girlfriend broke cant see long term relationship manim heartbroken now ex girlfriend two years broke couldnt see man long term broke got back together  times past month two wanted make work time last home life terrible genuinely thing made happy trouble connecting people instantly made connection two years ago dont know do havent really eaten slept much since happened monday chest hurts pulse super fast hard im heart palpitations likely benign still rough ive never felt awful want drop college courses failed test messed important assignments upset couldnt focus all feel fucking awful im already struggling suicidal ideation think pushed edge cant stop thinking her