so gave meim extremely extremely down lot things turn wanted it im feeling new sense loneliness nothing run find escape lost sense self people used care stopped caring same like im liability friend family help one mostly absent always trying give hope ideal future one always finds way bring annoy ignorance negativity im feeling suicidal huge faith commit redflag really frustrating im campus anymore transferred schools saw cousin really felt me etc theres lot shutting history weak weak tired ive miserable long boyfriend makes little better hes super patient emotions want way all