cant take anymorehello im suicidal  year old egyptian male diagnosed ocd since  years old ocd first manifested actions soon gone  years old soon began manifest another way called pure ocd back realise it fear im pedophile realise harm someone im incest etc biggest thing im afraid im pedophile dont realise it got point cant look kids even hild little brother reason mind keeps triggering situations    father met friend work meet friends family including daughter  time thought pretty knowing ger age ask taught rude ask females name crush fetishised jerk asked age thought gonna  years  worst thing grandparents told fine egyptian culture one worst considering pedophilia egyptian ppl disgusting ok  year old man marry  year old girl said agenda almost believed it thought crush fine kept fetishising even full knowingly  im  stopped crush cuz mind stupid eventho looked like  realized pedophilia manipulation   introduced hentai jerked kinky stuff name lolislavebdsmrapeetc every time remember two incidents get anxiety run vains im one disgusting creatures called pedophiles im denying cant take ocd puperty freek denying say like is