real talk real manhere real talk fat one wants you ugly others recoil countenance mentally ill people distance you fact life three things align sure sentenced life loneliness regret know sweat desperation lay bed wondering anyone outside family even cares slip noose around neck take many pills slit wrists take last exit life gives over maybe next time attractive intelligent funny strong but time night im tired going life alone im tiredim exhausted weight disappointment others trusted end get efforts pure clean silence silence write letter one friend family hopefully forgive me im tired everyones reusable last option