tell therapist want diethis second time im going see therapist want scape abusive home  narcissistic parents everyone telling money scape want honest give single fuck money spent many years unhappy abusive disgusting place give shit sleeping street friends says could live im another city need pay someone get there give single fuck anything feel like nobody understands cant tolerate type abuse anymore want normal everyday hard feel like im never gonna get here tell this find comfort anything want life thought destined someday happy normal young woman im not quarentine never endsand live place time want anymore cant im unhappy place everything window place support weight body could use something like rope belt end everything sorry bad english im really good it everyone screaming house now fuck people tell need do never tell know love like you want here want happy want normal like people age