im really bad placebit backstory im  struggling depression since around   shit hard recently ive reached gotten help saw psych got meds ive hitting really bad lows lately massive mood swings angry outbursts worse ever psych says likely bipolar disorder family pretty long history it im hitting time lows here yesterday stepped shower pretty much collapsed crying ive getting massive urges cut really scares me family friends have id end right fucking now im tired hurting want pain stop thought hurting making feel way utterly destroys me one deserves feel way want cant get without putting pain onto everyone else know fuck im gonna do im even writing this ive lost interest pretty much everything either lay bed wanting die sit whatever fuck keep attention seconds much things help cope weed alcohol thats digging even deeper hole really want fall into thats vent guess know wrote it whatever im taking ambien passing fuck out really wish could die sleep im lucky good night reddit hope well cause sure hell arent