always ignoredive told fault life like involve anything i never try im young things get better involved things never social person ive like whole life never fit anywhere ive tried multiple meds highs side effects asked old therapist could get pain meds said no wanted give generic meds like zoloft yes actually tried nobody listens wants give want always fucking responses over ive reached sooo many people even ignored nobody values nobody cares all im almost  sure could walk pier something sit day nobody would ask talk all literally whats even stopping tying something heavy ankles drowning myself people found ended life theyd say shit like oh young thats sad generic ass responses like that ive gone way many times try help people mostly suicidaldepressed people nobody ever shows back get left read get told thats rough good luck life lot people cant even relate cause yall family members friends care would miss gone must really nice bad ill never know thats like highly considered buying fentanyl online posted different redflag forum thats pro redflag one basically told already thought im completely sucks