thinking redflag awhile nowim fifteen year old kid almost  live dead end town cant seem happy gun plenty reasons live reasons die always show matter what wish could push struggles waste much time want live without worries high school class grades cant seem shake them love deeply eleven months left her regret every morning wake up see fathers face mirror father prison attempted murder used hit mother younger cant help feel like im reason happened cant help feel like im reason mother crippling addict too lifes complete sht live hell cant shake thought redflag im failing high school peers hate me brother tells always look sky gods always got plan im sure believe anymore