find joy life anymoreim  smoking weed since beginning last school vacation never found sociable weed helped social life got pretty good abusive use bought money high  smoked day enough however around  months ago parents found out anti drug listen arguments bad me since talk them accept want live life grades school good smoking influenced education all recently started take phone computer night entertainment since let go evenings shit makes stressed life school less less motivation take seriously see point living im eastern europe opportunities youngs know sounds pathetic thats every night think killing myself parents would supportive would let enjoy life would happy thats case overwhelms me advice would appriciated