find useless dealing social redflag others may find easy go work me really redflagful whenever think going work even job find meaningless too wake am am job reaches home pm hours left stuff sleeping early cos got get early next day again goes rest life like all tried sell stuff online support financially working out breadwinner passed on left huge debt housing loan also suffering monthly utilities bills family relatives tell go work income support family others look me since useless slowly losing live want leave go happier world slowly losing survive anymore reasons live on