killing escape humanityi often think want kill ill never deal another person ever again times truly deeply happy alone nature always way feel alive taking walks starry skies going barefoot moors surrounded animals only mind body everything am registers people threat true contentment happiness found solitude feel broken deal people feel constant sharp pain makes think sth wrong me thing instantly ebbs away alone nature maybe belong society id okay that never asked become human id rather free animal tbh now never want see another person ever again people fundamentally untrustworthy cause much pain id id feel whole living alone woods either killing myself valid options escape humanity redflag would also mean person anymore biggest wish know im supposed enjoy alive know im young blabla miss stars solitude want go nature let die whenever want to