someone read leave goodthe plan ready ready action week tldr im going end week im good enough normal human anymore going read story love change thing contextstory late  selfesteem issues excited finally prove helicopter mom get best grade possible despite always as eyes enough looks overall percentage fast forward graduation day low behold graduated stunning a subjects overall percentage  gift ministry education top s city congrats got mad brother top s there hell broke loose us beyond mad hell almost fainted rage thought applied university get away home bit everything would fine boy wrong two years tried every trick book manipulation straightup domestic violence make go med school getting rejected every university country nationality said country alltime low first attempt work obviously fast forward late  brother managed find education opportunity neighboring country moon set plan dad go get paperwork ready  mom manipulated dad take us home country seek unattainable educational opportunity already accepted neighboring country stuck sick early  mom using connections got physical therapy major unverified university refused attend told brother get ready were leaving neighboring country somehow dad discovered plan insisted coming us agreed notify mom it got university already started month paperwork requested start next year get fair start two weeks finals dad let us live alone thought  around finally heal fair chance boy wrong again discovered  years abuse mental torture mostly due genetics memory problem forgotten almost everything learned high school short memory basically goldfish level  started university majoring geology already got really popular professors nice forgetful dude luck  crashing hard mom decided live six months stress anxiety that got  fs  c one b basically failing got diagnosed prime immune deficiency due covid mom left alone got back home destroying pretty hard life constant messages i told gotten med school look failing miserably decided life worth living anymore got covid would die fast anyway plan ready week evil destroyed dreams ability achieve dream whats point anymore barely get every day constantly forgetting stuff crying sleep anyway thank reading kind person im do