wish brave enoughi feel terrible actually got point point really wishing life would go away  brave enough anything it bpd since live uk getting help pretty much massive fight waiting  years far therapy classed serious actually attempted redflag yet reason mother told ever tried would furious cant deal thought dying hating me im stuck living nothing able kill myself hate much living stupid country also means unlikely able get help least  years many antidepressants none worked most reacted badly to lofepramine say work take away offer support know anymore cant live like cant die