realized im stuck im worried im going ruin christmasim  separate account girlfriend send posts reddit dont want see worry names ben im sophomore college want teacher havent started major classes fourth switch really think im good kids im scared wont cut man bun im really skinny im sure would hire me im gay im outspoken unique style stuff think people regard intelligent quiet weirdo anyways im also bipolar im family tree id hard time explaining  siblings feel stuck cane college whim ive never good anything video games art two programs dont offer college either way im trapped underneath lease utility billl  month cant afford it pay november december dont money im scared dont money unable work salvation army work ive reached limit work study hours semesteri cant find another job dont car dont want ask grandparents help wanted self sufficient year half ive recently acclimated credit card debt buying girlfriend siblings gifts came home fall break paid off  dollars contacts food reckless spending ive managed accumulate another  thats  dollars accident still owe  bills coming month house dont know do current plan sell stocks eat ramen cant afford buy christmas gifts anyone im worried everyone hate usually go elton great lengths pick great gifts cant cant make anyone happy making dissapointed spent money fuckup cant make class im stressed havent classes since found cant work cant wake alarm im mess please give advice hard want give