fighting suicidal ideationthis first time posting hope im following rules ok ive shared thoughts redflag private things getting really difficult wanted hear people life fight thoughts redflag necessarily looking help tips hear peoples experiences interested ill include background deal sex addiction recently ex found cheating them amongst allegations due lost friends job im essentially ostracized anyone community outside recovery support system ive dealt thoughts redflag long time feelings exacerbated issues isolation seasons changing covid fact ex repeatedly told world favor kill myself put simply im really struggling helped fight hopelessness been  make lists reasons kill self including anything silly makes feel even slightly happier  hiking connecting nature  mindful things cookeat  mindful body health recently started yoga exercise  regular phone calls contact support system curious hear others get rut hope everyones well