It is your mind fooling you. Your face doesn't show emotion with flat affect. This is something that you can't help and when the cycle of depression changes so does your flat affect I am so glad that you are getting the help that you need. Feel better soon!
The Time of the Harvest Moon. A harvest moon occurs at a specific time of the year. The moon officially turns full when it reaches the spot opposite to the sun. The harvest moon happens on 13:59 Greenwich time on the Saturday nearest to the fall equinox, which is September 23rd.
Usually the full Moon rises an average of 50 minutes later each night, but for the few nights around the Harvest Moon, the Moon seems to rise at nearly the same time each night: just 25 to 30 minutes later across the U.S., and only 10 to 20 minutes later for much of Canada and Europe.