lostim  almost  year old male im average intelligence attractive people seem enioy around im mostly personable love job things great right now might getting fired tomorrow fucked up put thousand debt financing finally job liked love video games past weeks ive mostly sat computer playing anything cant get girls im picky emotional damage finally find girl like never works outnever actual girlfriend sex once also probably schizophrenia self diagnosis bullshit maybe ive tricked thinking it things constantly go well me do end hurting eventually im exhausted everything want someone actually cares me im student ive always struggled school im lazy going community college  years  credits despite full time know myself nothing seems work drink smoke drugs im veganits even something talk much family even know it im constantly shit random people friends really hurts something care deeply im ever happy im someone like real life friends like said earlier struggle develop romantic relationships