get deservei hate myself im horrible person ive ruined friendships had ive ghosted  friends through course highschool college petty reasons think even ruined highschoolcollege life them wish could take back hope things better now im suffering karma bitch deserve enjoy anything anymore real goal life im angry time even parents mind place wrong things ive said done eating up think im going crazy voices head never stop everytime memories come back mind tries justify things ive done know im shitty person deserve live cant wait finally courage end life all