storyi around  years old old enough realize father alcoholic workaholic drug abuser coke fights dad got worse would get drunker every night screaming parents never stopped around time started cut myself want die felt like blame fathers actions needed punished around time  dad mentally abused started physically abuse me gave lovely shiner popped blood vessel eye dragged hair room proceeded suffocate me eventually stopped left damage done mom took away him minimum wage job life really sucked weeks time food fridge gas electric shut numerous times point life really wanted die would stay home school look moms room looking medication would kill me almost resorted injecting insulin shes diabetic months later attempted cut throat avail really makes sad knowing low life would thing me life bad back thought killing way out not im tell life gets better may seem like now will want know im you need someone talk to matter time im want me survived to may know you love you tldr know going im you please let help