im donehi im sophomore highschool barely even passing dont know normal ongoing feelings redflag last five years currently everyday night life theres  chance im feeling either happy sad  im mostly sad school always called weird one always ask person call me im bullied sick tired it absolutely friends friends turned typical backstabbing snakes causing whole entire school turn me including one my boyfriend left simply embarrased love anymore love best fake friend tried talking guidance counselor told suck move on also tried talking parents thinking might problem also like get life even called national redflag hotline planning committing redflag wanted give life one last try lady said wasting time told hang phone cant take anymore feel like let everyone one else talk  honestly feel like killed parents spend much money kids school finally one less person stress about want die time dont want give life one last try make huge decision im sorry grammar really need help want know happy again