considering giving upi currently nothing me mom want medication thinks ive acting lazy need fix habits ive stopped trying get help her many friends either problem making them always seem lose easily hurts me im always stressed school the people work ive slacking recently cant focus anything matter hard try mom gets mad normally well school cant anymore im sure balls kill myself get closer everyday really anything fight for days think good future im sure strength make good days overthink everything cant anything feel useless died could easily replaced know family would sad feel like  friend would genuinely care feel like theres point anything thats downloaded reddit know theres lots people feeling feel decided give shot talk it normally keep everything bottled up whenever im finally able say something get ignored soo yeah