everyday waiting life endhi all feel like need get chest otherwise heart explode ever since remember wanted life find someone would love me im  ive never ever loved anyone love feeling never reciprocated thought would come time never happened makes depressed cant breath literally force get everyday go another day somewhere back head hoped miracle would happen would find someone cant take anymore ive lost much time theres many things ive never done never late feel like even meet someone would leave asap alone long fucked up started cutting ashamed it promised would cut one thighs nobody would ever know every time look bruises reminds fucked life is enough doesnt help anymore want die everyday hope over death would salvation feel like dont even deserve im punished am wish could kill myself cant even properly