saw today dollar tree ive depressed  years now wasnt lately suicidal thoughts im unemployed failed  years college due anxiety depression starting community college freshman age  still failing classes right now former bullies high schoolthe reason depression going places got yale dating studying abroad im still stuck hometown dealing trauma everyday adds breaking pointlast night ok ko cartoon show really liked ended final episode talked growing up really hit hard hated stuck mentally  still watching kids cartoons scared people watched show hours today first time planned kill myself going wait familys asleep tonight ill entire bottle antidepressant sleeping pills cup coffre soy milk bit afterwards mom told buy stuff dollar tree went saw cashiers wrist know say cutter cut across want attendion cut vertically truly want die like  long cuts vertical something scared me help picture dead real thought terrifying also something seeing someone might also going suicial thought made feel like im alone decided kill today