want die painlessly possiblei planning take massive overdose prescription pain killers already large stash assorted anti depresetnts fair pain killers obvious would able cause lot harm myself main reason havent taken overdose yet dont want fuck up last thing want take medication cause irreversible damage live long painfull life dissabled person simply want take large overdose bed listen music slip away reletivly pain free ampxb im currently looking reddit comunity something simmilar could find cocktail drugs would man size fittness general health would cause slip coma heart stop beating would cause massive internal bleeding would slowly kill hours days