anyone ever gotten spark backwhile highschool constant interaction coupled long distance girlfriend gave loads energy would get xbox yelling attack names narutostorm friends irl made alot people smile acted well graduated highschool keep keeping contact friends girlfriend broke up grandma killed end year around time moms bipolar disorder got control started drugs practically babysit her ended falling asleep wheel car busting headlight whole time ive room playing dragonball fighterz work fedex wake am everyday go work everyone asks im ok people around inside joke depression reflects face honestly idea do ive never face face relationship ive lost depression wake feel horrible almost driven road angry shitty self reflections times want energy back supposed do