struggling high functioning depressionits weird days im fine happy fine bad days shit start feeling suicidal again tonight one nights sleep hours skip bathing school therefore one thinks im struggling naturally force happy around others dare burden shit never ask people help one wants hear ramblings feel shitty even though good family friends constantly distracted video games music something prevent silence im online late hours night pass exhaustion reason descended complete apathy want disappoint parents already have ive already go therapy past play sports instruments grades even starting slip away gone ill nothing left one days theyre gonna find dead would fault much coward ask help