advice attemptinghello im currently recovering failed redflag attempt immediate intense support time go back normal life something im really struggling time  months ago thought id paid rent gone work commuted done weekly shopping etc last time yet am back life living before feel like know expect get back things like nothing happened  went hospital real intense therapy waiting list cbt eyes ive treated better now really hard get told time support networks feeling suicidal even dealing grief caused redflag experience theres much weird recovery phase feel like im living dream world moment sometimes things even seem real help would much appreciated