im helpless private video pictures leakedhelp please know go im nightmares suicidal thoughts know go wth life longer feel hopeless make story short ago someone trusted would terrible thing me friend years friend knew nothing would come it romantic relationship explained many different occasions felt nothing him knew feelings me told like brother me eventually met someone started work concentrate different things life paths diverged finally realized over time later posted intimate photos videos first boyfriend turned stealing material computer systematically idea of maybe fixing computer ocassions created fake profiles various dating pornographic websites posted videos different sites wanted look like it attacks me stalking slut shaming bullying afraid ill never normal life job friends noone around would help me deal own went police thy nothing policeman even said nothing worry even caught people envy me  years passed still cant handle it trusted wrong person maybe made movies boyfriend first place asked together several years see anything wrong it young never thought people could cruel maybe mistake turn back timei cant anymore im weak please help still blame myself