"as it will be absolutely true, without a touch of falsehood, i am curious to see what impression it will make upon me myself at the moment when i read it out. this is my ‘last and solemn’ but why need i call it that? there is no question about the truth of it, for it is not worthwhile lying for a fortnight; a fortnight of life is not itself worth having, which is a proof that i write nothing here but pure truth.