telling parents im suicidalhi f here want die  else would here burst tears sports practice theres voice head constantly harassing me fantasize death would affect others every day want people miss me want everybody realize much or little meant them know isnt healthy normal im seeing therapist now neat parents brought therapy request didnt tell for dont want give burden dont want explain feel bad them parents lead busy stressful lives is work law tiring field in family dog sick lethargic right now theyre redoing house make lot decisions theres much stuff plates right now dont want distract add worry about dont want break moms heart ive told felt like want end life quickly took back saying would never hyperbolic months ago getting worse sometimes really think it ideas like hanging basketball hoop structure school tying feet heavy concrete block rock drown pool pop head often im starting get scared really someday gets overwhelming sometimes school spend lunch period crying used blame dumb angsty teenager hurts lot now told therapist my first time going two days ago listened nice thing see like month since schedule busy got worse talked kinda sucks wait may discuss more meeting psychologist medicine im kinda worried about dont want scary side effects knows maybe im dramatic dont really need it dont want tell friends im sure lot deal lives dont want scare away like therapy anyways theyre bound law tell anybody dont know do dont feel good