im hard time telling family need serious help anxietyi battling depression anxiety majority life born disability grew ignorant town gone psychologistpsychiatrist sense  sometimes feel like held together entire life think falling apart looks like isnt lost someone like brother me  year february  medications sense passed tried telling family cant hold self together anymore keep brushing off spent entire life dissociating painful memories emotions sometimes forget precious memories loved one closer get one year mark harder remember like getting phone call hes gone alll againim tired acting like im ok im scared dont get help could end it tell them