someone please offer chat service suicidal people im coping allim australia lifeline chat worki cant get button show upim suicidalive thinking everyday non stopi need help came psyche med two weeksi taper properly ended brain damage suddenly reaction food like looking rock cant sense taste anythingor get reaction things think called anhedoniabut cant feel things evokethis devestated completely really passionate person interested booksballetevery beautiful thing many interests affect me became suicidal itbut decided go onto continue livingbut saturday caffeine something never ever doi three years stopped able deep sleep i serious sleeping issues soon knew done something terriblebecause three years ago deep sleep rare me coffee suddenly deep sleep stopped come back yearswell thing happened saturday wake like half awake nighti cant get deep sleep desperately need real restthis destroyed feel without restoring deep sleep brain heal feel hope nowi cant see way out mental state decline kind real sleep anyone offer hopeadvice anything