im complete failurethis probably wrong place hate cant find much like im mid s never even much kissed girl im ugly redeemable qualities license bum rides everything im even shy used even tho ive trying get better party go stuff time live parent im jobless ive lost ever job ive due factors outside control able find new job almost year im stuck taking advantage dad lately ive thoughts redflag probably reason lack opportunity cant call help line option insurance money know point know need help also cant really justify probably subconscious attention seeking behavior