nobody left fight me even myselfive lost interest im realizing matter do ill never feel like ive satisfied hole chest nobody fight battles me want either im slowly pushing boundary anxiety death longer outweighs pain life matter hard convince others try convince me cannot convince anyone loves cares which turn makes feel like even bigger piece shit seemingly casting friends aside feel though theyd hate feel betrayed ever said feel alone crushing absolutely suffocating used think best way move improve even know point anymore improve what hoping achieve whats waiting me same nothing ever change know story ends might well finish already first chance get