want end dont know howi dont want pain want out ive never seen point this put earth without consulted hard enough see value life things going fine lately things going shitter honestly cannot take one minute this dont job job get couldnt start wasnt granted work permit country live i wasnt born here months waiting around limbo im money options havent felt real connection anyone years barely friends ones dont really give shit theyll say polite thing move on thats fine dont want nuisance theyre entitled life want out im tired keep fighting things get better get slap face people unlucky guess yet im one lucky ones many worse off doesnt make want die less anything confirms world place be anyone im gonna die decades maybe earlier that anyway grand scheme things makes difference keep suffering cant find way thats foolproof dont want pain agony want press button gets here hate parents bringing shitty place