boredom frustrationi longer live anymore past years ive gotten bored living everyday like broken record played fucking repeat im tired it really am everyday wake exact time go school work fucking balls get way tired anything else nothing life enjoyable anymore desire end things grows stronger stronger everyday easy end thing fling building done it days better others sometimes smile laugh within short period time feel dreaded sense boredom again everyday want lock room stay there dont want talk anyone see anyone want curl bed never fucking wake up im tired im tired really dont think left survive anymore think im truly done life thread holding back disappointment id imaging seeing everyone elses eyes shouldnt even complaining anyways born loving family parents always nice me treats much love friends forever grateful for enough anymore might make sound greedy feel greedy needy time also weird blob behind fucking brain haunting everyday screeching want fucking shot head really dont know anymore maybe build courage actually might pussy go fucking cycle again wish something bad happen world would relieve responsibility