goodbye familyim writing answer committed redflag family one would question them want sympathy im trying attention seeking stop reading stop wasting time fifthteen years old want kill myself know questioning would this much life ahead me well ive reached point life get better severely overweight ugly stupid depressed nobody would want deal real me crappy future ahead me im honor student straight asthere goes chance going good college matter anyway could never afford loan even go good school us family ask love much except dad im sick dealing piece shit care booze anything else treats us like crap whenever stand make things worse yeah theres that theres girlfriend probably read last post btw thats got part time job wanted spend time her otherwise deal guilting making monster made promise met kill didnt might gone know im sorry best friend used talk online briefly mentioned stop mentioning killed themselves life know son responsible two deaths but always happy joking around want help know im sad im  im supposed problems bottle emotions this already killed emotionally im disposing corpse feel like useless waste space cant handle life anymore im sorry goodbye