hopelessive reddit year ive commented never posted struggle depression panic attacks last night wife got upset cat hissed her threatened let go play street we live busy road got upset told messed say went got couch slammed door went go bedroom try fix everything thought locked door pushing closed opened slammed hand told crazy leave everyone life abandoned girlfriends friends dad  years old cant handle another one wife leaves nothing else want live for life disappointment dissapointment divorce fathers redflag truly think world would better without me wanted post someone would know felt im new town friends job reason keep going thank yall listening me