life seem bit pointless anyone else rantive felt suicidal long remember managed keep lid past year since ive busy school personal issues yesterday friends and people love most told want nothing me reason it either love life also confessed loving back drunken mind reject explore university stay tied greatest days lives turned bad wont talk much anymore ive thinking redflag night wrote note relapsed bit listened sad songs read inspiring article commit redflag started realise matter on everything nothing become best profession become rich marry love life meet best friends great life eventually ill die will suffer next  years mean nothing end anyway nothing means anything one day one remember life everything gave shit about everything slaved over everything worked hard for gone forever whats point anymore im probably going kill tonight im afraid afterlife go process hanging myself options right now sucks feel pain wash entire body every time press another button keyboard remember life meaningless still cant anything it damn