beat it cant end minemy husband committed redflag two years ago hell since  years married tried save finally succeeded hell marriage honestly cheated constantly emotionally abusive severe ptsd mental rapidly decline point would talk fbi getting him two children gave trying save save kids mental health process madness forgot own im widowed single mother ptsd severe depression want myself ive tried keep going going back school new job place feel like never let process it im exhausted think unfair got go first think different ways could it everyday cant love kids much put again also feel like arent getting best part meits gone love me tell im greatest mom ever dont know okay coolbut damnwhen suffering end mei feel like prisoner mind