friend recently opened suicidal thoughtsi come back weekend away ireland two close friends final night bit heavy session leave pub early hours morning drinking   local lads towards end night friend said cousin from near area staying recently committed redflag drunk opened conversation us battles mental health walking home told mate depth struggled past able go counselor really helped knew friend also troubles past basically said never really understood alive waiting parents could kill knowing would never know said questions life meaning virtually every waking hour really worries seems rationalised plan redflag already idea suffering bad said go counselor as did think point memory incident pretty hazy drunk anytime ever come conversation us drunk bad know recall even asked think pain would cause people around killed himself said made feel even guilty already aware pain would cause still willing it speak sober advise councelling again also know brother well think would good idea make aware this anyone advise anyone else faced situation like close friend thanks