would much easier slip awaythese last months absolute hardest months life went really hard breakup partner cheated me together almost  years getting ready propose aunt killed im left imprint left me mom diagnosed cancer lost many friends breakup feel emotionally exhausted im left dealing trauma sexual assault prevents sleeping night im college feel mounting pressure well classes as really gpa cant really tell anyone everything theres way could trust anyone ever again feel ashamed im gonna lie days great fun even glimpses happiness underneath theres base desire end know underneath theres point continuing friends really know people know cant really help me truly think anyone help anymore im far gone think could ever truly happy again know highest high cant compare lows even bother continuing family devastated friends may feel pain short period time end day fucking hate feeling fucking hate cant wait slip away live anymore would much easier keeping going knowing know day now