neither someone suffers depression someone lives fullfiling life discribe would say statue indifferencei have long time  contemplated argued debated question why ending life even though see point living on like thing material nonmaterial stopping me why is suicide takes much effort is lack resources end life is right opportunity is basic survival instinct stopping me think not mundane reasons easily overcomei possed question again come answers again retorted answers again rejected answers possed question againso what cannot seem come answer sparks flame burn doubts answer satiate gap curiosityi feel uncomfortable indiffrent nature voilated annoying honestly need know quickly end unreasonable life ending lifewhat actually stopping me