astronomically closed shell former self finally cried tonightover again im better ive ever everything gets harder im exhausted yet people demand lot me dont understand im going ive through im really hurting right now ive lonely lacking relationships since ex split last july ive much interest pursue someone new im going delve deep holy shit life shit show rather long record suicidal tendencies praised fact ive seriously considered year but tonight drove drove hoping id crash fucking car something im shit tomorrow isnt better try again im absolutely hating right now im religious im praying universe shows significance world asap