meeting ra today say xpost rdepressionso heres brief story last night feeling unnaturally suicidal got far pills lined desk taken much start taking them first always hardest messaged friend never responded still hasnt anyways something stupid forced apartment hall resident advisers room knocked  percent prepared opened door tell call police me went back room going swallow lot pills well apartmentmate answered there shit went walk rain calm instead calling cops maybe done long manged go back apartment put away pills get decent nights sleep went bed though messaged ra facebook saying tried reach earlier would like set meeting today question nowwhat say her tell whole truth last night fact going call cops suicidal thoughts all etc im sure feel shell report boss mind im sure much really me thanks reading