deserve die im meant diekinda long story one vent to ever since high school gang stole lied ended peoples lives sold drugs kidnapped people would sell friends dope watch die wanted money would steal money parents sisters classmates  would slowly start see friends disappear one one would lead girls isolated areas knock throw trunk never see hear again met girl fell love made everything worse gave kokain hooked right away anything get more reckless actions getting fights constantly yelling abusing family abusing friends soon girl gonna get married kids get clean leave awful town forever week gonna leave rival gang jumped us girl dreams girl loved anything world future wife gang raped front me still hear screams begging help make stop pinned ground made watch done shot head screamed cried uncontrollably beat half death passed woke hospital hand cuffed bed cops murder possession drugs attempted murder  mother made plea insanity im  ive back society  months job live one moms ex boyfriends family wont talk im alone deserve this regret everything ive ever done wish could go back meant life done meant cause pain suffering weather wanted not one read im alright it needed chest deserve die plan making sure happens hell sure spot reserved it