tired disappointment muchwhats point living nothing disappointment pain im forced go everyday ever since kid ive living shit life everytime think something good happenit gets ripped me ive always kept faith telling get better years later im typing tears eyes cause pain getting much try hard nice polite look others im always volunteer someone needs shoulder cry onnever shoulder cry on like feel peoples pain really really can hurts ive always kept head up looking forward good future me people try help well brother needs kidney hes dialysis promised mother would find one two years feel mothers pain hurts most try hard help others make progress disappointment makes worse want end badly know would absolutely destroy mother that would killed long time ago cant even keep head anymoreim army soldier supposed keep head up supposed walk confidence head held high confidence everytime think something good happendisappointment follows suit like im grateful already eitherbut grateful health motherthats it