cant take anymoreim even sure im writing here im going say ampxb cant take more dont get people go around smiling laughing time life living hell life time isnt fight left me dont want live more want everything over want quiet want feelings go away want end all dont anything fight more ampxb life ive living undiagnosed adhd making life difficult least teens one family member made life better grandfather got cancer died fighting  years alive wanted take life once disappoint way make fight even worse died  years ago went away cant find anything life worth fighting for cant really disappoint since isnt more ampxb huge money problems cant tell much dont know lost control  years ago ampxb dont friends left ive never good social settings lost friends adhd lost head scared people away rest bad behaviour general life ive used internet games people really care you either way game supposed fun ampxb ive poor relationships ended badly usually ive found new rebound relationship short mess ampxb year ive knee surgery didnt go well either went deep depression failed keep touch job lost that lost rights welfare also that cant work dont income ampxb tried start school last autumn work out could focus dropped out ampxb found method want end everything with go trough it moment really anything stopping me dont anything fight more dont want live dont go trough it know work self rest life fight started cant see it cant take more ampxb like said dont know im writhing want it needed tell someone ampxb iwantout