think like normal human more everything seems extremely hopeless redflag feels like ultimate answeri use redflag escape procastinating study  years everytime faili say lets die want take responsibility anything thinking suicidal get arrested commit redflag get scolded parents redflag every situation life redflag seems answer think like normal person anymore fail do improve right me blame parents low iq still breeding crying cursed cutting myself something goes wrong first instinct kill yourself rather lets face fix it