depression feels like something lives me corner room sometimes there quiet silent watching me wondering sometimes attacks without warning without advance destroys tears apart every possible way fighiting  years yet seems like always find place room this monster facing me hated myself pitted myself felt numb paralyzed hopeless screaming empty place possible things yet always place room monster watching me till put mind that i okay oh fine gone i already smiling fine finding next moment day time second breathe monster crawling looking again ampxbsometimes feel like becoming monster myself thoughts