attempted hang todayi wrapped scarf around neck hung closet woke floor convulsing mustve blacked scarf came undone closet remember waking without realizing awake felt nauseous headache panic flashbacks everything causing commit redflag remember thinking oh movie im glad thats life continuied gain consciousness realized real life lost point yellingcrying why close nooooooo getting really angry remorse mad wasnt able complete mission evening still regrets did believe piece initial blackout probably happiest id long time neck sore red ring around neck headache bruising body think might hit something way down im gonna try tmr belt see works