think ill kill definitely chanceshi rredflagwatch theres lot going last year much feel want type post could take day basically ive fighting losing battle small victorys helping get worst parts example passed driving theory test two days ago  anyway ill give background help problems around two years ago  got first real relationship girl named abbey  months relationship got really drunk party got really angry told slow bit tried make one friends party needless say work make her remaining months relationship acted extremely distant unloving showered praise around february last year broke her bad good break time extramly sad able calmly talk come undersanding however mother time told disappointed get literally two days said must raised wrong im fucked anyway time got job mcdonalds hated quit got kicked house got forced move back house normal school issues however mind school much rampant suicidal thoughts generally scared future sad life throughout time abbey would message wed talk couple days stopped never really stopped feelings towards talk without feeling like shit ok heres real problem started talking two months ago ended started casual sex weekly know great idea said begging chose date people would ok would stop this one friends asked couple days ago im ok went date none told lied come round went worked here texts tmrw today worked outhttpimgurcomaho read left bit hope gives general gist im trying say honestly never fell love think thats really something know me do