m living parents house dad dreams business thinks guy going complete dreams never job anywhere so poor work ethic know spend like literally live things need becuase brought up hand brother dad mom spend lot money things would bought conditioned way even want something important expensive thing would convince needed would go cheaper alternativeto conclude good work ethic feel guilty everytime overspend  yo useless guy not mention ugly think business lot expectations family girlfriend even know depressed since last  years done live bubble bubble bursting feel lucky died sleep