im never going get dream makes life feel fucking meaninglessi idea im going life anymore ive recently moved parents horrible me ive working non stop pay bills ive also practicing like crazy esports father forced sell computer pay bills would understandable didnt make enough money pay himself doesnt even gambling problem anything like waste money hes greedy piece shit anyway ive playing console games like mortal kombat esports recently lack desktop ive gotten plateau makes actually want end life esports biggest dream time focus lose again makes feel like ive wasted much life absolutely nothing im making money it im nowhere near skill level would allow get anywhere dad always told chasing dream stupid didnt raise son loser playing video games point hes right cant go college carrier either moved schools credits got revoked show f transcript im ready give up cant dream dont see point going on