done overdosed ending life fuck world everything iti  renting room aunt lives apartment complex put lease get income get income ssd get  month social security ptsd makes unable work car family friends rental history except aunt landlord apartment complex try applying apartment demand rental history means telling landlord apartments live income trying apply apartments elsewhere name trying save car last year  saved aunt knew went rented tv furniture store son  years old income job issues even national guard army quit contract up refuses work aunt knew trying save car went got tv blackmailed buying tv leave knowing arthritis entire body cant walk  miles homeless paid  dollar tv went said fuck  saved   dollars aunt blackmailing savings went bought first car seen dealership turn got scammed engine bad car sold old file lemon law aunt scammed dads car changed leave car instead dad sign telling hospital papers ended getting car gave son tore car up needs  dollars mechanic work done it many cracks holes frame body him barely runs now aunt went got  jetta vw diesel son taking  month give rent putting towards car payment car month car gave him gave mommy aunt dads car still nothing trying apply apartments cant told office income apply apartments want recent landlord use one know getting income either kick sue backpay rent fucked every way go cant leave cant survive streets body arthritis cripples lower back hips knees ankles feet cant get apartment aunt fucking telling landlord income cant get car get enough payment trying save difficult supposed  saved nothing saved aunt blackmailed  saved past  months literally cant take anymore end life good bye cant anymore