dont think anymoreive tried kill  times pastbut baby attempts middle school really werent going go anywhere  last time tried almost died overdosebut friend called police deal borderline personality disorder point dont know feel anymore  tend ruin relationships but dont know feelings warranted  somehow everything gets really skewed bpd really sad mix  really would need write pages pages describe feel regular basis but sum  hate  thinking killing bday  th feb notice whenever plan  never actually money buy sleeping pills  sometimes im really set ways sometimes want get knocked wake solid year  idk  im miserable dont know 