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Vergeet van die ou dinge
want dit trek jou oë
en nie vir die beeld
en hou aan wys besluit.
as jy Ons broodjies deel.
Die swyn en teef
en jou heil verrinneweer.
en deel met wie My wil begeer.
~ Mattheus 7:6 ~
en die feite. "
- die Eeu Oue Boom.
en die feite. "
- die Eeu Oue Boom.
My lief kind -"
Sy hart se longe uit -
"Dit is maar net
raak nie bitter nie
reken nie kwaad toe nie
Jou lyf, Jou liggaam
met 'n getraande oog
kyk, en handel met
- Want die dreun
Van albasterstem Le Roux
Het al telbare kere
Toe's die lied verby
En klap die gehoor.
The Chamber - Part 3
My eyelids continuously slammed shut - my eyes could not tolerate the overwhelming light for too long. I was grateful that my two polished bronze shields could brace the light’s mighty impact. It gave my eyes the merciful opportunity to cower within my skull, as though they were two scared guards. Their backs pressed hard against the wall of my mind and caused me to churn nervous thoughts, which quickly spread and infected the rest of my now shivering body. But an unknown force breathed marrow into them - and with the crack of a whip they rushed to open the bronze windows and braved the bleached world outside.
I stared in a throbbing stupor as He kneeled down and thoroughly washed my feet with a warm white cloth. His actions cranked open my eyes’ tiny, shiny waterfalls, and caused me to groan with deep, shame filled weeps.
The Chamber - Part 3
My eyelids continuously slammed shut - my eyes could not tolerate the overwhelming light for too long. I was grateful that my two polished bronze shields could brace the light’s mighty impact. It gave my eyes the merciful opportunity to cower within my skull, as though they were two scared guards. Their backs pressed hard against the wall of my mind and caused me to churn nervous thoughts, which quickly spread and infected the rest of my now shivering body. But an unknown force breathed marrow into them - and with the crack of a whip they rushed to open the bronze windows and braved the bleached world outside.
I stared in a throbbing stupor as He kneeled down and thoroughly washed my feet with a warm white cloth. His actions cranked open my eyes’ tiny, shiny waterfalls, and caused me to groan with deep, shame filled weeps.
He gently tended my gaping wounds, and slowly fed me something wholesome to eat. Then, with the grace and power of the most righteous king, He whispered life into me – oh a word in a poem so sweet. However, just when I started to taste the honey bursting from the new heart within me, he unexpectedly sliced off a strange piece of meat:
"My son it is time now to start believing, faith will provide the strength to your feet."
And with that, the room emptied - but somehow I knew it did not just contain the dirt and crumbs that I used to call me. Enlightened, and with the dastardly vigour of a mountain, I slowly got up from my seat. I was still groggy, and blind, but there was one thing I could see. It was a chest, made from black locks, brown locks and brass locks - but no key.
I sluggishly stewed my rags over to it, and found that one was pleasantly unlocked. Within it, it was written "He is the solid rock", and woven straight through it was a thin metal wire, which sheepishly ran amok. It went into others – with all of them being rudely, stubbornly, tightly locked. But I noticed, the one in my hand, it turned into a key. I tugged its wire gently, which then rang loudly and turned into luminated gold.
I saw the other lock it wound into! I then inserted and twisted my newly shaped key, which caused it to quickly pop open with a tinkle and a tweet. On its shackle was written "as the staff hit the rock", and on its case "the water burst forth". But as this one's wire dug deeper, its twinkling tone of gold got lost. It seemed like this chest would take forever to open, but I had time and hunger, for now it surely took no real cost. So, I blissfully sucked in dry air and continued my perusal forth.
Sadly, time ticked on and on.
It took me days, nay, it took weeks. I studied it, dragged it, hammered it, but no other lock would slip free. I could not force it. I could not break it. The only thing that changed was the stomach-turning fire and ice that accumulated within me. Doubt crept in, and hate, and fear. It all became hazy, why would it all not just disappear? I knew it for sure, I knew nothing.
I sat in the corner, I gave up, was depressed, and constantly whined. It seemed I could not do it, I COULD NOT DO IT! I finally broke and screamed at it all. Who was this Samaritan who simply left me? "Where are you, you traitor!? What's faith? It's killing me!"
Then an unknown flame roasted within me. "That's the point." my heart softly whispered into my crying ear.
It seemed that the death of me - was still, exactly, the point.
I could not do it.
But, by faith, He could!
Tree Terug en Vra
Jy meet my op
van reg en verkeerd
die een te wees
wat myself af skei
'n muis in 'n tonnel
Tree Terug en Vra
Jy meet my op
van reg en verkeerd
die een te wees
wat myself af skei
'n muis in 'n tonnel
want jy word versmoor
gee vir jou niks
om meer te leef
uit mens self uit
want dis uit krag
wat mens nie het nie
kan jy kry as jy Hom maar net vra.
Ek jou gesoek het
Ek jou gesoek het
met my rou hart
vir jou 'n hawe
aan my verwaarlose deur
soos 'n onskuldige hondjie
aan 'n koue staal plaat.
aan my verwaarlose deur
soos 'n onskuldige hondjie
aan 'n koue staal plaat.
Dit kerm soos die skerp wind
deur die leë hoeke
in 'n droë Namibiese woestyn.
my hawe uiteindelik op?
Wanneer verlig haar lewende oë
Hoekom sleep my siel so swaar
aan hierdie blou anker
wat my geswikte enkel
aan die harde seebodem haak?
Moet ek groot en wys word?
Net besef waar ek geplaas is?
Is ek so geheg aan die bekende
dat ek 'n onbekende diepte mis?
Verlig asseblief my siel o Vader!
Ek smag om te sien
hoe U my deur hierdie
skeurende eensaamheid wil bedien.
Johan Janse van Rensburg © 2018.