nobody leftno friends left disowned parents girlfriend wasnt ready relationship everyone told stupid getting sick boyfriend guess kind good thing anyways one biggest things keeping wanting hurt people nobody left hurt nobody turn help feel like could without guilt idk even explain reasons it ive suicidal thoughts since kid maybe bored life always feeling hollow even shit goes south cant cry even want to every day painful breathe honest dont want get better already hated fact people survive bout cancer suicidal fuck like me things considered redflag might biggest accomplishment life wish best goodbye