situationfor years ive struggling suicidal thoughs cant kill myself know like live enjoy life time then every year so dip want anything sleep  hours time still im tired cry nothing lose friends just want dissapear then again know want kill myself makes things worse i know do dip im in now going onfor  months know why want selfdiagnose anything im scared go doctor im hopeless got boyfriend wonderfull tries support me hes losing patience want bother problems guys please anyone know how feel better again ive tried talk friends backed away ive got noone left noone understands need psychological help ive never much pain life everything seems miserable keep messing everything im bitch time moodyness notice ive done social dammage cant im up want sleep never wake again tldr  feel miserable time need help cant kill myself cant stay emotional pain time