short term memory loss vs examsby short term memory loss mean remember incidents  years ago memory fuzzy details things happened  minutes prior kind like i remember learned th grade remember learned hour ago since exams tomorrow failure inevitable clear state short term memory loss even able find job honestly give single fuck now get wrong highachieving student sophomore year highschool reality hit fan instead pretending yet another slave  billion counting meat grinder called humanity want care existence let alone caring university exams graduation etc pretty sure end garbage called existence deal university exams graduation etc difficult part trying find painless easy method end it no need pity optimism its going better care anything getting better spewing religious beliefs imaginary gods soul life me tired majority humans religions delusions schizophrenic attitude towards existence optimism made want end first place guess what majority humans miserable sheep little piles secrets follow mass without question tired amount bullhit majority human come with way majority humans are would rather hit red button open way asteroid hit earth mark sudden mass extinction humansanimals plant species drink coffee watch world burn included no ive never lonely ive room ive felt suicidal never felt one person could enter room fix everything bothering me words loneliness something never bothered always terrible itch solitude quote ibsen the strongest men alone never thought well someone come room give fuckjob rub balls ill good no help know majority humans like wow going do sit there well yep theres nothing there bullhit delusion sadomasochistic attitudes towards existence hypocrisy thrown around outside majority humans mingling patting back delusional let stupidify themselves im get advice write im bored hit head wall stop thinking university exams graduation etc