normal feel like thisrecently ive feeling like im letting life pass really anything know found purpose life constantly feel worthless wonder fuck here however whenever feel little calm think current situation realize that outside things really bad love support family least this turn leaves disgust even thinking killing makes feel even worse feels like value life minimal nonexistent that even food table roof head family loves all life opportunities life still somehow manage feel like inside feel useless like never meant alive even deserve love shown others want feel like cant help blame way feel think poor choices made feels like chain thats time feel scared talking anyone feel alone needed ask someone tldr feel like depressed am makes feel even worse