alright first thanks taking moment read terrible mess punctuation spelling social redflag depression since  years old  now made learning experience time growing tougher hoped not sound complacive anyhow skimmed highschool plans secondary school college never found interest getting bed morning let alone pursuing careerpassion graduated june  immediately kicked dad step moms house couch hopped found full time job shithole apartment rent around year living wake force bed take bus work keep head listen podcaststhe reason writing bullshit depression social redflag amped since moved here every day convince hour two everything okay working mans lifeso reason say stuck position cannot seem make friends good conversation even try hardest matter much cocaine booze nothing changes fact fucking cringefest talk to really know asking guys say want hear stories opinions hope well wish best stuck