make death painless dog possiblemy dog thing keeping alive throughout many deep pits depression life love much cant get terrible situations dynamics matter hard try constant anxiety gnawing cant escape it failed interview today already lost jobs person im love said want talk right super emotionally unavailable corona cant even bring ask support know even like anymore trying brush off im homeless coronavirus current housing situation tense terrible im always stuck middle toxic atmosphere forced taking care peoples problems waste away inside get anything myself top dog getting older unexpected incident weeks ago randomly attacked another dog im maybe homeless even though im getting training feel like deserves better ive failed much know do ill isolated homeless dog cant around dogs ill probably kill anyway get point point anywhere put could stay kill myself friends redflag letter going mention would honored wanted take care dog also completely fine cant im mostly concerned trying kill place dog see around im also really sad think waiting come home forever ill never come back want know theres anything make better even though hes anchor love much cant live like anymore know way better life without me also want traumatize anyone else might find body really know good way would be know anymore want happy safe miss me ideas