sure live anymore going insane inside mindhey all ive deep state depression pain time gotten point feel trapped mentally able much anything job yearim  ive seasonal work community limited work ive hard time getting one ive tried lot put utmost im really afraid afraid committing ad hearing schedule im tried drained time sleep day often feel weak feel like im going insane boredom cant much it live hill outskirts town neighborhood next sage hills okay im feeling like im trapped alone it like environment driving insane mentally ive mainly house long time  leaving go sometimes town afternoon stuff mom dad pushes go stuff days sometimes causes lot anxiety conflicts him would try excersize im afraid mental block cant it hard explain really feel cant move life im mentally right dad angry complains lot verbally abusive mom somewhat understands completely im therapy helping much almost wonder need go hospital inpaitient therapy im afraid uncertain asked therpaist says inpaitient mainly people danger hurting themselves cant lay home much longer feel unwell even think mind everyday know im suffering lot want harm im scared cant go way thanks support