tried years cant anymoreyou know feel like persevered lot grew taking care severely ill mother father worked long hours take care medical bills even money family keep fed count one hand number times went clothes shopping family horribly narcissistic even let take advantage full college scholarship needed housekeeping family super bigoted wouldve disowned came transgender never actually came them thus sacrificing happiness also sacrificed grades social life them moved  shunned socially awkward cast aside longterm boyfriend transgender suffer bone structure issues legs disallow walking properly makes difficult hold job struggled keep employed town retail chief field employment back living bigoted terrible family make feel like less person daily basis want die cant live awful goddamn people anymore worthless enough justify keeping alive anymore resolved fact tomorrow nights night