quite timehi reddit find headspace thought left behind im side meltdown panic attack whatever feel exhausted im drained cant sit still feel frozen inaction feel unstoppable need change something thoughts focus wanting anymore im tired struggle struggle pay bills stay groomed keep place clean car insurance social life work dad time sleep everything struggle nothing feels smooth easy going hopeless ive lonely since wife left first rejection post divorce hurt way expected foolish think id stronger went through ativan kicking hard ill try get sleep hope mind leave darkest thoughts behind time wake up sorry rambling