cant take nomore time sleep nowdear suicidal self hello close friend cant deal anymore thoughts tooking think comtting redflag dont see way feel caused nothing hurt distruction pain live done nothing life feel never amount anything im borden people friends anything try find way mess im meant life im worthless helpless point im tired feeling way feel time end pain much depression worst living never ending nightmare cant sake cut tights people friends even family even son better love much cant live anymore knowing caused pain never ment cause son know hurt know wasnt fault daddy sick im sorry know good hands amazing mother im nothing never anything wish im sorry family isnt one fault alway felt never fit anywhere dealing feeling thoughts long time dont sad upset im peace dont know got point im scared know matter mins dont wanna live pain anymore yrs anything done failed thing good drugs worthless im ashamed person become embarrassed wanted happy live life unbearable