im going catch covid hide park dieim going try intentionally catch covid hide park city hopefully die preexisting respitory condition asthma wait long enough ill hopefully good im piece shit im going flush bow almost everyone life figures im a blackhole sucking joy every situation im complete fucking moron moral constitution offending pedophile boyfriend could even call that caught on short period didnt talk hes realized im social anxious cowardice people pleaser lies others much swear supporting drug habit things definitely gotten worse ive lost mind ive always always be despite declining mental state feel like ive reached point clarity know need do hope theres hell