cannot handle hurry wait life supposed exercise eat eat right sleep sleep well keep clean take medicine get job keep dates appointments etcdoing one things exhausts days angry feel stuck doctorsfamilyfriends give advice try help need heard right tired fighting hard stay alive world miserableim going leave know many health issues make depression much worse transitional stage life clue sometimes feelings intense people cannot hear trying sayeven things happiness take time money energy supposed need relief anything ever given relief everything getting much worse medicines mess much taking makes even worse like right now never posted needed get looking place therapy feel like screaming underwater supposed