cant afford therapy anymore insurance sucks extreme guilt anxiety im just donei cant it cant quit therapy barely even afford medication now im afraid even make another redflag attempt fail im hospitalized wont able afford bill either want slap younger face im wrecked guilt did ill probably next person get called cancelled god want die wasted entire summer dont anything dont friends anything with im outsider looking dont relate anyone cant even go social media im intensely jealous people have job sit nothing day ive new projects months think boss forgot even work here im body desk want die want dead nothing gets better summer fucking wasted it hate myself