suicidal long distance partnermy boyfriend lives north england live south hes brilliant person genuinely love him great sense humour outward confidence hes great studies landed part time jobs too im really proud him ampxb unfortunately raped systematically abused child hes killed someone know accept love attempted redflag before nowadays uses alcohol cigs cocaine mdma weed whatever else get hands cope still lapses dark weeks says feels ready kill himself hes written letter recently hes started cutting though know badly every time goes dark time feel get closer closer losing him also suicidal reasons goes im going give too knows this ampxb ive got direct emergency number towns services hes promised call say goodbye anything im worried eating know talk it talk things me know do anyone help would really grateful ampxb