writing feels wrong necessaryim  male compare others constantly cant stop truly need friends  close ones my gf counts stupid ass self still wants even though reality dont want friends tire out im disgusted culture live north east minneapolis disgusted vain people including myself nothing feels real here dont feel real hard living knowing im mediocre human almost every aspect dont understand people cant stand social media want out theres really easy format layout order person people interested and ive used life doesnt feel authentic lie want out feel alone way think need advice literally depressed past  years