one really cares mewhats point living anyway one loves you im sure belongs know myself think parents really care me think dead weight them  living paying college close cannot talk feelings understand western society way conservative think prayer reading bible fix everything doesnt reason still sticking around though older brother took life february   want attempt fail finding out would think reason failure parents short unattractive guy also takes toll selfesteem everyone dealt different hand life given worst cards play with way many obstacles concur definitely wish taller better looking social anxiety think could taken seriously life looking girlfriend moment never one way scared ill get pushed around knowing cant change anything yes know eat right workout room change fact short riddled anxiety selfloathing rampant me indian guy born raised ameria still stigma us one seems like us bad stereotypes us bad jokes us creepy guys sense communicate properly understand thing people may think things rips away me aware indians also prejudice towards others get may particularly care right now try kind anybody unconditionally try understand points view cant act angry public else bruting foreigner cant go clubbing anything like used seeing someone race things like that learned myself see worried things cannot change height race looks means cannot respected appreciated things different would much happier know could learn something new get hobby get rich konw momentary pleasures like music food etc however think none matters short tall ugly handsome stuff futile me probably sound sad pathetic right now entirely wrong either become nihilistic everything thing keeping college well either sure kind future have completely realistic myself future probably living alone working coming home redflag freedom freedom depression anxiety turmoil