hiim like almost i socially ostracized pretty much whole life middle school important thing start social notredflag went school home without making friendships love notredflag happened high school college mid teens feeling socially behind everyone else around sense teens friends social circles love notredflag etc college already socially retarded could seen me yeah whenever group odd creepy autistic guy guy work life came college workfield different story people mostly s kids longer place interact people similar age interests you really hard time waking up sleeping going trough another day feel like would wake endure hell existence would overlife seems social net start building since childhood accumulate key experiences right time friends true friends first kiss first teenage sexual relation etci experienced crucial milestones feel dead inside also multiple botched eye surgeries left one eyes conjunctiva permanently red people feel even uncomfortable near thanks oddly red eye never part world torments every single waking moment