S hard to judge really I mean sometimes I get really tired and I know It’s don’t whether the meds or not to be honest that’s T Right S A lot of people say the meds are responsible for this, that and the you “oh, other” know say it affects their motivation and true to a certain extent but it they’ll that’s depends on how you apply yourself as well, you know over the years been told I’ve by certain people whether it be doctors, nurses, people like that, that you know it depends on how you treat the medication, you know whether you give into it or whether you fight it you know what I mean T Yeah S Whereas you think, right tired now so go to bed or tired now think I’m I’ll I’m I’ll sod it, going to do something, going to go out or going to do some I’m I’m I’m drawing or whatever you know so a lot of about self-motivation rather than the it’s meds to be honest I think T Yeah, and do you think, I mean, I suppose again be difficult to gauge, do you it’ll think got a better quality of life now than what you had before? you’ve S Well, obviously, because out of hospital now so obviously better I’m it’s T Yeah S But yeah, the meds, I was in the secure centre as well for quite some time T Right S But I know if it was the medication then, I think it was, and I remember don’t can’t exactly what I was on, but I used to have terrible trouble in a morning, if I go didn’t to the toilet straight away, say for instance I lit up a fag, be basically running to I’d the toilet T Yeah S On a number of occasions I basically filled my trousers T Right S Because I got there quick enough and certainly that was a very distressing hadn’t time T Yeah S You know, basically had a shit in a sink once because got undressed in my I’d I’d room you know to go to bed, and nothing on and I thought well I and I I’d can’t … got this overwhelming urge to go to the toilet and I thought I get dressed in can’t
S It’s hard to judge really I mean sometimes I get really tired and I don’t know whether that’s the meds or not to be honest T Right S A lot of people say “oh, the meds are responsible for this, that and the other” you know they’ll say it affects their motivation and that’s true to a certain extent but it depends on how you apply yourself as well, you know over the years I’ve been told by certain people whether it be doctors, nurses, people like that, that you know it depends on how you treat the medication, you know whether you give into it or whether you fight it you know what I mean T Yeah S Whereas you think, right I’m tired now so I’ll go to bed or I’m tired now I’ll think sod it, I’m going to do something, I’m going to go out or I’m going to do some drawing or whatever you know so a lot of it’s about self-motivation rather than the meds to be honest I think T Yeah, and do you think, I mean, I suppose again it’ll be difficult to gauge, do you think you’ve got a better quality of life now than what you had before? S Well, obviously, because I’m out of hospital now so it’s obviously better T Yeah S But yeah, the meds, I was in the secure centre as well for quite some time T Right S But I don’t know if it was the medication then, I think it was, and I can’t remember exactly what I was on, but I used to have terrible trouble in a morning, if I didn’t go to the toilet straight away, say for instance I lit up a fag, I’d be basically running to the toilet T Yeah S On a number of occasions I basically filled my trousers T Right S Because I hadn’t got there quick enough and certainly that was a very distressing time T Yeah S You know, basically I’d had a shit in a sink once because I’d got undressed in my room you know to go to bed, and I’d nothing on and I thought well I can’t … and I got this overwhelming urge to go to the toilet and I thought I can’t get dressed in
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