im sadguys every day same im senior high school literally everything outside life looks great hate it times im happy day im joking best friend school talking boyfriend night latter always ends ruining already mundane day gosh know hes wrong talking hearing misunderstand reminds alone am love much hes literally killing semblance peace may day cant look forward future think dying every day escape this redflag never leaves mind days everything going get harder im tired crying alone bed every night always same heart consistently slowly build back day always breaks night ups downs killing me im waiting day buy gun point  long years get through