sad lonelyi really know came like this really happy kid real dreams goals like everything fallen apart know sometimes wish escape world disappointed people love ie parents good academic career look like fucking jabba hutt extra weight skin tone dark cant even talk people ignored them recently tried talking guy crush dming insta took real huge guts say thank something did moment saw face face ignored me like disgusted me experiences like make wonder fucking ugly one wants talk me insecurities huge impact self esteem confidence sometimes feel like killing disappearing world cant let parents go me cant break like that want die cant