trouble expressing feel might little confusing  tired tired existence tired living tired feeling way do like feeling cannot describe go away matter what everyday seems get worse seriously like ever get better  years ago type look forward future one dreamed going college great things life exact opposite see future anymore barely graduated high school even want anything want wake tomorrow want continue living want go work want go college anymore want anymore feeling talk gets irritated go away bothers cannot seem explain feels feel empty idk even know world see purpose here know see making change leaving mark world me come world feel like everything would much better left would longer carry feeling around cannot even talk family tendency invalidating feelings making feel like crazy feeling way do wish feeling went away feeling seem go away