One day in a bar, sees a man that he saw years ago, a time when Kumiko Tōru was becoming more distant and aloof towards because of her abortion. For little Tōru reason other than a spark of interest, he begins to follow this man to an apartment house. When follows him into the apartment house, the man, out of self-defense, attacks Tōru him with a baseball bat. at first begins to fight the man in counter self-defense. Tōru However, his initial feeling of terror turns into anger, and then close to “something intense Even with the man defenseless and on the ground, cannot stop but hatred.” Tōru to continue beating the man senselessly: seem to were two of me “I couldn’t stop…There now, I realized. I had split in two, but me had lost the power to stop the other me. An this intense chill ran through my This division of the individual suggests that when body.” one part the conscious or the subconscious dominates, core identity is violated. – – one’s When the conscious part of a person dominates, the whole self is not there because it ignores the subconscious; on the other hand, when the subconscious dominates, a dark and violent part of oneself has no way of stopping itself. Loss of self-control appears again when Ushikawa, a sycophant who works for Noboru Wataya, describes how he physically abuses his I got home I family: “‘…when would take it out on my was like a sickness. beat her face out of shape until wife…It I’d you try to stop myself, but I I control couldn’t recognize her…I’d couldn’t. couldn’t This is another example of and admonition against what happens when the myself’’” subconscious dominates a person. A similar feeling is described by May Kasahara, who has a habit of doing reckless things that could be potentially fatal, such as trapping Tōru down the well during one of his meditations. More shocking is when she confesses that she put her hands over her eyes while on a motorcycle, causing an accident boyfriend’s
One day in a bar, Tōru sees a man that he saw years ago, a time when Kumiko was becoming more distant and aloof towards Tōru because of her abortion. For little reason other than a spark of interest, he begins to follow this man to an apartment house. When Tōru follows him into the apartment house, the man, out of self-defense, attacks him with a baseball bat. Tōru at first begins to fight the man in counter self-defense. However, his initial feeling of terror turns into anger, and then “something close to intense hatred.” Even with the man defenseless and on the ground, Tōru cannot stop but to continue beating the man senselessly: “I couldn’t seem to stop…There were two of me now, I realized. I had split in two, but this me had lost the power to stop the other me. An intense chill ran through my body.” This division of the individual suggests that when one part – the conscious or the subconscious – dominates, one’s core identity is violated. When the conscious part of a person dominates, the whole self is not there because it ignores the subconscious; on the other hand, when the subconscious dominates, a dark and violent part of oneself has no way of stopping itself. Loss of self-control appears again when Ushikawa, a sycophant who works for Noboru Wataya, describes how he physically abuses his family: “‘…when I got home I would take it out on my wife…It was like a sickness. I’d beat her face out of shape until you couldn’t recognize her…I’d try to stop myself, but I couldn’t. I couldn’t control myself’’” This is another example of and admonition against what happens when the subconscious dominates a person. A similar feeling is described by May Kasahara, who has a habit of doing reckless things that could be potentially fatal, such as trapping Tōru down the well during one of his meditations. More shocking is when she confesses that she put her hands over her boyfriend’s eyes while on a motorcycle, causing an accident
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