enoughplease life stop already im sick shit on cant keep up cant keep anymore taking everything power walk door it plan im afraid it long wake find body cant learn him fair him cant take things pace people get mad try say needs needs worth it im worth it one last cuddle heads tomorrow weekend could then ill figure out much emotion cant anything it trying fix things makes worse cant keep up one sleeptomorrow get with even posting thisi even know maybe record outburst exists maybe feel like something say matters tonight something feel matters all know fair hes still grieving im selfish ass this im sorry im weak need bedthis much