feeling extremely hopeless everythingmy mental health deteriorating everyday regular schooling live fucking sucks ass makes way worse everyday spend hours trying come reason live cant think any everything feels blurry mom tries best give best life can never works out spend hours night riding bike empty streets  morning hate live sooo cluttered filled hopeless people cant help notice strking contrasts others cant dont know anymore cant fucjing gain weight shit tried everything look like fucking stick figure hate body fucking bmi  sick body short feel extremely touch body feel soo insecure things wish adult wish grew normal fucking household crappy memories childhood still haunt day head fucking hurts rn hate fucked world maybe kms idk