feel like reason killed roommate afford rent owni nothing going every time try push new things improve myself things get worse dropped high school years ago medication made unable focus care anything ended getting diploma told would go college dad kicked out got job got another job ended move back dad constantly reminded im failure im working full time job part time job one night took fun the night going take placement tests college wallet glasses stolen ive slowly replace everything lost money left boyfriend months ago mood swings ruining him hes really well im living paycheck paycheck friend also barely afford rent family talk me real friends aside guy im sleeping with know hangs around sex recently fucked getting std obvious care all nothing nothing taking everything stay alive