feel like cutting myselfi dont history cutting im actually great blood hate needles almost fainted nurse withdrew blood me short blood makes queasy though feel really low even angry overwhelmed filled selfhatred look facial razor pick obsessively imagine would feel like cut myself my facial razor sharp ive cut accidentally times ive never cut purposely dont get urge coming from though suppose good mention ive struggling thoughts redflag dont consider serious serious attempt drunken tried fling onto upcoming traffic due fight boyfriend dont think would done wasnt intoxicated though