going focused something cannot focus anything yeah  now feel like losing mind feel empty time eat much buy stuff going crazy cannot think anymore cannot concentrate memory working body used be hate myself constantly look mirror judge way look try diet everyday soon break down hungry thirsty sweet taste food main thing mind time fill feel down eatbut feel worst gain fat hate morewhen sit groups understand going on ask questions ppl say talk much say anything one notices me always one out one ignored weird crazy psychopath one call psycho joke funny anymore yeah get hyper energetic sometimes know deal energies somehow feel empty guess do eatwhat wrong mewhy like thisi keep thinking days  yo happy hopeful parents young everything everyone happier today mostly sadness tired thoughts feelingsi want sleep wake upi want shot make mind quitei want want sorry vent know post guess cannot keep feelings anymore