husband cheated dumped  years good nowguess im sub yes life sucking hard right now announced last month moved three weeks ago since ive therapy good support system im actually enjoying living own thought okay past week manall think offing myself know is like repeating thought cant get head ive suicidal never attempted feels like legit reason im alone future ahead gonna rough im sure comes next feel romantically unlovable plus whole my husband always loved someone last  years might lie mindfuck strange feeling one hand im curious future im enjoying spend time yet times feel crushing despair rejection seems like one answer started zoloft  mg month ago im sure thats helping causing this definitely feel less anxiousocd since starting it think helping