circling draini  year old male lately things feeling worse every day feel lonely desperate even single friend enjoys company friends known since school days consistently forgotten organising events little sub groups dont fit any also relised one ever initiate conversations even always ina rush end it left feeling increasingly worthless unwanted ans forgotten boyfriend year good guy talked every day however problems didnt feel unloved didnt necessarily feel loved argued always felt pressure keep happy me stress got better broke him honestly thought would relieved free me wasnt left absolutely heartbroken dont regret breakup think things would gotten worse hurt made really affected me wanted keep life hoped could end friends doesnt want see anymorem understandably course feel like fool letting go real friend had person wanted spend time me work fairly dead end job dont enjoy doesnt pay particularly well often feel taken advantage of feel like cant anything else reddit would call starbucks degree real skills experience limited line work progression even leave would know dobecause dream jobs nothing really interests anymore hobbies everything makes bored feel like im end rope loneliness crippling every time meet someone new get left disappointed took month work go vacatiom miserable whole time could think noone share with got married wouldnt able best man noone would ever ask me first would wish plane would fall sky kill car would hit crossing street lately ive fantasising hanging myself jumping height overdosing still feel like would never actually it thoughts come every day die people would get quickly id forgotten im tired let down im tired crap human maybe articulate interesting fun people would want around me trouble talking people nothing say im shy new people mostly im boring couldnt name anythjng interesting me life far meant nothing im drive cant left disappointed again want gone