train could either kill save lifesince today made homeless  year old male lived bipolar depression  years staying abandoned apartment leave sunday nowhere go friends nearby family money arrange accommodation thought accommodation mid december apartment demolished told last week leave monday thanks kindness stranger able afford cheap room two nights last night streets first time terrifying one large suitcase clothes stuff money get cheap room anymore try get help council sleep last night worry writing hope someone help tried kill worried try find streets again feel like hope im told get emergency benefit payment possibly next week probably thursday week then money streets somewhere stay  miles away means getting there could get would safe benefits payment comes in train could either save life taking safety kill get desperate throw beneath one anyone help purchase train ticket secure safe accommodation next week council sort benefits find somewhere live thank reading