12 years of professional programming here.<p>I almost killed myself about two years ago. Have had depression since I was a kid. I saw a doctor, got on meds, went to a therapist and started feeling slightly better for about a year on and off. ive been stuck in the same location for a long time... Was hoping to change that last year but all I could do was fail job interviews (in part because I was trying to wean off my meds).<p>There is no success part to my story yet but you are not alone. Do see a doctor and don&#x27;t feel like a failure if you find out you are depressed.