heres hoping someone relate well tonight night plan go birthday wednesday im waiting long im laying bed im writing feel fine almost peaceful wish better way way explain im feeling know right wrong know im ill dont see feel ending life wrong choice bad see feel opposite taking whats left away benifit people life may sound like heartless person bother family may upset all dont hate infact dont hate anyone parts really wish could hate others id probably better person did im trying play superhero either ive enough all cry alot feel things alot hurt everyday dont see point good reason get better ive accepted me im going talk im like know better anyone im ill fair dont think matter reasons wanting end life good enough reason familys point view fine understand that put words try explain someone understand pain real need death one things dont like alone time become self centred worry even others may think say you im going head town ive posted im already worrying strangers think look somehow convienve everyone hate me probably didnt even notice me lol silly isnt it im heavily religious woman always taught treat someone would want treated got absolutely nowhere im saying go treat others poorly encouraging bad behaviour take care number one one else will im terrible looking thats something im good at im good looking im even better depression dont know ive gone topic sure say started typing guess selfishly wanted acknowledge existance leave anyone wants talk anything id happy company today send message take care everglow