im going kill gf leaves mehey everyone im hopeless know going say worth killing girl that sister passed away last year broke another serious girlfriend never got better recently met girl visiting england new zealand nicest girl ive ever met first date best day life anxiety fun laughing day little backstory myself severe anxiety interferes functioning every single day get severe symptoms like chest pain brain fog terrifies me felt suicidal many times ive told family unsupportive reason im alive girl girl moved back facetime skype twice day were crazy other also severe anxiety says cant bring get long distance relationship itll drive crazy yet still says things like misses crazy me lures thinking highly her moving university couple days nz making feel suicidal again cant shake feeling lose interest find another man also might internet access moving means able talk much do fact talk much thing getting day basically find someone else lose interest absolutely doubt kill myself  years pure hell hospital knowing sisters alive school day one cancer  others sma cant take anymore cry day facetime girl makes happy soon hang up plummet straight back depressive feeling wrote hopes would make feel better look post history probably see im attention seeker im basically annoying thank replies hopefully snap back reality