dont want anything anymorei dont wants mean dont know want be dont know anything mistakes ive made life feel like im gonna anything good ever come ever never anything life dont remember day havent money issues childhood now life feels like long endless struggle minimal enjoyment dont feel like even talk people live lives seemingly much better own feel like far apart unreal like genuinely dont even feel attracted girls look like together go girls look like shits falling apart feel like maybe relate either dont attract initially find things arent actually bad aesthetic dont really end things common real best friends feel like betrayed every expectation parents ever placed point redemption feels impossible cant even expect people even like me feel like people wouldnt like im worth even liking dont even want anymore love family keeps ending becuase cant let sad dont want live long enough make opinion worse im stuck spend  weeks clean sniff ket week anxiety keeps rinse repeat im overwhelmed