Same with me. I had a very bad childhood, as with a lot of people, and I went to church every wednesday and sunday. And what became of anything? Nothing. I never got any better, or anything. And the fact there are literally thousands of religions all with historical data tell me it was just a bunch of hippies who wanted to play a “god”. Ill believe it when something conclusive shows itself. I think people use religion as a way to have hope when they die. Me on the other hand, death is inevitable. It will happen one way or another, sooner or later. I dont have a preference. Nor do I care that I die. I dont know, I have mixed viewpoints on it.