need help boyfriend left days ago hardest experience ive ever go through everything me constantly showered love affection gifts sex anything wanted days ago pulverized heart bloody pulp told physically mentally couldnt love way loved him said unfair one sided relationship love much dont care one sided everything ready carry entire relationship way grave thats much love boy constantly crying unable eat vomiting pounding headaches way sleep shoving melatonin gummies throat need help get mind him everyone keeps telling me gonna fine its gonna ok cant perk instantly fine need genuine help need hand hold need someone help fully take mind things whether games memes phone calls please help