know go onposting throwaway since girlfriend knows main account want hurt read this life fucking sucks im miserable pile crap cant anything right im living best friend parents got kicked parents know keep going like this job finding job impossible me aspergers clinical depression anxiety generally antisocial nature ive ever one job lost job right got kicked out even social life know got girlfriend her damn purpose right now guiding light worry every damn second light going burn im going lost again worst fucking part ask advice get told  things never worked me complain overstressed life people live with get called entitled lazy fuck im trying ass like that apply  jobs week so thats average brain handle without burning out pitch around house much im asked sometimes even asked much contribute ways financially seems like one really gives fuck that god wish could die get hit car biking home college something control like that reason plan actually killing girlfriend something happen forced act die id choose death gladly