我特别绝望，星星对鲍的反复无常，恰恰是她这几年情感的反复，她做不到那么坚决的把鲍送上法庭，如果没有这一次大规模的讨论，可能又是她回到鲍身边，甚至这次之后都可能回到他身边。鲍毁掉了她，她只能用爱去合理化这一切。我终于明白房思琪想说什么了，太疼了
I'm particularly desperate that the star's infatuation with Bao, which she's been through for years, and she can't bring Bao to court with such determination. Without this massive discussion, it could be her return to Bao, and even after that. Bao destroyed her, she can only rationalize it with love. It's too painful for me to finally understand what she's trying to say.