need gunmy entire life big fuck up  parents got divorced go dads house would abuse physically mentally im  im close falling school people care me people tell get better every day get gets even worse almost everyday wish abortion one moms periods die car crash going  attempt redflag need gun make sure survive tried going therapists thry make see end life lot time friends make fun religion really blame them weight  pounds stub penis hope die mom dad see message terrible parents are anyone owns gun really need one thanks