alienated last person help step back thats left strangersi just cant take anymore ive felt like shit ever since fiancee died coming  years holy fuck  years think would this fast havnt serious relationship since close friend mine bad scare redflag cops found passed car stopped side building decided toss everything aside help it moved k miles away everyone know now talk anymore thats problem though just friends abandoned me ive got two great friends now one male one female that fell head heels for point became joke everyone drew guy came visited week pretense helping out spent entire week chasing ass far watching craigslist see someone would post bailey female friend since started dating someone tortured high school made fun me absolutely tortured high school hear great guy is telling everything happened hes amazing makes feel like person life gotten bad cant work cant sleep  days straight passed phone customer nodden off passed out woke hit floor sent doctor gave script xanax im looking mg xanax bottle grey goose start look good here better idea seems nod off let pain go away done it back fiancee wife got taken me