pilli leaving tonight last two years ive overdosed many times cant swallow whole bunch pills found solution crushed meds im going mix food put drink swallow it im truly sorry im alive pulse know many people life going affected tremendously move couple months year know selfish act also selfish keep someone doesnt want be wanted create goodbye video send everyone rescued guess wont that everyone find late everyone struggling keep fighting keep pursuing want life ive battling mental health many years guess time up life isnt everyone make last idk happen die really hope better earth matter fact hope life death dead take care keep it seek help youre really rot think solution please get help deciding take life im tired fighting waking every morning wishing dead first thought wake still here final thought night hope dont wake tomorrow meds dont work shock treatment dont work   therapy doesnt work etc sought help enough person severely suicidal depressed least me guess ill sitting till time up good life best