im lonely feel like onei feel way though yes may broken fiance month agobut good reason began getting abusive again stood first time promised got back together ever laid hand again id leave good nine months happened drink first time went complete shit feel happy sticking myself feel happy admitting deserve better deserve better hes right really person loved im going alone rest life person liked actually liked back once ive always gotten rejected used sex justmaybe thats im good for im fucking disgusting im weak im fucking stupid crazy fat ugly bitch whos never going fucking go anywhere life im going die alone everyone says oh youre going places going change lives gonna this gonna that feel it know im though think world hates me thats   attempts worked maybe im even stupider think im stupid kill myself knows dunno man wanna stay high wanna talk someone though like alone miss taking care someone made feel worth it im down attempt free since april th  amp selfharm free since january th i wanna mess againfuck