ending fridayive never told true story goes im currently junior college ive never really figured want life im ancious find order find good job ive really interested forensic science wanted something like that ive criminal justice major past two years super easy gave plenty time goof off year learned never get job forensics unless get chemistry degree made change year nothing super hard calculus classes chemistry classes biology remember nothing time high school im also learning im awful student never retaining info spitting tests feel like im everything every morning wake painful anxiety attacks mention friends experiences past two years school thing keeping parents doesnt feel like thats enough thought could change adapt cant everything hurts want die peace cant imagine moms reaction im failure student go life feel like disappointment waste space dont want hurt anymore nothing helps therapy doctors medication worthless goodbye