ending life within  hoursi anything live for nothing im currently  years old friend never really friend im currently jobless never able hold job  months unemployed year jobs almost money prospects bad social skills anxiety severe depression majority life dropped high school emotionally torture me people come across seem extremely rude me nowhere turn help contact either parents never girlfriend ever really opportunity get close girl believe would give meaning life every girl tried initiate contact shut down immediately ignored me something hurtful say get made fun every person know virgin jokes etc live small town k people unable move no transportationmoney opportunities town make changes life interests hobbies never found skilled anythingi get nothing joy life consistent misery see reason life continue tried best ability deal issues