feeling like disappointmentbeen hit hard lately always financial struggle made hard complete higher education im supposed breadwinner family miracle happened finally completed it happy moment recent memory achieved degree started dating beautiful woman dreams were currently ldr type complicated situation atm due visa issues country aim work the country in would mean issues relationship might last long come back home family eagerly waiting start something help bettering lifestyle future uncertain feels like might lose sides success relationship wise career wise something happened shook things us misunderstanding involved jealousy cheating kind however get vilified hated woman im holding easier career path life for managed patch things barely things changed relationship thing keeping something awful first place bright light life missing im stuck shit storm comfort disrupted family dislikes lack progression life feel like keep letting people down know head something childish time kind lately neither world head roof well say goodbyes via voicemail