cant make another  yearsim  ive always low selfesteem linked looks  im fuckugly short span time actually somehow managed date girl she somehow managed find attractive thought cured low selfesteem instead temporary reprieve longer together feelings back fullforce honestly want kill every time look mirror every day im still young months ago made pact sorts saying would kill  years old unless managed complete list created things want achieve die think it  years fucking long considering every day slow miserable know ill make   even die redflag ill simply drop dead sadness instead