execute emergency planthings gotten rather difficult lately hurts much family poking mental weaknesses  seem know best seem enjoy seeing worst gun owner makes moments brokenness like especially hard get through heart heavy tired mind clouded im thankful thought clearly enough execute emergency plan hopped car dog drove drive jesus window parked car listening metal wondering theres church small prayer area back obviously closed hour parking lot illuminated beautifully peaceful place  dont even belong church church matter spot gives sense tranquility moments horrible thoughts cross mind easily could end things home ill sit car longer tempest mind calms bit  looking dog passenger seat helps come least first reason move forward keep trying life think ill get plain cheeseburger leave give second reason stay kind yall