stop pretending helpfulno insep went throats went got cose h h e w well ever knew wouldnt done knew knew fault de n n day classes went  morning cattle drover wontt go see today donmt thinj able finish homework wont come like wont come like thats keep getting trouble failing trying losing giving up bet friends tired keep giving im tired trying make harder me one helped gone whole life mental health system failing every chance got mother told lying everyone thought lying well dead child hands mom bet wont think lying nothing helps one wants im pain head hurts emotions hurt feelings hurt feelings pain translate pain dont know dont mean mental pain hurt differently hurt physically same bet friends tired keep giving things always happen talk feel bad professionals wont help supposed dont tell friends much detail tell im sad im depressed want die feel like burden never good enough hold own reach everyone says get turned down fall cracks one wants believe serious urgent situation people get help cant believe one person cant hope college faculty pushed point get fired find dead ignored said temper tantrum cant stop screaming everyone gave everyone given evidence expect change