im sick of vent im sick myself im sick nothing matter theres someone better me im sick people thinking im strong talented sociable happy opinion cannot that im sick feeling like life lie im sick feeling like words actions own better version never be yet  time im sick dreams aspirations im sick people telling make k year worth doing im sick told talent music photography also told talents useless focus math im sick worrying money im sick worrying cant afford im sick limited life financial state im sick living around actual millionaires feeling like belong im sick jealous people im sick seeing friends blow right past social musical academic status like im standing still im sick acting like nothings changed everything changed im sick feeling like cant talk friends theyre better me form another im sick looking mirror seeing shittier version someone else im sick feeling like bad photocopy parents expectations im sick asked help cope anxieties im sick telling truth deal them im sick letting words lies hate selfdoubt fester inside like cancer cannot function im sick knowing improve address problems correctly motivation so im sick knowing tests study for id rather sleep pretend exist im sick getting good grades anyways all im sick perfect im sick thinking perfect maybe things would right deal bullshit carry around like lead weight im sick feeling like im one deal kinds problems im sick feeling like everyone else shit straightened im one doesnt im sick feeling left behind one help get back feet im sick telling problems real get like everyone else im sick feeling like im one cant deal struggles shortcomings im sick pain never goes away im sick living nice town nice things good education means im privileged great things life im sick pressure constantly me making want disappoint someone thank reading this ive wanting say long time know say it feel like people know im really ok even say am im never  ok never  sure say it thank you