Coward that I am I have caused this great slaughter of my friends, and (therefore) cannot encourage myself to believe that I shall be able to purify myself by celebrating even a hundred horse-sacrifices.
सोऽहं कापुरुषः कृत्वा मित्राणां क्षयमीदृशम्। अश्वमेधसहस्रेण पावितुं न समुत्सहे॥