living undignifiedby assuming role dysfunctional body vouching it never viewed anything physical self part cannot change attribute whole existence bodies conditioned believe entire being consequently feel like escapeto survive nightmare must become it successful compromise am want stoic assertive want kind charitable people walked entire lifeby living societyunited states contributing it perpetuating system agree with cannot live part problemeventually become feeble useless trade best years sustain reach point convince struggle reward address cognitive dissonance wasting lives knowingly working towards deadendhow live life fully cognizant undue suffering inflicting spirit soul deserves better