hello new account new me right such think id like let know  year old bachelors degree holding female college educated struggling helped dealing delusions hallucinations years lack sleep follows course medicated happenings well versed to handle them least thought was started work right last monday week today asked speak supervisor right leave boss written up fine fine fine fine realized lying it proof proof somewhere proof everywhere everyone id told said ridiculous said fineuntil looked proof spiraled getting binder hold proof notebook write times box paper clips hold proof together box sticky notes annotate work lists proof called yesterday stayed night tv yelling me bugs crawling me husbands itching disturbing me rough happened last night get sleep ish am got dreading life around am people work staring me bosses plotting me coworkers talking me cannot handle this want sleep forever cannot even get sleep first place post title required