I've had to strike and to fend off. I've had to resist and to attack sometimes – that's only one way of resisting – without counting the exact cost, according to the demands of such sort of life as I had blundered into.
1	I	I	PRON	PERS-P1SG-NOM	Case=Nom|Number=Sing|Person=1|PronType=Prs	5	nsubj	_	SpaceAfter=No
2	've	have	AUX	PRES-AUX	Mood=Ind|Tense=Pres|VerbForm=Fin	5	aux	_	_
3	had	have	AUX	PERF	Mood=Ind|Tense=Past|VerbForm=Fin	5	aux	_	_
4	to	to	PART	_	_	5	mark	_	_
5	strike	strike	VERB	INF	VerbForm=Inf	0	root	_	_
6	and	and	CCONJ	_	_	8	cc	_	_
7	to	to	PART	_	_	8	mark	_	_
8	fend	fend	VERB	INF	VerbForm=Inf	5	conj	_	_
9	off	off	ADV	_	_	8	compound:prt	_	SpaceAfter=No
10	.	.	PUNCT	Period	_	5	punct	_	_
11	I	I	PRON	PERS-P1SG-NOM	Case=Nom|Number=Sing|Person=1|PronType=Prs	15	nsubj	_	SpaceAfter=No
12	've	have	AUX	PRES-AUX	Mood=Ind|Tense=Pres|VerbForm=Fin	15	aux	_	_
13	had	have	AUX	PERF	Mood=Ind|Tense=Past|VerbForm=Fin	15	aux	_	_
14	to	to	PART	_	_	15	mark	_	_
15	resist	resist	VERB	INF	VerbForm=Inf	5	parataxis	_	_
16	and	and	CCONJ	_	_	18	cc	_	_
17	to	to	PART	_	_	18	mark	_	_
18	attack	attack	VERB	INF	VerbForm=Inf	15	conj	_	_
19	sometimes	sometimes	ADV	_	_	18	advmod	_	_
20	–	–	PUNCT	Dash	_	25	punct	_	_
21	that	that	PRON	SG-DEM	Number=Sing|PronType=Dem	25	nsubj	_	SpaceAfter=No
22	's	be	AUX	PRES	Mood=Ind|Number=Sing|Person=3|Tense=Pres|VerbForm=Fin	25	cop	_	_
23	only	only	ADV	_	_	25	advmod	_	_
24	one	one	NUM	CARD-SG	NumType=Card	25	nummod	_	_
25	way	way	NOUN	SG-NOM	Number=Sing	18	parataxis	_	_
26	of	of	ADP	_	_	27	mark	_	_
27	resisting	resist	VERB	ING	Tense=Pres|VerbForm=Part	25	acl	_	_
28	–	–	PUNCT	Dash	_	25	punct	_	_
29	without	without	ADP	_	_	30	mark	_	_
30	counting	count	VERB	ING	Tense=Pres|VerbForm=Part	18	advcl	_	_
31	the	the	DET	DEF	Definite=Def|PronType=Art	33	det	_	_
32	exact	exact	ADJ	POS	Degree=Pos	33	amod	_	_
33	cost	cost	NOUN	SG-NOM	Number=Sing	30	obj	_	SpaceAfter=No
34	,	,	PUNCT	Comma	_	38	punct	_	_
35	according	according	ADP	_	Case=Nom	38	case	_	_
36	to	to	ADP	_	_	35	fixed	_	_
37	the	the	DET	DEF	Definite=Def|PronType=Art	38	det	_	_
38	demands	demand	NOUN	PL-NOM	Number=Plur	18	obl	_	_
39	of	of	ADP	_	_	41	case	_	_
40	such	such	ADJ	ADJ	_	30	amod	_	_
41	sort	sort	NOUN	SG-NOM	Number=Sing	38	nmod	_	_
42	of	of	ADP	_	_	43	case	_	_
43	life	life	NOUN	SG-NOM	Number=Sing	41	nmod	_	_
44	as	as	ADP	_	_	47	mark	_	_
45	I	I	PRON	PERS-P1SG-NOM	Case=Nom|Number=Sing|Person=1|PronType=Prs	47	nsubj	_	_
46	had	have	AUX	PAST-AUX	Mood=Ind|Tense=Past|VerbForm=Fin	47	aux	_	_
47	blundered	blunder	VERB	PERF	Tense=Past|VerbForm=Part	41	acl	_	_
48	into	into	ADP	_	_	47	obl	_	SpaceAfter=No
49	.	.	PUNCT	Period	_	15	punct	_	_
