psychologist promised would never leave told promise that insisted still ended it whyshe also refer anyone know im unlucky feel like whole universe wants die  month wound still healed cant seem make peace it eat sleep care anything time low honestly want rot away anything anymore im dead would therapist me especially knew bpd triggered abandonment rejection understand someone try give opinion may happened close one day decided would ask advice i remember right terminology used seemed like seeked therapist advice something canceled appointments one specific date day told going appointments me normal even want go therapist this trust already damaged previous experiences decided give one last chance trust happens im done this college psychologist even referred anyone supposed do even really patience issue lawsuit her either now alone cant afford private psychologist add whole pile accepted college year also psychiatrist sick canceled appointments indefinitely happening im tired