suicidal feel life worthlesshey reddit thought id clarify things bat im suicidal though contemplated concept action several times ive never cut myself severely depressed or least think so exactly plea help  advice mostly place vent thoughts honest people might willing contemplate life compexities me im  years old male well average life friends successful loving family musical hobby guitar  production regardless factors would normally make anybody feel content lives still find feeling sense worthlessness apathy myself humanity  life general almost every moment every day dwell fact everything know ever known history life occured one small planet one small galexy endless vastness universe become extremely apathetic unambitious it life begins feel small start think deeply types things often do lately really starting hit hard species promoted self importance point feel though whole world forgotten fact planet smaller spec dust comparison even milky way let alone entire universe thoughts constantly feel though life planet completely utterly useless human race survival life completely futile illusion created around give us sort self importance purpose life question attempting answer since first abstract thoughts ever concieved personally believe real point purpose life ive already said pursuit continuation species completely futile live anybody live anybody alive nobody knows makes depressed days go thoughts constantly polluting mind maybe one days itll much ill pull trigger then thoughts subjects sorry parts or whole thing seem bit incohearent first time ive ever organized written thoughts theyre confusing jumbled head may came post also sorry spelling  grammar errors typed phone