im sick thisive left friend today cant much mean talk week even much work spends rest time boyfriend even said sorry neglecting friendship connections i guess me friend too used talk lot more best friend im best friend at least said that feel freaking lonely without her feel like thinks important once killing me person anymore friend her mom loves course like get things chest anything like that know all trust her perfect mom really good friend someone talk stuff like that first time thinking redflag im weak anything unless painless firearm annoying feeling able anything find another relatively painless method cant either live alone sad