feel detached even familyit feels like belong family rarely contribute conversation im usually one fucks dynamic could literally disappear notice thing usually would take anger especially mom feels belittling would usually tease aware usual behavior family im hypersensitive comes topics im afraid embarrassed hate sound laughter ringing ears everything hurts lot fault sensitive harmless jokes laughter know feel like could burst tears anxiety whenever topic lands me mom dad told lot times born another family probably wouldve kicked already makes feel like shit brother also told stop sensitive increased selfconsciousness sensitive ironically made sensitive guess childhood kid cries way easily kind fucked up remember crying teased brother mom dad best friend around i think  happened like ooh gonna cry second now going cry teasing crying took edge cried front them one tried comfort not even best friend stood laughing pathetic crying teasing me curled blanket  hours crying sheets laughed shrugged off waiting sheets one approach none did finally got tired waiting decided come try forget happened play phone laughed again laughter still ringing ear