im ready end goodim  really bad social anxiety conversation skills toddler never friends relationships never liked anyone main problem life things going shit lately lost savings stock market got fired job moved back parents guy scammed me reversed big payment bank tanked credit  it got way repay debts ignore calls im screwed even get cellphone plan let alone place live credit like that ive spent many months psychiatric hospitals redflag attempts past given resources available yet nothing remotely helpful im afraid dying last time hung felt amazing sadly noose broke died think me always silver lining past theres none im  fucked