im done lifes fucking over dont wanna deal shithole longerim gonna sound like fucking incel rn whatever whenever try meaningful relationship wasting many resources shot down hurts waste life endless cycle of like someone try make move rejected try move on repeat ive tried improve myself ive fucking changed half interests hobbies people waste always shot down none friends try support me did say dont bother move on dont even know try elude believing theres chance lie saying theres good shot know never be yet still try anyway always ends same tears pain suffering painful cycle pain want of wanna meaningful happy relationship longer goes seems like pipe dream im sorry youve read far need vent get fucking brain text god want fucking ending could im addicted cycle see through hate life hate everything