want live anymorei moved school due bullying beginning year im really struggling im  mental health issues long time felt like tell anyone it moved mother made doctors appointment case actually ended confessing self harm frequent suicidal thoughts although say reason im dead fear death ended sent crisis mental health unit night multiple appointments since able open since quarantine happened suicidal thoughts happen constantly im actually working kill myself ive stated before really difficult time sharing feelings think either parents im scared know do plan kill really need help know get from talking anyone home phone question ive googling redflag methods picked out