really wish someone gave fuck methis throwaway account thats jake paul name joke remember kid thought id wife girlfriend grew up fucking joke instead stuck fucking room fucking dumbass quarantine school wanting kill one gives shit ive started texting girl asked course rejected im lowlife piece shit always hits first shes reason basically hope except deep know doesnt give fuck never love useless loser like fucking pandemic dont even soccer thing kept going every week time feel express dont want fucking kill myself best friend ghosted last weeks im completely alone person even texts girl wont hang even wanted couldnt quarantine im gonna make  weeks wish gf cares would hold close tell gonna ok wish could say stuff friends im man cant show emotion look like pussy want cuddle girl warm happy im loser idk want happy long