im  life keeps repeating im done want dieim sitting car condo complex used live fiance kicked today want die way around ive failed relationships failed jobs ive poor whole life messed family tired cannot take anymore first time life lived chittum italy want die nothing live ive lost everything ive never seem learn lesson fall back patterns routines cant it cant anymore final straw im homeless money carry want die nobody convince anything reality better im nothing ive nothing  years life want nothing never wake again