headed awayjust writing things out feel desperate dont know whats wrong me know do need study every time get it lose it cant focus break randomly car class im biking grocery im fuckup thing going grades thats gone nothing left even though cliche anyone family basically nonexistent people care professors lame is theyre good interesting people whove encouraged helped me im disappointment everyone always be im capable handling school life general theres nothing want life anything ive thinking dropping abandoning life here moving new state big city working full time professors would people id miss want another college dropout giving would put farther behind redflag seems like option know im posting really human contact guess tell day whatd work hows life whatevers clever someone anyone talk me cant alone right now