anyone living dysfunctional family alone live family  im one  sons youngest child tied twin sister seen still see abuse father mother brothers sister brothers even hope whatever stops eventually know around someone know well feel awkward sitting around  well thats kind fucked family everytime sit other someone says something stupid without thought even completely wrong another one calls out argument starts one raises voice calls names fight starts everybody left bad taste mouth happened countless times never gets better every damn time one us near other feel like heart going explode stress anxiety say got used it im starting feel like handle grow up hope happiness love determination one day find true freedom peace mind hope turn fine find purpose life