 m partner f undiagnosed redflag  least think do whatever is taken toll ruined romantic notredflag in rearing ugly head again am i trying place blame redflag need iti obsessively checking partners location using find  even know work home sisters etc occurred recently would said was always worries or past partners would go night hang friends drinks get overwhelming feeling going find someone better bring home unfaithful thought makes stomach turn want able tell likely get head think about help current partner bipolar  manic episodes sex drive elevated  scares even more needs scratch itch around mad get back me this that deep rabbit hole pile crap works retail office job several hours every night try keep busy imagine sneaking work someone else speaking work fairly new job management position already talking moving new store possibly state next step career wise years got obligations make challenging pack move new state happens she lately felt like would willing drop like sack potatoes offer come upits recurring argument never time us always workjust present call every day even days taxing say least talked recently came priorities order are  career  career  relationship mine are  relationship  careers feels like willing compromise all asked multiple times would willing always know plan yet want give future want considered thinks future seem crazy right icing cake developed little bit weed addiction problem  work uncle sam also act like child high try try chill like everyone else high time feel like worry everything elseso yeah act like child high rest time hold everything together sweet sweet release that know point rant  confession rant want heard validated maybe look like outsideask questions clarification want feel like redflag ruining life