I&#x27;m probably in the same boat. I see myself as a firefighter, things don&#x27;t get my attention until their burning down, then I perform miracles to save them. Every few months my utility bills don&#x27;t get paid until they turn it off.<p>Personal relationships degrade until the point they are about to fall apart, then a blast of attention brings them back to normal. I&#x27;m a disorganized mess but when the right moment hits, I can do in a day what would take someone else a month to do.<p>Unfortunately I have nearly zero trust in the psychiatric community, and little trust in the medical community. There&#x27;s too much overmedication&#x2F;overdiagnosis in a attempt to CYA, limit liability, and in some cases, profit. I&#x27;m always suspicious of anyone who could be motivated to prescribe medication or treatment by a factor other than solely my well being(I reworded that sentence several times trying to decrease ambiguity...hopefully it makes sense). Full courses of antibiotics are prescribed for a runny nose, hearing tests ordered for mild congestion. I&#x27;ve seen kids diagnosed with ADHD and medicated into submission when all they needed was good parenting and a structured environment. A family member adopted 3 children from 3 different families. Wouldn&#x27;t you know all 3 of them &#x27;had&#x27; ADHD. If they started making noise or acting like kids, she would say  &#x27;oh, it must be time for their medication&#x27;. I&#x27;ve mentioned this to a couple of MD acquaintances. One of their responses were &quot;She&#x27;s convinced something is wrong. If I don&#x27;t prescribe something, she will just go down the list of doctors until she finds one that will. Then I&#x27;ll be the bad doctor for not doing something. The buck might as well stop here.&quot;<p>In any case of my condition being real, I have a fear of dependency. I&#x27;m scared that if I finally do submit and take medication, I will become dependent on it. I know my propensity to addiction and have vigorously avoided all drugs, including alcohol, except OTC painkillers and occasionally some cold symptom medication my entire life. I&#x27;m not concerned with becoming addicted to adderall&#x2F;ritalin&#x2F;etc... -- I&#x27;m concerned that it will eliminate what little control I&#x27;ve managed to exert over the issue and I don&#x27;t want to take it for the rest of my life.<p>Your story about being able to wean yourself from it with little negatives while still maintaining the benefits may have given me the confidence to take the next step and try to get help.