 feels like ive lived long lifelife flies better enjoy lasts etc statements born peoples inability comprehend like hate life really mean hate cannot say close worthwhile long level fatigue burnout things imagine old man  years have cannot fucking another year let alone  so theyll say parts life distant memory thus feel like flew by ill remember due constant panic pain feel every moment brain absolutely throttled fog confusion lucidity enemy may well even person times experiencing it need bad cant anymore couldnt  years ago time gotten worse cant