I am guilty of infanticide. Sinful as I am, I have not, since then, been able to look at the face of Arjuna or the lotus-eyed Krishna.
तदाप्रभृति बीभत्सुं न शक्नोमि निरीक्षितुम्॥ कृष्णं च पुण्डरीकाक्षं किल्बिषी भ्रूणहा यथा।