disgrace familyim  years old live town opposite side state family theyre providing funds complete education university near here ive almost year ive done nothing waste life away get piss poor grades dropped two three classes failed class fail class two others which officially put knife federal aid education pissed away tons money textbook answers cant bring anything help myself im failure im watching life fall around flames cant muster power anything it whats wrong me failure cant whats best me instead sit around nothing day get stoned avoid problems cause pain love me even good for whats point existence act like im kind human wants help others really care anyone myself im manipulative lying good nothing going nowhere fast im disgusting ugly loser cant even help self im waste existence im disgrace family myself life itself whats point anymore whats point living theres nothing live for deserve ive given ive wasted life could had deserve second chance deserve die like waste air am