mrsa ruined life im considering ending itever since caught illness friend august every single day dominated it either actual symptoms worrying theyre going come next both earlier today told cant get help works private healthcare started accepted onto scheme thats final kick teeth long fucking line them ever since caught illness ive hopes raised new antibiotic referred different doctor every single time shattered im fucking done fighting im done hopes dashed over cant take another heartbreak keep fighting obvious im meant lose battle nothing beaten it im looking best ways ending life are ive asked friend mine works nursing home help hes refused method im capable looks promisingi may pick least worst option ive tried breaking news boyfriend hes devastated want end life says matter give me feel incredibly guilty might him hell better without me keeps living hell probably catch much misery im now hell better without even realise yet work tomorrow weekim sure might go in know know ill end this im sure anything right now im honest thought dying scares life basically nowi future worth looking forward anymore illness robbed it im rambing apologise know do want keep living future thought dying scares too thought picking least worst way thatdoes anyone know anything might help