 yr old male depression redflag seizures scoliosis schizophrenia graduated  still living parents since made progressi realized school easiest thing lifei jobs could keep mental physical illnesses got way tried signing college afraid messing things myselfmy first dream become mma fighter due brain surgery remove seizures think ever achieve thatthroughout life always called ugly even friends girlfriend familyi live godforsaken area nothing people age never serious relationship still virginsometimes want end life cannot find guts soalso think able survive real world survive own relationship find new dream career live peace every since graduating high school life ridiculously hard