reality meant mesorry english native language im  year old student dreams even try work succeed going school every morning seems pointless terrifying idea stuck stupid routine going default school get diploma work default   job survive depressing me im probably selfish millenial thinks hes owed everything want work it worst part beautiful loving girlfriend amazing small group childhood close friands parents support financially emotionally know depression anxiety too yet cant help it future fucking scary seems dull matter do think im right society perspective spending whole life working terrifying considering much im stressed every single day school work right im holiday amazing thought going back school september unbearable think id rather die suffer year school again fuck seems ridiculous put like id rather die think girlfriend thing holding back september leaving study canada  months we french dont think ill able handle it text way long might wrong subreddit whatever