pandemic triggering old trauma responses  barely functionim nearly decade sober past  years trauma trauma emotional abuse multiple job losses incorrect mental health diagnosis amp medication which  months now multiple failed relationships etc understand life ive mentalemotionalspiritual practice many years get things well friends inside outside substance abuse recovery world pandemic triggering otherwise dormant trauma responses memories body reacting accordingly want eat work respond anyone care happens me except really care panic attack feels like im suffocating feel completely alone despite constantly pestered talk roommate friends phone zoom feel trapped ever chose home own know without feeling guilt right since technically know need do feels impossible fix right now feel guilty feeling way many people fighting lives lives others im sorry thank reading