need help butim afraid tell therapist whats wrong me need tell driving redflag able bring tell problems mixture things real things imagined things im sure real thoughts torment daily lies guilty lied one person ever taken seriously helped want end life feel part problem munchausen syndrome sorry cant spell also real mental problems too cant admit therapist making guilty plan kill want confess therapist feel therapist hurt angry even though thoughts plan kill act them im afraid therapist believe true things told find out tearing apart feel guilty everyday im nearly constant mental torment hate myself know deserve help need it need guilt killing me