feel like failed lifeevery aspect life feels like failure social life go dead end customer service job  days week  year old loser virgin never even held females hand accepted always alone almost cope fact one feel sort attraction towards degree accounting supposed good degree never single job joke every job dead end zero opportunity growth perform tasks meaningless busywork current job good company work position customer service rep dead end worthless position company try try apply job even closely related accounting company move up every time get rejected think dying every day failed socially career wise always thought degree specially accounting would net least middle class paying job guess not everyone team dropped college never even went it feel like clown even attend university for want worthless existence end