tried talking mother year old female long story short grandmother who basically raised me passed away october due college grad sucky economy move grandmothers home who lived with back mothers home things literal hell fusses dog  vacuums three times day due dog doesnt allow touch cleaning supplies kitchen area laundry room due messy im allowed lay couch anything ill damage it therefore spend day little room im work grad school im done honestly hate coming home find driving parking lot sitting car avoid going home often talk moving mom response leave house get masters degree youll exiled family ill never talk again cant manage ive researched hang via doorknob think thats best option right now ive dealing ptsd depression since brother tragically died  im end trying anymore probably wont go it  dream day night bad memory needed space vent