probably tonights night mim tired everything tired living synonym pain tired useless ive since conception tired abused like everyone me tired work driving force society im tired dont want anything im failing shit homeworks bitch essentially boycotted it got barely friends ones could definitely better strongest female bonds ive made teachers fun way mean teachers ive wanting die now ive gotten infection hope thing ever hurt me trying anything important results failure hope banging head brick wall know better longer it thing thats holding back lack gun remember looking ndads closet one remember showed years prior couldnt find it put off cant handle shit anymore know vodka know pills could do suppose ill fake sick again live ill wake know tried assuming dont leave trail tears pills vodka dont know thing holding back point chance failure discovery want gone so bad please someone help hellhole