want someone talk to feeling stronger evermy liver problems getting worse really care bottle vodka right near want drink die many things gone wrong summer  cant get job area stuck home manic depressed mother always get fight verbal physicalmainly physical her try protect myself  family extremely close financial ruin  college got accepted transfer aka dream college denied financial aid basically gave hope something life said nope able fulfill dream matter hard try  liver acting yet again  bf college left starting love  years able feel ex cheated me thing set though recent ex toying heart hurts fucking much taken xanaxs already calm put sleep hurt disappointment runs deep