guess im back againi cant tell anymore bad person matter fucking do someone hurt me even simple small incident  every single friend lover crossed line me awful deserve things friend cross line me stupid fucking thing ever do fucking game stupid fucking game decided take anger me screamed insulted me knowing full well past cannot handle things like that fuck think anyone even theyve normal past would deserve things screamed me cant talk right now mental safety cannot hurt her lover told happened told cannot talk time hurt assumed wrong did point relationship back want justify myself automatically assume issues screamed like that want hear full story understand me people things did excuse excuse behaviour even going tough time like suggested still excuse behaviour things people care about done fucking done done life people relationships cant anymore want anymore done crying done cutting done abuse every fucking thing ever deserve treatment