shaken upthis bit train wreck town epicenter   earthquake homes destroyed gas fires floods earthquake people lost power water food movie theater destroyed still dealing aftershocks everyone edge family lucky ones house still standing got power back day lost it much changed little time ive living daze since july th disappeared news nobody town forgotten let go happened choice bubble anxiety control whats happening started one biggest lows ive ever had everythings become alien feels like fever dream dont think im low anymore like im all used advertising jokes  everybody moved on still upset for happened getting it cant find way hook back real world im bout getting upset littlest things stress anger went down plans pull hole dug myself exit disappeared entirely theres nowhere run escape im still questioning days still going by im still stuck july th wake up dont even know want wake all want dream end want disappear completely