first timerseeing posts subreddit makes look like really big problem oh well recently foreigner usa ive applied go boarding school united states pursue dreams future engineer silicon valley parents nearly spent k travel expenseadmissions ssat scores came out equivalent sat highschools pretty bad feel like whats point cant go boarding school us living country hellhole everything extremely competitive even succeed engineers disrespected fucking country ive let parents down myself feel like parents done much little results admission going come soon feel like jumping comes