ithey all gonna post cant keep thoughts bottled anymore im giving up originally giving end year fix ive realized im beyond fixing one person left life keeping alive months stupid brain telling push away finally kill always tried fight it well last night stupid brainanxiety won im done going psychologist im done taking meds thought helping came realization not ive finally admitted everyone life would better dead mom sister pretty much anyone ive ever gotten close to denied months cant deny anymore ive ever wanted make people happy hurt people think time call quits plan anything im going end it hopefully figure soon hopefully meds go without much thought yeah might see around bit hopefully long oh please please please try stop me cant get better make others worse best option everyone