question: I dont know where to begin. But I think that to describe my problems You need to know the facts that I have been molested by my father in my childhood, I reflected it in my plays, these plays really took the stress off me. I usually took the doll, undressed her and I pretended that someone other than my father, but still somebody adult wanted to see her naked and to touch her, I always did it on myself, I mean I took off my underpants and cried that I didn t want somebody to touch me, but still they told me they have to. In the role of somebody were my teachers, actors, adult people I had known. I felt psychological relief. I still continue it (I am adult so I imagine situation where I am dependent on somebody)but only in my thoughts. Simultaneously when I was about four I started masturbating by crossing my legs, my mom saw it and hated it, she admitted that throughout the childhood she didn t like me at all. It was very compulsive, I even counted it and it could be even 40 per once ( I don t know if they were orgasm, but it was definietely the climax of sth, usually after one time when I imagined myself very dependant on somebody touching me I started feeling angry and sad but my body still had the pleasure and some climaxes throughout the other 39 times). When I was 14 I started to feel pressure on my bladder, an urge to urine, nothing else, no pain or pinching just an urge and I urined in droplets, I still do. It s very annoying but I got used to. But know I see it gets worse after orgasm ( I never get orgasm through touching my clittoris but only through squeezing my legs, but now it s usually 2 to 3 times). My questions are