life sucks years old m  gpa about get lower depression started put special math class school  years ago absolutely hate school ok friends rarely go out mom died  family stress out dad expects much me stepmom gold digger mental problems moved away city liked years ago go school bunch stuck rich kids good everything really hate school district huge crush popular girl grade way league like way out im naturally quiet introverted im lazy ambition recently diagnosed adhd get anxiety everything hate voice find hard talk also hate name sounds weird dont want college one things society forces successful dont want go cc get job hs im kind considering military dont like yelled at life really worth point idea fucking dont see getting past 