michael moores mailing list mailinglistmichaelmoorecom way telluride way back world 82902 dear friends go turn computer forgotten onoff switch laptop three years havent turned past two months look left side feel around back find right feel like idiot screen reads fatal error offers save whatever typed last june 21st weeks mother died hit ctlaltdel gone gone gone like long sad summer frozen nothing seemingly matters everything matters ever die pain stop got morning fly colorado telluride film festival screening film tomorrow night first time shown united states mother get see new film always proud everything cheering every day day memory begins shown early cut film friends last winter parents living room mom would come room catching scene saying boy thats something isnt dont feel right right avoided people past two months cant conceive mind face crowd strangers matter supportive appreciative may everyone says good get back work good busy take mind sadness aware really might need way around familys insistence tried going tv weeks ago talk corporate crooks roaming great land decided give try gave best shot ended feeling empty alone agreed go crossfire donahue thank god guy condition would one stupid cable news shouting matches three rightwingnuts one hear wants hear whats said agreed terms bob novak asked first question arent true motives destroy capitalism make america socialist country sat moment didnt respond thought would take microphone leave needs fs dad studio looked smiled camera said yes bob exactly intend considering people bought book nonfiction book america year guess means majority americans agree point look bob cause going seize money first asked studio audience dc show hands agreed later told numerous hands shot air much chagrin stunned bob novak also added thought pope onto something said capitalism sin dad liked sweet strong smart man loved drive back home took spin michigan state campus told come world war ii inquire going college thought best return assembly line secure job years war serving marines going counted toward seniority worked spark plug oil filter assembly line 33 years provided mom us kids gave us love course mattered dad took airport morning remarking way much mom would enjoyed simple trip across town bishop airport happy would knowing heading new journey fortunate life thought came new york screening roger new york film festival 1989 got introduce aunt sat front balcony mom aunt lois stood took long lincoln center bow stood stage felt deserved every bit applause bittersweet memory ive found nyff selection committee year afraid show new film politics told populist new elite sit judgment art dont want help platform mike person close committee tells one even said know film going popular dont personally want contribute popularity decided bowling columbine cannes prizewinner knighted chicago tribune one effective politicalpolemical films ever film chosen every single film festival around world fall film must shown lincoln center six blocks edit room made 77 blocks north ground zero ive gone far time cut close bone stuck lens doesnt belong right straight heart america master victim ultraviolence sad see place always remember mother taking bow cowering whims neos like counterparts hollywood preside demolition great art form dad drops goes park shortterm lot comes inside airport personnel taking everything suitcase inspection dont ask see print film thing might poised real damage right people course dad stop short metal detectors next round inspectors anxious look smelly feet hug kisses trying hard hard break middle airport tells worry tell ill call detroit changing planes go security taken aside searched look back see still standing watching dad im plane im thirsty took water bottle bag packed morning bottle halfdrank sitting untouched untouched bag since stuck night rush mom hospital bottle still overnight bag put tshirt sweatpants ones night day sat mothers side hospital struggled live holding hand holding head trying comfort strands hair sweater see stains tears mucus ran uncontrollably face onto sweater doctor said 80 chance making hour died another doctor said chances 1 100 good enough one one hundred ive odds dont let die please everything dont let die priest came another priest came priests left dad asked us three kids three grandkids join hands say goodbyes mom say whatever wanted meant us sorry complete paragraph right cant see screen tearsmaybe someday night rushed hospital little surprise planned brought copy new movie going show end credits would roll would get see seen end work name along dads list creditsand real credit ever mattered without would life gave way raised privilege never cease thankful never got show movie night mike called porch pitch voice never heard get father dont feel good without warning dying within 48 hours would gone im walking detroit airport gate 75 flight denver hear someone say ok mr stuckup walk right turn see one anchors local tv station flint apologize sunglasses crying since left dad flint airport explain starts get tears eyes mom died october says realize pain feels solitary truthfully shared experience amongst us one immune loss instead taking time tell rough asks dad get flowers others sent gives number says call anytime feel need talk moment remember told mother also died year think man get mike alone ask think lot says things wont see two children grow believe heart right right see call flight rush payphone call dad see got home ok tells left short term lot got talking person tollbooth told mother getting cancer caring said bill hospital came 60000 says astonishment wont able pay makes six dollars hour health insurance gave tip along toll gave tollbooth worker tip well person could father mother michael moore mikemichaelmoorecom httpwwwmichaelmoorecom ps thank sent condolences contributed local poverty program mothers name moved generosity words love kindness never forgotten wish unsubscribed mailing 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