really like bc fleeting loveim generally optimistic guy even worst situations recently feel like im losing support system lover ive made throwaway bc weird way im afraid admit im turning this ill first start admitting yes bc girl cant keep wrapping head around ive plenty partners come gone one shes little hope cling onto given ultimatum come stay country x amount weeks through given recent situation fact uni student funded parents really isnt choice make ive offered come days wasnt enough dont want admit refuse continue her helps im lowest everything seems right shes around id keep going feel like ive turned rambling cant really bring write guess id like really talk someone since cant talk her get chest really dont want continue without her