anyone relate male sexually abused younger cant find girl never couldive contemplating thinking redflag since around th grade knew happened along say victims dont sexual abuse whole story though im almost  now friends least lost it think fuck would want damaged person like me cant even force act happy times im around best friends im saying everyone sexually abused fucked life personally thats feel is ive hospital before want go back joke help all bills poor parents know pay brings yet killed myself want hurt anyone im even sure really want die know dont want go like this anyone relate u ever find someone breakdowns becoming frequent theres least times locked friends bathroom without knowledge dont want anyone know im curled ball like mental patient am  friends know childhood parents thats it want talk someone dont think anyone know relate molested let alone wanting die people react that im trapped bad place one really knows please fucking help me edit tell honestly sounds like im bitching know seen posts redflag watch worthy redflag friends im thankful that knew edit  thank much everyone ive found worse im myself think theres possibility could bipolar better know things know feel chaotic lot time im slowly trying get help cant go back hospital though especially adult wards fuck that theres way worse shit me anyway getting point thank typing long paragraphs me know lot may abused too know many us boat remember care us talk feel never see redflag could effect them know think us want cause anyone type pain said anyone else wants use thread get stuff chest ask questions like did go ahead take 