wanted talk didnt know talk im ranting reddit throughout life havent lot friends initially never really bothered time went felt really lonely tried making friends things didnt work out one talk kept issues self kept emotions buried it feel like time went emotions pent up manifested toxicity thats insatiable need attention need feel loved cause didnt first placethis led stupidoutrageous stuff which really regreti feel like out one friend stuck me things would lot different course dont blame anyone this take full responsibility actions feel like one constant id become person rn