sure people feel way do  almost  pretty much zero experience women never girlfriend first sexual experience past year girl came onto full force dinner party friend threw random evening even realize hitting kissed nowhere next day went house stuff incredibly nervous complete disaster could enjoy moment whatsoever feel sad it ashamed sexual experience disaster fact happened late life lack experience general years really care that really crave affection want loved hold hands kiss hug cuddle subsequently sex role see main focus day spent girl although first sexual experience affection attention part filled void see since then wonderingi spent teens without much care this entering s well always loner good terms that now loneliness starting hit hard see close friends long term notredflag years person already children forming families etc know man successful friendships men women grateful that romantic notredflag polar opposite like dark side want think about want people know tired alone sexually frustrated emotonally frustrated