im living nightmare want endi feel like living nightmare wanna experience anymore know people way worse me realistically think keep going on couple months ago raped threatened keep secret made mistake waiting long reported go university university decided help keep safe alongside police idea investigate hearing happened however university began investigating created lot controversy case closed twice i repealed recently closed without charges police would take serious whats worse fact roommate rapist rapist harassing spitting ever since case filed roommate close residential assistants boss explaining even acknowledge existence rumors spread saying faked attention despite witness accounts backing mentalprofessionals seek trauma of gave coping mechanisms said beyond care would need seek outside university help people constantly give dirty looks spit me getup move away sit near them romantic connections hadrelationships resulted getting dumped one wants based rumors  baggage family support either really much blood family family dead them lots friends stayed situation avoid getting harassed well feel alone like belong anymore this thought childhood trauma everything happened growing would stay past even affecting me nail coffin really feel like cant anymore thank actually read it wanted someone world know going through least someone might understand ampxb tldr  raped university buried case people side rapists best friend regarded subhuman  people know