empty voidone afraid life death words never spoke truth im  year old male living california currently ive depression ocd now taken life top im put simply shitty person im unemployed living parents house hope going anywhere failed navy let everyone including down take voices head felt weak wanting out dropped college cause id rather get fucked anything all ive plenty jobs ive either fired fucked somehow im pretty sure sort chest problem cant even sleep left side without chest hurting feeling heart pound lost recent friends awful them friends im burden family try productive want drink sleep went rehab drug addiction see getting better know im hoping writing ill feel even minute tranquility thank reading