want balls kill myself hate came out fucking scared live lifei tried many times fucking cant take it im sick tired remembering fucking bullshit life done pussy everything im tired all much potential relationships many people wasted never got balls ask girl bullshit anxiety suffer through fucking hate all hate treated child one gave hope struggling suicidal thoughts since age  thats fucking normal hate stupid fucking life everything tried kill age  l still pussy out im fucking waste human space hate it hate living nothing gets fucking better remembering emotional loneliness since child cant even feel anymore emotions sucked away cant handle shit negative thoughts positive stupid fucking people profiling shit stupid closed minded teachers profiling rebellious gangbanger since age  fucking bullshit hate shit cant fucking it want die hate even thought alive wish aborted wish never thought of live greatest gift fucking call bullshit happens strip kids confidence u get miserable fucks like wishing dead one days im going fucking it overdose blast brains something hate fucking living someone please fucking kill something