recently broke girlfriend almost  years broke completely off break guess could say thought totally breaking would help well pissed cannot see dog anymore her bought together dumb self went found girl started talking her thought would get mind things made much worse want go back went camped middle desert alone last weekend try get away idk debated staying die fucking sun try think shit ex put bad still help like reasons left good enough anymore pills help therapy help fucking eat fucking sleep cannot function day day anymore fucking fault everyone said would happier honestly depressed long time want anything anymore fucked bad cannot go back would able even tried think killing right now go find another girl talk to maybe wanted company think trying fill void fucked worse cemented situation even more always end fucking worse fucked