im homeless  dollars name lessi quit school depression found job due corona doubt job would make better point still live home dad seeing im technically adult  kick able contribute rent cant even mad that note ready two nights ago gonna get incredibly drunk could barely process pain slit left wrist way elbow dunk mess big bucket warm water accidentally got drunk lost knife physically get bed try find it passed couple hours sober enough get feet throw entire contents stomach glad got toilet still understand going on ended calling mom crying phone  hours dad came home day yesterday said angry drinking expensive rum rewritten note know ill go probably go pick cash bank gamble away week motel ill end somehow im money think week half now that