know anymorei dont know living anymore feel like sinner cant forgiven dont deserve life ive given im  years old im porn addict cant stop it one point life gay sex cousin brother ive ruined life feel like alive forced me jerk cousin sisters sometime feel like pathetic losser cant forget much losser really am really dumb fell like cant grown anymore dont understand life supposed meaningful people even feel like deserve life hopeless dumb pathetic losser cant get addiction fiest encounter rd grade  years old see everyone better failure think world better place left besides sinner worthless think im gonna kill myself know ppease helpj