feel like aliveits always one thing next im turning twenty two months ever since kid torn everyone everything theres nothing left great boyfriend guess thats something hes everything though today dear jesus forgot turn oven came back home work smoke filled house hes pissed hug tell loves anything cold shoulder hurts favourite person hurts more want alive want keep going know walks stairs hes going say   working already rocky definitely going push edge cant deal anymore heartbreak ive hurt far many times stop always one thing another cant this something stupid comes downstairs says loves me im anymore what want feeling guilty possibly leaving reason want live im sick fuckup everyone around gets hurt annoyed angry im sick making others miserable me cant it always one thing next