months since died im still ok mother died april came home hospital one day laid bed doctors came home explaining things would work on suddenly im room crying hear family panicking mother dying worst part last time talked night before sounded happy coming home gonna make favorite cereal her mother lot things wrong her infected toe doctors fix something wrong spine end liver cancer somehow got without doctors noticing months since died still feels like last week cant stop crying everytime think her im stuck knowing never gonna see quinceanera wedding even hold grandchildren hurts knowing anymore know wrote this feel like needed vent somewhere