relapsedi used suicidal younger actually attempted onceactual attempt failed attention nobody knows even today somehow managed pull together reset actually get stable life ive got stable job debt decent work relationships  cant really say ive got close connections anyone though thats whats killing believe important thing life broke ex  months ago we really match well lol  months ago met someone online game ive talked  months straight everything every day talked stuff normally never open anyone theyve decided play others basically whatever gone like thats  major failures within  months me making realise im easily replaceable people get bored quick supposed live knowing people dump like that see purpose this open people exact reason  times  years did cases went shit im fucked likeable guess first time  years first redflag attempt thinking thoroughly actually want die see point anymore