So 2018 was a good year. Physically and mentally got better, I think had I of not I wouldn't be here. Lost a friend to addiction and being sold a bad batch of heroine in 2017, lost my grandmother end of 2018, and then lost a close friend to depression in February of 2019, girlfriend of 8 months decided "she wasn't into it" after ghosting me a week and ended things. With all that said, I wouldn't have been strong enough to handle all that shit in such a short time if I wasn't physically well and in turn mentally well.

Not saying my moods aren't all over the map still and watching any clip on youtube of cute animals or family reunions doesn't make me bawl like a little girl, but over all things have stabilized and I'm able to experience the emotion and have the energy to fully allow myself time to do so.

Night and day difference from 2017, I look forward to future years now. Since my early 20's I was like.. I'll be lucky if I make it to 25, at 25 it was 27, 27 it was 30... and so on. Now I'm like hell yeahs, can't wait till 65 for dat medicaid and medicare chairs to roll up in my living room so I don't have to use so much energy getting up!