question people actually want thingsambitions dreams motivation seem so alien me remember wanting anything than peace mind maybe see hardworking people ask myself motivates go lengths school hobby work related endeavorspeople care much feel anxious happy sad relievedwhy thoughsomewhere deep inside think admire want like them would love want something thinkbut know remember indifference things life never worked hard anything remember failure bother all could even react properly last deceased people know knew i felt jealous got die might messed waymy life unfortunatelyfortunately ended think time soon want try think try live normally possible even mess head is honestly know can whenever think future cannot bring care feel indifferentdo still want things want work hard things so feel like ambitions