everything sinking feel like im worthless think want hang tonightmost life pretty decent least compared others experience hell earth ive grown lovely household caring supportive parents time school would find surrounded really good friends know whats happening recently almost friends gone since couple years ive started isolate room away family cant get bed even feel motivation things used passionate about ex girlfriend reason think still trying wonderful person ive met gone even relationship problem rather external cause made us break up many reasons want mention feel theyre stupid thing crushed about really help either feel way friends view me like source inspiration figure look to away truth feel im truly guy good grades talent art music think me like single aspect body even know kind depression since medical prescription confirms it neither ive spoken people experience it also cant stand thought parents looking hanged lifeless body would devastated want feel im wasting resources living worthless empty life wished awesome family raised fucking failure