im tiredim tired everything mentally physically every way possible feel like im digging hole taking friends care im sorry cant stop hate hate cant stop depressed suicidal one minute seems like belt burdens drag hard feel like pushing away maybe thats pushing away idk anymore want feel happy long ago feels gone everything else feel things going bad back im hating want cry cant sit stupid songs repeat suck cos cant die people need right want talk things idk express longer blank piece crap maybe demons kill instead wanting kill others want stop much