awful relationship learn it so im  year old male ill sharing relationship story dont make mistakes have apologize long post ill make tldr  background  time fresh basic ait army since october  struggling mentally socially quite time hid fulfill dream soldier got home happy part moments fast forward march  ex friend started actually hanging thats met girl girl led  months vigorously tortured mentally find using amusement friends also make boyfriend my ex friend jealous she lied that destroyed laughed guilt tripped ruining life taking advantage them wont believe thoughts  months suicidal murderousviolent thoughts angry depressed long im pulling through resented everything ever said them genuine feelings love destroyed wasted them considering mental instability absolutely devastating took advantage weakness almost committed redflag left cut up im far happier without wretch human being im focusing job military career road recovery  tldr got screwed girl used make feel better sympathy mining left mentally scarred alone