go read <a href="http:&#x2F;&#x2F;www.amazon.com&#x2F;How-Fail-Almost-Everything-Still&#x2F;dp&#x2F;1591847745&#x2F;ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&amp;qid=1451275622&amp;sr=8-1&amp;keywords=how+to+fail+at+almost+everything+and+still+win+big" rel="nofollow">http:&#x2F;&#x2F;www.amazon.com&#x2F;How-Fail-Almost-Everything-Still&#x2F;dp&#x2F;15...</a><p>This is a book written by Scott Adams of Dilbert fame, he has failed at more things than you can imagine. 
You are unique, divine. So hang in there.  Start off with eating right and exercise to get increase your energy. Then follow your curiosity. You will be surprised what you are capable of. 
Take a course on Coursera, it could be anything. Then build upon that to propel forward.