june  still feel suicidal every time relive ended bashing head wall pain brings me im hoping posting relieve pain got huge fight friend endrea ridiculous thing tendency year switch best friends normally get switched classes thought going ditch her anyways police officer talked twitter told depressed wanted die friend told basically kill myself hour later dad got phone call police saying going talk would within  minutes knew lived know really matter anyways showed up point know coming yet arrived came room finished texting friend exa police came room  them kicked everyone except me sleep top bunk told come did one police officer started talking one got phone talking someone think talking dispatcher mcit  maybe them talked sent officer deemed high risk killing myself talked oh idk maybe  minutes so told going go hospital precisely emergency room asked weapons sharp objects answered since didnt one officer told normally would ride back police car time could ride dads car got hospital weird walked officer grabbed number would go went sit dad sat beside me really want wanted left alone oh well sat there called booth asked problem was medical conditions questions like that told go sit called little later different booth got hospital bracelet bunch paperwork nurse lady sent paediatrics unit since  years old dad go park car since parked emergency lane sat waiting one police officers came started conversation school languages know told spanish told speak spanish anyways nice conversation nurse came took vital signals officers told leaving honest psychiatric would help me said bye left went back waiting another hour half police officer talked came see me gave bracelet regular one talked bit left finally admitted room doctor came see me really hard talk happened could barely speak checked heart lungs make sure nothing physically wrong me left  minutes later psychiatric came first talked dad kicked dad talked me stated crying really hard me talked dad dont know what called us discussed treatment plans gave dad papers therapy sections said dad would receiving phone call follow psychiatric treatments hospital left  days later appointment therapist hospital really nice trusted enough tell still wanted kill always long time short term therapist though referred different one hated didnt say didnt like saw  months wanted tell bad wasnt happy didnt know much longer could go on stopped going suffering silence police service toronto police service canada names changed