want someone tell going okim alone realized transgender couple years ago kept secret everyone blew world apart still havent told anyone it dysphoria seems getting worse also aspergers trouble making friends though couple one things helped keep going friendly coworkers supermarket used work in got new job people arent warm friendly dont feel like fit in discovered recently parents likely narcissists upbringing explains lot low selfesteem ability deal stress etc probably disown find im trans probably kill me even though im physically dependent them still tied emotionally cant see way out either keep going way continue get worse kill myself attempt transition end killing fall losing family abuse etc either way lose need someone talk me tell this dont know help im kind emotional breakdown sorts