day   think stuff one day thoughts today mostly family thought things theyve done affected well lot negative remembered time got yelled sister crying middle night remember tried break stuff cover face pillow say im sorry cried yelled youre abused reason cry made think im crybaby maybe fault treat way also thought people used know realized talked felt bad realized would always leave second could even person thought best friend thats stopped considering friends friends family really reason keep going things made happy today playing guitar day one done two left