tiredlife cant numbing various drugs behaviors cant take end it cut least  times oddly sting isnt painful anymore almost want roll bloody arm concrete see damage do im numb ive given even trying live life im tired tried alone tried friendly cant seem accept im meant dead inside meant hurt every second blessed life apartment food stomach whats point girl couldnt love am im codependent bitter distant maintain blank demeanor dont know better literally cant relate anyone im probably human human body im complaining need someone bounce redflag ideas of none friends help leave sense peace takers