venthi thought would come back ive made post deleted got scared anyone knew would find it yesterday told mom made want kill ended parents freaking almost calling police me they didnt yelling telling ungrateful selfish hard explain life parents support financially im international student im legally allowed work however work table business stressful work almost everyday another employee messes parents  blame it even though employees like  years older me hate living mother weirdly overprotective me doesnt let lock door something usually go sleep wake  morning yelling unlock door curfew even though im almost  know every minute days theres obviously life im showing you im always stressed work school living family makes worse suicidal past couple months parents arent talking anymore yesterday