im  year old male its long fuck lmaoive never really opened feelings anyone whole life every fucking time someone tries get open end feeling annoyed like im depressed push away im pretty sure parents never taught feelings idea handle shove deep deep deep body one time tried let broke cried family african american brushed little bitch suck honest im used caring dont care anymore thats one problem another thing really dont see making end year graduating young mom found church jesus christ converted mormon ever since would let skip school middle school would create lies avoid school actually believed know sounds like fault definitely smarter really takes church anything including fucking children sucks im really behind school mention parents divorced used argue every single damn day thing brought peace xbox  play video games time mindset whenever play games dont worry everything else life also im pretty sure im addicted porn cant stop even though im trying fucking hard stop feeling makes feel like im loved something masturbate lot feel feeling another thing lol feel like loser this tend dwindle past lot times really cared  siblings second oldest would expect someone black  foot decent looking extroverted fun around complete opposite extremely introverted like alone hate im pretty sure thats like pushing people away really sucks like dont even know real anymore really want feel happy like kid sucks man could playing sports going  year college instead im depressed want die badly opening app god want someone save fucking bad even funny