humble familyi want kill myself hard admit dont really reason christian parents well off im smart grades slipping lately motivation tanked get good college dont motivation parents hate pamper love older brother people say youngest pampered thats absolute bullshit always compare horrible people talk dont want brother become like me even though hes older gets away everything give everything brother works starbucks makes money expenses hes paying food sometimes buying stuff dad keep mind im even old enough work since im  dad says see hes buying stuff youre selfish like dont even make money whole life parents loving brother hating me hate it im done would parents