day day wake miserable matter want disappear since  depression comes gos early  around january june best time life almost reason even realized around mid march feeling around start july got worse ever spent every day alone went weeks without speaking single person cried almost every night barley ate anything every day felt like lasted forever could enjoy favorite things like music august nd attempted hanging go trough scared knowing nothing else even though though wanted year since started bad single day wake feel live keep telling going away soon friends want anyi hate talking hate seen want feel happy feels like sight know makes since sense gotten much sleep felt like need say head end