You have not been able to get something which you have long been seeking for. Or, what you try to do is sought to be undone by soinebody else. It is for this that you are so pale and lean.
चिराभिलषितं किंचित्फलमप्राप्तमेव ते। कृतमन्यैरपहतं तेनासि हरिणः कृशः॥