people like deserve helli want good kid hard connect people past ive prescribed anonymous to knowledge medication since   year olds suicidal opinion hate people passion yet crave approval  think about im angry world done me sometimes thrash people seem nothing live for could go state highandmighty would allow end life far worked makes laugh could survive prison thriving hurting others may deserve it think im badass get wrong really care problem self aware psychopath puts incredible strain upon life possibly horrible coworkers wich regret everytime clock work feel ashamed every time try myself around brother friends hard connect people want connect people emotionally yet comes social situation seems social norm hate passion want kill badly know would destroy family hand keep living possible may destroy lives process sometimes cannot sleep unless think way could take someones life get away it like heroin dealer destroys lives either way maybe ill point good reason stuff like ongoing bit insiomiac  years figured change thoughts resenting something simple taking lives scumbags selfaware lunacy still hard though  lunatic  ice pick aroused still want hurt anyone want know thing help people like me sick depraved person yet aware disgusted fact know room people like world want hurt anyone may feel bit better cannot become next jeffrey daumier hope please tell me update thank kind words really means lot would take time help random kid internet sorry took long update help dad take crap dump today subreddit really amazing you needed someone therapist confide in im going work using relationship sort serious issues im still embarrassed about felt great get things chest cant thank enough 