anxietymy anxiety bad cant even go hang people get invited get nervous ignore everything stay room end blowing purpose also hate confrontation dont want disappoint saying cant make it many times say phone broke much pressure going getting conversation life fucked embarrassing im horrible person im lonely feel confident around people xanax also know ill never life get boyfriend  worse smile cant fixed cosmetic surgery im honestly cursed especially everyone says person prettiest smile well me god give certain people ugly features people beautiful features fair basically ignore people im forced smile  life prevents social media would never life use snapchat  left huge part society participating social media really want kill myself im figuring logistics it wish knew happened died could feel confident im getting older zero money saved retirement im going die alone poor ugly im looking forward living rest life poor ugly alone id rather go still bit dignity smh thanks reading