breakup bluesabout month ago girlfriend broke me made mistakes relationship falling love her something ive felt before months still figuring out always easy relationship honest front me also trouble accepting affection talking feelings additionally pediatric resident time pretty limited best navigate everything easy balance needs vs could give entirely worth it outdoorsy smart doctor  vibrant social life tons friends close brother teaching cook loved going trips me time spent together realized much meant me also let insecurities past relationship my last gf cheated too overall tough time dating anxious attachment style get way saw insecurity different occasions also desire closer bailed turn  end month friends married engaged closer friends moved away many families want dearly thought would now many like girl doctors lawyers work passionate about me bachelors always trouble school managed find solid career marketing im passionate make comfortable living successful way ever foresee dog condo savings still isolated pandemic family job passionate about social circle shrunk girl  doctor tons friends vivid life quite honestly saw emotional needy loser end tried save relationship im hollowed out feel like lost hope future seeing woman amazing turn away me second time happened two years crushed me made realize shitty life much failure am pandemic wonder moving would help ive working much i can seeing therapist eating well outside feels hollow depressive episode feel sliding way want to feel stuck down