feel like end miserymy mind fuzzy today think ending struggle draining mentally physically exhausting feel unloved unwanted unappreciated hear son fathers day dad lectured finally got frustrated left cant people life see hard lifes struggles me always tried good guy person always right thing good job decent home car stress coming angles time even day meant relaxation turns criticized things years even decades ago laid bed last night discreetly sulking way sleep wake go back old daily grind nothing look forward get home probably expected cook dinner clean afterwards despite fact mind elsewhere thinking might need find secluded spot get nice new blade cut wrists bleed out sure leave cell phone behind walk whereever decide deed cant track cars gps find me maybe schedule note family friends get missingbut dead already faults dark place life never seems go away time think feel lower life find feeling even worse before wish sickness anyone want pain stop never stops cant talk anyone close get tossed damn psych ward  days week tell good go again sorry