chester benningtons redflag put edgeevery single person reached left hanging made attempt july  since every single person knew turned eventually theyve cut off stopped talking me told welcome home exactly depressed little empathy compassion world people demonstrated indeed truth im getting closer closer heard chester benningtons redflag first thing said damn brave enough follow through heard chesters redflag reached friend said really bad place said id call fifteen minutes friend answer phone pm phone call never returned response text goodbye last friend thought had