going th birthdayto cut chase im clinically depressed since  live third world country mental illness compared hiv meds bec parents cant afford im trying hard live life day day burden anyone eat healthy go gym take care sick dad even work part time still get triggered experience episodes light cutting wrist sharp object find times episodes bad id lock room days id take sleeping pills alcohol im trying really hard live life heres catch laptop got stolen  months ago along files pictures memories lets focus pictures pretty provocative pictures normal young adult like goes gym would like see progress someone messages facebook tells something might interest sends screen capture gallery told accept friend request deactivate block willbe instantly posted big bad dark web facebook yeah provocative pictures plus facebook family friends they yey feast right please laugh effort try sarcasm yeah hes blackmailing dummy account hes blackmailing girl depression hes blackmailing still know wants one thing sure bidding feel helpless sad numb feels like life mean bully im joke feel like joke least someone laughing right also birthday coming up october  go town trip best friends thats  days might live see th birthday