wanna live anymore life senseless please change mindhello created reddit account sake post january  diagnosed borderline personality disorder taking toll me go therapy coronavirus outbreak whenever mother arguments im always wrong one always keeps top take things anymore want die prolonging time die senseless well die future anyway whats point living really get raised parents what compete others using learned skills knowledge compete best resources available try gain much experiences relationships achievements knowledge satisfaction end die anyway humans worthless selfish pieces crap ever really compete resources even see global warming result selfish deeds competing resources species animal kingdom that humans well known compete humans too iq skills climb hierarchy acquire financial relationship status gain self esteem iq skills stay ladder live worst life possible none low financial relationship status gain least esteem fucking brain hormonal differences world mad stress senseless selfish deeds end well die anyway letting emotional physical pains insecurities anxieties fears death stay sides end well die anyway say prolonging time left final line death senseless please change mind using nonreligious views believe god