please soonim nothing shell loved music loved people loved old movies loved regrets worst untimely deaths man dead since june  fathers dead children fathers belongings thrown away without knowledge getting better ive tried also ive people move people longer recognize people need anymore despite knowing heartfelt passionate many friends dead many horrible things wont stop happening wish dead plain simple easy to damned hell bit eternity limbo wish could accidentally die tomorrow id rather way turn  next month theres lot life tried bounce back from dont bounce back darker becomes me already dead existing