hate myself hate fucking much want here suck cannot talk anyone anymore without bringing shitty thoughts lately seriously cannot friend talk pathetic existence would love someone save me far beyond broken reached breaking point long fucking time ago done tired exhausted redflag mind put through like enough seriously relentless feel like enough stop hate here miss happy miss waking actually looking forward things tired trying find safety thoughts tired isolating fucked friend right now like seriously want things get better not know happen me really not really know one people affects seriously cannot endure it empty enough like taken take please stop nothingi want nothing ambition want anything stop please stop want find peace venting