life truly shittyi single friend neither online physical thus make human interaction except ordering food saying thanks loland even though im stupid failed classes procrastination anxiety life get even worse ill go back shitty country ill live like prisoner even without friends academic success feel happy bald eagle country freedom things see do til age  thought normal smart kid bright future realize socially inept boring slow sad person exceptional way keeps letting parents seriously wasted parents effort sending college america family already extremely poor wasted much hard earned money honestly want disappear erase everyone elses memory me end one societys robots in fact defective robot whos failing function existence impact world like ill never like newton mozart elon musk left legacy history actually positively influenced human kind guess life punishment whatever previous life  wanna live  joy eating internet anything productive improves person even gained back  kg lost see writing ability like mentally challenged persons autistic anything related disabled 