dunnojust practiced hanging myself felt kind good letting go never thought would actually end life im feeling im getting kind close suicidal thoughts almost every day feel like demon gotten control life everything seem superficial act guess ive path maybe five years now closest ive gotten actually ending all mmy body feel like fucking run car something aspirations inspiration imagination it lot gone like losing contact yourself body doesnt feel like yours would much rather flowing spiritual entity trapped hunk bones flesh seem pointless like people girlfriends really love guess apreciate them embrace them getting close contacts far me feel like galaxies between noone really knows dont even really know myself dont apreciate even dunno thats problem dont know humanity earth great ways horrible others feel like ive done part know things change bla bla bla also tipping point gone far feel like im now im stars universe body input would nice cause feel like im gonna end life now feeling inside shouldnt peace love 