cant stop thinking mortalitythoughts mortality keeps looping head non stop point trying live happy life die anyway know stupid thought death comes everyone eventually everytime try something care people anything thought spring mind baby born matter one day die best friend getting married cares die one day fun enjoying hobby whats point im going die hear horrible murder news well person going die anyway im agnostic know happen us die thought atheist could potentially right though terrifies me makes everything unimportant worth it die one day exist cursed knowledge death thoughts lead nihilistic thinking know see life meaningful anymore im afraid caring humanity due thought die everyone thought like me humanity would die out often wonder seeing truth life everyone else pretending immortal know get past this losing hope