reasons end itmale turned  still living parents due medical issues  cant even shit own use enemas sometimes take well hour go bathroom ive daily enemas  years  foley catheter put as today since stopped able pee reason  im extremely depressed horribly anxious cant even hold conversation people since   fibromyalgia pain daily makes seek painkillers feel like normal person  ive struggled drug addiction falling back again particularly benzos  crippling ptsd cant get past move life  personality lately sucks due frustrations medical issues really think world would miss much certainly current me live family really live them stay room half time  also struggle ton anhedonia even things life seem better brain still convinced thats case ugh want stop existing ask this nobody did yet happened world cruel