redflag logicali told dad feeling tells get thats life hes trying way though anyone thought redflag logical way out example dont want husband dont want kids dont friends family like fucked up degree useless im currently unemployed ive felt empty entire life sometimes wonder addition  mental disorders also psychopathic tendencies kill myself ive known brief moments happiness wont come again ive incredible experiences ive known few moments true friendship love  now doubt makes sense head except disappointing dad worth staying alive him really cant see dont want future myself ahead life pain indifference