cant decide want kill myselfi seriously wish lived near high bridge like golden gate bridge san francisco did wouldnt alive right now theres lots trees near house wherei could learn tie noose hang myself could also crash car metal poll tree high speeds want method thats fast painless world evil cruel place longer want part it parents ever owned firearm would likely killed now wish one could stuck gun roof mouth die painlessly last year alive im excited fucking escape everything permanently cant live life loser killed young age