friends give fuck meit seems lately ive dropping hints want know one person care die exactly change mind mind set want know im completely alone death ive come realization dad give fuck two glad him really depressing spend every day two people honestly mind pretending everything fine anyone actually cares ive come across painless way commit redflag im ready get im caught causing dad much pain hes really reason yet im scared tell anyone fear someone try tell care nobody understands done deal already im waiting right time could ask anyone understand mean like care go not want deal it whether friend not say friend lightly because really friends two people spend time depressed someones company try help want see smile theyre sick dealing me get it lot handle negative energy around time know know tell me obvious truth im theyre alone think theyre gonna get used it around much longer know im gonna it ive told im going wait dad dies try cope redflag point im loss know make long know deal life top losing best friend father idk even know im posting here feel like maybe problem guys maybe one actually care time maybe im hassle you maybe im worth talking instead ignoring idk anyways hope everyone good night