feeling suicidali hate go details made reddit account anonymous one contacts family friends ive really considering taking life ive attempted suicidal tendencies since  went institution one attempts people often wonder even consider it im  year old girl college parents love me boyfriend think loves me years though feel like ive become nuisance ive multiple relationships either mentally physically sexually abused ad even  sexually taken advantage  year old current relationship lacks communication even though weve together  years seems like cares sex despite knowing past parents constantly make feel like im going amount anything considering havent met goals set child use severely overweight spent  years losing  lbs   ive sinking hole im slowly gaining back feel disgusting ive hit rock bottom mind pills hidden baggy bathroom guess im waiting right time dont know im anymore ive lost way severely cant help think everything fault deserve am