close friendships driving insane want screami dont feel like belong planet  know sounds cliche really mean it feel like im physically mentally im somewhere else ive always found difficult connect people like matter do im never good enough im always last choice guess im socially incapable keeping friends thing is dont want friends  dont deep friendships want deep connection people seems like dont want me see people around age time lives friend groups im constantly asking whats wrong me cant that thing is whats point living life cant deep connections people im  time life this lonely life like really worth living