really want someone talk mi always anxiety depression recently getting suicidal gf left im honest dontdidnt think anyone doeswill love me dated around year half blue sent text saying over tried talk told gonna end dead asked help shes mad person love much say things said feel crushed looking redflag methods year now always thought comforting could stop pain but think im thinking almost time guess im looking reason get edge im scared death cant stand another day trying trying nothing want problem anymore clear talked mom person imagine caring little told  minutes much hate want stop talked getting help forgot it think again draining tell nothing know im another kid maybe going resolve time cannot stress much want way out searching moms gun find night want someone talk much trouble thanks time