im exhausted know longi even know say anymore sure want answer want vent always somewhat depressed whole life never super popular anyone even im still punching bag friends ive pretty good controlling emotions last two months hell recent problems past post history im going repeat it exgirlfriend transitioned guy month half ago everything ever cared went shit tried supportive could nothing ever seemed enough took week two start using new name pronouns ive heard pretty good adjust quickly matter ex blocked everything connected im starting believe entire relationship lie called many fucking things told piece shit way texts saved video evidence exact bullshit know end hes lying asshole want closure attempted redflag  weeks ago ended surviving behavioral health center almost whole week ive gone therapy  times week since admitted done anything im rereading whole post right barely even cohesive feel like psycho scribbling notebook point care im thinking making exit bag day two making sure recover time im tired point im even willing make life better