want later afternoon im still entirely suremy friend attempted redflag im constantly afraid someone else will know going sound extremely selfish hypocritical say want later grades going drain used straight student im probably going fail several classes late anything it project havent done already late fault irresponsibility text argument mother morning led saying wish going custody dad instead her havent gotten back response yet know gets home im dead unless actually dead then everything else gone shit already cant even anything except sleep later afternoon im planning it several hours either parent gets home im gonna snatch bottle ibuprofen several water bottles go outside hide bushes somewhere take all im waiting im going say goodbye everyone contact for dont know though dont know anything im freshman ive already ruined whole life theres really going back now problem plan little brother whos th grade gets home shortly do hell notice im home probably let parents know come looking me dont know anymore