still here still strugglingposted couple days ago still havent done anything still wrestling feeling every second every day hate theres  ways go  absolutely devastate dad brother really hate even think  go guy broke tell hey really wanna die since broke get called manipulative attention seeking honest  tell someone else feel sent wherever send someone might harm themselves probably want even more really really want things get better thats ive ever wanted worse things keep happening really dont want die im scared shitless death really dont see things ever getting better guess ill keep drinking posting cries help internet