guess im tiredhi  male straight single suppose reasons wish dead  healthy reasonably well paid job doesnt require much effort problems alcohol drugs nobody molested child etc doesnt make sense job shit fat cats top get even fatter also especially good that family dont it frankly dont much desire make one last time girlfriend  mistaken friends nope two one dead  km away hobbys dont either used like read dont read anymore except taking shit serious problem could tried live solve  see life would like without it serious problems im kinda bland person guess life also bland boring mildly irritating bought g propranolol couple weeks ago think suffice