cannot stand existing always problems depression since young mental state bad amp want bother anyone motivation goals anything family loves much amp currently living bf wich love much pets feel horrible every day hate waking every morning go work amp take shit people enough money pay stuff  bf pays mostly everything since quit last jobs since tired sexually harrased paid good stayed  years hate looking mirror cry hate body hate skin hate nice people treating like shit noticing even there hate pushing better yeah sorry random rant wanting people know exist even this going enjoy last day spend bf gets home work tomorrow hang room  life get better going end tomorrow