drank  pills tynenoli threw head feels heavy grandma grandpa im sorry im going heaven guys im going straight hell im scared dont want end hospital again want pain end dad im sorry know close birthday cant anymore im failure friends im also sorry guys amazing love you boyfriend im sorry said liked you part lying im sure whether actually like desperate mom mommy love you please dont die would hate that love you mom im scared really hurts im sorry mom love much dont want suffer anymore im selfish know please understand me mom mommommy love you im sorry everyone im sorry really am really failure im sorry goodbye