 botter get hit car years ago injured knee getting beach torn meniscus surgery meniscus repair work took year doctors acknowledge appeared mri get second second last january learn got worst torn meniscus cartilage defect compensate leg knee hurting swelling stand currently waiting mri knee cant go out used lot sports know gonna possible anymore beginning law school good uni september kind dream got involved student gov models stuff good job based merit uni work could possibly published scientific journals still feel like best days life behind me since cant much except staying home pt school stuff swim more thinking ending life soon bad knee problems seems get worst literally feel like life quality gonna go downhill here help