later, willow presents the antidote to buffy in a mug and leaves her to drink it as spike delivers a monologue urging her to abandon the life that's grown so hellish for her and choose peace with him. this misfires, convincing buffy to reject the antidote (which she pours unnoticed in the trash) and with it, the 'delusion' of being a vampire slayer. in the hospital, buffy tells the doctor and her parents that she wants to be healthy and rid of thoughts about sunnydale. the doctor tells her that she has to do what is necessary to destroy the elements that draw her back there, like her family and friends, in order to truly be healthy.