killing todayits over redflag note done tonight ill free free emotion free self hatred free everything im almost done will brain trying one last time survive look help one time please thats says august th felt first stroke pain born coddled school issue went there stemm academy september th first thought death kept hidden told parents feelings told old thing redflag permanent solution temporary problem problem go away then got really irritated teacher might well spit face told whole class teen redflag caused thinking little things big now makes sense give up ive fighting war long ive left stemm echos pain still ruin me please help me truth want die ever want pain end im weak know it im coward ive given survive longer old strength support