"‘my dearest uncle,—i feel that i have brought trouble upon you,     and that if i had acted differently this terrible misfortune might     never have occurred. i cannot, with this thought in my mind, ever     again be happy under your roof, and i feel that i must leave you     forever. do not worry about my future, for that is provided for;     and, above all, do not search for me, for it will be fruitless     labour and an ill-service to me. in life or in death, i am ever     your loving,