hate myselfi really know im like this want live know im seriously unmotivated want disappear like long time im stressful feel like im piece trash deserve live many times wanted kill myself im coward pitiful it would like gun quickly die without suffering worst im affortunate lot things feel satisfied me thing like play videogames even know satisfaction long got depressed again attention deficit torture anything feel like im inferior people feel like everyone else things want later ther goes thoughts im trash stupid worthless shuld die hate myself little mistake something demostrate im piece trash sorry english maternal lenguage