even point im roboti work  hours week minimum wage live studio apartment afford pay bills keep car since girlfriend left birthday month ago im addicted diazepam battle  years slowly getting hard cant cope work without pay bills live year ago used put chandeliers lighting company comfortable salary sunbathing park council truck emptying bins see laying ground drove stomache almost died horrible scars ptsd live weed alchol mentally refuse go sleep feel like robot working  hours coming home nothing im fucking sick life know do got friends family me work rinse repeat poor depressed fuck point please