ive thinking redflag last couple monthsand honestly keeping anything productive option committing redflag kind weird coping mechanism me result final tomorrow studied think its okay really bad kill myself get idea head all actually find motivation something life want live cant stop thinking ideas im sad get ihaventstudiedatallformyfinalyet hopeless feeling inside guy school jumped one dormitory buildings days ago presumably finals stress makes even unable focus want able something past semester weird limbo motivation anything feel like life may end soon yet part want life end agh