anyone else dealing autoimmune issues feeling close edgei vasculitis cause determined autoimmune optometrist thinks may multiple sclerosis referred neuro ophthalmologist cancel appointment due expense know really multiple sclerosis theres something else happening like vasculitis affecting brain feels like endless list symptoms whats worse health issues visible like eczema petechiae vasculitis least internal hide pretend outside everythings okay im struggling winter settled in ive felt increasingly hopeless future day gone on currently im dark without even starlight im wishing wake tomorrow pondering hurting potentially killing do hard handling things remembering disappointment everyone