think becoming adult me im  already aint got long leftive depressed ever since remember depressed mean need die even child would imagine death help get sleep ive never get help whatever parents think im moody dampened girl anyway ive tried kill past via bleach drinking oding loads class as suffocation recently trains fast ones parents know noting these im unemployed lack talent speciality love films thats im studying im realsitic know never make film producer  taste cinema laziness anyway im looking help typical redflag watch kind way feel like write thoughts someone know read maybe impartial say things thank much even considering read way thought adult vulgar me see hope going personality kind good come it im  hardly hold conversation anyone even best friends bf feel like become someone else able say things sit silence like much desire get away things much already supposed good looks theyre going stay forever say whats fucking point ive always hated kids thats agenda believe marriage someone like me thing waiting future broken dreams failed relationships book upon books regrets always felt way going die redflag never knew when thing ill miss sunshine feeling loved love besides that say never asked born buy ticket ride take it spoken people never take seriously laugh off suppose reddit answer  thank reading