last strawalrightive posted another acc forgot password comes throwaway many numbers alright soi suffer severe paranoiai feel im constantly watchedlistened even people know thoughtsi think might bipolari stress ass schoolmy step mum gets drunk makes day even worsei also huge fear abandonment like  things lifemy dogsmom gf thing ismy gf lives england dontshes also suicidal raped stufg wont get unless think wanna know ig ifwhen doesnt respond dayseither mum took phone shes thinking even almost attempting kill herself thing isshe hasnt responded  days nowwhich worries like alotsince thats longest hasnt responded since met diesi think ill kill bc im also sick told im young depressed like treated joke real shit really hope replies soon bc fuck dont wanna diei want done lifebut im afraid comes after help pleasei need ideas tell kill want that