whats point mean know grand point personally whats point dont anything left fight forive grown much grief constant pain everyday theres nothing brings source happiness even contentment im incapable holding onto relationships mentally im plagued panic heavy heavy depression physically auto immune issues stomach problems add fatigue drained energy identity wise ive never felt comfortable skin dont really care more im glad lot people one thing would want to thats great think guess doesnt exist wish would doesnt ive always wanted one thing thing would make life desirable again worth fighting for isnt part problem think used me turn created horrid perpetual cycle grief internal pain dont want live anymore im grateful years ive had ive made pretty far  im exhausted maybe thats okay wish best dont plan im guessing time will im tired pushing feel better completely honest you dont believe better real thing