tonightno shitty life bad circumstances no im lazy incompetent unsuccessful nothings happened beyond normal im done living want anymore ive downward spiral since  im  now shit together im well way  ish gpa semester im smart know im going get there im happy ever really been even care make difference peoples lives care people love me know do give shit im sure ive ever really loved anyone ive cutting since  dont remember started except this feeling inside exact feeling now milder dont know came idea cut cant remember ever heard before ive thinking redflag since  began considering months later planning past  months plan im writing note right now tonight though im ready go care abilities dont care family see death background every part life waiting welcome home encourage me also fuck say words please kill yourself says understand anything read please save me wanted show people reasons redflag always solvable nothing life fixed thats broken belong here so farewell