english: Maybe I wanted to be so successful and so able to take responsibility that I would do so and I would be able to take care of my attending's patients without even having to contact him.
non_english: Možno som si chcel byť tak dobrý v preberaní zodpovednosti, že som to chcel dokázať starostlivosťou o pacientov svojho nadriadeného, a to dokonca bez toho, aby som ho kontaktoval.