ive contemplating redflag latelyi posted depression subreddit want discuss feelings sub see people say past weeks ive debating whether end it ive suicidal thoughts before past would pushed away im welcoming thought im losing live alarming rate think im meant ever truly happy world life sucks absolutely miserable right might get even worse reality homeless crawling closer closer need realistic myself life never improve ill never career ill never tangible skills talents ill never decent social life girlfriend student loans never go away amp worst all ill never get away crazy ass mother redflag becoming realistic time goes on life completely bullshit way fucking hard everyone tells possible turn life around fail recognize luck others lack one thing thats comforting redflag idea things ever gets bad always use last resort stop pain im going die die one day anyway whats difference early especially considering future anyway