update  cuttertilldeathso update life going now original post  months ago httpwwwredditcomrredflagwatchcommentslnoocuttertilldeath first statement ill start saying finally diagnosed major depressive disorder aswell severe anxiety might add update cut past months now used think killing everyday every morning wokeup something bad happened day went bed fell asleep night would pray wakeup morning wanted pain suffering over id gone world people life would move act never there one would care everyones lives would lot easier parents friendsif even call that boyfriend ive multiple attempts aswell planned out left redflag notes ready it well see unfortunately im still alive update  weeks ago jumped nd story bedroom window im okay though wanted die get higher left ankles sprained everything else fine depression medication wellbutrin xl working really well love anxiety medication klonopin fucking amazing feel calm piece surroundings get tense anxious racing thoughts great d boyfriend brokeup im really well broke  months ago great part is hes still best closest friend emotional attachment anymore were other d communication mother anymore afraid stand upspeak myself assertiveness amp mindfullness key d