im losing itfor many years ive low managed stay afloat easy managed it recently though im losing it never felt lonely before ive lost last people talked me worse person completely fell love with fucking amazing guy started months ago ended hurting back then came back hurt again know let people hurt me ive let everyone take shot me maybe theres something wrong me perhaps im bad person know completely exhausted feeling lonely kills like never before ive lost motivation fight try think giving up fall apart im losing it past experiences matter time attempt again