아서가 심각하게 아프지 않고 어느 정도 안전하다는 것을 알고 있었지만, 제가 원했던 것은 아기방 바닥에 죽은 채 누워 있을 것으로 상상했던 다른 아기를 되살리는 것이었습니다. 아서가 거기 없다고 스스로를 설득하는 데 온 힘을 다해야 했죠. 마음은 위험하고 강력한 존재입니다.

I knew Arthur was not seriously unwell, I knew he was safe to some extent, but what I wanted was for them to go and revive my other baby, who I imagined to be lying on his nursery floor, dead. it took all my might to convince myself he was not there. The mind is a dangerous and powerful entity.