increasingly suicidal past months understand it started watched video talking suicidal thoughts said gta lot people visions fantasies would fix problems lives gt gti that really connected that honestly feel wayi really severe crush breakup two half years ago found anyone since one friend entire life talk anymorei never date before even anyone approach give indication interestedi  years old pain long think relationship would even fix itif everything changes overnight amazing love life make friends support me get married couple years now carei two half years hell people start notice me nowwhere people needed themgetting one date let alone relationship would defy odds mein reality though nothing special like all people talk dating like buying new pair shoes overi set date unless something miraculous happens least attempt suicide october  may die  days