know anymore advice would appreciatedi psychotic depression feel like im spiraling special type insanity redflag seems like logical option me though know best option everyone else around me im daily pot smoker know probably making everything worse long run thing makes feel truly alive content ive tried taking break months found still feel depressed bored bit stable im several types medication feel like working anymore ive rope sitting closet case felt like really needed kill myself feel like stupid want hurt people around me relationships falling apart feel hopeless world future know good life thoughts head torment me ive hospitalized confessed therapist suicidal feeling really want go back think help really know myself one talk to would really appreciate advice feel lost alone