im set plan one thingso im set plan im going it im scared im actually looking forward it months ago car accident totaled car got extremely bad concussion moved back home mom little sister im  since longer car ive working mom take care property spend lot time barn around horses problem im allergic horses get excruciating migraine everyday im around barn which almost everyday top insanely bad insomnia nothing  psychiatrists tried worked ive every antidepressant antipsychotic hypnotic think of nothing worked cant sleep cant eat thing ever helped marijuana thats option anymore even little live contemplated ending all ive got plan set issue worried happen cat go hope mom would take care him little sister slightly allergic want miss sad literally cannot go anymore im exhausted wanted alive since 