might hopei started school tuesday ive already  panic attacks night almost panic attack st period morning physically cannot speak classes due large class sizes giving severe anxiety seriously considering killing since beginning august check comment history want read previous redflag attempts go see therapist tuesday next week noon plan telling suicidal thoughts idea going back psych ward makes want kill appointment even comes thought missing homework school im gone freaks fuck wish another option right want break locked pill box swallow whole bottle tylenol parents bought older brother tylenol work last time due going get help fully kicked in next time im going somehow restrain go help want anxious anymore want normal