starting senior year collegeampxbseptember  body dysmorphia leads believe gynecomastia plastic surgery research occupies time turns basically negligible case goes away lose weight learned much later onampxbdecember   scheduled and cancelled surgery dates plastic surgeons remove gynecomastia parents recommend see doctor talk depression obligeampxbjanuary  first visit doctor start taking zoloft mg xdayampxbmarch  dosage mgday start complaining doctor emotional numbness taper back mg xdayampxbapril  bar get cold clocked to day still know hit me clean mandibular fracture broken two places wired shut  weeks that ampxbaugust  decide good need zoloft anymore was also overweight go drug two weeks later total  bmw e m bought year prior running stop light see tboned taxi ampxbseptember  researching zoloft weakens bone density increases risk fractures  thought if zoloft jaw would broken starts grow head call mom birthday mention suicide first time says cannot leave earth tearsampxboctober  meet new girl become boyfriend girlfriend ampxbapril  buy penis enlargement device just because see get bigger gf time mind you insecure size begin with wanted see could get bigger ended suffering injury much fast left penis hard flaccid state sometimes actually lost bit length girth it leads lot redflag depression still experience dayampxbmay  depressed decide start zoloft again mg xday ampxbseptember  go zoloft again girlfriend break up ampxboctober   january  working fulltime met another girl around feb  dated recently things ok covid make things easier whateverampxbfebruary  approach urologist potential zoloft ruining sex drive reason cannot perform like used to start research come across wellbutrin start taking wellbutrin mg sr xday ampxbmarch  go wellbutrin ampxbwellbutrin mgx per day continues monthlong streaks coupled month off cycle repeats  months middle past june ampxb           end june  come across bunch photos year two prior gynecomastiazoloft phase look love see face looked different remember penis looking functioning way used to remember way teeth pressed together closed mouth jaw click everytime opened gave girlfriend oral ampxbjuly   take fathers competition ruger case next bed i parents house here hold it look it wonder cry whatever try fight try think differently nothing really happens put gun back case decide light bowl get high pass top parents stairs pm afternoon work rest family vacation house home alone ampxbjuly   decide book tee time drop  holes tips home course   back nine golf big passion mine horror stories trying play collegethroughout highschool get into played golf entire life    july   today wake up depressed again high time start reading people psychiatric medications permanently mess up start thinking everything dick fucked up face looks different jaw fracture suffered chose take antidepressants and ssris probably weakened bone density pissed away good notredflag good women everything go back upstairs take dads ruger again look it time cry little bit start realize unstable thing holding back really know operate ruger magazines out though bullets magazines frighten again put back case cry god bit say i really tough time man know do am july   hit post reddit grab keys head town habitual coffee  yo male  getting close  scared first time unsure matter time go