really think want kill myself im huge failure see way could end reasonable matter without gonei dont job live mom lack income large burden household im  suck everything im really depressed dont think im like yearold trapped older mans body happen see writing walli think im wasting everybodys time here discernible skills make valuable world im wasting everybodys time mentioned earlier spend majority time playing super nintendo games live strange bubble ive fulfilled everything ive ever wanted  im realizing bad life sucks yearold time divided street fighter  masturbation im waste space reason here live middle woods call hang belong world live afterlife better shit wantg jerk peace without acknowledging presence cant anymore