dont want add pain worldbasically m dont want live anymore one would assume guess since im subreddit short version ive onandoff depression suicidal tendencies past  years life hasnt easy either dad severe ptsd physical disabilities mom works double fulltime job get watch  youngest siblings pretty much  guess could say family kind dysfunctional oh also homeschooled havent done practically substantive coursework two years now technically graduate high school soon dont think show mom anything put portfolio honestly dont care im tired everything im passionate major career path ive looked im ready college anyway lmao im remarkably talented enjoy doing ive experiences homelife im attractive every instance ive tried making something last boy ended disaster really dont want alive anymore time know fact lot people whod pretty fucked killed myself really dont want add pain world especially dont want burden little brothers sisters that time would tear apart lot see give throw life away like inevitably will dont know would hurt worse