english: But if I had done that, if I had given up writing, I would have lost my beloved vocation, so I knew that the task was that I had to find some way to gin up the inspiration to write the next book regardless of its inevitable negative outcome.
non_english: Ale ak by som sa vzdala písania, prišla by som o moje  milované povolanie, takže som vedela,  že mojou úlohou je nájsť spôsob, ako získať inšpiráciu, aby som napísala knihu bez ohľadu na nevyhnutný  negatívny výsledok.