want improve lifeim sick it never got drivers license never got job never money whats point living cant get job fuck kill right now oh things get better say wont life literally gone downhill im  tell nothing life improve want spend time looking jobs instantly reject me drivers license costs thousands even get im going begging streets im going fucking kill soon possibly can im done fuck world fuck poor am nobody seems understand matter much think things get better me even did worth whats going right now ill come back half hour check replies this want convincing really do cant find single reason live bring family friends family reason poor shitty spending habits spend literally hundreds per fortnight cigarettes friends jobs want hear brought up change anything