english: But if I had done that, if I had given up writing, I would have lost my beloved vocation, so I knew that the task was that I had to find some way to gin up the inspiration to write the next book regardless of its inevitable negative outcome.
non_english: Če bi to storila, se odrekla pisanju, bi izgubila svoj ljubi poklic, zato sem vedela,  da je moja naloga, da najdem nek način, da zberem navdih za pisanje naslednje knjige, ne glede na njen neizbežno negativni izid.