 year leftso set goal get girlfriend to get good way good work mean learn new things try get education required job complete one redflag  year left iam getting bullied everyone say normal life one hidden secret iam lonely fuck want feel real love want feel someone cared even week like  friends none real friends miss old days didint cared feel sad see someone holding hands kissing hugging depressing me theres little make someone day better hug short conversation smile would made day  better never felt love parents pretended know dont care iam trying hard make someone really like me iam trying talk trying go walk anything always get response something like time no iam sad think every girl asked go there wasnt much like  less walk something nothing serious date meet talk refused male friends always response time dont know do really want hug righ feel alone today seen guy class hugging girls goodbye tried reading get girl like thing started reading first saw was  remember last time fell love didint closed started crying work fucking hard iam training trying improve inside iam learning new things talk still effort put didint give anything wanted even one day really feel like someone loving caring me wish could someone understand someone hug like that feel lost alone  year complete goal even second feel someone loves me wont complete iam going kill myself overwhelmed loneliness someone similar situation please message me sorry needed let english main lang sorry mistakes make better worse post edit something iam crying right wish someone hugged thanks reading this