reddit know much takei nowhere else go one else turn right now im diagnosed bipolar type ii meds conflict pain medication take able get bed put bluntly cant cope anymore chronic pain syndrome neurological shit going on im pain constantly even though im high doses painkillers cant get job bad health im benefits im uk us equivalent would social security im pretty sure government kick condition recognised worthy stopping working im  nearly  still live family family meaning mum stepdad grandmother shit say reddit literally avoid talking me conversation mum far stepdad grandmother overbearing aunt visits every day goes ignore me point theyll leave room walk in good friend lives end country might moving back europe done education im good anything cant afford get equipment really want to sit room own silence either watching shit tv playing video games time ive tried everything make things better nothing works last time place dark attempted redflag four times many months got sectioned mental health act ended facility six months developed eating disorder want go back that edit got phone call morning tell government overturned decision made keep employment support allowance disability money coming go back benefit force apply jobs places like building sites im obviously capable job properly reddit seriously give up thought things get worse do do reddit im losing hope