feel like need tell someone herebefore happened diagnosed bipolar disorder mild depression making whole experience worse swallowed  random pills even know were ate them memory happened got half way stairs woke bed  hours later terrible pain well everywhere  couple hours figure hell going on never told anyone trust issues personal things continued going school whole week grades spiraled down would sit there either sleep play phone told everyone lack interest school anymore im pretty sure believed it recovering it really made progress yet almost everyday im still thoughts trying again never go it completely honest reason tried kill mthe cat gets extremely depressed im gone multiple days tried getting therapy helped all im best confrontation issues none friends really know it well one did gone now moved another state ill add feel like later right seems long sorry format im mobile