cant keep fightingim mobile apologize errors also kind mini rant ive felt constant fatigue awhile as early   looking back thought normal parenting absolutely wasnt starters dad physically emotionally abusive towards brother mother even though saw this nothing claims never saw it right next least one scenes now know nothing me swear im getting it basically teens mother father me would also tell father out line would earn slab emotional abuse dad later found exaggerated otherwise lied get everyone on side tried kill several times highschool ended failing attempt later told mother suicidal exactly smart im thinking it basically rationalized abused iced an youre depressed im sure looking there guess felt could still trust parent wasso wrong now turned into oh crazy gossip tells extended family anyone else listen things say shout sleep seem line intrusive thoughts overhear theyre violent nature believe in person im danger myself still whole smear campaigning thing well brother acts like father combined hes much manipulative however increasingly unstable brother seem enjoy triggering purpose know theyre sort pain empathize that come someone elses expense im exactly sure go bouts wanting wanting keep fighting make difference someones life ive reached point im leaning former theres lot really want keep short apologize hope day going well