hope left buildingim sure even begin im  years old spent half years greatest woman could hoped met raised two sons ages   one own kid rock struggled depression life sadly taken frustrations yelling lot miserable years guilt allencompassing iv clouded depression see good nay great things life pissed away sons th birthday wife bluntly said wants divorce therapy counseling discussion pent month seeing therapist attending church groups even supported emotionally great friends yet nothing lift me cry attention im point ending tho week ive tried giving three days more simply isnt worth carrying bringing dark cloud around know least feel happiness asking for suppose coping mechanism something anything see future me tools place wednesday zero day odd finally something look forward to ask son father cant begin imagine dismay bringing mine around healthy either