lost best friend redflag  days agohe best friend brother guy understood understood him like soulmate depression never really talked last weeks could never truly himself life pretended something fit everyones expectations homosexual person told beginning end accepted problems it afraid others reaction would affect life know exact reason it think problems going too miss much time im angry action leaving horrible world pain loss made rethink everything feel lost feel suicidal may actually feel felt left good guy best ever knew good hearted everything decent man be rest peace him lived  years