it literally cannot take anymore last time attempt email exgf open honest her cannot take everyday thought is ok well sitting bottled emotions almost year without ability talk her miss her want talk her want see her want know ok want smell mango flavor lip balm importantly want hold close know safe lockdown bullshit caused much turmoil life losing girlfriend deal health scare clinics seeing psychiatrists crap body cannot take anymore nothing live for properly losing job next week tuesday cannot keep anymore friends one go to one call one talk to literally want live anymore lief vir jou charissa die lewe n lied met jou arms ek wou jou die gelukkigste meisie die wereld maak maar die feit dat ek jou nooit weer kan sien nie genoeg om lewe kort te knip ek kan nie glo dis waardeur ek gaan nie end