used group friends used talk play almost every single day  years one  actually  years thought best friend later really demonstrated much really care anyone else group left will rest group last longit almost year sincei already depressed time idk constant feeling loneliness actual friends tried making connections people sometimes meet online games even tried talking create connection never really happens either care even remember next day ghost anyway feel like age someone like least able find connection anyone ever again feel like ever find anyone ever trust again betrayed multiple times many people including friend since kid idk least couple years ago friends feel like nothing