suicidal years getting tired everythinghi everyone appreciate stopping giving post read giving much information can im worried giving much case live uk im male  ive wanted kill  years off right much feel like going finally feel like life useless pointless life nothing take extra space planet im alive still know much would devastate friends family ive reached point want die anyway regardless also think selfish feeling feel guilty feeling like this used self harm growing used feel kind rush it people life know this stopped gaining girlfriend began feel top world weve broken since still friends know still love theres much now im alone again feel like life extremely pointless feel though redflag nothing speeding process think anyone would ever want again especially since even want anything me ive spoken friends doctors helplines redflag honestly feel though helps much that im really sure wanted posting honesty guess wanted advice do steps take know move breakup know go killing myself not almost feel like need told it honestly know anymore thank you