im worth it im truly notim worth air breathe hate am hate ive become hate person see mirror ive become empty lifeless shell leech happiness everything ive ruined life apathy laziness walked depressing worthless life filled woe me cant stand anymore used think wanted get better think anymore think wanted finally give up ive ruined every relationship friendship ever had even mother despises me regrets me im jobless transportation besides bike  degree weather stuck home filled conflict negativity thats fault im reason conflict ive become nothing piece shit im selfish cant even right deserve help want victim im one myself ive known day coming long long time now want hurt anyone else simply existing hurt more least make end birthday coming maybe thats significant maybe time finally close door even know im here im sorry world truly better without me