ive iti really life  year old severely disabled multiple sclerosis patient diagnosed  life sports athletics truly become blob lost job didnt technically lose it retirement age  kind losing income reduced  ive complete loser women rather waited hoped the one never showed ones eventually interested turned flat oh boy hell virgin  days ago finally said fuck it hired escort went bare may contracted something know care hopes finding lover wife past stage anyway  months increasingly unbearable pain went er mri taken back doctor said may herniated disc meaning surgery meaning kill now please sister surgery back herniated disc years back remember bad shape post surgery needed  people help get bed go bathroom yet hernia returned live alone shit neighbors even report faggot shit punk bitch living upstairs precinct came door grabbed collar threatened fuck up  years ago would broken arms rolled stairwell make example violated little fluffer keeps around wife got live for