need someone listen meback story im  ive suffering depression   years want go back doctor im scared take seriously think im another teenager never talked problems anyone else try freeze unable say anything past couple years tried kill  times including pills alcohol trying drown myself current problems came gay finished gcses  friends said care within  months   friends would still talk me went back school pick gcse certificates  people old friends classmates included started shouting insults like faggot queer right  minutes road hear more best friend time stopped talking   months incident friend time still talked right october  stopped talking started drugs sorts went new school year start levels made new friends would come smoke weed such month ago exact thing good friends stopped talking me unless need something usually ask cigarette time month last friends baby understand baby stopped talking well even theyve time due child going nearly every day time themselves nothing now friends talk person ive talked today mom  words im love straight guy school would talk say feel im scared happen due year group school consisting whole  people good friends other plus way get consists finding something make fun f someone taking piss long time say anything whole year group school would hear within day able stay another year people go every day cant go another school one able go since previously electrician training course somewhere else im also poor fuck mom lot health problems unable work dad works job earns enough cover bills ive trying find job somehow people qualifications get picked jobs instead me clothes borderline small least year old im sorry rant thank reading it took  hours  cigarettes finally get written out