death dateyesterday marked  years since boyfriend killed motorcycle accident always bad day me however usually friends things keep mind occupied good times year different cut ties toxic friend group cut good maybe  people life also close exroommates theyre things one friend lives  miles away dealing problems person left friend released jail addicted heroin spent day alone planned would end life could death date boyfriend go see one time went grave smoked cigarette playing free bird thats noticed blue jay nearby hed fly closer watch fly another location near watch entire  minute song one convince wasnt him know would want live dont see point living anymore