stop hating keep hurting myselfive hating self  years getting worse worse im biggest loser possible regret nearly everything do ive moved house eight times life never keep friend social skills terrible matter hard try improve them eye contact poor intense understand body language little confidence stutter sometimes merge words together avoid even looking girls let alone talking every time makes feel like shit ive tried antidepressants make feel absolutely nothing horrible ive tried various self harm stole boots pharmacy work experience overdosed alone worst night life ive trying completely alone past month stop stupid things regret trying positive ive recently completely lost enthusiasm told anyone this feel keep going route start taking something end killing myself sorry heavy feel like could someone talk you