cant deal fact mental illnesses anymorei cant deal anymore diagnosed bipolar generalized anxiety disorder adhd teens diagnosed major depression psychotic features latest diagnosis saw anymore im  different medications abuse adhd meds like crazy thing find makes feel good cant deal fact im going taking medication forever almost nothing help feel better like exercise diet like previously thought cant deal fact ill always way nothing ever change that way live since last wednesday think killing myself always mind cant stop thinking it family know deal this bother them ive hospitalized  times cant put again feel like theres nothing anymore theres nothing left here want anymore hobbies interests friends dropped school job though ive applying everywhere since beginning month cant sleep well feel world me thanks reading