darkness finally lifting thank everyone ever lent kind wordi made post ago old account explaining thinking calling quits honestly brink grasping semblance hope owed  finestickets unable renew license unable work pit financially honestly killing lent plight sub many people sympathetic going through many even similar things life let know even though take time _definitely_ gets better put head focused could financial help grandma able pay fines get license back first time  years drive again feels incredible side dark place may seem trivial problem one hardest times life even problem way similar yours im sure outcomes hold keep believing change come  months ago wouldnt ever thought would say _it gets better_