broke recently together almost half life always withdrawn introverted person lost entire social network years also leaving me one left still feelings person feels distant cold moment know handle emotional mess strong enough let go time want bother way happiness really want see happy seeing happy without breaks heart one left talk this feel like part amputated never unhappy life social person could prevent this really wish never born would never met would suffer endure me least happy never forgive awkward idiot sitting alone home prefer nothing fear trust new people sleept eaten properly since then hate myselfi wish could disappear without explanationi know ever move oni forever alone sitting front desk scrolling internet want die wish never born