yolonelysevere anxietygonna bullet suck writing severe anxiety got school  never full year mom forcing go back school th least get ged  severe anxiety ruins life barely leave house agoraphobia multiple panic attacks day poor scared therapy option working out bother poor burden mom living abusive controlling father mom struggling afford divorce leave lots family stress low self esteem hard time enjoying anything trying anything literally money name ask food tp father make much money government support want bullied want physically hurt harassed high enough gay percentage make likely lmao ex gf may manipulative violent shit remember thing poor shoes apparently got kicked stalked around hallway guy thought funny make fun poor girl less  dollar shoes one friend online cant really deal suicidal asleep suicidal crushs kik working says phone disconnected three days panicking okay electric bath bed im freezing heater try make social media get upset seeing shows whatnot literally care aboutbeause hate everything literally nothing interests me everything boring trying cbt fear exposure ladders helping much want remember meditate exercise studydo online eduational things prepare moms kind hoarder makes life harder constantly argue hate litthe brother fucking much wish qasnt born hes brainwashed father minion step dad ok makes much pervy jokes speaking pervy nofap com goals butits hard especially trauma self harm honestly stopping harder injuring sharp things tbh actually many things wanna  care ride horses garden write novels open vegan resturant study stemrobotics learn roller skate personal im pretry sprititual atheist family im always scared talk abt reincarnation stuff like that feel alone that constantly making space fairy jokes etc future goals thats far want happy im scared blood trauma thats killed yet severe hypochondria fear body medical trauma past similar like conspiracy theories mandela effects etc horror writing stories water color painting harry potter flying witch cute anime cheers prlly lots issues want feel good enough least lay calm enough sleep past midnight phone  ill leave blanket nest took long time make get charger game show music shut fuck