need someone pain killing mebackstory around last year best friend broke boyfriend person went becuase commit redflag multiple times tell you later major crush her never made move though plenty opportunities  sleepovers first one tame second one kissing city dating however second sleepover make move promised would done weeks ago made move asked out interested said big deal maybe ill wait little bit week later found someone me everything gone lost control everything jealous pissed depressed went far tried hanging myself wanted see dead attempted texted come over know houses friends house barged room able knock chair standing on rope around neck needed kick away chair later told selfish act jealous feels strange thinking back it end back story think need help someone talk to friend feel like lost