Maybe you might view that as strength, something about your brain chemistry that lets you achieve deeper insight than your peers, and makes you a better innovator? I say this as someone like you, who replays events in the past or future, over and over to gain deep insights (or maybe confirmation biases), and i also wonder if it is related to my seratonin-dopamine imbalances (i have adhd), as it is very clear that my obsession with understanding the <i>why</i> behind the world is not normal and i wish i could just let it be