losing hope fasti thought abuse would end thought pain would end moved course didnt feel like im walking fucking empty sack useless flesh would give anything give life anyone deserve die sure fuck deserve live hate im wasting it job im school make want fucking kill less medication fucked brain forever never helped doctor hospital last year trying kill myself im barely better now go class go work come home sleep im depressed anything else talking people chore barely eat love father thinks im fine heart tell im miserable everything hes done me hate like this im waste eyes hate it