whats pointyr old male here recently decided take semester college im starting realize aimless life is hated first semester thankfully community college didnt care ok school couldve gone  yr didnt want trouble hating career parents dont really support decision im going therapy mildly helps im going going medication soon idea going medication makes feel weak need help normal feel subservient everyone else also yes kind obvious would single decided stay friends one girl ive infatuated year rejected me im starting feel like shes talking pity ive tried before lately harder harder justify living anymore reason im still alive  month old niece