anyone else weird experiences hospitalits year since last attempt go me think ive fully processed experience the hospital think  days constant redflag watch first couple days hallucinating vomiting violently drugs put on im still slightly convinced put drugs try deter trying if so worked afterwards like prep school try get out practice say make sure washed clean looked presentable would hopefully let out went saw psychiatrist supposed check see allowed let out started telling needed jesus needed accept lord could happy told stuff relationships time which looking back abusive picked that told stay away men except godly men surprised treat badly nodded nodded told id go church finally let go like  hours im still processing shit anything im processing something like could allowed happen nhs