need someone talk downive well last couple weeks today worst long time im stuck work now cant call hotline wife also work want make day difficult mine is texting let know feel distract job work suffered severely this cant make happen her basically need someone talk enough make work day much call things crises seems impossible get help timely matter like already need attempt deed get help im half ass cry help when it going real potential help point disappears second appointment therapist wednesday might well years away im feeling feel trapped unable control even smallest aspect life work job worked really hard for frills self hatred coworkers hate promoted fraction time theyve spent employed try make every day difficult possible see fail supervisors cant trust coworkers jobs come every little thing needs get done want quit would mean lose source income insurance wife desperately needs chronic condition would mean able pay loans bills would fall wife parents cover ive already used pto trying cope this able land job anywhere else either despite applying sorts positions even jobs im qualified for still turned away without even phone interview wife threatened offered committed sometimes sound like bad idea im stranded away person love able fall asleep next end day hear laugh stupid jokes thats really thats keeping going past year anyways basically comes feeling trapped helpless change anything guess reading time spare pm something help make day half mind take long lunch go home grab straight razor take swim river really want that think many options left thanks reading