literally cant exist even another day nothing takes away emptiness feel like dont know live exist function like everyone else seems to everyone seems able look past bad lives move on cant guess im weak lazy stupid need others badly need pain go away nothing try make feel alive works even go therapy im still better dont want cause everyone life pain cant keep existing fucking draining painful feel bad hurting them people know would able move on significant could easily find someone else wonderful person loved ones never understand im dead anyway thats reality it ive like almost whole life worse lately cant handle anymore people might try feed bullshit can im strong smart sorry stereotypically suicidal