know mean much hereat point else turn too friends want hear it family on little honestly need vent die im  standard age one knows go want writer im fucking definition loser learned long time ago  diagnosed depression light form autism basicly understand somethings comes learning anything treated therapy however depression stuck bullied mercilessly school one teachers principles gave damn it content watch embarressing go government tell fucking fix it part life loner never thought would get friends would come home school go play video games imagine hero hero one understood still wanted around high school came first year grade  proved best part life joined anime club became dnd player made tons new friends helped set convention on grades   happened met one girl first shocked asked first took movie kissed think want date anymore three week relationship think much it friend came english class yelled stop raping friend thats went hill place point anime club called freak rapist time guy wanted kill constantly tried set fire twice day people relentlessly mocked cast again deal g  point reached fucked grad quote said thank flying spaghetti monster people liked anime club members history teacher everyone else got mad said offensive get better their left high school never turned back done tests such college college fresh start new beginning life way fucking well said wanted writer wanted write sci fi took psychology english history political environment but english political thought where first english nice met girl started dating six months proffesor really nice however things took turn classes became sucky men awesome women are english political environment kept saying again men ruined this men ruined that white men destroyed everything good hearing day day got nerves know bad tried better person life never stuck felt alone classes one wanted hear um writer game thrones hes white awesome on no stories read white men bad political talk tumblr sjw bull shit disproven multiple doctors institutions tipping point gf time first women dreams beautiful me shy nerdy little creepy really liked creepy weird stuff on met another girl girl twisted friend side me would poke prod gf telling bad intentionally go way strain relationship got point gf starting mentally abuse andverbally abuse me tried fight her tried nearly became i love care me friends stopped forced look reality picture bad me gave  relationship gave nothing back confronted everything accused accepted never even defended self accepted everything said remorse it told go fuck self left breaking her even add friend abanonded got wanted started focusing finding job came avail one girl tried dating online cheated abandoned me tried therapy fail miserably six years nothing came it family sick tired seeing sad even talk anymore go fake smile try let know im fine secretly im not friends abandoned go problems try go stunning radio silience im alone nobody reason im posting someone know loved even know please follow me better idiot thought way cant find way please keep fighting ever reads this even im dead ill still beleive it