want stop experiencing lifeim really sure im posting need somewhere vent im fucking empty tired know science says effort put easier something gets feel true eating much work im depressed try hard fail continuously school tomorrow almost midnight sunday choose getting enough sleep getting work done trick cant either slept well week everytime think work feel anxious literally cannot make it top im empty numb bored time summer thought structure school would help really didnt feel bad considering entire education waste days im depressed remember anything past depressed years made gpa low year matter all ive disassociated states past months nothing meaning anymore seems even non depressed perspective humanity stupid shallow boring friends people ive dated bore me maybe im depressed also feel theyre painfully inexperience im interested one anything im anxious leave house depressed override anxiety time parents completely negligent child sports hobbies communities im in see ever super depressed hated medication tried im tired try another med month experience terrifying side effects know fix life stays like know long be im planning commit redflag seriously need help