literally noone talk tocompared people actual mentalphysical health problems reasons seem bit tame honest honestly whole life ive never anyone could really talk google taken school young age isolated many years spent homeless turned  took years yearn walk normal leg muscles fucked never using them also learn talk people times id rent room craigslist roommates would drug addicted crazy people live nursing home stick people mental disabilities place go theres noone thats smart enough hold regular conversation lot talk selves staff slightly stupid sometimes even offensive ive tried online dating years ive never met anyone abusive probably turned online dating anyway always think great could id started competing kids school developing normally went college id lots friends lots constructive things think id happy go outside see bright successful people walking street taking l train cars always crazy people talking themselves like im stuck endless loop know sound bad actually makes want kill myself already know take die painlessly bed anyone suggestions please comment