But I did want to document my first trimester to an extent, because when I first found out, I did start to watch videos of people's first few weeks, but again, maybe because I wasn't in a great headspace, that just frightened me, which again was because everyone was just saying how awful they felt, how excited they were, and I didn't feel excited.
1	But	but	CCONJ	CC	_	4	cc	4:cc	Discourse=restatement-repetition_m:72->65:3
2	I	I	PRON	PRP	Case=Nom|Number=Sing|Person=1|PronType=Prs	4	nsubj	4:nsubj|6:nsubj:xsubj	Entity=(2-person-giv:inact-cf1-1-ana)
3	did	do	AUX	VBD	Mood=Ind|Number=Sing|Person=1|Tense=Past|VerbForm=Fin	4	aux	4:aux	_
4	want	want	VERB	VB	VerbForm=Inf	0	root	0:root	_
5	to	to	PART	TO	_	6	mark	6:mark	_
6	document	document	VERB	VB	VerbForm=Inf	4	xcomp	4:xcomp	_
7	my	my	PRON	PRP$	Case=Gen|Number=Sing|Person=1|Poss=Yes|PronType=Prs	9	nmod:poss	9:nmod:poss	Entity=(55-time-new-cf4-3-sgl(2-person-giv:act-cf1-1-ana)
8	first	first	ADJ	JJ	Degree=Pos|NumType=Ord	9	amod	9:amod	_
9	trimester	trimester	NOUN	NN	Number=Sing	6	obj	6:obj	Entity=55)
10	to	to	ADP	IN	_	12	case	12:case	_
11	an	a	DET	DT	Definite=Ind|PronType=Art	12	det	12:det	Entity=(56-abstract-new-cf6-2-sgl
12	extent	extent	NOUN	NN	Number=Sing	6	obl	6:obl:to	Entity=56)|SpaceAfter=No
13	,	,	PUNCT	,	_	14	punct	14:punct	_
14	because	because	SCONJ	IN	_	23	mark	23:mark	Discourse=adversative-concession:73->76:2
15	when	when	ADV	WRB	PronType=Int	18	advmod	18:advmod	Discourse=context-circumstance:74->75:0
16	I	I	PRON	PRP	Case=Nom|Number=Sing|Person=1|PronType=Prs	18	nsubj	18:nsubj	Entity=(2-person-giv:act-cf1-1-ana)
17	first	first	ADV	RB	Degree=Pos|NumType=Ord	18	advmod	18:advmod	_
18	found	find	VERB	VBD	Mood=Ind|Number=Sing|Person=1|Tense=Past|VerbForm=Fin	23	advcl	23:advcl:when	_
19	out	out	ADP	RP	_	18	compound:prt	18:compound:prt	SpaceAfter=No
20	,	,	PUNCT	,	_	18	punct	18:punct	_
21	I	I	PRON	PRP	Case=Nom|Number=Sing|Person=1|PronType=Prs	23	nsubj	23:nsubj|25:nsubj:xsubj	Discourse=same-unit_m:75->73:0|Entity=(57-event-new-cf3-3-disc(2-person-giv:act-cf1-1-ana)
22	did	do	AUX	VBD	Mood=Ind|Number=Sing|Person=1|Tense=Past|VerbForm=Fin	23	aux	23:aux	_
23	start	start	VERB	VB	VerbForm=Inf	4	advcl	4:advcl:because	_
24	to	to	PART	TO	_	25	mark	25:mark	_
25	watch	watch	VERB	VB	VerbForm=Inf	23	xcomp	23:xcomp	_
26	videos	video	NOUN	NNS	Number=Plur	25	obj	25:obj	Entity=(58-abstract-new-cf5-1-sgl
27	of	of	ADP	IN	_	32	case	32:case	_
28-29	people's	_	_	_	_	_	_	_	_
28	people	person	NOUN	NNS	Number=Plur	32	nmod:poss	32:nmod:poss	Entity=(59-time-new-cf7-5-sgl(60-person-new-cf2-1-coref
29	's	's	PART	POS	_	28	case	28:case	Entity=60)
30	first	first	ADJ	JJ	Degree=Pos|NumType=Ord	32	amod	32:amod	_
31	few	few	ADJ	JJ	Degree=Pos	32	amod	32:amod	_
32	weeks	week	NOUN	NNS	Number=Plur	26	nmod	26:nmod:of	Entity=59)58)57)|SpaceAfter=No
33	,	,	PUNCT	,	_	34	punct	34:punct	_
34	but	but	CCONJ	CC	_	49	cc	49:cc	Discourse=causal-cause:76->72:0
35	again	again	ADV	RB	Degree=Pos	49	advmod	49:advmod	SpaceAfter=No
36	,	,	PUNCT	,	_	35	punct	35:punct	_
37	maybe	maybe	ADV	RB	_	45	advmod	45:advmod	Discourse=causal-cause:77->78:0
38	because	because	SCONJ	IN	_	45	mark	45:mark	_
39	I	I	PRON	PRP	Case=Nom|Number=Sing|Person=1|PronType=Prs	45	nsubj	45:nsubj	Entity=(2-person-giv:act-cf1-1-ana)
40-41	wasn't	_	_	_	_	_	_	_	_
40	was	be	AUX	VBD	Mood=Ind|Number=Sing|Person=1|Tense=Past|VerbForm=Fin	45	cop	45:cop	_
41	n't	not	PART	RB	Polarity=Neg	45	advmod	45:advmod	_
42	in	in	ADP	IN	_	45	case	45:case	_
43	a	a	DET	DT	Definite=Ind|PronType=Art	45	det	45:det	Entity=(61-abstract-new-cf8-3-sgl
44	great	great	ADJ	JJ	Degree=Pos	45	amod	45:amod	_
45	headspace	headspace	NOUN	NN	Number=Sing	49	advcl	49:advcl:because	Entity=61)|SpaceAfter=No
46	,	,	PUNCT	,	_	45	punct	45:punct	_
47	that	that	PRON	DT	Number=Sing|PronType=Dem	49	nsubj	49:nsubj	Discourse=same-unit_m:78->76:0|Entity=(57-event-giv:act-cf3-1-coref)
48	just	just	ADV	RB	_	49	advmod	49:advmod	_
49	frightened	frighten	VERB	VBD	Mood=Ind|Number=Sing|Person=3|Tense=Past|VerbForm=Fin	23	conj	4:advcl:because|23:conj:but|59:csubj:outer	_
50	me	I	PRON	PRP	Case=Acc|Number=Sing|Person=1|PronType=Prs	49	obj	49:obj	Entity=(2-person-giv:act-cf1-1-ana)|SpaceAfter=No
51	,	,	PUNCT	,	_	59	punct	59:punct	_
52	which	which	PRON	WDT	PronType=Rel	59	nsubj:outer	49:ref|59:nsubj:outer	Discourse=causal-cause:79->76:1
53	again	again	ADV	RB	Degree=Pos	59	advmod	59:advmod	_
54	was	be	AUX	VBD	Mood=Ind|Number=Sing|Person=3|Tense=Past|VerbForm=Fin	59	cop	59:cop	_
55	because	because	SCONJ	IN	_	59	mark	59:mark	_
56	everyone	everyone	PRON	NN	Number=Sing|PronType=Tot	59	nsubj	59:nsubj	Entity=(60-person-giv:act-cf2-1-coref)
57	was	be	AUX	VBD	Mood=Ind|Number=Sing|Person=3|Tense=Past|VerbForm=Fin	59	aux	59:aux	_
58	just	just	ADV	RB	_	59	advmod	59:advmod	_
59	saying	say	VERB	VBG	Tense=Pres|VerbForm=Part	49	advcl:relcl	49:advcl:relcl	_
60	how	how	SCONJ	WRB	PronType=Int	61	mark	61:mark	_
61	awful	awful	ADJ	JJ	Degree=Pos	59	obj	59:obj	_
62	they	they	PRON	PRP	Case=Nom|Number=Plur|Person=3|PronType=Prs	63	nsubj	63:nsubj	Entity=(60-person-giv:act-cf2-1-ana)
63	felt	feel	VERB	VBD	Mood=Ind|Number=Plur|Person=3|Tense=Past|VerbForm=Fin	61	acl:relcl	61:acl:relcl	SpaceAfter=No
64	,	,	PUNCT	,	_	66	punct	66:punct	_
65	how	how	SCONJ	WRB	PronType=Int	66	mark	66:mark	_
66	excited	excite	VERB	VBD	Mood=Ind|Number=Sing|Person=3|Tense=Past|VerbForm=Fin	61	parataxis	61:parataxis	_
67	they	they	PRON	PRP	Case=Nom|Number=Plur|Person=3|PronType=Prs	68	nsubj	68:nsubj	Entity=(60-person-giv:act-cf2-1-ana)
68	were	be	VERB	VBD	Mood=Ind|Number=Plur|Person=3|Tense=Past|VerbForm=Fin	66	advcl:relcl	66:advcl:relcl	SpaceAfter=No
69	,	,	PUNCT	,	_	74	punct	74:punct	_
70	and	and	CCONJ	CC	_	74	cc	74:cc	Discourse=adversative-antithesis:80->81:0
71	I	I	PRON	PRP	Case=Nom|Number=Sing|Person=1|PronType=Prs	74	nsubj	74:nsubj|75:nsubj:xsubj	Entity=(2-person-giv:act-cf1-1-ana)
72-73	didn't	_	_	_	_	_	_	_	_
72	did	do	AUX	VBD	Mood=Ind|Number=Sing|Person=1|Tense=Past|VerbForm=Fin	74	aux	74:aux	_
73	n't	not	PART	RB	Polarity=Neg	74	advmod	74:advmod	_
74	feel	feel	VERB	VB	VerbForm=Inf	59	conj	49:advcl:relcl|59:conj:and	_
75	excited	excited	ADJ	JJ	Degree=Pos	74	xcomp	74:xcomp	SpaceAfter=No
76	.	.	PUNCT	.	_	4	punct	4:punct	_
