cant deal thisi lot family issues really want go live mom bad history dad dont want talk moved utah really dont like never agreed said multiple times dont wanna go visit moms house like month go reaching end really sad pain love mom brother sister stepdad ones really care make feel like something worth living left im feel nothing matters anymore keep seeings things remind moms house fun times lot pain nobody understands made deal could move eventually long time dont really trust dont motivation get anymore nobody helps never try find solution arent want move back know matter nobody understands bad feel know stupid reason post people get way worse problems im going feel