understand painfuli good week eating right wellbutrin seemed stopping dark thoughts getting early exercise showering daily keeping routine person live stresses everything just so decided visit somewhere figured would good weekend gone could breathe could relax planning leave place covid financially stuck look forward times gone agreement say returning clean get home used hire maid keep back cant afford it honestly addors eased tension here something done wrong would blame me came back early came back early chance clean way liked got annoyed started cleaning around makes nervous wreck medication kitchen cleaning afraid go there retreat bedroom altercation something place crying asked several times engage meltdown follow room cannot lock even could angry locked door would bad autism scolding crying make stop telling overreacting make stop crying either needed time cool down hate place hate existing hate everything hurts cant function way anyone wants to family anymore help anyone talk to want bad depression closing around me hell even for life feels like sick joke want stop