advice needed moving redflag attempti tried hanging two days ago interrupted someone knocked door turned mailman took sign life turn around live im back depressed anxious ever abused mentally physically sexually father made awful mistakes regret haunted trauma shame plagued mental illness know drill snapped two days ago best friend didnt seem care wanted kill think friends insulted it also disappoints hanging like kate spade doorknob scarf seemed difficult slower expected less hope could actually would choose scarier method like jumping im pretty sure would able get do anyone advice moving redflag attempt