dreams dead whats pointall life ive wanted children ive never sure anything else want big family least four kids grandkids greatgrandkids works things ive known ive dreamed whole life husband trying  months temping charting ive discovered im basically infertile unlikely kids without medical intervention im  convinced cannot conceive naturally even could would take long timeline would ruined beyond repair cant afford fertility treatments options cant wait afford it ill unlikely kids want early enough even get see grandkids grow up much less greatgrandkids never one thing ive dreamed entire life chance broken body blew it gotten better job earlier on id able afford something like this qualify aid insurance cover enough us afford this even waited requisite  year im sol thought two kids instead four makes cry thought first child  makes cry even want try ill never see dreams come true point living id rather die adjust dream go grave telling this fine fine itll never fine dreams died like soul chance successful resuscitation