question: yes i am 19 years old and i think i have adhd. i never took it before but i have did illegal drugs. ive never did good in school was never focused an my tenth grade year i never even picked up a pencil. well i got kicked out that year and .. i have the lowest self esteem that anybody can have i find i am very ugly an dont talk bout my problems. i cant ever keep a girlfriend because my trust issues are terrible. i dont have friends because i dont trust people enough to want a friend.. im talking to a girl as of now an she barely ever texts and i always think i do something wrong are like the other night i asked her if she even cares about me are am i to ugly for you... im sick and tired of living this way.. People has tried talking to me about my problems but never worked.. Im always thinking the most negative bout things like if this girl doesnt talk to me i think she cheating on me.. ive always been that way.. i have this job now and its hard for me to stay focused there to an i realy cant loose this job. and i dont have the money to pay for this untill i get my first check so i would appricieat if you would really help me out