im suicidal thought keeps popping unbidden headlong story short im low point life right really bad im unemployed im socially isolated stuff friends go weekly board game night still whole unemployment thing getting me sometimes try think resolve it brain comes redflag dismiss it keeps coming up im confident im going eventually turn around meantime something want brain stop doing also wanted vent guess told anyone this theres family history redflag years ago something similar happened mentioned mother immediately called cops come check me awful unnecessary experience