attempted redflag monday wish committed instead attemptedmonday aug th sought means end im typing madeunfortunately spent two nights icu happy released im really wishing shit would worked planned top already fed things employment terminated even left hospital unbeknownst time added struggle negativity me honestly longer wish here want someone else somewhere else am family sort friends phone could week nobody would notice needed ride something equally trivial dont feel like choice selfish choice didnt ask born didnt ask longer wish participate