suicide rapall pain agony every day like raining tragedies brain see bc angry mad me view would lame sad savagery tired putting fake face acting happy real feel longer wearing mask want chill wrap me bc insane crazy psychopath say mewell say money root evil even though need survive  got decide  stupid people hard positive optimistic nothing negatives obvious impossible obstacles vision pessimistic suicide seem like solution logical slit wrist blow brains heat grill od handfuls pills either way death still be self killed bc guilt made hate another one