self hatred redflagi feel like minds equilibrium feel less suicidal mind put intense amount pain make suicidal good works ways also means never get better right im filled intense self hatred im ugly fuck good people broken refused date theyve found unattractive im useless theres single thing matters right friends family would prefer killed myself told several times im waste space im suicidal long stopped trying im much coward kill myself want rip arms off want cut theres nothing left bone im mentally stable im emotionally stable know bother im living particular reason need die kill myself know do