know anymorei always loved little brother family always important me lately really hard get along him hes selfish thinks himself help much landed trouble week ago asked help nothing big take parents cats  rest month travel morning evening feed i cant take reasons got upset refused help me even though could big hassle him continued tell im stupid worthless wants dead blocked everywhere manipulated get expensive parts computer  credit gone cant get himself told pay bill month took name credit clean course it im stupid know im stuck bill cant pay it now im suicidal already need this im edge killing speak cant handle anymore everyone uses im kind im lonely want end all know dont ps im s teenage angst ive severely depressed whole life tried every treatment medicine is yes includes therapy stop suggesting it nothing helps im lost cause