im gonna end it goodbyeim sick people sick talking sick breathing sick thinking know people miss cant live anymore pain im  years old established depression depression  years light characteristics autism im good situation im laying bed serveral months im tired depressed social anxiety addicted selfharm playing videogames fappingwatching porn it gave good feeling im feeling lonely want lonely sounds weird consider redflag rope couple months ago painful scars selfharm left arm cry fast mother father seperateddivorced  years old mentally mistreated long time stepfather beat mom see stepfather threaten say mom otherwise beat up  stepfathers total feel like everyone get really mad people swipe me im done world everyone understand kinda thing