hey guys I hope to offer some words of comfort.<p>The delusion is that life is infinite. It is not.<p>Especially so when we are young. As we get older, we feel like we are running out of time, we haven&#x27;t done enough.<p>This is why I think some people commit suicide when their startups dont take off. They can&#x27;t accept a reality that everything they are doing is ephemeral.<p>So when your startup fails, or some software you worked on for 4 years without any pay goes to shit because you couldn&#x27;t get enough customers, brush this shit off because life and universe is ephemeral and even more so ephmeral are the failures to meet your own expectations and others. So what? Failing at startup isn&#x27;t a fucking crime? There&#x27;s no Russian mob coming to reclaim the &quot;equity&quot; that you owe them. Similarly if you succeed, the world just goes on. You might get cover, you might serve as inspiration, you will have changed your life and everything money can buy. But I think that in the end, if you think about it, money is important but not the entirety of our human existence.<p>At age 29, having boostrapped to failure for the past 6 years, I&#x27;m no longer hung up about it. Now this might sound like the fox claiming that the grape is sour because he can&#x27;t reach it, but money, a single fixation on success or a particular product that you built (and you fall in love with your own creation), is unhealthy and frankly a waste of pure fucking energy.<p>This is why I&#x27;ve given up on chasing one idea or marrying myself to one goal. I&#x27;m also slowly turning my back away from bootstrapping and focusing on how I can raise money. The only painful realization is that I could&#x27;ve done 6 years of work in just 6 months with 6 engineers. Now that I&#x27;ve done the entire shit myself from the ground up, I have a pretty fucking good idea how to build something from scratch and turn it into a product. Startup is not a one man game, it&#x27;s really coming together, sharing the pain and growing as individuals and as a group. Success should be the goal but I believe the process is equally important in getting to that goal. I may not ever reach it and that&#x27;s fine. What&#x27;s important is that I&#x27;ve tried the best I absolutely can and being proud of what I&#x27;ve built. That&#x27;s all you can do and just walk away and keep going.<p>And don&#x27;t get caught up with trends, noise, techcrunch and other non-essential activities that adds to the anxiety. Just do you.<p>Remember that life is ephemeral. Suicide is a permanent approach at a temporary problem! This failure, the stress, the depression, the mania, all this, even the lack of money...all of this is just temporary. Nothing lasts forever.