really contemplating redflag moment deepest darkest memory makes want toso back freshman year high school one kid friend tried bully everyone possibly could kids almost everybody hated students mainly probably teachers too memory im referring occurred valentines day wanted ask prettiest girl class annual valentines dance she actually pretty reserved kept herself extremely nice liked much muster courage ask her kindly declines she going bf another school little upset eventually got it bullies let go dayafterday received insults since saw get rejected ignored them one day something inside snapped main bully said insulting remarks sister whos disabled various sexual acts hed perform her now way athlete roughly  lbs way fought made seem otherwise charged pushed locker hit head first fell top him unleashed barrage hits across face quick little jabs fullforced punches using strength could muster second bully meanwhile ran go tell teachers kept attack felt like forever even shoved one teachers onto ground tried pull him school security eventually got me even fought like wild animal try break free keep hitting him this landed hospital concussion unrecognizable face remembering horrible disfigured appearance enough make shutter oh way even leave room almost two daysfor anything nothing eat drink whatever sat silence staring wall seeing dads face came pick school dayit look disappointment disbelief also even say anything me