really easy lot love give none myself love another wasted spend others maybe love back turn feel loved cannot it tried self love business self love easy never loved ones suppose love me sparked fire self hate young child hurtful words become own voices hear anymore mine god bitch right fucking cow loud mean always got something smart say tried saying something nice sounds strange really fake rollercoaster always healing never healing good days scarce bad days feel like long winter night locked house feel alone this close eyes think bear hold little longer maybe saved maybe knows among lucky ones plucked crowd saviour oh god even writing make believe it truly love someone else cannot even love yourself