everything shitim going lot right now parents abusive depression getting worse fucked able get college memory bad cant remember anything past days trans fucking rest nobody talk to cut contact one friend abusive cant even remember actually abusive convinced was know see therapist every therapist ive seen ended treating like shit tried commit extremely abusive mental institution cant even talk anybody know im scared theyll tell parents parents committed  hour holding period bullshit turns  week stay nobody talk to feels like life hit brick wall everything ive planning everything ive done try get better none worked out really seems like redflag way stop this