theres one way story endi survived escaped abusive relationship  years ago id since withdrew social situations worse day relationship take gfs mom hospital tried take life medication overdose months later pin gf ground snatch bloody knife hands trying cut wrists threatened frame physical abuse knew get out move countries drop college spent whole year crippling depression gained lot weight following year finally thought getting back decent life herniated disc able walk properly  months now friends keep behaving poorly parents broke relations sister way fulfill professional goals cannot walk properly again craving human connection hug someone confide in keep getting pain back leg cannot exercise trying quit smoking keep failing im basically worthless individual right way end death im  may come naturally im scared ill end taking lire one day