plans graduationim junior highschool terrifying every day panic attacks manic episodes psychiatrist believe im bipolar therapist does mom agrees psychiatrist make matters worse due recent manic depressive episodes getting stuck mental hospital attempting redflag numerous accounts deep self harm overdosing severely track graduating class im failing im becoming alcoholic im mostly loner honestly want live life lackluster me plans college uni plan alive im completely stuck mortal realm sucks ass do want end life ive failed many redflag attempts already fear ill stuck hospital weeks again cant take anymore maybe ill try something effective want alive want make 