regularly cutting back drinking large increments seriously worried might kill went good turkeyone family members told fun better drunk sober get serious focused drive accomplish much socialite start drinking loosen become really friendly outgoing absolutely become life party started noticing drinking more eventually getting shakes sober shakes headaches dark circles eyes irritable coordination sober could motivate bed unless knew could get drink hands immediately felt god damn awfuldecided cut back cut back cut back really well actually remember last time drink think week now keep track beat everytime break get right back wagon determined betterhearing family say fun easier get along though drunk cut deep real deep since decided need want life hearing another human say resume slowly killing entertaining easier going drinking killing