crazy di hit hard clinical depression couple months ago extremly intense thankfully last long  months utter agony needless say experiance new me knew nothing disorder obvious reasons depressed know depression package good stuff it one suicidal thoughts death depressed person like jumping warm bed long day work raining outside knowing tomorow day  got picutre simply sweet heres thing even recovering it feeling sun face air lungs blood vains enjoying good laugh  lm still obsessed redflag thinking every day every moment whith negative mindset all hypnotized idea simplicity possibility serinity all like days put one bullet chamber gun holding head closing eyes simply feeling it cold barrel skin frodos like temptation ring complete clearence mind ultimate sensation peace sometimes lose point limbs body go numb well relaxed became crazy anyone guilty act exactly go gentle good night resist temptation love hear thoughts about