think hit low motivation anything slowly begun ghost closest friends return texts physically cannot find things cut contact people girlfriend feel empty know go here longer goes begin rethink relationship girlfriend love much start overthink every single aspect it healthy fear end relationship maybe deeply insecure myself cannot seem tell thought vs depression talking never like life girlfriend  months now clinically depressed met medicated strength keep going something else makes love even more afraid broken me broke front told felt comforted plan figuring future get back trip planned august backstory crossroads life know future know want other uncertainty love creating war mind want stronger mentally handle myself hate become like this need myself feel low m feel hopeless empty