&gt; I keep pushing my team to learn new stuff<p>That doesn&#x27;t sound like a pleasant work environment.<p>&gt;teaching them engineering aspect<p>Did they willingly sign up for the teacher-student relationship with you?<p>&gt;  I FEEL THEY DON&#x27;T LIKE ME and think I am jerk.<p>You&#x27;re probably correct.<p>&gt; wondering if I am really that bad.<p>Not bad, but improperly initialized. Or there&#x27;s a syntax error somewhere, an improperly synched function. There are piles of soft skills to be had.<p>Engineer, debug thyself. It is the golden age of self help books. As a triage measure you want to stop this behaviour cold and instead listen for a few weeks as you absorb the wisdom in whatever self-help-soft-skill-communication-management book you find speaks to you.