feeling overwhelmed would appreciate little helphello throwaway account young close eighteen years old trouble coping mental instability outside sources stress hallucinate badlyto point fullblown panic attacks force day school around people nauseating terrifying know need sort help family afford sort treatment last time went parents concern mental health believe me ive episodes mild hallucinations previously theyve never prolonged severe people usually talk responding calls messages person trust seen told believe anymoreabout anything im feeling lost alone would appreciate advice feel free ask questions answer best can thank time konvers sparrow edit because forgot mention things  struggled depression selfharm thoughts redflag gone away hallucinations started again feel though options deserve im going through think killing often now moment seems like better alternative anything else right now