dont want live  yearsi thing whenever im one nature remind im  ive gone much already dont want another  years endure life throws me dont want plain simple dont want eat go out talk anybody pursue career etc id rather meet fate sooner later issue accepting life real suffer derealizationdepersonalization disorder say feel like nothing around real really truly mean it feel numb everything around me feel like im one hurdles sheep living world didnt ask get put in dont know mentality anymore