ldr nevermet girlfriend probably going break me nothing want life want againi live uk lives usa met discord group online game became friends could tell wanted days broke boyfriend got couple weeks later begged every day finally gave made mind decided wanted first relationship ever much planned together summer planned week would fly stay everything going perfectly kept telling intent making happen never fallen love someone quickly fallen love me happiest ever felt life last  weeks something changed know suddenly became distant became frustrated completely unreasonable would get upset whenever asked going on daily hours calls suddenly stopped would even reject calls completely unlike her began ignoring went talking whenever possibly could sending maybe  disjointed unenthusiastic messages day life falling apart past week planning felt us drifting apart  days ago showed last remaining ounce love ignoring another day today told things working yet messaged back again hundreds thoughts going head yet still numb offline know back truly feel like end time know would missing without her way whatsoever cope this expect alive time next week