give people advice cant follow years ive extreme perfectionist ive borderline mental breakdowns class could never finish homework as never good enough always strive obtain straight as personalitywise im always striving perfect eyes everyone meet say something semiwrong friend would enter state selfloathing rest day believing relationship must over dont think competently judge based appearance time im convinced look acceptable theres always little voice mind saying one attracted never get girlfriend even though friends tell look good ive always enjoyed drawing im thoroughly discouraged new friends much better am enjoy minipainting too never produce model looks good enough hell months ive painting warhammer havent able paint one im ok with advice dear reader give advice cannot follow yourself cannot listen advice im still dealing issues im experienced subject enough state indisputable fact perfection fucking stupid unobtainable striving bring pain may think youre good enough something look like shit reality fucked illusion great smart beautiful take perfectionist never satisfied himself matter are amazing may doubt yourself know incredible eyes others no matter think great day