think death lotand wonder happens afterwards reincarnated  different racenationalityreligionsex a new born present time a new born future a new born past an unhealthy newborn rare disease terminal illness genetic disorder eg cerebral palsy syndrome reincarnated animal like insects nd chances  to back time specific life changing decisions made wim sleep deprived stoned think to restart life getgo religion  christianity right  eternal damnationhell  islam right  hell  right  equivalent hell nothingness  like life never existed  would point studying learning pretty hard stuff know im going cool inventor nobel prize winner something change world grandscale remembered history or wikipedia darwins law but pass wicked monstrous genes carries sick thoughts wierd fantasies plus unhealthy lazy way living torturing mind everyday sick demented thoughts self loathing hatred pagan beliefs my soul roam earth specified time supposed die my spirit haunt home family problems life carry afterlife except impossible try solve dead as much regret many things end regretting death itselffor eternity island called lost think my problems carry afterlife forever haunted past mistakes especially killing self consciousness awake time period many cool things going internet memes video games anime tv shows never perfect time born last  decades entertained cons sort outweigh pros mind almost  months thinking redflag like pretty much everyday  killing me world fucked millions people die every fucking day accidents illnesses homicides redflags starvation silly wars piece fucking land oil corporations suck living life little people diseases hate greed child trafficking child abuse strangers families mental illnesses think might die weeks