posted rdepression im feeling really shitty yesterday birthday know bother anymoreso made plans party today invited people month ago reminded week ago people said bought  bonfire permit today lot money right since im broke wanted happy birthday once well birthday rolls hear anyone another loneliest day year today reached people said theyre coming either got reply come literally everyone second birthday row something like happened spent alone maybe  cant remember mention every holiday people funhalloween ect actually hung friends since graduated college year half ago ive things supposed make feel better like going gym trying get university something worthless like college degree quitting toxic job deactivating facebook none fucking working want fucking friend