deserve dieive struggling years ive tried everything im destined die dont know am dont know am cannot speak terrified judgement yet am telling world hate severely im outcast therian therians make world cringe get laughed at judged mocked bullied want fit in dont know how sense self dont feel right mind feels wolf like possible stupid pathetic say am life decaying spiral endless darkness see future life ive abused chasm chest pain unbearable mixture psychotic depression ptsd social anxiety torturous one understands laugh cry sleep night cant help hurt crave die im tired told wrong am kill myself pathetic list goes on ive done nothing give world return trying feel free happy get crushed im different world perfect slightest bit different majority get targeted cast out life me cannot fit in never find peace never free pain way death im sorry different im sorry normal im sorry im good enough ill make right wont burden much longer