im upmy whole life uphill battle abusive parents particularly rough military deployments poverty etc decades im pretty worn down past month though things finally turned around fact probably best ever been despite this extreme feeling things get worse theyve ever been complete mental breakdown two weeks ago today move ive spent long struggling ptsd im kind feeling like im going enjoy one last weekend end it want go top sink back ive always been want end victory rather waiting come crashing ending then im sure seems odd think im ready for maybe wont know ive come extremely close several times past year havent feels right though anyways great people wish best stay kind