rose colored glasses come realize thought closest important parts social life actually care much all supposed trust someone actions pure honest words demeaning vindictive grew mindset drunk mans thoughts sober ones words applicable angry sure say things regret fact said moment happens one time mistake habitual routine force move moments let brain play repeat still young still somehow feel fucking bitter point daydream cutting everyone life moving somewhere new tired feeling like constantly looking things bother feeling degraded upset things told fault if say dumb things would treat like dumb person