think want keep goinglife works mysterious ways everything going amazingly well even think looking could go wrong future set happy  weeks came crumbling down watch life fall apart control it helpless im hopeless now grandfather died girlfriend broke me job getting worse family still treats like shit knocked like realized ive lost sense am like living anymore im lost think going get better im waste space hope anymorei dont feel like anything dont feel like living anymore think peaceful would dead worry anything anymore cause anybody troublei find crying sleep every night fun