ive reached breaking point im sure ill eventually kill myselfcontext im  year old trans girl hates life trans extremely conservative transphobic country fucking sucks endure male puberty affected low chances passing puberty im even scared might even able afford surgeries hrt everything expensive trans costly might stuck like guy rest life feel depressed feel trans take parts life never get back like normal female teenage years ill never those never get back cant cut anymore might end cutting open vein lose control also feel like im complete utter failure even deserve live maybe kill get home school