god life meaning story humanity story suffering oppression deathso what im sitting front computer talking guys ive got  loaded single round spun cylinder locked it put gun head pulled trigger twice im still here know why think want more masters degree two bachelors degrees im married house able find full time work past  years seems like world now  years controlled wealthy benefit wealthy everyone else go fuck themselves die what theres someone else take place live world best were cogs machine fills pockets wealthy take moment really examine things recognize really point it god clearly exist anyone thinks otherwise deluded were thrown world without consent live meaningless lives die alone prolong process