many years sadnessi sexually assaulted two weeks th birthday guy high school year me spring formal event raped limo dance surrounded friends i cringe calling friends time life were proclaimed christians nonetheless passed back seat section limo monster raped glass bottle sleep drinking alcohol probably rd time life came feeling bottle cap ripping insides startled mortified finding strength kick me remember lot happened remainder night remember kicked people limo took notice something happening someone got driver pull guy raped fled friends tried running confront told stereotypical predator line tell anyone ill fucking kill you memories night remember waking blood bedsheets next morning result mutilating me terrified planned pretend like nothing happened ashamed embarrassed violated distraught next monday school felt like everyone knew least heard version happened spread story around school asked rape bottle relentless bullying harassment received peers broke me everyday went school felt unsafe targeted received death threats several male students disgusting assaulted deserved die child robbed innocence ive never recovered doubt ever will recently learned married newborn baby girl gets move live life without repercussions im lucky get day without selfharm  years grief pain isolation cant anymore want live tainted life