want try commit redflag againso um yeah  year old girl diagnosed disordered eating insomnia depression anxiety body dysmorphia anger issues tried commit redflag times always failed one overdose which put hospital one jumping bridge  aiming rocks land missed tiny bit got sent clinic thinking commiting redflag again really want live painful process life life hard me bullied whole life started smoking weed self harming get pain away thinking killing want die yeah felt better let thanks 