rape became pregnant regret keeping itampxb ok im kinda nervous share this wanna give much details information really hate son even like saying my cause hate much hate moment doctor handed knew made mistake first looked nothing like me looked like black ugly father the man raped me saw looks nurses faces handed me felt disgusted angry held hands never thought would black ugly dominant genes thought would looked like disappointed fastforward bring home hospital i live alone tried best snap everything need put crib sudden middle night hear crying got mad went room punch face go figure little shit start crying louder took crib throw floor went back bed left crying floor hes always crying like savagely crying opens mouth wide cries see inside fugly mouth today completely lost it crying lift throwing tantrum cooking pressure cooker time took stove throw head might started crying louder kicking screaming started kicking stomping him put ducktape mouth make stop screaming start beating shoe good three minutes done stop crying probably  hour im sitting peace eating hot spicy wings comes staring sobbing big ugly stupid blackface got angry spit eye started crying rubbing eye furiously left room crying rubbing eye like half hour hear crying decided go back room see sitting holding knees sobbing quietly saw immediately looked floor went room lift one arm started kicking crying dropped went room boil water went back room throw ass started crying got upset crying lift went basement stairs toss like piece trash is last thing heard tumbling stairs crying checked yet hear crying anymore