dont anyone else say toim going kill myself wont im proud cat mom  stupid best thing got going life fur babes best slightly unconditional love believe im ranked slightly friskies meaty bits ill take that entire life ive struggled dont even know why difficult exist im  years old spent majority life looking forward next thing usually sort job advancement travel ive done that both im home unemployed desperately trying fill days dont know myself literally ive drinking pass time ive tried cleaning elder scrolls motivation nothing want do dont hobbies dont goals wasting space depression dont know ive always felt way deep somehow managed go living feel isnt place me dont belong here wanna go away but know cats