inevitable hate life matter timeim  ive depressed years gotten real bad now ive already attempted redflag hanging one point another alcohol poisoning downing couple bottles voka various drinks barely bring anything including brushing teeth daily basis im currently bachelor information technology uni accepted into ive sleep first lecture th week hours barely bring go already missed last week whole course feels like waste time feel useless this entire st year business bullshit barely pay attention to second year finally get damn introduction programming another waste time feels like suffer  half years stuff either hate already know possibly learn anything actually want to ive gotta go dentist week get root canal tooth gonna cost fortune family see point already think jumping front train every time im station getting root canal gonna give us hefty bill pay reason since think ill live long anyway waste money really im sure im still point reason live really know much longer ill last