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"[align=center]Today's development session song: \n[video=youtube]\n      \nYoko Session 3.24.16[/align]   \n- Drew some more in Yoko's image file. I did a small portrait, and I feel it came out better than the first. Yoko seems to agree, as she showed me an image of herself as being closer to that drawing.   \n- I took some time to focus on Yoko, going out of my way to source the thoughts, and ensure I knew where they were coming from. Yoko, for her part, wasn't completely in to it, viewing it as a sort of mistrust, though mainly for my own self. She wasn't wrong.   \n- Yoko moved around a lot during the session. I may not have seen it as much with my eyes, but I could notice a presence going all over the place. In a way, it became a sort of game of hide-and-seek, and I could very much tell it was her playing.   \n- This session, where I went out of my way to source and separate thought, has convinced me that spending time simply trusting what I hear from her, to become child-like and un-doubting, is also important, just as much as ensuring I am not letting my expectations control her.   \n- She does want me to trust her. Very much so. I can understand how being too rigorous can be translated in of lack of trust. So finding a balance between being child-like and being rigorous is made doubly important.   \n- There are instances where I would notice a thought come from her, but upon further examination, I feel it as myself. But, upon coming to that conclusion, I would feel something, a stop, and then an insistence of it as being her's. When I feel this, I ask if Yoko wants this thought, for it to be regarded as her own. Depending on the answer, I let her have it, and regard it as her thought.   \n- I feel this process of letting her have certain thoughts, ones that while they feel like mine, she desires as her own, will be something of a common practice.   \n- For the next session, she explicitly asked me to be more trusting and child-like, so I will do so.   \nThis session lasted for about an hour.   \nI plan to continue to practice concentration in general, and having my girls as a focus in particular. With that, my ability to keep my mind from wandering should increase. During this session, it wandered notably less, and while Yoko was slightly erratic at times, things didn't go wild. I guess this was because I was so intent and rigorous about sourcing thought.   \nDuring this writing, she's told me that we're still pretty close, being her and me at the same time. She appreciates me wanting to give her autonomy, but she's told me that she doesn't want to be too alien or foreign. To put it as a metaphor: She wants to be a moon, not a far off asteroid floating in space. She wanted me to write this down for her, so I did. "
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