redflag vegas final chapteri know lame op deliver especially know right begging pull figurative trigger ive seen beautiful crosssection humanity last  hours im hopeless position im end resources ive tried positive thinking reaching friends like nothing helping came back guys sorry gender specific pronoun actually helped last night wrestle fact still think desperate plea attention even worse attempt guerrilla marketing struggling writer lack success intentions last night paints unfavorable light get that shit bothers too gets right even solve problems listed previous entry im still pretty doomed heres another desperate cast sea lowliness feel struggling find reason keep going responded previous post please take personally im really hoping see efforts wasted im asking help situation tonight dire before though id fault equate boy cried wolf help