cant sleep anymorea month ago mom passed away arms sudden wouldnt wake still breathing even moved arms flat back whole night always trouble breathing laying back she tube chest kidney dialysis propped head back thats started choking opened eyes grabbing arms stopped breathing awhile cpr  minutes waiting ambulance worked seen message help hershe low blood sugar slipped coma normally would awake see message taken new med mood two days prior messaged  siblings came visit found pmwhile still alive last thought falling asleep worried dismissing thought thinking itd fine start living myself kids woke crying cant sleep screaming crying numbers pulses cpr cant stop seeing eyes struggling breathe grabs arms siblings also taken unjustly year ago bullied mom lot giving false information make look bad would less chance getting back dead continue get away it proven wrong many times get hoops jump over court judge also called past mom dead risk losing kids forever chance seeing again mom died waiting kids come home also feel like now things happen all feel wrong feeling things mom could saved easily failed neglecting night failing cpr propping neck back making unable breathe people lose people time pretty common therefore stop baby right want die hear see anymore want rest hope somewhere go somewhere