feel hopeless accept life like thisthrow away account i apsergers syndrome ocd backstorycontext  live dysfunctional house hold subjected mental emotional verbal abuse mother sits living room tells im bad person abuses people cares himself try leave room screams me past would physically abusive slapping spanking accessions beat ground lead issues younger would lash anyone likely due anger built abuse made become friendless one wants friends me cant go anyone think abusive person go police flipped script framed abuser result go police charged warned would happen visit house again cant tell therapist would talk police duty so situation like this also cant move enough money get assisted housing behalf government resulted losing hope im world shit created it