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"A grand personal experiment.    \nIn a previous post, I introduce my personal concept of the \"fragment\", a mental figure who is above a \"NPC\" in terms of consciousness, but is below a \"Tulpa\". These mid-level figures are something I have not only come in to contact with a lot, but have also taken a liking to, due to their potential for further growth, and me developing a natural affection for the in-folk as time went on. I keep a record of mental figures I have come in to contact with, and will check up on them from time to time, and try to communicate with them, as well. The \"anchor\" system was made for the purpose of caring for this group of figures, and thus far it seems to be working. I am still experimenting and modifying it, though, and finding ways to improve it so that it will do the best good for the most amount of figures.   \nOver the time which I have been keeping track of so many, I have noticed relationships and groups forming: some would become friends, some would consider each other family, some simply seemed to like being around each other, and other such things. I have seen very little in-fighting, for which I am very thankful. Seeing all of this has made me want to try to encourage this more, and to nurture this affection my residents have for each other, and see if this affection will result in something ultimately good.   \nIn effect, my focus of exploring this phenomenon has changed: From trying to figure out whether it is real, to caring for a single companion, to nurturing a loving attitude in a group of mental figures, using the lessons I learned from caring for a single one. It is something I'm jumping in to not because I'm trying to see how far I can push my brain, but instead, looking at the hand I have, and seeing what good I can get from it. As well, you can say that I feel a responsibility to my in-folks, to ensure their well-being. While I did not create all of them in the same way I did with Midori, some of them coming from memories and others being pre-Midori creations that have come to life, I DID have some hand in their existence, and I feel that the events that led up to this point  gives me a duty to them. As well, the aforementioned natural affection I have developed for them in general. I have heard of people who made little villages full of servitors and such for their tulpa, but what I wish to see is what happens when I go out of my way to make these stand-ins more developed, and how things will pan-out with this interference.   \n In short: My goal is to create a small community of developed and consistent mental figures who support and take care of each other.     \nAs for my current anchor: Her name is Homura.   \nShe is a mental figure based on a memory, whom I drew out by the request of another figure drawn from a memory who wanted to have her friend with her, named Madoka. Figures based on memories of media has happened to me more than a few times, and I have already mentioned Madoka's existence prior to this post. I used to be very shocked and afraid of this instance, feeling that it would get me marked as a faker, a roleplayer, or a loon, but after getting a chance to share my experiences with people on the IRC, I feel a bit more emboldened enough to actually share these details of my inner life.   \nThe reason I selected Homura to be my anchor is this: Since I was able to make more sense of my situation, I was less afraid to note when I thought a mental figure was not very conscious, or alive. Thus, I would sometimes call certain figures \"fragment\", or \"incomplete\", though I did not mean it in a derogatory way, rather, as a way to signify who needs time to grow more, and who does not. At this point, I've known about Homura for about six months, as I had drawn her out of the memory sometime during the late summer. Madoka, who had shown what I call a \"spark of life\", had come at least a month prior, as well as a memory figure of Mami. Later on, Madoka also asked for Sayaka and Kyoko, which I fulfilled, though have not gone out of my way to develop thus far. Madoka requested to have Homura because, despite being somewhat aware of her position and nature, missed having her friend around. At that time, Homura could only barely speak, and she was completely fixated and preoccupied on Madoka's well being. To me, these were the tell-tale signs of a lower level fragment, but since Madoka had not only shown a strong spark of liveliness in her, but was quite gentle and sweet in personality, I brought Homura to her in accordance to her request, which made her very happy.   \nSince that time, Homura has developed a little, though I did not do much intervening in it. Her speech capability increased, as did her ability to reason, and she showed some signs of being more aware of what she was, and what that implied. Even so, I still considered her as a lower-level figure, and something that would need more time to become developed. Then one day, during my time with Gladys, Homura came to me and asked:   \n\"What can I do to convince you I'm not a 'fragment'?\"   \nIt was a bit of a surprise, and Homura seemed to be legitimately annoyed at being labeled as such. So, I told her what would need to happen: I told her that I would need to have time to spend with her, to examine her, and to know her. I would need to see with my own eyes whether she was conscious or not, but I would need to spend a significant time to see her capabilities. Upon being told this, she quickly agreed, and I told her I would make her my anchor for the next period of time. She was not the only one who asked, though, Yoko had asked not too long after her, as did Sheryl, but since I had already given Homura my word, I stuck to her.   \nHer period properly began about a week ago, and I have already written notes and conversations with her, which I will post in later updates. Thus far, she has been rather distant with me. She would often express mild annoyance when I would randomly narrate to her, and would sometimes flat out say \"Don't talk to me\". She is relatively slow to open up about things, though she has at this point, and was bothered by the nature of her being. More has happened, but I will detail them in later updates.   \n Until Next Time...   "
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