writing theseive really fucked up im k debt stealing mother survive mother always right me ive done hurt lie cheat manipulate get want get next hit anything make days bearable ive failed human every possible metric age  ive always blamed heritage stutter learning difficulties short comings see short coming always me cant keep living shame guilt longer ive done hurt lie dont want anymore mum always right said kill shame ive bring shame hard work know child me constant fuck up used believe could realise lie like always do im sorry ended with always deserved much better me friends loved one thank ever me made days little bit brighter ever deserved it mum im sorry im sorry  years saying that dont think much meaning anymore dont blame never will know dont burden anymore take comfort thought right now