please let overalright time vent ive bottling shit weeks one trust life talk least anymore youre coherent thought probably going find here seriously dont even know im anymore ive scraping university actually fails passes point im second year pretty sure ive failed every subject semester didnt need to cant help im selfsabotaging destroy life every single fucking time get back track every time finally got great bunch friends called them think acquaintances one friend thought would back shit got rough didnt well surprise much equality problem always talk im spiralling dark place ever me course would im obviously worth time fuck friendship im close friend need support need im even going try talk you seriously fuck friendships im done ill probably fail course surprise dont really personal aptitude university career path sure failing university isnt end world think least me thought existence without purpose drives crazy fail supposed do go find shitty job pay bills live mundane existence alone fucking bother id rather go kill comes point think might actually balls pull off ive always coward theres always glimmer hope fuck dont care anymore everything pointless spent two weeks ignoring world ive reemerged know every knew thinks differently dont know like judgemental assholes getting everything life handed silver platter want end life mine worth enduring longer naught