always feel wayso im definatly attention guess need help someone talk man tough time lately seems like ill look back everything life seems like big failure go back youngest memories kid even like wow always bottom life dont look bad either im outgoing sociable too would even consider life party man people spent minute head theyd real shocker dont know whats wrong cant stop blaming hating everything negative goes seems like willpower either get ahead constantly feel like shit starts getting good boom something bad happens like constant feeling failure makes want give actually want commit redflag want feel better stop telling im better world dead