really need therapist guess ill never reach itwell guess kind personality disorder im sick since hit puberty social anxiety depression mood swings identity problems gender identity problems suicidal behaviours selfharm self sabotage eating disorder emptiness etc know get help cant mean money real therapist yes free therapists fucking know go i wrote email hospital said go somewhere else asked reply noone talk things time want feel worse worse want die thats fucking hard find therapist know do feel hopeless talking strangers online problems me make feel worse im  guess ill kill next week chance get help