goodnight encoresish tail end never quite successful enough music career never hit enough get by quite home love life said cant give anymore love someone whos never there cant grow up out  row go groupie love never either way family never agreed career choice dont talk  years without making it proves probably right k debt keeping dream going bed day unable write music unable get excited another  full venue friends tired misery st world problems say call night night cheap hotels cheap apartment  months laundry floor terrified answer phone hear bad news got triple lethal dose painkillers home take all double damage mixed bourbon thought stayed me day month im gas things love scare me thought giving annihilates identity leaving signpost others foolish enough put growing chase dream get life first makes happy build deck take trip work job save money boring happy nobody owes shit put notes together like everyone else lost hope change continue flounder disappoint make whats easy hard try make whats hard easy let down again redundant inefficiency system must corrected goodnight earth band done lights on im going home one last time sleep goodbye loved all