I think you are grieving for those persons who with souls possessed by lust and anger, are suffering inisery in this world. It is for this that you are so pale and lean.
क्लिश्यमानान् विमार्गेषु कामक्रोधावृतात्मनः। मन्ये त्वं ध्यायसि जनांस्तेनासि हरिणः कृशः॥