whole seek help reach out thing work outi literally understand it much family family far away cant much talk me ive talked lot always talk it make better brain bad fiance good helps me hes tired cant save yknow holds panic attacks makes sure know im getting psychosis anything lol cant make panic attacks alleviate anxiety cant take away im wits end ive breakdown last  hours brink days im kinda calming down enough type stop thinking im gonna myself everyone says reach out seek help ok do gonna take long time see professional cuz go regular doctor even getting appointment see takes least  weeks go hospital last time tried checked bc waiting room made super anxious yes go therapy every day getting worse every second felt like shift work today fuckin years long standard  hours nothing bad even happened chill day felt trapped idk feel like cant wait weeks reach to do please tell me last cry help absolutely go deep end know mental health know feel like short matter time fall apart entirely months please help stop it please want get help