think going kill tonightive living mental issues since middle school mainly depressed lot issues amhow look time started accepting relationship someone remind least thought attractive mattered however insecurities eventually got best became toxic jealous led end relationship several months agoi deserved that deserved better know hurt lot trouble living that also reduces self image further trouble living general think incredibly lucky relationship someone like that think happen again want happen again know would end way therapy help groups since break trying deal better person noticed improvementi think point burden holding people around back always bringing issues wanting deal them point one wants see anymore that also scared seeing toxic part trouble changing leaving mei feel bad people hurt this hope able move quickly someone always loses fight