feel like life pointlessi always issues suicidal ideation last time went hospital almost swallowed handful klonopin got scared didnt turns cant even overdose klonopin wouldnt worked regardless anyways bipolar disorder mood goes quite often however zoloft helped stay neutral  weeks ive dropped back ive huge urges cut really bad suicidal thoughts dont want die also dont want live makes sense dont interest much even fun things much less work try build career want lay bed try forget life real  years old need get shit together dont drive dont interest life doesnt appeal me