im ready plan redflagimagine chronically ill slowly killing you imagine active person young s sick hospitals wheelchair imagine dislocating  times day thats tip iceberg pain wise like youre ripped apart crushed time im done things keep happening things keep happening fears theres nothing death black leaving family friends dont want hurt anyone many illnesses diagnosed ptsd  times yeah things tip breaking point ive tried staying strong want believe god dont want nothing tomorrow makeup last time tomorrow ill say goodbye parents grandpa tomorrow ill give one last good memory me ill leave court documents mom take lawsuit company caused major car accident resulting airlifted ill call friends siblings ill finish hard drive send man groomed took family  body still damaged mind forever ill write notes mother taking people civil criminal courts tonight ill type will saturday night ill overdose somewhere loved ones wont see associate dying im done im done theres one wish family okay black something something real want watch loved ones dont want die wanted live life living want smell flowers hike again dance again want go gorge wanted live bad help people cant anymore cant