every single belief ive ever betrayed mei remember younger  sure beliefs respect people help people obey elders teachers study good boy drink smoke drugs forgive others hurt me ignore negative things focus positive ones etc now know whats true false almost beliefs failed me im prime example good grades mean triumph life almost everyone used know moved without me kept losing friends either conflicts letting fade away acquaintances must mean im wrong or least hold blame sometimes im angry family raised old fashioned beliefs overprotected lot younger least malicious intentionsand know tried best also im angry old high school classmates everything wanted me bullied me manipulated me used tool ignored treated like trash im one needs pick pieces one whos wrong say pain much get told act like victim quarantine ive realized im alone ive ever before realized lost good qualities before would said wouldve another person matter what now fear rejection stronger wish talk people people already moved on went apologize reconnect would probably think im making everything me thus would make things even worse im problem easy answer im problem ive always problem stupid stupid