ending day nowi guess would look ive got say thankful im not id burn house blow car tell friends family fuck could bring anything emptiness ive felt months now think always there ive able ignore it im alone even im around people care me im alone one person ive ever bared soul to laugh tell could still friends cant even bring eat nothing gives joy nothing gives sadness bags packed speak already final letters written stuffed labelled envelopes gave video game shit neighbor kid yesterday held gun temple hammer cocked thing keeping imagined mother would feel police showed tell son blew brains basement probably stop tonight maybe tomorrow doubt see next week