final year student enter workforce come privileged background work part time pay school fees live comfortably parents lot grateful feel like nothing worth living for find satisfaction friendships whatever hobbies like swept aside smart study time able pass exams even school ends ill working job maybe ill able pursue hobbies love family hate hounded constant questioning life sometimes gets much rather alone motivationgoal desire rich ok long roof head know time comes begin work go work know dread every day it job liked do even so would make enough money pay rent feel stuck cannot figure else live for mostly positive live day day someone gave way end life think might take it wrong me change selfish mindset find purpose life make life worth living