even point anymoreeven go feel better  distract form long enough die natural causes  drag pit like last time even strong enough  couldent clear mind fire heart stand barely fight left fire barly embers ill honest im sure make happyer think put mind cant help feel lost like nothing change end day im still me everything never wanted be failure eyes sure im living lie now would difrent  trading one lie another  know hate it cant take prid this would like taking prid scars etched leg reminders ive done am im not never seems end sure live lfe always back mind screaming me beging end it finish all finaly put end over part ive lost never get back remind person miror actualy me dont even see face anymore even name one given one chose none feel like me dont know this truly dont know say should ive seen jorney feel like runing hiding away