really need somebody talk right nowim lonely fuck desperate anybody talk to struggling big time tonight think im abusive relationship entered way early ending previous one lasting  years big troubles communication current partner result storming out leaving hours even days without contact makes suicidal unable think anything else im therapy two months really working at yet im ideas do tonight feels like end relationship feel defeated tried calling mental help hotlines cant reach anybody there know im breaking rules posting im sorry am really need somebody talk guess even know exactly im expecting character me ive never posted reddit before even tho ive lurking like  years so obviously throwaway