spent last two years real low everything control life organized really put work finish trade school best grades could manage find work even though sure something contribute employers like look longtermdepression cv kept it sent applications tried get good habits going again exercising every day really good upturn confident would break year intense depression accident made incapable walking weeks definitely exercise longer scared determined support family father suddenly died like tore apart since really bad could put anything together months always knew it done good feel happy content minimum wage work try get schedule going helps get together again work horrible though working help all motivate try even harder work trade actually managed find job perfect everything wanted people really appreciated work do struggled past month already changed lot picking pace today fired company broke really want crash this scared unemployment bad me anyway thanks reading rant keep working best drown this struggle