The reason being that I was permitted by Bhishma to leave him with the object of going to Shalva. Whom shall I blame, myself or Bhishma who is hard to be approached,
अनुज्ञाता तु भीष्मेण शाल्वमुद्दिश्य कारणम्। किं नु गर्हाम्यथात्मानमथ भीष्मं दुरासदम्॥