need stop wanting die itmy parents divorced last week father went big activity whole week relaying getting driving license get there didnt get it mother offered transport paid gas end week pay gave  total gas price higher like  argued didnt give more pay pension little sister still minor since changed job salary  months isnt legally obliged pay  months pension mother didnt know needed money its alot father got car began crying throwing big tantrum hard watch mother says cleaned room away which never happen  mind found stuff shouldnt have broke alot stuff cant even use computer anymore also alot thing went missing says dont know talking about things like headphones keyboard made angry point matter anymore wont able buy food month didnt get money cant use computer try think killing time cant listen music feel better parents going fight much living mother going hell while tomorrow start college think wont attend classes sabotage reason kill apparently scared dying even wish so soo much