im donei depression since remember wasnt  years ago got asperger diagnose luck brother help im  years old med school suck suck anything student too generation graduated years ago made social service got residence kind alone lot pressue last trimester school sudden change student policy got academic risk meaning failed one class out time told managed pass tests would academic risk pure miracle got clean results start new trimester dates need graduate dont want lose half year start one year long social service  heavy classes try best check school mail see  mails one says that surprise on academic risk fail  clases sure it fuck them one inform  april last day ask less academic load cant anymore almost decided kill last trimester  classes  high difficulty academic risk gun head unexpected surprise bonus want get sleep never wake up family given support things cant help one cant survive another academic risk trimester let alone worse one whats point old surely peers think idiot think idiot failure think almost daily it sometimes distract things isnt working anymore want world