feel ill im depressed anything iti feel like im dying like serious illness thats sucking life me im pretty sure kidney disease kidney stone  years ago resulted infection  rounds antibiotics avail eaten  meals past  days meal generous bowl oatmeal im  weigh  pounds right now feel weak tired like im wasting away willpower anything it go hospital get blood workurinalysis done im sitting computer like years nothing think im scared might actually something seriously wrong know face do feel like giving up honestly gave years ago im barely surviving now