want really selfishim teen really hate everything myself hate talk look dress entire personality etc want way body stress constantly school none means literally anything id much rather kill work essay another second im sad time im really not know im ugliest person im fairly talented musician gig semi regularly nice body bcuz lift etc happy im friends none like much like them ill put straight terrible crush one bestfriends shes one thing motivates im  aware would never work matter do matter happy get always reminded life  work reward ends honestly id rather die right work try best another  years situation end without potential now xoxo