muishkin was glad enough to be left alone. he went out of the garden, crossed the road, and entered the park. he wished to reflect, and to make up his mind as to a certain "step." this step was one of those things, however, which are not thought out, as a rule, but decided for or against hastily, and without much reflection. the fact is, he felt a longing to leave all this and go away go anywhere, if only it were far enough, and at once, without bidding farewell to anyone. he felt a presentiment that if he remained but a few days more in this place, and among these people, he would be fixed there irrevocably and permanently.