I like taylor swift. Listening to music helps me uplift my mood. I work as a manager at a convenience store. I am a pagan and I believe nature is my church. I believe counseling and therapy might help. I have 2 dogs and no kids. I like dogs that are not aggressive or require a lot of training. I think small dogs are less "manly".  I like Daschunds and Beagles, but Beagles tend to howl. I have never owned a Beagle.  My grandmother had a Beagle.  My grandmothers Beagle howled a lot but was not trained well. My dogs stay in crates while I work. I work close to home and come home for lunch.
I am depressed. My wife and kids have left me. I am ready to do anything to not be depressed. I spend my time working or playing games on facebook. I do not believe in religion and do not visit the church. I am fat. I believe that losing weight might bring my wife back. I used to spend alot of time with my kids and used to ride bikes with them. I do not have a dog. I want a small dog that doesn't shed much. I live in a rural area.  I have a boring job. I don't like my job. My boss has a bird.
You never told me what you do for work?  You mentioned it was boring... have you ever thought about doing something else?   I work a boring middle management desk job. It pays the bills but it is not exciting. I daydream often of having another completely different life. Maybe one day! Remember you're never stuck forever somewhere. If feels like this rut is as deep as depression. A never ending abyss. A black hole void of light. Ever pulling me away from happiness. Tell me, do you feel you have reached your American dream? Or did you find the apple pie had been eaten and digested before you could even open your eyes? I def. have felt that way before. It does get better. It just takes time. If you feel like this is a really big rut, maybe reach out and get some help and start transitioning to get a new job. Have you loooked at any job openings in your area? It's more than the endless toil of work. It is my wife. Well I should really get used to saying ex-wife, because that is what she is. It is hard to accept. Maybe I will start a Smiths cover band to get my feelings out. That's a great idea! An outlet for feelings, emotions, and words is very important. I'm so sorry to hear about your wife.  I can see it now. Me, shoe gazing on stage, with a clove cigarette hanging out of my mouth as I sing "Everyday is silent and grey". It's not The Smiths but it is by Morrissey, so I think it counts.  Oh definitely. I think that sounds like a wonderful idea to break the mundane task of work day in and day out.  I can't wait to don all black and smear black lipstick on my kissless lips, black is slimming after all.. Say how hard is it to keep dog hair off black clothing? It is quite difficult,but you can use lint rollers. That's what I do atleast haha Yeah I probably won't lint rolling bother until I am actually leaving the house. Of course this is if I get a dog. This would be my first dog ever, fi you don't count my ex wife.