kill realized probably going slow death stoppedi bed rethinking everything wrong current lifestyle looking ways kill without making seem like google thought passed head suffocate death pillow way theres maybe chance everyone going take dying fell asleep weird position put head pillow started breathing waited running air stopped assume inhaled carbon dioxide seeing started breathing heavily pulled out guess wait much wouldve slow death happened know think right now im probably going waste rest night crying sleep eating garbage smth edit idk call attempt guess ill talk therapist wonder shell say