goodbye debi quit job last september killing me first mistake fine made great friends online started looking new job one one friends moved on lost bunch big argument another friends things went downhill there end landed single friend really really good friend one none less last month husband diagnosed cancer spent every waking moment trying help get surgery last week surgery went fine recovering well they yet confirm indeed cancer removed thyroid successfully regardless problem is time spent taking care took toll me still super emotional everything going life broke last week started feeling suicidal problem is told her cried it lot point husband forbidden talk anymore place handle news ashamed say handle well especially considering last time happened see previous posts left job money friends miss much already know go on