hello againfirst all fuck say gets better would like know long ive told that decades im  years old gets worse much much worse every time think cant get worse least made it gets worse next anyone recommends exercise as couch potatoes get depressed fuck too went size  size  look better  years feel better feel much much worse honestly theres really much else ive told tried fix this know that like one advice maybe one cares much maybe know lost cause want someone talk to hell even someone sit next talk would fine put bitching hours till get it god itd nice someone could tell need do even better push it help me guide me stop till im there thats much ask someone though know that keep wishing though im probably done wife really ability decide point im trying make break im going lose daughter house ill drop school friends family go to anywhere want go nothing want accomplish cause contribute to lot pain sadness keeps begging end ive seeing therapist tried taking meds done delay bit difference would done before daughter could grown better dad know post here people cant really help wish could cant even last meal tried eating keep down literally painful taste hurts move hurts think hurts even im sitting thinking im pain im afraid know do hurts breath pain lethal even anything id dead years ago guess pain bodys way flipping off by way know piece shit life sucks thought want know that feel like saying thank you even though none ever helped me like thanks trying effort that sometimes think asshole die way people sad know work way thought