fear break broke meive thought redflag years due various things life im lazy write them im sorry im write seems trivial think keep going life kind alright guess great kind feel inside life pointless without ex boyfriend still feelings want relationship anymore this ldr think im entitled anyone people break up happens thats another thing invested much time energy care thought relationship saved months see side world to fair also saved up couple months leave   months later breaks me told felt unappreciated agreed felt bad apologized would even want another relationship anyone again im tired stuff everything get broken anyway nobody gave near extent did parents care much anyone else knows this second break up guy going forever grip me im trapped ive thought ending numerous times icing cake ive attracted ever since ive known  years im pondering whether end months not want keep existing like this know silly ridiculous sound wonder anyone else going something similar 