failing highschool family poor mother stressedthrowaway small introduction me grew pretty average parents kept lot things hidden me dumped load information onto suddenly th grade always back brain bugging me family poor hurts watch mom work long hours hurts even watch dad struggle finding job sister best student attends community college know hurts parents im poorly talk grades mom horrid told hates me wanted kill making life hard constantly asks cant meet expectations ive lost motivation since freshman year hs think ending life right would healthier family me sorry worded awkwardly im throwing thoughts onto post need worry im sure able end life easily