 hours i hopeim indecisive bastard first  jan  feb tonight made decision last night cant feel much anymore emotion fucked theres building near house construction hasnt think   years dont remember doesnt matter im piece shit doesnt matter anymore ill jump building tightening piece cloth around neck told friend chat said joking used lot say going die ive never really friends im  child ive like long remember smile painted face day want cry cant anymore dont know anymore dont care either im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry