talent use them always option mindi even know subreddit im good explaining especially keyboard ill try understand im feeling senior high school given dream position school announcer monday friday thing boast pretty good teachers students staff thought too made many friends announcer me not surprise anything want throw well autistic  year old bullied childhood shown amount love respect appreciation school paradise val halla etc school ends it momentum drive ideas week graduate downstairs family friends party upstairs alone blank mind knowing able something put much work into next day broke cried day legitimately felt useless thought killing myself im wimp know speed things up first job horrible second good hours bad struggling even find job become stressful want job talents interests zero possibilities i looked hard careers zero results escape music lots video games lots meaning spend  hours computer day go friends im active like left alone spend day computer sometimes night im posting feel like people lives sort advice someone like me someone life worth living anyone thanks mitchthebadger