so im depressed ive accepted itso im pretty big lurker reddit never really post late really become depressed serious kind please dont hit hard first time ive ever said anything honestly im afraid even post internet great thing anonymity ive always afraid tracked either put crazy house black listed ha g rights taken away cant take anymore talk someone reason trust reddit anyone life searched redflag sub came up im posting need dump life somewhere let someone know unfortunately want write novel write never able get back work keep posting updates get back breaks lunch otherwise depression make say fuck it post anything allowed please let know delete post know im glad found place feel comfortable comments notwithstanding letting out ill back  hours im lunch