feel lostim lost stuck anxious cant move anything lost friend fucked upim barely talking friends almost year ago still cry it motivation negatives need pick major college clue start interests abilities show social anxiety fucking sucks worry much worry becoming adulthow many things keep track of keep job manage money raise kids right reason im right dog completely attached cant leave her means much me im scared future idea im going do want world barely scraping lifejust waiting next paycheck wish could stop time sit think figure everything apologize messy is monologue thats source anxiety think now keeping night sometimes think quiet would nicejust real peaceful nothing worry about