best life offeri got diagnosed bipolar depression  made sense time pretty shitty life fortunately since im canadian therapy meds free unfortunately thing therapy ever make aware fact redflag thing never stopped thinking since meds didnt much stopped giving while one knew fuck wrong me didnt know anything either knew didnt want live thing kept going doctor would always say dont leave situation making sure seen all kill sure lived life fullest part might sound like hopeful part not life got lot less shitty time im  now im sure ive seen best life offer family loves much enough money lots friends almost get guy want try im healthy look life people around livingi realize lucky am really cant get better im still miserable even maybe care money care friends people want deal responsibility family loving me one still knows fuck wrong me still dont know anything still want live maybe lifes never meant people theres always error mutation least one models anything ever exist thought hook could kill without regretsbut couldnt it went bridge last week maybe stood hour went back home cant commit thing i think stopping fear wrong im biased im young know good life is dont actually want die wouldnt put  years im herereddit wrong