want die hard im living constant painim pain starting feel physical life sucks getting worse hate thinking everyone living best lives hate deal misery every day day long suffer severe depression body dismorphia eating disorders im good anything personality sucks body sucks well  worse  im even able decent human relationships im basically fucking loser ive trying get help much can even professionals thing keep telling everything temporary everything get better sooner later  even though ive dealing  years believe them doubt really understand even though keep explaining explaining  anyways everyday fucking torture absolutely end everything soon fucking tired also say hang everything get better it bullshit happen say that life actually beautiful try just positive uu let tell something fuck you soon find something effective end fucking misery im gonna one stop me