ramble ive feeling down emotional sparks including depression often come reason ill think different world could committed redflag unfortunately things much worse background yearold girl whereas hormones definite possibility situation theres another issue thats occuring alongside unfortunately mother lost home might add horrible money put financial hole nowhere put dogs dad house  minutes away fiance refuse take dogs attempt find home dogs take them creates large ruckus entire family im middle cant anything matter try also emotionally attached dogs horrible cant give away cant solve family problems extra info also think mom bipolar mentally ill way cant deal family cant deal giving dogs ive thought much easier would die