embarrassed posting this since includes topics relating sexuality feel like need someone listen going write post inside  because write literally bunch things wrote someone chatting with since wrote pretty much complaining here way yo gay guy actually turn  next week really long time felt really unattractivemy mom says actually good looking need loose weight honestly give little hope still problems even way thinking mom says ugly one school ever felt attracted me never came school even know gay guys there wonder guy ever liked me really think got reason girls ever liking me even single girl interested years studied school  years classmates people  years one showed interest honestly makes sadand makes doubt moms wordsside note posted pics subs person saw them profile keep mind nsfw dislike it see please continuingi think really obvious insecure size penis explain properly well already saw it dislike size color fine shape fine glands fine curve fine foreskin unhappy size color wish bigger like   inches color resembling pinki know use worrying two things know something control idea much frustrates me feel ugly unattractive unlikeablethe hope left working loosing extra weight even did  inches long  inches thick truly be  bone pressed length even tho people say averages honestly enough fine tall wanted fine smart thought was fine lucky love fine boyfriend before fine many things willing accept many bad things have because all one perfect pretty much something beautiful poorly endowed frustrating unhappy weight change it unhappy height well cm even though tall short either that kind helps feel somewhat cutewell would help feel cute already feel uglyyou know even sort playboy one night stands fooling around casual sex sex deep meaning me want find true love want find someone special loves love willing work hard earn someone love special someone honestly feel handsome enough someone would like feel handsome sexy beautiful him see myself see someone attractive handsome sexy beautiful depresses much thinking making someone settle less settle me wish could good enough feel like favor want someone loved one loves also truly desires with want feel like love blinds order methat end message wrote personi chatting people things end well ended feeling really sad despite kinds wordsso writing here hopefully people struggle sexuality something would wish anyone maybe could understood since people understand feeling really downagain