alone mutei even know come here feel like talking feel like shouting feel like letting go wrecking everything path feel tense frustrated cant anything good bad feel stuck head replaying old regrets inadequate memories again want kill maniacal fervor yet know it control myself sense im slowly losing grip reality quiet myself boil crumble beneath blank dead stare want everything everyone shut up world meant me im idealistic naive arrogant demanding others able function it im slowly turning mass seething hate targeted humanity let spat ridiculed sake being good now kept unto others emotional insight starting wane i feel nothing die alone die without ever feeling love die without someone else ever knowing true thoughts feelings die knowing meant good guy fate took away me kill pity disdain dissapointment echo void die selfironyzing selfhatred last thought i please go i see shivering thought spending yet another useless day dare tell live know much selfhatred have cannot know nobody can me me