end linehey there im starting go crazy ive miserable downwards spiral years think finally reached end ive become unmotivated mny like cant bring things used like go gym sleep even simple hygienic things seems like cant hold true friendship friends annoy never find something actually do nothing interests anymore simple things like skating gaming even reading gone disire focus simple gone life summer  months go back school stay til am wake am work day sit computer mindless things get frustrated everything boring bland ive begin wander dangerous existentialist mindset nothing really matters dont even know here point desperate obtain significant other know probably wont make happy want someone care care back people always say im virgin loser never find anyone makes even insecure sex always mind  frustrating knowing everyone going im not viginity thing bothers know does well honestly really really dont see point living yeah might sad see go care choice last pathetic attempt getting help something potentially stupid dont know dont see point anymore im ugly loser beta male lives parents basement goes community college gets terrible grades im unmotivated pathetic existence anything people like even born world dont contribute anything fail everything do hate hometown really need leave dont resources travel maybe find myself anyways maybe someone read maybe wont sorry thoughts writing style grammar spelling format head racing kill yourself kill yourself im little drunk even care j