sorryits one im sad fuck eating disorder ive lost friends least friends mattered im stressed point feel like im panic attacks every second everyday leg readable wrists still shaking drowning ive never good enough family brother fucking perfect im family screw up little talents sort hes motherfucking concert pianist fuck that got trouble first time past summer think ive ever miserable im  senior high school school nightmare im taking ap classes humanly possible im running sleep little food consequently poor grades teachers think im dumb im starting buy that too im applying eleven colleges lack mental sanity go them plan eat im college thats dumbest idea ive ever heard cant explain it know why im going eat college scares living shit me ptsd almost crippling often wake find shaking closet know touch touched even friendly hug make cringe anyone left ive got burnt bridges dangling every meaningful friendship ive ever im socially inept even hope form new ones think im suicidal im going go jumping front cars anytime soon say car coming would move wouldnt sometimes close eyes im changing lanes shitty know do really know feel either mean know im sad least think so think sad feels like fuck knows id also say pretty safe assume im sorry im sorry fucked up im sorry fucked people process im sorry better