diagnosed bipolar disorder ii due financial problem able continue medication year also cannot afford therapy country health insurance mental healthfor part year feel like really need medication anymore well cured really bipolar all days even feel strangely positive hopeful even though pretty much given life even non depressive state days like this paralyzed past hurts unable move on thought move things depressed comes rushing backi trying psyche myself think positively giving headache brain constantly feeds failures inadequacy try feed positive thoughtsbut feel tired want think anymorei just empty empty