feeling nothingnessi literally motivation anything ive trying go make plans friends feel empty inside irritated myself like cant even breathe right redflag crosses mind everyday ive made close bonds people would broken died genuinely wish wasnt sad time wasnt numb  feelings forced constantly crack joke keep people around feel tired started getting high pills tolerance started getting higher really dont want take  pills get high wanna find something makes whole feels like something missing like itch cant scratch im really debating ending point