plan beginnings one anyway loose ends tie like finances etc ive established im going itheres plan go woodies buy rope either hemp rope manila cant stretchy needs take upto lbs pressure around  feet long mm diameter ask store need it ill say im making play area cat dont even cat rope time find tree pick woods going woods dont want family find me someone outside family get quicker im pulled back thinking family care im sure do im tired shitty person theyre better without me definitely dont want finding me ill go fair distance away  need make sure wont people around okay drop hang way say drop hang quicker guaranteed work dont want head come whoever finds would surely traumatised see that dont want that wish could get fucking world without mess people along way thats thing mess everyone up married nicest wonderful person hes valium cope married me daughter say couldnt protect her ive let many ways daughter im shit worst took everything mother treated badly younger im also shitty sister shitty friend shitty worker ill one less shitty person world im gone end it cant keep going around circles skipping around idea it get with longer hang around the thing im good puns prolonging everyone elses misery plan now know need do ive learned hangmans knot ive practicing think physics everything else down gotta pick tree decide leave note not dont know would say sorry