feel like ending life every day exception whatever like strength it cannot tell anyone either burden attention whore mild irritant already feel like make everything touch worse telling someone care make better old therapist told opening would make feel better made feel much much worse least parents mother blames father believe therapy help keeps saying teenage thing doctors put label it makes feel like prove mentally ill something friends try help really anything feel even shittier talking gf bc like got defective partner want die get fuckin prison feel nothing feel horrible please kill mesorry chaotic something needed type cannot tell anyone