push boyfried awayi greatest boyfriend weve together  half years taught better help myself recent years ive become mentally unstable anxiety eats like disease depression anger insurmountable times weve fought bit cant understand im unreasonable time ive gotten antidepressants since october occasionally ill get massive bouts anger stupidest things example going take laundry get done got upset able spend saturday together escalated fight lots insults slung primarily me cooled still frustrated sick it argued left close door fucking lost it want to did anger boiled took anything near threw door things broke heard opened door screamed fuck problem called psycho said know hell even come back person take much im fearing ive lost him fear causes shit pushes farther away awful person know that want over cant deal unpredictability anymore want end know way want suffer attached anymore want end give peace