things hopelessi posted before good news im still here bad news im still suicidal thoughts depression comes waves days okay cry little days cry nonstop extended periods time last night particular wanted end all reached friend helped feelings lingered scheduled see psychiatrist wednesday morning appointment therapist afternoon cant say whether helping im going try share suicidal thoughts them tried share feelings depression family friends think understand bad is also wondering share feelings boss work believe full transparency good relationship extremely compassionate person trust him know reason tell now know try reach various resources whenever start feel bad ive used friends redflag hotlines reddit posts compassion chats help know else stick therapy hope one day waves big