think im suicidal need someone talk toguess got big fat dui me did driving road  beers leaning arm horn fucked blew bac  thats twice legal limit parents bail jail  morning could go prison could go jail career over im recent college graduate fucking criminal think hit anyone dont even remember could have someone could dead blacked out im really tough spot know whats going happen terrified fault ruined career acted like monster aghh thats really it want someone talk to feel really terrible right now want die feel like cant live shame actions