ive realized matter situation people im able socialize anyoneonly two people able make talk interact regularly life happened life anymore last one lost broken way past point return six months still get panic attacks goodbye worst part maybe still someone would able make open up im scared trying cant deal another goodbye im lonely nobody matter good intentioned help me want scream help cry someone else know feel like outcast among outcasts even live for nothing im good human contact im able socialise hurts much cant deal anymore cant tried meds professional help nothing works im tired