cant go like anymorei really cant deal anymore dad constantly puts makes feel useless gotten point dont even like life look forward future like dont want get older family complete goals dreams anymore want die family doesnt enough money get help need dad cancelled car insurance pay  dont really get canceled already pay  saw room  really messy  lost mind want happy cant deal it makes feel useless could great day could text anything would anxiety dont want live like anymore know everyone gonna comment its alright always gets better keep going like always comment really cant see getting better im lazy piece shit never get anything done want over cant kill though mom brother dont know figured would try vent one talk to anyone talk thinks im trying make feel bad something cant anymore dont know do