lost something and I can't, I can't find it and I'm looking and I'm, and ee, and er, a bit of a noise or anything I'm looking backwards is coming and then I realize he's not there any more to come  and then other days I just feel like I'm dangling in the air and can see the, the ground and I can't touch it with my feet, just somewhere right, right out, it's not real, not real you know and then you go, you get back to with a bump and know that it's real and then it just feels left, nothing else, you can't help yourself in any other way.