A little context to come along with my question.Since i graduated Greek high school i started reading books. I started wanting and needing to learn and read books. I discovered that history is not just a meaningless course that tortures you with details of the past: names, dates, locations, who f* who, who killed who etc. I discovered the beauty of books and more precises the beauty of words and the meaning behind them.As a person who has dyslexia school didn't provide me anything other than loathing for the subjects that i truly admire right now. It taught me how to fear learning and not how to learn. That fear, to this day, is still here with me. For instance, right now i want to study for my Digital Design course but every time i think about it my body fills with fear and then i'm searching for something else to procrastinate on (like writing this ASK HN thread).A while ago, made the decision that, whatever i do with my life, i want learning, reading books and writing to be a fundamental part of my life, of my identity. I can't think how my life would be without them. Like it used to be. I lament about the fact that i lost so many years not reading and learning, instead i've developing social media addiction and crippling fear of even trying anything i want.