falsely accused sexual abuse entire life seems ruined even situation died downaround  months ago falsely accused sexual abuse exfriend mine thrown jail  days legal fees get sorted cost well  reason im free man exfriend press charges lawyer excellent job proving allegations false even going far friend admitting false allegations reason im even charges dropped name legally restored completely clean record reputation destroyed news report made day went jail story depicting rapist refuse correct story proven falsely accused charges dropped live relatively small state terms population feel like target back feel like music career opportunities get job attend college even live relatively nice place move ruined know best chance starting new life moving away state starting somewhere new feel like opportunities completely crushed unable find job people seem believe news story legal matters proved innocent honestly id lying say redflag crossed mind numerous times throughout entire thing id also lying sit say want die see way see able live normal life let alone life ive trying work towards long remember ive spending days attempting write anxiety stress blocking creative vision sleeping hours day little motivation get up chain smoking stress away latest hours night isolation friends trying best help this pathway follow one seem relate situation obvious reasons people sit stare shock hear story nothing sympathy agreeing probably start somewhere new sentiments nice still feel alone like people understand im shitty situation in everyone wants feel sorry me everyone looks victim society accepts im done for know anymore want live normal life leave place