sooner die better  minutesthis sub like guestbook me posting one final message pull plug futile life would ask help deserve it life worth saving  years old clearly taken received money means little me thats one reasons im terminating experiment almost broke despite made  two half years since college graduation im stock trader past months ive barely break even cant handle failure makes failure failure sudden swift unexpected future cannot work regular jobs due physical disability contest  want praise pity statements fact im posting figure place honestly write without ridiculed gives closure also appreciate help readers try offer replies read them okay  honest tell im piece shit deserve this pending divine intervention hour live within half hour begin irreversible process death thank listening goodbye