whats point living ugly skinny short manlike really point im  years old top terrible social skills zero confidence for obvious reasons barely friends never job never girlfriend virgin feel incompetent literally look like year old im certain undiagnosed adhd depression anxiety obvious reasons also eczema asthma atopic dermatitis my scalp eyebrows itch hyperhidrosis thyroid issues plethora food environmental allergies struggle hygiene phimosis a tight foreskin tight frenulum foreskin barely retract try best clean thoroughly smell quite unpleasant times hair gets greasy fucking quickly feet start smell quickly im exactly ugly take care myself would viewed ugly society features compliment other skin part clear high cheekbones chiseled jawline haircut looks good however head small big eyes big nose hump big lips also look horrible smile teeth showing avoid that seems like problems stem ugly short could worse though make suffering better sure things improve life life still fucking suck know need improve life many things want do seems pointless hate course im college im pretty much forced work familys store live them literally dictate life across country even see friends anymore feel weak like alien seriously dealt shitty hand get better see people complain short theyre  like fucking short try barely  foot literally lose fight year old born attractive eyes society count fucking lucky life seems like endless suffering born attractive talented born rich family genetic lottery also grovel work shitty  rest life die drift fantasy world tend dream ideal version appearance wouldve loved have living life likely never able live reality hits im back again ugly short man nobody gives fuck you people say what see instagram facade yeah right people see instagram who even models women men attractive enjoying lives partying travelling constantly updating stories stop trying make feel better even want work normal job as adhd something interest torture life already feels like torture dreams singer even social media star im goodlooking talented enough that hear people age talking partying travelling sorts stuff absolutely nothing understand people care please stop telling us follow suicidal ideations struggles simple getting help especially literally one turn to were still pandemic im actually planning killing myself really would mean hurting family small circle friends have keep telling get better followthrough plans anyone adhd depression know fucking sucks meaningless existence is probably missed stuff life fucking sucks see getting better im lying feel better point