rock bottomwell title states ive hit rock bottom previous post alot workings ex  years leaving social anxiety inability conversation woman incredible know even bother tell last time intimate anyone three weeks ago approached parents paying rent live home far knew everything kosher sit explained due rejection christianity household rules would leave immediately  okay one sibblings gay atheist stay know bat going say comply time get out much religion rules mental physical abuse take anymore left without word full time job although enough money get on ive able rent hotel room past week money left car good shape real conversation long time lonelyness getting me call weakness whatever see much point continuing life ill never make debt ever land better job struggle get food week hell idea im going eat toinght however put aside nice regiment pills allow escape imprisionment tourture reddit give reason even bother going on