make life feel interestingfun enough stick around fori depressed teen usual angst bullshit got like people even though im depressed sense word nothing really excites me go hikes alone middle night without cellphone cold snowing outside stuff like go sailing rubber boat storm spice things even really feel alive im sitting computer college fantasize killing alot think probably ive always fantasy anything supernatural im mature enough realize something like never going happen going boring routine rest life like summers work replace college feels pointless dull