im waste space im sorry im still aliveusually im strong person give depression much lately hard actually live past years dealt fine even joked suicidal depressed however laughing matter anymore today bad day woke wrong side bed today nothing seemed going well series things go well morning got work shit piled up afternoon boyfriend fight like even big deal him evening making dinner family every fucking thing mess bigger problems deal day helping every  good days one bad day change every thing today cry cry room cry working cry texting boyfriend cry cooking cry typing this fuck bullshit im fucking tired living hard especially life live hoping new year starts im already gone