would nice know someone understands feels get ready hell read lots typos story troubles love one sunny day left city boise go summer bible camp mccall arrived ate bible things soon assimilated group friends even earned nickname sheep curly hair fact name sean shawn sheep old show felt well group one day got tip one girls group one comrades liked me spent next day trying find was told was shock person liked almost two years older me regardless began spending time person found likeable really starting like person gave phone number camp ends next day go home problem right wrong texts person week passes texts comrade month passes text comrade give decide interested thatvis leave it night go bed dream awake realize much missed comrade go little panic attack knowing one contact camp try get comrades contact info go little search finally get it text takes days respond finally talk bit ask out says would like cant im sitting waiting sort response feeling empty try find escape talking someone else feels yearning interrupted go talk crush feel yearning now touch starved child u want fill hunger nothing comes know really thinks ghosting me trying let slow hurt please help thank listening ted talk sean sheep