never felt emptymy best friend hospital me said dont put knife jump window did recovers hospital feel nothing nothing all close eyes see sleeping grave never wakeing again lost every hope cant imagine anything giving back feelings im tired empty dont know anymore feels like im standing like statue time flies by  years depression suicidal thoughts etc never felt like since week dont feel like im alive anymore like im human cut make sure im actually cutting barely felt it hell earth im never crazy ideas feel like im already dead feels like right im dreaming