theres second goes dont question existence wanna diemy social academic life turning shit second great news im slipping means im literally gonna die soon whether intentionally not cannot take life anymore im sure im depressed sad anymore im numb like cant feel anything beyond bodys defensive mechanism whatever  disconnected world wrong cant fake someone else already lost am dont know im alive till one hate enough kill me probably dont trust ensure die im scared might fail live miracle dont think life let go easy yano death me get amen im religious btw