weird state really calm feel like redflag way problems lifei really tired betrayed lied to put people mostly mother really tells pathetic talk tells quiet shut up fiance also left year ago stole almost money move parents able pull depression even  months seeing psychologist please refrain dont it much live for posts literally help psychological level also please refrain manipulation attempts using strategies like giving affirming redflag option looking somebody talk hopefully issues abusive parents relationships found way build positive environment themselves feel beaten barely get bed morning let alone hold job money get leave wish could do want climb whole feel sinking deeper deeper every day every time told something negative encounter anybody know talking aboutbeen shoes update realized simply need get out head house current mindset go know going embark adventure dog rv trailer see us maybe south america far focused money negative things life need get opposite side things peace love