im tiredim mentally tired ive depressed long remember live alcoholic parents neglected fucked up im almost  im fucking loser im college graduate living parents basement apply job job job one calls debt keeps building cant even begin fix mental health im still living initially broken im tired im tired venting friends im tired applying jobs going interviews hear nothing back im antidepressants think actually make feel worse im fat disgusting im always broke literally one thing life happy besides friends pets deserve better me wish would go sleep never wake up