transition inner anger outer anger case mass shootingsi want preface saying sensitive topic speak internet way making threat suggesting action taken merely hypothetical discussion hopes community better understand us take extreme actions want hurt others also speaking cases murderredflag cases outright mass murder thats another long discussion use word victim describe people commit mass shootings speaking hypothetical point time before react way suggest us risk result born it extreme byproduct extreme environment true address victims give title many others speak perspective hold insight share please so redflag self loathing need exterminate world even mods refer empirical model one few base understanding redflag on agree fully basically claims redflag option occur person a perceives burden others society b experienced painsuffering repeatedly going this redflag outburst desperation end suffering called life trudge dayin dayout factors come play suffer choose harm others well one could argue innate trait happens add issue redflag one could also argue vein behavior byproduct environment grew in debate eugenics constructionist points view point something occurs add element think switch flips i want hurt myself i want hurt world think second switch two exist simultaneously wed look people want kill dont want kill people too maybe sense empathy humility instilled abuse world put upon them maybe stepped much affirmed identity doormat meant underneath everybody sole purpose that case world becomes much feels like telling end it agree it yeah burden yeah waste time yeah hopeless fight flight system responding freeze accept fate regardless dislike it want matter need matter much ask get better perhaps selfloathing aspect belief genuinely bad world makes feel want extinguish  billion fingers pointed chastisement state self value reduced beyond zero negative state owe world apology merely here we owe world apology merely here social norm kill people pretty simple okay causes somebody transcend social moral boundary lets consider may happen somebody going experiences lose self value would happen sense injustice could arise anger could probably come form self defense however original sense self loathing merely reduced erased element self hatred feeling burden somehow coexist victim may become lost depressed are yet simultaneously sense evil world them the victim may become lost depression yet simultaneously sense injustice clashes inner conflict fueled here victim hates locked perspective endured abuse incredibly disorienting everything learned true wrong world taught this yet world also punishes trying world wants seem suffer point anger self hatred builds bleeds realities cases victim dissociate completely different personalities inability comprehend two opposing ideas time part therapy accept things fault easily swing outwards blame upon world the anger self hatred bleeds realities mind okay cool weve established victims susceptible becoming murderredflags may emotional purgatory juggling dichotomy two realities trying control life pretty disorienting huh many experience without wanting hurt others what happens make want hurt others transactional sense success tie effort self value separate value effort victims mental health get help relatively quickly never all think want hurt others initially see value seek help know try hard want ultimately understand forces work world going result fruitlessness point victim feels awful knows fault solution every corner turn world punishes efforts try get better this surrounded others chastise different cross line feeling urge medical care immediately becomes unavailable instantly dehumanized feared nobody help you much mention want hurt others go straight hospital rehabilitation removal society alienation point process cause myriad problems world punishes efforts try get better the world punishes efforts try get better think turning point hopeless actionless snap one day think huge buildup trying normal function properly world tells to effort well intended ultimately misplaced lens depression distorts world hence we never saw coming dialogue family members try world turns around punishes it matter want simp world nothing desire matters existence required suffering sadistically used world instructions make stop think anger comes from even though end result redflag us nonviolent added element efforts encouraged and punished world hypocrisy would break anybody fragmented shell human being feeling like shit often lean towards acceptancedepression angerdepression energy caused suffering allocated differently based brains chemistry actions taken people effort silence deafening noise installed heads core idea something actually respect stand right people likely think that theyre going die might well make sure world knows tolerable treat people way believe thats mindset agree it think right thing do even writing post probably puts ip watchlist seems stigma surrounding discussion this much sympathize single person whos committed atrocities bad them apparently cannot withstand attitude avoidance country towards tough topics think world keep seeing mass murders unless understand fuck happening heads thats comes from heads interpreting environment nobody born wanting shoot school given circumstances believe wed see many people fall mindset take actions circumstances specific could go evidence support white males would primary demographic but another post maybe know ill live point see become public understanding knowledge die rights deserve community human beings change this many innocent people keep dying thank reading encourage share experience whether current past wish love peace throughout day