I am really socially, vocationally, and intellectually alienated and I have been for a while (years). I don't feel that bad day to day but I do feel bad that it seems that life is passing me by. I am not working or earning anywhere near my potential or interacting with people as I should be. I was wondering if the community here, such as it is, has any tips for daily exercises or practices that can help me get back on track in a kaizen or incremental way a little bit every day.For example I am so alienated, I don't even know what goals I would like to pursue.I have been interested in technology and computers for years and have some experience with Unix SA, programming and networking but at a hobbyist than at a professional level.The cloud and countainers and all the programing fads and stuff are actually becoming off-putting to me. I see the space (CS / SE) as increasingly over saturated with bullshit.This puts me off from wanting to learn more and try to find work in the sector. Maybe something more applied like embedded or graphics processing or GIS mapping or numerical processing would be interesting but frankly I am  beginning to find the cutting edge of most of what is talked about here on HN to be off putting. It seems like fantasy and free money is driving work rather than real innovation or utility.Anyway right now I am working a low skill "dead end" job not in computers or tech and am trying to figure out how to apply myself a little bit every day during the time when I am not working, to get into a better position in life. Maybe a good job in tech would be something to aim for. Maybe something outside of tech. I have a BA from a number of years ago...I have found therapy to be utterly useless for addressing real problems. I have a dysfunctional and semi-estranged family and extremely minimal social support outside of family. I live away from my parents who are older and checked out.30s...going on 18 still waiting to "start" life...