cant remember day year havent thought redflagand point im done everyones bullshit lies life know fact getting better thanks nice lie though nobody knows inside all dont think go longer all one knows whats going mind actually knows whats wrong me thing thats making slightly temporarily happy siblings food music cant happy dont even understand people live normally im far away normality im place mind cant imagine living future dont tools plan living literal torture thinking brain complete utter torture every day days numbered cant wait die finally time comes