worthless againim starting feel like shit again almost funny last couple days comfortable periods inner peace remember life really worth living mean whats point really whats point live life loneliness hatred shame guilt stress people shit living expectations terrible mistake also laughing stock society out several reasons get better never get better unless willing make fucking change hard thing do also impossible achieve since  motivation continue living world lets say anymore pleasant lies admit person longer truly human disgusting hopeless toxic unworthy abomination fucking hurts im tired im tired feeling like shit time im tired alone im tired purpose talent would help decent life im tired inferior literally everyone see im tired stupid assed college asshole mother even try understand manipulates like stupid animal tired people looking like im fucking ghost im tired seeing crushes everyday knowing deep inside ill never good enough them burns inside time even painful hear people talking dreams what dreams goals life well since dreams fucking simple apparently boring world one option left dream get high fucking building make thousands cuts ugly ass body jump off hopefully hit ground ill messed heart continue beating sorry writing boring mess post today everything went crashing me stand anymore sorry bitch poor english first language im fuckin lazy learn properly good luck all