im terrible person world would better without mei got speeding ticket going   first ticket either meaning im going traffic history follow rest life continue live also moms car meaning im terrible son know would hurt mom die long run death would better her seeing worry killing someone car accident getting car totaled speaking which love driving fast im terrible person addicted actions could put others lives risk road empty love flying large roads makes feel free gets feeling happy im usually depressed speeding makes happy reason world better dead need reason live keep drawing blanks