anyone helpits fucked thoughts long time were shit situation right lease agreement money situation cant move out broke phone went use old one kicking around found messages another guy called broke up within week arms different guy goes house kid late every night last night never came home still here think would hard keeps leading like work next day acts like hates guys house night child truly hurts ive contemplating ending it not shes convinced child im worthless even like dad anymore family acts nice want money that have eyes kids mom im worthless pos end this bs try hard overcome depression well really long time look got me idk life sucks feel like would easier everyone could rest peace like understand would emotionally difficult first judging way people treat theyd get it live life wondering nobody cares even daughter