messed friendships therapy family life full nothing helli really hate life freaking bitch way much going right now girlfriend broke  year ago actually trying move without try get back way hard eventually became friends obviously family want hard repair relationships family think theyre willing listen even give another chance theres like nothing fucking do im hard time home hate it get hassled time full bullshit cant even bear it already advocated get hassled again know stupid thought mutual agreement know family cares dont feel like deserve theyve annoying fuck outta listening even worse went residential  straight years sent hospital psychiatrist like  fucking times gg  fucking years there thats  damn life teenage life ive seen hell ive hell actually places fucking negative impact almost like perm affecting me fuck really wanna see place like staff member kind stupid shit places actually killed heart ultimately got point well im feeling like indebted friends family every time try talk friend facebook something another friend friend mine badmouths friend calls stupid well fucking hate like school outcast never got fad teenagers people called stupid friends really assholes friends hang with add today got betrayed kicked group really like fuck life fuck myself sorry long connected pretty sure probably normal here cant see things getting better feel like mistakes ive made going end making things fucking worse actually know hell except kill myself