cliched titlenot sure turn anymore reddit bit me came big digg move ive loved site far guys helpful supportive im impasse life went college  years got lazy found beer pretty much dropped out decided join national guard hopes making something life time really happy even though got yelled suffered structure life first time basic pretty much falling ng went first drill stopped going seemed dumb would sit around  months ago now lost job girlfriend pretty much huge debt aes fafsa already deferred dont know much longer it tough finding job been applying every place see dont know military phone fell hottub dont cash get new one im slowly losing contact everyone outside world summary dont know do already owe parents loads money college dont know turn to im get thrown street really dont know do please help me edit im  years old