feel worthless ugly unlovable cant fucking take anymorei friends nobody understands mom blames everything happened feel empty inside absolutely one support outside therapy lonely time stuck thoughts myself pain freaking hard cope everyday im saying want crutch want support it nobody wants around fucking depression matter much reach try converse others feel like losing mind loneliness crippling eating away every day seriously struggling feels like im fighting  battles one im verge giving surrendering tons times past months feel sad alone lonely fucking tired living everlasting pain