feel like ive lost battle myself ive lost war tooive never put post like before think time go fast decline never prepared for eaten drank anything booze slept god knows long today long time boyfriend left me packed shit left gave every last part soul fight gone fight over want peace dad screaming way knows deal like this hes begging come home him mother begging come home her little brother know state im yet choose stay alone apartment rot nine animals kept going long cant anymore tied noose im waiting right time