cut first time  yearsgoing lot life changes right country last  months girlfriend didnt pick like said would gave money took maybe personally got upset broke crying airport composed self uber home yelling text shes really stressed work hugged broke crying walked kitchen went sleep made  small cuts leg think ive got control now cuts werent anywhere big ones made before wait line redflag hotline text chat dont think need take call time really scared going create episodes thinking vividly killing past  weeks do