frequently ghost friends come back nowhere different right now want ghost never keep touch again think depression social redflag although could never tell diagnosed feel burden them like would better without group feel like always bother always act weird feel like fake person lifeless pretend every time okay not get wrong toxic really best friends one could ever ask feel like deserve someone like me everyday find buried deeper deeper isolation push everyone away know do help depression becoming worse everyday mind always filled suicidal thoughts want exist anymore want ghost friends never show