note  english first language therefore text might gramatically correct best ampxbso even go on throw bit context  best friend high school let us call d girl since first year hs eventually got together start third year always weird notredflag last long decided take break notredflag focus myself realize want stuff anyways get know girl let us call k bestfriend ds gf hangout times eventually decide would cool start dating together since new years things start get messy whenever something bad happens k always knows blames me mocks front k gf makes feel worthless k ds gf also started leave plans camping hanging out feel like ones number  break k get ds gf blaming entire th year hs also classmates never ever felt trapped now anyone talk to lost lot friends k want talk many people parents always working tired generally bad mood ampxbi justcannot feel done point think anything matters point might mood swing feel really