looking adviceso im college fun enjoy year ive taken lot responsibility ive past job im officer club sports team quite big time commitment addition student ive felt really overwhelmed lately almost crushingly so ive called parents talked them seem saying part growing life is im suicidal something ive consistently thoughts since probably middle school think would ever sometimes wonder people dont seems pretty hopeless go school get job make enough money send kids college get jobs make enough money send kids collegesometimes think maybe family something would rewarding time would feel bad bringing someone world would suffer bullshit anyone advice life huge suckfest