life ended long time agoim posting im part done living life nothing offer me never has first im going describe turned talking someone like know front im    years old mediumbrown skinned female short small nose jutted jaw thin lips sunken eyes metal hip cataracts face looks flat side people called retard down syndrome it might actually something wrong genetically ive always poor muscle tone there im ugly top that im probably narcissist schizoid affective disorder hospitalized medical mental institutions  times assaulted one mental institutions never stopped thinking committing redflag think every single day done since early teens almost successful back  worst day ever entire world died then least one person earth compatible me several people said me dont nobody want you right even guy married divorced like anything much money could spend cant think one family member ive close im burden all number always around five less so life ive pushed people whose job provide services me now even people want job whats left sooner im outta here less burden be better world be