ive enough lifethis probably get buried get chest im  year old male uk ive depression suicidal thoughts around  years started grandmother raised passed away gcse exams put deep depression didnt revise exams led failing nearly every single one went college uk college university got much dropped out ever since then ive bounced jobs even though work full time now minimum wage isnt really something brag about feel fed bad life want end all ridiculous amount insecurities im noticeably skinny despite overeating every day top hair receding ive rejected every girl ive ever tried talk obviously doesnt help friends seem going places feel stuck endless cycle depression ive tried talking people makes worse judged it point dont see option hang