About the bf, I don't know him and neither do him, as I mentionned, he live pretty far away. And as You say, it could just transform our relation in an horrific way... Talking of hobbies, I have some and university takes pretty much all the time that i don't spare into it. Also, I mentionned that I was socially anxious and trust me I really hardly make new friends even if people generally like me, I just don't succed to go and talk to them as I usually fear their reaction (which I know is pretty irrational )