dunno post here im even suicidal im really anxiousim  im still fixed shoud life thats part problem made poor choices past pay it wasted three years college going one area another but never completed anything took year half class graphic design kept working area four year even like it scared death going back school im still now thought time start something interesting begin bachelor degree september im reeaaalllyyyy anxious learned experience usually better jump fire get comfort zone but still tons thing worry about still debt pay related car spend quite bit rent room close university still wage get lower even find high wage job studying time whats really frustrating hear people telling why dropping good job probably kind person boring job life without asking question still find really frustrating part problem always fell akward engage conversation someone else grew loner im scared fear able get know people worked me past volunteer redflag hotline helped build confidence know ill able continue studying time especially knowing far place always lived past