Other’s jokes of blackness playing into E’s personal connection with blackness E as different perspective from others A: What kind of, things did they say that you particularly didn’t like? E: [sigh] I think just things like [pause] ooh, erm, you get, erm, just joking around, to the girls and stuff like, ooh, get you’ll E feeling others see black male Black male sexuality as funny sexuality as inherently funny fucked by a big black cock and stuff and like [pause] it’s there’s Stereotypes of black maleness Stereotypes about black maleness as funny no need to say things like that. A: How did it feel to you when that sort of thing got said? E: [sigh] erm, I just [pause] I just see any, any difference don’t E’s experience vs others’ E not seeing why race is so significant perception of race as at odds to others E’s personal understanding of race as different from those around her between [pause] that and, I understand why, a black willy don’t E arguing for normalisation of black maleness is any funnier than a white one. I just, understand [pause] don’t E’s experience vs others’ E as not understanding other’s perception of race as at odds perceptions about race and, and why I think [pause] because I guess, if, you that’s grow up with, a black man [pause] then, not funny, it’s Normality of blackness to E Blackness as normal to E but not but not others others because, no different to, a white dad. it’s Normality of blackness to E Black parenting as normal to E but not others A: Mm. And what did you do in those situations? E: I think [pause] at the time, you would [sigh] laugh because, Pressure to conform to group E feeling a need to conform to group racial perceptions racial perceptions you want to be the only one there like oh, not don’t who’s that’s E not wanting to appear E not wanting to appear different to
Other’s jokes of blackness playing into E’s personal connection with blackness E as different perspective from others A: What kind of, things did they say that you particularly didn’t like? E: [sigh] I think just things like [pause] ooh, erm, you get, erm, E feeling others see black male sexuality as inherently funny just joking around, to the girls and stuff like, ooh, you’ll get Black male sexuality as funny Stereotypes of black maleness as funny fucked by a big black cock and stuff and it’s like [pause] there’s Stereotypes about black maleness no need to say things like that. A: How did it feel to you when that sort of thing got said? E’s experience vs others’ perception of race as at odds E: [sigh] erm, I just [pause] I just don’t see any, any difference E not seeing why race is so significant to others E’s personal understanding of race as different from those around her between [pause] that and, I don’t understand why, a black willy E arguing for normalisation of black maleness E’s experience vs others’ perception of race as at odds is any funnier than a white one. I just, don’t understand [pause] E as not understanding other’s perceptions about race and, and that’s why I think [pause] because I guess, if, you Normality of blackness to E but not others grow up with, a black man [pause] then, it’s not funny, Blackness as normal to E but not others Normality of blackness to E but not others because, it’s no different to, a white dad. Black parenting as normal to E A: Mm. And what did you do in those situations? Pressure to conform to group racial perceptions E: I think [pause] at the time, you would [sigh] laugh because, E feeling a need to conform to group racial perceptions E not wanting to appear you don’t want to be the only one there who’s like oh, that’s not E not wanting to appear different to