im lowest point lifei good life good position job liked amazing girlfriend several friends ruined all got fired broke incapable changing ruined friendship friends month since broke up shes gotten help best friend theyre close seems like theyre interested connecting connecting despite barely meeting maybe  months ago im middle child one expectations thrown sister screwed up ive never close family im boy never really knew interact theyre disappointed hobby playing games feel like one left huge burden placed myself im looking reason feel even hopeless see old friends fun together without me feel like dont matter anyone