anxietyi much anxiety wanted forward msg girl class talking abt graduation dad instead forwarding spent  mins procrastinating completely frozen dont know im like felt like dad already tired putting would burden even more eventually able forward msg even msged girl dad bit busy ill telling im available attend keeps pressuring tone message seemed cold frustrated dont know anxiety came gonna go physical school well even wasnt able forward msg suddenlt felt urge kill instead sending message dad much pending stuff do hve find therapist contemplating im gonna kill anyway gotta get started much work whats point im gonna fail kill myself need many things motivation im gonna kill myself