covered everything time reliefi know sub prevent redflag admire guys do great believe someone cares ive depressed  years cant continue everything anyone normal person could ever want consider lucky bring joy happiness everyday suffer im anti depressants tried talking therapist actually went today knowing final weekend honest tomorrow hopefully last time ever wake up ive made video left financial info passwords contact info ect ive written half notes plan cleaning house making everything easy possible im angry im even sad feel relief knowing over plan cooking favourite meal maybe beer watching movie guess im posting vent somebody want help someone hear understand final thoughts theres one person could save me cant go her dont want make feel trapped responsible fair her love much joy love reason ever found live person make want future ive dated plenty special messed up im ending things no light endless darkness candle go out