college going happen ive made decisioni fucked bad fault im going college get stay home go back community college spare money goes bills mom cant pay food get stay miles civilization people might want spend time with make friends anyway since im socially broken cant form intelligent conversation fuck even sentences around people last thing look forward to left entire world give hope maybe things start looking soon happening me im going trapped going way always been well know what im fucking going take it im going live like anymore know when ive decided im committing redflag soon time suits it