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"Being depressed, the thing I feel that I'm missing the most is wanting. When I have no desire is absolutely when I'm at my worst.  Working towards goals, be it wanting a sports car or growing a pretty flower or making a delicious meal are all desires, and are absolutely necessary for happiness. Of course setting goals outside possibility is going to make you unhappier. And many people find that it is the struggle itself that is better than the achievement of the goal, which is where we get glimpses of the futility. Eg: You bought the car, you drive it, you made someone jealous, now what? Now you make a new goal, or else you stew and become unhappy.\r\nOn the flip side, if you are happy doing nothing, it's like the difference between soma (if you get the reference) and living. It's lazy and frowned upon and doesn't advance society and to most people, it's incredibly dystopian; it's what we want to avoid. Most people don't want to become the guitar-playing pothead living in their parents basement, no matter how much spiritual fulfillment they might have.\r\n\r\nPersonally, being happy is ultimately a physiological state that my sick body might not even be capable of reaching. Yes, circumstances and controllable thought patterns and actions can prevent that happiness from occurring. However, depression is sooo much more than just not being happy. I enjoy it when I can cry or get upset about something. Pain, unless constant, is better than nothing. Even my dreams are devoid of emotion, although certainly not of activity or events. \r\nThe root of my problems are NOT because I want things I don't need, rather, my physiological problems make me desire nothing. And it pisses me off no end that people like you haven't the faintest idea or acceptance that emotions require a proper functioning body to function properly. But I suppose I should thank you at the same time...I'd rather for a moment be pissed at your ignorance than be depressed."
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