feeling worthless i feel worthless ive continuously sad past  months theres days im ehhh days feels like im carrying weight shoulders started self harming december started eating disorder again life going downhill feel worthless sad feel like one loves cares hook many guys try fill void one wanting every time feel worst dont feel like anymore im attractive dont special talents people hate me people slut shame me people talk shit im saying care shit talking lot days gets days idk ive suicidal thoughts past month ive obsession gore death going way look liveleak death bestgore cant go im living now horrible bleak nothing makes happy anymore besides spending money think majority people enjoy that sad age  feel like this time enjoying high school junior year looking forward college apps whatever want commit plan cousins wedding end february want see least marry ill myself purpose im waste space waste resources someone else could have wish could press end button something