cant cope please helpso im bi  cant cope mum hates parents going disown find im bi theyve made clear religion family classmates mocking accidently swore loudly class teacher took class grandma basically raised really young terminally ill dying friend nearly killed  weeks ago kind mental illness already feel suicidal deppresed think im going another deppriesive episode cant deal another one nearly killed last time time worse know mum also gaslights think tell shell say im selfish making dad worry last timethe time ever told suicidal said selfish fault satan decided test faith must easy target know cope please help parent gonna disown way kill save mum hassle cutting off