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"Confession: Some days I still obsess over my body, and my thought process goes something like this:\nAm I ever going to be thin enough to want to wear a pair of jeans?\n*Is it time for lunch yet?\nIs she looking at my thighs?\nOh, I know, a cookie will make me feel better about my thighs!\nDon&amp;#39;t eat the cookie, Margarita. You&amp;#39;re going to regret it.*But--and this is a BIG but--this is no longer how I spend (read: waste) all of my time. I get up every morning and make my best attempt at living a healthy lifestyle--I cook nearly all of my meals, I exercise three to five times a week, I don&amp;#39;t smoke. In general, self-care is something I&amp;#39;m good at. As a result, that obsession over my body doesn&amp;#39;t take over every single waking moment anymore. Am I at my goal weight? No. Frankly, I don&amp;#39;t even know or care to think too much about what my goal weight is. What I do know is that I&amp;#39;ve been maintaining a 75-plus weight loss for many months now, and for today, that feels like enough. Accepting where I am today and what my body looks like today is a\ndaily\nstruggle for me. However, I know it&amp;#39;s the difference between experiencing life and signing it over to the Devil of Not Worth It, so I work every day to turn down the volume on the body obsession, the noise, the B.S.! And many days, I&amp;#39;m pretty successful at it.\nHere&amp;#39;s what I&amp;#39;ve discovered happens when you don&amp;#39;t spend all your time thinking about a.) cookies and b.) your thighs: You have to deal with everything you&amp;#39;ve been avoiding. And since I no longer believe that my body should dictate* any* of the decisions I make, I&amp;#39;m actually getting to face things like... 1.) Should I be dating, even though I&amp;#39;m pretty comfortable being alone? 2.) Should I be writing books or moving to another country or asking for a promotion? 3.) Should I be more responsible about money instead of throwing every dime at vacations, tufted furniture and Whole Foods? ... And the list goes on!\nI don&amp;#39;t know the answers to these questions--and just as I accept the circumference of my thighs exactly as they are today, I accept that my place in the universe today is OK too. Just like my body, my life isn&amp;#39;t perfect, but I&amp;#39;m constantly grateful for and humbled by how good it is. The biggest gift I&amp;#39;ve gotten from weight loss is this clarity: Believing my life would be perfect if I could just lose weight was just as\nuntrue\nas all of those other self-defeating thoughts. Come to think of it, I&amp;#39;m pretty glad it isn&amp;#39;t perfect, because where would I go from there?\nCan any of you relate? Do you ever feel like when you&amp;#39;re not obsessing over your body, you have so much more time to think about the &amp;quot;real&amp;quot; issues of your life? Silly or big, what are they? (It totally helps me de-stress to write them down!)\nsame girl. same shirt (call me a recessionista!). whole different attitude!\nPinterestFacebookMore on body image...__\nThe Picture You Can&amp;#39;t Stop Talking About: Meet &amp;quot;the Woman on p. 194&amp;quot;\nGuys Answer: Would You Date a Woman With a Belly Roll?\n3 Things That Trigger My Worst Body-Image Days\n__\nMore Ways to Get Glamour:\nYou could win $50,000 just for registering or logging in to Glamour.com!\nSign up for Glamour.com&amp;#39;s Style Tips of the Week and Beauty Tip of the Day newsletters.\nAdd Glamour to your iGoogle homepage.\nFollow us on Twitter."^^<http://www.w3.org/2001/XMLSchema#string>
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