cant stop thinking mistakeslast year school bullied constantly kid group friends would call fag tell kill myself threaten life kids would even get physical hit me every day shoved locker five starred enough bullying went teachers school teachers absolutely nothing kids made lie saying used nword completely false racist never racist teachers bought suspended school caused emotional strain parents never really got trouble school known smart kid upon day suspension over called meeting teachers school told could admit lied risk expulsion kids bullied happened influential school one last name athletic center held ground refused cave teachers questions said dishonest needed revaluate situation got news expelled days later devastated loved school learning felt like harming myself depressed weeks wanted kill myself mother impacted stress put her health problems feel fault even though happened year ago cannot stop thinking it