first last posti dont know decided post tonight currently another ongoing mental breakdown im  year old female tonight im going end life sis goes bed dad goes work  moment im ready ive never felt hopeless ive got takes ive lost friends im burden parents im hooked meth almost month now ive coke  times week life ruined options fix it mental states mess im diganosed ocd depression delusions child coming back im experiencing sleep paralysis exploding head syndrome falling asleep hallcuations im start lead something actual tonight end end everyones misery tonightgoodbye