im backso made post month ago venting terrible experiences ive  half years ive lived lifted weight shoulders got positive feedback commenters feeling better yet still feel right all sometimes want cry troubles worry littlest things also read last post got fight old friend mine day posted post longer speak look away see him sits big table friends are im sitting alone tables away dread near him hate alone tables wasting precious time spend people care me hate him hate much thinks wrong friends think wrong nearly broke shin im him th grade met kid would soon turn one current best friends yet hanged kid kid awful would try isolate me pick fights me get trouble annoy me try convince commit redflag almost daily moved away next year now wanted talk something strange ive obsessed with really depressed wad obsessed mutilation face burning scarring name it obsessed want rid people see me see face see that kid thought walking school confidently everyone see mangled gouged face best idea ever had care people saw corpsefaced freak nothing anymore fact slowly planning mind deform half face somebody scary thing never ruin face even think low appearance ill cherish looks im generally getting better say im improving im recovering thank you guys thank activate death clock