im hiding eating disorder boyfriendi made account boyfriend knows personal one anyways im  years old ive issues body ever since  suicidal felt like control whats going life time chose could control anything body fast metabolism already would eat usually ate sometimes more throw food up always count eat example im eating pizza count many olives corns slice pizza eat has take forever eating never eat front people find weirdest excuses eat boyfriend person knows eating disorder stopped smoking hopes stop purging hes happy were clean bad habits since april truth still suffering ed im afraid telling truth know tell him hell start smoking fault and know cant get rid ed easily thank whoever replies