great disappear ha would life would fun everyone complains anyway not painless way would simply exist thats impossible everyone two faced talk imperfections smile laugh ten minutes later leave whole world like then disappear not one gonna care much voice inside head tells everyday whenever im left thoughts grades selfesteem mentality days stinger days today day like that feel alone feel like sinner feel like today would better gone turns im horrible person guess ive always heard term gaslighting never though really happened often maybe im oblivious feel like piece crap feel like im worthless around me im another pon sacrificed sake others im invaluable piece know right felt suspicions rise never fully believed others would things noticed avoided like plague im naive known others find bother feel terrible feel toxic feel weak hurts feel used others talk behind back ask trust feel alone one defend inform me feel gullible feel act  months want disappear