story y old loserim dark place right vent serious fight mother last night told maybe end im worthless loser move back home ripe age  lost job layoffs half year ago pay bills anymore mostly huge debt have college family related matters dropped college work familys business request father even get education familys business went belly father died got lucky found job it even gone im  years old loser job college education debtridden fool gave dreams help family wants exist since teenage last night first time ever raised voice someone family enough guilt trip im pretty sure im getting kicked out knowing mother throw things im somewhere else kinda wish drinker now stress killing me one hire anymore even though im picky im really hardworking im old competent unskilled educated enough educated gave everything help family im even losing that idea wtf im supposed sometimes empty void future feels much thanks reading needed process writing down feel free laugh me words cant hurt anymore situation hurting me