fuck dude took two aps year psych world want go college either forensic psych emergency medicine ap psych huge desire me got  them tried hard too went back person state allowed it twice week starting may studied made sit get shit done still failed lot going guess preoccupied mind really expected myself straight student varsity co captain club president part time vet assistant really fucking disappointed myself depression low recently fathers illnesses relatives trying literally sell house without permission anything going make much worse prozac too cannot go back doctors ask increase switch antidepressants copay would add cannot really afford visits right now prozac literal jack shit never felt low myself going act anything really horrible thoughts genuinely know ill ever get headanyways thanks listening rant good night failed ap exams