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" Even in the stale quiet of a trailer at 9 a.m., Lindsay Lohan is compulsively watchable. There&amp;#039;s the tough-chick look \u2014 the lush locks scalloping around her Ray-Ban aviators; the breathlessly parted lips; the faded jeans molded to her thighs and tiny butt, worn with tinfoil Lanvin flats. And there&amp;#039;s the constant activity. If Lohan&amp;#039;s not texting her manager, Jenni Muro, who&amp;#039;s sitting four feet away, she&amp;#039;s firing up a Parliament Light, carrying around an open laptop and downloading songs, or nipping into the trailer bedroom and changing clothes, for no apparent reason. For a brief while she&amp;#039;ll wear a vintage concert tee. When I ask the name of the band on the faded shirt, Muro replies with a laugh, &amp;quot;Misplaced Childhood. Is that the ultimate answer?&amp;quot;  Lohan is almost too distracted to notice a stranger in her midst; when we meet, her handshake is limp, the fingers soft and pale as cigarettes. But while it&amp;#039;s tempting to pathologize her nervous preoccupations, it&amp;#039;s worth remembering that the girl, just 22, is trying to keep a lid on one full-on, nonstop mind-fuck of a life.   CLICK HERE TO SEE BEHIND THE SCENES PHOTOS FROM LINDSAY&amp;#039;S COVER SHOOT  Consider: As we kill time watching TV in the trailer, waiting for Lohan to be called to the set of the upcoming indie Labor Pains, the morning hen-fest The View comes on. To Lohan&amp;#039;s surprise, today&amp;#039;s guests are her mother and sister, Dina and Ali Lohan.  Lindsay dumps a cigarette butt in a half-inch of brown liquid in a Styrofoam cup and takes a seat on the built-in couch opposite the TV, smiling to herself as they answer questions. &amp;quot;I&amp;#039;ve learned from my sister what to do and what not to do,&amp;quot; says Ali, 14, a singer, whom Lindsay describes as &amp;quot;a really tough cookie.&amp;quot; Regarding their new reality show, Living Lohan, Ali explains, &amp;quot;We&amp;#039;re showing people who we really are and that we&amp;#039;re not crazy people.&amp;quot; (&amp;quot;Obviously, we&amp;#039;re just a normal family living in suburbia,&amp;quot; says Dina, unconvincingly.) For most young women, the spectacle would constitute a mortifying mash-up of the public and the private, but for Lindsay Lohan, it&amp;#039;s just life. Her chief reaction to the show: &amp;quot;I wanted to pull Ali&amp;#039;s hair down on the left side the whole time. It was bugging me!&amp;quot;  There&amp;#039;s Red Bull in the fridge and a flesh-colored thong dangling from a hanger near the bathroom. Outside the trailer, a bulldog slurps from a water dish. His name is Cadillac, and he belongs to Samantha Ronson, the proto-scenester and DJ with whom Lohan is enmeshed, although she refuses to confirm no-brainer rumors that they are lovers. Lohan&amp;#039;s anecdotes are studded with references to Ronson; noting a star tattoo on her hand, she says, &amp;quot;Samantha has a bunch of stars, so I got that. And she got this&amp;quot; \u2014 indicating a little heart. When she tells me, with a giggle, that she&amp;#039;s looking to buy a house &amp;quot;with someone,&amp;quot; it just seems obvious who that someone is. But when I ask Lohan specifically about the relationship, she says, &amp;quot;Um, people can think what they want. I&amp;#039;m really happy, and that&amp;#039;s all that matters.&amp;quot; As for the newspaper item claiming she yelled at Ashley Olsen to &amp;quot;get your 15-year-old Full House ass away from my girlfriend&amp;quot; when she saw Olsen talking to Ronson at a club last April, Lohan retorts, &amp;quot;No! No. I never said anything like that. I would never talk like that. I mean, get me angry enough and I&amp;#039;m sure I&amp;#039;ll have something to say, but I didn&amp;#039;t say that.&amp;quot;  With three stints in rehab behind her (and the threat of jail, if she violates her probation), Lohan has had a relatively peaceful time of it in recent months, leading me to suggest that Ronson&amp;#039;s a good influence. &amp;quot;She&amp;#039;s a great person,&amp;quot; Lohan says. &amp;quot;And she&amp;#039;s a great influence on people around her. But I think that anything that&amp;#039;s changed in my life is because of me. I&amp;#039;ve gone through it and I&amp;#039;ve had to deal with it and I&amp;#039;ve made the decision to move forward. So, yeah, she&amp;#039;s a great person,&amp;quot; Lohan concludes of Ronson, who&amp;#039;ll come loping across the parking lot to the trailer later on wearing her signature porkpie hat, plus a T-shirt, jeans, and cinder-block-size red trainers, emphatically unlaced. Despite the apparently acute ADD, Lohan seems keenly aware of the fact that she&amp;#039;s starting a new chapter \u2014 that she knows how much she stands to lose and that life has given her another chance. After a rebuke from a producer of her 2007 movie Georgia Rule for partying too much, after concern that she might be deemed uninsurable by Hollywood, she&amp;#039;s methodically rebuilding her career, giving her all to a first-time film director, Lara Shapiro, for the low-budget Labor Pains, working on a danceable, R&amp;amp;amp;B-type follow-up to her second album, A Little More Personal (Raw), and submitting to the family-friendly small screen, in a guest spot on Ugly Betty. It&amp;#039;s a page out of the career-rehab playbook of Robert Downey Jr., whose return from the dark side started with a recurring role on Ally McBeal. (No word yet on whether guest spots on How I Met Your Mother can save Britney Spears.)  &amp;quot;He&amp;#039;s an amazing actor,&amp;quot; Lohan says of Downey. &amp;quot;Look at people like that who have gone through shit and had to work that much harder to get to where they are now.&amp;quot; Lying on the bed in her trailer now, atop a pink comforter, looking at me through narrowed go-go-girl eyes beneath a thick canopy of fake lashes, Lohan says, &amp;quot;I&amp;#039;ve learned. I&amp;#039;ll never go back. And it&amp;#039;s not a never-say-never type thing \u2014 it&amp;#039;s just, I know. I know.&amp;quot;  If Lohan is any closer to attaining that elusive, soul-saving thing, perspective, it owes in large part to the shrewd, protective Muro, a 13-year ovarian-cancer survivor, who recently took over management duties from Lohan&amp;#039;s mother. &amp;quot;When I open the window and breathe in the air, that&amp;#039;s a good day,&amp;quot; Muro tells me. &amp;quot;All this crap doesn&amp;#039;t matter. Life is much bigger than that. I share my perspective with her, and I don&amp;#039;t think anyone else has really done that.&amp;quot; But Muro is also strategic \u2014 for instance, welcoming paparazzi shots of Lohan on the set, working (as opposed to tumbling out of a club). As such, whenever Lohan is called to the set, she dutifully does the pap walk \u2014 texting feverishly behind a curtain of hair, while grungy lensmen scamper alongside. It&amp;#039;s a smart move, reminding the world that Lohan actually has a job, as her considerable talent is the one thing that can redeem her. Playing a secretary who&amp;#039;s pretending to be pregnant so she won&amp;#039;t get fired, Lohan puts a fresh, funny spin on her lines during each of the dozen or so takes \u2014 she&amp;#039;s just a pro. &amp;quot;Lindsay has incredible comedic instincts,&amp;quot; says Shapiro. &amp;quot;She&amp;#039;s such a natural, and it&amp;#039;s amazing to watch her bring things to life. The lightness and quickness she brings is just really fun to watch.&amp;quot; As for the legendary Lohan baggage she also brings, Shapiro says, &amp;quot;I don&amp;#039;t really worry about stuff like that. She&amp;#039;s here, she&amp;#039;s on time, she&amp;#039;s ready. I&amp;#039;m focused on what&amp;#039;s happening in front of the camera, and she&amp;#039;s been great.&amp;quot;  Whereas Lohan used to live in hotels \u2014 &amp;quot;I didn&amp;#039;t want to be alone, so whatever I needed I could just go downstairs and there were people there&amp;quot; \u2014 she now recognizes the unhealthiness of that. &amp;quot;It wasn&amp;#039;t a way of life,&amp;quot; she says. &amp;quot;Not very consistent.&amp;quot; Whereas she once owned a pair of puppies, like every other high-gloss attention-seeker in Hollywood, she now admits she &amp;quot;got them on a whim \u2014 I wasn&amp;#039;t in the right headspace&amp;quot; to take care of them (so she gave them to her mother). Whereas the petulant, postadolescent, hungover Lohan could single-handedly roil a movie set with a grimace, she now accepts the responsibility that comes with being a star of her wattage. &amp;quot;It&amp;#039;s a lot of pressure, because everyone&amp;#039;s depending on you,&amp;quot; Lohan says. &amp;quot;And your mood, when you go on set, everybody feels it. On a day when you&amp;#039;re tired, it&amp;#039;s important to just say good morning to everyone so they&amp;#039;re kind of aware that it&amp;#039;s gonna be a good day. Jamie Lee Curtis&amp;quot; \u2014 her Freaky Friday costar \u2014 &amp;quot;told me that.&amp;quot;  Problem is, when you&amp;#039;re Lindsay Lohan, the drama tends to roll in by the hour. &amp;quot;There was this one day when something happened with my dad, and my best friend&amp;#039;s grandmother passed away, and I was upset, and everyone [on set] kind of changed, and I felt it,&amp;quot; she says. Later, back in her trailer, she pulled herself together. &amp;quot;But it&amp;#039;s hard, because, then, when do you feel?&amp;quot;  The thing that happened with her dad, Michael Lohan, the former felon who careens in and out of Lindsay&amp;#039;s life, leaving a trail of tabloid sludge \u2014 that would be the revelation that he might have another daughter, now 13, the result of a fling with a Montana massage therapist. &amp;quot;I don&amp;#039;t know what&amp;#039;s going on with it,&amp;quot; Lohan says, wearily. &amp;quot;I haven&amp;#039;t asked him any questions. Apparently we&amp;#039;ve been in the dark for so many years. We&amp;#039;ve gone through enough with him. Enough is enough.&amp;quot; As a result, she&amp;#039;s shutting down communication with Dad for a bit \u2014 &amp;quot;until he decides to be a grown-up.&amp;quot; Family turmoil&amp;#039;s been a constant for a while now. &amp;quot;It was always up and down,&amp;quot; Lohan says of her teen years\u2014&amp;quot;very unpredictable. It was kind of just like whether he was gonna be there, what he would be like; we didn&amp;#039;t know what to expect from him, which was difficult. I knew so much at the age of 12\u2014I&amp;#039;d seen so much. So it&amp;#039;s surprising to me that I got into certain things that I got into, because I knew not to.&amp;quot; Things like cocaine.  And yes, it&amp;#039;s hard, living on high alert, braced for the splattering fallout of some monumentally bad behavior. Perhaps it&amp;#039;s no surprise that Lohan would ultimately welcome a reprieve in rehab. &amp;quot;It was like a vacation,&amp;quot; she says, wide-eyed, in a throaty whisper, &amp;quot;because no one bothered me.&amp;quot;  Lohan grabs a journal from her Vuitton bag, opens to a blank page, and starts writing in a bubbly hand the names of people she has invited to her birthday party, taking place at L.A.&amp;#039;s hipster haven the Roosevelt Hotel in two days. She&amp;#039;s chosen a prom theme, because Lohan, homeschooled the last two years of high school, never actually went to a prom; furthermore, she feels she&amp;#039;s got plenty to celebrate given that she spent her last birthday in rehab. Lohan&amp;#039;s lanky, attentive friend Patrick is calling around, looking for some genius prom gear for her to wear.  It&amp;#039;s hard to overstate Lohan&amp;#039;s appreciation for clothes. &amp;quot;I just love fashion,&amp;quot; she says, after lunch in the trailer, flicking a cigarette ash into her half-eaten baked potato. &amp;quot;I think it just expresses who you are so much. Like, if I were wearing stilettos and a black dress and my hair in a bun, it&amp;#039;d be like, &amp;#039;Oh, Lindsay&amp;#039;s back on track.&amp;#039;&amp;quot; For Lohan, the best part about being a cheerleader back in the day was the cute uniform. &amp;quot;I&amp;#039;d get so excited to wear it on game days,&amp;quot; she says. &amp;quot;And I got my skirt shortened and didn&amp;#039;t tell anyone. Leave it to me to adjust the uniform.&amp;quot;  But\u2014and here&amp;#039;s where it gets weird\u2014does she crave clothes so much she&amp;#039;d actually steal them? Among the loopier Lohan stories to pop up in recent months is the one about her making off with a Columbia student&amp;#039;s mink coat after a party they both attended, and another about her helping herself to armloads of a model&amp;#039;s clothes while at a party at the model&amp;#039;s home. &amp;quot;That&amp;#039;s bullshit,&amp;quot; Lohan says of the model incident. &amp;quot;That&amp;#039;s all bullshit. It was just a misunderstanding. I&amp;#039;m not the kind of person that does stupid stuff like that for fun. I don&amp;#039;t get off on that.&amp;quot; Meanwhile, the owner of the mink coat has contacted a lawyer.  The truth? Who knows? For what it&amp;#039;s worth, Lohan can certainly afford her own clothes, and she&amp;#039;s been the butt of countless baseless rumors, like the one about her getting breast implants. &amp;quot;When I lost weight, they were like, &amp;#039;She got them taken out!&amp;#039;&amp;quot; Lohan says. &amp;quot;And then, &amp;#039;She got them put back in!&amp;#039; What am I, a crazy person? I mean, come on. Calm down!&amp;quot;  While she&amp;#039;s clearly in a better place than she&amp;#039;s been for a while, Lohan still maintains that quietly chaotic aura, the whiff of mischief that has made her so much fun to watch on-screen. And so it&amp;#039;s touching when she says she&amp;#039;d like to be a mom someday. &amp;quot;At some point I want to adopt a kid as well,&amp;quot; she says. &amp;quot;A child in need or a newborn from another country. I&amp;#039;m not sure.&amp;quot; I ask what she remembers about being a kid herself, all traces of which have been banished from her seen-it-all face, with its vampy, cinematic contours. She was working, of course, doing commercials, one with Bill Cosby. Lohan smiles. &amp;quot;Kids go ape for Jell-O grape!&amp;quot; she says, with a tiny gasp of a laugh, remembering the line she was asked to say.  She&amp;#039;s eager to get into the recording studio after Ugly Betty &amp;quot;Obviously, I want to sell records,&amp;quot; Lohan says, &amp;quot;but I do it because I find it therapeutic. In music I can be myself.&amp;quot; Besides, it&amp;#039;s good to have something to do between movies. &amp;quot;This business is very go, go, go, and you&amp;#039;re constantly surrounded by people, and then everything stops. So you kind of feel invalid, in a weird way. And it can get depressing because it&amp;#039;s like, What do I do now?&amp;quot;  With any luck, what she&amp;#039;ll do now is fulfill the promise of her outlandish potential and get back to being one of the most exciting actors of her generation. A force, a survivor, as opposed to LiLo, the global plaything.  &amp;quot;It&amp;#039;s weird,&amp;quot; Lohan says of having been granted that tabloid moniker. &amp;quot;It&amp;#039;s like, Where do they get those things from? Whatever\u2014it&amp;#039;s fine. I know my real name.&amp;quot; "^^<http://www.w3.org/2001/XMLSchema#string>
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