that gay, because I’m that’s shameful” Sexuality is Beatrice The individual almost like LGBT “There’s repressed communities here and I disassociates sexuality rarely go to them, just as a part of oneself. because I feel like it’s not that much of a big part of me, or at least I want it to be that don’t much of a big part of me” The silent war Beatrice Fear of discrimination “Again you have to keep silent about leads to the what’s going on, like people are concealment of being homophobic to oneself to avoid being you or shaming you or victimised for one’s bullying you or being sexuality. mean to you because of your sexuality, you then can’t really tell anyone because then you might tell someone also who’s the same, like um, it’s like a bit of a silent kind of war” A hidden identity Beatrice Hiding sexual really petrifies me to “It one’s think that if not identity as means of I’m careful, like because avoid being an outcast again I have to be from friends and careful about coming religion. out you know to religious people and stuff, because you might just meet that one nutter, who strongly believes that you being gay is awful and we live in a world where everyone is supposedly accepting to you, so then there’s this sort of shame” Flaunting sexuality Beatrice Outwardly gay as a “They come from a to compensate for really homophobic means to cope with family and then when homophobic family the fact that one’s they get to uni, if they family is are living at uni or unreasonably whatever, then they’re homophobic almost – really, really, really living two lives. outwardly gay, like really outwardly gay, especially at the LGBT community” A sense of Beatrice Being a part of crowd always that “There’s belonging 349-352, kind of gay vibe between that share similar each other and you’re 357-359, traits, experiences and like but ‘whoaaaa’, Mathew thoughts is quite always that kind there’s (303-307); validating of one’s of excitement, like if I Adam (152-154) self-image. There is a see, like if I find another sense of belonging as gay person my age, I
that I’m gay, because that’s shameful” Sexuality is repressed Beatrice “There’s like LGBT communities here and I rarely go to them, just because I feel like it’s not that much of a big part of me, or at least I don’t want it to be that much of a big part of me” The individual almost disassociates sexuality as a part of oneself. The silent war Beatrice “Again you have to keep silent about what’s going on, like people are being homophobic to you or shaming you or bullying you or being mean to you because of your sexuality, you then can’t really tell anyone because then you might tell someone who’s also the same, like um, it’s like a bit of a silent kind of war” Fear of discrimination leads to the concealment of oneself to avoid being victimised for one’s sexuality. A hidden identity Beatrice “It really petrifies me to think that if I’m not careful, like because again I have to be careful about coming out you know to religious people and stuff, because you might just meet that one nutter, who strongly believes that you being gay is awful and we live in a world where everyone is supposedly accepting to you, so then there’s this sort of shame” Hiding one’s sexual identity as means of avoid being an outcast from friends and religion. Flaunting sexuality to compensate for homophobic family Beatrice “They come from a really homophobic family and then when they get to uni, if they are living at uni or whatever, then they’re really, really, really outwardly gay, like really outwardly gay, especially at the LGBT community” Outwardly gay as a means to cope with the fact that one’s family is unreasonably homophobic – almost living two lives. A sense of belonging Beatrice 349-352, 357-359, Mathew (303-307); Adam (152-154) “There’s always that kind of gay vibe between each other and you’re like ‘whoaaaa’, but there’s always that kind of excitement, like if I see, like if I find another gay person my age, I Being a part of crowd that share similar traits, experiences and thoughts is quite validating of one’s self-image. There is a sense of belonging as
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