ive spent half life trying follow dreams nothing worked ever im ready die ill never accomplish anything matter approach it ive done nothing wasted half life im sick poor advance further hate hate everything life itself everything try work try go back school hundred one reasons cant need medical care well guess free clinic hospital owe fortune first time went make wait waiting room cant stand it get upset call security guard kick out ive never job would pay kind bill ive never place live im getting close  fuck life everyone thats it watched best friend go afghanistan contractor come back better shape hes ever fucking rich try job oh cant work here cant pass god damn physical theres always god damn reason there well fuck world give damn anyone thinks anymore im going kill right library front assholes fuck everybody everything ask exist