going to puke. It comes up my throat but I hold it. I look around but the nurses are busy. They see me and I speak or throw up all over Georgina. I turn don’t can’t I’ll and rush out the double doors. I find a bin and puke up in there. The air stinks of bin liners and bile. The smell makes it worse and I bring up another mouthful. The black nurse comes out of the delivery room and hands me a towel. worry, I seen older men than you do much ‘Don’t worse.’ She pats my back as I rub the towel over my face. rough. It feels like It’s I’m scraping the top layer of skin off. I clean up, use my tongue to tease out the last lumps of sick and feel a lot better. it all ‘Is gone?’ She asks as I spit the last lumps into the bin. I look at the nurse properly for the first time. got a really dark round face, with black dots all over it. Her nose is flat She’s with huge nostrils that disappear like caves into her skull. old and beautiful and She’s I want her to be my grandmother. She puts a hand on my shoulder and I feel warm through all my body. home and sleep. Georgina and your son need to ‘Go rest.’ She pats me. back in a few hours and bring the whole ‘Come family.’ The sentences wash over me and I get what saying. I look past her at the don’t she’s double doors. got silver and black scrapes across the middle. The They’ve nurse’s words finally hit me. a ‘It’s boy?’ She nods her head. I want to see him again and hold him in my arms. I feel such a pussy puking up. I try to walk past the nurse but she puts out an arm to stop me. been through a lot too. ‘You Go home.’
going to puke. It comes up my throat but I hold it. I look around but the nurses are busy. They don’t see me and I can’t speak or I’ll throw up all over Georgina. I turn and rush out the double doors. I find a bin and puke up in there. The air stinks of bin liners and bile. The smell makes it worse and I bring up another mouthful. The black nurse comes out of the delivery room and hands me a towel. ‘Don’t worry, I seen older men than you do much worse.’ She pats my back as I rub the towel over my face. It’s rough. It feels like I’m scraping the top layer of skin off. I clean up, use my tongue to tease out the last lumps of sick and feel a lot better. ‘Is it all gone?’ She asks as I spit the last lumps into the bin. I look at the nurse properly for the first time. She’s got a really dark round face, with black dots all over it. Her nose is flat with huge nostrils that disappear like caves into her skull. She’s old and beautiful and I want her to be my grandmother. She puts a hand on my shoulder and I feel warm through all my body. ‘Go home and sleep. Georgina and your son need to rest.’ She pats me. ‘Come back in a few hours and bring the whole family.’ The sentences wash over me and I don’t get what she’s saying. I look past her at the double doors. They’ve got silver and black scrapes across the middle. The nurse’s words finally hit me. ‘It’s a boy?’ She nods her head. I want to see him again and hold him in my arms. I feel such a pussy puking up. I try to walk past the nurse but she puts out an arm to stop me. ‘You been through a lot too. Go home.’