feel like joke person eternally unwanted switch hating humanity realising im problem im piece shit deserved it it think times meanoffensive used butt joke none undone also never taken back ive said before feel like life inside joke im never going let in on starters im fucking  years old never kissed believe called mommy issues ever friends used avoid problems ive always painful people pleaser or pushed away truth im fucking garbage put make people feel better compare me fucking great well finally time throw trash  trash would otherwise ever amount getting raped 