sad kill myselfive seriously suicidal long sat balcony hour month ago ready jump texting goodbye anyone cared even slightest bit about every reason pussied jumping day gone away cant find reason kill myself fact logically really feel like best decision make without clouded judgment really seriously considering friday  monday today tuesday time much stuff happened made feel worse worse worse im honestly sad kill myself know why know makes sense sound like make sense redflag end move sad even want kill myself happen happened anyone else ampxb im sorry formatting bad post often feel like brain tapped friday something stupid it