wish deadi cant fucking sleep know im yelling sea people feel similarly man wish dead waking every day looking fucking mirror brings dread thing keeping fear comes death animals good friends feel like hate im pathetic dont even know im writing this im tired want kill fucking bad cant im fucking loser broke streak self harming like  years couple days ago looking cuts wrist forearm makes feel fucking stupid worthless dont know it bleed cry nobody cares feel like im stuck rock hard place mind mental fucking prison one day ill die due natural causes ill die fucking killed depressing dont know worse people know celebrating life without knowing whole story pitying taking life life isnt enjoyable hasnt many years im tired tired pretending everything ok tired pretending life worth living seeing slowly lose interest stuff used love fucking sad waking morning sleep days end exhausting pulling bed tiring thought go get another job quarantined makes stressed head feels like jumbled mess fucking thoughts cant control dont want fucking work life away die idk id rather fucking do id rather throw towel say forget kill myself isnt worth it im fucking tired mentally drained feel selfish seeing people going worse things me life fine hate living dont care future im tired caring tired living idk