like thiswhy like this think know im feeling sad depressed im relatively successful decent group friends know care me im union electrician drive dreamcar loving family recently feel like im drowning pitch black ocean light coming through think know feelings coming hate it ex girlfriend handful months ago dated probably  weeks always pretend perfect spent much time energy unfortunately money her spent everyday  weeks staying  trying get open talk problems even though wake  morning go work try help her do starts dating best fucking friend done anything her drive  hours straight pick best friend up spent  bucks hotel rooms gas time missed work hurts fucked room paid got hear entire fucking thing worst part reason braking me said mature her accepting understanding her anything serious one worry me feel like needed say something none friends know account sorry wall text formatting first post reddit thanks reading