You shouldn’t feel ashamed of anything. Go out of your apartment, live your life. If your friends ask, just say you broke up and he wasn’t the guy that you thought he was. That’s on him. He should be the one stuck in his apartment ashamed and afraid to face judgement, not you! 

You dodged a bullet here &amp; you should use this time to focus on you. Remind yourself of the wonderful person you are and of all the things you can do now that he’s out of your life! 

If you ever want someone to talk to, I’m always free for a message. Unfortunately one of my exes did a similar thing to me. Started making excuses about his family needing him or that he was ‘suicidal’ (he wasn’t at all), he backed out of plans then claimed I was the one who cancelled on him, I would go by his place to see if he was free only to find him smoking with his friends, boisterous &amp; high as a kite! This went on and on until I noticed him walk across some traffic lights hand in hand with another girl, laughing with her, grabbing her arse. What’s worse is all my apparent ‘friends’ at the time we’re already aware of these two together and just didn’t bother telling me. 

I felt ashamed. I shut myself inside my flat. I cried over and over. None of my friends were willing to listen to how I was feeling and I felt so alone. I don’t want you to feel how I felt!