want die kill paini want die kill pain silence words inside head sometimes feel life gain feels like already dead  dont feel beautiful husband left daughters packed moved georgia leaving us stranded broke every man ive ever loved brutally hurt emotionally physically want see sun feel happy another day want strong children im busy side eyeing people around me im twighlight zone non trusting even best friend looks harbors resentment towards me day two husbands friends there proceeded hit looked happy shes married matter likes anyway meanwhile dead inside give shit didnt respond coworkers ive turned dates movies dinner hell wrong me im stuck up give everything anyone around me im wife learns muscles order rub better learns favorite foods cook them im friend speed dial wheneverwherever photographer video editor every gathering decorator main chef shoulder cry on battery energy needed im idiot holding neon sign graduation one goes little nuts ones love wellnone shit matters husband left debt bills may soon homeless need something im drowning depression turn music writing passions arent helping sick crazy flu one cares everyone im sitting completely alone bother breathe another day