supplies want go sooni bought everything back im tired ive started abusing sleeping medications again matter im four times dose one now hopefully ill finish planning soon end this needed tell someone im planning killing soon talked friend tonight understand upset stressed tell im almost done give up edit also recently reason gotten agonizingly painful tinnitus thats getting worse theres cure honestly planning redflag long that furthuring mental insanity cant even think right ringing hurts im sorry think life me want make everything end