"i thought someone led me by the hand and showed me, by the light of a candle, a huge, loathsome insect, which he assured me was that very force, that very almighty, dumb, irresistible power, and laughed at the indignation with which i received this information. in my room they always light the little lamp before my icon for the night; it gives a feeble flicker of light, but it is strong enough to see by dimly, and if you sit just under it you can even read by it. i think it was about twelve or a little past that night. i had not slept a wink, and was lying with my eyes wide open, when suddenly the door opened, and in came rogojin.