fuck meim kinda uncomfortable typing this talking someone shit im going through feel like people going laugh take seriously know assume want attention goes im close anybody all even family infact much hatred me unbelievable cant figure though mother want wanted get abortion sadly didnt one really care about things bad cancer since got everything depressing fucking hurts see hospital everything shitty home im dad give shit kids two abusive sisters fucking cant handle anymore everyday same getting cursed siblings taking thier abuse cant anything it cant even defend myself ive getting involved self harm siblings laughed noticed cuts bruises cant even go outside virus eating good past months ive getting skinny point see bones cant get sleep either ironic im always tired ive begging talk mind lot like unhealthy amount getting point conversations last hours everything getting worse worse fucking hate living like this im thinking killing myself maybe week so sorry rant