fuck itnot sure much longer keep pushing everyday gets shittier shittier loaded shotgun next would hesitate aim upon pull trigger im losing weight  lbs down really want change every single night left conclusion im unlovable piece trash probably end ditch somewhere anyways would always scoff people went internet complain girl liked like back get now hardest part trick thinking like you realize possible way could care someone awful you losing weight easy cause quite appetite lately thing ive blaming everything wrong life fat time goes lose more realize truly horrible person noone could care me fat hiding new form would immediately perfect person hiding skeleton matter fit thin ill ever get ill stay unloved rest life maybe bad thing things much easier talk anyone sat room day alone atleast priorities straight atleast care much anyone else liked me fuck im done