tired feeling way  years want pain endim tired friends never relationship living good life im living parents home  years now trying chasing dreams know dreams never manifest anything everything everyone ever said true grew complicated ive treated like shit life never meant anything made procons list decision end life want second opinions since nobody talk to pros  fitting end decade pain mental anguish  dont belong society ease discomfort people feel towards  people used associate doesnt ashamed anymore in fact joy relief bad mouth even more  could reincarnate memory pain live better life one im  im genetic mistake  need face future life consists loneliness regret mediocrity  nobody gets disappointed cons  family depressed time people act shocked even though could seen miles away  none dumb ideas even chance selfish ass reason  god im going hell sure