mental health issues destroying academic career need second opinionever since started university seed doubt put mind fact cannot achieve decent grades anymore unfortunately always incredibly hard myself last year pull three exams i study mech eng due mental breakdown ive taken year three exams trying overcome issues took solace fact im time year ive received results got highest grades ever two exams failed third the third also worth least terms contribution final degree grade sent spiral think im lazy failure im supposed submit coursework pass module ive abandon sent thinking suicidal thoughts sent back nasty self harming habit want go final year absolutely smash enjoy feel incredibly lost bewildered cant seem hold sane thought anymore im convinced worst thing earth know thats preposterous really want harm really really dont feeling right now need outside opinion  perception predicament think thank much taking time read