need help know get itthings getting better never thought million years would go far would cut face obvious spot ever already insecure face going two huge like four deep scars look like accident heck no made xs dumbest person ever anyways thighs stomach arms almost neck tears disappointed done myself suffer bipolar disorderbipolar depression many things really especially schizophrenic anger issues delusions knowing really fantasy getting way treating others lashing majorly even wrote fck you piece paper blood sent someone okay cared slowly hating one one cant control emotions trust around anyone feel seriously hurt someone many times thought week hopes happy new life might even change something quite beautiful like butterfly knows want go like hated but cant help blade justice like used to passed feeling woozy relief really left feel even empty trust myself alright cant even escape self everyday repeated skew voices sound real everyone finds crazy just go kill urself already smash ur head wall hard hard hit cant stop told to cant freaking stop told im waste time im also unmedicated freak much time left