im transyeah im trans trans guy specifically lot gonna understand heck im going right now whatever heres thoughts rolling around head lately  im freak nature rest life ill never real man ill take testosterone shots day die unless want get fucked bone densityweird shit happening body surgeries ill frankensteins monster complete scars  pretty much sexless now happened came trans way refuses sex except extremely boring terms week less always top hes always quiet oral sex nothing else  mins tops whole act foreplay kisses noseducing kisses little bit goes straight the goods every time try initiate i stoppedoh around  months ago rejects me know sting rejection im sure hurts  waslast night thinking redflag really help cry little tiny bit silently unfortunately sleep bed mustve heard breath hitch it am huffed ugh really cant go sleep cant stop well talk morningugh yeah happened im reminded every day im man feel like am disgusting things body does back occasionally sore always wearing binder im pretty sick dealing my so im gonna buy another bed put different room cry fucking peace think lot evenings redflag would it would miss i used think   would buti even know anymore dad would miss me brother sister mom though hah hates me think every day male get drive away partner disgusted becomes hes straight thing really hits easy would be almost easy likenot belittle anyone here easy way out believe afterlife imagine would like going sleep never waking up nothing worry anything anymorewouldnt get told goddamn partner parents everyone why eager start testosterone whats rushsomething words whats rush bother much im holding back tears right thinking words whats rush whats rush one understands days want toi get damn angry want rip stupid meatsack off something know lemme tell reddit sheer anger willpower could change stuff would problem days im angry enough feel like could punch brick wall sheer force pissedoffness could go many brokenhearted people left behind reddit days feel hopeful days want go fight good fight struggle life go things do days want freaking give up seriously thoughchrist thought partner would comfort something reaction get basically stfu im trying sleep damn idea thought me kinda hit little hard ya know reddit yeah hes acting like nothing happened fine