I&#x27;m in similar situation. I finished MA and never really had to work hard for anything. Had IQ at around 130. Probably less now cause I had not done anything challenging for decade.<p>I hate my job, have no achievments whatosever and I balance on doing bare minimum not to get fired. Changed job 4 times and it&#x27;s definitely me. That&#x27;s despite the fact that I was always going to be a programmer since I was 10, and I loved programming. I&#x27;m lazy as hell and I&#x27;m astonished every day they won&#x27;t fire me. Any dreams of success in mine choosen callign are long past.<p>I also had huge problems with social interactions, married first girl that could look past it (she has similar problems). It wasn&#x27;t a good decision.<p>My wife has even bigger problems with employement, but she declines to agree it&#x27;s her fault (she changes job every year and it&#x27;s always &quot;them&quot;). We are codependent and use each other not to be alone. We hurt each other a lot. I don&#x27;t think it&#x27;s love, but then I find love to be hard to define (I mostly feel &quot;I should be feeling this&quot; instead of actually feeling this, not only towards her).<p>I should really leave her, cause she isn&#x27;t happy with me (nor am I with her), but she has her life wasted, in some party because of me, and she depends on me at least economicaly at this point. Or maybe it&#x27;s rationalization because it&#x27;s more convenient to continue this.<p>I&#x27;m addicted to internet and gaming, and I&#x27;m well aware of the fact that I&#x27;m wasting my life. I just don&#x27;t care. No right to complain really, I had it better than most people, and it&#x27;s entirely my fault I&#x27;m wasting it all. And yet I do, because nothing worthwhile seems achievable and vice-versa.<p>BTW I know I sound arrogant and selfish, that&#x27;s because I am. I wondered many times if maybe I&#x27;m just stupid (that would explain a lot). In the end it doesn&#x27;t really matter, results matter and I don&#x27;t have them.<p>I probably could get depression diagnosed, but I don&#x27;t want to cure it even if it&#x27;s true, because it would mean I have to actually do sth. So my best diagnosis is &quot;chronic laziness&quot;.