im sure im  years old male want talk feel right now always try best nice everyone but feels like one nice me fact feels like everyone hates good reason bullied many years painful me feel dead inside im emotional guy even right now feel way im trying live normal life made changes health eat healthier exercise lost  kg  kg  kg im  cm tall also improved dental health ive lifestyle since november  but mental health different story feels like everyone hates me everyone wants dead difficult live feel like this never felt bad before last days thing going mind redflag cant stop it know stop fear actually take life ive bullied lot people social life getting worse worse know cant talk to apologize post long