old friend invited farewell party normally get invites like going away another country honest never close went different universities get along well him dinner party  people female friends girlfriend like  guys whole night felt zoned out felt horrible friendly talking others felt faded alcohol made even worse one guys remarked barely talked anyone whole night felt crushed gave usual xcuse tired difficult leave right away first leave felt like giving officially came home cried yeah yr old dude cried party feel like loser matter much force always loser give even trying anymore tired it cannot even hang people feel like broken person