planning go birthdaymy birthday another  weeks  im planning either hang od ive never celebrated birthday supposed celebrate th ex yeah hes ex now ive enough feeling alone thought wanted happiness doesnt taste blood one cares enough actually want life im close parents siblings dont live us anymore friends simply people spend time with dont really emotional connection im alone anyway semester gpa going released around time know thats going add list triggers lead ending petty sounds never future im smart nothing live for ive always known id end life sooner later really needed space rant thanks youve read this