guys sometimes get panic attacks start thinking future currently work  hours day  days week earn  hour help parents rent pay services keep rest myself spend bit stupid stuff much spend free time watching anime reading manga buying manga playing games friends really enjoy that thing is whenever think ill life start panicking heart goes ballistic want study anything specific want work specific field thing ive got sort figured may interested serving one branches military future want good stable income afford stupid stuff housing myself nice car day buy house knowing life makes seem hard obtain parents want study ged also want keep working help pay rent feel completely lost always find going back playstation laptop forget worries seems like cycle end