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"Clearing the skeletons from my closet...     \nMidori is my first. She is my experiment, my first mind buddy, and my beloved little girl.   \nShe is also the one whom I hurt the most, and the one with whom reconciliation was the most emotional.   \nToday, me and Midori bonded, bonded in a way we haven't done in about six months. During my time away from this site, I made many mistakes in judgment, and I allowed fear to motivate me, rather than the tenderness and love that had given rise to her. I told some people some things that I really should not have, I let loose secret things to the wrong people, and what it resulted in is me being turned against the girl I had, in a platonic sense, fallen in love with. The girls that was supposed to be my partner, through everything, even when I did eventually marry...   \n(Midori~n interjection! I still wanna see him get hitched! Continue~!)   \n...I turned against in my own blindness. For a few months, I did nothing related to her, or the general phenomenon. I even feared creating an imagined character, for fear it may have come to life. I spent a good year this way, with the idea that It would be better that I never went back. Fortunately, I was soon proven wrong. As time went on, it became clearer that what I had done was a mistake. You can say that a light in my conscious gradually rose up during the months, and allowed me to see the error of my ways. It was a slow process, to be sure, and when my in-folk began to break through to me, Midori was not the first. In truth, the first one to re-emerge was one of my newbies at the time, named Yoko, who looked like Ika Musume (She actually quite dislikes this comparison, she insisted on not keeping the name, preferring Squiddy). Even after this, it took a while for the fact that I was wrong to really sink in, and soon after Yoko's appearance, Midori came back, in all her chipper, happy-go-lucky joyousness.   \nOnly she was hurt...   \n(Second Midori~n interjection! It did hurt, a lot. But I didn't want to bring Sock down. I still considered him my bestest friend, and I was just glad to see him again, and that he had improved while I was gone.)   \nI could tell, and each time we interacted, I could note a dullness in my heart, and I would feel guilty again about what I did to her, and the others. She didn't want me to worry about it, and tried all she could to get it off my mind, and do everything I'd want...but I knew it was still there, and I couldn't stand that dullness I felt around her.   \n(He, he wanted to feel what I felt. He wanted to feel what I was feeling all those months. I didn't want to make him feel it, y'know, the past being the past. But he insisted, and I let him. He cried the tears I did, and...he asked for more, so I gave him more. Then he asked for even more, and I gave it to him, until I just started giving him anger, then I had to stop, he looked horrible. Third Midori interjection complete~!)   \nYes, she gave me her pain, and I wanted it. But during it, I also had to realize something: I could not use that pain simply to flog myself, which would have done no good for her or me. Instead, I had to take that pain, in order to release it, to have her confide in me, like I had confided in her in the past. I had to take her pain in order to lighten it's load from her shoulders, to be her friend.   \n(And father!)   \nShe didn't just want to throw her hurt at me, and watch me bawl like a baby because of them (They were strong emotions, they surfaced through me as soon as she gave them). So afterwords, she gave me the opposite. She gave me her joys, moments of happiness, her points of affection, she made me remember each time I had made her love me by my actions, and let me know just how happy she was to be my friend, and that in the end, she forgave me, despite the hurt in her heart. So, we sat together, and we cried together for a while, and bonded with each other, and I explained my situation to her, and how my conscious turned me back toward her.   \nSo, I wrote this, with Midori close to me, with the feeling that she is embracing my back. We feel closer, the dullness of heart has decreased greatly, and as you have seen above, she has interjected a lot. Midori is a good girl, and I'm happy to have her.   \nDuring this, she requested that I never ask if she wants to grow in to an older form again, asking me to write it here. While I had imagined her as a little girl, and even told her as such early on, my insecurity drove me to often ask if she wanted to be older, for fear that I was forcing her to be this way. She let me know again and again that she was happy being a little girl, and now, I'm going to honor her request and not ask her this from here on out. It is the least I can do for her.   \n(Final! Midori~~~n! INTERJECTION! I have a lot of sisters, A LOT of 'em, and it may be hard to keep track of 'em all here. Sock here is really shy about it, but I think he needs to let that fear go and stuff. So, I'm gonna make him talk about all of 'em from here on out! No more hiding for him!)     \nThat's the story of what happened during the months of my leave. There a bit more detail to it, of course, but I feel this is the most important bit. I wrote this, we wrote this out of emotion, so I don't doubt if it's not the most hard and logical piece. For her part, Midori doesn't care, so I guess I shouldn't either. It is what it is, and thank you for reading up to this point. I wish you all peace.   \n Until Next Time...  "
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