well againa year ago hit rock bottom bad relationship sitting er thought learned thought got better now realize im slowly blowing chances girl actually worth it give up know happen already see falling away im losing touch reality detached strong enough word describe feeling im justgone present struggle times future looking hopeless wish could change past bad ive fucking many times even want think itits like attempts make things better make worse used proud am im even aware am beyond pathetic iswho turned into family friends caringbut none affects anymore one left turn to want professional help anyways really pointless one actually cares saying farewell starting seemappealing strange eating all sleep becoming challenging mention dreams torture me tonight lie awake know emptiness expandi think time go soon apologize wasting time