one find whats wrong normal enjoy life againi havent brushed teeth showered  days go days like time months im low energy joints hurt never go outside cuz cold hurts like old person im  bare minimum look good work always feel disgusting dont know customers even nice like job literally kindness prettiness going me feel stupid brain fog malnourishment bad stomach constantly pain constantly scared food feel sick health issue tests coming week cant find something help going lose mind im end rope cut almost everyone close dont realize im preparing death mind literally suffering constantly dont even know tell work anymore call much fear everyone misunderstands thinks im really sick saw gi specialist told look like im perfect health drop university twice  classes graduate im sick make class anyone knows knows isnt spent birthday thanksgiving christmas new years day alone room eating crying staring wall one find whats wrong normal enjoy life again