I often think that everything is going to end. Especially when I&#x27;m up at night and playing video games, after a long day of work. Something about game worlds ending probably makes it more likely for me to have an existential angst, but the biggest reason is how much Judaeo-Christian RELIGION I have been exposed to and trying to find the truth among contradictory worldviews.<p>I am NOT depressed (at least in the colloquial sense of the term) since I definitely feel intrinsically happy most of the time when nothing special is happening. I don&#x27;t really need anything except good health in order to be happy. However, I tend to take things to their logical conclusion way more than other people, and as a result I see both upsides and downsides most avoid talking about. My mind naturally tries to find the main factors to explain a phenomenon, rather than accepting what&#x27;s told to me.<p>The thought that all this will come to an end is scary to me. It leads to a conclusion which I guess also comes out of depression: what is the point of it all? I can accomplish so much in this world and then if I die and everyone who experiences it will die, what&#x27;s the point ultimately? If you knew the entire world was ending in 3 days due to a meteor, say, would you labor every day on a giant novel, no matter how good it is? If not, then isn&#x27;t it all just a matter of scale?<p>Perhaps I have to learn to love the journey instead of the destination.<p>Perhaps I have to liken not being around in 700 years to not having been around 700 years ago. But life moves forward and now that I&#x27;m here, my self preservation instinct makes me dread someday not being around. Because while the world will continue, for me it may as well be a fantasy world.<p>Also I look around at the cultures of the earth engaging with computers and cellphones and promiscuous sex and all the other stuff. A lot of it is addictive and exciting, but once you wean yourself off of it you realize how non essential it is. So what is the point of any worldly things?<p>I must say, the fact that religions have existed stably for thousands of years, as well as various philosophies (Buddhism, Stoicism) seem to teach similar things. A detachment from the cares of this world, and a focus on something &quot;greater&quot;.<p>But what if this is all there is?<p>And what if there is an afterlife and we spent our lives believing the wrong religion, and must face some consequences?<p>These are thoughts I find scary.<p>Especially the last one.