think could say attempted redflag first time tonight almost feels like right passagei much time type ill cut chase im feeling depressed tonight sketched drawing strangling someone no one particular labeled victim everyone thought strangling took towel strangled it felt great pulled tighter felt lightheaded immediately needed lie down fell bed that body started shaking uncontrollably little bit attempted strangle hated vibration feeling stopped feel stupid also kinda laugh attempting it never attempted redflag before guess feel kindaproud myself know sounds really messed strangling somehow made calm down plan telling anyone irl messaged friends groupme hour ago telling im feeling depressed almost send christmas theres way want ruin everyones christmas telling strangled myself might tell january maybe not