military redflag need helpso ive usaf  years say goodbye countless times time different met someone made happy every time sawheard made happiest guy ever im going typical airman marries like her got orders korea wanted enjoy much possible left want love cant ive say goodbye friends family countless times hurts much hate military much drink ton everyday wish could die cause amount nothing cant love anyone move place place make friends moment nothing ever last served country end day im another body want passively die dont want commit redflag cause dont want go hell from believe want die honorably ive thought redflag countless times us military isnt seems im excellent janitor outside job skills pls help