f brain feels like stormy day need let worries tend rotate around head properly diagnosed depression redflag likely i super emotional boyfriend  getgo us dating developed tendency cry lot boyfriend m complete sweetheart known life love much always as him truly feel peace him especially relaxed bed told feels like nice warm blanket feel comfortable safe think reminds best parts dad person  particularly little my dad bad person flaws feel like never enough money support live good life  always pushed best especially since first bachelors degree parents sympathized bad people constantly feel pressure successful independent worry lot finances life general much change father comes background former military poverty tried mold successful image today even though life circumstances vary constant fear life suddenly change  nearly year ago close family friend passed away suddenly catalyst along covid mental health took negative turn always worried circumstances like event made worse now constantly feel way boyfriend comes house far traffic worries me major reason driven ownany advicethoughts greatly appreciated thoughts constantly running head