lost something and i can't, i can't find it and i'm looking and i'm, and ee, and er, a bit of a noise or anything i'm looking backwards is coming and then i realize he's not there any more to come  and then other days i just feel like i'm dangling in the air and can see the, the ground and i can't touch it with my feet, just somewhere right, right out, it's not real, not real you know and then you go, you get back to with a bump and know that it's real and then it just feels left, nothing else, you can't help yourself in any other way.