feeling completely worthless pointless rantingthe anxiety getting worse worse year goes on barely talk anyone anymore phone calls always impossible cant go doctor therapist help cant call them supposed call someone apartment finally better place obviously never really going happen redflag text helpline useless get empty platitudes go walk yeah thats gonna solve shitty personality men loved abusive assholes second one told jump front train since everyone would better off didnt say it already knew actually fucking miss despite ripping heart out need help dont know get im useless theres nothing inside me im incapable taking care myself worst kid feel like late actually kill now im forced stay suffering forever him cant break heart like that thank god good dad lord knows cant take good care him im failure every aspect life