came floodingmy life never meant like this based hopes family infidelity arrest drugs life crashed wife wanted divorce  years later two years since divorce ive settled misery let addiction continue control me cant keep steady job health insurance even though meds therapy essential tonight come back me wedding honeymoon birth children holy shit painful see fucked threw away job wife family none instead ive move back abusive parents house maybe get job despite shitty work history background check ill never important part again god id wife half life time proposing divorce stayathome dad  years miss exwife bad miss seeing girls every day instead occasional weekends repeat never meant life like this future looks blank empty especially tears stream face juice wrld whispers ear ruined everything ever looking forward to way life ever clear complete ive continued living dont want hurt daughters become mature wont able hide really them theyll know im piece shit junkie fucked everything up beyond that im sure much longer keep living miserable pointless lonely life call redflag selfish way end suffering flip around too isnt selfish demand stay alive youd sad dead fuck life