i have looked it in the face, in my different way; look it in the face, you, in your different way. marry. provide somebody to take care of you. never mind your having no enjoyment of women's society, nor understanding of it, nor tact for it. find out somebody. find out some respectable woman with a little property somebody in the landlady way, or lodging-letting way and marry her, against a rainy day. that's the kind of thing for you. now think of it, sydney."