Is this passage mostly positive or negative, or is it evenly split in emotion? Please pull from specific spots in the text within your answer.

He looked at me with his mouth open and his dark eyes very big. It was as though he had just discovered that I was an expert on bedbugs. I laughed and grabbed his head as I had done God knows how many times before, when I was playing with him or when he had annoyed me. But this time when I touched him something happened in him and in me which made this touch different from any touch either of us had ever known. And he did not resist, as he usually did, but lay where I had pulled him, against my chest. And I realized that my heart was beating in an awful way and that Joey was trembling against me and the light in the room was very bright and hot. I started to move and to make some kind of joke but Joey mumbled something and I put my head down to hear. Joey raised his head as I lowered mine and we kissed, as it were, by accident. Then, for the first time in my life, I was really aware of another person’s body, of another person’s smell. We had our arms around each other. It was like holding in my hand some rare, exhausted, nearly doomed bird which I had miraculously happened to find. I was very frightened; I am sure he was frightened too, and we shut our eyes. To remember it so clearly, so painfully tonight tells me that I have never for an instant truly forgotten it. I feel in myself now a faint, a dreadful stirring of what so overwhelmingly stirred in me then, great thirsty heat, and trembling, and tenderness so painful I thought my heart would burst. But out of this astounding, intolerable pain came joy; we gave each other joy that night. It seemed, then, that a lifetime would not be long enough for me to act with Joey the act of love.
system
kya yah maarg zyaadaatar sakaaratmak yaa nakaaratmak he, yaa yah samaan rup se bhaavana main vibhajit he?kripaya apane uttar ke bheetar paath main vishisht sthanon se khinchen.

usne mujhe apane munh se khulaa dekha or uski gahari ankhen bahut badi thim.yah aisa tha jaise usne abhi paaya tha ki main bedbags kaa visheshgy tha.main hansaa or uske sir ko pakad liya kyonki maine kiya tha ki ishwar jaanata he ki pehle kitni baar, jab main uske saath khel rahaa tha yaa jab usne mujhe naaraaz kiya tha.lekin is baar jab maine use chuaa to usamen kuch hua or mujhamen jo is sparsh ko kisi bhi sparsh se alag bana diya, donon main se kisi ne bhi kabhi bhi janaa tha.or usne virodh nahin kiya, jaisaa ki usne aamtaur par kiya tha, lekin let gaya jahaan maine use khinch liya tha, meri chaati ke khilaaf.or mujhe ehsaas hua ki meraa dil ek bhayanak tareeke se dhadak rahaa tha or joy mere khilaaf kaanp rahaa tha or kamare main prakaash bahut ujjwal or garm tha.maine aage badhanaa shuru kar diya or kisi tarah kaa majaak banane ke liye lekin joy ne kuch mook kiya or maine apana sir sunne ke liye neeche rakh diya.joy ne apana sir uthaaya kyonki maine khadaan ko utaara or hamane choomaa, jaisaa ki durghatana se tha.phir, mere jivan main pehali baar, main vastav main kisi anya vyakti ke sharir ke bare main jaanata tha, duusare vyakti kii gandh se.hamaare paas ek duusare ke aasapaas apni bahen thim.yah mere haath main kuch durlabh, thakaavat vaale, lagbhag qayaamat vaale pakshi ko pakadaney jaisaa tha, jise maine chamatkaarik rup se khojane ke liye hua tha.main bahut bhaybheet tha;mujhe yakeen he ki vah bhi bhaybheet tha, or ham apni ankhen band kar lete hai.ise itani spasht rup se yaad karne ke liye, isliye aaj raat mujhe bataata he ki main kabhi bhi ek pal ke liye vastav main bhul gaya.main apane aap main ab ek behosh, ek bhayanak sargarmi mahasoos karata hum, jo mujhamen bahut adhik hadataali he, mahaan pyaas vaali garmi, or kaanpate hue, or komalta itani dardanaak mujhe laga ki meraa dil fat jayega.lekin is ascharyajanak main se, asahneeya dard khushi main aayaa;hamane us raat ek -duusare ko khushi di.aisa lag rahaa tha, tab, jivan bhar mere liye lambey samay tak nahin hoga jo joy ke saath kaam karne ke liye kaam kare.
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maarg bhaavana main nakaaratmak he.shabd bhayanak, thakaa hua, qayaamat, bhaybheet, dardanaak, or bhay ko darshata he."bhayanak" shabd ke liye, kathakaar ne apane dil kii dhadkan kaa varnan kiya he ki ve ise nahin chaahate hai."thakaa hua" thakaan ko darshata he or kathakaar or joy donon kaa varnan karata he.shabd "duumed" donon kaa varnan karata he, saath hi, prayek ko galati se chuumane or maarg ke bheetar bhay paidaa karne ke baad duusare ko duuming ke saath."bhaybheet" dar kii is bhaavana ko badhaata he, nakaaratmak swar ko aage badhaata he, or unki ankhon ko band karne kii karrwai is drishy ko aniatik mahasoos karaati he."dard" shabd ke bare main laayaa jaataa he kyonki kathakaar is smriti ko yaad karata he, is prakaar ise yaad karne ke liye kuch apriy ke rup main vargeekrut karata he."dred" shabd dar kii bhaavana ko ek baar or jodta he, is drishy main hone vaale kaaryon main asann qayaamat kii bhaavana paidaa karata he.bhale hi ant main kaha gaya he ki unhone us raat ek -duusare ko khushi di thi, is maarg kaa adhikansh hissaa nakaaratmak he.
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kya yah maarg zyaadaatar sakaaratmak yaa nakaaratmak he, yaa yah samaan rup se bhaavana main vibhajit he?kripaya apane uttar ke bheetar paath main vishisht sthanon se khinchen.

usne mujhe apane munh se khulaa dekha or uski gahari ankhen bahut badi thim.yah aisa tha jaise usne abhi paaya tha ki main bedbags kaa visheshgy tha.main hansaa or uske sir ko pakad liya kyonki maine kiya tha ki ishwar jaanata he ki pehle kitni baar, jab main uske saath khel rahaa tha yaa jab usne mujhe naaraaz kiya tha.lekin is baar jab maine use chuaa to usamen kuch hua or mujhamen jo is sparsh ko kisi bhi sparsh se alag bana diya, donon main se kisi ne bhi kabhi bhi janaa tha.or usne virodh nahin kiya, jaisaa ki usne aamtaur par kiya tha, lekin let gaya jahaan maine use khinch liya tha, meri chaati ke khilaaf.or mujhe ehsaas hua ki meraa dil ek bhayanak tareeke se dhadak rahaa tha or joy mere khilaaf kaanp rahaa tha or kamare main prakaash bahut ujjwal or garm tha.maine aage badhanaa shuru kar diya or kisi tarah kaa majaak banane ke liye lekin joy ne kuch mook kiya or maine apana sir sunne ke liye neeche rakh diya.joy ne apana sir uthaaya kyonki maine khadaan ko utaara or hamane choomaa, jaisaa ki durghatana se tha.phir, mere jivan main pehali baar, main vastav main kisi anya vyakti ke sharir ke bare main jaanata tha, duusare vyakti kii gandh se.hamaare paas ek duusare ke aasapaas apni bahen thim.yah mere haath main kuch durlabh, thakaavat vaale, lagbhag qayaamat vaale pakshi ko pakadaney jaisaa tha, jise maine chamatkaarik rup se khojane ke liye hua tha.main bahut bhaybheet tha;mujhe yakeen he ki vah bhi bhaybheet tha, or ham apni ankhen band kar lete hai.ise itani spasht rup se yaad karne ke liye, isliye aaj raat mujhe bataata he ki main kabhi bhi ek pal ke liye vastav main bhul gaya.main apane aap main ab ek behosh, ek bhayanak sargarmi mahasoos karata hum, jo mujhamen bahut adhik hadataali he, mahaan pyaas vaali garmi, or kaanpate hue, or komalta itani dardanaak mujhe laga ki meraa dil fat jayega.lekin is ascharyajanak main se, asahneeya dard khushi main aayaa;hamane us raat ek -duusare ko khushi di.aisa lag rahaa tha, tab, jivan bhar mere liye lambey samay tak nahin hoga jo joy ke saath kaam karne ke liye kaam kare.</s>
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maarg bhaavana main nakaaratmak he.shabd bhayanak, thakaa hua, qayaamat, bhaybheet, dardanaak, or bhay ko darshata he."bhayanak" shabd ke liye, kathakaar ne apane dil kii dhadkan kaa varnan kiya he ki ve ise nahin chaahate hai."thakaa hua" thakaan ko darshata he or kathakaar or joy donon kaa varnan karata he.shabd "duumed" donon kaa varnan karata he, saath hi, prayek ko galati se chuumane or maarg ke bheetar bhay paidaa karne ke baad duusare ko duuming ke saath."bhaybheet" dar kii is bhaavana ko badhaata he, nakaaratmak swar ko aage badhaata he, or unki ankhon ko band karne kii karrwai is drishy ko aniatik mahasoos karaati he."dard" shabd ke bare main laayaa jaataa he kyonki kathakaar is smriti ko yaad karata he, is prakaar ise yaad karne ke liye kuch apriy ke rup main vargeekrut karata he."dred" shabd dar kii bhaavana ko ek baar or jodta he, is drishy main hone vaale kaaryon main asann qayaamat kii bhaavana paidaa karata he.bhale hi ant main kaha gaya he ki unhone us raat ek -duusare ko khushi di thi, is maarg kaa adhikansh hissaa nakaaratmak he.</s>
