cant take anymoreim sick all constant cycle feeling happy short fall back thinking theres nothing worth living for confused life everything ive lived point feels meaningless distant me parents friends bright future keep catching wishing would end life hard man think want go anymore cant find guts end it feel like fucking coward thinking easy way out able it add constant paranoia closest me thinking secretly hate me feel mind slowly going insane all cant even cry out bottle keep in gives constant sinking feeling deep inside want end want peace reason live