 daysthis summer i  yo uni student came conclusion want end life also set date myself new years eve last new years eve whole thing fleshed kinda rushed it year want to im coming terms dying takes couple moments brave one last time least time life get things done right mess up im trouble kinda scares me sadly share anyone life except great friends made internet family strong distaste me friends quite alone considering think internet friends substitute friends actually hang with one might wondering posting this valid question last days surreal amazon packets ingredients demise arrived today made feel strange deep down like punch guts opened box im debating really want this promised new years eve nothing changed fact things got considerably worse even always told miracle happens life makes total  wont it nothing sort happened family cut contacts former friends ill alone christmas birthday th im welcomed home anymore im stuck apartment town know nobody h away home hate rest life cant new years eve