redflags become question when ifi know anymore ive suicidal past weeks keep alternating fighting thoughts succumbing darkness past year ive gotten car crash totaled car broke boyfriend  years lost cat lost coworker work full time job part time job im full time graduate student sleeping well im slipping back eating disorder im starting get paranoid everyone around me many friends feel like depression making burden ones have im antidepressant seem working more psychiatrist taking forever get back me im making wait finish school year part time job ironically im studying mental health counselor anything hurt clients come may th theres nothing holding back anymore