parents divorced still court it left mother live dad lost control dragged everyone around down yesterday meet basically told lie judge father get lil sister back cps took  months ago told owed betraying her screamed public made scenecame home absolutely wasted get screamed dad told get eyesin evening went friends drank like never before afterwards smoked blunt could stand more drug dealer call friends bar pick throwing up kept awake called dadonly thing remember saying friend this nice way diefather picked shouted friends helping me one said might threw car responded i going kick ass that speeding awaytoday woke up spoken word me looked pure disgust worst thing cannot even blame hating megod wish died yesterday reached absolute low last night