one understandsorry strong language one ever fuking understands want help fuking cried parents gives fuks think im crazy think wont kill soon mom says reach point care anymore fuking step dad looks let shit behind back im sick around now planning enjoying rest year ending new years seems plans gonna change want fuking escape shit hole ass life see things better without around birthday november th cracked like heard voices saying end it cried much tried take little sister came found parents came in showed comparisonwell moment back fuking shit lol matter say theyll never understand thing fuking tried talk oh well know dont feel sad anymore like im comfortable dying lol like im anticipating kind big event lol sigh ill write nice note leave theyll fuking understand game pain fuking real waste fuking time ill gladly sit hell thats real could ran away place wouldve got go option left taking life might drink fuking poison hang buy gun someone open fuking skull honestly either way ill dead yea fuk world every person thinks people form depression crazy hate all one fuking gets it im done fighting lol officially give up anyways im guyshonestly wish could lived better world