sobbing write post think extremely imminent danger probably super high priority even one person could help would mean world me never thought would post subreddit like this suicidal thoughts years keeps threatening culminate tonight one worst nights try keep reasons quick know even deserve complain born fairly okay situation middle class mostly okay family things like that sad well lots mental health issues least noticeably impact normal human function top family often calls useless way affect me already mid s niche associates degree accomplishment cannot find work even like cashier something still live home one wants me job certain family including mom sister ones call useless top off dog one things keeps time two threatening get rid almost money think able care anymore would anything care her matter get money need her small bit saved going still look work tonight picked knife thought it and cannot seem follow through wrong me cannot even end right posting all thoughts gotten stronger stronger years combo anti depressant therapy helping enough feel like something push edge losing dog sure would need help please cannot it