cant work want dieim  finished high school year free year start college work that would lame would home nothing year so borderline personality disorder case already work scariest thing ever im level im getting panic attack whenever want apply job want think could year actually found job weeks ago worked  single day felt bad bored tried kill hospital last  week and thats kinda fired obvious reasons im meds im therapy nothing helps this need job cant social anxiety high cant even walk street anymore plus panic thing mentioned before today wanted ask lady bookstore job opportunity bookstore sounds calm thought could work me door felt panicked anxious turned back come home immediately first time this im scared want work to way redflag want make hospital gotta sure real time