hey think im finally readyso anyways sister fucking insane drug fueled bender claims sexually assaulted her guess assume im lying say believe women always like girl seeing since im doomed die alone think im finally ready always thought id need gun actually super easy get lethal dose heroin normal person without history opioid abuse od like  need get certificate anything way way better killing gun also fun less mess anyway heres list reasons absent one family friends significant etc man kill myself  many men engineering politics law running music chess etc literally every interest have theres huge male bias percentage men thats high killing increase percentage women field  recreational sports leagues gender requirements women play many want always many guys leagues sometimes feature girls times drive interest guys teams  everyone prefers company women women want hang women men want hang women one ever says many women here  believe women always rapist therefore deserve public shunning  women want around like want men around women races yoga retreats gyms women screenings wonder women etc yes women may like particular men stick around guys really care competition net overall wanted  theres many dating women overwhelmed messages guys like cares theres one less guy women trouble finding guys want date apparently anyway longer care anything else except this im pretty excited finally die deserve better exes emotional punching bag finally im gonna look me think writing note fun want guilt anyone issue want people happy given reasons listed obvious existence makes people unhappy anyway survivors hope happy really do want nothing happiness everyone friends family exes enemies whatever were monkeys rock kind other something says fuck guy think better move on anyway hope find happiness find someone love care about