confused many bad days already month today better got talk more made happy sent pictures herself smiled lot think made smile lot too realised friend reality us together near future pretty impossible chances us together later far impossible pains me know do would never ever like anyone her feel useless feels bad longing mutual feelings cannot stop myself way attached ever want anyone her never happy someone else her find anyone close comes attractiveness personality godly level truly something different anyways thanks reading rant good night day stay safe confused flukes