want hospitalized cant stop thinking ending allim bipolar type  hospitalized jan year th time extreme depression psychosis meds working put lexapro zyprexa helped bit last month ive getting worse worse fucking hate damn bad im tired psych listening me tired exhausting family bow fucking sick depression started hurting again little im tired im tired shit working im tired pain im tired know do feel like complete failure tired told keep head itll pass im fucking sick trying endless game rotating pills work im stuck want go drive somewhere secluded found maybe jump cliff shit overdose pills cant get head want hospitalized take away anxiety meds real bad anxiety disorder thanks past sexual abuse im done life tired trying hard nothing do im confused crying damn everything im sick this