long fucking  year shitshow abused multiple times lies told me almost entire life ruined family thought things getting better moved started college everything hit fucking fan first moms car stopped working leaving us transportation spend loads money take fucking uber work back able afford rent saturday said would need get job help enrolled full time summer classes absolutely swamped schoolwork week giving up tired want rest hate leave people give shit like boyfriend behind cannot see making  much less rest summer goodbye world thanks dealing shit hand tired struggling long giving week