question: year after year I started to discover am not like the other guys around me I feel different, but this year every thing was reviled my uncle had a bipolar syndrome and i may have it so i felt totally depressed  and I felt my future is rewind I wanted to kill my self , and when I told my best friend rather than supporting me he make fun of me in front every one and our friendship is destroyed he started avoiding me, and he told his family about me  , so then I felt more in depression and I couldn't sleep well and I cryed at night and then started hearing hard rock (metelica) and songs about death , I dont no what to do my life is a hell.