tell friends suicidalmy best friends everything despite coming school friends school survived  redflag attempts resulted bullying sexual assault went untouched im glad friends month since lost job im dealing depression ever since gone point hopeless matter do always end loser great moments tell jokes other friend laughed something causing suicidal thoughts crossed line loser sums life fuck alive friends you world mean fuck nobody cares live regret staying alive died  years ago way seems ashes put sewage nobody cares me even family family done could get today im glad that barely helped social life ever since started school maybe talk more make rd time lucky it