march year rejections finally got dream job happier ever everything going well lost members family took week result job acted supportive time think would affect anything less two weeks ago moved city job based cementing new stage lifeand today went office discover passing probation terminating employment immediatelythis came shock mention performance past outside struggling bereavement seems like front supportive people mental health issues reality want deal people themi broken know do worked hard get job pandemic ruined life cannot even get right mental health always finds way fuck every good thing life  alone new city joball healing done last couple months bc bereavement disappeared back square one feel like life never good id rather dead cannot take anymore bc disgusting failure lost dream job working hard want live anymore