cant switch thoughts offi got ill christmas time broke someone seeing long seemed like perfect person asked thoughts taking step forward we seeing other question says cant thats it over nothing point gone wrong sent really nice messages voice mail literally telling really really liked me ive break ups cant shake one even though short romance feel like never meet anyone quite like ever cant get head due illness norovirus lost almost  stone weight trouble sleeping  days thoughts ending all point started thinking would best way went doctor help im antidepressants moment begins c cant remember name ive  days now trouble sleeping given sleeping tablets still keep waking up went back doctor took away refused give anything would make problem worse ive feeling better just want end end it recently massively cant sleep less two hours  days ago found would likely made redundant end february since cant sleep thoughts driving crazy want stop appetite drive carry anymore really know im posting this guess want vent cry throw go away wish antidepressants actually made feel happy