feel like cant go anymoref depressed long remember everything feels like struggle tired feel hopeless dont know want anymore dont know myself feel exhausted trying feel like burden every bad thing happens fault wish life would feel light happy joyful again feel like running away dont want go anymore suffering world cant eat cant concentrate think big fuck one likes ever love me everyone leaves tired suffering feel like good nothing feel like drowning again went therapy long time spent lot money it parents cant pay anymore cant forget thats happened past failures mess ups feel like cant anything right deeply unhappy feel like dont deserve live