called  redflag hotline number condescending pos counselor thats sign know isi dealing lot family issues financial issues forming social support issues former abuse flashbacks eating disorder racism more suicidal one thing every time think ive hit rock bottom theres another hit cant take anymore called  hoping sort reprieve got condescending piece shit counselor hung initially could hear kept telling that got second time gave bs excuse know happened major thing condescending was tone choice words horrible telling people worse anyone one facebook friend ended pouring everything one else acquaintances friends people struggled tried hardest take next level got nowhere deep debt student loans keep calling harassing me extended family cut lives due revealing choice abused one them ugly black girl constantly dealing overlooked treated like crap live self esteem shit asked years ago work crappy menial wage job part time mentally handle full time job people look time accomplished none hopes dreams last thing needed hear good due one facebook friend afraid overwhelmed counselors tone voice condescending kept saying right every sentence like idiot waiting respond hard describe condescending was business hotline also seems like sign one cares even people supposed to getting older things improving getting worse seeing former high school bullies news social media better me failure thing called life cant deal anymore always held even little bit hope things would change matter bad got ive homeless before worse ever see end sight see life improving matter hard tried improve life ended spot rock bottom again plan want quit hesitation pain get with