honestly health anxiety gets bad sometimes honestly feel like giving even trying scared deathsometimes random feel done life like much happened me sometimes day feel like oh complain smile happy can just keep trying stay motivated work hard one day find happiness try believe it try believe ill make this health anxiety goes really awful sometimes im even scared dying accept it sometimes feel like self hatred strong im fucked fixing point sometimes genuinely know whats stopping saying fuck stress fuck tears fuck whole planet everything especially myself ill feel better morning ill continue fighting morning believe ill ever stop oh boy always around like  giving feels tempting swear want happiness fucking badly want get rid ptsd ocd whatever fuck else might wrong me idk hope it