cant see option redflag makes sense father regrets becoming dadive terrible headspace mentally since daughter born  months ago negative headspace results knowing child mistake me life pregnancy actually unintentional partners religious beliefs made room abortion decided go ahead it married weve together  years love daughter many unresolved issues life becoming dad  people become father position optimal mean already probably lived care free stage life wanted lead theyve wild fun s theyve made connections last life time entered fatherhood considered life mostly failure suffered anxiety depression s never fun others have theres huge part feels unlived never live without abandoning child bring do furthermore ive always incredibly introverted point feel genuinely upset cant alone far back  years old used go bedroom hide people came visit house value alone time despite mental health difficulties best ways ive taken advantage ability alone going solo travel trips different cities cannot feasibly next  years minimum internal conflict regretting becoming father did wanting live different life much handle people might say theres middle way could separate partner least provide child support rest life play healthy role childs upbringing see viability middle way would lead guilt partner left hard work so arrive redflag best solution splitting partner would lead daughter feel unloved unwanted grows issues come that killing leaving note says due mental health difficulties cope would least provide reason furthermore id age daughter understand im gone know probably need help therapy honestly cant ever overcome feeling living life wrong gone way everyone else happy fathers subreddit s probably wild youth full happy memories thats me