tired fighting wretched disease tired crying everydayfeeling like void existence barely present world sake existing empty used unsavable beyond redemption thread sanity hope snapped long agoim free falling abyss despair point return alone complete darkness memories goes die vast emptiness consumes digested belly metabolised energy parasites living within everything part me personality hopes dreams identity world used food selfish nothing world could fill taken keep giving thing retain could give living meaning clich life without living human anymore a walking empty void existencethe thing stopping death death essence life meaning living dying want end infinity loop suffering pain keeping body alive sake exscruciating pain never stoptill drop 