ik everyone else tired life perspectivewith school back session computer screen fear look like act every little fucking thing bubbles inside me im afraid people especially ones age ive always complimented strive well school reason dont fail every class thing left control life besides barcode marks wrists thighs never skinny even moderate average weight heavy baby birth nothing changed lost  lbs stopped eating bit lead pain surprise im pussy comes pain even  lbs gone im still overweight im basically weight middle school concentrate hard look like faces make people around hopes dont comment body behind back hear want fall asleep never wake up feeling ease sleep brings every night blissful know next morning ill wake headache matter much medicine take much water drink always there fogs sense right wrong think little trickle blood thigh scrape it want get away mother whenever see break crying reminds shit shes said me youre going hell sin unless pray stop boy girl shes referring gender identity nonsense many times sobbed front begging stop saying things ignored me youd really easy let guy you time told older man staring across restaurant licking lips smiling simply said its part life ill deal now never mentioned times grown men locked eyes far long ive caught staring body dont wanna feel like object display mother perfect daughter always tells her men stare make never want go outside again classmates whisper behind back fucking big ass big tits are stupid game called life know im going win try anyone