For personal projects, it seems to me some people are really good at starting and finishing projects. Personally I'm fine if projects takes less than few hours, 2 days max.But I get overwhelmed, stressed and completely demotivated even just thinking about having to work on long projects. It looks like a never ending mountain, a mountain of suffering.All the 'big' projects I've ever done seems to have some things common- I'm beholden to someone else.. Monetary reward seems to be waaay less motivating.- Reward probability has to be 100%. Add any chance / risk & it's not worth it. Highly averse of looking stupid to myself for some weird reason. Personal projects often have no clear reward. Why work on futile things?- Deadline which would have resulted in certain loss.- Permanent! Achievement would also result in permanent gain.- Clear! I need a clear goal to hit, if it involves me figuring out what to do then that's the most amount of work. Again making a right decision is very crucial.I really wonder if there is psychological therapy that can change my brain calculus, any experience?But if I have a cursory idea and want to build it and see where it goes... brain is tsk forget it... then writing even one line of code feels like such a drag.