dark thoughts think redflag live first floor balcony work would leave dad work mom meeting room taking bath cant go rooftop balcony since locked would jump highest place adjacent stairs know explain place every floor clearly remember view there beautiful used something ugly right know would go see beautiful view stop  know would go back give excuse left tell taking picture locked door redflag survivors said immediately regret jumpingtaking pill would too right  damn easy wouldbe mom dad would soo mad killed myself live society now would many rumors would remembered someone ruined life talking inconvenient funeral would  would sister attend it would mom dad force sister attend pathetic would right would come news  quickly people move say covid since easy explanation relatives wonder tuition teachers would reactthey remember maybe would girl died  maybe would think simply stopped coming tuition since obviously cut it tuition teachers would sad right care tho hope die impact dont hope still survive would dogs find body first  since one leaving house suspect maladaptive daydream dreaming disorder syndrome would night day night would solve problem beautiful view curfew streetlights dogs would definitely find body first case would sad like would amounted anything ever like one light goes out sky  billion stars quicker would care would  would mom would dad would grandfather would maid would friends would guys say like me would guys suspect crush  would school friends  would childhood school friend would tuition friends would tuition teachers  would school teachers would school friends would dentistfav youtube fav music group etc  hope later energy share little backstory looking sympathy kinda wrote dairy wanted share since show family members sharing sorry paragraph hope u nice daynight