school coming wish could die thenlast semester huge embarrassment failed   classes one classes math really well first  years th class music getting really good at barely passed semester though feel like deserve teacher gave liked last year friends classes alone day outside lunch would talk one person semester friend one class thing keeping depressed mess semester since responded online  months tried contact  months ignored messages ive kinda given up though probably fault since gave address crisis center went get help depression ive lazy anything im huge developed eating probably ill eat whenever im bored stressed gotten point ive eating less thats ive feeling full extremely quickly past days kinda full im longer hungry kinda full stomach pains regret eating first place ive wanted kill  years done laziness also reason gotten help im  years old huge failure scared grow go college get job cry stupidest things ever sorry used many commas got  english class last semester