user7gvcceaschallengecc httpnymagcomnewsfeatures39319 everybody sucks gawker rage creative underclass vanessa grigoriadis risk sounding like wounded oldmedia journalist let share story experience mediagossip blog gawkercom like journalists cover stylish topics new york read almost every day five years addition recently finding attacks female journalist friendsone described slutty increasingly sundamaged another variously called tardblogger specialblogger developmentallydisabledbloggeras well friends peppy little sister put wanting write selfactualizing screenplay book proposal whatever woke day wedding find gawker written prize said website annoying romance weeks new york times vows column goes following couple ill bet guess newly merged partnership seems last names composed many syllables well alma mater wesleyan place fell love burning man mothers occupations artists husbands employer david lachapellein short quirky graphed points lifeadded unredeemably idiotic persona lesson least talking times vows column dangerous act amour propre gawkers commenters unpaid vigilantes taking increasingly prominent role site heaved insults way grigoriadis writes new york magazine last article entitled celebrity journalist kind work newfound fame comes times wedding announcement shes fast track teaching class learning annex sorry im obsessed two last names alone nine vowels cant see painful hyphenated named children anyone know please offer stories perhaps trip nepal internship cindy sherman need two easy targets made cmon wesleyan lachapelle immigrant artist parents two people could painful immigrant artist parentshouse painters ridiculous perhaps little contemplating nervously got call new motherinlaw received news way google alert sons name mortified ipissed highminded citizen journalism seems also involve insulting peoples ethnic backgrounds felt terrible dragging family foul bloggy sewer gawker one increasingly accepted normal part participating city media blog read vast majority colleagues particularly younger ones powerful weapon exists working world blog unintelligible except certain media class types new york bitches diminish impact group like journalists tend defeatist attitude gawker dismissing mystery science theater 3000 journalism accepting vague putdowns principle press good press arent lots news outlets cover minutiae lives happy smidge attention desperate pickups stories increasingly essential getting work read prospect high probability revenge makes one think twice retaliation plus pansies get upset gawker real journalist considers pansy cost way thinking cost high getting mocked wedding day nearly five years ago december 2002 gawker made debut leadership nick denton complicated owner blog network gawker media elizabeth spiers 25yearold banker turned blogger fragile person displayed streak dark cunning page didnt exactly invent blog tone used gawker became important stylistic influence emerging field blogging turned de facto voice blogs today spierss aegis gawker fun inside look media fishbowl woman indeed snarky also seemed genuinely enjoy journalism journalistsspiers gawker themand took delight putting sort industry fanzine yearbook rewarded fawning newspaper articles casting new dorothy parker ironically enough spiers craved job magazine soon left position new york magazine two subsequent gawker editors jesse oxfeld jessica coen followed past year enticed writers credentials extended oldmedia publication source hilarity gawker offices beneath veneer selfdeprecation core belief bloggers cuttingedge journaliststhe new antimedia form lent perfectly capturing current ethos young new york overwhelmingly tipped toward anger envy resentment control culture apartments new york city rich rich us work mercy rich people projects says choire sicha gawkers top editor currently employs staff five fulltime writers work publication town work millionaire billionaire ways thats functional works feudal society whats happened related culture dried blown away weimarresurgence baloney hideous rockband scene completely unexciting young artists little juice theyre bleak intellectual kids really dissatisfied young fiction writers sicha handsome exgallerist spends downtime gardening fire island generally warm eventempered last point looks truly disgusted week goes dont want quit job says staring new york way makes sick next gawker filled social craving long known magazine journalists theres audience thats hungry see grasping vainglorious undeservedly successful douchebags asshats gawker parlance put tumbrel taken doom necessarily pleasant job someones got young writers always option making name meting character assassinationsi guilty taking path myselfbut gawkers ad hominem attacks pissonababy humor far outstrip even spy magazines inevitable consequence living todays new york youthful anxiety generational angst completely cheated ownership manhattan sporadically gaining brooklyn queens fostered bloodlust heads douchebags stole city old story haves havenots rewritten gawker finest mechanism date satisfying craving two weeks ago gawker writer josh stein jumped 4yearold son satirist neal pollack calling horror worst providing father cute quips expensive cheese gourmet store pollack responded sending email blast feelings friends gawker got hold email relentlessly dug pollock first saw post heart sank knees says instinctively stupidly sent email never done gave satisfaction knowing theyd gotten thats bullies want really someone pollack knows later sent link blog written woman whod dated stein passed along nice know antagonist emotionally manipulative premature ejaculator serge gainsbourg tattoo back explains pollack whod realized truth bile cultureshame weapon two things true jokes stein look neal pollack would mad create character son develop character prose character open criticism im actually looking forward moment neal pollack old person elijah pollack writing stories nursing home journalists haves havenots theyre feast know dont really belongtheyre fighting table scraps essentiallyand could fall apart moment success solid thats part weird fascination gawker part still works five years onits anxiety class rage new yorks creative underclass gawkers social policing snipetrading sideshow impossible resist kind moral drama deserves success doesnt supplies manhattan version social justice past couple years gawker expanded mission include celebrity gossip sacrificing insider voice process basic level remains blog writer new york competition envy selfhate goes along insecurity position secret hard times journalists fact rise gawker past halfdecade dovetailed general decline newspaper magazine publishing like rest publishing industry seen revenues stagnate advertisers increasingly drawn web made wholesale changes within magazines including web departments years ago considered convenient place dump unimpressive employees led favored website counts 40 employees time 200000ayear printpublishing job attainable goal climbed near top ladder editorial departments disappeared next gawker attracts writers nick denton im guy behind curtain stars gawker sites writers consider gawker mindfuck time rapid deterioration industry young print journalists depressed state industry inability locate challenging work job health insurance although situation may dire might imaginea healthy magazine constantly hunt young writers wants fresh take world found young young writers tend cheapthey need release daily dose schadenfreude offered gawkers gallows humor ritualistic flogging working journalists relentless cataloguing industrys fall eg items like new republic page count watch though reading gawker subtly reinforces misery generate emotional bond soon begin tip inside information misinformation reserved enemies system keeps getting stronger kgb media gossip complex network journalist spies enforcers communicating via email im gawker knocks print box gawker little need usual gossip players like new york observer vastly diminished newsbreaking capacity influence even new york posts page six emasculated murdoch hierarchy jared paul stern scandal panopticon complete peering inbox morning like looking id every journalist city says gawker writer emily gould almost part gawkers business plan ensure young writers attracting attention sniping able leap waiting arms mainstream media become expensive employ one afternoon meet gould tea earlyevening meeting agent appetizers serafina look studious sexy punk rocker 26 dirtyblond hair caught high ponytail shakes back forth like wagging tail speaks tattoos crawling shoulder back exposed today purpleplaid jumper dont even really want writer feel like dont choice says quietly ive ever known ten twenty years ago gould would likely emulated joan didion trying play blog game means win grab attention process summer took time maine went posted picture gawker bathing suit flipping birdat least didnt put ones silverlamikini would little much says laughing even used lot tv spots gawker got badly beat jimmy kimmel told onair subbing larry king want think lifebecause would hate see arriving hell somebody sending text message saying guess whos panicked time shes moved past funny drawls people publishing treat like celebrity job live brooklyn make 55000 year dont feel like celebrity someone comes street says buck kid jimmy kimmels asshole though gould ruthless pointing writers shortcomings gawker sensitive line work maine telling guys met yoga teacher says supposed say work mediagossip website new york shakes head ponytail bops around knows play says could ruining life theres one person certainly nick denton 41 attractive upperclass gay jewish briton owns almost gawker media seems control entire soho street presiding empire apartment around corner gawker offices across street unofficial office balthazar hence faux im name gawkercom darklordbalthazar occasional unpleasantness employees describe less passiveaggressive aggressiveaggressive rampant speculation skyrocketing net worth fuel image fact machiavellian bent denton likes say celebrity lookalike morrissey enormous head hair worn short almost length graying stubble pumpkin head bobs uniform hip business casualcollarless navy tshirt iphone palm clean dark jeans tapering thinsoled shiny black sneakers hes polite quiet relentlessly confident effective poised leader whose true nature amoral recklessness unrufflable libertarian libertine like tina brown intrigued past hes always loved using position playcast social network center next rise nick denton denton fond denying interview requests secretly helping writers formulate stories via offtherecord conversations slagging work later blog calling one journalist profiled reliable journalist turns iraqi exile intelligence saddams hidden nukes moment told would conduct official interview said id continue reporting without perhaps one ive seen express emotion split second furious eyes flicked back forth mine like metronome searching clue planning angle might playing spat denial intensity losing tennis player nick loves press press control says colleague successful former journalist financial times never quite became opinion leader cofounder two web 10 internet companies didnt exactly set silicon valley fire though one nevertheless reported sold 50 million israeli venture capitalists denton jubilant success gawker taking selfimage maverick thumbed nose former industries like journalists trained british system denton believe privacy public figures really anyone else except apparently everyone suspects nicks motives defiantly lower print standards us says sicha ill tell guys gay guys affair hell say write well havent slept guy dont want go court nick communicates things intentionally us continually erode standards according post another gawker writer one day denton harangued gawkers editors mean site minutes later began suggesting ideas posts like whos shorter real life youd think theyd dandruff nick believe quality nick believe respecting peoples idea quality doesnt believe sicha muses believe page views dont know exactly ways gawker antithetical journalistic ethicsits selfreferential judgmental ad hominem resolutely effecting change worldit pushes writers honest way thats always found print publications little repressed id everything else part discourse including exhibition narcissism even gawker office kind journalistic boiler room serve metaphor transparency open anyone see operating behind plateglass window crosby street storefront dentons bloggers onboard mission quite frankly fuck discretion writes moe tkacik former newspaper reporter dentons newest site jezebel discretion didnt figure come 24 years old discretion womens magazine editors persist treating fellow humans like total shit youve spent career trying catch others indiscretions discretion feels little dishonest superior good trick taking one thing journalists worldhonestyfrom setting gawkercom instill fear caught foibles someone would trying usurp industry exactly denton always wanted however buy gawkers tepid new book gawker guide conquering media think find genuine tips none forthcoming days gawker merely flagship property gawker media empire one denton likes compare condast employees started talking blogs magazines company stable magazines fourteen gawker blogs maintain standards stratospherically higher writing quality websites lolcat era displaying wares sites hilarious deadpan names fleshbot porn jalopnik cars gizmodo gadgets kotaku games early name gawker younork half dentons sites modeled gawkers model pairing mannered gossip column industry given city including wonkette dc politics defamer hollywood valleywag silicon valley new excellent jezebel womens magazines fashion denton intermittently involved content gives free rein editors attack anyone theyd like exemployees get pass dentons successful blogs unsurprisingly gizmodo kotaku 11 4 million visits per week use preferred metric benefit higher number two blogs receive 12 5 million page views per week number times visitor clicks blog page page views important advertisers usually pay online ads unit 1000 ad impressions number page views website receives become like points contentdriven internet properties way keep score competitors gawker nearly doubled size last year rate slowed perhaps 30 percent last year site 25 million page views per week years denton told colleagues money made blogs even providing quotation new york times didnt see advantage talking today gawker media approximately 100 employees contractors nick made us join facebook says sicha think came office one day couldnt recognize anybodywhich one websites provide traffic information denton chosen link home page one accuse keeping business transparent least superficially brightly colored traffic graphs provide curious illusion able figure earnings without knowing percentage ad inventory sold across blogs impossible generate backoftheenvelope guess 10 12 million profit annually blogs sell ads industry standard many page views getting thats dentons favorite question ask fellow internet entrepreneurs party next drug use gawker bloggers dentons place one great manhattan apartments party cavernous loft seems decorated titanium suede soho building whose tenants include kelly ripa harvey weinstein sometimes throws open doors everyone town halloween holiday season often plays host select group entrepreneurs writers summer tail end cocktail hour hes cleaning wrappers white castle hamburgers provided hors doeuvre book party rebecca mead new york public library last week gouged catering says pursing lips slightly cheap dentons boyfriend lovely africanamerican artist begins get ready next stop evening goingaway party gawker media managing editor lockhart steele leaving build blog network denton joining angel investment round going lot bloggers boyfriend asks denton nods sighs steeles party dirty bar clinton street white limousine license plate filthyny rolls dozens bloggers spill onto sidewalk surreptitiously drinking beers couple cops begin handing tickets everyone slightly hunted look born spending day computer gun heads bloggers dentons network work severe deadlines imaginable many contracted write twelve posts per day time unbelievably fulfilled bloggers get experience fantastic feeling looking everything world everyone look blog subject object voyeur voyeurant get feeling bloggersif blog wed tell whoare bathroom snorting cocaine adderall adhd drug popular among college kids finals week constant use one ways blogger write much drug ring bunch bloggers one gawker media employee tells cheerily pinched nerves carpal tunnel swollen feetits part dastardly job top level involve editing one post every fifteen minutes nine hours day scanning 500 websites via rss news every halfhour offhours keeping news prepare tomorrow gawkercom editors stand mostly side coolkid clique although may sense outsiders noses pressed glass horrified world new york doesnt quite want members bubble blogs theyre elite especially lots smaller bloggers traffic relies linkwhoring ie gawker editors solicited links smaller sites sicha leans back parked car tanned lean jeans slung low enough reveal waistband underwear talking alex balk former copywriter tweaks dentons desire lowbrow posts generate page views dialoguing character known cock bitterness conceals emo side balks previous blog named line leonard cohen song one gawker media videographer widely known office guy sex afterhours office couch lurches around tight white jeans talking writer elle girl said heard youre crack whore really good bed tells gawker adsales guy snickers town car pulls curb famous young journalist city julia allison dont write dont feed two female bloggers beg stepping allisons way approaches allison denton likes call gawker celebrity like editors gossip publications enjoys thinking starmaker lays claim creating personalities promotes much way new york posts page six always said made paris hilton like paris allison quite complicit starmaking processalthough would never admit would ruin image pretty though looks even better computer screen chooses outfits explicitly cameras look southern deb precisely actress playing southern deba polkadot nanette lepore suit blouse underneath string grandmothers pearls thickly applied lavender lipstick fiveinch white platform shoes im small yappy dog nick finds amusing says allison later deep voice projects across room hes godlike figure center universe says another occasion godfather first started company culture recent georgetown university grad moved new york become candace bushnell allison littleread dating column new yorkand list paramours included former tennessee congressman harold ford jrwhen decided change focus grabbed dentons eye showing one halloween parties bustier made entirely trojan magnum xl condom wrappers developed sophisticated website dated computerscience guy linkwhored gawker daily basis even meant sharing videos white bikini riding horse freelancers like migrant workers publishingwhen heard tom wolfe makes 6 word like whoa says allison figure make marquee name cant replaced soon allison landed column time popular ability get stories linked gawker gawker free advertising time new york dating columnist julia allison tackles ageold dilemma faced men around world trick chick bed jules advice cheesy surround hot ass buy greasy food recommended yelling suck cock next hired star magazine editoratlarge doesnt actually write anything though job go tv pretend works star next gawker made julia allison famous value allison denton titspage views also popularity gawkers commenters largely anonymous readers whose responses gawkers posts included every item page commenters mob sneering tumbrels pass bytheir comments sometimes hilarious always cruel vicious echo chamber gawkers meanness gawker editors let know place introducing commenter executions banned lamest commenters week eg crime certain days comments every single postyet says nothing dentonimpressed microblogging capabilities current silicon valley darling facebook crushing founder young harvard dropout mark zuckerbergwants make spent summer working developers new software tailors gawkers page specific commenter visits fact hed love see site half page taken comments gawker comments long embarrassment frankly represent one strongest aspects site wrote recently gawkers comments reintroduce element anarchy danger otherwise lost site became professional want secrets exposed memos leaked spy photos published arguments fly noah robischon gawkers new managing editor adds immediate plans reward commenters natural way us scout talent wouldnt surprised commenters promoted regularly end paid contributors commenters even close loop last week denton tried get step okay comment someone actually mediabistro party facts please people one course could answer thingthe best could snipe would admit party even cloak ianonymity sneered one success comments even made denton rethink compensation pays bloggers cows pay milk gawker automated message board commenters generating exponentially greater numbers page views click site see reactions comments could dream would editors pay even rates shell recently gawker bloggers paid flat rate 12 per post twelve posts day quarterly bonuses adding bottom line bonuses could used buy equity company took two years vest denton moving payforperformance system always tracked page views individual gawker media writer thinking like stocks portfolio whoever generates page views favorite writer valuable page views drew shouldnt denton pay accordingly balk sites primary troublemaker quickly posted item gawker change slug like rain wedding day except instead rain knives denton wasnt amused item makes argument performance pay even stronger responded posts comments awesomely selfindulgent postof interest mewill struggle get 1000 views new improved pay system balk even buy minute bourbon drip balk gave notice two weeks later denton visionary tech geek surprising would fascinated new applications relentless focus page views may evidence restlessness even existential crisis hes making money really coining knows may reached top rush advertising web tns media intelligence reports showing online advertising 177 percent first half 2007 print tv decline current form going solve publishing crisis online fact even gawkercom become boring denton doesnt get number page views popular sites probably going big web companies anyway well google even though still entertained notion holding onto blogs posterity word started leak talk selling road eventually new york media would like new york film businessthere would still lot work except small independents platforms would owned elsewhere operated office parks san jose california possibly denton holding onto gawker com kind hobby partly fun catalogue decline new york print publishing entire history fall roots journalism undoubtedly enjoys notoriety gawker bringshes running one best circuses city business model business model increasingly media business hard find one maybe new york done media town next could successful new york without becoming douche bag chilly evening september gould went sushi traipsed prince street tight electricblue shirt color fingernail polish white kneehigh boots polished fall season shrinks says spends time talking gawkerits weird cross artist working sweatshop shed said earlier tucked hair behind ears sighed plus gotten much flak past year everyone random people email im bitch cunt family jimmy kimmel calling devilto boyfriend six years broke moving dishes apartment asking write post stevie nicks song obvious everyone affair coworker shot lopsided smile asked felt upcoming changes comments pay gawker cant feelings kind thing said kind like youre jail feelings color paint walls gould published book last spring wasnt sure write another end day ideas book less impact summed two paragraphs widely read blog mostread time day whyd spend two years said delicately picking piece toro theres ways get noticed internet right laughed bitterly theres always tv recently shed bonded julia allisonthe two went psychic staten island together driving mercedes convertible allison borrowed though guy owned didnt really know borrowed booming stereo singing along lyrics princes pussy control psychic told allison real gould road lovebut waste time least decided allison cool like julia keeps enemies close friends closer said gould doesnt even make distinction two insult culture shamelessness crucial attribute part point last week gawkers book party allison appeared particularly revealing top told figure people look cleavage wont listen words winked gould wearing polkadots purpose cavorted outfits photographer slinging arms around allisons boyfriend even though gould sure overdramatically grimace pictures gawkers rules allison seemed winning game still question remained could successful new york without becoming awell douchebag something gould would ponder find article httpwwwnymagcomnewsfeatures39319 wed 06 aug 2008 140220 0100 good article gawker popbitch etc fwd