anyone feel like talkingkind bad spot right feel like need talk someone edit feel bit comfortable think im going post told writngrl here sorry relatively large wall text incomplete ill add later well come middle class background  year old white male sorry useless information suppose started around  years old and currently living mom dad step brother used showers brother believe sexually abused i cant say remember much back sticks out mentally disabled swapped kind crazy zealous christian done anything harm since general brotherbrother fights young overweight kid confidence coincides fat average build still self confidence issues growing brother general problem child good every two weeks id deal loud raging arguments father continued years point mom mental breakdown tried slitting wrists recovered awhile another breakdown  years later fine past two three years breakdowns stop step brother slitting throat means redflag