waking school everyday killing meeveryone mean nasty entire place toxic ive survived  years cant even comprehend way drinking drink weekly thing makes happy friends interests want pursue parents tell me some people would give everything education case used barely attend welfare officer got involved attend everyday two years days blur point want hear schedule literally wake up go school endure insults overall hell go home enter bedroom lay bed debate hanging good  minutes high point week get drink spirits friday im seriously seeing point going much longer please help