would rather die way instead dyingalright go girl middle teenage years ive abused parents half life abandoned whenever people see problems realise im normal perfect someone love might truly love promises hell save us someday know cant happen even though love thought it reason im slowly dying realizing even live freedom anyway im terminally ill point could fucking die second likely fault know karma shit terrible person young mother always tells useless helpless ever able live alone im taking shit heart always correct me id rather kill die suddenly keep letting bloody punching bag everyone use disgusting joke maybe get reincarnated ill finally better life someday find person love again know it