Go to a doctor and let them describe you something for depression. Worked for me.<p>Be open about your problems and don&#x27;t be ashamed. 
Most people feel the way you do. 
I never lie to people about my mental issues - not even at work. Guess what? 95% of the people I worked with (all other programmers) were on some kind of meds, too - for depression, social anxiety, ADHD etc.. Feels so much better just being open about it and crack a joke here and there. &quot;Let&#x27;s just all put down work, go to the beach and cry!&quot; &quot;I&#x27;m in. I&#x27;ll bring beer.&quot; &quot;Oh, I wish I could!&quot; [I remember that conversation happening on Slack once]<p>I don&#x27;t know! Sitting home alone, pitying yourself and being upset about society never really changes anything. ;)