ive done terrible things deserve terrible endfirst all im wrong sub id like apologize search redflag found im  years old entire life ive done nothing bad ive prison twice currently parole next  years ive hurt everyone ever cared about ruined countless lives remorse since incarceration learned lot im person used be predator hunted children unspeakable things thinking past sickens stomach see reason go here family talk me friends happiness still urges time time act again feel it take life now cant hurt anybody else way always meant be im looking sympathy im looking told change better know ive done life given thrown away selfish actions wish could go back young amazing mother supportive father brother never would thought would give me want go back days young free regrets want take back everything done theres nothing left say lay pool tears reminisce golden days one promise made got prison id stop drinking bottle tequila juice thank reading please hold flaming trust me know