parents care anymoreim  studying living parents depressed since th grade never trusted psychiatrists never got help except random spiritual people nowadays say even shout ill kill myself say go hell worse emotion mother facebook addict father addicted tv technology took away people had every day like this return college mom gives something eat talks food whenever try talk anything else deliberately starts avoiding simply walks away goes facebook watches videos cats talented people father returns watches sports documentary go back room watch youtube maybe homework whenever cant show happiness get day later possesed yesterday pet cat creature world shows real love eat everything find since love get go sleep wake try change better run energy sleep yesterday tied belt around neck felt good know door hell matter gravity letting go fear failing keeps back long tldr franz kafka metamorphosis irl