im ready lets get dooveri done point havent felt good  years due sexual abuse constant bullying dreams goals going drain religious hope god reincarnation real want get doover born better life done struggle go every day thanks illnesses diagnoses contemplating redflag  years feel like whatever lets already point life death doesnt scare me truly terrifies feel fucking good thinking redflag really gone far but might try holding little bit longer surgery want hopefully help me doesnt im done im setting time place method cant stand life anymore point feel like life way rigged people like me actually rigged even people born fortune life hard even them fucking impossible us thank world may fuck hard