im tiredim tired everything absolutely everything im tired fuck up im tired narcissistic mother verbally emotionally abuses daily done ever since little im tired trauma fucks everyday mom used physically abuse younger used get beat daily old school im tired good enough son mom anybody else im tired mental illnesses im tired burden im tired living maybe really fucking kill myself past days mom yelling usual shes telling much better life would never around fucked life much mental illnesses im cause every single bad thing life maybe bad mom tells am maybe deserve abuse mom maybe reason dad left doesnt care knew would turn disaster maybe one day ill finally kill myself