tired want sit cry feel embarrassed it want scream yell energy feel helplesseverything fucking crappy depressing laptop one thing broke single cent going job couple months able get fixed look forward toi phone headphone jack busted recently headphones broke well parents never give money busy trying survive nothing works moremy laptop one way could zone parents reach work try stuff cannot used put music would lay chill ever felt sad cannot thta anymore frustrates anything want sit cry used listen music get touch feelings cannot even anymorei wantthis misery end first time life actually begun lose faith god know happening me angry frustrated makes want cry