hello know im hereso really know say never thought id get close killing self honesty felt like emotions check everything falling once first know kill self would selfish already talked sister feelings devastated pissed ex girlfriend put lot stress know want go back her im trying reddit cant make sence want kill self even though know would stupid cant shake feeling gotten worse worse past two weeks start explain feel way guess girlfriend recently broke cause trust issues looking back stupid given space needed stressing school also possibility cheated gave std wont know till get test  thing loved girl much cared fact went drinking random guy let trust issues mess head well previously stressing falling behind bills guess everything going go stressed got sick week got written up know im goanna able continue pay school either go uni town im working bio degree  dreamed doctor kinda see dream slipping weirdest part miss ex much factor seem taking much space head vary supportive family  could almost feel self slipping point return feels like im drowning morning actually felt clam come feeling killing self even talking guys feel like desperate cry attention self feeling kept going people this know do im afraid im goanna go it even know could even possibly tell go though it thought would give try hurt least try something guess knew let go someone interest me might help im sorry putting guys