want live competitive countryim  study grade  singapore sorry english good enough understand lot pressure im school people care much gpa academic result come back home read lot books got bad score teachers parents would get upset angry failed math exam friends looked asked whats wrong everyone class need perfect finish school go extra class  pm feel like want anymore cant escape either sometimes feel tired cant rest parents high expectation think mad tell want study hard like friends envy people countries study hard perfect everything like us tell people want write novel singing drawing immedietly think im stupid crazy im tired feel like choice believe reincarnation want escape here