thought death lastit makes smile final rich comforting nourishing meal good cigarette long cuddle beloved final hug best friend dying death theme mercy living bear mccreary someone known life telling first everything holding cry hear bad parts cuddling hear good parts embracing finished say im ready go embrace me fall asleep over finally over knowing daughter okay beloved find another take care them quite me good enough best friend crying me remembering fondly speaking well me angel mercy smiling sink world maybe one day die maybe one day ill die sleep dont courage end myself wish did want die peacefully sleep say loud im ready im trying get counseling go medication third time dont lot hope faith it please help me