 years old want dieso ill pretty much give story im  right now  friends told counsellor depression tried kill twice  went different highschool friends friends highschool really hated it second year highschool left go one friends went to really popular went friends lot later year stopped hanging popular people people liked im third year friends school never anything social outside school feel terrible ive contemplated redflag much feel like matter time parents tried get talk counsellor finding website called lost hope lists redflag methods ipad time autism test done i didnt end it got talk counsellor handling that counsellor said sounds like depression didnt trust ended lying forgot soon after nowadays parents terrible relationship slam door lot take anger cracks wall im terrible son terrible parents too lot people age use depression like cool ive never told anyone mine kind embarrassing tldr tried kill twice younger social life outside school hiding depression everyone know parents pure hate relationship please point reason live many people redflag dont see why feel like hearing reason might help