goal purpose desirewhat fuck point anything absolutely nothing want life except kill escape world theres place anyway absolutely nothing life except play video games endlessly browse internet content literally purpose alive want job hate college absolutely refuse join military want change life see point changing desire commit redflag even imagine living see graduating college im pretty much lazy piece shit loser hate every fiber being never imagine someone loving caring unconditionally thought happening foreign concept me literally fault too fault unmotivated worthless human being absolutely nothing change situation yet still bitching it weird thing is even want change myself id rather let thoughts consume commit redflag guess ill end post here already made enough pity parties already one day ill eventually stop posting swerve car tree escape bullshit garbage world