&gt; I regularly question my decision to continue pouring so much time into Readlang. I wonder about the lucrative life of a contractor, or the cushy job of software developer at a large tech company. I wonder if I’m hurting my chances of future employment by working so long on my own.<p>This has been on near constant loop in my head for the last year. It&#x27;s really, really hard to be productive when you&#x27;re worrying about the future. I don&#x27;t know if I could do this if I wasn&#x27;t married. I mean, I&#x27;d probably be living in a rural hell-hole somewhere and getting by financially, but that would ruin me emotionally.