instead told today afterwards told cant anymore confused feels im tired abandoned dad left born parents rarely even talk anymore feel like last days life cant stand live anymore edit  recently started going therapy hope help deal demons decided would best deleted everything try pretend like never existed hopefully new strategy brings closer happiness again thank me im still sure whether want live im trying make progress