giving upi feel like need end all cannot stand anything life feel like everyone gave me friends teachers parents honestly think one would care die im sad ones asks im okayno one cant stand myself im ugly im awkward time like stupid everyone probably thinks im loser mean like anyone would care died im mistake everyone knows im giant stupid idiot nothing stays brain get bad grades parents get large metal wooden rod beat cant stand feeling disappointment cause people one ever want partner sit next me none people know class must ugly right one ever like whats point living