understand redflag frowned uponim  year old female ive suicidal adult life majority adolescence life terrible ive lost someone care about truly want here want part society feel unfair ive thrown life expected live born find joy things people life make real connections people really care anything fear everyday rest life going like this empty quite frankly pointless continue on people shoved life selfish one wanting leave god forsaken planet selfish wanting keep even though im miserable really want any oh everything get better one day see keep trucking really like me think mindset mood personality hate life hate society bullshit rules pretty much every person ive ever encountered stay anyone else feel way completely apathetic life happens every time tell someone this act like im crazy loving life burning passion proceed hide knives cant theyre looking