dont know anymoreim lost ive turned here dont know im asking for help support dont know anymore im much coward kill myself im also numb lost anything else cant get anything fucking hate it turned  senior highschool alright before going top seats highschool president honor society got raped another student highschool school pretty much ignored life gone pretty downhill there mother immigration issues almost got deported already depression self harmed since young abusive father issues dont know im saying know shouldnt need validate sadness dont understand havent able get better anymore  mother always acts like act get going school dont understand would purposely fuck life like this dont want like this redflag attempt september since then feel like things gotten worse dont know anymore want end know things need do like schoolwork laundry life general fucking life me cant get anything fucking hate myself dont know anymore want die wont amount anything anymore point dont really friends theyre sick tired depressed missing school dont really know im asking for maybe somewhere rant feel like im prolonging inevitable let die already edit ive missing much school partly flu partly depression im scared wont even able pass classes point im still ap classes even though know theyve adding onto anxiety know care trying fix missinf work shit graduate feel empty numb im lost dont know anymore feel like dying im much coward yet everyday im messing more