maybe time goi got home work tonight nothing bad happened today still felt terrible all dropped college recently im living parents talked friends couple months theyve stopped trying contact me everythings fucked dad asked work went fine asked tomorrow why i want know says but why cant ask one damn question without treating like fucking inquisition jesus  well tomorrow work why keep asking that because im dad care you have drinking again why fuck would ask that you never ask im unless want something you drunk you little shit never want hear again never  you hear me  why fight me i fighting you dont tell that fucking tell that always make bad guy always assume im get you guess whos paying new house last months me guess charged rent year me guess cleans kitchen fuckin basement playing videogames you never ask help you because to dammit grown man pull fuckin weight play dumb me im done playing stupid passiveaggressive game waiting ask help grow up what fuck say me  shut your damn mouth  this house  dad gets chair walks me looks eyes wait start yelling something odd happens whywhy this lucas hes crying why fight me look feet why stop going schoolyour mom wanted succeedand youre what youre person thought would be point dad cant even speak anymore walks stairs slowly still sobbing know drunk know matters heard said heard pain voice saw disappointed look face almost wish wouldve stayed angry would easier deal with tried stop thinking happened watched movie laptop played assassins creed little while pain go away words still echoed mind youre person thought would be see road ahead college dropout degree crappy apartment barely getting by ashamed see family long lonely nights theres light end tunnel over nows good stopping point need end disappoint people life moms already grieving acting like ive died something maybe need finish job