question: Hello doctor, I am a 19-year-old girl. In my first year in school, I feel helpless and depressed because I cannot make friends, more specifically they do not like spending time with me because I am serious most of the time. And my way of thinking is different also I cannot focus on studies. I do give my best to succeed in the exams but still, I m feeling like it is not me, or it is not what I want to do. But I am not sure those are just thoughts that makes me all the time unfocused on what is necessary at the moment , I also suffer from a lack of confidence in myself and cannot say that my situation is the worse but all these 19 years I only learned to hate and hurt myself more than anyone can else do to me. I am scared of taking any wrong decision because I cannot afford it either mentally or financially. Please, can you help me? Going to a psychiatrist in my place is expensive and suspicious. I was a great person until nine years, everything has changed. I struggled alone till 16 which made me talk to some friends and my brother and my secret fiance. Still, I think it is too late because I became a person who is afraid of being happy for more than half a day.