我很久以后才意识到，我妈在潜意识里是恨我的，因为她生我的时候经历了人间少有的痛苦，她不肯承认其实她觉得我应该为这非人的痛苦负责。我很心疼她经历的这种近乎活杀的生产过程，但真的无法对此负责。
It took me a long time to realize that my mother hated me subconsciously, because she had experienced little human suffering when she gave birth to me, and she refused to admit that she actually felt responsible for this inhuman suffering. I was very sorry for the near-living production that she had experienced, but I really couldn't be responsible for it.