I suppose looking back on what I said at the time it was true and I did really love you and I still do  but  now it's not sexual  or romantic, it wasn't sexual then because my mind was too pure and partly because you were such a huge chunk of my life, one seventh, and I think I always will  don't know what that's su oh it's love you I suppose   for you it must have been such a small thing and at fifteen stroke sixteen you can probably only just remember me  I was fourteen actually  I was the middle son who wasn't properly blond unlike the brothers and hung around near you far too much.