plan im finally feeling real happinessi know ive posted lot know may seem attentionseeking hell maybe was im posting try someone talk someone convince theres life im tired reading things people attempted kill glad work guess what woke next morning swallowing pills screamed cried angry still here long remember ive going back forth feeling normal slightly upbeat depressed happy finally something thats selfish once something thats going benefit everyone care about ive analyzed close personal relationships every single one would positives negatives finally died even fucking pets im waiting go home spring break nice week home family hold onto remember by little bit straighten personal things get everything order im finally peace life want thank always lowest moments lives worth saving decided mine wasnt great thing people still hope thank all