ive got isabout  vicodin pills   percocets  vodka birthday wish coming couple days realistically could end life many mixed findings online ive read  mg hydro lethal within  hours yet heard people surviving  mg  you read following something want get out theres eerie darkness inside me sorrow there theres reason there yet festers grows think theres way patch wounds created ive therapy tried medication tried help myself i like many me feel im meant world ive tried end life birthday twice not really take pills drink lot see happens  type situation one person knows though kept secret sought help did helped obviously ive read success rate redflag via od anywhere   im fuckin terrified