almost iti almost last month really close didnt regret it feel like couldve missed chance end pain im really trying stay alive feels like one everyone life either cruel abusive flat uncaring try reach people love talk say shit like im sorry could worse im trying hard find fit live go work come home cook take care myself pay bills sleep without wishing dead crying day thats want dont even want rich successful dont even want love dont need amazing career dont need excitement popularity admiration want peace maybe tiny bit understanding want love myself dont feel like ask much im tired living