name trinity thing number  tomorrow rd bdayif going end it tomorrow seems like best day three deeper meaning me like it aesthetically pleasing  im trans girl picked name went legal trouble change this im depressed shit  friend  family members talk regular thats it one work talks me social life im alone spend  free time alone bedroom way  years now nothing life brings joy favorite foods used get excited lost taste music become repetitive boring escapes anime video games cant hold interest  im lonely want make friends things together hobbies subjects relate others about pre transition free time money spent drugsbecause depressed needed escape reality born wrong  im stuck wrong body way surgerysmass amounts money even then even thenif fully transitioned know would myself feel like blank slate like never became anything like never able find myself become individual  make new friends hobbies ever life drugs escape  people got pretty close online eventually rejected found much talk about could talk drugs thats did thats knewthey got bored ditched me  social anxiety twisted hard go shopping get grocery list without panic attack cant even reach individual level tell others bad need much im suffering always feel like burden others even internet randos fb groups  last week requested th work because my birthday invited friend niece go bar hopping hit today told cancelled im depressed function  im living life simply alive know call quits