suicidal thoughts overwhelming im accepting themi feel getting closer closer point ill try kill im happy thats goal life ive failed achieve goals killing goal might today tomorrow even week ill eventually hate alive fucking hate want alive anymore whats point alive never person want whats point alive stuck body hate way change whats point alive cant anything love forced things hate every single day escape hell whats point living alone feel like outcast society ive lived life motto only best good enough im best im even average im average cant live like anymore already got plan ill feel like last straw