ive feeling weird recentlyi dont even know say feel empty feel like theres lots stuff want life future feels like even worth doing feel like go things wanna never good thought gonna be feel like thats entire life going be nothing good everything good ends soon begins ive seen lot people die life like whats point ive never even considered redflag im starting fear could impulse guy group chat sent video guy blowing head shotgun thoughts like shotgun downstairs could gone instant scares me feel scared guns house know instant could kill myself want thoughts gone want feel normal life isnt even bad everything bland scare myself