im slowly pushing everyone away im giving upthis like second post reddit believe anyone actually see even give crap  mum left  siblings  brothers  sisters im second youngest left father cheated many women knew abusive drug addicted alcholic left regardless saw time time earliest memory think mum dad arguing im  longer live dad mum back full time damage already done ive self harming  months think depression anxiety cant control anger possibly ptsd anger gotten lot trouble past still does believe reason friends hang theyre scared me little sister who recently came gay told wanted tell that gay lot sooner kept thinking back stupid gay joke made anyone got far thanks guess anyone one wants hear dm whatever written mobile sorry mistakes whatever bye