another redflag stole chance cant push anymore going kill myself worked out lived family four small children back soon moved going kill myself thing kept going years id hit rock bottom moving family four small children need part that even slightly know truck on got do used get am go work dark hours walking past houses get first bus could earn enough money pay rent solace knowing going kill myself aunt killed herself still tearing family pieces father uncle therapy resonance death staggering live place aunt killed myself thats reason last conversation telling wretched person world would better without like it pall bearer funeral lowered coffin ground wished dearly way around im lose house rented place kill myself yet times change little ways job amazing love job wish separated six weeks gives focus purpose reason like here local butcher knows name neighbours nice want alive wanted alive years keep thinking id died sleeping back van everything wouldve better everyone know theres another redflag hanging family like dark cloud feel cheated chance want alive know fuck quietly