everything makes things better temporary distractionive really nasty prolonged breakdown last week ive definitely acted family perhaps couldve bit less harsh weve argued anyway saturday ive really lovely hike around fields ive felt mentally fresh long time absolutely thriving could say come in excited clean room long shower mum goes move asap cant change behaviour absolutely regard thats behaviours happening even though knows im okay found redflag note went rooting stuff one time massive row im sat room crying drinking might take pills later might not knows reason living go hike could kill still wanted to clearly hiking doesnt anything end still come back problems