 weeks pregnant bipolar suicidalhi nd pregnancy contemplated terminating early depression bad seemingly perfect life wonderful fianc beautiful  year old nice house suburbs bipolar wrecks havoc that  months ago spun control went manic cheated wonderful man broke a month wedding called quits got back together august immediately decided still getting married wanted another baby tries conceived baby boy lost severe depression point redflagi struggle whether want baby im thinking quite often redflagbut want hurt unborn child