might endim  ive worked every kind job without degree feel like nowhere go nothing make life easier know life would like worry bills extreme anxiety started get point call work turn around soon get parking lot cry sometimes angry know badly need money cant make go in wake start dreading day bring often point get sick stomach worry top boyfriend live also rare disease causes go large periods able get around work best help take care get back forth hospital needs it anxiety constant medical issues barely pay bills work mall one really large parking garage breaks when im there sit ledge top floor think easy everything would leaned forward im strange case read internet guess im high functioning person depression anxiety nobody would ever guess im dealing im bubbly happy person im around everyone im alone tears insides eats alive im week maybe  away probably phone cut start try find something pawn maybe keep roof boyfriends head family helped us much speak mine often getting kicked  gay life gotten way much stress bullshit feel like everything get me matter many friends people love cant take away shit keeps happening me ledge keeps sounding better better