venting feel like ive lied toso listen up guy friend tendencies killing himself im uncertain feels like now hes talking normally now least thing ended somewhat however family best mood couple months see grandmas serious health issue one alzheimers seriously struck stroke  years ago cant move talk since then found shocking to me informations dad talkto mom years still refuses talk bad blood times turns out fucking fake husband used beat shit drinking time stroke dad angry reason figure happened why also parents christians too dad confession taking lot drugs back then even early christian days clues drug paraphernalia even finding box weed makes think never really ended still talk weed helpful shit seems christians whatever thing is feel like family lies awful lot expects awful lot me judge smallest things like fuck do even shout brush teeth yet like crime smth mom always harshly critizizing too tell her says oh joke yeah right lot nightmares recently fact  grandmas critical condition weird conspiracies overall bad mood online school random weird shit makes cry like almost everyday ok call crybaby im slowly losing it even took xans make least fall asleep life shit  least happy around birthday im open converse people comments