lost love lifemy husband  years been together  texted told finished paperwork divorce me know do love anything whole world spent last two years trying hard give relationship another chance give another chance know anymore moved america europe him left whole life there family friends him many times feel like anything life im afraid dying look forward feel pain anymore know still love much do feel like lost him lost much else too lost dreams life many times feel like want am time place world want be really sad im  twenties disappointment