 male college student need help badlyi really know start it always felt fairly depressed past years never done anything thought standard teen depression thing grew depression grew never made friends high school trouble talking people uncomfortable so people understand mean say uncomfortable talking people cannot bring talk people goes beyond social awkwardness something troubles deeply say hello make eyecontact ive ridiculed lack eyecontact peers become suicidal ive begun cutting i want die kind way if press bit harder could over also mention used  gpa ive gone school  weeks missing midtermshomework etc also scholarship doubt ill able keep now im already ton debt people still coming me still live home even enough offset costs school i lived campus last year apartment bit feel like offing best option point health insurance parents feel comfortable talking anybody person this eventually im sure come im sure way im sure many say go schools counseling center goes back said earlier extreme reluctance talk anybody anything magnified fact want talk situation