reasonso go again sitting front restaurant typing phone im drunk hell get point willingly broke promise completely give alcohol first off two months ago relapsed went back rampant alcoholism high school finals girlfriend worried me asked stop it stopped got together her went five years long period depression ended giving alcohol first time i addicted alcohol two months point sneaking alcohol school helped all helped up now weve grown appart suspicion cheating me matter time break up top that dog growing old first half life behind her two last things keeping ending all girlfriend dog now long distance relationship verge breakup dogs last  years left nothing look forward to feel  years left end life and mom casually talking write this speak english feel like want go on like need help time running out