made life escaping abuse  life jeopardy feeling hopelessi ran away abusive home situation taken supported financially friend support suddenly ceased months ago facing homelessness desperation took first place said yes  hate it pay like  income rent room house full screaming children passive aggressive control freak roommates thought could deal cant constant tension air walking eggshells dreading coming home refuge shitty day highstress lowpay job  reminds much abuse flew thousands miles get away from feel safe anywhere anymore never relax building stress putting crisis want get out since previous roommate parted ways literally reallife support system anymore deepseated trust issues means reallife friends moment feel like one talk to therapist extraordinarily kind letting see free ever since lost previous living situation  cant see often feel like need feel guilty seeing without payment matter many times tells alright aside that therapy world solve practical issues  money move again license would even physically move belongings previous roommate helped move last time theyre state now feel trapped hopeless felt emotionally mentally bad years feel capable job anymore  especially feel like  mile walk every day get back energy im utterly exhausted always feel like im fightorflight mode now cant handle stress catching flying handle minuscule things almost meltdown grocery store yesterday fit shit reusable bags brought in cant go like im afraid getting deep crisis become fully nonfunctioning then cant job ill become homeless hurts much especially well felt like full functioning adult  job boss loved me considered promotion putting money savings paying old debts fixing credit score putting food table felt like become much told family would ever capable  felt like life own gutter really know im going get time im sure even want get time do