im sure post thisi woke today news expect hear mortgage paid  months parents i may become homeless ive applying many jobs many jobs contacted one need background check tb test hopefully tomorrow grandpa would move another state siblings live two dogs two dogs give reason wake every day want live without them ive always wondered would happen lost separated them genuinely believe would kill myself ive attempted redflag times before redflag note written last year goodbye right now strongly believe things get better might be wanted go back school try become teacher wanted work towards becoming english teacher japan im lost im scared know do im trying find job really know told sooner