twin sister suicidal feeling awful right nowive depressed since   anyone says get help please know cant much explain mom knows found feeling way ignored it want kill myself feel do sister will destroy family sister also suicidal found week ago honestly dont get far know family history depression makes question genetic is never going get better unless take meds dont want take meds mom doesnt believe meds depression thinks turn zombie feel like cant go anymore havent felt happy entire day years dont know feel happy small things dont even make happy fear future feel going extremely unsuccessful poor hide behind smile every single day getting really tiring especially im nice everyone never want anyone feel way do everyone sees nice cute girl kind everyone wish way press button disappear cant take anymore