cant anymoreive tried kill twice wish id succeeded last summer months ago hospitalized could anything cant say really helped me told pdoc therapist well two weeks ago maybe was im sure ive telling people im okay anything myself know keep promise last night started writing note say goodbye everyone love feels like relief decide it people tell ive lot past couple years im stronger survived honestly feel tiredness cant fight anymore anything keeping here ive tried think things tether life ive come nothing im tired cycle bad place last year too never ends ive tried every kind medication cocktail imaginable ive even tried vitamin supplements im tired cant this