need somebody vent heartbreakthis throwaway obvious reasons couple months ago hurt somebody dear me person suicidal depression low self esteem time made mistake finally gained trust built stable relationship them ruin all couldve happy together ruined it gaining trust took hard work many ups downs ruined everything became worse anything ive ever experienced them heartache lasted months time believe ive developed anxiety depression though guess cant sure know ive mentle breakdowns hate much point feel like dying sometimes recently theyve decided heartache worth found someone replace me also told theyre fully yet decided deserved replaced owe help move me since fault tried best help replaced like much handle ended abandoning instead never done it theyll harder time without theres fair possibility theyll kill themself decided leave life guilt uncertainty much handle ive found crying many times one day keep track now ive tried reaching want nothing told cant promise theyll ok also want life anymore know anymore move on know talk need help pain much