always hate myselfidk coming tbh nowhere else go apologize ill try swear though hard im pretty sure tell spots changed swear word reason feel need let stuff out guess one talk to fault unlikable people friends ended hating ignoring eventually everyone stops talking mei make mistakes every single day hit itin two spots basicallyif use right hand hit right side head use left hand hit left side headi know everyone going find hard believe think talking like depressed person hate good reason cant break curse life stupid constantly making mistakes get absolutely pissed cant help hit myself even make mistake second ill calm say its fine big deal next thing know cant control im really feeling pissed screwing send flurry punches face scream top lungs calling kinds namesand since im alone day sit back think much weirdo freak amthere many reasons hate myselfbut basically always screw find way make mistakes get troublei tell things hate ill watch get horrified andor laugh head much loser point proven really piece crap well goes ive never kissed girl gf idk even ride bike took years learn tie shoes watch porn time grown insane fetishes ruin relationships ive ever anyone ever friends one point eventually come realize loser stop talking me im always freaking idiot never took anything seriously always ahole class clown school spend life computer fail everything cant thing right screw literally everything imaginable like takes multiple freaking tries flip light switch always forget something andor wrong sweat time constantly wipe off pick nose eat freaking forced pick cant breath otherwise always position blow nose wipe something get rid eat it form blankets body pillow something cuddle night lonely virgin loser ive completely embarrassed public front many people scared go see someone knows past several years stayed house total shut hiding everybody go sweaty nervous scared watch better people loving couples happy together literally think i hate myself hate myself hate myself scream lungs often punch head treated pets like crap entire life nothing procrastination waiting day finally kill worthless self job diploma license even permit everything fault lazy worthless stupid sack dog s cant thing cant cook cant play sports cant anything sit computer day every day try smoke weed much possible since hobby require skillactually think even suck even like cant take big hit last long all entire life weird problem gagging puking easily forced stay away dentist worst teeth world deformed tongue worst stretch marks anyone ever seen im overall ugly ass piece s basically told someone redflag forum website plus course weirded wanted nothing me trust way embarrassing stuff get tell want though ask privatei guess trying prove right hating telling people watch get totally freaked laugh see along right truly loser need die even old friend let hate dad told commit redflag finally understood human amthe reason kill love smoking weed much live every second life based fastest way get weed right trying get job probably fail drug test tbh kind hoping excuse end lifewell even livei know never going like simply cant stop beating whenever make mistake time freaking deserve loneliness never someone love killing watch people know get gfs get laid lonely loser one freak good enough girl watching happy couples time absolutely tears apart want kill worthless self sorry making long least think pretty interesting anyone wants see true loser feel better themselves doubt anyone even going read whatever entire life wasting time anyways guess matter please prove point laugh know sure pathetic weirdo loser die