english: And it was devastating every single time, and every single time, I had to ask myself if I should just quit while I was behind and give up and spare myself this pain.
non_english: A vždy to bolo zdrvujúce, každý raz som sa samej seba pýtala, či mám skončiť, pokiaľ sa mi nedarí a či sa mám vzdať a  ušetriť sa tejto bolesti.