think ithello im  years old live melbourne australia always thought sucide back head coming much harder time live home mother never says way wants gone cannot hold job matter ive gone countless jobs time time agian currently  day week job fight somebody work uniform interview boss im  sure im going let go stuck endless loop spending money drugs especially weed complete failure even born accident asphergers cannot hold friendships ive lost countless freinds ones knifes edge constant arguments weird tell people internet expressing feelings family friends terrifying im sick week week loose job tomorrow mother probably going kick ill homeless even happen cant stand disappointment anymore burden ive never life girlfriend fallen love never im going alone im lost want end im suffering depression anxiety im sick heavy feeling chest shortness breath made many bad decisions life ruined one ex best mates lives guilt tears apart want leave planet want go thank reading appreciate