I had to look at my hands very hard for a long, long time.
1	I	I	PRON	PRP	Case=Nom|Number=Sing|Person=1|PronType=Prs	2	nsubj	2:nsubj|4:nsubj:xsubj	Discourse=causal-cause:179->178:0|Entity=(13-person-giv:inact-cf1-1-ana)
2	had	have	VERB	VBD	Mood=Ind|Number=Sing|Person=1|Tense=Past|VerbForm=Fin	0	root	0:root	_
3	to	to	PART	TO	_	4	mark	4:mark	_
4	look	look	VERB	VB	VerbForm=Inf	2	xcomp	2:xcomp	_
5	at	at	ADP	IN	_	7	case	7:case	_
6	my	my	PRON	PRP$	Case=Gen|Number=Sing|Person=1|Poss=Yes|PronType=Prs	7	nmod:poss	7:nmod:poss	Entity=(143-object-new-cf3-2-sgl(13-person-giv:act-cf1-1-ana)
7	hands	hand	NOUN	NNS	Number=Plur	4	obl	4:obl:at	Entity=143)
8	very	very	ADV	RB	_	9	advmod	9:advmod	_
9	hard	hard	ADV	RB	Degree=Pos	4	advmod	4:advmod	_
10	for	for	ADP	IN	_	15	case	15:case	_
11	a	a	DET	DT	Definite=Ind|PronType=Art	15	det	15:det	Entity=(142-time-giv:act-cf2*-5-coref
12	long	long	ADJ	JJ	Degree=Pos	15	amod	15:amod	SpaceAfter=No
13	,	,	PUNCT	,	_	12	punct	12:punct	_
14	long	long	ADJ	JJ	Degree=Pos	15	amod	15:amod	_
15	time	time	NOUN	NN	Number=Sing	4	obl	4:obl:for	Entity=142)|SpaceAfter=No
16	.	.	PUNCT	.	_	2	punct	2:punct	_
