individual is but tough to live it’s with that” homosexual. Longing to be Natasha The individual wishes “I just hoped that, heterosexual 201-204) hoped and hoped and to be heterosexual in hoped that this was all order to fit in among just a dream, that all the crowd. this conflict that I’m having with myself would just disappear one day and I would suddenly like men again and it didn’t happen, so always been I’ve confused, always I’ve had second thoughts about my sexuality” Homosexuals are a Natasha Homosexuals are “I think they think of us threat to humanity as extra-terrestrials, not regarded as alien, an even different species, infection that will turn they think that we are every individual aliens, that we have just homosexual. come and invaded and we’re gonna suddenly zap people into being gay or lesbian, which is not true” Internalised Natasha Being a homosexual is “I was incredibly homophobia homophobic to myself unaccepted within because of my religion because of religious some religions and and in my religion it’s a, values such rejection became homophobia is not internalised into accepted, you apparently go to hell and so for the first few years of me being aware that I might be gay or I am gay, as the conflict I was going through the first few years, was just me hating myself” Religious values Natasha religion viewed “there were times when One’s generate 148-149) I felt, well what good is sexuality as immoral it being alive, because sabotaging thoughts leading to the going to hell anyway I’m contemplation of and it was that extreme, suicide. how I felt about that’s religion” Culture wise, Natasha Struggles faced with wise, I mean “Cultural heterosexuality is again, being from India, culture as there one’s very, very, very valued. it’s is opposition of any much against, um, gay, sexuality other than being gay or lesbian or heterosexuality. anything other than heterosexual or straight. Um so I, a lot of there’s struggle there cause, um, it’s been around for a long time”
but it’s tough to live with that” individual is homosexual. Longing to be heterosexual Natasha 201-204) “I just hoped that, hoped and hoped and hoped that this was all just a dream, that all this conflict that I’m having with myself would just disappear one day and I would suddenly like men again and it didn’t happen, so I’ve always been confused, I’ve always had second thoughts about my sexuality” The individual wishes to be heterosexual in order to fit in among the crowd. Homosexuals are a threat to humanity Natasha “I think they think of us as extra-terrestrials, not even different species, they think that we are aliens, that we have just come and invaded and we’re gonna suddenly zap people into being gay or lesbian, which is not true” Homosexuals are regarded as alien, an infection that will turn every individual homosexual. Internalised homophobia because of religious values Natasha “I was incredibly homophobic to myself because of my religion and in my religion it’s a, homophobia is not accepted, you apparently go to hell and so for the first few years of me being aware that I might be gay or I am gay, as the conflict I was going through the first few years, was just me hating myself” Being a homosexual is unaccepted within some religions and such rejection became internalised into Religious values generate thoughts Natasha 148-149) “there were times when I felt, well what good is it being alive, because I’m going to hell anyway and it was that extreme, that’s how I felt about religion” One’s religion viewed sexuality as immoral leading to the contemplation of suicide. Culture wise, heterosexuality is valued. Natasha “Cultural wise, I mean again, being from India, it’s very, very, very much against, um, gay, being gay or lesbian or anything other than heterosexual or straight. Um so I, there’s a lot of struggle there cause, um, it’s been around for a long time” Struggles faced with one’s culture as there is opposition of any sexuality other than heterosexuality. sabotaging
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