low actually going go itto anyone may concern think time come end wretched existence done lot sooner would saved lot people lot pain trouble trouble seem cause people trouble pain inconvenience never anything short waste space something laughed at abused scorned ive heard people love would like know hell people are ive seen love word casually thrown around simple sake boredom entertainment love world lust fleeting urges like ones make people horrible things children day realized all contemplating wanted go life familys standards ive accomplished greatest feats im pregnant kids sex graduated high school going college course ended abruptly good things im left without passion art care anything else dont care anything anymore could think everything wanted life like traveling falling love getting married living art even owning small caf now doesnt matter im broken ever good enough someone since im loose whore never anyone guess ever anyway anyone even reading all want know im sorry found like this im sorry even scrape part whatever put all wish never accident first place never wasted anyones time wish siblings never known existed wish parents didnt failure offspring wish parents best find someone replace better child wish two best friends hadnt put antics wish hadnt made pay attention knew better bothering me wish died day fell flight stairs little wish never hurt anyone knowing me wish drowned day fell ocean im sorry female friend depressed time making listen study im sorry always inconsiderate do ive always thought big sister always wanted im sorry male friend embarrassing around know resent supposed be im sorry im always taking time could using around people important thanks big brother im sorry everyone else didnt name im sorry im forgetful cant even remember people wasted time trying help me never chance go anywhere world given im so sorry forced help along way appreciated much both friends two get  owned want it money included mother gets  funeral expense added bonus burn art crap dont know pursued it dont know comes next whatever is deserved it happy that