promise mother never attempt redflag incidentsa weeks ago attempted redflag mother father manage stop jumping high floor die told mother could die ways overdose medications slash wrist others mother called police really worried would commit redflag emotionally unstable crouched corner room minutes later police came seeked enter room without permission rooms door left open worried condition came take look treated entering room without permission became violent assaulted one police officers pinned handcuffed me still unreasonable made things really hard police officers handle me brought police station put temporary cell waited hours broke mentally eventually violent outburst cell asked investigation officer io interview quickly interview sent institute mental health imh singapore police officers around doctor seeing me feel comfortable tell doctor problems warded hospital first days imh quiet one day sat corner observing boy peeping boy thought limited social skills like me nobody like him surprisingly patients still talk him saw peeping boy thought bad person said words hurt me another day one person talking boy thought person trying hurt playing friendly boy front me punched person behind  times front face hammered  time upper back muscles tied nurses ask people ward try agitate acting friendly front me doctor knew punched person ward hospitalized even longer period threatened harm myself would still hospitalized longer period despite threat people start know actually upset friends talking me one patients ward approached me friendly several times really happy sent another ward requested it longer scared people bully me new place new beginning one knows me unlike previous ward whereby everyone knows weakness finally released however every month go back police station report police officer one day police said come police station anymore promised mother never attempt redflag this commit redflag mood already low complete redflag would sent place like imh singapore living conditions far worse every month also report police attempted redflag afraid die courage die me transfer courage die courage live instead try kill yourself every persons life precious