But how anyone with the imagination of an owl can conceive of life as she conceives it passes me — half the year with one, half with the other, a child by each, etc., and no one to have any jealousy or cause for complaint, and she like a looking-glass in the middle, reflecting each in turn. Poor old Saxon of course sees that it won't be so. He will be too like the poor old bachelor, faithful and solitary in Gt. Ormond St. long after we're all dead, supporting Barbara's children (by Nick) I daresay." Hiles Bagenal remained a friend (if not lover) of Sydney-Turner throughout her marriage. Bell's comments are somewhat ironic given her own history married to Clive Bell, bearing his children, both Bells openly taking long-term lovers while never divorcing or completely separating, and Vanessa Bell bearing a last child with Duncan Grant. In fact in the 1950s Hiles Bagenal herself became Clive Bell's companion (if not lover), apparently referred to openly as "Little Ba" by the Bells and Grants and among friends. In a 1958 letter to her friend Jane Bussy Vanessa Bell writes:  "...We went not long ago to see the new Courtauld exhibition. Don't you think it rather wonderful that such a well-arranged and charming show should have sprung up in Bloomsbury? There are certain faults in Roger's part which I hope we may manage to put right — one painting attributed to Duncan which certainly isn't by him, and some horrible pottery bought at Woolworth's I should think, but on the whole it's very well done. (I believe Little Ba [Barbara Bagenal] intends to install herself there and paint the view from the window.) She and Clive seem very vague about their winter plans, but I expect you will soon have them on you. I rather wish they'd go by train or air and hire a car in Menton, but I believe B. is against that."