question: I was diagnosed a few years ago with borderline personality disorder, anxiety and depression, I have taken antidepressants forever since I was in my 20s I am now 39. I have had a lot of traumatic things happen in my life, My dad committed suicide today would have been his birthday. I have been abused in every way and I am trying to get my life back. For many years Ive had no libido, no joy in my life.  Ive missed bdays anniversaries weddings etc. All because I felt depressed and didnt want to leave my house. Ive missed so may things, I have this. I have just been weaned of celexa 4omg which I took for years with the Seroquel. My meds now are wellbutron xl 150mg, I started this pill less than two weeks ago, I have increased the dose to 150mg twice a day, I also take Seroquel at night. I have read so many testimonies on these meds and I am concerned. I have been getting severe stomach aches as well as feeling a slightly spaced out. Im wondering if I should stop taking wellbutron and Seroquel and asking my dr to put me back on celexa. Do I have to take meds for life??? How does a dr really know if you have mental illness couldnt it just be due to life experiences and the need to get past them? I feel like I am stupid or labeled and its embarrassing, I just want my life back. I have no joy at all.