months ago told dad take shelter get cat adopted  cats time severe health redflag really paranoid getting sick horrible know would even affect getting cat did got cats petrified kind disease regretted fuckijg much one cats really affectionate towards kept trying show affection cuddling fucking anxious would get sick days later could bear redflag forced dad return them started crying hard cat trying show affection towards  months later still cannot get fact still crying every night fuck redflag fucking hate  might sound pathetic cat showing affection really means much since hate affection never show anyone irl want cat back sure adopted now hate myself got another cat redflag way less show affection anything hates me ik might something stupid sad hate fucking hate mysself