you know i can understand now the people that haven't got the truth, when one of the, the mate, when the mate dies whether a woman or a, or a, or a husband dies, they want to die, they don't want to live because i felt that, i felt that, what's there, what's there me left to live, my kids they're, they have their own families, there all time, they have no time, i brought up three children, i have a full time job and i have time for every one of them to look after and to bring them up and to set them on their way to live and not one of them became a prisoner or something, you know, they're all have nice jobs and, and nice kid nice people, one, nobody's in the truth the boys