cant anything anymore everything getting worseso obligatory blah blah bah sob story makes sound like martyr years ago got diagnosed medical condition makes things pain course extremely severe one doctor went believed bad course parents find new doctor obviously im trying get school spent  years life worst pain ive ever felt constantly leave classes degrading embarrassing failing school convince parents let take online schoolonly emphasize much disgrace worthless am get far behind online schooling deep really believe make years absolutely nothing going right now cant even go public anymore without pain even martyr thats really it course theres token grandma dying cancer take care of really person convinced cared me theres more feel like martyr yeah now fucking future think id make far second thoughts fuck up