regret killing years agoim tired hearing overused statements people know mental situation it gets better redflag permanent solution blahblahblah suck ass karen got way worse soon grasped concept death child feeling im going die young know cause death be feel stupid hopeful past hanging onto life brought suffering wanted normal ask chronic illness eating disorder suicidal thoughts people consider friends care family members abused past physically emotionally theyre like main reason behind trauma care feelings actually wish theyll suffer find death work minimum wage job obviously cant go therapy barely afford rent keep going work even hate job ill never find job like least im okay since dont passionsinterests dont anybodyanything live obviously want live myself im tired waiting something good happen im tired trying make feel better failing miserably quit