you don't grasp it when you're young, and if you're born, obviously as a lot of the population now are, much younger, and haven't really been either touched or involved in a war, it's very difficult, it's something which we've all seen on television, we've all seen it at the films and you tend if you're not careful, to pick up the glamorous side of it, you don't realise i don't think and in fact i keep saying this — i don't think you can ever realise what it must be like to be in a battle until you've actually been there.