im much debtfirst thing first im little drunk need help depressed moment went holiday spent much money try keep happy im huge debt loan girlfriend  car two small loans used help earlier life come conclusion way much debt way kill myself way pay loans plus rent pay girlfriend back im sure do turned drinking im scared girlfriend gets home itll push turn redflag also car registration pay next week dont pay back wont able get work dont know im scared someone give advice please ive asked everyone help pay things dont money spare im worried happen cant pay everything back please help ive come terms redflag best way even though know itll effect everyone love ive talked friends family depression feels like dont understand think im overreacting