think grandmother purposely wants diagnosed mental disorder stop entering military currently  years old always aspirations join military make career it everyone family mother father aunts uncles etc board this except grandmother context im extremely close grandma more mother always supported everything ive except this ive dreams since least   back think must thought oh little boy wants army man still want join military ive even talking recruiters think worried heres part cant wrap head around last two years claiming several undiagnosed mental disorders disabilities family friends even school counselor dean adhd autism even bipolar disorder things claims have none even show symptoms know adamant mentally unwell made take atleast dozen online tests forms clinics doctors office around country try get diagnosed something may overthinking situation genuinely believe im diagnosed something eligible join military usually bother much fact extremely close grandma purposely would ruin relationship instantly last months eating inside generally know think thoughts