helpfor past year ive writing dates thought committing redflag enough dates make month dates really thought killing myself thought getting car running wall full speed freeway lot more wonder people would affect reason cant help feel would make lives easier im confused ive begun hate dont want go back way days hope wake next morning dont want live pain regret feel cant talk anyone try see talk redflag end day feel alone im fighting myself dates become consistent yelling something cant wrap around feeling happy again dont know do someone please help me