im done everythingthis throwaway incase actually quite old one ive lost  years worth data life recently went really downhill me every small wrong thing causes feel like it everything goes wrong  good thing happend well yeah bullied practically half life ive enough get random calls like everyday someone laugh go like oiii go kys school get followed get told thing theres nobody trust everyday ive felt like ending it soon slowly start actually ending feel like heyheheyehey like every suicidal thought goes away second want commit redflag im tired living want peace god exists please look friends family especially mentally ill people