talked exi messaged meeting somewhere give stuff back honestly messaged miss her almost year since broke day thought her would give anything go back time things differently selfish unwilling change wish could tell this good like well ever together again already found someone else im sure happier ever me life felt like life going somewhere someone loved much got me ive tried hard move on ive spent time close friends family nothing working job anymore dealing trying work overwhelming im mooching parents  year old dad busts ass support me feel useless keep telling im going schedule appointment therapist never do get anxious nervous never happens im starting doubt would even worth it everyday consists trying ignore constant thoughts redflag making empty promises myself even know im going anymore needed let guess