numbi pathetic person im  wasted last  years life sitting room alone playing video games gained extraordinary amount weight lost friends completely isolated everything father life since  think hes prison something currently relationship mother always tried give whatever wanted life never cared nothing myself everyone ive met thinks im smart fuck school required me even though ive always despised people hated majority do countless years wasting away finally forced try make something life sent shitty tv college sit computer day hey figured technical genius could make career it schooling learned absolutely nothing already know made new friends entire time graduated extremely good grades everyone thought bright future ahead me lost lbs course  months trying hard could better myself cant it cannot normal person cannot speak people without feeling like complete utter fool social reject everything attempt real world crumbles ive job interviews completely ruined them including one hour ago used extremely depressed everything whiny little cunt stopped know why stopped feeling everything cant cry anymore cant feel anything im sick disappointment everyone around me mother remarried another childwe  years apart little sister thing makes happy anymore want try bad fix whats wrong me her nothing works want house blame them go sorry lack punctuation insane wall text needed vent think killing every single day wake want go back sleep know anymore