seven tries diesim  lived long im classic quiet nice guy party sits hurts much talk anyone ive lived epilepsy frequent seizures insomnia depression chronic stomach reflux problems last  years hurts much carry on great support want part helping myself ive done nothing fuck things make peoples lives harder since started working them im sorry wasting time know im alone seven failed redflag attempts impending drug addiction cant look beyond that history reddit thought id least say goodbye strangers since thats anyone anymore thank supporters years know things could worse im making decision time go ratchet strap ladder garage ready tonight maybe eight times charm anyone cared read this bless you hope find life did